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                  <title type="main">The Mill on the Floss</title>
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               <head>Outside Dorlcote Mill</head>
               <p>A WIDE plain, where the broadening Floss hurries on between its green banks 
to the sea, and the loving tide, rushing to meet it, checks its passage with 
an impetuous embrace. On this mighty tide the black ships — laden with the 
fresh-scented fir-planks, with rounded sacks of oil-bearing seed, or with the 
dark glitter of coal — are borne along to the town of St Ogg's, which shows 
its aged, fluted red roofs and the broad gables of its wharves between the 
low wooded hill and the river brink, tinging the water with a soft purple hue 
under the transient glance of this February sun. Far away on each hand 
stretch the rich pastures and the patches of dark earth, made ready for the 
seed of broad-leaved green crops, or touched already with the tint of the 
tender-bladed autumn-sown corn. There is a remnant still of the last year's 
golden clusters of bee-hive ricks rising at intervals beyond the hedgerows; 
and everywhere the hedge-rows are studded with trees: the distant ships seem 
to be lifting their masts and stretching their red-brown sails close among 
the branches of the spreading ash. Just by the red-roofed town the tributary 
Ripple flows with a lively current into the Floss. How lovely the little 
river is with its dark, changing wavelets! It seems to me like a living 
companion while I wander along the bank and listen to its low placid voice, 
as to the voice of one who is deaf and loving. I remember those large dipping 
willows...  I remember the stone bridge... 


</p>
               <p>And this is Dorlcote Mill. I must stand a minute or two here on the bridge 
and look at it, though the clouds are threatening, and it is far on in the 
afternoon. Even in this leafless time of departing February it is pleasant to 
look at — perhaps the chill damp season adds a charm to the trimly-kept, 
comfortable dwelling-house, as old as the elms and chestnuts that shelter it 
from the northern blast. The stream is brim full now, and lies high in this 
little withy plantation, and half drowns the grassy fringe of the croft in 
front of the house. As I look at the full stream, the vivid grass, the 
delicate bright-green powder softening the outline of the great trunks and 
branches that gleam from under the bare purple boughs, I am in love with 
moistness, and envy the white ducks that are dipping their heads far into the 
water here among the withes — unmindful of the awkward appearance they make 
in the drier world above. 


</p>
               <p>The rush of the water and the booming of the mill bring a dreamy deafness 
which seems to heighten the peacefulness of the scene. They are like a great 
curtain of sound, shutting one out from the world beyond. And now there is 
the thunder of the huge covered waggon coming home with sacks of grain. That 
honest waggoner is thinking of his dinner, getting sadly dry in the oven at 
this late hour; but he will not touch it till he has fed his horses, — the 
strong, submissive, meek-eyed beasts, who, I fancy, are looking mild reproach 
at him from between their blinkers, that he should crack his whip at them in 
that awful manner, as if they needed that hint! See how they stretch their 
shoulders, up the slope towards the bridge, with all the more energy because 
they are so near home. Look at their grand shaggy feet that seem to grasp the 
firm earth, at the patient strength of their necks bowed under the heavy 
collar, at the mighty muscles of their struggling haunches! I should like 
well to hear them neigh over their hardly-earned feed of corn, and see them, 
with their moist necks freed from the harness, dipping their eager nostrils 
into the muddy pond. Now they are on the bridge, and down they go again at a 
swifter pace and the arch of the covered waggon disappears at the turning 
behind the trees. 


</p>
               <p>Now I can turn my eyes towards the mill again and watch the unresting wheel 
sending out its diamond jets of water. That little girl is watching it too: 
she has been standing on just the same spot at the edge of the water ever 
since I paused on the bridge. And that queer white cur with the brown ear 
seems to be leaping and barking in ineffectual remonstrance with the wheel; 
perhaps he is jealous because his playfellow in the beaver bonnet is so rapt 
in its movement. It is time the little playfellow went in, I think; and there 
is a very bright fire to tempt her: the red light shines out under the 
deepening grey of the sky. It is time too for me to leave off resting my arms 
on the cold stone of this bridge... . 


</p>
               <p>Ah, my arms are really benumbed. I have been pressing my elbows on the arms 
of my chair and dreaming that I was standing on the bridge in front of 
Dorlcote Mill as it looked one February afternoon many years ago. Before I 
dozed off, I was going to tell you what Mr and Mrs Tulliver were talking 
about as they sat by the bright fire in the left-hand parlour on that very 
afternoon I have been dreaming of. 

</p>
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               <head>Mr Tulliver of Dorlcote Mill, Declares His Resolution about Tom</head>
               <p>`WHAT I want, you know,' said Mr Tulliver, `what I want, is to give Tom a 
good eddication: an eddication as'll be a bread to him. That was what I was 
thinking on when I gave notice for him to leave th' Academy at Ladyday. I 
mean to put him to a downright good school at Midsummer. The two years at th' 
Academy 'ud ha' done well enough, if I'd meant to make a miller and farmer of 
him, for he's had a fine sight more schoolin' nor <hi>I</hi> ever got: all 
the learnin' <hi>my</hi> father ever paid for was a bit o' birch at one end 
and the alphabet at th' other. But I should like Tom to be a bit of scholard, 
so as he might be up to the tricks o'these fellows as talk fine and write wi' 
a flourish. It 'ud be a help to me wi' these law-suits and arbitrations and 
things. I wouldn't make a downright lawyer o' the lad — I should be sorry for 
him to be a raskill — but a sort o' engineer, or a surveyor, or an auctioneer 
and vallyer, like Riley, or one o'them smartish businesses as are all profits 
and no outlay, only for a big watch-chain and a high stool. They're pretty 
nigh all one, and they're not far off being even wi' the law, <hi>I</hi>
believe; for Riley looks Lawyer Wakem i' the face as hard as one cat looks 
another. <hi>He's</hi> none frighted at him.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver was speaking to his wife, a blond comely woman in a fan-shaped 
cap. (I am afraid to think how long it is since fan-shaped caps were worn — 
they must be so near coming in again. At that time, when Mrs Tulliver was 
nearly forty, they were new at St Ogg's and considered sweet things.) 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Mr Tulliver, you know best: <hi>I've</hi> no objections. But hadn't I 
better kill a couple o' fowl and have th' aunts and uncles to dinner next 
week, so as you may hear what Sister Glegg and Sister Pullet have got to say 
about it? There's a couple o' fowl <hi>wants</hi> killing!' 


</p>
               <p>`You may kill every fowl i' the yard, if you like, Bessy; but I shall ask 
neither aunt nor uncle what I'm to do wi'my own lad,' said Mr Tulliver, 
defiantly. 


</p>
               <p>`Dear heart,' said Mrs Tulliver, shocked at this sanguinary rhetoric, `how 
can you talk so, Mr Tulliver? But it's your way to speak disrespectful o' my 
family, and Sister Glegg throws all the blame upo' me, though I'm sure I'm as 
innocent as the babe unborn. For nobody's ever heard <hi>me</hi> say as it 
wasn't lucky for my children to have aunts and uncles as can live 
independent. Howiver, if Tom's to go to a new school, I should like him to go 
where I can wash him and mend him; else he might as well have calico as 
linen, for they'd be one as yallow as th' other before they'd been washed 
half-a-dozen times. And then, when the box is goin'backards and forrards, I 
could send the lad a cake, or a pork-pie, or an apple; for he can do with an 
extry bit, bless him, whether they stint him at the meals or no. My children 
can eat as much victuals as most, thank God.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well, we won't send him out o' reach o' the carrier's cart, if other 
things fit in,' said Mr Tulliver. `But you mustn't put a spoke i' the wheel 
about the washin', if we can't get a school near enough. That's the fault I 
have to find wi' you, Bessy: if you see a stick i' the road, you're allays 
thinkin' you can't step over it. You'd want me not to hire a good waggoner, 
'cause he'd got a mole on his face.' 


</p>
               <p>`Dear heart!' said Mrs Tulliver, in mild surprise, `when did I iver make 
objections to a man, because he'd got a mole on his face? I'm sure I'm rether 
fond o' the moles, for my brother, as is dead an' gone, had a mole on his 
brow. But I can't remember your iver offering to hire a waggoner with a mole, 
Mr Tulliver. There was John Gibbs hadn't a mole on his face no more nor you 
have, an' I was all for having you hire <hi>him</hi>; an' so you did hire 
him, an' if he hadn't died o' th' inflammation, as we paid Dr Turnbull for 
attending him, he'd very like ha' been driving the waggon now. He might have 
a mole somewhere out o' sight, but how was I to know that, Mr Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, Bessy; I didn't mean justly the mole; I meant it to stand for summat 
else; but niver mind — it's puzzling work, talking is. What I'm thinking on, 
is how to find the right sort o' school to send Tom to, for I might be ta'en 
in again, as I've been wi' the 'Cademy. I'll have nothing to do wi' a 'Cademy 
again: whativer school I send Tom to, it shan't be a 'Cademy. It shall be a 
place where the lads spend their time i' summat else besides blacking the 
family's shoes, and getting up the potatoes. It's an uncommon puzzling thing 
to know what school to pick.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver paused a minute or two, and dived with both hands into his 
breeches' pockets as if he hoped to find some suggestion there. Apparently he 
was not disappointed, for he presently said, `I know what I'll do — I'll talk 
it over wi'Riley: he's coming to-morrow, t' arbitrate about the dam.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Mr Tulliver, I've put the sheets out for the best bed, and Kezia's got 
'em hanging at the fire. They aren't the best sheets, but they're good enough 
for anybody to sleep in, be he who he will; for as for them best Holland 
sheets, I should repent buying 'em, only they'll do to lay us out in. An' if 
you was to die to-morrow, Mr Tulliver, they're mangled beautiful, an' all 
ready, an' smell o' lavender as it 'ud be a pleasure to lay 'em out. An' they 
lie at the left-hand corner o' the big oak linen-chest, at the back: not as I 
should trust anybody to look 'em out but myself.' 


</p>
               <p>As Mrs Tulliver uttered the last sentence she drew a bright bunch of keys 
from her pocket, and single out one, rubbing her thumb and finger up and down 
it with a placid smile, while she looked at the clear fire. If Mr Tulliver 
had been a susceptible man in his conjugal relations, he might have supposed 
that she drew out the key to aid her imagination in anticipating the moment 
when he would be in a state to justify the production of the best Holland 
sheets. Happily he was not so: he was only susceptible in respect of his 
right to water-power; moreover, he had the marital habit of not listening 
very closely, and, since his mention of Mr Riley, had been apparently 
occupied in a tactile examination of his woollen stockings. 


</p>
               <p>`I think I've hit it, Bessy,' was his first remark after a short silence. 
`Riley's as likely a man as any to know o'some school: he's had schooling 
himself, an' goes about to all sorts o' places, arbitratin' and vallyin' and 
that. And we shall have time to talk it over to-morrow night when the 
business is done. I want Tom to be such a sort o' man as Riley, you know — as 
can talk pretty nigh as well as if it was all wrote out for him, and knows a 
good lot o' words as don't mean much, so as you can't lay hold of'em i' law; 
and a good solid knowledge o' business too.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mrs Tulliver, `so far as talking proper and knowing everything, 
and walking with a bend in his back and setting his hair up, I shouldn't mind 
the lad being brought up to that. But them fine-talking men from the big 
towns mostly wear the false shirt-fronts; they wear a frill till it's all a 
mess, and then hide it with a bib; I know Riley does. And then, if Tom's to 
go and live at Mudport, like Riley, he'll have a house with a kitchen hardly 
big enough to turn in, an' niver get a fresh egg for his breakfast, an'sleep 
up three pair o' stairs — or four, for what I know — an'be burnt to death 
before he gets down.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' said Mr Tulliver, `I've no thoughts of his going to Mudport: I mean 
him to set up his office at St Ogg's close by us, an' live at home. But,' 
continued Mr Tulliver after a pause, `what I'm a bit afraid on is, as Tom 
hasn't got the right sort o' brians for a smart fellow. I doubt he's a bit 
slowish. He takes after your family, Bessy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, that he does,' said Mrs Tulliver, accepting the last proposition 
entirely on its own merits, `he's wonderful for liking a deal o' salt in his 
broth. That was my brother's way and my father's before him.' 


</p>
               <p>`It seems a bit of a pity, though,' said Mr Tulliver, `as the lad should take 
after the mother's side istead o' the little wench. That's the worst on't wi' 
the crossing o' breeds: you can never justly calkilate what'll come on't. The 
little un takes after my side, now: she's twice as 'cute as Tom. Too 'cute 
for a woman, I'm afraid,' continued Mr Tulliver, turning his head dubiously 
first on one side and then on the other. `It's no mischief much while she's a 
little un, but an over 'cute woman's no better nor a long-tailed sheep — 
she'll fetch none the bigger price for that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, it <hi>is</hi> a mischief while she's a little un, Mr Tulliver, for it 
all runs to naughtiness. How to keep her in a clean pinafore two hours 
together passes my cunning. An' now you put me i' mind,' continued Mrs 
Tulliver, rising and going to the window, `I don't know where she is now, 
an'it's pretty nigh tea-time. Ah, I thought so — wanderin' up an' down by the 
water, like a wild thing: she'll tumble in same day.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver rapped the window sharply, beckoned, and shook her head, — a 
process which she repeated more than once before she returned to her chair. 


</p>
               <p>`You talk o' 'cuteness, Mr Tulliver,' she observed as she sat down, `but I'm 
sure the child's half a idiot i' some things, for if I send her up-stairs to 
fetch anything she forgets what she's gone for, an' perhaps 'ull sit down on 
the floor i' the sunshine an' plait her hair an' sing to herself like a 
Bedlam creatur', all the while I'm waiting for her down-stairs. That niver 
run i' my family, thank God, no more nor a brown skin as makes her look like 
a mulatter. I don't like to fly i' the face o' Providence, but it seems hard 
as I should have but one gell, an' her so comical.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh, nonsense!' said Mr Tulliver, `she's a straight black-eyed wench as 
anybody need wish to see. I don't know i' what she's behind other folk's 
children; an' she can read almost as well as the parson.' 


</p>
               <p>`But her hair won't curl all I can do with it and she's so franzy about 
having it put i' paper, an' I've such work as never was to make her stand and 
have it pinched with th'irons.' 


</p>
               <p>`Cut it off — cut if off short,' said the father, rashly. 


</p>
               <p>`How can you talk so, Mr Tulliver? She's too big a gell, gone nine, and tall 
of her age — to have her hair cut short; an' there's her cousin Lucy's got a 
row o' curls round her head, an' not a hair out o' place. It seems hard as my 
sister Deane should have that pretty child; I'm sure Lucy takes more after me 
nor my own child does. Maggie, Maggie,' continued the mother, in a tone of 
half-coaxing fretfulness, as this small mistake of nature entered the room, 
`where's the use o' my telling you to keep away from the water? You'll tumble 
in and be drownded some day, an' then you'll be sorry you didn't do as mother 
told you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's hair, as she threw off her bonnet, painfully confirmed her mother's 
accusation: Mrs Tulliver, desiring her daughter to have a curled crop, `like 
other folk's children,' had had it cut too short in front to be pushed behind 
the ears, and as it was usually straight an hour after it had been taken out 
of paper, Maggie was incessantly tossing her head to keep the dark heavy 
locks out of her gleaming black eyes — an action which gave her very much the 
air of a small Shetland pony. 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, O dear, Maggie, what are you thinkin' of, to throw your bonnet down 
there? Take it upstairs, there's a good gell, an' let your hair be brushed, 
an' put your other pinafore on, an' change your shoes — do, for shame; 
an'come an' go on with your patchwork, like a little lady.' 


</p>
               <p>`O mother,' said Maggie, in a vehemently cross tone, `I don't <hi>want</hi>
to do my patchwork.' 


</p>
               <p>`What, not your pretty patchwork, to make a counterpane for your aunt Glegg?' 


</p>
               <p>`It's foolish work,' said Maggie, with a toss of her mane, — `tearing things 
to pieces to sew 'em together again. And I don't want to do anything for my 
aunt Glegg — I don't like her.' 


</p>
               <p>Exit Maggie, dragging her bonnet by the string, while Mr Tulliver laughs 
audibly. 


</p>
               <p>`I wonder at you, as you'll laugh at her, Mr Tulliver,' said the mother, with 
lymphatic fretfulness in her tone. `You encourage her i' naughtiness. An' her 
aunts will have it as it's me spoils her.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was what is called a good-tempered person — never cried when she 
was a baby on any slighter ground than hunger and pins, and from the cradle 
upwards had been healthy, fair plump, and dull-witted, in short, the flower 
of her family for beauty and amiability. But milk and mildness are not the 
best things for keeping, and when they turn only a little sour they may 
disagree with young stomachs seriously. I have often wondered whether those 
early Madonnas of Raphael, with the blond faces and somewhat stupid 
expression, kept their placidity undisturbed when their strong-limbed 
strong-willed boys got a little too old to do without clothing. I think they 
must have been given to feeble remonstrance, getting more and more peevish as 
it became more and more ineffectual. 

</p>
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               <head>Mr Riley Gives His Advice Concerning a School for Tom</head>
               <p>THE gentleman in the ample white cravat and shirt-frill, taking his brandy 
and water so pleasantly with his good friend Tulliver, is Mr Riley: a 
gentleman with a waxen complexion and fat hands, rather highly educated for 
an auctioneer and appraiser, but large-hearted enough to show a great deal of 
<hi>bonhommie</hi> towards simple country acquaintances of hospitable habits. 
Mr Riley spoke of such acquaintances kindly as `people of the old school.' 


</p>
               <p>The conversation had come to a pause. Mr Tulliver, not without a particular 
reason, had abstained from a seventh recital of the cool retort by which 
Riley had shown himself too many for Dix, and how Wakem had had his comb cut 
for once in his life, now the business of the dam had been settled by 
arbitration, and how there never would have been any dispute at all about the 
height of water if everybody was what they should be, and Old Harry hadn't 
made the lawyers. Mr Tulliver was on the whole a man of safe traditional 
opinions; but on one or two points he had trusted to his unassisted intellect 
and had arrived at several questionable conclusions, among the rest, that 
rats, weevils, and lawyers were created by Old Harry. Unhappily he had no one 
to tell him that this was rampant Manichæism, else he might have seen 
his error. But to-day it was clear that the good principle was triumphant: 
this affair of the water-power had been a tangled business somehow, for all 
it seemed — look at it one way — as plain as water's water, but, big a puzzle 
as it was, it hadn't got the better of Riley. Mr Tulliver took his brandy and 
water a little stronger than usual, and, for a man who might be supposed to 
have a few hundreds lying idle at his banker's, was rather incautiously open 
in expressing his high estimate of his friend's business talents. 


</p>
               <p>But the dam was a subject of conversation that would keep: it could always be 
taken up again at the same point and exactly in the same condition; and there 
was another subject, as you know, on which Mr Tulliver was in pressing want 
of Mr Riley's advice. This was his particular reason for remaining silent for 
a short space after his last draught, and rubbing his knees in a meditative 
manner. He was not a man to make an abrupt transition. This was a puzzling 
world, as he often said, and if you drive your waggon in a hurry you may 
light on an awkward corner. Mr Riley, meanwhile, was not impatient. Why 
should he be? Even Hotspur, one would think, must have been patient in his 
slippers on a warm hearth, taking copious snuff, and sipping gratuitous 
brandy and water. 


</p>
               <p>`There's a thing I've got i' my head,' said Mr Tulliver at last, in rather a 
lower tone than usual, as he turned his head and looked steadfastly at his 
companion. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah?' said Mr Riley, in a tone of mild interest. He was a man with heavy 
waxen eyelids and high-arched eyebrows, looking exactly the same under all 
circumstances. This immovability of face and the habit of taking a pinch of 
snuff before he gave an answer, made him trebly oracular to Mr Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`It's a very particlar thing,' he went on, `it's about my boy Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>At the sound of this name, Maggie, who was seated on a low stool close by the 
fire, with a large book open on her lap, shook her heavy hair back and looked 
up eagerly. There were few sounds that roused Maggie when she was dreaming 
over her book, but Tom's name served as well as the shrillest whistle: in an 
instant she was on the watch, with gleaming eyes, like a Skye terrier 
suspecting mischief, or at all events determined to fly at any one who 
threatened it towards Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`You see, I want to put him to a new school at Midsummer,' said Mr Tulliver, 
`he's comin' away from the 'Cademy at Ladyday, an' I shall let him run loose 
for a quarter; but after that I want to send him to a downright good school, 
where they'll make a scholard of him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Riley, `there's no greater advantage you can give him than a 
good education. Not,' he added, with polite significance, `not that a man 
can't be an excellent miller and farmer and a shrewd sensible fellow into the 
bargain without much help from the schoolmaster.' 


</p>
               <p>`I believe you,' said Mr Tulliver, winking and turning his head on one side, 
`but that's where it is. I don't <hi>mean</hi> Tom to be a miller and farmer. 
I see no fun i' that: why, if I made him a miller an' farmer, he'd be 
expectin' to take to the mill an' the land, an' a-hinting at me as it was 
time for me to lay by an' think o' my latter end. Nay, nay, I've seen enough 
o' that wi' sons. I'll niver pull my coat off before I go to bed. I shall 
give Tom an eddication an' put him to a business, as he may make a nest for 
himself an' not want to push me out o' mine. Pretty well if he gets it when 
I'm dead an' gone. I shan't be put off wi' spoon-meat afore I've lost my 
teeth.' 


</p>
               <p>This was evidently a point on which Mr Tulliver felt strongly, and the 
impetus which had given unusual rapidity and emphasis to his speech showed 
itself still unexhausted for some minutes afterwards in a defiant motion of 
the head from side to side, and an occasional `Nay, nay,' like a subsiding 
growl. 


</p>
               <p>These angry symptoms were keenly observed by Maggie, and cut her to the 
quick: Tom, it appeared, was supposed capable of turning his father out of 
doors, and of making the future in some way tragic by his wickedness. This 
was not to be borne, and Maggie jumped up from her stool, forgetting all 
about her heavy book, which fell with a bang within the fender; and going up 
between her father's knees, said, in a half crying, half indignant voice, 


</p>
               <p>`Father, Tom wouldn't be naughty to you ever, I know he wouldn't.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was out of the room superintending a choice supper-dish, and Mr 
Tulliver's heart was touched, so Maggie was not scolded about the book. Mr 
Riley quietly picked it up and looked at it while the father laughed with a 
certain tenderness in his hard lined face, and patted his little girl on the 
back, and then held her hands and kept her between his knees. 


</p>
               <p>`What, they mustn't say no harm o' Tom, eh?' said Mr Tulliver, looking at 
Maggie with a twinkling eye. Then, in a lower voice, turning to Mr Riley, as 
though Maggie couldn't hear, `She understands what one's talking about so as 
never was. And you should hear her read — straight off, as if she knowed it 
all beforehand. An' allays at her book!But it's bad — it's bad,' Mr Tulliver 
added, sadly, checking this blamable exultation, `a woman's no business wi' 
being so clever; it'll turn to trouble, I doubt. But, bless you!' — here the 
exultation was clearly recovering the mastery — `she'll read the books and 
understand 'em, better nor half the folks as are growed up.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's cheeks began to flush with triumphant excitement: she thought Mr 
Riley would have a respect for her now; it had been evident that he thought 
nothing of her before. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Riley was turning over the leaves of the book and she could make nothing 
of his face with its high-arched eye-brows; but he presently looked at her 
and said, 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come and tell me something about this book; here are some pictures — I 
want to know what they mean.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie with deepening colour went without hesitation to Mr Riley's elbow and 
looked over the book, eagerly seizing one corner and tossing back her mane, 
while she said, 


</p>
               <p>`O, I'll tell you what that means. It's a dreadful picture, isn't it? But I 
can't help looking at it. That old woman in the water's a witch — they've put 
her in, to find out whether she's a witch or no, and if she swims she's a 
witch, and if she's drowned — and killed, you know, — she's innocent, and not 
a witch, but only a poor silly old woman. But what good would it do her then, 
you know, when she was drowned? Only, I suppose she'd go the heaven, and God 
would make it up to her. And this dreadful blacksmith with his arms akimbo, 
laughing — oh, isn't he ugly? — I'll tell you what he is. He's the devil 
<hi>really</hi>' (here Maggie's voice became louder and more emphatic) `and 
not a right blacksmith; for the devil takes the shape of wicked men, and 
walks about and sets people doing wicked things, and he's oftener in the 
shape of a bad man than any other, because, you know, if people saw he was 
the devil, and he roared at 'em, they'd run away, and he couldn't make 'em do 
what he pleased.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver had listened to this exposition of Maggie's with petrifying 
wonder. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what book is it the wench has got hold on?' he burst out, at last. 


</p>
               <p>`“The History of the Devil,” by Daniel Defoe; not quite the right 
book for a little girl,' said Mr Riley. `How came it among your books, 
Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie looked hurt and discouraged, while her father said, 


</p>
               <p>`Why, it's one o' the books I bought at Partridge's sale. They was all bound 
alike — it's a good binding, you see — an' I thought they'd be all good 
books. There's Jeremy Taylor's “Holy Living and Dying” among 'em; I 
read in it often of a Sunday' (Mr Tulliver felt somehow a familiarity with 
that great writer because his name was Jeremy), `and there's a lot more of 
'em, sermons mostly, I think; but they've all got the same covers, and I 
thought they were all o' one sample, as you may say. But it seems one mustn't 
judge by th' outside. This is a puzzlin' world.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Riley, in an admonitory patronising tone, as he patted Maggie 
on the head, `I advise you to put by the `History of the Devil,' and read 
some prettier book. Have you no prettier books?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes,' said Maggie, reviving a little in the desire to vindicate the 
variety of her reading, `I know the reading in this book isn't pretty — but I 
like the pictures, and I make stories to the pictures out of my own head, you 
know. But I've got “Æsop's Fables” and a book about kangaroos 
and things, and the “Pilgrim's Progress... ”' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, a beautiful book,' said Mr Riley. `You can't read a better.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but there's a great deal about the devil in that,' said Maggie, 
triumphantly, `and I'll show you the picture of him in his true shape, as he 
fought with Christian.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie ran in an instant to the corner of the room, jumped on a chair, and 
reached down from the small book-case a shabby old copy of Bunyan, which 
opened at once, without the least trouble of search, at the picture she 
wanted. 


</p>
               <p>`Here he is,' she said, running back to Mr Riley, `And Tom coloured him for 
me with his paints when he was at home last holidays — the body all black, 
you know, and the eyes red, like fire, because he's all fire inside, and it 
shines out at his eyes.' 


</p>
               <p>`Go, go!' said Mr Tulliver peremptorily; beginning to feel rather 
uncomfortable at these free remarks on the personal appearance of a being 
powerful enough to create lawyers; `Shut up the book, and let's hear no more 
o' such talk. It is as I thought — the child 'ull learn more mischief nor 
good wi' the books. Go — go and see after your mother.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie shut up the book at once, with a sense of disgrace, but not being 
inclined to see after her mother, she compromised the matter by going into a 
dark corner behind her father's chair and nursing her doll, towards which she 
had an occasional fit of fondness in Tom's absence, neglecting its toilette, 
but lavishing so many warm kisses on it that the waxen cheeks had a wasted 
unhealthy appearance. 


</p>
               <p>`Did you ever hear the like on't?' said Mr Tulliver, as Maggie retired. `It's 
a pity but what she'd been the lad — she'd ha' been a match for the lawyers, 
<hi>she</hi> would. It's the wonderful'st thing' — here he lowered his voice 
— `as I picked the mother because she wasn't o'er 'cute — bein' a 
good-looking woman too, an' come of a rare family for managing — but I picked 
her from her sisters o' purpose 'cause she was a bit weak, like; for I wasn't 
a-goin' to be told the rights o' things by my own fireside. But, you see, 
when a man's got brains himself, there's no knowing where they'll run to; an' 
a pleasant sort o' soft woman may go on breeding you stupid lads and 'cute 
wenches, till it's like as if the world was turned topsy-turvy. It's an 
uncommon puzzlin' thing.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Riley's gravity gave way, and he shook a little under the application of 
his pinch of snuff, before he said, 


</p>
               <p>`But your lad's not stupid, is he? I saw him, when I was here last, busy 
making fishing-tackle; he seemed quite up to it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, he isn't not to say stupid — he's got a notion o'things out o' door, 
an' a sort o' commonsense, as he'd lay hold o' things by the right handle. 
But he's slow with his tongue, you see, and he reads but poorly, and can't 
abide the books, and spells all wrong, they tell me, an' as shy as can be wi' 
strangers, an' you never hear him say 'cute things like the little wench. 
Now, what I want is, to send him to a school where they'll make him a bit 
nimble with his tongue and his pen, and make a smart chap of him. I want my 
son to be even wi' these fellows as have got the start o' me with having 
better schooling. Not but what, if the world had been left as God made it, I 
could ha' seen my way and held my own wi' the best of'em; but things have got 
so twisted round and wrapped up i' unreasonable words, as arn't a bit like 
'em, as I'm clean at fault, often an' often. Everything winds about so — the 
more straightforrard you are, the more you're puzzled.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver took a draught, swallowed it slowly, and shook his head in a 
melancholy manner, conscious of exemplifying the truth that a perfectly sane 
intellect is hardly at home in this insane world. 


</p>
               <p>`You're quite in the right of it, Tulliver,' observed Mr Riley. `Better Spend 
an extra hundred or two on your son's education than leave it him in your 
will. I know I should have tried to do so by a son of mine, if I'd had one, 
though, God knows, I haven't your ready money to play with, Tulliver; and I 
have a houseful of daughters into the bargain.' 


</p>
               <p>`I daresay, now, you know of a school as 'ud be just the thing for Tom,' Said 
Mr Tulliver, not diverted from his purpose by any sympathy with Mr Riley's 
deficiency of ready cash. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Riley took a pinch of snuff and kept Mr Tulliver in suspense by a silence 
that seemed deliberative, before he said, 


</p>
               <p>`I know of a very fine chance for any one that's got the necessary money, and 
that's what you have, Tulliver. The fact is, I wouldn't recommend any friend 
of mine to send a boy to a regular school, if he could afford to do better. 
But if any one wanted his boy to get superior instruction and training, where 
he would be the companion of his master, and that master a first-rate fellow 
— I know his man. I wouldn't mention the chance to everybody, because I don't 
think everybody would succeed in getting it, if he were to try: but I mention 
it to you, Tulliver — between ourselves.' 


</p>
               <p>The fixed inquiring glance with which Mr Tulliver had been watching his 
friend's oracular face became quite eager. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, now, let's hear,' he said, adjusting himself in his chair with the 
complacency of a person who is thought worthy of important communications. 


</p>
               <p>`He's an Oxford man,' said Mr Riley, sententiously, shutting his mouth close 
and looking at Mr Tulliver to observe the effect of this stimulating 
information. 


</p>
               <p>`What! a parson?' said Mr Tulliver, rather doubtfully. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes — and an M.A. The bishop, I understand, thinks very highly of him: why, 
it was the bishop who got him his present curacy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah?' said Mr Tulliver, to whom one thing was as wonderful as another 
concerning these unfamiliar phenomena. `But what can he want wi' Tom, then?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, the fact is, he's fond of teaching, and wishes to keep up his studies, 
and a clergyman has but little opportunity for that in his parochial duties. 
He's willing to take one or two boys as pupils to fill up his time 
profitably. The boys would be quite of the family — the finest thing in the 
world for them — under Stelling's eye continually.' 


</p>
               <p>`But do you think they'd give the poor lad twice o' pudding?' said Mrs 
Tulliver, who was now in her place again. `He's such a boy for pudding as 
never was; an' a growing boy like that — it's dreadful to think o' their 
stintin' him.' 


</p>
               <p>`And what money 'ud he want?' said Mr Tulliver, whose instinct told him that 
the services of this admirable M.A. would bear a high price. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, I know of a clergyman who asks a hundred and fifty with his youngest 
pupils, and he's not to be mentioned with Stelling, the man I speak of. I 
know on good authority that one of the chief people at Oxford said, `Stelling 
might get the highest honours if he chose.' But he didn't care about 
university honours. He's a quiet man — not showy, not noisy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, a deal better, a deal better,' said Mr Tulliver. `But a hundred and 
fifty's an uncommon price. I never thought o' payin' so much as that.' 


</p>
               <p>`A good education, let me tell you, Tulliver — a good education is cheap at 
the money. But Stelling is moderate in his terms — he's not a grasping man. 
I've no doubt he'd take your boy at a hundred, and that's what you wouldn't 
get many other clergymen to do. I'll write to him about it, if you like.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver rubbed his knees and looked at the carpet in a meditative manner. 


</p>
               <p>`But belike he's a bachelor,' observed Mrs Tulliver in the interval, `an' 
I've no opinion o' housekeepers. There was my brother as is dead an' gone had 
a housekeeper once, an'she took half the feathers out o' the best bed an' 
packed em'up an' sent 'em away. An' it's unknown the linen she made away with 
— Stott her name was. It 'ud break my heart to send Tom where there's a 
housekeeper, an' I hope you won't think of it, Mr Tulliver.' 


</p>
               <p>`You may set your mind at rest on that score, Mrs Tulliver,' said Mr Riley, 
`for Stelling is married to as nice a little woman as any man need wish for a 
wife. There isn't a kinder little soul in the world; I know her family well. 
She has very much your complexion — light curly hair. She comes of a good 
Mudport family, and it's not every offer that would have been acceptable in 
that quarter. But Stelling's not an everyday man. Rather a particular fellow 
as to the people he chooses to be connected with. But I <hi>think</hi> he 
would have no objection to take your son — I <hi>think</hi> he would not, on 
my representation.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know what he could have <hi>again</hi>' the lad,' said Mrs Tulliver, 
with a slight touch of motherly indignation, `a nice fresh-skinned lad as 
anybody need wish to see.' 


</p>
               <p>`But there's one thing I'm thinking on,' said Mr Tulliver, turning his head 
on one side and looking at Mr Riley, after a long perusal of the carpet. 
`Wouldn't a parson be a'most too high-learnt to bring up a lad to be a man o' 
business? My notion o' the parsons was as they'd got a sort o' learning as 
lay mostly out o' sight. And that isn't what I want for Tom. I want him to 
know figures, and write like print, and see into things quick, and know what 
folks mean, and how to wrap things up in words as aren't actionable. It's an 
uncommon fine thing, that is,' concluded Mr Tulliver, shaking his head, `when 
you can let a man know what you think of him without paying for it.' 


</p>
               <p>`O my dear Tulliver,' said Mr Riley, `you're quite under a mistake about the 
clergy: all the best schoolmasters are of the clergy. The schoolmasters who 
are not clergymen, are a very low set of men generally'... 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, that Jacobs is, at the 'Cademy,' interposed Mr Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`To be sure — men who have failed in other trades, most likely. Now a 
clergyman is a gentleman by profession and education: and besides that, he 
has the knowledge that will ground a boy, and prepare him for entering on any 
career with credit. There may be some clergymen who are mere bookmen; but you 
may depend upon it, Stelling is not one of them — a man that's wide awake, 
let me tell you. Drop him a hint and that's enough. You talk of figures, now: 
you have only to say to Stelling, `I want my son to be a thorough 
arithmetician,' and you may leave the rest to him.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Riley paused a moment, while Mr Tulliver, somewhat reassured as to 
clerical tutorship, was inwardly rehearsing to an imaginary Mr Stelling the 
statement, `I want my son to know 'rethmetic.' 


</p>
               <p>`You see, my dear Tulliver,' Mr Riley continued, `when you get a thoroughly 
educated man, like Stelling, he's at no loss to take up any branch of 
instruction. When a workman knows the use of his tools, he can make a door as 
well as a window.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, that's true,' said Mr Tulliver, almost convinced now that the clergy 
must be the best of schoolmasters. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I'll tell you what I'll do for you,' said Mr Riley, `and I wouldn't do 
it for everybody. I'll see Stelling's father-in-law or drop him a line when I 
get back to Mudport to say that you wish to place your boy with his 
son-in-law, and I daresay Stelling will write to you, and send you his 
terms.' 


</p>
               <p>`But there's no hurry, is there?' said Mrs Tulliver, `for I hope, Mr 
Tulliver, you won't let Tom begin at his new school before Midsummer. He 
began at the 'Cademy at the Ladyday quarter, and you see what good's come of 
it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, Bessy, never brew wi' bad malt upo' Michaelmas day, else you'll have 
a poor tap,' said Mr Tulliver, winking and smiling at Mr Riley with the 
natural pride of a man who has a buxom wife conspicuously his inferior in 
intellect. `But it's true there's no hurry — you've hit it there, Bessy.' 


</p>
               <p>`It might be as well not to defer the arrangement too long,' said Mr Riley, 
quietly, `for Stelling may have propositions from other parties, and I know 
he would not take more than two or three boarders, if so many. If I were you, 
I think I would enter on the subject with Stelling at once: there's no 
necessity for sending the boy before Midsummer, but I would be on the safe 
side, and make sure that nobody forestalls you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, there's summat i' that,' said Mr Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`Father,' broke in Maggie, who had stolen unperceived to her father's elbow 
again, listening with parted lips, while she held her doll topsy-turvy and 
crushed its nose against the wood of the chair, `Father, is it a long way off 
where Tom is to go? Shan't we ever go to see him?' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know, my wench,' said the father, tenderly. `Ask Mr Riley, he 
knows.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie came round promptly in front of Mr Riley, and said, `How far is it, 
please Sir?' 


</p>
               <p>`O a long way off,' that gentleman answered, being of opinion that children 
when they are not naughty, should always be spoken to jocosely. `You must 
borrow the seven-leagued boots to get to him.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's nonsense!' said Maggie, tossing her head haughtily and turning away 
with the tears springing in her eyes. She began to dislike Mr Riley: it was 
evident he thought her silly and of no consequence. 


</p>
               <p>`Hush, Maggie, for shame of you, asking questions and chattering,' said her 
mother. `Come and sit down on your little stool and hold your tongue, do. 
But,' added Mrs Tulliver, who had her own alarm awakened, `is it so far off 
as I couldn't wash him and mend him?' 


</p>
               <p>`About fifteen miles — that's all,' said Mr Riley. `You can drive there and 
back in a day quite comfortably. Or, Stelling is a hospitable, pleasant man; 
he'd be glad to have you stay.' 


</p>
               <p>`But it's too far off for the linen, I doubt,' said Mrs Tulliver, sadly. 


</p>
               <p>The entrance of supper opportunely adjourned this difficulty, and relieved Mr 
Riley from the labour of suggesting some solution or compromise — a labour 
which he would otherwise doubtless have undertaken, for, as you perceive, he 
was a man of very obliging manners. And he had really given himself the 
trouble of recommending Mr Stelling to his friend Tulliver without any 
positive expectation of a solid, definite advantage resulting to himself, 
notwithstanding the subtle indications to the contrary which might have 
misled a too sagacious observer. For there is nothing more widely misleading 
than sagacity if it happens to get on a wrong scent, and sagacity persuaded 
that men usually act and speak from distinct motives, with a consciously 
proposed end in view, is certain to waste its energies on imaginary game. 
Plotting covetousness and deliberate contrivance in order to compass a 
selfish end, are nowhere abundant but in the world of the dramatist: they 
demand too intense a mental action for many of our fellow-parishioners to be 
guilty of them. It is easy enough to spoil the lives of our neighbours 
without taking so much trouble: we can do it by lazy acquiescence and lazy 
omission, by trivial falsities for which we hardly know a reason, by small 
frauds neutralised by small extravagances, by maladroit flatteries and 
clumsily improvised insinuations. We live from hand to mouth, most of us, 
with a small family of immediate desires — we do little else than snatch a 
morsel to satisfy the hungry brood, rarely thinking of seed-corn or the next 
year's crop. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Riley was a man of business and not cold towards his own interest, yet 
even he was more under the influence of small promptings than of far-sighted 
designs. He had no private understanding with the Rev. Walter Stelling; on 
the contrary he knew very little of that M.A. and his acquirements — not 
quite enough perhaps to warrant so strong a recommendation of him as he had 
given to his friend Tulliver. But he believed Mr Stelling to be an excellent 
classic, for Gadsby had said so, and Gadsby's first cousin was an Oxford 
tutor: which was better ground for the belief even than his own immediate 
observation would have been, for though Mr Riley had received a tincture of 
the classics at the great Mudport Free School and had a sense of 
understanding Latin generally, his comprehension of any particular Latin was 
not ready. Doubtless there remained a subtle aroma from his juvenile contact 
with the <hi>De Senectute</hi> and the Fourth Book of the <hi>Aeneid</hi>, 
but it had ceased to be distinctly recognisable as classical, and was only 
perceived in the higher finish and force of his auctioneering style. Then, 
Stelling was an Oxford man, and the Oxford men were always — no, no, it was 
the Cambridge men who were always good mathematicians. But a man who had had 
a university education could teach anything he liked; especially a man like 
Stelling, who had made a speech at a Mudport dinner on a political occasion 
and had acquitted himself so well that it was generally remarked, this 
son-in-law of Timpson's was a sharp fellow. It was to be expected of a 
Mudport man from the parish of St Ursula that he would not omit to do a good 
turn to a son-in-law of Timpson's, for Timpson was one of the most useful and 
influential men in the parish, and had a good deal of business which he knew 
how to put into the right hands. Mr Riley liked such men, quite apart from 
any money which might be diverted through their good judgment, from less 
worthy pockets into his own; and it would be a satisfaction to him to say to 
Timpson on his return home, `I've secured a good pupil for your son-in-law.' 
Timpson had a large family of daughters: Mr Riley felt for him: besides, 
Louisa Timpson's face with its light curls had been a familiar object to him 
over the pew wainscot on a Sunday for nearly fifteen years: it was natural 
her husband should be a commendable tutor. Moreover, Mr Riley knew of no 
other schoolmaster whom he had any ground for recommending in preference: why 
then should he not recommend Stelling? His friend Tulliver had asked him for 
an opinion: it is always chilling in friendly intercourse to say you have no 
opinion to give. And if you deliver an opinion at all, it is mere stupidity 
not to do it with an air of conviction and well-founded knowledge. You make 
it your own in uttering it, and naturally get fond of it. Thus, Mr Riley, 
knowing no harm of Stelling to begin with, and wishing him well so far as he 
had any wishes at all concerning him, had no sooner recommended him than he 
began to think with admiration of a man recommended on such high authority, 
and would soon have gathered so warm an interest on the subject, that if Mr 
Tulliver had in the end declined to send Tom to Stelling, Mr Riley would have 
thought his friend of the old school a thoroughly pig-headed fellow. 


</p>
               <p>If you blame Mr Riley very severely for giving a recommendation on such 
slight grounds, I must say you are rather hard upon him. Why should an 
auctioneer and appraister thirty years ago, who had as good as forgotten his 
free-school Latin, be expected to manifest a delicate scrupulosity which is 
not always exhibited by gentlemen of the learned professions even in our 
present advanced stage of morality? 


</p>
               <p>Besides, a man with the milk of human kindness in him can scarcely abstain 
from doing a good-natured action, and one can't be good-natured all round. 
Nature herself occasionally quarters an inconvenient parasite on an animal 
towards whom she has otherwise no ill-will. What then? We admire her care for 
the parasite. If Mr Riley had shrunk from giving a recommendation that was 
not based on valid evidence, he would not have helped Mr Stelling to a paying 
pupil, and that would not have been so well for the reverend gentleman. 
Consider, too, that all the pleasant little dim ideas and complacencies — of 
standing well with Timpson, of dispensing advice when he was asked for it, of 
impressing his friend Tulliver with additional respect, of saying something 
and saying it emphatically, with other inappreciably minute ingredients that 
went along with the warm hearth and the brandy and water to make up Mr 
Riley's consciousness on this occasion, would have been a mere blank. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.4" type="chapter">
               <head>Tom Is Expected</head>
               <p>IT was a heavy disappointment to Maggie that she was not allowed to go with 
her father in the gig when he went to fetch Tom home from the Academy; but 
the morning was too wet, Mrs Tulliver said, for a little girl to go out in 
her best bonnet. Maggie took the opposite view very strongly, and it was a 
direct consequence of this difference of opinion, that when her mother was in 
the act of brushing out the reluctant black crop, Maggie suddenly rushed from 
under her hands and dipped her head in a basin of water standing near, — in 
the vindictive determination that there should be no more chance of curls 
that day. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, Maggie,' exclaimed Mrs Tulliver, sitting stout and helpless with the 
brushes on her lap, `what is to become of you, if you're so naughty? I'll 
tell your aunt Glegg and your aunt Pullet when they come next week, and 
they'll never love you any more. O dear, O dear, look at your clean pinafore, 
wet from top to bottom. Folks 'ull think it's a judgment on me as I've got 
such a child — they'll think I've done summat wicked.' 


</p>
               <p>Before this remonstrance was finished Maggie was already out of hearing, 
making her way towards the great attic that ran under the old high-pitched 
roof, shaking the water from her black locks as she ran, like a Skye terrier 
escaped from his bath. This attic was Maggie's favourite retreat on a wet 
day, when the weather was not too cold: here she fretted out all her 
ill-humours, and talked aloud to the worm-eaten floors and the worm-eaten 
shelves and the dark rafters festooned with cobwebs, and here she kept a 
Fetish which she punished for all her misfortunes. This was the trunk of a 
large wooden doll, which once stared with the roundest of eyes above the 
reddest of cheeks, but was now entirely defaced by a long career of vicarious 
suffering. Three nails driven into the head commemorated as many crises in 
Maggie's nine years of earthly struggle; that luxury of vengeance having been 
suggested to her by the picture of Jael destroying Sisera in the old Bible. 
The last nail had been driven in with a fiercer stroke than usual, for the 
Fetish on that occasion represented aunt Glegg. But immediately afterwards 
Maggie had reflected that if she drove many nails in, she would not be so 
well able to fancy that the head was hurt when she knocked it against the 
wall, nor to comfort it, and make believe to poultice it when her fury was 
abated; for even aunt Glegg would be pitiable when she had been hurt very 
much, and thoroughly humiliated, so as to beg her niece's pardon. Since then, 
she had driven no more nails in, but had soothed herself by alternately 
grinding and beating the wooden head against the rough brick of the great 
chimneys that made two square pillars supporting the roof. That was what she 
did this morning on reaching the attic, sobbing all the while with a passion 
that expelled every other form of consciousness — even the memory of the 
grievance that had caused it. As at last the sobs were getting quieter and 
the grinding less fierce, a sudden beam of sunshine, falling through the wire 
lattice across the worm-eaten shelves, made her throw away the Fetish and run 
to the window. The sun was really breaking out, the sound of the mill seemed 
cheerful again, the granary doors were open, and there was Yap, the queer 
white and brown terrier with one ear turned back, trotting about and sniffing 
vaguely as if he were in search of a companion. It was irresistible: Maggie 
tossed her hair back and ran downstairs, seized her bonnet without putting it 
on, peeped and then dashed along the passage lest she should encounter her 
mother, and was quickly out in the yard, whirling round like a Pythoness and 
singing as she whirled, `Yap, Yap, Tom's coming home', while Yap pranced and 
barked round her, as much as to say, if there was any noise wanted, he was 
the dog for it. 


</p>
               <p>`Hegh, hegh, Miss, you'll make yourself giddy an' tumble down i' the dirt,' 
said Luke, the head miller, a tall broad-shouldered man of forty, black-eyed 
and black-haired, subdued by a general mealiness, like an auricula. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie paused in her whirling and said, staggering a little, `O no, it 
doesn't make me giddy. Luke, may I go into the mill with you?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie loved to linger in the great spaces of the mill, and often came out 
with her black hair powdered to a soft whiteness that made her dark eyes 
flash out with new fire. The resolute din, the unresting motion of the great 
stones giving her a dim delicious awe as at the presence of an uncontrollable 
force, the meal for ever pouring, pouring, the fine white powder softening 
all surfaces and making the very spider-nets look like faery lace-work, the 
sweet pure scent of the meal — all helped to make Maggie feel that the mill 
was a little world apart from her outside everyday life. The spiders were 
especially a subject of speculation with her: she wondered if they had any 
relations outside the mill, for in that case there must be a painful 
difficulty in their family intercourse: a fat and floury spider, accustomed 
to take his fly well dusted with meal, must suffer a little at a cousin's 
table where the fly was <hi>au naturel</hi>, and the lady spiders must be 
mutually shocked at each other's appearance. But the part of the mill she 
liked best was the topmost story — the corn-hutch where there were the great 
heaps of grain which she could sit on and slide down continually. She was in 
the habit of taking this recreation as she conversed with Luke, to whom she 
was very communicative, wishing him to think well of her understanding, as 
her father did. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps she felt it necessary to recover her position with him on the present 
occasion, for, as she sat sliding on the heap of grain near which he was 
busying himself, she said, at that shrill pitch which was requisite in 
mill-society, 


</p>
               <p>`I think you never read any book but the Bible, did you, Luke?' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, Miss — an' not much o' that,' said Luke, with great frankness. `I'm no 
reader, I arn't.' 


</p>
               <p>`But if I lent you one of my books, Luke? I've not got any <hi>very</hi>
pretty books that would be easy for you to read; but there's “Pug's Tour 
of Europe” — that would tell you all about the different sorts of people 
in the world, and if you didn't understand the reading, the pictures would 
help you — they show the looks and ways of the people and what they do. There 
are the Dutchmen, very fat, and smoking, you know — and one sitting on a 
barrel.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, Miss, I'n no opinion o' Dutchmen. There ben't much good i' knowin' 
about <hi>them</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>`But they're our fellow-creatures, Luke — we ought to know about our 
fellow-creatures.' 


</p>
               <p>`Not much o' fellow-creaturs, I think, Miss: all I know — my old master, as 
war a knowin' man, used to say, says he, `If e'er I sow my wheat wi'out 
brinin', I'm a Dutchman,' says he; an' that war as much as to say as a 
Dutchman war a fool, or next door. Nay, nay, I arn't goin' to bother mysen 
about Dutchmen. There's fools enoo — an' rogues enoo — wi'out lookin' i' 
books for 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`O well,' said Maggie, rather foiled by Luke's unexpectedly decided views 
about Dutchmen, `perhaps you would like “Animated Nature” better — 
that's not Dutchmen, you know, but elephants, and kangaroos, and the civet 
cat, and the sun-fish, and a bird sitting on its tail — I forget its name. 
There are countries full of those creatures, instead of horses and cows, you 
know. Shouldn't you like to know about them, Luke?' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, Miss, I'n got to keep 'count o' the flour an' corn — I can't do wi' 
knowin' so many things besides my work. That's what brings folk to the 
gallows — knowin' everything but what they'n got to get their bread by. An' 
they're mostly lies, I think, what's printed i' the books: them printed 
sheets are, anyhow, as the men cry i' the streets.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why you're like my brother Tom, Luke,' said Maggie, wishing to turn the 
conversation agreeably, `Tom's not fond of reading. I love Tom so dearly, 
Luke — better than any-body else in the world. When he grows up, I shall keep 
his house, and we shall always live together. I can tell him everything he 
doesn't know. But I think Tom's clever, for all he doesn't like books: he 
makes beautiful whip-cord and rabbit-pens.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' said Luke, `but he'll be fine an' vexed as the rabbits are all dead.' 


</p>
               <p>`Dead!' screamed Maggie, jumping up from her sliding seat on the corn. `O, 
dear Luke! What, the lop-eared one, and the spotted doe, that Tom spent all 
his money to buy?' 


</p>
               <p>`As dead as moles,' said Luke, fetching his comparison from the unmistakable 
corpses nailed to the stable wall. 


</p>
               <p>`O dear Luke,' said Maggie, in a piteous tone, while the big tears rolled 
down her cheek, `Tom told me to take care of'em, and I forgot. What 
<hi>shall</hi> I do?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you see, Miss, they war in that far toolhouse, an'it was nobody's 
business to see to 'em. I reckon Master Tom told Harry to feed 'em, but 
there's no countin' on Harry — <hi>he's</hi> a offal creatur as iver come 
about the primises, he is. He remembers nothin' but his own inside — an' I 
wish it 'ud gripe him.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Luke, Tom told me to be sure and remember the rabbits every day — but how 
could I, when they did not come into my head, you know? O, he will be so 
angry with me, I know he will, and so sorry about his rabbits — and so am I 
sorry. O what <hi>shall</hi> I do?' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you fret, Miss,' said Luke, soothingly, `they're nash things, them 
lop-eared rabbits — they'd happen ha'died, if they'd been fed. Things out o' 
natur niver thrive. God A'mighty doesn't like 'em. He made the rabbits' ears 
to lie back, an' it's nothin' but contrairiness to make 'em hing down like a 
mastiff dog's. Master Tom 'ull know better nor buy such things another time. 
Don't you fret, Miss. Will you come along home wi' me, and see my wife? I'm 
agoin' this minute.' 


</p>
               <p>The invitation offered an agreeable distraction to Maggie's grief, and her 
tears gradually subsided as she trotted along by Luke's side to his pleasant 
cottage, which stood with its apple and pear trees, and with the added 
dignity of a lean-to pig-sty, close by the brink of the Ripple. Mrs Moggs, 
Luke's wife, was a decidedly agreeable acquaintance: she exhibited her 
hospitality in bread and treacle and possessed various works of art. Maggie 
actually forgot that she had any special cause of sadness this morning, as 
she stood on a chair to look at a remarkable series of pictures representing 
the Prodigal Son in the costume of Sir Charles Grandison, except that, as 
might have been expected from his defective moral character, he had not, like 
that accomplished hero, the taste and strength of mind to dispense with a 
wig. But the indefinable weight the dead rabbits had left on her mind caused 
her to feel more than usual pity for the career of this weak young man, 
particularly when she looked at the picture where he leaned against a tree 
with a flaccid appearance, his knee-breeches unbuttoned and his wig awry, 
while the swine, apparently of some foreign breed, seemed to insult him by 
their good spirits over their feast of husks. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm very glad his father took him back again aren't you, Luke?' she said. 
`For he was very sorry, you know, and wouldn't do wrong again.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, Miss,' said Luke, `he'd be no great shakes, I doubt, let's feyther do 
what he would for him.' 


</p>
               <p>That was a painful thought to Maggie, and she wished much that the subsequent 
history of the young man had not been left a blank. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.5" type="chapter">
               <head>Tom Comes Home</head>
               <p>TOM was to arrive early in the afternoon, and there was another fluttering 
heart besides Maggie's when it was late enough for the sound of the gig 
wheels to be expected; for if Mrs Tulliver had a strong feeling, it was 
fondness for her boy. At last the sound came — that quick light bowling of 
the gig wheels — and in spite of the wind which was blowing the clouds about, 
and was not likely to respect Mrs Tulliver's curls and cap-strings, she came 
outside the door, and even held her hand on Maggie's offending head, 
forgetting all the griefs of the morning. 


</p>
               <p>`There he is, my sweet lad! But, Lord ha' mercy, he's got never a collar on; 
it's been lost on the road, I'll be bound, and spoilt the set.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver stood with her arms open; Maggie jumped first on one leg and 
then on the other; while Tom descended from the gig and said, with masculine 
reticence as to the tender emotions, `Hallo! Yap, what, are you there?' 


</p>
               <p>Nevertheless, he submitted to be kissed willingly enough, though Maggie hung 
on his neck in rather a strangling fashion, while his blue-grey eyes wandered 
towards the croft and the lambs and the river where he promised himself that 
he would begin to fish the first thing to-morrow morning. He was one of those 
lads that grow everywhere in England, and, at twelve or thirteen years of 
age, look as much alike as goslings: — a lad with light brown hair, cheeks of 
cream and roses, full lips, indeterminate nose and eye-brows — a physiognomy 
in which it seems impossible to discern anything but the generic character of 
boyhood; as different as possible from poor Maggie's phiz, which Nature 
seemed to have moulded and coloured with the most decided intention. But that 
same Nature has the deep cunning which hides itself under the appearance of 
openness, so that simple people think they can see through her quite well, 
and all the while she is secretly preparing a refutation of their confident 
prophecies. Under these average boyish physiognomies that she seems to turn 
off by the gross, she conceals some of her most rigid inflexible purposes, 
some of her most unmodifiable characters, and the dark-eyed, demonstrative, 
rebellious girl may after all turn out to be a passive being compared with 
this pink and white bit of masculinity with indeterminate features. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' said Tom, confidentially, taking her into a corner, as soon as his 
mother was gone out to examine his box, and the warm parlour had taken off 
the chill he had felt from the long drive, `you don't know what I've got in 
<hi>my</hi> pockets' — nodding his head up and down as a means of rousing her 
sense of mystery. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie. `How stodgy they look, Tom! Is it marls (marbles) — or 
cobnuts?' Maggie's heart sank a little, because Tom always said it was `no 
good' playing with<hi>her</hi> at those games — she played so badly. 


</p>
               <p>`Marls! no — I've swopped all my marls with little fellows. And cobnuts are 
no fun, you silly, only when the nuts are green. But see here!' He drew 
something half out of his right-hand pocket. 


</p>
               <p>`What is it?' said Maggie, in a whisper. `I can see nothing but a bit of 
yellow.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why it's... a... new... guess, Maggie!' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I <hi>can't</hi> guess, Tom,' said Maggie, impatiently. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't be a spitfire, else I won't tell you,' said Tom, thrusting his hand 
back into his pocket, and looking determined. 


</p>
               <p>`No, Tom,' said Maggie, imploringly, laying hold of the arm that was held 
stiffly in the pocket. `I'm not cross, Tom — it was only because I can't bear 
guessing. <hi>Please</hi>, be good to me.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom's arm slowly relaxed, and he said, `Well, then; it's a new fish-line — 
two new uns — one for you, Maggie, all to yourself. I wouldn't go halves in 
the toffee and gingerbread o' purpose to save the money; and Gibson and 
Spouncer fought with me because I wouldn't. And here's hooks; see here!...  I 
say, <hi>won't</hi> we go and fish to-morrow down by the Round Pool? And you 
shall catch your own fish, Maggie, and put the worms on and everything — 
won't it be fun?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's answer was to throw her arms round Tom's neck and hug and him and 
hold her cheek against his without speaking, while he slowly unwound some of 
the line, saying, after a pause, 


</p>
               <p>`Wasn't I a good brother, now, to buy you a line all to yourself? You know, I 
needn't have bought it, if hadn't liked.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, very, very good...  I <hi>do</hi> love you, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom had put the line back in his pocket, and was looking at the hooks one by 
one, before he spoke again. 


</p>
               <p>`And the fellows fought me, because I wouldn't give in about the toffee.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, I wish they wouldn't fight at your school, Tom. Didn't it hurt you?' 


</p>
               <p>`Hurt me? no,' said Tom, putting up the hooks again, taking out a large 
pocket-knife, and slowly opening the largest blade, which he looked at 
meditatively as he rubbed his finger along it. Then he added, 


</p>
               <p>`I gave Spouncer a black eye, I know — that's what he got by wanting to 
leather <hi>me</hi>: I wasn't going to go halves because anybody leathered 
me.' 


</p>
               <p>`O how brave you are, Tom — I think you're like Samson. If there came a lion 
roaring at me, I think you'd fight him — wouldn't you, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`How can a lion come roaring at you, you silly thing? There's no lions only 
in the shows.' 


</p>
               <p>`No: but if we were in the lion countries, I mean, in Africa, where it's very 
hot — the lions eat people there. I can show it you in the book where I read 
it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I should get a gun and shoot him.' 


</p>
               <p>`But if you hadn't got a gun — we might have gone out, you know, not thinking 
— just as we go fishing — and then a great lion might run towards us roaring, 
and we couldn't get away from him. What should you do, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>Tom paused, and at last turned away contemptuously, saying, `But the lion 
<hi>isn't</hi> coming. What's the use of talking?' 


</p>
               <p>`But I like to fancy how it would be,' said Maggie, following him. `Just 
think what you would do, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>`O don't bother, Maggie! you're such a silly. I shall go and see my rabbits.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's heart began to flutter with fear. She dared not tell the sad truth 
at once, but she walked after Tom in trembling silence as he went out, 
thinking how she could tell him the news so as to soften at once his sorrow 
and his anger. For Maggie dreaded Tom's anger of all things: it was quite a 
different anger from her own. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' she said, timidly, when they were out of doors, `how much money did 
you give for your rabbits?' 


</p>
               <p>`Two half-crowns and a sixpence,' said Tom, promptly. 


</p>
               <p>`I think I've got a great deal more than that in my steel purse upstairs. 
I'll ask mother to give it you.' 


</p>
               <p>`What for?' said Tom. `I don't want <hi>your</hi> money, you silly thing. 
I've got a great deal more money than you, because I'm a boy. I always have 
half-sovereigns and sovereigns for my Christmas boxes, because I shall be a 
man, and you only have five-shilling pieces, because you're only a girl.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but, Tom — if mother would let me give you two half-crowns and a 
sixpence out of my purse to put into your pocket and spend, you know — and 
buy some more rabbits with it?' 


</p>
               <p>`More rabbits? I don't want any more.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, but Tom, they're all dead.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom stopped immediately in his walk and turned round towards Maggie. `You 
forgot to feed 'em then, and Harry forgot,' he said, his colour heightening 
for a moment, but soon subsiding. `I'll pitch into Harry — I'll have him 
turned away. And I don't love you, Maggie. You shan't go fishing with me 
to-morrow. I told you to go and see the rabbits every day.' He walked on 
again. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but I forgot — and I couldn't help it, indeed, Tom. I'm so very sorry,' 
said Maggie, while the tears rushed fast. 


</p>
               <p>`You're a naughty girl,' said Tom, severely, `and I'm sorry I bought you the 
fish-line. I don't love you.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom, it's very cruel,' sobbed Maggie, `I'd forgive you, if <hi>you</hi>
forgot anything — I wouldn't mind what you did — I'd forgive you and love 
you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, you're a silly. But I never <hi>do</hi> forget things, I don't.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, please forgive me, Tom; my heart will break,' said Maggie, shaking with 
sobs, clinging to Tom's arm, and laying her wet cheek on his shoulder. 


</p>
               <p>Tom shook her off, and stopped again, saying in a per-emptory tone, `Now, 
Maggie, you just listen. Aren't I a good brother to you?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ye-ye-es,' sobbed Maggie, her chin rising and falling convulsedly. 


</p>
               <p>`Didn't I think about your fish-line all this quarter, and mean to buy it, 
and saved my money o' purpose, and wouldn't go halves in the toffee, and 
Spouncer fought me because I wouldn't?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ye-ye-es... and I... lo-lo-love you so, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you're a naughty girl. Last holidays you licked the paint off my 
lozenge-box, and the holidays before that, you let the boat drag my fish-line 
down when I'd set you to watch it, and you pushed your head through my kite 
all for nothing.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I didn't mean,' said Maggie. `I couldn't help it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, you could,' said Tom, `if you'd minded what you were doing. And you're 
a naughty girl, and you shan't go fishing with me to-morrow.' 


</p>
               <p>With this terrible conclusion, Tom ran away from Maggie towards the mill, 
meaning to greet Luke there, and complain to him of Harry. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie stood motionless, except from her sobs, for a minute or two; then she 
turned round and ran into the house and up to her attic, where she sat on the 
floor and laid her head against the worm-eaten shelf, with a crushing sense 
of misery. Tom was come home and she had thought how happy she should be — 
and now he was cruel to her. What use was anything if Tom didn't love her? O, 
he was very cruel! Hadn't she wanted to give him the money and said how very 
sorry she was? She knew she was naughty to her mother, but she had never been 
naughty to Tom — had never <hi>meant</hi> to be naughty to him. 


</p>
               <p>`O he is cruel!' Maggie sobbed aloud, finding a wretched pleasure in the 
hollow resonance that came through the long empty space of the attic. She 
never thought of beating or grinding her Fetish; she was too miserable to be 
angry. 


</p>
               <p>These bitter sorrows of childhood! — when sorrow is all new and strange, when 
hope has not yet got wings to fly beyond the days and weeks, and the space 
from summer to summer seems measureless. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie soon thought she had been hours in the attic, and it must be tea-time, 
and they were all having their tea, and not thinking of her. Well, then, she 
would stay up there and starve herself — hide herself behind the tub and stay 
there all night, and then they would all be frightened and Tom would be 
sorry. Thus Maggie thought in the pride of her heart, as she crept behind the 
tub; but presently she began to cry again at the idea that they didn't mind 
her being there. If she went down again to Tom now — would he forgive her? — 
perhaps her father would be there and he would take her part. But then, she 
wanted Tom to forgive her because he loved her, not because his father told 
him. No, she would never go down if Tom didn't come to fetch her. This 
resolution lasted in great intensity for five dark minutes behind the tub; 
but then the need of being loved, the strongest need in poor Maggie's nature, 
began to wrestle with her pride and soon threw it. She crept from behind her 
tub into the twilight of the long attic, but just then she heard a quick 
footstep on the stairs. 


</p>
               <p>Tom had been too much interested in his talk with Luke, in going the round of 
the premises, walking in and out where he pleased, and whittling sticks 
without any particular reason except that he didn't whittle sticks at school, 
to think of Maggie and the effect his anger had produced on her. He meant to 
punish her, and that business having been performed, he occupied himself with 
other matters like a practical person. But when he had been called in to tea, 
his father said, `Why, where's the little wench?' and Mrs Tulliver, almost at 
the same moment, said, `Where's your little sister?' both of them having 
supposed that Maggie and Tom had been together all the afternoon. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Tom. He didn't want to `tell' of Maggie, though he was 
angry with her, for Tom Tulliver was a lad of honour. 


</p>
               <p>`What, hasn't she been playing with you all this while?' said the father. 
`She'd been thinking o' nothing but your coming home.' 


</p>
               <p>`I haven't seen her this two hours,' says Tom, Commencing on the plum-cake. 


</p>
               <p>`Goodness heart! She's got drownded,' exclaimed Mrs Tulliver, rising from her 
seat and running to the window. `How could you let her do so?' she added, as 
became a fearful woman, accusing she didn't know whom of she didn't know 
what. 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, nay, she's none drownded,' said Mr Tulliver. `You've been naughty to 
her, I doubt, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure I haven't, father,' said Tom, indignantly. `I think she's in the 
house.' 


</p>
               <p>`Perhaps up in that attic,' said Mrs Tulliver, `a-singing and talking to 
herself, and forgetting all about meal-times.' 


</p>
               <p>`You go and fetch her down, Tom,' said Mr Tulliver, rather sharply, his 
perspicacity or his fatherly fondness for Maggie making him suspect that the 
lad had been hard upon `the little un,' else she would never have left his 
side. `And be good to her, do you hear? Else I'll let you know better.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom never disobeyed his father, for Mr Tulliver was a peremptory man, and, as 
he said, would never let anybody get hold of his whip-hand; but he went out 
rather sullenly, carrying his piece of plum-cake, and not intending to 
reprieve Maggie's punishment, which was no more than she deserved. Tom was 
only thirteen, and had no decided views in grammar and arithmetic, regarding 
them for the most part as open questions, but he was particularly clear and 
positive on one point, namely that he would punish everybody who deserved it: 
why, he wouldn't have minded being punished himself if he deserved it, but 
then, he never <hi>did</hi> deserve it. 


</p>
               <p>It was Tom's step, then, that Maggie heard on the stairs, when her need of 
love had triumphed over her pride, and she was going down with her swollen 
eyes and dishevelled hair to beg for pity. At least, her father would stroke 
her head and say, `Never mind, my wench.' It is a wonderful subduer, this 
need of love, this hunger of the heart: as per-emptory as that other hunger 
by which Nature forces us to submit to the Yoke, and change the face of the 
world. 


</p>
               <p>But she knew Tom's step and her heart began to beat violently with the sudden 
shock of hope. He only stood still at the top of the stairs and said, 
`Maggie, you're to come down.' But she rushed to him and clung round his 
neck, sobbing, `O Tom, please forgive me — I can't bear it — I will always be 
good — always remember things — do love me — please, dear Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>We learn to restrain ourselves as we get older. We keep apart when we have 
quarrelled, express ourselves in well-bred phrases, and in this way preserve 
a dignified alienation, showing much firmness on one side, and swallowing 
much grief on the other. We no longer approximate in our behaviour to the 
mere impulsiveness of the lower animals, but conduct ourselves in every 
respect like members of a highly civilised society. Maggie and Tom were still 
very much like young animals, and so she could rub her cheek against his, and 
kiss his ear in a random, sobbing way, and there were tender fibres in the 
lad that had been used to answer to Maggie's fondling: so that he behaved 
with a weakness quite inconsistent with his resolution to punish her as much 
as she deserved: he actually began to kiss her in return and say, 


</p>
               <p>`Don't cry then, Magsie: — here, eat a bit o' cake.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's sobs began to subside, and she put out her mouth for the cake and 
bit a piece; and then Tom bit a piece, just for company, and they ate 
together and rubbed each other's cheeks and brows and noses together while 
they ate, with a humiliating resemblance to two friendly ponies. 


</p>
               <p>`Come along, Magsie, and have tea,' said Tom at last, when there was no more 
cake except what was down-stairs. 


</p>
               <p>So ended the sorrows of this day, and the next morning Maggie was trotting 
with her own fishing-rod in one hand, and a handle of the basket in the 
other, stepping always by a peculiar gift in the muddiest places and looking 
darkly radiant from under her beaver-bonnet because Tom was good to her. She 
had told Tom, however, that she should like him to put the worms on the hook 
for her, although she accepted his word when he assured her that worms 
couldn't feel (it was Tom's private opinion that it didn't much matter if 
they did). He knew all about worms and fish and those things; and what birds 
were mischievous and how padlocks opened, and which way the handles of the 
gates were to be lifted. Maggie thought this sort of knowledge was very 
wonderful — much more difficult than remembering what was in the books; and 
she was rather in awe of Tom's superiority, for he was the only person who 
called her knowledge `stuff' and did not feel surprised at her cleverness. 
Tom, indeed, was of opinion that Maggie was a silly little thing: all girls 
were silly — they couldn't throw a stone so as to hit anything, couldn't do 
anything with a pocket-knife, and were frightened at frogs. Still, he was 
very fond of his sister, and meant always to take care of her, make her his 
housekeeper, and punish her when she did wrong. 


</p>
               <p>They were on their way to the Round Pool — that wonderful pool, which the 
floods had made a long while ago: no one knew how deep it was; and it was 
mysterious too that it should be almost a perfect round, framed in with 
willows and tall reeds, so that the water was only to be seen when you got 
close to the brink. The sight of the old favourite spot always heightened 
Tom's good-humour, and he spoke to Maggie in the most amicable whispers, as 
he opened the precious basket and prepared their tackle. He threw her line 
for her, and put the rod into her hand. Maggie thought it probable that the 
small fish would come to her hook, and the large ones to Tom's. But she had 
forgotten all about the fish and was looking dreamily at the glassy water, 
when Tom said, in a loud whisper, `Look, look, Maggie!' and came running to 
prevent her from snatching her line away. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was frightened lest she had been doing something wrong, as usual, but 
presently Tom drew out her line and brought a large tench bouncing on the 
grass. 


</p>
               <p>Tom was excited. 


</p>
               <p>`O Magsie! you little duck! Empty the basket.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was not conscious of unusual merit, but it was enough that Tom called 
her Magsie, and was pleased with her. There was nothing to mar her delight in 
the whispers and the dreamy silences, when she listened to the light dipping 
sounds of the rising fish and the gentle rustling, as if the willows and the 
reeds and the water had their happy whisperings also. Maggie thought it would 
make a very nice heaven to sit by the pool in that way, and never be scolded. 
She never knew she had a bite till Tom told her, but she liked fishing very 
much. 


</p>
               <p>It was one of their happy mornings. They trotted along and sat down together 
with no thought that life would ever change much for them: they would only 
get bigger and not go to school, and it would always be like the holidays; 
they would always live together and be fond of each other, and the mill with 
its booming — the great chestnut-tree under which they played at houses, 
their own little river, the Ripple, where the banks seemed like home, and Tom 
was always seeing the water-rats, while Maggie gathered the purple plumy tops 
of the reeds which she forgot and dropped afterwards, above all, the great 
Floss along which they wandered with a sense of travel, to see the rushing 
spring tide — the awful Eagre — come up like a hungry monster, or to see the 
Great Ash which had once wailed and groaned like a man — these things would 
always be just the same to them. Tom thought people were at a disadvantage 
who lived on any other spot of the globe, and Maggie when she read about 
Christiana passing `the river over which there is no bridge' always saw the 
Floss between the green pastures by the Great Ash. 


</p>
               <p>Life did change for Tom and Maggie; and yet they were not wrong in believing 
that the thoughts and loves of these first years would always make part of 
their lives. We could never have loved the earth so well if we had had no 
child-hood in it, — if it were not the earth where the same flowers come up 
again every spring that we used to gather with our tiny fingers as we sat 
lisping to ourselves on the grass — the same hips and haws on the autumn 
hedgerows — the same redbreasts that we used to call `God's birds' because 
they did no harm to the precious crops. What novelty is worth that sweet 
monotony where everything is known and <hi>loved</hi> because it is known? 


</p>
               <p>The wood I walk in on this mild May day, with the young yellow-brown foliage 
of the oaks between me and the blue sky, the white star-flowers and the 
blue-eyed speedwell and the ground ivy at my feet — what grove of tropic 
palms, what strange ferns or splendid broad-petalled blossoms, could ever 
thrill such deep and delicate fibres within me as this home-scene? These 
familiar flowers, these well-remembered bird-notes, this sky with its fitful 
brightness, these furrowed and grassy fields, each with a sort of personality 
given to it by the capricious hedgerows — such things as these are the mother 
tongue of our imagination, the language that is laden with all the subtle 
inextricable associations the fleeting hours of our childhood left behind 
them. Our delight in the sunshine on the deep bladed grass today, might be no 
more than the faint perception of wearied souls, if it were not for the 
sunshine and the grass in the far-off years, which still live in us and 
transform our perception into love. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.6" type="chapter">
               <head>The Aunts and Uncles Are Coming</head>
               <p>IT was Easter week and Mrs Tulliver's cheese-cakes were more exquisitely 
light than usual: `a puff o' wind 'ud make 'em blow about like feathers,' 
kezia, the house-maid said, feeling proud to live under a mistress who could 
make such pastry; so that no season or circumstances could have been more 
propitious for a family party, even if it had not been advisable to consult 
sister Glegg and sister Pullet about Tom's going to school. 


</p>
               <p>`I'd as lief not invite sister Deane this time,' said Mrs Tulliver, `for 
she's as jealous and having as can be, and 's allays trying to make the worst 
o' my poor children to their aunts and uncles.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes,' said Mr Tulliver. `Ask her to come. I never hardly get a bit o' 
talk with Deane now: we haven't had him this six months. What's it matter 
what she says? — my children need be beholding to nobody.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's what you allays say, Mr Tulliver; but I'm sure there's nobody o' 
<hi>your</hi> side, neither aunt nor uncle, to leave 'em so much as a 
five-pound note for a leggicy. And there's sister Glegg, and sister Pullet 
too, saving money unknown — for they put by all their own interest and 
butter-money too — their husbands buy 'em everything.' Mrs Tulliver was a 
mild woman, but even a sheep will face about a little when she has lambs. 


</p>
               <p>`Tchuh!' said Mr Tulliver. `It takes a big loaf when there's many to 
breakfast. What signifies your sisters' bits o' money when they've got 
half-a-dozen nevvies and nieces to divide it among? And your sister Deane 
won't get 'em to leave all to one, I reckon, and make the country cry shame 
on 'em when they are dead?' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know what she won't get 'em to do,' said Mrs Tulliver, `for my 
children are so awk'ard wi' their aunts and uncles. Maggie's ten times 
naughtier when they come than she is other days, and <hi>Tom</hi> doesn't 
like 'em, bless him — though it's more nat'ral in a boy than a gell — And 
there's Lucy Deane's such a good child — you may set her on a stool, and 
there she'll sit for an hour together and never offer to get off — I can't 
help loving the child as if she was my own, and I'm sure she's more like 
<hi>my</hi> child than sister Deane's, for she'd allays a very poor colour 
for one of our family, sister Deane had.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well, if you're fond o' the child, ask her father and mother to bring 
her with 'em. And won't you ask their aunt and uncle Moss too? and some o' 
<hi>their</hi> children?' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, Mr Tulliver, why, there'd be eight people besides the children, and 
I must put two more leaves i' the table, besides reaching down more o' the 
dinner service. And you know as well as I do, as <hi>my</hi> sisters and 
<hi>your</hi> sister don't suit well together.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well, do as you like, Bessy,' said Mr Tulliver, taking up his hat and 
walking out to the mill. Few wives were more submissive than Mrs Tulliver on 
all points unconnected with her family relations; but she had been a Miss 
Dodson, and the Dodsons were a very respectable family indeed — as much 
looked up to as any in their own parish or the next to it. The Miss Dodsons 
had always been thought to hold up their heads very high, and no one was 
surprised the two eldest had married so well: — not at an early age, for that 
was not the practice of the Dodson family. There were particular ways of 
doing everything in that family: particu-lar ways of bleaching the linen, of 
making the cowslip wine curing the hams and keeping the bottled gooseberries, 
so that no daughter of that house could be indifferent to the privilege of 
having been born a Dodson, rather than a Gibson or a Watson. Funerals were 
always conducted with peculiar propriety in the Dodson family: the hatbands 
were never of a blue shade, the gloves never split at the thumb, everybody 
was mourner who ought to be, and there were always scarfs for the bearers. 
When one of the family was in trouble or sickness, all the rest went to visit 
the unfortunate member, usually at the same time, and did not shrink from 
uttering the most disagreeable truths that correct family feeling dictated: 
if the illness or trouble was the sufferer's own fault, it was not in the 
practice of the Dodson family to shrink from saying so. In short, there was 
in this family a peculiar tradition as to what was the right thing in 
house-hold management and social demeanour, and the only bitter circumstance 
attending this superiority was a painful inability to approve the condiments 
or the conduct of families ungoverned by the Dodson tradition. A female 
Dodson, when in `strange houses,' always ate dry bread with her tea and 
declined any sort of preserves, having no confidence in the butter and 
thinking that the preserves had probably begun to ferment from want of due 
sugar and boiling. There were some Dodsons less like the family than others — 
that was admitted — but in so far as they were `kin,' they were of necessity 
better than those who were `no kin.' And it is remarkable that while no 
individual Dodson was satisfied with any other individual Dodson, each was 
satisfied, not only with him or herself, but with the Dodsons collectively. 
The feeblest member of a family — the one who has the least character — is 
often the merest epitome of the family habits and traditions, and Mrs 
Tulliver was a thorough Dodson, though a mild one, as small beer, so long as 
it is anything, is only describable as very weak ale. And though she had 
groaned a little in her youth under the yoke of her elder sisters, and still 
shed occasional tears at their sisterly reproaches, it was not in Mrs 
Tulliver to be an innovator on the family ideas: she was thankful to have 
been a Dodson, and to have one child who took after her own family, at least 
in his features and complexion, in liking salt, and in eating beans, which a 
Tulliver never did. 


</p>
               <p>In other respects the true Dodson was partly latent in Tom, and he was as far 
from appreciating his `kin' on the mother's side as Maggie herself, generally 
absconding for the day with a large supply of the most portable food when he 
received timely warning that his aunts and uncles were coming: a moral 
symptom from which his aunt Glegg deduced the gloomiest views of his future. 
It was rather hard on Maggie that Tom always absconded without letting her 
into the secret, but the weaker sex are acknowledged to be serious 
<hi>impedimenta</hi> in cases of flight. 


</p>
               <p>On Wednesday, the day before the aunts and uncles were coming, there were 
such various and suggestive scents, as of plumcakes in the oven and jellies 
in the hot state, mingled with the aroma of gravy, that it was impossible to 
feel altogether gloomy: there was hope in the air. Tom and Maggie made 
several inroads into the kitchen, and, like other marauders, were induced to 
keep aloof for a time only by being allowed to carry away a sufficient load 
of booty. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' said Maggie, as they sat on the boughs of the elder tree, eating their 
jam puffs, `shall you run away tomorrow?' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Tom, slowly, when he had finished his puff, and was eyeing the 
third, which was to be divided between them. `No. I shan't.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Tom? Beause Lucy's coming?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, said Tom, opening his pocket-knife and holding it over the puff, with 
his head on one side in a dubitative manner. (It was a difficult problem to 
divide that very irregular polygon into two equal parts.) `What do <hi>I</hi>
care about Lucy? She's only a girl — <hi>she</hi> can't play at bandy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is it the tipsy-cake, then?' said Maggie, exerting her hypothetic powers, 
while she leaned forward towards Tom with her eyes fixed on the hovering 
knife. 


</p>
               <p>`No, you silly, that'll be good the day after. It's the pudden. I know what 
the pudden's to be — apricot roll-up — O my buttons!' 


</p>
               <p>With his interjection, the knife descended on the puff and it was in two, but 
the result was not satisfactory to Tom, for he still eyed the halves 
doubtfully. At last he said, 


</p>
               <p>`Shut your eyes, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`What for?' 


</p>
               <p>`You never mind what for. Shut 'em when I tell you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie obeyed. 


</p>
               <p>`Now, Which'll you have Maggie — right hand or left?' 


</p>
               <p>`I'll have that with the jam run out,' said Maggie, keeping her eyes shut to 
please Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you don't like that, you silly. You may have it if it comes to you 
fair, but I shan't give it you without. Right or left — you choose, now. 
Ha-a-a!' said Tom, in a tone of exasperation, as Maggie peeped. `You keep 
your eyes shut, now, else you shan't have any.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's power of sacrifice did not extend so far, indeed I fear she cared 
less that Tom should enjoy the utmost possible amount of puff than that he 
should be pleased with her for giving him the best bit. So she shut her eyes 
quite close, till Tom told her to `say which,' and then she said, 
`Left-hand.' 


</p>
               <p>`You've got it,' said Tom, in rather a bitter tone. 


</p>
               <p>`What, the bit with the jam run out?' 


</p>
               <p>`No: here, take it,' said Tom firmly, handing decidedly the best piece to 
Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`O, please, Tom, have it: I don't mind — I like the other: please take this.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I shan't,' said Tom, almost crossly, beginning on his own inferior 
piece. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, thinking it was no use to contend further, began too, and ate up her 
half-puff with considerable relish as well as rapidity. But Tom had finished 
first, and had to look on while Maggie ate her last morsel or two, feeling in 
himself a capacity for more. Maggie didn't know Tom was looking at her: she 
was seesawing on the elder bough, lost to almost everything but a vague sense 
of jam and idleness. 


</p>
               <p>`O, you greedy thing!' said Tom, when she had swallowed the last morsel. He 
was conscious of having acted very fairly, and thought she ought to have 
considered this and made up to him for it. He would have refused a bit of 
hers beforehand, but one is naturally at a different point of view before and 
after one's own share of puff is swallowed. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie turned quite pale. `O Tom, why didn't you ask me?' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>I</hi> wasn't going to ask you for a bit, you greedy. You might have 
thought of it without, when you knew I gave you the best bit.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I wanted you to have it — you know I did,' said Maggie in an injured 
tone. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but I wasn't going to do what wasn't fair, like Spouncer. He always 
takes the best bit, if you don't punch him for it, and if you choose the best 
with your eyes shut, he changes his hands. But if I go halves I'll go 'em 
fair — only I wouldn't be a greedy.' 


</p>
               <p>With this cutting innuendo, Tom jumped down from his bough and threw a stone, 
with a `hoigh!' as a friendly attention to Yap, who had also been looking on 
while the eatables vanished with an agitation of his ears and feelings which 
could hardly have been without bitterness. Yet the excellent dog accepted 
Tom's attention with as much alacrity as if he had been treated quite 
generously. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie, gifted with that superior power of misery which distinguishes the 
human being and places him at a proud distance from the most melancholy 
chimpanzee, sat still on her bough, and gave herself up to the keen sense of 
unmerited reproach. She would have given the world not to have eaten all her 
puff, and to have saved some of it for Tom. Not but that the puff was very 
nice, for Maggie's palate was not at all obtuse, but she would have gone 
without it many times over, sooner than Tom should call her greedy and be 
cross with her. And he had said he wouldn't have it — and she ate it without 
thinking — how could she help it? The tears flowed so plentifully that Maggie 
saw nothing around her for the next ten minutes; but by that time resentment 
began to give way to the desire of reconciliation and she jumped from her 
bough to look for Tom. He was no longer in the paddock behind the rickyard — 
where was he likely to be gone, and Yap with him? Maggie ran to the high bank 
against the great holly tree, where she could see far away towards the Floss. 
There was Tom; but her heart sank again as she saw how far off he was on his 
way to the great river and that he had another companion besides Yap — 
naughty Bob Jakin, whose official, if not natural function, of frightening 
the birds, was just now at a standstill. Maggie felt sure that Bob was 
wicked, without very distinctly knowing why: unless it was because Bob's 
mother was a dreadfully large fat woman, who lived at a queer round house 
down the river, and once, when Maggie and Tom had wandered thither there 
rushed out a brindled dog that wouldn't stop barking, and when Bob's mother 
came out after it, and screamed above the barking to tell them not to be 
frightened, Maggie though she was scolding them fiercely and her heart beat 
with terror. Maggie thought it very likely that the round house had snakes on 
the floor, and bats in the bedroom; for she had seen Bob take off his cap to 
show Tom a little snake that was inside it, and another time he had a handful 
of young bats: altogether, he was an irregular character, perhaps even 
slightly diabolical, judging from his intimacy with snakes and bats; and to 
crown all, when Tom had Bob for a companion he didn't mind about Maggie, and 
would never let her go with him. 


</p>
               <p>It must be owned that Tom was fond of Bob's company. How could it be 
otherwise? Bob knew, directly he saw a bird's egg, whether it was a swallow's 
or a tomtit's or a yellowhammer's; he found out all the wasps' nests and 
could set all sorts of traps; he could climb the trees like a squirrel, and 
had quite a magical power of detecting hedge-hogs and stoats; and he had 
courage to do things that were rather naughty, such as making gaps in the 
hedge-rows, throwing stones after sheep, and killing a cat that was wandering 
<hi>incognito</hi>. Such qualities in an inferior who could always be treated 
with authority in spite of his superior knowingness, had necessarily a fatal 
fascination for Tom; and every holiday-time Maggie was sure to have days of 
grief because he had gone off with Bob. 


</p>
               <p>Well! there was no hope for it: he was gone now, and Maggie could think of no 
comfort but to sit down by the holly or wander by the hedgerow, and fancy it 
was all different, refashioning her little world into just what she should 
like it to be. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's was a troublous life, and this was the form in which she took her 
opium. 


</p>
               <p>Meanwhile Tom, forgetting all about Maggie and the sting of reproach which he 
had left in her heart, was hurrying along with Bob whom he had met 
accidentally, to the scene of a great rat-catching in a neighbouring barn. 
Bob knew all about this particular affair, and spoke of the sport with an 
enthusiasm which no one, who is not either divested of all manly feeling or 
pitiably ignorant 'of rat-catching, can fail to imagine. For a person 
suspected of preternatural wickedness, Bob was really not so very 
villainous-looking; there was even something agreeable in his snub-nosed face 
with its close-curled border of red hair. But then his trousers were always 
rolled up at the knee for the convenience of wading on the slightest notice, 
and his virtue, supposing it to exist, was undeniably `virtue in rags' which, 
on the authority even of bilious philosophers, who think all well-dressed 
merit overpaid, is notoriously likely to remain'recognised (perhaps because 
it is seen so seldom). 


</p>
               <p>`I know the chap as owns the ferrets,' said Bob in a hoarse treble voice, as 
he shuffled along, keeping his blue eyes fixed on the river, like an 
amphibious animal who foresaw occasion for darting in. `He lives up the 
Kennel Yard at Sut Ogg's — he does. He's the biggest rot-catcher anywhere — 
he is. I'd sooner be a rot-catcher nor anything — I would. The moles is 
nothing to the rots. But Lors! you mun ha' ferrets. Dogs is no good. Why, 
there's that dog, now,' Bob continued, pointing with an air of disgust 
towards Yap, `he's no more good wi' a rot nor nothin'. I see it myself — I 
did — at the rot-catchin' i' your feyther's barn.' 


</p>
               <p>Yap, feeling the withering influence of this scorn, tucked his tail in and 
shrank close to Tom's leg, who felt a little hurt for him, but had not the 
superhuman courage to seem behindhand with Bob in contempt for a dog who made 
so poor a figure. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' he said, `Yap's no good at sport. I'll have reg-ular good dogs for 
rats and everything, when I've done school.' 


</p>
               <p>`Hev ferrets, Measter Tom,' said Bob, eagerly, `them white ferrets wi' pink 
eyes — Lors, you might catch your own rots, an' you might put a rot in a cage 
wi' a ferret, an'see 'em fight — you might. That's what I'd do, I know. An'it 
'ud be better fun a'most nor seein' two chaps fight — if it wasn't them chaps 
as sell cakes an' oranges at the Fair, as the things flew out o' their 
baskets, an' some o' the cakes was smashed...  But they tasted just as good,' 
added Bob, by way of note or addendum, after a moment's pause. 


</p>
               <p>`But, I say, Bob,' said Tom, in a tone of deliberation, `ferrets are nasty 
biting things — they'll bite a fellow without being set on.' 


</p>
               <p>`Lors, why that's the beauty on 'em. If a chap lays hold o' your ferret, he 
won't be long before he hollows out a good un — <hi>he</hi> won't.' 


</p>
               <p>At this moment a striking incident made the boys pause suddenly in their 
walk. It was the plunging of some small body in the water from among the 
neighbouring bulrushes — if it was not a water-rat Bob intimated that he was 
ready to undergo the most unpleasant consequences. 


</p>
               <p>`Hoigh! Yap — hoigh! there he is,' said Tom, clapping his hands, as the 
little black snout made its arrowy course to the opposite bank. `Seize him, 
lad, seize him!' 


</p>
               <p>Yap agitated his ears and wrinkled his brows, but declined to plunge, trying 
whether barking would not answer the purpose just as well. 


</p>
               <p>`Ugh! you coward!' said Tom, and kicked him over, feeling humiliated as a 
sportsman to possess so poor-spirited an animal. Bob abstained from remark 
and passed on, choosing however to walk in the shallow edge of the 
overflowing river by way of change. 


</p>
               <p>`He's none so full now, the Floss isn't,' said Bob, as he kicked the water up 
before him, with an agreeable sense of being insolent to it. `Why, last 'ear, 
the meadows was all one sheet o' water, they was.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, but,' said Tom, whose mind was prone to see an opposition between 
statements that were really quite accordant, `but there was a big flood once 
when the Round Pool was made. <hi>I</hi> know there was, 'cause father says 
so. And the sheep and cows were all drowned, and the boats went all over the 
fields ever such a way.' 


</p>
               <p>
                  <hi>I</hi> don't care about a flood comin',' said Bob, `I don't mind the 
water, no more nor the land. I'd swim — <hi>I</hi> would.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, but if you got nothing to eat for ever so long?' said Tom, his 
imagination becoming quite active under the stimulus of that dread. `When I'm 
a man, I shall make a boat with a wooden house on the top of it, like Noah's 
ark, and keep plenty to eat in it — rabbits and things — all ready. And then 
if the flood came, you know, Bob, I shouldn't mind...  And I'd take you in, 
if I saw you swimming,' he added, in the tone of a benelovent patron. 


</p>
               <p>`I aren't frighted,' said Bob, to whom hunger did not appear so appalling. 
`But I'd get in, an' knock the rabbits on th' head when you wanted to eat 
'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, and I should have half-pence, and we'd play at heads and tails,' said 
Tom, not contemplating the possibility that this recreation might have fewer 
charms for his mature age. `I'd divide fair to begin with, and then we'd see 
who'd win.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'n got a half-penny o' my own,' said Bob, proudly, coming out of the water 
and tossing his half-penny in the air. `Yeads or tails?' 


</p>
               <p>`Tails,' said Tom, instantly fired with the desire to win. 


</p>
               <p>`It's yeads,' said Bob, hastily, snatching up the half-penny as it fell. 


</p>
               <p>`It wasn't,' said Tom, loudly and peremptorily. `You give me the half-penny — 
I've won it fair.' 


</p>
               <p>`I shan't,' said Bob, holding it tight in his pocket. 


</p>
               <p>`Then I'll make you — see if I don't,' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`You can't make me do nothing, you can't,' said Bob. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I can.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, you can't.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm master.' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>I</hi> don't care for you.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I'll make you care, you cheat,' said Tom, collaring Bob and shaking him. 


</p>
               <p>`You get out wi' you,' said Bob, giving Tom a kick. 


</p>
               <p>Tom's blood was thoroughly up: he went at Bob with a lunge and threw him 
down, but Bob seized hold and kept it like a cat, and pulled Tom down after 
him. They struggled fiercely on the ground for a moment or two, till Tom, 
pinning Bob down by the shoulders, thought he had the mastery. 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>You</hi> say you'll give me the half-penny now,' he said, with 
difficulty, while he exerted himself to keep the command of Bob's arms. 


</p>
               <p>But at this moment, Yap, who had been running on before, returned barking to 
the scene of action, and saw a favourable opportunity for biting Bob's bare 
leg not only with impunity but with honour. The pain from Yap's teeth, 
instead of surprising Bob into a relaxation of his hold, gave it a fiercer 
tenacity, and with a new exertion of his force he pushed Tom backward and got 
uppermost. But now Yap, who could get no sufficient purchase before, set his 
teeth in a new place, so that Bob, harassed in this way, let go his hold of 
Tom and almost throttling Yap, flung him into the river. By this time Tom was 
up again, and before Bob had quite recovered his balance after the act of 
swinging Yap, Tom fell upon him, threw him down and got his knee firmly on 
Bob's chest. 


</p>
               <p>`You give me the half-penny now,' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Take it,' said Bob, sulkily. 


</p>
               <p>`No, I shan't take it — you give it me.' 


</p>
               <p>Bob took the half-penny out of his pocket and threw it away from him on the 
ground. 


</p>
               <p>Tom loosed his hold and left Bob to rise. 


</p>
               <p>`There the half-penny lies,' he said, `I don't want your half-penny; I 
wouldn't have kept it. But you wanted to cheat: I hate a cheat. I shan't go 
along with you any more,' he added, turning round homeward, not without 
casting a regret towards the rat-catching and other pleasures which he must 
relinquish along with Bob's society. 


</p>
               <p>`You may let it alone, then,' Bob called out after him. `I shall cheat if I 
like — there's no fun i' playing, else. And I know where there's goldfinch's 
nest, but I'll take care <hi>you</hi> don't... . An' you're a nasty fightin' 
turkey-cock, you are... .' 


</p>
               <p>Tom walked on without looking round, and Yap followed his example, the cold 
bath having moderated his passions. 


</p>
               <p>`Go along wi' you, then, wi' your drownded dog — I wouldn't own such a dog, 
<hi>I</hi> wouldn't,' said Bob, getting louder, in a last effort to sustain 
his defiance. But Tom was not to be provoked into turning round, and Bob's 
voice began to falter a little as she said, 


</p>
               <p>`An' I'n gi'en you everything an' showed you everything, an' niver wanted 
nothin' from you... . An' there's your horn-handed knife, then, as you gi'en 
me'... . Here Bob flung the knife as far as he could after Tom's retreating 
footsteps. But it produced no effect, except the sense in Bob's mind that 
there was a terrible void in his lot, now that knife was gone. 


</p>
               <p>He stood still till Tom had passed through the gate and disappeared behind 
the hedge. The knife would do no good on the ground there — it wouldn't vex 
Tom, and pride or resentment was a feeble passion in Bob's mind compared with 
the love of a pocket-knife. His very fingers sent entreating thrills that he 
would go and clutch that familiar rough buck's-horn handle, which they had so 
often grasped for mere affection as it lay idle in his pocket. And there were 
two blades — and they had just been sharpened. What is life without a 
pocket-knife to him who has once tasted a higher existence? No: to throw the 
handle after the hatchet is a comprehensible act of desperation, but to throw 
one's pocket-knife after an implacable friend is clearly in every sense a 
hyperbole or throwing beyond the mark. So Bob shuffled back to the spot where 
the beloved knife lay in the dirt, and felt quite a new pleasure in clutching 
it again after the temporary separation, in opening one blade after the other 
and feeling their edge with his well-hardened thumb. Poor Bob! he was not 
sensitive on the point of honour — not a chivalrous character. That fine 
moral aroma would not have been thought much of by the public opinion of 
Kennel Yard, which was the very focus or heart of Bob's world, even if it 
could have made itself perceptible there. Yet, for all that, he was not 
utterly a sneak and a thief, as our friend Tom had hastily decided. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom, you perceive, was rather a Rhadamanthinepersonage, having more than 
the usual share of boys' justice in him — the justice that desires to hurt 
culprits as much as they deserve to be hurt, and is troubled with no doubts 
concerning the exact amount of their deserts. Maggie saw a cloud on his brow 
when he came home, which checked her joy at his coming so much sooner than 
she had expected, and she dared hardly speak to him as he stood silently 
throwing the small gravel stones into the mill-dam. It is not pleasant to 
give up a rat-catching when you have set your mind on it. But if Tom had told 
his strongest feeling at that moment, he would have said, `I'd do just the 
same again.' That was his usual mode of viewing his past actions; whereas 
Maggie was always wishing she had done something different. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.7" type="chapter">
               <head>Enter the Aunts and Uncles</head>
               <p>THE Dodsons were certainly a handsome family, and Mrs Glegg was not the least 
handsome of the sisters. As she sat in Mrs Tulliver's arm-chair, no impartial 
observer could have denied that for a woman of fifty she had a very comely 
face and figure, though Tom and Maggie considered their aunt Glegg as the 
type of ugliness. It is true she despised the advantages of costume, for 
though, as she often observed, no woman had better clothes, it was not her 
way to wear her new things out before her old ones. Other women, if they 
liked, might have their best thread lace in every wash, but when Mrs Glegg 
died, it would be found that she had better lace laid by in the right-hand 
drawer of her wardrobe, in the Spotted Chamber, than ever Mrs Wooll of St 
Ogg's had bought in her life, although Mrs Wooll wore her lace before it was 
paid for. So of her curled fronts. Mrs Glegg had doubtless the glossiest and 
crispest brown curls in her drawers, as well as curls in various degrees of 
fuzzy laxness; but to look out on the week-day world from under a crisp and 
glossy front would be to introduce a most dream-like and unpleasant confusion 
between the sacred and the secular. Occasionally, indeed, Mrs Glegg wore one 
of her third-best fronts on a week-day visit, but not at a sister's house; 
especially not at Mrs Tulliver's, who since her marriage had hurt her 
sisters' feelings greatly by wearing her own hair, though, as Mrs Glegg 
observed to Mrs Deane, a mother of a family, like Bessy, with a husband 
always going to law, might have been expected to know better. But Bessy was 
always weak! 


</p>
               <p>So if Mrs Glegg's front to-day was more fuzzy and lax than usual, she had a 
design under it: she intended the most pointed and cutting allusion to Mrs 
Tulliver's bunches of blond curls separated from each other by a due wave of 
smoothness on each side of the parting. Mrs Tulliver had shed tears several 
times at sister Glegg's unkindness on the subject of these unmatronly curls, 
but the consciousness of looking the handsomer for them naturally 
administered support. Mrs Glegg chose to wear her bonnet in the house to-day 
— united and tilted slightly, of course — a frequent practice of hers when 
she was on a visit and happened to be in a severe humour: she didn't know 
what draughts there might be in strange houses. For the same reason she wore 
a small sable tippet which reached just to her shoulders and was very far 
from meeting across her well-formed chest, while her long neck was protected 
by a <hi>chevaux-de-frise</hi> of miscellaneous frilling. One would need to 
be learned in the fashions of those times to know how far in the rear of them 
Mrs Glegg's slate-coloured silk gown must have been, but from certain 
constellations of small yellow spots upon it, and a mouldy odour about it 
suggestive of a damp clothes-chest, it was probable that it belonged to a 
stratum of garments just old enough to have come recently into wear. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg held her large gold watch in her hand with the many-doubled chain 
round her fingers, and observed to Mrs Tulliver who had just returned from a 
visit to the kitchen, that whatever it might be by other people's clocks and 
watches, it was gone half-past twelve by hers. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know what ails sister Pullet,' she continued. `It used to be the way 
in our family for one to be as early as another — I'm sure it was so in my 
poor father's time — and not for one sister to sit half an hour before the 
others came. But if the ways o' the family are altered it shan't be 
<hi>my</hi> fault — <hi>I'll</hi> never be the one to come into a house when 
all the rest are going away. I wonder <hi>at</hi> sister Deane — she used to 
be more like me. But if you'll take my advice, Bessy, you'll put the dinner 
forrard a bit, sooner than put it back, because folks are late as ought to 
ha' known better.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, there's no fear but what they'll be all here in time, sister,' said 
Mrs Tulliver, in her mild-peevish tone. `The dinner won't be ready till 
half-past one. But if it's long for you to wait, let me fetch you a 
cheese-cake and a glass o' wine.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bessy!' said Mrs Glegg, with a bitter smile and a scarcely perceptible 
toss of her head, `I should ha' thought you'd know your own sister better. I 
never <hi>did</hi> eat between meals, and I'm not going to begin. Not but 
what I hate that nonsense of having your dinner at half-past one when you 
might have it at one. You was never brought up in that way, Bessy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Jane, what can I do? Mr Tulliver doesn't like his dinner before two 
o'clock, but I put it half an hour earlier because o' you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes, I know how it is wi' husbands — they're for putting everything off 
— they'll put the dinner off till after tea, if they've got wives as are weak 
enough to give in to such work: but it's a pity for you, Bessy, as you 
haven't got more strength o' mind. It'll be well if your children don't 
suffer for it. And I hope you've not gone and got a great dinner for us — 
going to expense for your sisters as 'ud sooner eat a crust o' dry bread nor 
help to ruin you with extravagance — I wonder you don't take pattern by your 
sister Deane — she's far more sensible. And here you've got two children to 
provide for, and your husband's spent your fortin i' going to law, and's like 
to spend his own too. A boiled joint, as you could make broth of for the 
kitchen,' Mrs Glegg added, in a tone of emphatic protest, `and a plain 
pudding with a spoonful o' sugar and no spice, 'ud be far more becoming.' 


</p>
               <p>With sister Glegg in this humour, there was a cheerful prospect for the day. 
Mrs Tulliver never went the length of quarrelling with her, any more than a 
waterfowl that puts out its leg in a deprecating manner can be said to 
quarrel with a boy who throws stones. But this point of the dinner was a 
tender one, and not at all new, so that Mrs Tulliver could make the same 
answer she had often made before. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Tulliver says he always <hi>will</hi> have a good dinner for his friends 
while he can pay for it,' she said, `and he's a right to do as he likes in 
his own house, sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bessy, <hi>I</hi> can't leave your children enough out o'my savings, 
to keep 'em from ruin. And you mustn't look to having any o' Mr Glegg's money 
for it's well if I don't go first — he comes of a long-lived family — and if 
he was to die and leave me well for my life, he'd tie all the money up to go 
back to his own kin.' 


</p>
               <p>The sound of wheels while Mrs Glegg was speaking was an interruption highly 
welcome to Mrs Tulliver, who hastened out to receive sister Pullet — it must 
be sister Pullet because the sound was that of a four-wheel. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg tossed her head and looked rather sour about the mouth at the 
thought of the `four-wheel.' She had a strong opinion on that subject. 


</p>
               <p>Sister Pullet was in tears when the one-horse chaise stopped before Mrs 
Tulliver's door, and it was apparently requisite that she should shed a few 
more before getting out, for though her husband and Mrs Tulliver stood ready 
to support her, she sat still and shook her head sadly as she looked through 
her tears at the vague distance. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, whativer is the matter, sister?' said Mrs Tulliver. She was not an 
imaginative woman, but it occurred to her that the large toilet glass in 
sister Pullet's best bedroom was possibly broken for the second time. 


</p>
               <p>There was no reply but a further shake of the head, as Mrs Pullet slowly rose 
and got down from the chaise, not without casting a glance at Mr Pullet to 
see that he was guarding her handsome silk dress from injury. Mr Pullet was a 
small man with a high nose, small twinkling eyes and thin lips, in a 
fresh-looking suit of black and a white cravat that seemed to have been tied 
very tight on some higher principle than that of mere personal ease. He bore 
about the same relation to his tall, good-looking wife, with her balloon 
sleeves, abundant mantle and large be-feathered and be-ribboned bonnet, as a 
small fishing-smack bears to a brig with all its sails spread. 


</p>
               <p>It is a pathetic sight and a striking example of the com-plexity introduced 
into the emotions by a high state of civilisation — the sight of a 
fashionably drest female in grief. From the sorrow of a Hottentot to that of 
a woman in large buckram sleeves, with several bracelets on each arm, an 
architectural bonnet and delicate ribbon-strings — what a long series of 
gradations! In the enlightened child of civilisation the abandonment 
characteristic of grief is checked and varied in the subtlest manner, so as 
to present an interesting problem to the analytic mind. If with a crushed 
heart and eyes half-blinded by the mist of tears, she were to walk with a too 
devious step through a door-place, she might crush her buckram sleeves too, 
and the deep consciousness of this possibility produces a composition of 
forces by which she takes a line that just clears the doorpost. Perceiving 
that the tears are hurrying fast, she unpins her strings and throws them 
languidly backward — a touching gesture, indicative, even in the deepest 
gloom, of the hope in future dry moments when cap-strings will once more have 
a charm. As the tears subside a little and with her head leaning backward at 
the angle that will not injure her bonnet, she endures that terrible moment 
when grief which has made all things else a weariness has itself become 
weary, she looks down pensively at her bracelets and adjusts their clasps 
with that pretty studied fortuity which would be gratifying to her mind if it 
were once more in a calm and healthy state. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet brushed each doorpost with great nicety, about the latitude of her 
shoulders (at that period a woman was truly ridiculous to an instructed eye 
if she did not measure a yard and a half across the shoulders), and having 
done that sent the muscles of her face in quest of fresh tears as she 
advanced into the parlour where Mrs Glegg was seated. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, sister, you're late: what's the matter?' said Mrs Glegg, rather 
sharply, as they shook hands. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet sat down — lifting up her mantle carefully behind before she 
answered, `She's gone,' unconsciously using an impressive figure of rhetoric. 


</p>
               <p>`It isn't the glass this time, then,' thought Mrs Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`Died the day before yesterday,' continued Mrs Pullet. `An' her legs was as 
thick as my body,' she added, with deep sadness, after a pause. `They'd 
tapped her no end o'times, they say you might ha' swum in the water as came 
from her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Sophy, it's a mercy she's gone, then, whoiver she may be,' said Mrs 
Glegg with the promptitude and emphasis of a mind naturally clear and 
decided; `but I can't think who you're talking of, for my part.' 


</p>
               <p>`But <hi>I</hi> know,' said Mrs Pullet, sighing and shaking her head, `and 
there isn't another such a dropsy in the parish. <hi>I</hi> know as it's old 
Mrs Sutton o' the Twentylands.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, she's no kin o' yours, nor much acquaintance as I've ever heared of,' 
said Mrs Glegg, who always cried just as much as was proper when anything 
happened to her own `kin' but not on other occasions. 


</p>
               <p>`She's so much acquaintance as I've seen her legs when they was like 
bladders... . And an old lady as had doubled her money over and over again, 
and kept it all in her own management to the last, and had her pocket with 
her keys in under her pillow constant. There isn't many old 
<hi>par</hi>ish'ners like her, I doubt.' 


</p>
               <p>`And they say she'd took as much physic as 'ud fill a waggon,' observed Mr 
Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' sighed Mrs Pullet, `she'd another complaint ever so many years before 
she had the dropsy, and the doctors couldn't make out what it was. And she 
said to me, when I went to see her last Christmas, she said, `Mrs Pullet, if 
iver you have the dropsy, you'll think o' me.' She <hi>did</hi> say so,' 
added Mrs Pullet, beginning to cry bitterly again, `those were her very 
words. And she's to be buried o' Saturday, and Pullet's bid to the funeral.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sophy,' said Mrs Glegg, unable any longer to contain her spirit of rational 
remonstrance, `Sophy, I wonder <hi>at</hi> you, fretting and injuring your 
health about people as don't belong to you. Your poor father never did so, 
nor your aunt Frances neither, nor any o' the family as I ever heared of. You 
couldn't fret no more than this, if we'd heared as our cousin Abbott had died 
sudden without making his will.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet was silent, having to finish her crying, and rather flattered than 
indignant at being upbraided for crying too much. It was not everybody who 
could afford to cry so much about their neighbours who had left them nothing; 
but Mrs Pullet had married a gentleman farmer, and had leisure and money to 
carry her crying and everything else to the highest pitch of respectability. 


</p>
               <p>`Mrs Sutton didn't die without making her will, though,' said Mr Pullet, with 
a confused sense that he was saying something to sanction his wife's tears; 
`ours is a rich parish, but they say there's nobody else to leave as many 
thousands behind 'em as Mrs Sutton. And she's left no leggicies, to speak on 
— left it all in a lump to her husband's nevvy.' 


</p>
               <p>`There wasn't much good i' being so rich, then,' said Mrs Glegg, `if she'd 
got none but husband's kin to leave it to. It's poor work when that's all 
you've got to pinch yourself for — not as I'm one o' those as 'ud like to die 
without leaving more money out at interest than other folks had reckoned. But 
it's a poor tale when it must go out o' your own family.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure, sister,' said Mrs Pullet, who had recovered sufficiently to take 
off her veil and fold it carefully, `it's a nice sort o' man as Mrs Sutton 
has left her money to, for he's troubled with the asthmy and goes to bed 
every night at eight o'clock. He told me about it himself, as free as could 
be, one Sunday when he came to our church. He wears a hare-skin on his chest, 
and has a trembling in his talk — quite a gentleman sort o' man. I told him 
there wasn't many months in the year as I wasn't under the doctor's hands. 
And he said, `Mrs Pullet I can feel for you.' That was what he said — the 
very words. Ah!' sighed Mrs Pullet, shaking her head at the idea that there 
were few who could enter fully into her experiences in pink mixture and white 
mixture, strong stuff in small bottles, and weak stuff in large bottles, damp 
boluses at a shilling, and draughts at eighteenpence. `Sister, I may as well 
go and take my bonnet off now. Did you see as the cap-box was put out?' she 
added, turning to her husband. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Pullet, by an unaccountable lapse of memory, had forgotten it. He hastened 
out with a stricken conscience to remedy the omission. 


</p>
               <p>`They'll bring it upstairs, sister,' said Mrs Tulliver, wishing to go at 
once, lest Mrs Glegg should begin to explain her feelings about Sophy's being 
the first Dodson who ever ruined her constitution with doctor's stuff. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was fond of going upstairs with her sister Pullet, and looking 
thoroughly at her cap before she put it on her head and discussing millinery 
in general. This was part of Bessy's weakness that stirred Mrs Glegg's 
sisterly compassion: Bessy went far too well-drest, considering; and she was 
too proud to dress her child in the good clothing her sister Glegg gave her 
from the primeval strata of her wardrobe; it was a sin and a shame to buy 
anything to dress that child, if it wasn't a pair of shoes. In this 
particular however, Mrs Glegg did her sister Bessy some injustice, for Mrs 
Tulliver had really made great efforts to induce Maggie to wear a leghorn 
bonnet and a dyed silk frock made out of her aunt Glegg's but the results had 
been such1 that Mrs Tulliver was obliged to bury them in her maternal bosom; 
for Maggie, declaring that the frock smelt of nasty dye, had taken an 
opportunity of basting it together with the roast beef the first Sunday she 
wore it, and finding this scheme answer, she had subsequently pumped on the 
bonnet with its green ribbons so as to give it a general resemblance to a 
sage cheese garnished with withered lettuces. I must urge in excuse for 
Maggie that Tom had laughed at her in the bonnet and said she looked like an 
old Judy. Aunt Pullet, too, made presents of clothes, but these were always 
new and pretty enough to please Maggie as well as her mother. Of all her 
sisters Mrs Tulliver certainly preferred her sister Pullet, not without a 
return of preference; but Mrs Pullet was sorry Bessy had those naughty 
awkward children; she would do the best she could by them, but it was a pity 
they weren't as good and as pretty as sister Deane's child. Maggie and Tom, 
on their part, thought their aunt Pullet tolerable chiefly because she was 
not their aunt Glegg. Tom always declined to go more than once during his 
holidays to see either of them: both his uncles tipped him that once, of 
course, but at his aunt Pullet's there were a great many toads to pelt in the 
cellar area, so that he preferred the visit to her. Maggie shuddered at the 
toads and dreamed of them horribly, but she liked her uncle Pullet's musical 
snuff-box. Still, it was agreed by the sisters in Mrs Tulliver's absence that 
the Tulliver blood did not mix well with the Dodson blood, that, in fact, 
poor Bessy's children were Tullivers and that Tom, notwithstanding he had the 
Dodson complexion, was likely to be as `contrairy' as his father. As for 
Maggie, she was the picture of her aunt Moss, Mr Tulliver's sister, a 
large-boned woman who had married as poorly as could be, had no china, and 
had a husband who had much ado to pay his rent. But when Mrs Pullet was alone 
with Mrs Tulliver upstairs, the remarks were naturally to the disadvantage of 
Mrs Glegg, and they agreed in confidence that there was no knowing what sort 
of fright sister Jane would come out next. But their 
<hi>tête-a-tête</hi> was curtailed by the appearance of Mrs Deane 
with little Lucy, and Mrs Tulliver had to look on with a silent pang while 
Lucy's blond curls were adjusted. It was quite unaccountable that Mrs Deane, 
the thinnest and sallowest of all the Miss Dodsons, should have had this 
child who might have been taken for Mrs Tulliver's any day. And Maggie always 
looked twice as dark as usual when she was by the side of Lucy. 


</p>
               <p>She did to-day, when she and Tom came in from the garden with their father 
and their uncle Glegg. Maggie had thrown her bonnet off very carelessly and 
coming in with her hair rough as well as out of curl, rushed at once to Lucy, 
who was standing by her mother's knee. Certainly the contrast between the 
cousins was conspicuous and to superficial eyes was very much to the 
disadvantage of Maggie, though a connoisseur might have seen `points' in her 
which had a higher promise for maturity than Lucy's natty completeness: it 
was like the contrast between a rough, dark, overgrown puppy and a white 
kitten. Lucy put up the neatest little rosebud mouth to be kissed: everything 
about her was neat — her little round neck with the row of coral beads, her 
little straight nose, not at all snubby, her little clear eyebrows, rather 
darker than her curls, to match her hazel eyes which looked up with shy 
pleasure at Maggie, taller by the head, though scarcely a year older. Maggie 
always looked at Lucy with delight. She was fond of fancying a world where 
the people never got any larger than children of their own age, and she made 
the queen of it just like Lucy with a little crown on her head and a little 
sceptre in her hand...  only the queen was Maggie herself in Lucy's form. 


</p>
               <p>`O Lucy,' she burst out, after kissing her, `You'll stay with Tom and me, 
won't you? O kiss her, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom, too, had come up to Lucy, but he was not going to kiss her — no — he 
came up to her with Maggie because it seemed easier on the whole than saying, 
how do you do to all those aunts and uncles: he stood looking at nothing in 
particular, with the blushing awkward air and semismile which are common to 
shy boys when in company — very much as if they had come into the world by 
mistake and found it in a degree of undress that was quite embarrassing. 


</p>
               <p>`Heyday!' said aunt Glegg with loud emphasis, `do little boys and gells come 
into a room without taking notice o'their uncles and aunts? That wasn't the 
way when <hi>I</hi> was a little gell.' 


</p>
               <p>`Go and speak to your aunts and uncles, my dears,' said Mrs Tulliver, looking 
anxious and melancholy. She wanted to whisper to Maggie a command to go and 
have her hair brushed. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, and how do you do? And I hope you're good children, are you?' said 
aunt Glegg, in the same loud emphatic way, as she took their hands, hurting 
them with her large rings and kissing their cheeks much against their desire. 
`Look up, Tom, look up. Boys as go to boarding-schools should hold their 
heads up. Look at me, now.' Tom declined that pleasure, apparently, for he 
tried to draw his hand away. `Put your hair behind your ears, Maggie, and 
keep your frock on your shoulder.' 


</p>
               <p>Aunt Glegg always spoke to them in this loud emphatic way, as if she 
considered them deaf or perhaps rather idiotic: it was a means, she thought, 
of making them feel that they were accountable creatures, and might be a 
salutary check on naughty tendencies. Bessy's children were so spoiled 
-they'd need have somebody to make them feel their duty. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, my dears,' said aunt Pullet, in a compassionate voice, `you grow, 
wonderful fast. I doubt they'll outgrow their strength,' she added, looking 
over their heads with a melancholy expression at their mother. `I think the 
gell has too much hair. I'd have it thinned and cut shorter, sister, if I was 
you: it isn't good for her health. It's that as makes her skin so brown, I 
shouldn't wonder. Don't you think so, sister Deane?' 


</p>
               <p>I can't say, I'm sure, sister,' said Mrs Deane, shutting her lips close 
again, and looking at Maggie with a critical eye. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' said Mr Tulliver, `the child's healthy enough — there's nothing 
ails her. There's red wheat as well as white, for that matter, and some like 
the dark grain best. But it 'ud be as well if Bessy 'ud have the child's hair 
cut, so as it 'ud lie smooth.' 


</p>
               <p>A dreadful resolve was gathering in Maggie's breast, but it was arrested by 
the desire to know from her aunt Deane whether she would leave Lucy behind: 
aunt Deane would hardly ever let Lucy come to see them. After various reasons 
for refusal, Mrs Deane appealed to Lucy herself. 


</p>
               <p>`You wouldn't like to stay behind without mother, should you, Lucy?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, please, mother,' said Lucy, timidly, blushing very pink all over her 
little neck. 


</p>
               <p>`Well done, Lucy! Let her stay, Mrs Deane, let her stay,' said Mr Deane, a 
large but alert-looking man with a type of physique to be seen in all ranks 
of English society — bald crown, red whiskers, full forehead, and general 
solidity without heaviness. You may see nobleman like Mr Deane, and you may 
see grocers or day-labourers like him; but the keenness of his brown eyes was 
less common than his contour. He held a silver snuff-box very tightly in his 
hand, and now and then exchanged a pinch with Mr Tulliver, whose box was only 
silver-mounted, so that it was naturally a joke between them that Mr Tulliver 
wanted to exchange snuff-boxes also. Mr Deane's box had been given him by the 
superior partners in the firm to which he belonged, at the same time that 
they gave him a share in the business in acknowledgment of his valuable 
services as manager. No man was thought more highly of in St Ogg's than Mr 
Deane, and some persons were even of opinion that Miss Susan Dodson, who was 
held to have made the worst match of all the Dodson sisters, might one day 
ride in a better carriage and live in a better house even than her sister 
Pullet. There was no knowing where a man would stop, who had got his foot 
into a great mill-owning, ship-owning business like that of Guest &amp; Co. with 
a banking concern attached. And Mrs Deane, as her intimate female friends 
observed, was proud and having enough: <hi>she</hi> wouldn't let her husband 
stand still in the world for want of spurring. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' said Mrs Tulliver, beckoning Maggie to her and whispering in her 
ear as soon as this point of Lucy's staying was settled, `go and get your 
hair brushed — do, for shame. I told you not to come in without going to 
Martha first, you know I did.' 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, come out with me,' whispered Maggie, pulling his sleeve as she passed 
him, and Tom followed willingly enough. 


</p>
               <p>`Come upstairs with me, Tom,' she whispered when they were outside the door. 
`There's something I want to do before dinner.' 


</p>
               <p>`There's no time to play at anything before dinner,' said Tom, whose 
imagination was impatient of any intermediate prospect. 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, there's time for this — <hi>do</hi> come, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom followed Maggie upstairs into her mother's room, and saw her go at once 
to a drawer from which she took out a large pair of scissors. 


</p>
               <p>`What are they for, Maggie?' said Tom, feeling his curiosity awakened. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie answered by seizing her front locks and cutting them straight across 
the middle of her forehead. 


</p>
               <p>`O, my buttons, Maggie — you'll catch it!' exclaimed Tom. `You'd better not 
cut any more off.' 


</p>
               <p>Snip! went the great scissors again while Tom was speaking, and he couldn't 
help feeling it was rather good fun: Maggie would look so queer. 


</p>
               <p>`Here Tom, cut it behind for me,' said Maggie, excited by her own daring and 
anxious to finish the deed. 


</p>
               <p>`You'll catch it, you know,' said Tom, nodding his head in an admonitory 
manner, and hesitating a little as he took the scissors. 


</p>
               <p>`Never mind — make haste!' said Maggie, giving a little stamp with her foot. 
Her cheeks were quite flushed. 


</p>
               <p>The black locks were so thick — nothing could be more tempting to a lad who 
had already tasted the forbidden pleasure of cutting the pony's mane. I speak 
to those who know the satisfaction of making a pair of shears meet through a 
duly resisting mass of hair. One delicious grinding snip, and then another 
and another, and the hinder locks fell heavily on the floor, and Maggie stood 
cropped in a jagged uneven manner, but with a sense of clearness and freedom, 
as if she had emerged from a wood into the open plain. 


</p>
               <p>`O Maggie,' said Tom, jumping round her and slapping his knees as he laughed, 
`O, my buttons, what a queer thing you look! Look at yourself in the glass — 
you look like the idiot we throw our nutshells to at school.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt an unexpected pang. She had thought before-hand chiefly of her 
own deliverance from her teasing hair and teasing remarks about it, and 
something also of the triumph she should have over her mother and her aunts 
by this very decided course of action: she didn't want her hair to look 
pretty — that was out of the question — she only wanted people to think her a 
clever little girl and not to find fault with her. But now when Tom began to 
laugh at her and say she was like the idiot, the affair had quite a new 
aspect. She looked in the glass, and still Tom laughed and clapped his hands, 
and Maggie's flushed cheeks began to pale, and her lips to tremble a little. 


</p>
               <p>`O Maggie, you'll have to go down to dinner directly,' said Tom. `O my!' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't laugh at me, Tom,' said Maggie, in a passionate tone, with an outburst 
of angry tears, stamping and giving him a push. 


</p>
               <p>`Now then spitfire!' said Tom. `What did you cut it off for then? I shall go 
down: I can smell the dinner going in.' 


</p>
               <p>He hurried down-stairs and left poor Maggie to that bitter sense of the 
irrevocable which was almost an every-day experience of her small soul. She 
could see clearly enough now the thing was done that it was very foolish, and 
that she should have to hear and think more about her hair than ever; for 
Maggie rushed to her deeds with passionate impulse, and then saw not only 
their consequences, but what would have happened if they had not been done, 
with all the detail and exaggerated circumstances of an active imagination. 
Tom never did the same sort of foolish things as Maggie, having a wonderful, 
instinctive discernment of what would turn to his advantage or disadvantage, 
and so it happened that though he was much more wilful and inflexible than 
Maggie, his mother hardly ever called him naughty. But if Tom did make a 
mistake of that sort he espoused it and stood by it: he `didn't mind': — if 
he broke the lash of his father's gigwhip by lashing the gate, he couldn't 
help it — the whip shouldn't have got caught in the hinge. If Tom Tulliver 
whipped a gate he was convinced, not that the whipping of gates by all boys 
was a justifiable act, but that he Tom Tulliver was justifiable in whipping 
that particular gate, and he wasn't going to be sorry. But Maggie, as she 
stood crying before the glass, felt it impossible that she should go down to 
dinner and endure the severe eyes and severe words of her aunts, while Tom, 
and Lucy, and Kezia who waited at table, and perhaps her father and her 
uncles, would laugh at her — for if Tom had laughed at her of course every 
one else would: and if she had only let her hair alone, she could have sat 
with Tom and Lucy and had the apricot pudding and the custard! What could she 
do but sob? She sat as helpless and despairing among her black locks as Ajax 
among the slaughtered sheep. Very trivial, perhaps, this anguish seems to 
weather-worn mortals who have to think of Christmas bills, dead loves and 
broken friendships, but it was not less bitter to Maggie — perhaps it was 
even more bitter — than what we are fond of calling antithetically the real 
troubles of mature life. `Ah, my child, you will have real troubles to fret 
about by and by,' is the consolation we have almost all of us had 
administered to us in our childhood, and have repeated to other children 
since we have been grown up. We have all of us sobbed so piteously standing 
with tiny bare legs above our little socks, when we lost sight of our mother 
or nurse in some strange place, but we can no longer recall the poignancy of 
that moment till we weep over it, as we do over the remembered sufferings of 
five or ten years ago. Every one of those keen moments has left its trace and 
lives in us still, but such traces have blent themselves irrecoverably with 
the firmer texture of our youth and man-hood; and so it comes that we can 
look on at the troubles of our children with a smiling disbelief in the 
reality of their pain. Is there any one who can recover the experience of his 
childhood, not merely with a memory of what he did and what happened to him, 
of what he liked and disliked when he was in frock and trousers, but with an 
intimate penetration, a revived consciousness of what he felt then — when it 
was so long from one Midsummer to another? — what he felt when his 
schoolfellows shut him out of their game because he would pitch the ball 
wrong out of mere wilfulness; or on a rainy day in the holidays when he 
didn't know how to amuse himself and fell from idleness into mischief, from 
mischief into defiance, and from defiance into sulkiness; or when his mother 
absolutely refused to let him have a tailed coat that `half,' although every 
other boy of his age had gone into tails already? Surely if we could recall 
that early bitterness, and the dim guesses, the strangely perspectiveless 
conception of life that gave the bitterness its intensity, we should not 
pooh-pooh the griefs of our children. 


</p>
               <p>`Miss Maggie, you're to come down this minute,' said Kezia, entering the room 
hurriedly. `Lawks! what have you been a-doing? I niver <hi>see</hi> such a 
fright.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't, Kezia,' said Maggie, angrily. `Go away!' 


</p>
               <p>`But I tell you, you're to come down, Miss, this minute: your mother says 
so,' said Kezia, going up to Maggie and taking her by the hand to raise her 
from the floor. 


</p>
               <p>`Get away, Kezia, I don't want any dinner,' said Maggie, resisting Kezia's 
arm, `I shan't come.' 


</p>
               <p>`O well, I can't stay: I've got to wait at dinner,' said Kezia, going out 
again. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, you little silly,' said Tom, peeping into the room ten minutes 
after, `why don't you come and have your dinner? There's lots o' goodies, and 
my mother says you're to come. What are you crying for, you little spooney?' 


</p>
               <p>O it was dreadful! Tom was so hard and unconcerned: if <hi>he</hi> had been 
crying on the floor, Maggie would have cried too. And there was the dinner, 
so nice; and she was <hi>so</hi> hungry. It was very bitter. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom was not altogether hard. He was not inclined to cry, and did not feel 
that Maggie's grief spoiled his prospect of the sweets; but he went and put 
his head near her, and said in a lower, comforting tone, 


</p>
               <p>`Won't you come, then, Magsie? Shall I bring you a bit o' pudding when I've 
had mine?...  and a custard and things?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ye-e-es,' said Maggie, beginning to feel life a little more tolerable. 


</p>
               <p>`Very well,' said Tom, going away. But he turned again at the door and said, 
`But you'd better come, you know. There's the dessert — nuts, you know — and 
cowslip wine.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's tears had ceased, and she looked reflective as Tom left her. His 
good nature had taken off the keenest edge of her suffering, and nuts with 
cowslip wine began to assert their legitimate influence. 


</p>
               <p>Slowly she rose from amongst her scattered locks and slowly she made her way 
downstairs. Then she stood leaning with one shoulder against the frame of the 
dining parlour door, peeping in when it was ajar. She saw Tom and Lucy with 
an empty chair between them, and there were the custards on a side table — it 
was too much. She slipped in and went towards the empty chair. But she had no 
sooner sat down than she repented and wished herself back again. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver gave a little scream as she saw her, and felt such a `turn' that 
she dropt the large gravy spoon into the dish with the most serious results 
to the table-cloth. For Kezia had not betrayed the reason of Maggie's refusal 
to come down, not liking to give her mistress a shock in the moment of 
carving, and Mrs Tulliver thought there was nothing worse in question than a 
fit of perverseness which was inflicting its own punishment, by depriving 
Maggie of half her dinner. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver's scream made all eyes turn towards the same point as her own, 
and Maggie's cheeks and ears began to burn, while uncle Glegg, a 
kind-looking, white-haired old gentleman, said— 


</p>
               <p>`Heyday! what little gell's this — why, I don't know her. It is some little 
gell you've picked up in the road, Kezia?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, she's gone and cut her hair herself,' said Mr Tulliver in an under-tone 
to Mr Deane, laughing with much enjoyment. `Did you ever know such a little 
hussy as it is?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, little miss. You've made yourself look very funny,' said uncle Pullet, 
and perhaps he never in his life made an observation which was felt to be so 
lacerating. 


</p>
               <p>`Fie, for shame!' said aunt Glegg, in her loudest, severest tone of reproof. 
`Little gells as cut their own hair should be whipped and fed on bread and 
water — not come and sit down with their aunts and uncles.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay,' said uncle Glegg, Meaning to give a playful turn to this 
denunciation, `she must be sent to gaol, I think, and they'll cut the rest of 
her hair off there, and make it all even.' 


</p>
               <p>`She's more like a gypsy nor ever,' said aunt Pullet, in a pitying tone, 
`It's very bad luck, sister, as the gell should be so brown — the boy's fair 
enough. I doubt it'll stand in her way i' life, to be so brown.' 


</p>
               <p>`She's a naughty child, as 'll break her mother's heart,' said Mrs Tulliver, 
with tears in her eyes. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie seemed to be listening to a chorus of reproach and derision. Her first 
flush came from anger which gave her a transient power of defiance, and Tom 
thought she was braving it out, supported by the recent appearance of the 
pudding and custard. Under this impression, he whispered, `O my! Maggie, I 
told you you'd catch it.' He meant to be friendly, but Maggie felt convinced 
that Tom was rejoicing in her ignominy. Her feeble power of defiance left her 
in an instant, her heart swelled, and getting up from her chair, she ran to 
her father, hid her face on his shoulder and burst out into loud sobbing. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come, my wench,' said her father soothingly putting his arms round 
her, `never mind. You was i' the right to cut it off if it plagued you. Give 
over crying: father 'll take your part.' 


</p>
               <p>Delicious words of tenderness! Maggie never forgot any of these moments when 
her father `took her part:' she kept them in her heart and thought of them 
long years after, when every one else said that her father had done very ill 
by his children. 


</p>
               <p>`How your husband does spoil that child, Bessy!' said Mrs Glegg, in a loud 
`aside' to Mrs Tulliver. `It'll be the ruin of her, if you don't take care. 
<hi>My</hi> father niver brought his children up so, else we should ha' been 
a different sort o' family to what we are.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver's domestic sorrows seemed at this moment to have reached the 
point at which insensibility begins. She took no notice of her sister's 
remark, but threw back her cap-strings and dispensed the pudding, in mute 
resignation. 


</p>
               <p>With the dessert there came entire deliverance for Maggie, for the children 
were told they might have their nuts and wine in the summer-house, since the 
day was so mild, and they scampered out among the budding bushes of the 
garden, with the alacrity of small animals getting from under a 
burning-glass. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver had her special reason for this permission: now the dinner was 
despatched and every one's mind disengaged, it was the right moment to 
communicate Mr Tulliver's intention concerning Tom, and it would be as well 
for Tom himself to be absent. The children were used to hear themselves 
talked of as freely as if they were birds and could understand nothing, 
however they might stretch their necks and listen; but on this occasion Mrs 
Tulliver manifested an unusual discretion because she had recently had 
evidence that the going to school to a clergyman was a sore point with Tom, 
who looked at it as very much on a par with going to school to a constable. 
Mrs Tulliver had a sighing sense that her husband would do as he liked, 
whatever sister Glegg said, or sister Pullet either, but at least they would 
not be able to say, if the thing turned out ill, that Bessy had fallen in 
with her husband's folly without letting her own friends know a word about 
it. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Tulliver,' she said, interrupting her husband in his talk with Mr Deane, 
`It's time now to tell the children's aunts and uncles what you're thinking 
of doing with Tom, isn't it?' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well,' said Mr Tulliver, rather sharply, `I've no objections to tell 
anybody what I mean to do with him. I've settled,' he added, looking towards 
Mr Glegg and Mr Deane, `I've settled to send him to a Mr Stelling, a parson, 
down at King's Lorton, there, an uncommon clever fellow, I understand, as'll 
put him up to most things.' 


</p>
               <p>There was a rustling demonstration of surprise in the company, such as you 
may have observed in a country congregation when they hear an allusion to 
their week-day affairs from the pulpit. It was equally astonishing to the 
aunts and uncles to find a parson introduced into Mr Tulliver's family 
arrangements. As for uncle Pullet, he could hardly have been more thoroughly 
obfuscated if Mr Tulliver had said that he was going to send Tom to the Lord 
Chancellor: for uncle Pullet belonged to that extinct class of British yeomen 
who dressed in good broadcloth, paid high rates and taxes, went to church, 
and ate a particularly good dinner on Sunday, without dreaming that the 
British constitution in Church and State had a traceable origin any more than 
the solar system and the fixed stars. It is melancholy, but true, that Mr 
Pullet had the most confused idea of a bishop as a sort of a baronet, who 
might or might not be a clergyman; and as the rector of his own parish was a 
man of high family and fortune, the idea that a clergyman could be a 
schoolmaster was too remote from Mr Pullet's experience to be readily 
conceivable. I know it is difficult for people in these instructed times to 
believe in uncle Pullet's ignorance; but let them reflect on the remarkable 
results of a great natural faculty under favouring circumstances. And uncle 
Pullet had a great natural faculty for ignorance. He was the first to give 
utterance to his astonishment. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what can you be going to send him to a parson for?' he said, with an 
amazed twinkling in his eyes, looking at Mr Glegg and Mr Deane, to see if 
they showed any signs of comprehension. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, because the parsons are the best schoolmasters by what I can make out,' 
said poor Mr Tulliver, who in the maze of this puzzling world, laid hold of 
any clue with great readiness and tenacity. `Jacobs at th' Academy's no 
parson, and he's done very bad by the boy, and I made up my mind if I sent 
him to school again, It should be to somebody different to Jacobs. And this 
Mr Stelling, by what I can make out, is the sort o' man I want. And I mean my 
boy to go to him at Midsummer,' he concluded, in a tone of decision, tapping 
his snuff-box and taking a pinch. 


</p>
               <p>`You'll have to pay a swinging half-yearly bill then, eh, Tulliver? The 
clergymen have highish notions, in general,' said Mr Deane, taking snuff 
vigorously, as he always did when wishing to maintain a neutral position. 


</p>
               <p>`What, do you think the parson 'll teach him to know a good sample o' wheat 
when he sees it, neighbour Tulliver?' said Mr Glegg, who was fond of his 
jest, and, having retired from business, felt that it was not only allowable 
but becoming in him to take a playful view of things. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you see, I've got a plan i' my head about Tom,' said Mr Tulliver, 
pausing after that statement and lifting up his glass. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, if I may be allowed to speak, and it's seldom as I am,' said Mrs 
Glegg, with a tone of bitter meaning, `I should like to know what good is to 
come to the boy, by bringin' him up above his fortin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why,' said Mr Tulliver, not looking at Mrs Glegg, but at the male part of 
his audience, `you see, I've made up my mind not to bring Tom up to my own 
business. I've had my thoughts about it all along, and I made up my mind by 
what I saw with Garnett and <hi>his</hi> son. I mean to put him to some 
business, as he can go into without capital, and I want to give him an 
eddication as he'll be even wi' the lawyers and folks, and put me up to a 
notion now an' then.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg emitted a long sort of guttural sound with closed lips that smiled 
in mingled pity and scorn. 


</p>
               <p>`It 'ud be a fine deal better for some people,' she said, after that 
introductory note, `if they'd let the lawyers alone.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is he at the head of a grammar school, then, this clergyman — such as that 
at Market Bewley?' said Mr Deane. 


</p>
               <p>`No — nothing o' that,' said Mr Tulliver. `He won't take more than two or 
three pupils — and so he'll have the more time to attend to 'em, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, and get his eddication done the sooner; they can't learn much at a time 
when there's so many of 'em,' said uncle Pullet, feeling that he was getting 
quite an insight into this difficult matter. 


</p>
               <p>`But he'll want the more pay, I doubt,' said Mr Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, a cool hundred a year — that's all,' said Mr Tulliver, with some 
pride at his own spirited course. `But then, you know, it's an investment, 
like; Tom's eddication 'ull be so much capital to him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, there's something in that,' said Mr Glegg. `Well, well, neighbour 
Tulliver, you may be right, you may be right: 


</p>
               <p>“When land is gone and money's spent, Then learning is most 
excellent.” 


</p>
               <p>I remember seeing those two lines wrote on a window at Buxton. But us that 
have got no learning had better keep our money, eh, neighbour Pullet?' Mr 
Glegg rubbed his knees and looked very pleasant. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg, I wonder <hi>at</hi> you,' said his wife. `It's very unbecoming in 
a man o' your age and belongings.' 


</p>
               <p>`What's unbecoming, Mrs G.?' said Mr Glegg, winking pleasantly at the 
company. `My new blue coat as I've got on?' 


</p>
               <p>`I pity your weakness, Mr Glegg. I say, it's unbecoming to be making a joke 
when you see your own kin going headlongs to ruin.' 


</p>
               <p>`If you mean me by that,' said Mr Tulliver, considerably nettled, `You 
needn't trouble yourself to fret about me. I can manage my own affairs 
without troubling other folks.' 


</p>
               <p>`Bless me,' said Mr Deane, Judiciously introducing a new idea, `why, now I 
come to think of it, somebody said Wakem was going to send <hi>his</hi> son — 
the deformed lad — to a clergyman, didn't they, Susan?' (appealing to his 
wife). 


</p>
               <p>`I can give no account of it, I'm sure,' said Mrs Deane, closing her lips 
very tightly again. Mrs Deane was not a woman to take part in a scene where 
missiles were flying. 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Tulliver, speaking all the more cheerfully that Mrs Glegg 
might see he didn't mind her, `if Wakem thinks o' sending his son to a 
clergyman, depend on it I shall make no mistake i' sending Tom to one. 
Wakem's as big a scoundrel as Old Harry ever made, but he knows the length of 
every man's foot he's got to deal with. Ay, ay, tell me who's Wakem's 
butcher, and I'll tell you where to get your meat.' 


</p>
               <p>`But lawyer Wakem's son's got a hump-back,' said Mrs Pullet who felt as if 
the whole business had a funereal aspect, `it's more nat'ral to send 
<hi>him</hi> to a clergyman.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Mr Glegg, interpreting Mrs Pullet's observation with erroneous 
plausibility, `you must consider that, neighbour Tulliver; Wakem's son isn't 
likely to follow any business. Wakem 'ull make a gentleman of him, poor 
fellow.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G., in a tone which implied that her indignation would 
fizz and ooze a little, though she was determined to keep it corked up, 
`you'd far better hold your tongue. Mr Tulliver doesn't want to know your 
opinion nor mine neither. There's folks in the world as know better than 
everybody else.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, I should think that's you, if we're to trust your own tale, said Mr 
Tulliver, beginning to boil up again. 


</p>
               <p>`O, <hi>I</hi> say nothing,' said Mrs Glegg, sarcastically. `My advice has 
never been asked, and I don't give it.' 


</p>
               <p>`It'll be the first time, then,' said Mr Tulliver. `It's the only thing 
you're over-ready at giving.' 


</p>
               <p>`I've been over-ready at lending, then, if haven't been over-ready at 
giving,' said Mrs Glegg. `There's folks I've lent money to, as perhaps I 
shall repent o' lending money to kin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come, come,' said Mr Glegg soothingly. But Mr Tulliver was not to be 
hindered of his retort. 


</p>
               <p>`You've got a bond for it, I reckon,' he said. `And you've had your five per 
cent, kin or no kin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sister,' said Mrs Tulliver pleadingly, `drink your wine, and let me give you 
some almonds and raisins.' 


</p>
               <p>`Bessy, I'm sorry for you,' said Mrs Glegg, very much with the feeling of a 
cur that seizes the opportunity of diverting his bark towards the man who 
carries no stick. `It's poor work talking o' almonds and raisins.' 


</p>
               <p>`Lors, sister Glegg, don't be so quarrelsome,' said Mrs Pullet, beginning to 
cry a little. `You may be struck with a fit, getting so red in the face after 
dinner, and we are but just out o' mourning, all of us — and all wi' gowns 
craped alike and just put by — it's very bad among sisters.' 


</p>
               <p>`I should think it <hi>is</hi> bad,' said Mrs Glegg. `Things are come to a 
fine pass when one sister invites the other to her house o' purpose to 
quarrel with her and abuse her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Softly, softly, Jane — be reasonable — be reasonable,' said Mr Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>But while he was speaking, Mr Tulliver, who had by no means said enough to 
satisfy his anger, burst out again. 


</p>
               <p>`Who wants to quarrel with you?' he said. `It's you as can't let people 
alone, but must be gnawing at 'em for ever. <hi>I</hi> should never want to 
quarrel with any woman, if she kept her place.' 


</p>
               <p>`My place, indeed!' said Mrs Glegg, getting rather more shrill. `There's your 
betters, Mr Tulliver, as are dead and in their grave, treated me with a 
different sort o' respect to what you do — <hi>though</hi> I've got a husband 
as'll sit by and see me abused by them as 'ud never ha' had the chance if 
there hadn't been them in our family as married worse than they might ha' 
done.' 


</p>
               <p>`If you talk o' that,' said Mr Tulliver, `my family's as good as yours — and 
better, for it hasn't got a damned illtempered woman in it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well!' said Mrs Glegg, rising from her chair, `I don't know whether you 
think it's a fine thing to sit by and hear me swore at, Mr Glegg, but I'm not 
going to stay a minute longer in this house. You can stay behind, and come 
home with the gig, and I'll walk home.' 


</p>
               <p>`Dear heart, dear heart!' said Mr Glegg in a melancholy tone, as he followed 
his wife out of the room. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Tulliver, how could you talk so?' said Mrs Tulliver, with the tears in 
her eyes. 


</p>
               <p>`Let her go,' said Mr Tulliver, too hot to be damped by any amount of tears. 
`Let her go, and the sooner the better: she won't be trying to domineer over 
<hi>me</hi> again in a hurry.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sister Pullet,' said Mrs Tulliver, helplessly, `do you think it 'ud be any 
use for you to go after her and try to pacify her?' 


</p>
               <p>`Better not, better not,' said Mr Deane. `You'll make it up another day.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then, sisters, shall we go and look at the children?' said Mrs Tulliver, 
drying her eyes. 


</p>
               <p>No proposition could have been more seasonable. Mr Tulliver felt very much as 
if the air had been cleared of obstrusive flies now the women were out of the 
room. There were few things he liked better than a chat with Mr Deane, whose 
close application to business allowed the pleasure very rarely. Mr Deane, he 
considered, was the `knowingest' man of his acquaintance and he had besides a 
ready causticity of tongue which made an agreeable supplement to Mr 
Tulliver's own tendency that way, which had remained in rather an embryonic 
or inarticulate condition. And now the women were gone, they could carry on 
their serious talk without frivolous interruption. They could exchange their 
views concerning the Duke of Wellington whose conduct in the Catholic 
Question had thrown such an entirely new light on his character, and speak 
slightingly of his conduct at the battle of Waterloo, which he would never 
have won if there hadn't been a great many Englishmen at his back, not to 
speak of Blucher and the Prussians, who, as Mr Tulliver had heard from a 
person of particular knowledge in that matter, had come up in the very nick 
of time; though here there was a slight dissidence, Mr Deane remarking that 
he was not disposed to give much credit to the Prussians, the build of their 
vessels together with the unsatisfactory character of transactions in Dantzic 
beer, inclining him to form rather a low view of Prussian pluck generally. 
Rather beaten on this ground, Mr Tulliver proceeded to express his fears that 
the country could never again be what it used to be; but Mr Deane, attached 
to a firm of which the returns were on the increase, naturally took a more 
lively view of the present, and had some details to give concerning the state 
of the imports especially in hides and spelter, which soothed Mr Tulliver's 
imagination by throwing into more distant perspective the period when the 
country would become utterly the prey of Papists and Radicals and there would 
be no more chance for honest men. 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Pullet sat by and listened with twinkling eyes to these high matters. 
He didn't understand politics himself — thought they were a natural gift — 
but by what he could make out, this Duke of Wellington was no better than he 
should be. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.8" type="chapter">
               <head>Mr Tulliver Shows His Weaker Side</head>
               <p>`SUPPOSE sister Glegg should call her money in — it 'ud be very awkward for 
you to have to raise five hundred pounds now,' said Mrs Tulliver to her 
husband that evening, as she took a plaintive review of the day. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver had lived thirteen years with her husband, yet she retained in 
all the freshness of her early married life a facility of saying things which 
drove him in the opposite direction to the one she desired. Some minds are 
wonderful for keeping their bloom in this way, as a patriarchal gold-fish 
apparently retains to the last its youthful illusion that it can swim in a 
straight line beyond the encircling glass. Mrs Tulliver was an amiable fish 
of this kind, and after running her head against the same resisting medium 
for thirteen years would go at it again to-day with undulled alacrity. 


</p>
               <p>This observation of hers tended directly to convince Mr Tulliver that it 
would not be at all awkward for him to raise five hundred pounds, and when 
Mrs Tulliver became rather pressing to know <hi>how</hi> he would raise it 
without mortgaging the mill and the house which he had said he never 
<hi>would</hi> mortgage, since nowadays people were none so ready to lend 
money without security, Mr Tulliver, getting warm, declared that Mrs Glegg 
might do as she liked about calling in her money — he should pay it in, 
whether or not. He was not going to be beholding to his wife's sisters. When 
a man had married into a family where there was a whole litter of women, he 
might have plenty to put up with if he choose. But Mr Tulliver did 
<hi>not</hi> choose. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver cried a little in a trickling quiet way as she put on her 
nightcap; but presently sank into a comfortable sleep, lulled by the thought 
that she would talk everything over with her sister Pullet tomorrow when she 
was to take the children to Garum Firs to tea. Not that she looked forward to 
any distinct issue from that talk, but it seemed impossible that past events 
should be so obstinate as to remain unmodified when they were complained 
against. 


</p>
               <p>Her husband lay awake rather longer, for he too was thinking of a visit he 
would pay on the morrow, and his ideas on the subject were not of so vague 
and soothing a kind as those of his amiable partner. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver, when under the influence of a strong feeling, had a promptitude 
in action that may seem inconsistent with that painful sense of the 
complicated puzzling nature of human affairs under which his more 
dispassionate deliberations were conducted; but it is really not improbable 
that there was a direct relation between these apparently contradictory 
phenomena, since I have observed that for getting a strong impression that a 
skein is tangled, there is nothing like snatching hastily at a single thread. 
It was owing to this promptitude that Mr Tulliver was on horse-back soon 
after dinner the next day — (he was not dyspeptic) — on his way to Basset to 
see his sister Moss and her husband. For having made up his mind irrevocably 
that he would pay Mrs Glegg her loan of five hundred pounds, it naturally 
occurred to him that he had a promissory note for three hundred pounds lent 
to his brother-in-law Moss, and if said brother-in-law could manage to pay in 
the money within a given time, it would go far to lessen the fallacious air 
of inconvenience which Mr Tulliver's spirited step might have worn in the 
eyes of weak people who require to know precisely <hi>how</hi> a thing is to 
be done before they are strongly confident that it will be easy. 


</p>
               <p>For Mr Tulliver was in a position neither new nor striking but, like other 
everyday things, sure to have a cumulative effect that will be felt in the 
long run: he was held to be a much more substantial man than he really was. 
And as we are all apt to believe what the world believes about us, it was his 
habit to think of failure and ruin with the same sort of remote pity with 
which a spare long-necked man hears that his plethoric short-necked neighbour 
is stricken with apoplexy. He had been always used to hear pleasant jokes 
about his advantages as a man who worked his own mill and owned a pretty bit 
of land; and these jokes naturally kept up his sense that he was a man of 
considerable substance. They gave a pleasant flavour to his glass on a 
market-day, and if it had not been for the recurrence of half-yearly payments 
Mr Tulliver would really have forgotten that there was a mortgage of two 
thousand pounds on his mill and homestead. That was not altogether his own 
fault, since one of the thousand pounds was his sister's fortune, which he 
had had to pay on her marriage, and a man who has neighbours that 
<hi>will</hi> go to law with him is not likely to pay off his mortgages, 
especially if he enjoys the good opinion of acquaintances who want to borrow 
a hundred pounds on security too lofty to be represented by parchment. Our 
friend Mr Tulliver had a good-natured fibre in him, and did not like to give 
harsh refusals even to a sister, who had not only come into the world in that 
superfluous way characteristic of sisters, creating a necessity for 
mortgages, but had quite thrown herself away in marriage and had crowned her 
mistakes by having an eighth baby. On this point Mr Tulliver was conscious of 
being a little weak, but he apologised to himself by saying that poor Gritty 
had been a good-looking wench before she married Moss — he would sometimes 
say this even with a slight tremulousness in his voice. But this morning he 
was in a mood more becoming a man a business, and in the course of his ride 
along the Basset lanes, with their deep ruts, lying so far away from a 
market-town that the labour of drawing produce and manure was enough to take 
away the best part of the profits on such poor land as that parish was made 
of, he got up a due amount of irritation against Moss as a man without 
capital, who if murrain and blight were abroad was sure to have his share of 
them, and who, the more you tried to help him out of the mud, would sink the 
further in. It would do him good rather than harm, now, if he were obliged to 
raise this three hundred pounds: it would make him look about him better, and 
not act so foolishly about his wool this year as he did the last: in fact, Mr 
Tulliver had been too easy with his brother-in-law, and because he had let 
the interest run on for two years, Moss was likely enough to think that he 
should never be troubled about the principal. But Mr Tulliver was determined 
not to encourage such shuffling people any longer, and a ride along the 
Basset lanes was not likely to enervate a man's resolution by softening his 
temper. The deep-trodden hoof-marks made in the muddiest days of winter gave 
him a shake now and then which suggested a rash but stimulating snarl at the 
father of lawyers who, whether by means of his hoof or otherwise, had 
doubtless something to do with this state of the roads; and the abundance of 
foul land and neglected fences that met his eye, though they made no part of 
his brother Moss's farm, strongly contributed to his dissatisfaction with 
that unlucky agriculturist. If this wasn't Moss's fallow, it might have been: 
Basset was all alike; it was a beggarly parish in Mr Tulliver's opinion, and 
his opinion was certainly not groundless. Basset had a poor soil, poor roads, 
a poor non-resident landlord, a poor non-resident vicar, and rather less than 
half a curate, also poor. If any one strongly impressed with the power of the 
human mind to triumph over circumstances, will contend that the parishioners 
of Basset might nevertheless have been a very superior class of people, I 
have nothing to urge against that abstract proposition: I only know that in 
point of fact the Basset mind was in strict keeping with its circumstances. 
The muddy lanes, green or clayey, that seemed to the unaccustomed eye to lead 
nowhere but into each other, did really lead, with patience, to a distant 
high-road, but there were many feet in Basset which they led more frequently 
to a centre of dissipation spoken of formally as the `Markis o' Granby' but 
among intimates as `Dickison's.' A large low room with a sanded floor, a cold 
scent of tobacco modified by undetected beer-dregs, Mr Dickison leaning 
against the doorpost with a melancholy pimpled face looking as irrelevant to 
the daylight as a last night's guttered candle — all this may not seem a very 
seductive form of temptation; but the majority of men in Basset found it 
fatally alluring when encountered on their road towards four o'clock on a 
wintry afternoon; and if any wife in Basset wished to indicate that her 
husband was not a pleasure-seeking man, she could hardly do it more 
emphatically than by saying that he didn't spend a shilling at Dickison's 
from one Whitsuntide to another. Mrs Moss had said so of <hi>her</hi> husband 
more than once, when her brother was in a mood to find fault with him, as he 
certainly was to-day. And nothing could be less pacifying to Mr Tulliver than 
the behaviour of the farmyard gate, which he no sooner attempted to push open 
with his riding stick than it acted as gates without the upper hinge are 
known to do, to the peril of shins, whether equine or human. He was about to 
get down and lead his horse through the damp dirt of the hollow farmyard, 
shadowed drearily by the large half-tim-bered buildings, up to the long line 
of tumble-down dwelling-house standing on a raised causeway, but the timely 
appearance of a cowboy saved him that frustration of a plan he had determined 
on, namely not to get down from his horse during this visit. If a man means 
to be hard, let him keep in his saddle and speak from that height, above the 
level of pleading eyes, and with the command of a distant horizon. Mrs Moss 
heard the sound of the horse's feet and when her brother rode up, was already 
outside the kitchen door with a half-weary smile on her face, and a 
black-eyed baby in her arms. Mrs Moss's face bore a faded resemblance to her 
brother's: baby's little fat hand pressed against her cheek seemed to show 
more strikingly that the cheek was faded. 


</p>
               <p>`Brother, I'm glad to see you,' she said, in an affectionate tone. `I didn't 
look for you today. How do you do?' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh...  pretty well, Mrs Moss...  pretty well,' answered the brother, with 
cool deliberateness, as if it were rather too forward of her to ask that 
question. She knew at once that her brother was not in a good humour: he 
never called her Mrs Moss expect when he was angry and when they were in 
company. But she thought it was in the order of nature that people who were 
poorly off should be snubbed. Mrs Moss did not take her stand on the equality 
of the human race: she was a patient, loosely-hung, child-producing woman. 


</p>
               <p>`Your husband isn't in the house, I suppose?' added Mr Tulliver, after a 
grave pause, during which four children had run out, like chickens whose 
mother has been suddenly in eclipse behind the hen-coop. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Mrs Moss, `but he's only in the potato-field yonders. Georgy, run 
to the Far Close in a minute and tell father your uncle's come. You'll get 
down, brother, won't you, and take something?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no; I can't get down — I must be going home again directly,' said Mr 
Tulliver, looking at the distance. 


</p>
               <p>`And how's Mrs Tulliver and the children?' said Mrs Moss humbly, not daring 
to press her invitation. 


</p>
               <p>`Oh...  pretty well. Tom's going to a new school at Midsummer — a deal of 
expense to me. It's bad work for me lying out o' my money.' 


</p>
               <p>`I wish you'd be so good as let the children come and see their cousins some 
day. My little uns want to see their cousin Maggie, so as never was. And me 
her god-mother and so fond of her — there's nobody 'ud make a bigger fuss 
with her according to what they've got. And I know she likes to come — for 
she's a loving child, and how quick and clever she is, to be sure!' 


</p>
               <p>If Mrs Moss had been one of the most astute women in the world instead of 
being one of the simplest, she could have thought of nothing more likely to 
propitiate her brother than this praise of Maggie. He seldom found any one 
volunteering praise of `the little wench:' it was usually left entirely to 
himself to insist on her merits. But Maggie always appeared in the most 
amiable light at her aunt Moss's: it was her Alsatia, where she was out of 
the reach of law — if she upset anything, dirtied her shoes, or tore her 
frock, these things were matters of course at her aunt Moss's. In spite of 
himself, Mr Tulliver's eyes got milder, and he did not look away from his 
sister as he said, 


</p>
               <p>`Ay: she's fonder o' you than o' the other aunts, I think. She takes after 
our family: not a bit of her mother's in her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Moss says, she's just like what I used to be,' said Mrs Moss, `though I was 
never so quick and fond o' the books. But I think my Lizzy's like her — 
<hi>she's</hi> sharp. Come here, Lizzy my dear, and let your uncle see you: 
he hardly knows you, you grow so fast.' 


</p>
               <p>Lizzy, a black-eyed child of seven, looked very shy when her mother drew her 
forward, for the small Mosses were much in awe of their uncle from Dorlcote 
Mill. She was inferior enough to Maggie in fire and strength of expression to 
make the resemblance between the two entirely flattering to Mr Tulliver's 
fatherly love. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, they're a bit alike,' he said, looking kindly at the little figure in 
the soiled pinafore. `They both take after our mother. You've got enough o' 
gells, Gritty,' he added in a tone half compassionate, half reproachful. 


</p>
               <p>`Four of 'em, bless 'em,' said Mrs Moss, with a sigh, stroking Lizzy's hair 
on each side of her forehead, `as many as there's boys. They've got a brother 
apiece.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, but they must turn out and fend for themselves,' said Mr Tulliver, 
feeling that his severity was relaxing and trying to brace it by throwing out 
a wholesome hint. `They mustn't look to hanging on their brothers.' 


</p>
               <p>`No: but I hope their brothers 'ull love the poor things and remember they 
came o' one father and mother: the lads 'ull never be the poorer for that,' 
said Mrs Moss, flashing out with hurried timidity, like a half-smothered 
fire. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver gave his horse a little stroke on the flank, then checked it and 
said angrily, `Stand still with you!' much to the astonishment of that 
innocent animal. 


</p>
               <p>`And the more there is of 'em, the more they must love one another,' Mrs Moss 
went on, looking at her children with a didactic purpose. But she turned 
towards her brother again to say, `Not but what I hope your boy 'ull allays 
be good to his sister, though there's but two of 'em, like you and me, 
brother.' 


</p>
               <p>That arrow went straight to Mr Tulliver's heart. He had not a rapid 
imagination, but the thought of Maggie was very near to him, and he was not 
long in seeing his relation to his own sister side by side with Tom's 
relation to Maggie. Would the little wench ever be poorly off, and Tom rather 
hard upon her? 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, Gritty,' said the miller, with a new softness in his tone. `But I've 
allays done what I could for you,' he added, as if vindicating himself from a 
reproach. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm not denying that, brother, and I'm noways ungrateful,' said poor Mrs 
Moss, too fagged by toil and children to have strength left for any pride. 
`But here's the father. What a while you've been, Moss.' 


</p>
               <p>`While, do you call it?' said Mr Moss, feeling out of breath and injured. 
`I've been running all the way. Won't you 'light, Mr Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I'll just get down and have a bit o' talk with you in the garden,' 
said Mr Tulliver, feeling that he should be more likely to show a due spirit 
of resolve if his sister were not present. 


</p>
               <p>He got down and passed with Mr Moss into the garden towards an old yew-tree 
arbour, while his sister stood tapping her baby on the back and looking 
wistfully after them. 


</p>
               <p>Their entrance into the yew-tree arbour surprised several fowls, that were 
recreating themselves by scratching deep holes in the dusty ground, and at 
once took flight with much pother and cackling. Mr Tulliver sat down on the 
bench, and tapping the ground curiously here and there with his stick, as if 
he suspected some hollowness, opened the conversation by observing, with 
something like a snarl in his tone, 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you've got wheat again in that Corner Close, I see? and never a bit o' 
dressing on it. You'll do no good with it this year.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Moss, who when he married Miss Tulliver had been regarded as the buck of 
Basset, now wore a beard nearly a week old and had the depressed, unexpectant 
air of a machine horse. He answered in a patient-grumbling tone, `Why, poor 
farmers like me must do as they can: they must leave it to them as have got 
money to play with to put half as much into the ground as they mean to get 
out of it.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know who should have money to play with, if it isn't them as can 
borrow money without paying interest,' said Mr Tulliver, who wished to get 
into a slight quarrel: it was the most natural and easy introduction to 
calling in money. 


</p>
               <p>`I know I'm behind with the interest,' said Mr Moss, `but I was so unlucky 
wi' the wool last year, and what with the Missis being laid up so, things 
have gone awkarder nor usual.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay,' snarled Mr Tulliver, `there's folks as things 'ull allays go awk'ard 
with: empty sacks 'ull never stand upright.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I don't know what fault you've got to find wi' me, Mr Tulliver,' said 
Mr Moss deprecatingly, `I know there isn't a day-labourer works harder.' 


</p>
               <p>`What's the use o' that,' said Mr Tulliver, sharply, `when a man marries 
and's got no capital to work his farm, but his wife's bit o' fortin? I was 
against it from the first; but you'd neither of you listen to me. And I can't 
lie out o' My money any longer; for I've got to pay five hundred o' Mrs 
Glegg's, and there 'ull be Tom an expense to me, as I should find myself 
short, even saying I'd got back all as is my own. You must look about and see 
how you can pay me the three hundred pounds.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, if that's what you mean,' said Mr Moss, looking blankly before him, 
`we'd better be sold up and ha' done with it; I must part wi' every head o' 
stock I'n got, to pay you and the landlord too.' 


</p>
               <p>Poor relations are undeniably irritating: their existence is so entirely 
uncalled for on our part, and they are almost always very faulty people. Mr 
Tulliver had succeeded in getting quite as much irritated with Mr Moss as he 
had desired and he was able to say angrily, rising from his seat, 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you must do as you can. <hi>I</hi> can't find money for everybody else 
as well as myself. I must look to my own business and my own family. I can't 
lie out o' my money any longer. You must raise it as quick as you can.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver walked abruptly out of the arbour as he uttered the last sentence 
and without looking round at Mr Moss went on to the kitchen door where the 
eldest boy was holding his horse, and his sister was waiting in a state of 
wondering alarm, which was not without its alleviations, for baby was making 
pleasant gurgling sounds and performing a great deal of finger practice on 
the faded face. Mrs Moss had eight children, but could never overcome her 
regret that the twins had not lived: Mr Moss thought their removal was not 
without its consolations. `Won't you come in, brother?' she said, looking 
anxiously at her husband, who was walking slowly up, while Mr Tulliver had 
his foot already in the stirrup. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no; good-by,' said he, turning his horse's head and riding away. 


</p>
               <p>No man could feel more resolute till he got outside the yard-gate and a 
little way along the deep-rutted lane; but before he reached the next 
turning, which would take him out of sight of the dilapidated farm-buildings, 
he appeared to be smitten by some sudden thought, for he checked his horse 
and made it stand still in the same spot for two or three minutes, during 
which he turned his head from side to side in a melancholy way, as if he were 
looking at some painful object on more sides than one. Evidently, after his 
fit of promptitude, Mr Tulliver was relapsing into the sense that this is a 
puzzling world. He turned his horse and rode slowly back, giving vent to the 
climax of feeling which had determined this movement by saying aloud, as he 
struck his horse, 


</p>
               <p>`Poor little wench! she'll have nobody but Tom, belike, when I'm gone.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver's return into the yard was descried by several young Mosses, who 
immediately ran in with the exciting news to their mother, so that Mrs Moss 
was again on the door-step when her brother rode up. She had been crying, but 
was rocking baby to sleep in her arms now, and made no ostentatious show of 
sorrow as her brother looked at her, but merely said, 


</p>
               <p>`The father's gone to the field again, if you want him, brother.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Gritty, no,' said Mr Tulliver, in a gentle tone. `Don't you fret — 
that's all — I'll make a shift without the money a bit — only you must be as 
cliver and contriving as you can.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Moss's tears came again at this unexpected kindness, and she could say 
nothing. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come! — the little wench shall come and see you. I'll bring her and 
Tom some day before he goes to school. You mustn't fret...  I'll allays be a 
good brother to you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you for that word, brother,' said Mrs Moss, drying her tears; then 
turning to Lizzy, she said, `Run now, and fetch the coloured egg for cousin 
Maggie.' Lizzy ran in, and quickly reappeared with a small paper parcel. 


</p>
               <p>`It's boiled hard, brother, and coloured with thrums — very pretty: it was 
done o' purpose for Maggie. Will you please to carry it in your pocket?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay,' said Mr Tulliver, putting it carefully in his side-pocket. 
`Good-by.' 


</p>
               <p>And so the respectable miller returned along the Basset lanes rather more 
puzzled than before as to ways and means, but still with the sense of a 
danger escaped. It had come across his mind that if he were hard upon his 
sister, it might somehow tend to make Tom hard upon Maggie, at some distant 
day, when her father was no longer there to take her part; for simple people, 
like our friend Mr Tulliver, are apt to clothe unimpeachable feelings in 
erroneous ideas, and this was his confused way of explaining to himself that 
his love and anxiety for `the little wench' had given him a new sensibility 
towards his sister. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.9" type="chapter">
               <head>To Garum Firs</head>
               <p>WHILE the possible troubles of Maggie's future were occupying her father's 
mind, she herself was tasting only the bitterness of the present. Childhood 
has no forebodings; but then, it is soothed by no memories of outlived 
sorrow. 


</p>
               <p>The fact was, the day had begun ill with Maggie. The pleasure of having Lucy 
to look at, and the prospect of the afternoon visit to Garum Firs where she 
would hear uncle Pullet's musical-box had been marred as early as eleven 
o'clock by the advent of the hair-dresser from St Ogg's who had spoken in the 
severest terms of the condition in which he had found her hair, holding up 
one jagged lock after another and saying, `See here! tut — tut — tut!' in a 
tone of mingled disgust and pity, which to Maggie's imagination was 
equivalent to the strongest expression of public opinion. Mr Rappit, the 
hairdresser, with his well-anointed coronal locks tending wavily upward, like 
the simulated pyramid of flame on a monumental urn, seemed to her at that 
moment the most formidable of her contemporaries, into whose street at St 
Ogg's she would carefully refrain from entering through the rest of her life. 


</p>
               <p>Moreover, the preparation for a visit being always a serious affair in the 
Dodson family, Martha was enjoined to have Mrs Tulliver's room ready an hour 
earlier than usual, that the laying-out of the best clothes might not be 
deferred till the last moment, as was sometimes the case in families of lax 
views where the ribbon-strings were never rolled up, where there was little 
or no wrapping in silver paper, and where the sense that the Sunday clothes 
could be got at quite easily produced no shock to the mind. Already at twelve 
o'clock, Mrs Tulliver had on her visiting costume with a protective apparatus 
of brown holland, as if she had been a piece of stain furniture in danger of 
flies; Maggie was frowning and twisting her shoulders that she might if 
possible shrink away from the prickliest of tuckers, while her mother was 
remonstrating, `Don't, Maggie, my dear — don't look so ugly!' and Tom's 
cheeks were looking particularly brilliant as a relief to his best blue suit, 
which he wore with becoming calmness, having, after a little wrangling, 
effected what was always the one point of interest to him in his toilette — 
he had transferred all the contents of his everyday pockets to those actually 
in wear. 


</p>
               <p>As for Lucy, she was just as pretty and neat as she had been yesterday: no 
accidents ever happened to her clothes, and she was never uncomfortable in 
them, so that she looked with wondering pity at Maggie, pouting and writhing 
under the exasperating tucker. Maggie would certainly have torn it off, if 
she had not been checked by the remembrance of her recent humiliation about 
her hair: as it was, she confined herself to fretting and twisting and 
behaving peevishly about the card-houses which they were allowed to build 
till dinner, as a suitable amusement for boys and girls in their best 
clothes. Tom build perfect pyramids of houses; but Maggie's would never bear 
the laying-on of the roof: — it was always so with the things that Maggie 
made, and Tom had deduced the conclusion that no girls could ever make 
anything. But it happened that Lucy proved wonderfully clever at building: 
she handled the cards so lightly and moved so gently that Tom condescended to 
admire her houses as well as his own, the more readily because she had asked 
him to teach her. Maggie too would have admired Lucy's houses, and would have 
given up her own unsuccessful building to contemplate them, without 
ill-temper, if her tucker had not made her peevish and if Tom had not 
inconsiderately laughed when her houses fell, and told her she was `a 
stupid.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't laugh at me, Tom!' she burst out, angrily. `I'm not a stupid. I know a 
great many things you don't.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I daresay, Miss Spitfire! I'd never be such a cross thing as you — making 
faces like that. Lucy doesn't do so. I like Lucy better than you: I wish Lucy 
was my sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then it's very wicked and cruel of you to wish so,' said Maggie, starting up 
hurriedly from her place on the floor and upsetting Tom's wonderful pagoda. 
She really did not mean it, but the circumstantial evidence was against her, 
and Tom turned white with anger, but said nothing: he would have struck her, 
only he knew it was cowardly to strike a girl, and Tom Tulliver was quite 
determined he would never do anything cowardly. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie stood in dismay and terror while Tom got up from the floor and walked 
away, pale, from the scattered ruins of his pagoda, and Lucy looked on 
mutely, like a kitten pausing from its lapping. 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom,' said Maggie, at last, going half-way towards him, `I didn't mean to 
knock it down — indeed, indeed I didn't.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom took no notice of her, but took, instead, two or three hard peas out of 
his pocket and shot them with his thumb-nail against the window — vaguely at 
first, but presently with the distinct aim of hitting a superannuated 
blue-bottle which was exposing its imbecility in the spring sunshine, clearly 
against the views of nature, who had provided Tom and the peas for the speedy 
destruction of this weak individual. 


</p>
               <p>Thus the morning had been made heavy to Maggie, and Tom's persistent coldness 
to her all through their walk spoiled the fresh air and sunshine for her. He 
called Lucy to look at the half-built bird's nest without caring to show it 
Maggie, and peeled a willow switch for Lucy and himself without offering one 
to Maggie. Lucy had said, `Maggie, shouldn't you like one?' But Tom was deaf. 


</p>
               <p>Still the sight of the peacock opportunely spreading his tail on the 
stackyard wall, just as they reached Garum Firs was enough to divert the mind 
temporarily from personal grievances. And this was only the beginning of 
beautiful sights at Garum Firs. All the farmyard life was wonderful there — 
bantams, speckled and topknotted — Friesland hens, with their feathers all 
turned the wrong way; Guinea-fowls that flew and screamed and dropped their 
pretty-spotted feathers — pouter pigeons and a tame magpie; nay, a goat, and 
a wonderful brindled dog, half mastiff, half bull-dog, as large as a lion. 
Then there were white railings and white gates all about, and glittering 
weathercocks of various design, and garden-walks paved with pebbles in 
beautiful patterns — nothing was quite common at Garum Firs; and Tom thought 
that the unusual size of the toads there was simply due to the general 
unusualness which characterised uncle Pullet's possessions as a gentleman 
farmer. Toads who paid rent were naturally leaner. As for the house, it was 
not less remarkable: it had a receding centre, and two wings with 
battlemented turrets, and was covered with glittering white stucco. 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Pullet had seen the expected party approaching from the window, and 
made haste to unbar and unchain the front door, kept always in this fortified 
condition from fear of tramps who might be supposed to know of the glass-case 
of stuffed birds in the hall and to contemplate rushing in and carrying it 
away on their heads. Aunt Pullet too appeared at the doorway, and as soon as 
her sister was within hearing said, `Stop the children, for God's sake, Bessy 
— don't let 'em come up the door-steps: Sally's bringing the old mat and the 
duster, to rub their shoes.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet's front-door mats were by no means intended to wipe shoes on: the 
very scraper had a deputy to do its dirty work. Tom rebelled particularly 
against this shoe-wiping, which he always considered in the light of an 
indignity to his sex. He felt it as the beginning of the disagreeables 
incident to a visit at aunt Pullet's, where he had once been compelled to sit 
with towels wrapped round his boots; a fact which may serve to correct the 
too hasty conclusion that a visit to Garum Firs must have been a great treat 
to a young gentleman fond of animals — fond, that is, of throwing stones at 
them. 


</p>
               <p>The next disagreeable was confined to his feminine companions: it was the 
mounting of the polished oak stairs, which had very handsome carpets rolled 
up and laid by in a spare bedroom, so that the ascent of these glossy steps 
might have served in barbarous times as a trial by ordeal from which none but 
the most spotless virtue could have come off with unbroken limbs. Sophy's 
weakness about these polished stairs was always a subject of bitter 
remonstrance on Mrs Glegg's part, but Mrs Tulliver ventured on no comment, 
only thinking to herself it was a mercy, when she and the children were safe 
on the landing. 


</p>
               <p>`Mrs Gray has sent home my new bonnet, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet, in a pathetic 
tone as Mrs Tulliver adjusted her cap. 


</p>
               <p>`Has she, sister?' said Mrs Tulliver, with an air of much interest. `And how 
do you like it?' 


</p>
               <p>`It's apt to make a mess with clothes, taking 'em out and putting 'em in 
again,' said Mrs Pullet, drawing a bunch of keys from her pocket and looking 
at them earnestly, `but it 'ud be a pity for you to go away without seeing 
it. There's no knowing what may happen.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet shook her head slowly at this last serious consideration, which 
determined her to single out a particular key. 


</p>
               <p>`I'am afraid it'll be troublesome to you — getting it out, sister,' said Mrs 
Tulliver, `but I should like to see what sort of a crown she's made you.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet rose with a melancholy air and unlocked one wing of a very bright 
wardrobe, where you may have hastily supposed she would find the new bonnet. 
Not at all. Such a supposition could only have arisen from a too superficial 
acquaintance with the habits of the Dodson family. In this wardrobe Mrs 
Pullet was seeking something small enough to be hidden among layers of linen 
— it was a door-key. 


</p>
               <p>`You must come with me into the best room,' said Mrs Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>`May the children come too, sister?' inquired Mrs Tulliver, who saw that 
Maggie and Lucy were looking rather eager. 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said aunt Pullet, reflectively, `it'll perhaps be safer for 'em to 
come — they'll be touching something, if we leave 'em behind.' 


</p>
               <p>So they went in procession along the bright and slippery corridor, dimly 
lighted by the semi-lunar top of the window, which rose above the closed 
shutter: it was really quite solemn. Aunt Pullet paused and unlocked a door 
which opened on something still more solemn than the passage — a darkened 
room, in which the outer light, entering feebly, showed what looked like the 
corpses of furnitute in white shrouds. Everything that was not shrouded stood 
with its legs upwards. Lucy laid hold of Maggie's frock, and Maggie's heart 
beat rapidly. 


</p>
               <p>Aunt Pullet half-opened the shutter and then unlocked the wardrobe, with a 
melancholy deliberateness which was quite in keeping with the funereal 
solemnity of the scene. The delicious scent of rose-leaves that issued from 
the wardrobe made the process of taking out sheet after sheet of silver-paper 
quite pleasant to assist at, though the sight of the bonnet at last was an 
anticlimax to Maggie, who would have preferred something more strikingly 
preternatural. But few things could have been more impressive to Mrs 
Tulliver. She looked all round it in silence for some moments and then said 
emphatically, `Well, sister, I'll never speak against the full crowns again!' 


</p>
               <p>It was a great concession, and Mrs Pullet felt it: she felt something was due 
to it. 


</p>
               <p>`You'd like to see it on, sister?' she said, sadly. `I'll open the shutter a 
bit further.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, if you don't mind taking off your cap, sister,' said Mrs Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet took off her cap, displaying the brown silk scalp with a jutting 
promontory of curls which was common to the more mature and judicious women 
of those times, and placing the bonnet on her head, turned slowly round, like 
a draper's lay-figure, that Mrs Tulliver might miss no point of view. 


</p>
               <p>I've sometimes thought there's a loop too much o' ribbon on this left side, 
sister: what do you think?' said Mrs Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver looked earnestly at the pointed indicated and turned her head to 
one side. `Well, I think it's best as it is: if you meddled with it, sister, 
you might repent.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's true,' said aunt Pullet, taking off the bonnet and looking at it 
contemplatively. 


</p>
               <p>`How much might she charge you for that bonnet, sister?' said Mrs Tulliver, 
whose mind was actively engaged on the possibility of getting a humble 
imitation of this chef-d'æuvre made from a piece of silk she had at 
home. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet screwed up her mouth and shook her head, and then whispered: 
`Pullet pays for it: he said I was to have the best bonnet at Garum Church, 
let the next best be whose it would.' 


</p>
               <p>She began slowly to adjust the trimmings in preparation for returning it to 
its place in the wardrobe, and her thoughts seemed to have taken a melancholy 
turn, for she shook her head. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' she said at last, `I may never wear it twice, sister; who knows?' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't talk o' that, sister,' answered Mrs Tulliver. `I hope you'll have your 
health this summer.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah! but there may come a death in the family, as there did soon after I had 
my green satin bonnet. Cousin Abbott may go, and we can't think o' wearing 
crape less nor half a year for him.' 


</p>
               <p>`That would be unlucky,' said Mrs Tulliver, entering thoroughly into the 
possibility of an inopportune decease. `There's never so much pleasure i' 
wearing a bonnet the second year, especially when the crowns are so chancy — 
never two summers alike.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, it's the way i' this world,' said Mrs Pullet, returning the bonnet to 
the wardrobe and locking it up. She maintained a silence characterised by 
head-shaking, until they had all issued from the solemn chamber and were in 
her own room again. Then, beginning to cry, she said, `Sister, if you should 
never see that bonnet again till I'm dead and gone, you'll remember I showed 
it you this day.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver felt that she ought to be affected, but she was a woman of 
sparse tears, stout and healthy — she couldn't cry so much as her sister 
Pullet did, and had often felt her deficiency at funerals. Her effort to 
bring tears into her eyes issued in an odd contraction of her face. Maggie, 
looking on attentively, felt that there was some painful mystery about her 
aunt's bonnet which she was considered too young to understand; indignantly 
conscious, all the while, that she could have understood that, as well as 
everything else, if she had been taken into confidence. 


</p>
               <p>When they went down, uncle Pullet observed, with some acumen, that he 
reckoned the missis had been showing her bonnet — that was what had made them 
so long upstairs. With Tom the interval had seemed still longer, for he had 
been seated in irksome constraint on the edge of a sofa directly opposite his 
uncle Pullet, who regarded him with twinkling grey eyes and occasionally 
addressed him as `Young sir.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, young sir, what do you learn at school?' was a standing question with 
uncle Pullet; whereupon Tom always looked sheepish, rubbed his hand across 
his face and answered, `I don't know.' It was altogether so embarrassing to 
be seated tête-a-tête with uncle Pullet, that Tom could not even 
look at the prints on the walls, or the fly-cages, or the wonderful 
flower-pots: he saw nothing but his uncle's gaiters. Not that Tom was in awe 
of his uncle's mental superiority: indeed, he had made up his mind that he 
didn't want to be a gentleman farmer, because he shouldn't like to be such a 
thin-legged silly fellow as his uncle Pullet — a molly-coddle, in fact. A 
boy's sheepishness is by no means a sign of overmastering reverence: and 
while you are making encouraging advances to him under the idea that he is 
overwhelmed by a sense of your age and wisdom, ten to one he is thinking you 
extremely queer. The only consolation I can suggest to you is, that the Greek 
boys probably thought the same of Aristotle. It is only when you have 
mastered a restive horse, or thrashed a drayman, or have got a gun in your 
hand, that these shy juniors feel you to be a truly admirable and enviable 
character. At least, I am quite sure of Tom Tulliver's sentiments on these 
points. In very tender years, when he still wore a lace border under his 
out-door cap, he was often observed peeping through the bars of a gate and 
making minatory gestures with his small forefinger while he scolded the sheep 
with an inarticulate burr, intended to strike terror into their astonished 
minds: indicating, thus early, that desire for mastery over the inferior 
animals wild and domestic, including cockchafers, neighborus' dogs, and small 
sisters, which in all ages has been an attribute of so much promise for the 
fortunes of our race. Now Mr Pullet never rode anything taller than a low 
pony, and was the least predatory of men, considering firearms dangerous as 
apt to go off themselves by nobody's particular desire. So that Tom was not 
without strong reasons when, in confidential talk with a chum, he had 
described uncle Pullet as a nincompoop, taking care at the same time to 
observe that he was a very `rich fellow.' 


</p>
               <p>The only alleviating circumstance in a tête-a-tête with uncle 
Pullet was that he kept a variety of lozenges and peppermint drops about his 
person, and when at a loss for conversation, he filled up the void by 
proposing a mutual solace of this kind. 


</p>
               <p>`Do you like peppermints, young sir?' required only a tacit answer when it 
was accompanied by a presentation of the article in question. 


</p>
               <p>The appearance of the little girls suggested to uncle Pullet the further 
solace of small sweet cakes, of which he also kept a stock under lock and key 
for his own private eating on wet days: but the three children had no sooner 
got the tempting delicacy between their fingers, than aunt Pullet desired 
them to abstain from eating it till the tray and the plates came, since with 
those crisp cakes they would make the floor `all over' crumbs. Lucy didn't 
mind that much, for the cake was so pretty, she thought it was rather a pity 
to eat it, but Tom, watching his opportunity while the elders were talking, 
hastily stowed it in his mouth at two bites, and chewed it furtively. As for 
Maggie, becoming fascinated, as usual, by a print of Ulysses and Nausicaa, 
which uncle Pullet had bought as a `pretty Scripture thing,' she presently 
let fall her cake and in an unlucky movement, crushed it beneath her foot — a 
source of so much agitation to aunt Pullet and conscious disgrace to Maggie 
that she began to despair of hearing the musical snuff-box to-day, till after 
some reflection, it occurred to her that Lucy was in high favour enough to 
venture on asking for a tune. So she whispered to Lucy, and Lucy, who always 
did what she was desired to do, went up quietly to her uncle's knee and 
blushing all over her neck while she fingered her necklace, said, `Will you 
please play us a tune, uncle?' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy thought it was by reason of some exceptional talent in uncle Pullet that 
the snuff-box played such beautiful tunes, and indeed the thing was viewed in 
that light by the majority of his neighbours in Garum. Mr Pullet had bought 
the box, to begin with, and he understood winding it up, and knew which tune 
it was going to play beforehand: altogether, the possession of this unique 
`piece of misic' was a proof that Mr Pullet's character was not of that 
entire nullity which might otherwise have been attributed to it. 


</p>
               <p>But uncle Pullet when entreated to exhibit his accomplishment, never 
depreciated it by a too ready consent. `We'll see about it,' was the answer 
he always gave, carefully abstaining from any sign of compliance till a 
suitable number of minutes had passed. Uncle Pullet had a programme for all 
great social occasions, and in this way fenced himself in from much painful 
confusion and perplexing freedom of will. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps the suspense did heighten Maggie's enjoyment when the fairy tune 
began: for the first time she quite forgot that she had a load on her mind — 
that Tom was angry with her; and by the time `Hush, ye pretty warbling choir' 
had been played, her face wore that bright look of happiness, while she sat 
immovable with her hands clasped, which sometimes comforted her mother with 
the sense that Maggie could look rather pretty now and then in spite of her 
brown skin. But when the magic music ceased, she jumped up and running 
towards Tom, put her arm round his neck and said, `O Tom, isn't it pretty?' 


</p>
               <p>Lest you should think it showed a revolting insensibility in Tom that he felt 
any new anger towards Maggie for this uncalled for and to him inexplicable 
caress, I must tell you that he had his glass of cowslip wine in his hand, 
and that she jerked him so as to make him spill half of it. He must have been 
an extreme milksop not to say angrily, `Look there, now!' expecially when his 
resentment was sanctioned, as it was, by general disapprobation of Maggie's 
behaviour. 


</p>
               <p>`Why don't you sit still, Maggie?' her mother said peevishly. 


</p>
               <p>`Little gells mustn't come to see me if they behave in that way,' said aunt 
Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you're too rough, little miss,' said uncle Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>Poor Maggie sat down again, with the music all chased out of her soul, and 
the seven small demons all in again. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver, foreseeing nothing but misbehaviour while the chilren remained 
indoors, took an early opportunity of suggesting, that now they were rested 
after their walk, they might go and play out of doors, and aunt Pullet gave 
permission, only enjoining them not to go off the paved walks in the garden, 
and if they wanted to see the poultry fed, to view them from a distance on 
the horse-block: a restriction which had been imposed ever since Tom had been 
found guilty of running after the peacock with an illusory idea that fright 
would make one of its feathers drop off. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver's thoughts had been temporarily diverted from the quarrel with 
Mrs Glegg by millinery and maternal cares, but now the great theme of the 
bonnet was thrown into perspective and the children were out of the way, 
yesterday's anxieties recurred. 


</p>
               <p>`It weighs on my mind so as never was,' she said, by way of opening the 
subject, `sister Glegg's leaving the house in that way. I'm sure I'd no wish 
t' offend a sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' said aunt Pullet, `there's no accounting for what Jane 'ull do. I 
wouldn't speak of it out o' the family — if it wasn't to Dr Turnbull — but 
it's my belief Jane lives too low. I've said so to Pullet, often and often, 
and he knows it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you said so last Monday was a week, when we came away from drinking tea 
with 'em,' said Mr Pullet, beginning to nurse his knee and shelter it with 
his pocket handkerchief, as was his way when the conversation took an 
interesting turn. 


</p>
               <p>`Very like I did,' said Mrs Pullet, `for you remember when I said things, 
better than I can remember myself. He's got a wonderful memory, Pullet has,' 
she continued, looking pathetically at her sister. `I should be poorly off if 
he was to have a stroke, for he always remembers when I've got to take my 
doctor's stuff — and I'm taking three sorts now.' 


</p>
               <p>`There's the “pills as before” every other night, and the new drops 
at eleven and four, and the 'fervescing mixture “when agreeable,”' 
rehearsed Mr Pullet, with a punctuation determined by a lozenge on his 
tongue. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, perhaps it 'ud be better for sister Glegg, if she'd go to the doctor 
sometimes, instead o' chewing Turkey rhubarb whenever there's anything the 
matter with her,' said Mrs Tulliver, who naturally saw the wide subject of 
medicine chiefly in relation to Mrs Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`It's dreadful to think on,' said aunt Pullet, raising her hands and letting 
them fall again, `people playing with their own insides in that way! And it's 
flying i' the face o' Providence; for what are the doctors for, if we aren't 
to call 'em in? And when folks have got the money to pay for a doctor — it 
isn't respectable, as I've told Jane many a time. I'm ashamed of acquaintance 
knowing it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, we've no call to be ashamed,' said Mr Pullet, `for Doctor Turnbull 
hasn't got such another patient as you i'this parish, now old Mrs Sutton's 
gone.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pullet keeps all my physic-bottles — did you know, Bessy?' said Mrs Pullet. 
`He won't have one sold. He says it's nothing but right, folks should see 'em 
when I'm gone. They fill two o' the long store-room shelves a'ready — but,' 
she added beginning to cry, `it's well if they ever fill three. I may go 
before I've made up the dozen o' these last sizes. The pill-boxes are in the 
closet in my room — you'll remember that, sister — but there's nothing to 
show for the boluses, if it isn't the bills.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't talk o' your going, sister,' said Mrs Tulliver; `I should have nobody 
to stand between me and sister Glegg if you was gone. And there's nobody but 
you can get her to make it up wi' Mr Tulliver, for sister Deane's never o' my 
side, and if she was, it's not to be looked for as she can speak like them as 
have got an independent fortin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, your husband is awkard, you know, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet, 
good-naturedly ready to use her deep depression on her sister's account as 
well as her own. `He's never behaved quite so pretty to our family as he 
should do. And the children take after him — the boy's very mischievous and 
runs away from his aunts and uncles, and the gell's rude and brown. It's your 
bad luck, and I'm sorry for you, Bessy; for you was allays my favourite 
sister, and we allays liked the same patterns.' 


</p>
               <p>`I know Tulliver's hasty and says odd things,' said Mrs Tulliver, wiping away 
one small tear from the corner of her eye, `but I'm sure he's never been the 
man since he married me to object to my making the friends o' my side o' the 
family welcome to the house.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't want to make the worst of you, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet, 
compassionately, `for I doubt you'll have trouble enough without that — and 
your husband's got that poor sister and her children hanging on him, and so 
given to lawing, they say — I doubt he'll leave you poorly off when he dies. 
Not as I'd have it said out o' the family.' 


</p>
               <p>This views of her position was naturally far from cheering to Mrs Tulliver. 
Her imagination was not easily acted on, but she could not help thinking that 
her case was a hard one — since it appeared that other people thought it 
hard. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure, sister, I can't help myself,' she said, urged by the fear lest her 
anticipated misfortunes might be held retributive, to take a comprehensive 
review of her past conduct. `There's no woman strives more for her children; 
and I'm sure at scouring time this Ladyday as I've had all the bed-hangings 
taken down, I did as much as the two gells put together, and there's this 
last elder-flower wine I've made — beautiful! I allays offer it along with 
the sherry, though sister Glegg will have it I'm so extravagant, and as for 
liking to have my clothes tidy and not go a fright about the house, there's 
nobody in the parish can say anything against me in respect o' backbiting and 
making mischief, for I don't wish anybody any harm, and nobody loses by 
sending me a porkpie, for my pies are fit to show with the best o' my 
neighbours, and the linen's so in order, as if I was to die tomorrow I 
shouldn't be ashamed. A woman can do no more nor she can.' 


</p>
               <p>`But it's all o' no use, you know, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet, holding her head 
on one side and fixing her eyes pathetically on her sister, `if your husband 
makes away with his money. Not but what if you was sold up, and other folks 
bought your furniture, it's a comfort to think as you've kept it well rubbed. 
And there's the linen with your maiden mark on, might go all over the 
country. It 'ud be a sad pity for our family.' Mrs Pullet shook her head 
slowly. 


</p>
               <p>`But what can I do, sister?' said Mrs Tulliver. `Mr Tulliver's not a man to 
be dictated to — not if I was to go to the parson and get by heart what I 
should tell my husband for the best. And I'm sure I don't pretend to know 
anything about putting out money and all that. I could never see into men's 
business as sister Glegg does.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you're like me in that, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet. `And I think it 'ud 
be a deal more becoming o' Jane if she'd have that pier-glass rubbed oftener 
— there was ever so many spots on it last week — instead o' dictating to 
folks as have more comings in than she ever had and telling 'em what they've 
to do with their money. But Jane and me were allays contrairy: she would have 
striped things, and I like spots. You like a spot too, Bessy: we allays hung 
together i'that.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet, affected by this last reminiscence, looked at her sister 
pathetically. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Sophy,' said Mrs Tulliver, `I remember our having a blue ground with a 
white spot both alike — I've got a bit in a bed-quilt now — and if you would 
but go and see sister Glegg and persuade her to make it up with Tulliver, I 
should take it very kind of you. You was allays a good sister to me.' 


</p>
               <p>`But the right thing 'ud be for Tulliver to go and make it up with her 
himself and say he was sorry for speaking so rash. If He's borrowed money of 
her, he shouldn't be above that,' said Mrs Pullet, whose partiality did not 
blind her to principles: she did not forget what was due to people of 
independent fortune. 


</p>
               <p>`It's no use talking o' that,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, almost peevishly. `If 
I was to go down on my bare knees on the gravel to Tulliver, he'd never 
humble himself.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you can't expect me to persuade Jane to beg pardon,' said Mrs Pullet. 
`Her temper's beyond everything — it's well if it doesn't carry her off her 
mind — though there never was any of our family went to a madhouse.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm not thinking of her begging pardon,' said Mrs Tulliver. `But if she'd 
just take no notice and not call her money in — as it's not so much for one 
sister to ask of another — time 'ud mend things and Tulliver 'ud forget all 
about it, and they'd be friends again.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver you perceive was not aware of her husband's irrevocable 
determination to pay in the five hundred pounds: at least, such a 
determination exceeded her powers of belief. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bessy,' said Mrs Pullet, mournfully, `I don't want to help you on to 
ruin. I won't be behindhand i' doing you a good turn, if it is to be done. 
And I don't like it said among acquaintance as we've got quarrels in the 
family. I shall tell Jane that: and I don't mind driving to Jane's tomorrow, 
if Pullet doesn't mind. What do you say, Mr Pullet?' 


</p>
               <p>`I've no objections,' said Mr Pullet, who was perfectly contented with any 
course the quarrel might take, so that Mr Tulliver did not apply to him for 
momey. Mr Pullet was nervous about his investments, and did not see how a man 
could have any security for his money unless he turned it into land. 


</p>
               <p>After a little further discussion as to whether it would not be better for 
Mrs Tulliver to accompany them on the visit to sister Glegg, Mrs Pullet, 
observing that it was tea-time, turned to reach from a drawer a delicate 
damask napkin which she pinned before her in the fashion of an apron. The 
door did, in fact, soon open, but instead of the tea-tray, Sally introduced 
an object so startling that both Mrs Pullet and Mrs Tulliver gave a scream, 
causing uncle Pullet to swallow his lozenge — for the fifth time in his life, 
as he afterwards noted. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.10" type="chapter">
               <head>Maggie Behaves Worse than She Expected</head>
               <p>THE startling object which thus made an epoch for uncle Pullet was no other 
than little Lucy, with one side of her person, from her small foot to her 
bonnet-crown, wet and discoloured with mud, holding out two tiny blackened 
hands and making a very piteous face. To account for this unprecedented 
apparition in aunt Pullet's parlour, we must return to the moment when the 
three children went to play out of doors and the small demons who had taken 
possession of Maggie's soul at an early period of the day had returned in all 
the greater force after a temporary absence. All the disagreeable 
recollections of the morning were thick upon her, when Tom, whose displeasure 
towards her had been considerably refreshed by her foolish trick of causing 
him to upset his cowslip wine, said, `Here, Lucy, you come along with me,' 
and walked off to the area where the toads were, as if there were no Maggie 
in existence. Seeing this Maggie lingered at a distance looking like a small 
Medusa with her snakes cropped. Lucy was naturally pleased that cousin Tom 
was so good to her, and it was very amusing to see him tickling a fat toad 
with a piece of string when the toad was safe down the area with an iron 
grating over him. Still Lucy wished Maggie to enjoy the spectacle also, 
especially as she would doubtless find a name for the toad and say what had 
been his past history; for Lucy had a delighted semi-belief in Maggie's 
stories about the live things they came upon by accident — how Mrs Earwig had 
a wash at home, and one of her children had fallen into the hot copper, for 
which reason, she was running so fast to fetch the doctor. Tom had a profound 
contempt for this nonsense of Maggie's, smashing the earwig at once as a 
superfluous yet easy means of proving the entire unreality of such a story; 
but Lucy, for the life of her, could not help fancying there was something in 
it, and at all events thought it was very pretty make-believe. So now the 
desire to know the history of a very portly toad, added to her habitual 
affectionateness, made her run back to Maggie and say, `O, there is such a 
big, funny toad, Maggie! Do come and see.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie said nothing, but turned away from her with a deeper frown. As long as 
Tom seemed to prefer Lucy to her, Lucy made part of his unkindness. Maggie 
would have thought a little while ago that she could never be cross with 
pretty little Lucy, any more than she could be cruel to a little white mouse; 
but then, Tom had always been quite indifferent to Lucy before, and it had 
been left to Maggie to pet and make much of her. As it was, she was actually 
beginning to think that she should like to make Lucy cry, by slapping or 
pinching her, especially as it might vex Tom, whom it was of no use to slap 
even if she dared, because he didn't mind it. And if Lucy hadn't been there, 
Maggie was sure he would have got friends with her sooner. 


</p>
               <p>Tickling a fat toad who is not highly sensitive is an amusement that it is 
possible to exhaust, and Tom by-and-by began to look round for some other 
mode of passing the time. But in so prim a garden where they were not to go 
off the paved walks, there was not a great choice of sport. The only great 
pleasure such a restriction allowed was the pleasure of breaking it, and Tom 
began to meditate an insurrectionary visit to the pond, about a field's 
length beyond the garden. 


</p>
               <p>`I say, Lucy,' he began, nodding his head up and down with great significance 
as he coiled up his string again. `What do you think I mean to do?' 


</p>
               <p>`What, Tom?' said Lucy, with curiosity. 


</p>
               <p>`I mean to go to the pond, and look at the pike. You may go with me if you 
like,' said the young Sultan. 


</p>
               <p>`O, Tom, <hi>dare</hi> you?' said Lucy. `Aunt said we mustn't go out of the 
garden.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I shall go out at the other end of the garden,' said Tom. `Nobody 'ull 
see us. Besides I don't care if they do — I'll run off home.' 


</p>
               <p>`But <hi>I</hi> couldn't run,' said Lucy, who had never before been exposed 
to such severe temptation. 


</p>
               <p>`O, never mind — they won't be cross with <hi>you</hi>,' said Tom. `You say I 
took you.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom walked along, and Lucy trotted by his side timidly enjoying the rare 
treat of doing something naughty — excited also by the mention of that 
celebrity, the pike, about which she was quite uncertain whether it was a 
fish or a fowl. Maggie saw them leaving the garden, and could not resist the 
impulse to follow. Anger and jealousy can no more bear to lose sight of their 
objects than love, and that Tom and Lucy should do or see anything of which 
she was ignorant would have been an intolerable idea to Maggie. So she kept a 
few yards behind them, unobserved by Tom, who was presently absorbed in 
watching for the `jack-pike' — a highly interesting monster — he was said to 
be so very old, so very large, and to have such a remarkable appetite. The 
pike, like other celebrities did not show when he was watched for, but Tom 
caught sight of something in rapid movement in the water which attracted him 
to another spot on the brink of the pond. 


</p>
               <p>`Here, Lucy!' he said in a loud whisper, `come here! Take care! Keep on the 
grass — don't step where the cows have been!' he added pointing to a 
peninsula of dry grass, with trodden mud on each side of it; for Tom's 
contemptuous conception of a girl included the attribute of being unfit to 
walk in dirty places. 


</p>
               <p>Lucy came carefully as she was bidden, and bent down to look at what seemed a 
golden arrow-head darting through the water. It was a water-snake, Tom told 
her, and Lucy at last could see the serpentine wave of its body, very much 
wondering that a snake could swim. Maggie had drawn nearer and nearer — she 
<hi>must</hi> see it too, though it was bitter to her like everything else, 
since Tom did not care about her seeing it. At last, she was close by Lucy, 
and Tom, who had been aware of her approach, but would not notice it till he 
was obliged, turned round and said, 


</p>
               <p>`Now, get away, Maggie. There's no room for you on the grass here. Nobody 
asked <hi>you</hi> to come.' 


</p>
               <p>There were passions at war in Maggie at that moment to have made a tragedy, 
if tragedies were made by passion only, but the essential 

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which was present in the passion, was wanting 
to the action; the utmost Maggie could do, with a fierce thrust of her small 
brown arm, was to push poor little pink-and-white Lucy into the cow-trodden 
mud. 


</p>
               <p>Then Tom could not restrain himself, and gave Maggie two smart slaps on the 
arm as he ran to pick up Lucy, who lay crying helplessly. Maggie retreated to 
the roots of a tree a few yards off and looked on impenitently. Usually her 
repentance came quickly after one rash deed, but now Tom and Lucy had made 
her so miserable, she was glad to spoil their happiness — glad to make 
everybody uncomfortable. Why should she be sorry? — Tom was very slow to 
forgive <hi>her</hi>, however sorry she might have been. 


</p>
               <p>`I shall tell mother, you know, Miss Mag,' said Tom, loudly and emphatically, 
as soon as Lucy was up and ready to walk away. It was not Tom's practice to 
`tell,' but here justice clearly demanded that Maggie should be visited with 
the utmost punishment: not that Tom had learnt to put his views in that 
abstract form; he never mentioned `justice,' and had no idea that his desire 
to punish might be called by that fine name. Lucy was too entirely absorbed 
by the evil that had befallen her — the spoiling of her pretty best clothes, 
and the discomfort of being wet and dirty — to think much of the cause, which 
was entirely mysterious to her. She could never have guessed what she had 
done to make Maggie angry with her. But she felt that Maggie was very unkind 
and disagreeable, and made no magnanimous entreaties to Tom that he would not 
`tell,' only running along by his side and crying piteously, while Maggie sat 
on the roots of the tree and looked after them with her small Medusa face. 


</p>
               <p>`Sally,' said Tom, when they reached the kitchen door, and Sally looked at 
them in speechless amaze, with a piece of bread-and-butter in her mouth and a 
toasting-fork in her hand, `Sally, tell mother it was Maggie pushed Lucy into 
the mud.' 


</p>
               <p>`But Lors ha'massy, how did you get near such mud as that?' said Sally, 
making a wry face, as she stooped down and examined the <hi>corpus 
delicti</hi>. 


</p>
               <p>Tom's imagination had not been rapid and capacious enough to include this 
question among the foreseen consequences, but it was no sooner put than he 
foresaw whither it tended, and that Maggie would not be considered the only 
culprit in the case. He walked quietly away from the kitchen door, leaving 
Sally to that pleasure of guessing which active minds notoriously prefer to 
ready-made knowledge. 


</p>
               <p>Sally, as you are aware, lost no time in presenting Lucy at the parlour door, 
for to have so dirty an object introduced into the house at Garum Firs was 
too great a weight to be sustained by a single mind. 


</p>
               <p>`Goodness gracious!' aunt Pullet exclaimed after preluding by an inarticulate 
scream. `Keep her at the door, Sally!Don't bring her off the oilcloth, 
whatever you do.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, she's tumbled into some nasty mud,' said Mrs Tulliver, going up to Lucy 
to examine into the amount of damage to clothes for which she felt herself 
responsible to her sister Deane. 


</p>
               <p>`If you please, 'um, it was Miss Maggie as pushed her in,' said Sally. 
`Master Tom's been and said so. And they must ha' been to the pond, for it's 
only there they could ha'got into such dirt.' 


</p>
               <p>`There it is, Bessy — it's what I've been telling you,' said Mrs Pullet, in a 
tone of prophetic sadness, `it's your children — there's no knowing what 
they'll come to.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was mute, feeling herself a truly wretched mother. As usual, the 
thought pressed upon her that people would think she had done something 
wicked to deserve her maternal troubles, while Mrs Pullet began to give 
elaborate directions to Sally how to guard the premises from serious injury 
in the course of removing the dirt. Meantime tea was to be brought in by the 
cook, and the two naughty children were to have theirs in an ignominious 
manner in the kitchen. Mrs Tulliver went out to speak to these naughty 
children, supposing them to be close at hand, but it was not until after some 
search that she found Tom leaning with rather a hardened careless air against 
the white paling of the poultry yard, and lowering his piece of string on the 
other side as a means of exasperating the turkey cock. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, you naughty boy, where's your sister?' said Mrs Tulliver, in a 
distressed voice. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Tom. His eagerness for justice on Maggie had diminished 
since he had seen clearly that it could hardly be brought about without the 
injustice of some blame on his own conduct. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, where did you leave her?' said his mother, looking round. 


</p>
               <p>`Sitting under the tree against the pond,' said Tom, apparently indifferent 
to everything but the string and the turkey cock. 


</p>
               <p>`Then go and fetch her in this minute, you naughty boy. And how could you 
think o' going to the pond, and taking your sister where there was dirt? You 
know she'll do mischief if there's mischief to be done.' 


</p>
               <p>It was Mrs Tulliver's way, if she blamed Tom, to refer his misdemeanour, 
somehow or other, to Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>The idea of Maggie sitting alone by the pond, roused an habitual fear in Mrs 
Tulliver's mind, and she mounted the horse-block to satisfy herself by a 
sight of that fatal child, while Tom walked — not very quickly — on his way 
towards her. 


</p>
               <p>`They're such children for the water, mine are,' she said aloud, without 
reflecting that there was no one to hear her. `They'll be brought in dead and 
drownded some day. I wish that river was far enough.' 


</p>
               <p>But when she not only failed to discern Maggie, but presently saw Tom 
returning from the pool alone, this hovering fear entered and took complete 
possession of her, and she hurried to meet him. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie's nowhere about the pond, mother,' said Tom, `she's gone away.' 


</p>
               <p>You may conceive the terrified search for Maggie, and the difficulty of 
convincing her mother that she was not in the pond. Mrs Pullet observed, that 
the child might come to a worse end if she lived — there was no knowing; and 
Mr Pullet, confused and overwhelmed by this revolutionary aspect of things — 
the tea deferred and the poultry alarmed by the unusual running to and fro — 
took up his spud as an instrument of search, and reached down a key to unlock 
the goose-pen, as a likely place for Maggie to lie perdue in. 


</p>
               <p>Tom, after a while, started the idea that Maggie was gone home (without 
thinking it necessary to state that it was what he should have done himself 
under the circumstances), and the suggestion was seized as a comfort by his 
mother. 


</p>
               <p>`Sister, for goodness' sake, let 'em put the horse in the carriage and take 
me home — we shall perhaps find her on the road. Lucy can't walk in her dirty 
clothes,' she said, looking at that innocent victim, who was wrapped up in a 
shawl and sitting with naked feet on the sofa. 


</p>
               <p>Aunt Pullet was quite willing to take the shortest means of restoring her 
premises to order and quiet, and it was not long before Mrs Tulliver was in 
the chaise looking anxiously at the most distant point before her. What the 
father would say if Maggie was lost? was a question that predominated over 
every other. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.11" type="chapter">
               <head>Maggie Tries Run Away from Her Shadow</head>
               <p>MAGGIE'S intentions, as usual, were on a larger scale than Tom had imagined. 
The resolution that gathered in her mind, after Tom and Lucy had walked away, 
was not so simple as that of going home. No! she would run away and go to the 
gypsies, and Tom should never see her any more. That was by no means a new 
idea to Maggie: she had been so often told she was like a gypsy and `half 
wild' that when she was miserable it seemed to her the only way of escaping 
opprobrium and being entirely in harmony with circumstances, would be to live 
in a little brown tent on the commons: the gypsies, she considered, would 
gladly receive her and pay her much respect on account of her superior 
knowledge. She had once mentioned her views on this point to Tom, and 
suggested that he should stain his face brown and they should run away 
together; but Tom rejected the scheme with contempt, observing that gypsies 
were thieves and hardly got anything to eat and had nothing to drive but a 
donkey. Today, however, Maggie thought her misery had reached a pitch at 
which gypsydom was her only refuge, and she rose from her seat on the roots 
of the tree with the sense that this was a great crisis in her life; she 
would run straight away till she came to Dunlow Common, where there would 
certainly be gypsies, and cruel Tom, and the rest of her relations who found 
fault with her, should never see her any more. She thought of her father as 
she ran along, but she reconciled herself to the idea of parting with him, by 
determining that she would secretly send him a letter by a small gypsy who 
would run away without telling where she was, and just let him know that she 
was well and happy, and always loved him very much. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie soon got out of breath with running, but by the time Tom got to the 
pond again, she was at the distance of three long fields and was on the edge 
of the lane leading to the high road. She stopped to pant a little, 
reflecting that running away was not a pleasant thing until one had got quite 
to the common where the gypsies were, but her resolution had not abated: she 
presently passed through the gate into the lane, not knowing where it would 
lead her, for it was not this way that they came from Dorlcote Mill to Garum 
Firs, and she felt all the safer for that, because there was no chance of her 
being overtaken. But she was soon aware, not without trembling, that there 
were two men coming along the lane in front of her: she had not thought of 
meeting strangers — she had been too much occupied with the idea of her 
friends coming after her. The formidable strangers were two shabby-looking 
men with flushed faces, one of them carrying a bundle on a stick over his 
shoulder: but to her surprise, while she was dreading their disapprobation as 
a runaway, the man with the bundle stopped, and in a half whining half 
coaxing tone asked her if she had a copper to give a poor man. Maggie had a 
sixpence in her pocket — her uncle Glegg's present — which she immediately 
drew out and gave this poor man with a polite smile, hoping he would feel 
very kindly towards her as a generous person. `That's the only money I've 
got,' she said, apologetically. `Thank you, little miss,' said the man in a 
less respectful and grateful tone than Maggie anticipated, and she even 
observed that he smiled and winked at his companion. She walked on hurriedly, 
but was aware that the two men were standing still, probably to look after 
her, and she presently heard them laughing loudly. Suddenly it occurred to 
her that they might think she was an idiot: — Tom had said that her cropped 
hair made her look like an idiot, and it was too painful an idea to be 
readily forgotten. Besides she had no sleeves on — only a cape and a bonnet. 
It was clear that she was not likely to make a favourable impression on 
passengers, and she thought she would turn into the fields again: but not on 
the same side of the lane as before, lest they should still be uncle Pullet's 
fields. She turned through the first gate that was not locked, and felt a 
delighted sense of privacy in creeping along by the hedgerows after her 
recent humiliating encounter. She was used to wandering about the fields by 
herself, and was less timid there than on the high-road. Sometimes she had to 
climb over high gates, but that was a small evil; she was getting out of 
reach very fast, and she should probably soon come within sight of Dunlow 
Common, or at least of some other common, for she had heard her father say 
that you couldn't go very far without coming to a common. She hoped so, for 
she was getting rather tired and hungry, and until she reached the gypsies 
there was no definite prospect of bread-and-butter. It was still broad 
daylight, for aunt Pullet, retaining the early habits of the Dodson family, 
took tea at half-past four by the sun and at five by the kitchen clock; so, 
though it was nearly an hour since Maggie started, there was no gathering 
gloom on the fields to remind her that the night would come. Still, it seemed 
to her that she had been walking a very great distance indeed, and it was 
really surprising that the common did not come within sight. Hitherto she had 
been in the rich parish of Garum where there was a great deal of 
pasture-land, and she had only seen one labourer at a distance: that was 
fortunate in some respects, as labourers might be too ignorant to understand 
the propriety of her wanting to go to Dunlow Common; yet it would have been 
better if she could have met some one who would tell her the way without 
wanting to know anything about her private business. At last, however, the 
green fields came to an end and Maggie found herself looking through the bars 
of a gate into a lane with a wide margin of grass on each side of it. She had 
never seen such a wide lane before, and without her knowing why, it gave her 
the impression that the common could not be far off; perhaps, it was because 
she saw a donkey with a log to his foot feeding on the grassy margin, for she 
had seen a donkey with that pitiable encumbrance on Dunlow Common when she 
had been across it in her father's gig. She crept through the bars of the 
gate and walked on with new spirit, though not without haunting images of 
Apollyon, and a highway-man with a pistol, and a blinking dwarf in yellow 
with a mouth from ear to ear, and other miscellaneous dangers. For poor 
little Maggie had at once the timidity of an active imagination, and the 
daring that comes from overmastering impulse. She had rushed into the 
adventure of seeking her unknown kindred, the gypsies, and now she was in 
this strange lane she hardly dared look on one side of her, lest she should 
see the diabolical blacksmith in his leathern apron grinning at her with arms 
akimbo. It was not without a leaping of the heart that she caught sight of a 
small pair of bare legs sticking up, feet uppermost, by the side of a 
hillock; they seemed something hideously preternatural — a diabolical kind of 
fungus; for she was too much agitated at the first glance to see the ragged 
clothes and the dark shaggy head attached to them. It was a boy asleep, and 
Maggie trotted along faster and more lightly lest she should wake him: it did 
not occur to her that he was one of her friends the gypsies, who in all 
probability would have very genial manners. But the fact was so, for at the 
next bend in the lane, Maggie actually saw the little semicircular black tent 
with the blue smoke rising before it which was to be her refuge from all the 
blighting obloquy that had pursued her in civilised life. She even saw a tall 
female figure by the column of smoke — doubtless the gypsy-mother, who 
provided the tea and other groceries: it was astonishing to herself that she 
did not feel more delighted. But it was startling to find the gypsies in a 
lane, after all, and not on a common: indeed, it was rather disappointing; 
for a mysterious illimitable common where there were sand-pits to hide in, 
and one was out of everybody's reach, had always made part of Maggie's 
picture of gypsy life. She went on, however, and thought with some comfort 
that gypsies most likely knew nothing about idiots, so there was no danger of 
their falling into the mistake of setting her down at the first glance as an 
idiot. It was plain she had attracted attention, for the tall figure, who 
proved to be a young woman with a baby in her arm, walked slowly to meet her. 
Maggie looked up in the new face rather tremblingly as it approached, and was 
reassured by the thought that her aunt Pullet and the rest were right when 
they called her a gypsy, for this face with the bright dark eyes and the long 
hair was really something like what she used to see in the glass before she 
cut her hair off. 


</p>
               <p>`My little lady, where are you going to?' the gypsy said, in a tone of 
coaxing deference. 


</p>
               <p>It was delightful, and just what Maggie expected: the gypsies saw at once 
that she was a little lady, and were prepared to treat her accordingly. 


</p>
               <p>`Not any farther,' said Maggie, feeling as if she were saying what she had 
rehearsed in a dream. `I'm come to stay with <hi>you</hi>, please.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's pritty; come then — why, what a nice little lady you are, to be 
sure,' said the gypsy, taking her by the hand. Maggie thought her very 
agreeable, but wished she had not been so dirty. 


</p>
               <p>There was quite a group round the fire when they reached it. An old 
gypsy-woman was seated on the ground nursing her knees, and occasionally 
poking a skewer into the round kettle that sent forth an odorous steam: two 
small shockheaded children were lying prone and resting on their elbows 
something like small sphinxes: and a placid donkey was bending his head over 
a tall girl who, lying on her back, was scratching his nose and indulging him 
with a bite of excellent stolen hay. The slanting sunlight fell kindly upon 
them, and the scene was really very pretty and comfortable, Maggie thought, 
only she hoped they would soon set out the tea-cups. Everything would be 
quite charming when she had taught the gypsies to use a washing-basin and to 
feel an interest in books. It was a little confusing, though, that the young 
woman began to speak to the old one in a language which Maggie did not 
understand, while the tall girl who was feeding the donkey, sat up and stared 
at her without offering any salutation. At last, the old woman said, 


</p>
               <p>`What, my pretty lady, are you come to stay with us? Sit ye down, and tell us 
where you come from.' 


</p>
               <p>It was just like a story: Maggie liked to be called pretty lady and treated 
in this way. She sat down and said, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm come from home, because I'm unhappy, and I mean to be a gypsy. I'll live 
with you, if you like, and I can teach you a great many things.' 


</p>
               <p>`Such a clever little lady,' said the woman with the baby, sitting down by 
Maggie, and allowing baby to crawl, `and such a pritty bonnet and frock,' she 
added, taking off Maggie's bonnet and looking at it while she made an 
observation to the old woman, in the unknown language. The tall girl snatched 
the bonnet and put it on her own head hind-foremost with a grin; but Maggie 
was determined not to show any weakness on this subject, as if she were 
susceptible about her bonnet. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't want to wear a bonnet,' she said, `I'd rather wear a red 
handkerchief, like yours' (looking at her friend by her side). `My hair was 
quite long till yesterday, when I cut it off: but I dare say it will grow 
again very soon,' she added apologetically, thinking it probable the gypsies 
had a strong prejudice in favour of long hair. And Maggie had forgotten even 
her hunger at that moment in the desire to conciliate gypsy opinion. 


</p>
               <p>`O what a nice little lady — and rich, I'm sure,' said the old woman. `Didn't 
you live in a beautiful house at home?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, my home is pretty, and I'm very fond of the river where we go fishing — 
but I'm often very unhappy. I should have liked to bring my books with me, 
but I came away in a hurry, you know. But I can tell you almost everything 
there is in my books, I've read them so many times — and that will amuse you. 
And I can tell you something about Geography too — that's about the world we 
live in — very useful and interesting. Did you ever hear about Columbus?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's eyes had begun to sparkle and her cheeks to flush — she was really 
beginning to instruct the gypsies, and gaining great influence over them. The 
gypsies themselves were not without amazement at this talk, though their 
attention was divided by the contents of Maggie's pocket, which the friend at 
her right hand had by this time emptied, without attracting her notice. 


</p>
               <p>`Is that where you live, my little lady?' said the old woman, at the mention 
of Columbus. 


</p>
               <p>`O no!' said Maggie, with some pity, `Columbus was a very wonderful man, who 
found out half the world and they put chains on him and treated him very 
badly, you know — it's in my Catechism of Geography — but Perhaps it's rather 
too long to tell before tea... .<hi>I want my tea so</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>The last words burst from Maggie, in spite of herself, with a sudden drop 
from patronising instruction to simple peevishness. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, she's hungry, poor little lady,' said the younger woman. `Give her some 
o' the cold victual. You've been walking a good way, I'll be bound, my dear. 
Where's your home?' 


</p>
               <p>`It's Dorlcote Mill, a good way off,' said Maggie. `My father is Mr Tulliver, 
but we mustn't let him know where I am, else he'll fetch me home again. Where 
does the queen of the gypsies live?' 


</p>
               <p>`What! do you want to go to her, my little lady?' said the younger woman. The 
tall girl, meanwhile, was constantly staring at Maggie and grinning. Her 
manners were certainly not agreeable. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, `I'm only thinking that if she isn't a very good queen you 
might be glad when she died, and you could choose another. If I was a queen, 
I'd be a very good queen, and kind to everybody.' 


</p>
               <p>`Here's a bit o' nice victual, then,' said the old woman, handing to Maggie a 
lump of dry bread, which she had taken from a bag of scraps, and a piece of 
cold bacon. 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you,' said Maggie, looking at the food, without taking it, `but will 
you give me some bread and butter and tea instead? I don't like bacon.' 


</p>
               <p>`We've got no tea nor butter,' said the old woman with something like a 
scowl, as if she were getting tired of coaxing. 


</p>
               <p>`O, a little bread and treacle would do,' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`We ha'n't got no treacle,' said the old woman crossly, whereupon there 
followed a sharp dialogue between the two woman in their unknown tongue, and 
one of the small sphinxes snatched at the bread-and-bacon and began to eat 
it. At this moment the tall girl who had gone a few yards off, came back and 
said something, which produced a strong effect. The old woman seeming to 
forget Maggie's hunger, poked the skewer into the pot with new vigour, and 
the younger crept under the tent, and reached out some platters and spoons. 
Maggie trembled a little, and was afraid the tears would come into her eyes. 
Meanwhile the tall girl gave a shrill cry and presently came running up the 
boy whom Maggie had passed as he was sleeping — a rough urchin about the age 
of Tom. He started at Maggie, and there ensued much incomprehensible 
chattering. She felt very lonely, and was quite sure she should begin to cry 
before long: the gypsies didn't seem to mind her at all, and she felt quite 
weak among them. But the springing tears were checked by a new terror, When 
two men came up, whose approach had been the cause of the sudden excitement. 
The elder of the two carried a bag, which he flung down, addressing the women 
in a loud and scolding tone, which they answered by a shower of treble 
sauciness; while a black cur ran barking up to Maggie and threw her into a 
tremor that only found a new cause in the curses with which the younger man 
called the dog off, and gave him a rap with a great stick he held in his 
hand. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt that it was impossible she should ever be queen of these people, 
or ever communicate to them amusing and useful knowledge. 


</p>
               <p>Both the men now seemed to be inquiring about Maggie, for they looked at her, 
and the tone of the conversation became of that pacific kind which implies 
curiosity on one side and the power of satisfying it on the other. At last 
the younger woman said in her previous deferential coaxing tone, 


</p>
               <p>`This nice little lady's come to live with us: aren't you glad?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, very glad,' said the Younger man, who was looking at Maggie's silver 
thimble and other small matters that had been taken from her pocket. He 
returned them all expect the thimble to the younger woman, with some 
observation, and she immediately restored them to Maggie's pocket, while the 
men seated themselves and began to attack the contents of the kettle — a stew 
of meat and potatoes — which had been taken off the fire and turned out into 
a yellow platter. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie began to think that Tom might be right about the gypsies — they must 
certainly be thieves, unless the man meant to return her thimble by and by. 
She would willingly have given it him, for she was not at all attached to her 
thimble; but the idea that she was among thieves prevented her from feeling 
any comfort in the revival of deference and attention towards her — all 
thieves except Robin Hood were wicked people. The women saw she was 
frightened. 


</p>
               <p>`We've got nothing nice for a lady to eat,' said the old woman, in her 
coaxing tone. `And she's so hungry, sweet little lady.' 


</p>
               <p>`Here, my dear, try if you can eat a bit o' this,' said the younger woman, 
handing some of the stew on a brown dish with an iron spoon to Maggie, who 
remembering that the old woman had seemed angry with her for not liking the 
bread and bacon, dared not refuse the stew, though fear had chased away her 
appetite. If her father would but come by in the gig and take her up! Or even 
if Jack the Giantkiller or Mr Greatheart or St George who slew the dragon on 
the half-pennies, would happen to pass that way! But Maggie thought with a 
sinking heart that these heroes were never seen in the neighbourhood of St 
Ogg's — nothing very wonderful ever came there. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie Tulliver you perceive was by no means that well-trained, well-informed 
young person that a small female of eight or nine necessarily is in these 
days: she had only been to school a year at St Ogg's, and had so few books 
that she sometimes read the dictionary; so that in travelling over her small 
mind you would have found the most unexpected ignorance as well as unexpected 
knowledge. She could have informed you that there was such a word as 
`polygamy' and being also acquainted with `polysyllable,' she had deduced the 
conclusion that `poly' meant `many;' but she had had no idea that gypsies 
were not well supplied with groceries, and her thoughts generally were the 
oddest mixture of cleareyed acumen and blind dreams. 


</p>
               <p>Her ideas about gypsies had undergone a rapid modification in the last five 
minutes. From having considered them very respectful companions, amenable to 
instruction, she had begun to think that they meant perhaps to kill her as 
soon as it was dark, and cut up her body for gradual cooking: the suspicion 
crossed her that the fierce-eyed old man was in fact the devil who might drop 
that transparent disguise at any moment, and turn either into the grinning 
blacksmith or else a fiery-eyed monster with dragon's wings. It was no use 
trying to eat the stew, and yet the thing she most dreaded was to offend the 
gypsies by betraying her extremely unfavourable opinion of them, and she 
wondered with a keenness of interest that no theologian could have exceeded, 
whether if the devil were really present he would know her thoughts. 


</p>
               <p>`What, you don't like the smell of it, my dear,' said the young woman, 
observing that Maggie did not even take a spoonful of the stew. `Try a bit, 
come.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, thank you,' said Maggie, summoning all her force for a desperate effort, 
and trying to smile in a friendly way. `I haven't time, I think — it seems 
getting darker. I think I must go home now, and come again another day, and 
then I can bring you a basket with some jam tarts and things.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie rose from her seat as she threw out this illusory prospect, devoutly 
hoping that Apollyon was gullible; but her hope sank when the old gypsy-woman 
said, `Stop a bit stop a bit, little lady — we'll take you home, all safe, 
when we've done supper: you shall ride home, like a lady.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie sat down again, with little faith in this promise, though she 
presently saw the tall girl putting a bridle on the donkey and throwing a 
couple of bags on his back. 


</p>
               <p>`Now then, little missis,' said the Younger man, rising, and leading the 
donkey forward, `tell us where you live — what's the name o' the place?' 


</p>
               <p>`Dorlcote Mill is my home,' said Maggie, eagerly. `My father is Mr Tulliver — 
he lives there.' 


</p>
               <p>`What, a big mill a little way this side o' St Ogg's?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie. `Is it far off? I think I should like to walk there, if 
you please.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, it'll be getting dark, we must make haste. And the donkey'll carry 
you as nice as can be — you'll see.' 


</p>
               <p>He lifted Maggie as he spoke and set her on the donkey. She felt relieved 
that it was not the old man who seemed to be going with her, but she had only 
a trembling hope that she was really going home. 


</p>
               <p>`Here's your pretty bonnet,' said the Younger woman putting that recently 
despised but now welcome article of costume on Maggie's head; `and you'll say 
we've been very good to you, won't you, and what a nice little lady we said 
you was.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, Yes, thank you,' said Maggie, `I'm very much obliged to you. But I wish 
you'd go with me too.' She thought anything was better than going with one of 
the dreadful men alone: it would be more cheerful to be murdered by a larger 
party. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, You're fondest O' me, aren't you?' said the woman. `But I can't go — 
You'll go too fast for me.' 


</p>
               <p>It now appeared that the man also was to be seated on the donkey holding 
Maggie before him, and she was as incapable of remonstrating against this 
arrangement as the donkey himself, though no nightmare had ever seemed to her 
more horrible. When the woman had patted her on the back and said goodbye, 
the donkey, at a strong hint from the man's stick, set off at a rapid walk 
along the lane towards the point Maggie had come from an hour ago, while the 
tall girl and the rough urchin, also furnished with sticks, obligingly 
escorted them for the first hundred yards, with much screaming and thwacking. 


</p>
               <p>Not Leonore in that preternatural midnight excursion with her phantom lover, 
was more terrified than poor Maggie in this entirely natural ride on a 
short-paced donkey, with a gypsy behind her who considered that he was 
earning half-a-crown. The red light of the setting sun seemed to have a 
portentous meaning, with which the alarming bray of the second donkey, with 
the log on its foot, must surely have some connection. Two low thatched 
cottages — the only houses they passed in this lane — seemed to add to its 
dreariness: they had no windows, to speak of, and the doors were closed: it 
was probable that they were inhabited by witches, and it was a relief to find 
that the donkey did not stop there. 


</p>
               <p>At last — O sight of joy — this lane, the longest in the world, was coming to 
an end, was opening on a broad high road, where there was actually a coach 
passing! And there was finger-post at the corner: she had surely seen that 
finger-post before — `To St Ogg's, 2 miles.' The gypsy really meant to take 
her home, then: he was probably a good man, after all, and might have been 
rather hurt at the thought that she didn't like coming with him alone. This 
idea became stronger as she felt more and more certain that she knew the road 
quite well and she was considering how she might open a conversation with the 
injured gypsy, and not only gratify his feelings but efface the impression of 
her cowardice, when, as they reached a cross road, Maggie caught sight of 
some one coming on a white-faced horse. 


</p>
               <p>`O stop, stop!' she cried out. `There's my father! O father, father!' 


</p>
               <p>The sudden joy was almost painful, and before her father reached her, she was 
sobbing. Great was Mr Tulliver's wonder, for he had made a round from Basset, 
and had not yet been home. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what's the meaning o' this?' he said, checking his horse, while Maggie 
slipped from the donkey and ran to her father's stirrup. 


</p>
               <p>`The little miss lost herself, I reckon,' said the gypsy, `She'd come to our 
tent, at the far end o' Dunlow Lane, and I was bringing her where she said 
her home was. It's a good way to come arter being on the tramp all day.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, yes, father, he's been very good to bring me home,' said Maggie. `A very 
kind, good man!' 


</p>
               <p>`Here then, my man,' said Mr Tulliver, taking out five shillings. `It's the 
best day's work <hi>you</hi> ever did. I couldn't afford to lose the little 
wench Here, lift her up before me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Maggie, how's this, how's this,' he said, as they rode along, while she 
laid her head against her father and sobbed. `How came you to be rambling 
about and lose yourself?' 


</p>
               <p>`O father,' sobbed Maggie, `I ran away, because I was so unhappy — Tom was so 
angry with me. I couldn't bear it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh, Pooh,' said Mr Tulliver, soothingly, `you mustn't think o' running 
away from father. What 'ud father do without his little wench?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no — I never will again, father — never.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver spoke his mind very strongly when he reached home that evening, 
and the effect was seen in the remarkable fact that Maggie never heard one 
reproach from her mother or one taunt from Tom about this foolish business of 
her running away to the gypsies. Maggie was rather awestricken by this 
unusual treatment, and sometimes thought that her conduct had been too wicked 
to be alluded to. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.12" type="chapter">
               <head>Mr and Mrs Glegg at Home</head>
               <p>IN order to see Mr and Mrs Glegg at home, we must enter the town of St Ogg's 
— that venerable town with the redfluted roofs and the broad warehouse 
gables, where the black ships unlade themselves of their burthens from the 
far north, and carry away, in exchange, the precious inland products, the 
well-crushed cheese and the soft fleeces, which my refined readers have 
doubtless become acquainted with through the medium of the best classic 
pastorals. 


</p>
               <p>It is one of those old, old towns, which impress one as a continuation and 
outgrowth of nature as much as the nests of the bower birds or the winding 
galleries of the white ants: a town which carries the traces of its long 
growth and history, like a millennial tree, and has sprung up and developed 
in the same spot between the river and the low hill from the time when the 
Roman legions turned their backs on it from the camp on the hill-side, and 
the longhaired sea-kings camp up the river and looked with fierce, eager eyes 
at the fatness of the land. It is a town `familiar with forgotten years.' The 
shadow of the Saxon hero-king still walks there fitfully, reviewing the 
scenes of his youth and lovetime, and is met by the gloomier shadow of the 
dreadful heathen Dane who was stabbed in the midst of his warriors by the 
sword of an invisible avenger and who rises on autumn evenings like a white 
mist from his tumulus on the hill and hovers in the court of the old Hall by 
the river-side — the spot where he was thus miraculously slain in the days 
before the old Hall was built. It was the Normans who began to build that 
fine old Hall, which is like the town — telling of the thoughts and hands of 
widely-sundered generations; but it is all so old that we look with loving 
pardon at its inconsistencies, and are well content that they who built the 
stone oriel and they who built the gothic facade and towers of finest small 
brick-work with trefoil ornament, and the windows and battlements defined 
with stone, did not sacrilegiously pull down the ancient half-timbered body 
with its oak-roofed banqueting-hall. 


</p>
               <p>But older even than this old Hall is Perhaps the bit of wall now built into 
the belfry of the parish church and said to be a remnant of the original 
chapel dedicated to St Ogg, the patron saint of this ancient town, of whose 
history I possess several manuscript versions. I incline to the briefest, 
since if it should not be wholly true, it is at least likely to contain the 
least falsehood. `Ogg the son of Beorl,' says my private hagiographer, `was a 
boatman who gained a scanty living by ferrying passengers across the river 
Floss. And it came to pass one evening when the winds were high, that there 
sat moaning by the bring of the river a woman with a child in her arms; and 
she was clad in rags, and had a worn and withered look. And she craved to be 
rowed across the river. And the men thereabout questioned her, and said 
`Wherefore dost thou desire to cross the river? Tarry till the morning, and 
take shelter here for the night: so shalt thou be wise, and not foolish.' 
Still she went on to mourn and crave. But Ogg the son of Beorl came up, and 
said, `I will ferry thee across: it is enough that thy heart needs it.' And 
he ferried her across. And it came to pass when she stepped ashore, that her 
rags were turned into robes of flowing white, and her face became bright with 
exceeding beauty and there was a glory around it so that she shed a light on 
the water like the moon in its brightness. And she said `Ogg, the son of 
Beorl, thou art blessed, in that thou didst not question and wrangle with the 
heart's need but wast smitten with pity and didst straightway relieve the 
same. And from henceforth whose steps into thy boat shall be in no peril from 
the storm, and whenever it puts forth to the rescue it shall save the lives 
both of men and beasts.' And when the floods came, many were saved by reason 
of that blessing on the boat. But when Ogg the son of Beorl died, behold, in 
the parting of his soul, the boat loosed itself from its moorings and was 
floated with the ebbing tide in great swiftness to the ocean and was seen no 
more. Yet it was witnessed in the floods of after-time, that at the coming on 
of even, Ogg the son of Beorl was always seen with his boat upon the 
wide-spreading waters, and the Blessed Virgin sat in the prow shedding a 
light around as of the moon in its brightness, so that the rowers in the 
gathering darkness took heart and pulled anew.' 


</p>
               <p>This legend, one sees, reflects from a far-off time the visitation of the 
floods, which even when they left human life untouched, were widely fatal to 
the helpless cattle, and swept as sudden death over all smaller living 
things. But the town knew worse troubles even than the floods: troubles of 
the civil wars when it was a continual fighting place where first puritans 
thanked God for the blood of the loyalists and then loyalists thanked God for 
the blood of the puritans. Many honest citizens lost all their possessions 
for conscience sake in those times and went forth beggared from their native 
town. Doubtless there are many houses standing now on which those honest 
citizens turned their backs in sorrow: quaint gabled houses looking on the 
river, jammed between newer warehouses and penetrated by surprising passages, 
which turn and turn at sharp angles till they lead you out on a muddy strand 
overflowed continually by the rushing tide. Everywhere the brick houses have 
a mellow look and in Mrs Glegg's day there was no incongruous new-fashioned 
smartness, no plate-glass in shop-windows, no fresh stucco facing, or other 
fallacious attempt to make fine old red St Ogg's wear the air of a town that 
sprang up yesterday. The shop windows were small and unpretending, for the 
farmers' wives and daughters who came to do their shopping on market days, 
were not to be withdrawn from their regular, well-known shops; and the 
tradesmen had no wares intended for customers who would go on their way and 
be seen no more. Ah, even Mrs Glegg's day seems far back in the past now, 
separated from us by changes that widen the years. War and the rumour of war 
had then died out from the minds of men, and if they were ever thought of by 
farmers in drab greatcoats who shook the grain out of their sample-bags and 
buzzed over it in the 


</p>
               <p>full market-place, it was as a state of things that belonged to a past golden 
age when prices were high. Surely the time was gone for ever when the broad 
river could bring up unwelcome ships: Russia was only the place where the 
linseed came from — the more the better — making grist for the great vertical 
millstones with their scythe-like arms, roaring and grinding and carefully 
sweeping as if an informing soul were in them. The Catholics, bad harvests, 
and the mysterious fluctuations of trade were the three evils mankind had to 
fear: even the floods had not been great of late years. The mind of St Ogg's 
did not look extensively before or after. It inherited a long past without 
thinking of it, and had no eyes for the spirits that walked the streets. 
Since the centuries when St Ogg with his boat and the Virgin Mother at the 
prow had been seen on the wide water, so many memories had been left behind 
and had gradually vanished like the receding hill-tops! And the present time 
was like the level plain where men lose their belief in volcanoes and 
earthquakes, thinking to-morrow will be as yesterday and the giant forces 
that used to shake the earth are for ever laid to sleep. The days were gone 
when people could be greatly wrought upon by their faith, still less change 
it: the Catholics were formidable because they would lay hold of government 
and property, and burn men alive; not because any sane and honest parishioner 
of St Ogg's could be brought to believe in the Pope. One aged person 
remembered how a rude multitude had been swayed when John Wesley preached in 
the cattle-market, but for a long while it had not been expected of preachers 
that they should shake the souls of men. An occasional burst of fervour in 
dissenting pulpits on the subject of infant baptism was the only symptom of a 
zeal unsuited to sober times when men had done with change. Protestantism sat 
at ease, unmindful of schisms, careless of proselytism: dissent was an 
inheritance along with a superior pew and a business connection, and 
Churchmanship only wondered contemptuously at Dissent as a foolish habit that 
clung greatly to families in the grocery and chandlering lines, though not 
incompatible with prosperous wholesale dealing. But with the Catholic 
Question had come a slight wind of controversy to break the calm: the elderly 
rector had become occasionally historical and argumentative, and Mr Spray the 
Independent minister had begun to preach political sermons in which he 
distinguished with much subtlety between his fervent belief in the right of 
the Catholics to the franchise and his fervent belief in their eternal 
perdition. But most of Mr Spray's hearers were incapable of following his 
subtleties, and many old-fashioned dissenters were much pained by his `siding 
with the Catholics'; while others thought he had better let politics alone. 
Public spirit was not held in high esteem at St Ogg's, and men who busied 
themselves with political questions were regarded with some suspicion as 
dangerous characters: they were usually persons who had little or no business 
of their own to manage, or, if they had, were likely enough to become 
insolvent. 


</p>
               <p>This was the general aspect of things at St Ogg's in Mrs Glegg's day and at 
that particular period in her family history when she had had her quarrel 
with Mr Tulliver. It was a time when ignorance was much more comfortable than 
at present, and was received with all the honours in very good society, 
without being obliged to dress itself in an elaborate costume of knowledge: a 
time when cheap periodicals were not, and when country surgeons never thought 
of asking their female patients if they were fond of reading, but simply took 
it for granted that they preferred gossip: a time when ladies in rich silk 
gowns wore large pockets in which they carried a mutton bone to secure them 
against cramp. Mrs Glegg carried such a bone, which she had inherited from 
her grandmother with a brocaded gown that would stand up empty, like a suit 
of armour, and a silver-headed walking-stick; for the Dodson family had been 
respectable for many generations. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg had both a front and a back parlour in her excellent house at St 
Ogg's, so that she had two points of view from which she could observe the 
weaknesses of her fellow-beings and reinforce her thankfulness for her own 
exceptional strength of mind. From her front windows she could look down the 
Tofton Road leading out of St Ogg's and note the growing tendency to `gadding 
about' in the wives of men not retired from business, together with a 
practice of wearing woven cotton stockings, which opened a dreary prospect 
for the coming generation; and from her back windows she could look down the 
pleasant garden and orchard which stretched to the river, and observe the 
folly of Mr Glegg in spending his time among `them flowers and vegetables.' 
For Mr Glegg having retired from active business as a wool-stapler for the 
purpose of enjoying himself through the rest of his life, had found this last 
occupation so much more severe than his business, that he had been driven 
into amateur hard labour as a dissipation, and habitually relaxed by doing 
the work of two ordinary gardeners. The economising of a gardener's wages 
might perhaps have induced Mrs Glegg to wink at this folly, if it were 
possible for a healthy female mind even to simulate respect for a husband's 
hobby. But it is well known that this conjugal complacency belongs only to 
the weaker portion of the sex, who are scarcely alive to the responsibilities 
of a wife as a constituted check on her husband's pleasures — which are 
hardly ever of a rational or commendable kind. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg on his side, too, had a double source of mental occupation, which 
gave every promise of being inexhaustible. On the one hand, he surprised 
himself by his discoveries in natural history, finding that his piece of 
garden ground contained wonderful caterpillars, slugs and insects, which, so 
far as he had heard, had never before attracted human observation, and he 
noticed remarkable coincidences between these zoological phenomena and the 
great events of that time, as, for example, that before the burning of York 
Minster there had been mysterious serpentine marks on the leaves of the 
rose-trees together with an unusual prevalence of slugs which he had been 
puzzled to know the meaning of, until it flashed upon him with this 
melancholy conflagration. (Mr Glegg had an unusual amount of mental activity 
which when disengaged from the wool business naturally made itself a pathway 
in other directions.) And his second subject of meditation was the 
`contrairiness' of the female mind, as typically exhibited in Mrs Glegg. That 
a creature made — in a genealogical sense — out of a man's rib, and in this 
particular case maintained in the highest respectability without any trouble 
of her own, should be normally in a state of contradiction to the blandest 
propositions and even to the most accommodating concessions, was a mystery in 
the scheme of things to which he had often in vain sought a clue in the early 
chapters of Genesis. Mr Glegg had chosen the eldest Miss Dodson as a handsome 
embodiment of female prudence and thrift, and being him-self of a 
money-getting, money-keeping turn, had calculated on much conjugal harmony. 
But in that curious compound the feminine character, it may easily happen 
that the flavour is unpleasant in spite of excellent ingredients; and a fine 
systematic stinginess may be accompanied with a seasoning that quite spoils 
its relish. Now good Mr Glegg him-self was stingy in the most amiable manner: 
his neighbours called him `near,' which always means that the person in 
question is a lovable skinflint. If you expressed a preference for 
cheese-parings, Mr Glegg would remember to save them for you with a 
good-natured delight in gratifying your palate, and he was given to pet all 
animals which required no appreciable keep. There was no humbug or hypocrisy 
about Mr Glegg: his eyes would have watered with true feeling over the sale 
of a widow's furniture, which a five-pound note from his side-pocket would 
have prevented: but a donation of five pounds to a person `in a small way of 
life' would have seemed to him a mad kind of lavishness rather than `charity' 
which had always presented itself to him as a contribution of small aids, not 
a neutralising of misfortune. And Mr Glegg was just as fond of saving other 
people's money as his own: he would have ridden as far round to avoid a 
turnpike when his expenses were to be paid for him, as when they were to come 
out of his own pocket, and was 


</p>
               <p>quite zealous in trying to induce indifferent acquaintances to adopt a cheap 
substitute for blacking. This inalienable habit of saving, as an end in 
itself, belonged to the industrious men of business of a former generation, 
who made their fortunes slowly, almost as the tracking of the fox belongs to 
the harrier — it constituted them a `race,' which is nearly lost in these 
days of rapid money-getting, when lavishness comes close on the back of want. 
In old-fashioned times, an `independence' was hardly ever made without a 
little miserliness as a condition, and you would have found that quality in 
every provincial district combined with characters as various as the fruits 
from which we can extract acid. The true Harpagons were always marked and 
exceptional characters: not so the worthy taxpayers who having once pinched 
from real necessity retained even in the midst of their comfortable 
retirement, with their wall-fruit and wine-bins, the habit of regarding life 
as an ingenious process of nibbling out one's livelihood without leaving any 
perceptible deficit, and who would have been as immediately prompted to give 
up a newly-taxed luxury when they had their clear five hundred a year as when 
they had only five hundred pounds of capital. Mr Glegg was one of these men, 
found so impracticable by chancellors of the exchequer; and knowing this, you 
will be the better able to understand why he had not swerved from the 
conviction that he had made an eligible marriage, in spite of the too pungent 
seasoning that nature had given to the eldest Miss Dodson's virtues. A man 
with an affectionate disposition, who finds a wife to concur with his 
fundamental idea of life, easily comes to persuade himself that no other 
woman would have suited him so well, and does a little daily snapping and 
quarrelling without any sense of alienation. Mr Glegg, being of a reflective 
turn, and no longer occupied with wool, had much wondering meditation on the 
peculiar constitution of the female mind as unfolded to him in his domestic 
life: and yet he thought Mrs Glegg's household ways a model for her sex: it 
struck him as a pitiable irregularity in other women if they did not roll up 
their table-napkins with the same tightness and emphasis as Mrs Glegg did, if 
their pastry had a less leathery consistence, and their damson cheese a less 
venerable hardness than hers: nay, even the peculiar combination of grocery 
and drug-like odours in Mrs Glegg's private cupboard impressed him as the 
only right thing in the way of cupboard-smells. I am not sure that he would 
not have longed for the quarrelling again, if it had ceased for an entire 
week; and it is certain that an acquiescent mild wife would have left his 
meditations comparatively jejune and barren of mystery. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg's unmistakable kind-heartedness was shown in this, that it pained 
him more to see his wife at variance with others — even with Dolly, the 
servant — than to be in a state of cavil with her himself, and the quarrel 
between her and Mr Tulliver vexed him so much that it quite nullified the 
pleasure he would otherwise have had in the state of his early cabbages as he 
walked in his garden before breakfast the next morning. Still he went in to 
breakfast with some slight hope that now Mrs Glegg had `slept upon it,' her 
anger might be subdued enough to give way to her usually strong sense of 
family decorum. She had been used to boast that there had never been any of 
those deadly quarrels among the Dodsons which had disgraced other families: 
that no Dodson had ever been `cut off with a shilling' and no cousin of the 
Dodsons disowned; as, indeed, why should they be? for they had no cousins who 
had not money out at use, or some houses of their own, at the very least. 


</p>
               <p>There was one evening-cloud which had always disappeared from Mrs Glegg's 
brow when she sat at the breakfast-table: it was her fuzzy front of curls; 
for as she occupied herself in household matters in the morning, it would 
have been a mere extravagance to put on anything so superfluous to the making 
of leathery pastry as a fuzzy curled front. By half-past ten decorum demanded 
the front: until then Mrs Glegg could economise it and society would never be 
any the wiser. But the absense of that cloud only left it more apparent that 
the cloud of severity remained; and Mr Glegg, perceiving this as he sat down 
to his milk-porridge, which it was his old frugal habit to stem his morning 
hunger with, prudently resolved to leave the first remark to Mrs Glegg, lest, 
to so delicate an article as a lady's temper, the slightest touch should do 
mischief. People who seem to enjoy their ill-temper have a way of keeping it 
in fine condition by inflicting privations on themselves. That was Mrs 
Glegg's way: she made her tea weaker than usual this morning and declined 
butter. It was a hard case that a vigorous mood for quarrelling, so highly 
capable of using any opportunity should not meet with a single remark from Mr 
Glegg on which to exercise itself. But by and by it appeared that his silence 
would answer the purpose, for he heard himself apostrophised at last in that 
tone peculiar to the wife of one's bosom. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Mr Glegg! it's a poor return I get for making you the wife I've made 
you all these years. If this is the way I'm to be treated, I'd better ha' 
known it before my poor father died, and then, when I'd wanted a home, I 
should ha' gone elsewhere — as the choice was offered me.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg paused from his porridge and looked up — not with any new amazement 
but simply with that quiet, habitual wonder with which we regard constant 
mysteries. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Mrs G., what have I done now?' 


</p>
               <p>`Done now, Mr Glegg? <hi>done now</hi>?...  I'm sorry for you.' 


</p>
               <p>Not seeing his way in any pertinent answer, Mr Glegg reverted to his 
porridge. 


</p>
               <p>`There's husbands in the world,' continued Mrs Glegg after a pause, `as 'ud 
have known how to do something different to siding with everybody else 
against their own wives. Perhaps I'm wrong, and you can teach me better — but 
I've allays heard as it's the husband's place to stand by the wife, instead 
o' rejoicing and <hi>triumphing</hi> when folks insult her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, what call have you to say that?' said Mr Glegg, rather warmly, for 
though a kind man, he was not as meek as Moses. `When did I rejoice or 
triumph over you?' 


</p>
               <p>`There's ways o' doing things worse than speaking out plain, Mr Glegg. I'd 
sooner you'd tell me to my face as you make light of me, than try to make out 
as everybody's in the right but me, and come to your breakfast in the 
morning, as I've hardly slept an hour this night, and sulk at me as if I was 
the dirt under your feet.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sulk at you?' said Mr Glegg, in a tone of angry facetiousness. `You're like 
a tipsy man as thinks everybody's had too much but himself.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't lower yourself with using coarse language to <hi>me</hi>, Mr Glegg! It 
makes you look very small, though you can't see yourself,' said Mrs Glegg in 
a tone of energetic compassion. `A man in your place should set an example, 
and talk more sensible.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes; but will you listen to sense?' retorted Mr Glegg, sharply. `The best 
sense I can talk to you is what I said last night — as you're i' the wrong to 
think o' calling in your money, when it's safe enough if you'd let it alone, 
all because of a bit of a tiff, and I was in hopes you'd ha' altered your 
mind this morning. But if you'd like to call it in, don't do it in a hurry 
now, and breed more enmity in the family — but wait till there's a pretty 
mortgage to be had without any trouble. You'd have to set the lawyer to work 
now to find an investment, and make no end o' expense.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg felt there was really something in this, but she tossed her head 
and emitted a guttural interjection to indicate that her silence was only an 
armistice, not a peace. And, in fact, hostilities soon broke out again. 


</p>
               <p>`I'll thank you for my cup o' tea now, Mrs G.,' said Mr Glegg, seeing that 
she did not proceed to give it him as usual, when he had finished his 
porridge. She lifted the teapot with a slight toss of the head, and said, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm glad to hear you'll <hi>thank</hi> me, Mr Glegg. It's little thanks 
<hi>I</hi> get for what I do for folks i' this world. Though there's never a 
woman o' <hi>your</hi> side i' the family, Mr Glegg, as is fit to stand up 
with me, and I'd say it if I was on my dying bed. Not but what I've allays 
conducted myself civil to your kin, and there isn't one of 'em can say the 
contrary, though my equils they aren't, and nobody shall make me say it.' 


</p>
               <p>`You'd better leave finding fault wi' my kin till you've left off quarrelling 
with your own, Mrs G.,' said Mr Glegg, with angry sarcasm. `I'll trouble you 
for the milk-jug.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's as false a word as ever you spoke, Mr Glegg,' said the lady, pouring 
out the milk with unusual profuseness, as much as to say, if he wanted milk, 
he should have it with a vengeance. `And you know it's false. I'm not the 
woman to quarrel with my own kin: <hi>you</hi> may, for I've known you do 
it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what did you call it yesterday, then, leaving your sister's house in a 
tantrum?' 


</p>
               <p>`I'd no quarrel wi' my sister, Mr Glegg, and it's false to say it. Mr 
Tulliver's none o' my blood, and it was him quarrelled with me, and drove me 
out o' the house. But perhaps you'd have had me stay and be swore at, Mr 
Glegg; perhaps you was vexed not to hear more abuse and foul language poured 
out upo' your own wife. But let me tell you, it's <hi>your</hi> disgrace.' 


</p>
               <p>`Did ever anybody hear the like i' this parish?' said Mr Glegg, getting hot. 
`A woman with everything provided for her, and allowed to keep her own money 
the same as if it was settled on her, and with a gig new-stuffed and lined at 
no end o' expense, and provided for when I die beyond anything she could 
expect... to go on i' this way, biting and snapping like a mad dog! It's 
beyond everything as God A'mighty should ha' made women so.' (These last 
words were uttered in a tone of sorrowful agitation: Mr Glegg pushed his tea 
from him, and tapped the table with both his hands.) 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Mr Glegg! if those are your feelings, it's best they should be known,' 
said Mrs Glegg, taking off her napkin, and folding it in an excited manner. 
`But if you talk o' my being provided for beyond what I could expect, I beg 
leave to tell you as I'd a right to except a many things as I don't find. And 
as to my being like a mad dog, it's well if you're not cried shame on by the 
county for your treatment of me, for it's what I can't bear, and I won't 
bear'... 


</p>
               <p>Here Mrs Glegg's voice intimated that she was going to cry, and breaking off 
from speech, she rang the bell violently. 


</p>
               <p>`Sally,' she said, rising from her chair, and speaking in rather a choked 
voice, `light a fire upstairs, and put the blinds down. Mr Glegg, you'll 
please to order what you'd like for dinner. I shall have gruel.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg walked across the room to the small book-case, and took down 
Baxter's `Saints' Everlasting Rest'which she carried with her upstairs. It 
was the book she was accustomed to lay open before her on special occasions: 
on wet Sunday mornings — or when she heard of a death in the family — or 
when, as in this case, her quarrel with Mr Glegg had been set an octave 
higher than usual. 


</p>
               <p>But Mrs Glegg carried something else upstairs with her, which together with 
the `Saints' Rest' and the gruel, may have had some influence in gradually 
calming her feelings and making it possible for her to endure existence on 
the ground-floor shortly before tea-time. This was partly Mr Glegg's 
suggestion that she would do well to let her five hundred lie still until a 
good investment turned up, and, further, his parenthetic hint at his handsome 
provision for her in case of his death. Mr Glegg, like all men of his stamp, 
was extremely reticent about his will, and Mrs Glegg in her gloomier moments, 
had forebodings that, like other husbands of whom she had heard, he might 
cherish the mean project of heightening her grief at his death by leaving her 
poorly off, in which case she was firmly resolved that she would have 
scarcely any weeper on her bonnet and would cry no more than if he had been a 
second husband. But if he had really shown her any testamentary tenderness, 
it would be affecting to think of him, poor man, when he was gone, and even 
his foolish fuss about the flowers and garden-stuff, and his insistence on 
the subject of snails, would be touching when it was once fairly at an end. 
To survive Mr Glegg and talk eulogistically of him, as a man who might have 
his weaknesses, but who had done the right thing by her notwithstanding his 
numerous poor relations — to have sums of interest coming in more frequently 
and secrete it in various corners baffling to the most ingenious of thieves 
(for, to Mrs Glegg's mind, banks and strong boxes would have nullified the 
pleasure of property — she might as well have taken her food in capsules) — 
finally, to be looked up to by her own family and the neighbourhood, so as no 
woman can ever hope to be who has not the praeterite and present dignity 
comprised in being a `widow well left,' — all this made a flattering and 
conciliatory view of the future. So that when good Mr Glegg, restored to 
good-humour by much hoeing, and moved by the sight of his wife's empty chair 
with her knitting rolled up in the corner, went upstairs to her and observed 
that the bell had been tolling for poor Mr Morton, Mrs Glegg answered 
magnanimously, quite as if she had been an uninjured woman, `Ah!then there'll 
be a good business for somebody to take to.' 


</p>
               <p>Baxter had been open at least eight hours by this time, for it was nearly 
five o'clock; and if people are to quarrel often, it follows as a corollary 
that their quarrels cannot be protracted beyond certain limits. 


</p>
               <p>Mr and Mrs Glegg talked quite amicably about the Tullivers that evening: Mr 
Glegg went the length of admitting that Tulliver was a sad man for getting 
into hot water, and was like enough to run through his property; and Mrs 
Glegg, meeting this acknowledgment half-way, declared that it was beneath her 
to take notice of such a man's conduct, and that for her sister's sake, she 
would let him keep the five hundred a while longer, for when she put it out 
on a mortgage she should only get four per cent. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c1.13" type="chapter">
               <head>Mr Tulliver Further Entangles the Skein of Life</head>
               <p>OWING to this new adjustment of Mrs Glegg's thoughts, Mrs Pullet found her 
task of mediation the next day surprisingly easy. Mrs Glegg, indeed, checked 
her rather sharply for thinking it would be necessary to tell her elder 
sister what was the right mode of behaviour in family matters. Mrs Pullet's 
argument that it would look ill in the neighbourhood if people should have it 
in their power to say that there was a quarrel in the family, was 
particularly offensive. If the family name never suffered except through Mrs 
Glegg, Mrs Pullet might lay her head on her pillow in perfect confidence. 


</p>
               <p>`It's not to be expected, I suppose,' observed Mrs Glegg, by way of winding 
up the subject, `as I shall go to the Mill again before Bessy comes to see 
me, or as I shall go and fall down o' my knees to Mr Tulliver and ask his 
pardon for showing him favours; but I shall bear no malice, and when Mr 
Tulliver speaks civil to me, I'll speak civil to him. Nobody has any call to 
tell me what's becoming.' 


</p>
               <p>Finding it unnecessary to plead for the Tullivers, it was natural that aunt 
Pullet should relax a little in her anxiety for them, and recur to the 
annoyance she had suffered yesterday from the offspring of that apparently 
ill-fated house. Mrs Glegg heard a circumstantial narrative, to which Mr 
Pullet's remarkable memory furnished some items; and while aunt Pullet pitied 
poor Bessy's bad luck with her children, and expressed a half-formed project 
of paying for Maggie's being sent to a distant boarding school, which would 
not prevent her being so brown, but might tend to subdue some other vices in 
her, aunt Glegg blamed Bessy for her weakness, and appealed to all witnesses 
who should be living when the Tulliver children had turned out ill, that she, 
Mrs Glegg, had always said how it would be from the very first, observing 
that it was wonderful to herself how all her words came true. 


</p>
               <p>`Then I may call and tell Bessy you'll bear no malice, and everything be as 
it was before?' Mrs Pullet said, just before parting. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, you may, Sophy,' said Mrs Glegg, `you may tell Mr Tulliver and Bessy 
too, as I'am not going to behave ill, because folks behave ill to me: I know 
it's my place, as the eldest, to set an example in every respect, and I do 
it. Nobody can say different of me, if they'll keep to the truth.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg being in this state of satisfaction in her own lofty magnanimity, I 
leave you to judge what effect was produced on her by the reception of a 
short letter from Mr Tulliver that very evening after Mrs Pullet's departure, 
— informing her that she needn't trouble her mind about her five hundred 
pounds, for it should be paid back to her in the course of the next month at 
farthest, together with the interest due thereon until the time of payment. 
And furthermore, that Mr Tulliver had no wish to behave uncivilly to Mrs 
Glegg, and she was welcome to his house whenever she liked to come, but he 
desired no favours from her, either for himself or his children. 


</p>
               <p>It was poor Mrs Tulliver who had hastened this catastrophe, entirely through 
that irrepressible hopefulness of hers which led her to expect that similar 
causes may at any time produce different results. It had very often occurred 
in her experience that Mr Tulliver had done something because other people 
had said he was not able to do it, or had pitied him for his supposed 
inability, or in any other way piqued his pride: still, she thought today if 
she told him when he came in to tea that sister Pullet was gone to try and 
make everything up with sister Glegg. So that he needn't think about paying 
in the money, it would give a cheerful effect to the meal. Mr Tulliver had 
never slackened in his resolve to raise the money, but now he at once 
determined to write a letter to Mrs Glegg which should cut off all 
possibility of mistake. Mrs Pullet gone to beg and pray for <hi>him</hi>, 
indeed!Mr Tulliver did not willingly write a letter, and found the relation 
between spoken and written language, briefly known as spelling, one of the 
most puzzling things in this puzzling world. Nevertheless, like all fervid 
writing, the task was done in less time than usual, and if the spelling 
differed from Mrs Glegg's — why, she belonged, like himself, to a generation 
with whom spelling was a matter of private judgment. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg did not alter her will in consequence of this letter, and cut off 
the Tulliver children from their sixth and seventh share in her thousand 
pounds for she had her principles. No one must be able to say of her when she 
was dead that she had not divided her money with perfect fairness among her 
own kin: in the matter of Wills personal qualities were subordinate to the 
great fundamental fact of blood; and to be determined in the distribution of 
your property by caprice and not make your legacies bear a direct ratio to 
degrees of kinship, was a prospective disgrace that would have embittered her 
life. This had always been a principle in the Dodson family; it was one form 
of that sense of honour and rectitude which was a proud tradition in such 
families — a tradition which has been the salt of our provincial society. 


</p>
               <p>But though the letter could not shake Mrs Glegg's principles, it made the 
family breach much more difficult to mend and as to the effect it produced on 
Mrs Glegg's opinion of Mr Tulliver — she begged to be understood from that 
time forth that she had nothing whatever to say about him: his state of mind, 
apparently, was too corrupt for her to contemplate it for a moment. It was 
not until the evening before Tom went to school, at the beginning of August, 
that Mrs Glegg paid a visit to her sister Tulliver, sitting in her gig all 
the while, and showing her displeasure by markedly abstaining from all advice 
and criticism, for, as she observed to her sister Deane, `Bessy must bear the 
consequences o'having such a husband, though I'm sorry for her,' and Mrs 
Deane agreed that Bessy was pitiable. 


</p>
               <p>That evening Tom observed to Maggie, `O my! Maggie, aunt Glegg's beginning to 
come again; I'm glad I'm going to school. <hi>You'll</hi> catch it all now!' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was already so full of sorrow at the thought of Tom's going away from 
her, that this playful exultation of his seemed very unkind, and she cried 
herself to sleep that night. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver's prompt procedure entailed on him further promptitude in finding 
the convenient person who was desirous of lending five hundred pounds on 
bond. `It must be no client of Wakem's,' he said to himself; and yet at the 
end of a fortnight it turned out to the contrary; not because Mr Tulliver's 
will was feeble, but because external fact was stronger. Wakem's client was 
the only convenient person to be found. Mr Tulliver had a destiny as well as 
Oedipus, and in this case he might plead, like Oedipus, that his deed was 
inflicted on him rather than committed by him. 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b2" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c2.1" type="chapter">
               <head>Tom's `First Half'</head>
               <p>TOM TULLIVER'S sufferings during the first quarter he was at King's Lorton 
under the distinguished care of the Rev. Walter Stelling were rather severe. 
At Mr Jacobs' Academy, life had not presented itself to him as a difficult 
problem: there were plenty of fellows to play with, and Tom being good at all 
active games, fighting especially, had that precedence among them which 
appeared to him inseparable from the personality of Tom Tulliver; Mr Jacobs 
himself, familiarly known as Old Goggles, from his habit of wearing 
spectacles, imposed no painful awe; and if it was the property of snuffy old 
hypocrites like him to write like copperplate and surround their signatures 
with arabesques, to spell without forethought, and to spout `My name is 
Norval' without bungling, Tom for his part was rather glad he was not in 
danger of those mean accomplishments. He was not going to be a snuffy 
schoolmaster — he; but a substantial man, like his father, who used to go 
hunting when he was younger, and rode a capital black mare — as pretty a bit 
of horse-flesh as ever you saw: Tom had heard what her points were a hundred 
times. <hi>He</hi> meant to go hunting too, and to be generally respected. 
When people were grown up, he considered, nobody inquired about their writing 
and spelling: when he was a man, he should be master of everything and do 
just as he liked. It had been very difficult for him to reconcile himself to 
the idea that his school-time was to be prolonged, and that he was not to be 
brought up to his father's business, which he had always thought extremely 
pleasant, for it was nothing but riding about, giving orders, and going to 
market; and he thought that a clergyman would give him a great many Scripture 
lessons, and probably make him learn the Gospel and Epistle on a Sunday as 
well as the Collect. But in the absence of specific information, it was 
impossible for him to imagine that school and a schoolmaster would be 
something entirely different from the Academy and Mr Jacobs. So, not to be at 
a deficiency, in case of his finding genial companions, he had taken care to 
carry with him a small box of percussion caps; not that there was anything 
particular to be done with them, but they would serve to impress strange boys 
with a sense of his familiarity with guns. Thus poor Tom, though he saw very 
clearly through Maggie's illusions, was not without illusions of his own, 
which were to be cruelly dissipated by his enlarged experience at King's 
Lorton. 


</p>
               <p>He had not been there a fortnight before it was evident to him that life, 
complicated not only with the Latin grammar but with a new standard of 
English pronunciation, was a very difficult business, made all the more 
obscure by a thick mist of bashfulness. Tom, as you have observed, was never 
an exception among boys for ease of address; but the difficulty of 
enunciating a monosyllable in reply to Mr or Mrs Stelling was so great, that 
he even dreaded to be asked at table whether he would have more pudding. As 
to the percussion caps, he had almost resolved, in the bitterness of his 
heart that he would throw them into a neighbouring pond: for not only was he 
the solitary pupil, but he began even to have a certain scepticism about 
guns, and a general sense that his theory of life was undermined. For Mr 
Stelling thought nothing of guns, or horses either, apparently; and yet it 
was impossible for Tom to despise Mr Stelling as he had despised Old Goggles. 
If there were anything that was not thoroughly genuine about Mr Stelling, it 
lay quite beyond Tom's power to detect it: it is only by a wide comparison of 
facts that the wisest full-grown man can distinguish well-rolled barrels from 
more supernal thunder. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Stelling was a well-sized, broad-chested man, not yet thirty, with flaxen 
hair standing erect, and large lightish-grey eyes, which were always very 
wide open; he had a sonorous bass voice, and an air of defiant 
self-confidence inclining to brazenness. He had entered on his career with 
great vigour, and intended to make a considerable impression on his 
fellow-men. The Rev. Walter Stelling was not a man who would remain among the 
`inferior clergy' all his life. He had a true British determination to push 
his way in the world. As a schoolmaster, in the first place: for there were 
capital masterships of grammar-schools to be had, and Mr Stelling meant to 
have one of them. But as a preacher also, for he meant always to preach in a 
striking manner, so as to have his congregation swelled by admirers from 
neighbouring parishes, and to produce a great sensation whenever he took 
occasional duty for a brother clergyman of minor gifts. The style of 
preaching he had chosen was the extemporaneous, which was held little short 
of the miraculous in rural parishes like King's Lorton. Some passages of 
Massillon and Bourdaloue, which he knew by heart, were really very effective 
when rolled out in Mr Stelling's deepest tones, but as comparatively feeble 
appeals of his own were delivered in the same loud and impressive manner, 
they were often thought quite as striking by his hearers. Mr Stelling's 
doctrine was of no particular school: if anything, it had a tinge of 
evangelicalism, for that was `the telling thing' just then in the diocese to 
which King's Lorton belonged. In short, Mr Stelling was a man who meant to 
rise in his profession, and to rise by merit, clearly, since he had no 
interest beyond what might be promised by a problematic relationship to a 
great lawyer who had not yet become Lord Chancellor. A clergyman who has such 
vigorous intentions naturally gets a little into debt at starting: it is not 
to be expected that he will live in the meagre style of a man who means to be 
a poor curate all his life, and if the few hundreds Mr Timpson advanced 
towards his daughter's fortune did not suffice for the purchase of handsome 
furniture together with a stock of wine, a grand piano, and the laying-out of 
a superior flower-garden, it followed in the most rigorous manner, either 
that these things must be procured by some other means, or else, that the 
Rev. Mr Stelling must go without them — which last alternative would be an 
absurd procrastination of the fruits of success, where success was certain. 
Mr Stelling was so broad-chested and resolute that he felt equal to anything: 
he would become celebrated by shaking the consciences of his hearers, and he 
would by and by edit a Greek play, and invent several new readings. He had 
not yet selected the play, for having been married little more than two 
years, his leisure time had been much occupied with attentions to Mrs 
Stelling; but he had told that fine woman what he meant to do some day, and 
she felt great confidence in her husband, as a man who understood everything 
of that sort. 


</p>
               <p>But the immediate step to future success was to bring on Tom Tulliver during 
this first half-year; for, by a singular coincidence, there had been some 
negotiation concerning another pupil from the same neighbourhood, and it 
might further a decision in Mr Stelling's favour, if it were understood that 
young Tulliver, who, Mr Stelling observed in conjugal privacy, was rather a 
rough cub, had made prodigious progress in a short time. It was on this 
ground that he was severe with Tom about his lessons: he was clearly a boy 
whose powers would never be developed through the medium of the Latin grammar 
without the application of some sternness. Not that Mr Stelling was a 
harsh-tempered or unkind man — quite the contrary: he was jocose with Tom at 
table, and corrected his provincialisms and his deportment in the most 
playful manner: but poor Tom was only the more cowed and confused by this 
double novelty, for he had never been used to jokes at all like Mr 
Stelling's, and for the first time in his life he had a painful sense that he 
was all wrong somehow. When Mr Stelling said, as the roast beef was being 
uncovered, `Now, Tulliver! which would you rather decline, roast beef or the 
Latin for it?' — Tom, to whom in his coolest moments a pun would have been a 
hard nut, was thrown into a state of embarrassed alarm that made everything 
dim to him except the feeling that he would rather not have anything to do 
with Latin: of course he answered, `Roast beef,' — whereupon there followed 
much laughter and some practical joking with the plates, from which Tom 
gathered that he had in some mysterious way refused beef, and, in fact, made 
himself appear `a silly.' If he could have seen a fellow-pupil undergo these 
painful operations and survive them in good spirits, he might sooner have 
taken them as a matter of course. But there are two expensive forms of 
education, either of which a parent may procure for his son by sending him as 
solitary pupil to a clergyman: one is, the enjoyment of the reverend 
gentleman's undivided neglect; the other is, the endurance of the reverend 
gentleman's undivided attention. It was the latter privilege for which Mr 
Tulliver paid a high price in Tom's initiatory months at King's Lorton. 


</p>
               <p>That respectable miller and maltster had left Tom behind and driven homeward 
in a state of great mental satisfaction. He considered that it was a happy 
moment for him when he had thought of asking Riley's advice about a tutor for 
Tom. Mr Stelling's eyes were so wide open, and he talked in such an off-hand, 
matter-of-fact way, answering every difficult slow remark of Mr Tulliver's 
with, `I see, my good sir, I see,' `To be sure, to be sure,' `You want your 
son to be a man who will make his way in the world,' that Mr Tulliver was 
delighted to find in him a clergyman whose knowledge was so applicable to the 
everyday affairs of this life. Except Counsellor Wylde, whom he had heard at 
the last sessions, Mr Tulliver thought the Rev. Mr Stelling was the shrewdest 
fellow he had ever met with; not unlike Wylde, in fact — he had the same way 
of sticking his thumbs in the armholes of his waistcoat. Mr Tulliver was not 
by any means an exception in mistaking brazenness for shrewdness: most laymen 
thought Stelling shrewd, and a man of remarkable powers generally: it was 
chiefly by his clerical brethren that he was considered rather a dull fellow. 
But he told Mr Tulliver several stories about `Swing' and incendiarism, and 
asked his advice about feeding pigs in so thoroughly secular and judicious a 
manner, with so much polished glibness of tongue, that the miller thought, 
here was the very thing he wanted for Tom. He had no doubt this first-rate 
man was acquainted with every branch of information, and knew exactly what 
Tom must learn in order to become a match for the lawyers — which poor Mr 
Tulliver himself and did <hi>not</hi> know, and so was necessarily thrown for 
self-direction on this wide kind of inference. It is hardly fair to laugh at 
him, for I have known much more highly-instructed persons than he make 
inferences quite as wide, and not at all wiser. 


</p>
               <p>As for Mrs Tulliver, finding that Mrs Stelling's views as to the airing of 
linen and the frequent recurrence of hunger in a growing boy, entirely 
coincided with her own, moreover, that Mrs Stelling, though so young a woman, 
and only anticipating her second confinement, had gone through very nearly 
the same experience as herself with regard to the behaviour and fundamental 
character of the monthly nurse — she expressed great contentment to her 
husband when they drove away, at leaving Tom with a woman who, in spite of 
her youth, seemed quite sensible and motherly, and asked advice as prettily 
as could be. 


</p>
               <p>`They must be very well off, though,' said Mrs Tulliver, `for everything's as 
nice as can be all over the house, and that watered silk she had on cost a 
pretty penny. Sister Pullet has got one like it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' said Mr Tulliver, `he's got some income besides the curacy, I reckon — 
perhaps her father allows 'em something. There's Tom 'ull be another hundred 
to him — and not much trouble either, by his own account: he says teaching 
comes natural to him. That's wonderful, now,' added Mr Tulliver, turning his 
head on one side and giving his horse a meditative tickling on the flank. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps it was because teaching came naturally to Mr Stelling that he set 
about it with that uniformity of method and independence of circumstances 
which distinguish the actions of animals understood to be under the immediate 
teaching of nature. Mr Broderip's amiable beaver, as that charming naturalist 
tells us, busied himself as earnestly in constructing a dam, in a room up 
three pairs of stairs in London, as if he had been laying his foundation in a 
stream or lake in Upper Canada. It was `Binny's' function to build: the 
absense of water or of possible progeny was an accident for which he was not 
accountable. With the same unerring instinct Mr Stelling set to work at his 
natural method of instilling the Eton Grammar and Euclid into the mind of Tom 
Tulliver. This, he considered, was the only basis of solid instruction: all 
other means of education were mere charlatanism, and could produce nothing 
better than smatterers. Fixed on this firm basis, a man might observe the 
display of various or special knowledge made by irregularly educated people 
with a pitying smile: all that sort of thing was very well, but it was 
impossible these people could form sound opinions. In holding this conviction 
Mr Stelling was not biassed, as some tutors have been, by the excessive 
accuracy or extent of his own scholarship, and as to his views about Euclid, 
no opinion could have been freer from personal partiality. Mr Stelling was 
very far from being led astray by enthusiasm, either religious or 
intellectual: on the other hand, he had no secret belief that everything was 
humbug. He thought religion was a very excellent thing, and Aristotle a great 
authority, and deaneries and prebends useful institutions, and Great Britain 
the providential bulwark of Protestantism, and faith in the unseen a great 
support to afflicted minds: he believed in all these things as a Swiss hotel 
keeper believes in the beauty of the scenery around him, and in the pleasure 
it gives to artistic visitors. And in the same way Mr Stelling believed in 
his method of education: he had no doubt that he was doing the very best 
thing for Mr Tulliver's boy. Of course, when the miller talked of mapping and 
summing in a vague and diffident manner, Mr Stelling had set his mind at rest 
by an assurance that he understood what was wanted; for how was it possible 
the good man could form any reasonable judgement about the matter? Mr 
Stelling's duty was to teach the lad in the only right way — indeed, he knew 
no other: he had not wasted his time in the acquirement of anything abnormal. 


</p>
               <p>He very soon set down poor Tom as a thoroughly stupid lad; for though by hard 
labour he could get particular declensions into his brain, anything so 
abstract as the relation between cases and terminations could by no means get 
such a lodgment there as to enable him to recognise a chance genitive or 
dative. This struck Mr Stelling as something more than natural stupidity: he 
suspected obstinacy, or at any rate, indifference, and lectured Tom severely 
on his want of thorough application. `You feel no interest in what you're 
doing, sir,' Mr Stelling would say, and the reproach was painfully true. Tom 
had never found any difficulty in discerning a pointer from a setter, when 
once he had been told the distinction, and his perceptive powers were not at 
all deficient. I fancy they were quite as strong as those of the Rev. Mr 
Stelling; for Tom could predict with accuracy what number of horses were 
cantering behind him, he could throw a stone right into the centre of a given 
ripple, he could guess to a fraction how many lengths of his stick it would 
take to reach across the playground, and could draw almost perfect squares on 
his slate without any measurement. But Mr Stelling took no note of these 
things: he only observed that Tom's faculties failed him before the 
abstractions hideously symbolised to him in the pages of the Eton Grammar, 
and that he was in a state bordering on idiocy with regard to the 
demonstration that two given triangles must be equal — though he could 
discern with great promptitude and certainty the fact that they <hi>were</hi>
equal. Whence Mr Stelling concluded that Tom's brain being peculiarly 
impervious to etymology and demonstrations, was peculiarly in need of being 
ploughed and harrowed by these patent implements: it was his favourite 
metaphor, that the classics and geometry constituted that culture of the mind 
which prepared it for the reception of any subsequent crop. I say nothing 
against Mr Stelling's theory: if we are to have one regimen for all minds his 
seems to me as good as any other. I only know it turned out as uncomfortably 
for Tom Tulliver as if he had been plied with cheese in order to remedy a 
gastric weakness which prevented him from digesting it. It is astonishing 
what a different result one gets by changing the metaphor! Once call the 
brain an intellectual stomach, and one's ingenious conception of the classics 
and geometry as ploughs and harrows seems to settle nothing. But then, it is 
open to some one else to follow great authorities and call the mind a sheet 
of white paper or a mirror, in which case one's knowledge of the digestive 
process becomes quite irrelevant. It was doubtless an ingenious idea to call 
the camel the ship of the desert, but it would hardly lead one far in 
training that useful beast. O Aristotle! if you had had the advantage of 
being `the freshest modern' instead of the greatest ancient, would you not 
have mingled your praise of metaphorical speech as a sign of high 
intelligence, with a lamentation that intelligence so rarely shows itself in 
speech without metaphor, — that we can so seldom declare what a thing is, 
except by saying it is something else? 


</p>
               <p>Tom Tulliver being abundant in no form of speech, did not use any metaphor to 
declare his views as to the nature of Latin: he never called it an instrument 
of torture; and it was not until he had got on some way in the next half-year 
and in the Delectus, that he was advanced enough to call it a `bore' and 
`beastly stuff'. At present, in relation to this demand that he should learn 
Latin declensions and conjugations, Tom was in a state of as blank 
unimaginativeness concerning the cause and tendency of his sufferings, as if 
he had been an innocent shrewmouse imprisoned in the split trunk of an ash 
tree in order to cure lameness in cattle. It is doubtless almost incredible 
to instructed minds of the present day that a boy of twelve, not belonging 
strictly to `the masses' who are now understood to have the monopoly of 
mental darkness, should have had no distinct idea how there came to be such a 
thing as Latin on this earth: yet so it was with Tom. It would have taken a 
long while to make conceivable to him that there ever existed a people who 
bought and sold sheep and oxen and transacted the everyday affairs of life 
through the medium of this language, and still longer to make him understand 
why he should be called upon to learn it, when its connection with those 
affairs had become entirely latent. So far as Tom had gained any acquaintance 
with the Romans at Mr Jacobs' Academy, his knowledge was strictly correct, 
but it went no farther than the fact that they were `in the New Testament.' 
And Mr Stelling was not the man to enfeeble and emasculate his pupil's mind 
by simplifying and explaining, or to reduce the tonic effect of etymology by 
mixing it with smattering, extraneous information such as is given to girls. 


</p>
               <p>Yet, strange to say, under this vigorous treatment Tom became more like a 
girl than he had ever been in his life before. He had a large share of pride, 
which had hitherto found itself very comfortable in the world, despising Old 
Goggles, and reposing in the sense of unquestioned rights: but now this same 
pride met with nothing but bruises and crushings. Tom was too clear-sighted 
not to be aware that Mr Stelling's standard of things was quite different, 
was certainly something higher in the eyes of the world, than that of the 
people he had been living amongst, and that brought in contact with it, he, 
Tom Tulliver, appeared uncouth and stupid: he was by no means indifferent to 
this, and his pride got into an uneasy condition which quite nullified his 
boyish self-satisfaction, and gave him something of the girl's 
susceptibility. He was of a very firm, not to say obstinate, disposition, but 
there was no brute-like rebellion and recklessness in his nature: the human 
sensibilities predominated, and if it had occurred to him that he could 
enable himself to show some quickness at his lessons and so acquire Mr 
Stelling's approbation, by standing on one leg for an inconvenient length of 
time or rapping his head moderately against the wall, or any voluntary action 
of that sort, he would certainly have tried it. But no — Tom had never heard 
that these measures would brighten the understanding, or strengthen the 
verbal memory; and he was not given to hypothesis and experiment. It did 
occur to him that he could perhaps get some help by praying for it, but as 
the prayers he said every evening were forms learned by heart, he rather 
shrank from the novelty and irregularity of introducing an extempore passage 
on a topic of petition for which he was not aware of any precedent. But one 
day when he had broken down for the fifth time in the supines of the third 
conjugation, and Mr Stelling, convinced that this must be carelessness, since 
it transcended the bounds of possible stupidity, had lectured him very 
seriously, pointing out that if he failed to seize the present golden 
opportunity of learning supines, he would have to regret it when he became a 
man, — Tom, more miserable than usual, determined to try his sole resource, 
and that evening, after his usual form of prayer for his parents and `little 
sister' (he had begun to pray for Maggie when she was a baby) and that he 
might be able always to keep God's commandments, he added, in the same low 
whisper, `And please to make me always remember my Latin.' He paused a little 
to consider how he should pray about Euclid — Whether he should ask to see 
what it meant, or whether there was any other mental state which would be 
more applicable to the case. But at last he added — `And make Mr Stelling say 
I shan't do Euclid any more. Amen.' 


</p>
               <p>The fact that he got through his supines without mistake the next day, 
encouraged him to persevere in this appendix to his prayers, and neutralised 
any scepticism that might have arisen from Mr Stelling's continued demand for 
Euclid. But his faith broke down under the apparent absence of all help when 
he got into the irregular verbs. It seemed clear that Tom's despair under the 
caprices of the present tense did not constitute a <hi>nodus</hi> worthy of 
interference, and since this was the climax of his difficulties, where was 
the use of praying for help any longer? He made up his mind to this 
conclusion in one of his dull, lonely evenings, which he spent in the study, 
preparing his lessons for the morrow. His eyes were apt to get dim over the 
page — though he hated crying and was ashamed of it: he couldn't help 
thinking with some affection even of Spouncer whom he used to fight and 
quarrel with; he would have felt at home with Spouncer, and in a condition of 
superiority. And then the mill, and the river, and Yap pricking up his ears, 
ready to obey the least sign when Tom said `Hoigh!' would all come before him 
in a sort of calenture, when his fingers played absently in his pocket with 
his great knife and his coil of whip-cord, and other relics of the past. Tom, 
as I said, had never been so much like a girl in his life before, and at that 
epoch of irregular verbs his spirit was further depressed by a new means of 
mental development, which had been thought of for him out of school hours. 
Mrs Stelling had lately had her second baby, and as nothing could be more 
salutary for a boy than to feel himself useful, Mrs Stelling considered she 
was doing Tom a service by setting him to watch the little cherub Laura, 
while the nurse was occupied with the sickly baby. It was quite a pretty 
employment for Tom to take little Laura out in the sunniest hour of the 
autumn day — it would help to make him feel that Lorton Parsonage was a home 
for him, and that he was one of the family. The little cherub Laura, not 
being an accomplished walker at present, had a ribbon fastened round her 
waist, by which Tom held her as if she had been a little dog, during the 
minutes in which she chose to walk, but as these were rare, he was for the 
most part carrying this fine child round and round the garden, within sight 
of Mrs Stelling's window — according to orders. If any one considers this 
unfair and even oppressive towards Tom, I beg him to consider that there are 
feminine virtues which are with difficulty combined, even if they are not 
incompatible. When the wife of a poor curate contrives under all her 
disadvantages to dress extremely well, and to have a style of coiffure which 
requires that her nurse shall occasionally officiate as lady's maid, — when, 
moreover, her dinner parties and her drawing-room show that effort at 
elegance and completeness of appointment to which ordinary women might 
imagine a large income necessary, it would be unreasonable to expect of her 
that she should employ a second nurse or even act as a nurse herself. Mr 
Stelling knew better: he saw that his wife did wonders already, and was proud 
of her: it was certainly not the best thing in the world for young Tulliver's 
gait, to carry a heavy child, but he had plenty of exercise in long walks 
with himself, and next half-year Mr Stelling would see about having a 
drilling-master. Among the many means whereby Mr Stelling intended to be more 
fortunate than the bulk of his fellow-men, he had entirely given up that of 
having his own way in his own house. What then? he had married `as kind a 
little soul as ever breathed' according to Mr Riley, who had been acquainted 
with Mrs Stelling's blond ringlets and smiling demeanour throughout her 
maiden life and on the strength of that knowledge would have been ready any 
day to pronounce that whatever domestic differences might arise in her 
married life must be entirely Mr Stelling's fault. 


</p>
               <p>If Tom had had a worse disposition, he would certainly have hated the little 
cherub Laura, but he was too kind-hearted a lad for that — there was too much 
in him of the fibre that turns to true manliness, and to protecting pity for 
the weak. I am afraid he hated Mrs Stelling, and contracted a lasting dislike 
to pale blond ringlets and broad plaits as directly associated with 
haughtiness of manner and a frequent reference to other people's `duty.' But 
he couldn't help playing with little Laura, and liking to amuse her: he even 
sacrificed his percussion-caps for her sake, in despair of their ever serving 
a greater purpose — thinking the small flash and bang would delight her, and 
thereby drawing down on himself a rebuke from Mrs Stelling for teaching her 
child to play with fire. Laura was a sort of playfellow — and O how Tom 
longed for playfellows! In his secret heart, he yearned to have Maggie with 
him, and was almost ready to doat on her exasperating acts of forgetfulness; 
though when he was at home, he always represented it as a great favour on his 
part to let Maggie trot by his side on his pleasure excursions. 


</p>
               <p>And before this dreary half year was ended, Maggie actually came. Mrs 
Stelling had given a general invitation for the little girl to come and stay 
with her brother; so when Mr Tulliver drove over to King's Lorton late in 
October, Maggie came too, with the sense that she was taking a great journey 
and beginning to see the world. It was Mr Tulliver's first visit to see Tom, 
for the lad must learn not to think too much about home. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, my lad,' he said to Tom, when Mr Stelling had left the room to 
announce the arrival to his wife, and Maggie had begun to kiss Tom freely, 
`you look rarely! School agrees with you.'— 


</p>
               <p>Tom wished he had looked rather ill. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't think I <hi>am</hi> well, father,' said Tom. `I wish you'd ask Mr 
Stelling not to let me do Euclid — it brings on the toothache, I think.' 


</p>
               <p>(The toothache was the only malady to which Tom had ever been subject.) 


</p>
               <p>`Euclid, my lad — why, what's that?' said Mr Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`O I don't know: it's definitions and axioms and triangles and things. It's a 
book I've got to learn in — there's no sense in it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Go, go!' said Mr Tulliver, reprovingly, `you mustn't say so. You must learn 
what your master tells you. He knows what it's right for you to learn.' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>I'll</hi> help you now, Tom,' said Maggie, with a little air of 
patronising consolation. `I'm come to stay ever so long, if Mrs Stelling asks 
me. I've brought my box and my pinafores, haven't I, father?' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>You</hi> help me, you silly little thing!' said Tom, in such high 
spirits at this announcement, that he quite enjoyed the idea of confounding 
Maggie by showing her a page of Euclid. `I should like to see you doing one 
of <hi>my</hi> lessons! Why, I learn Latin too! Girls never learn such 
things. They're too silly.' 


</p>
               <p>`I know what Latin is very well,' said Maggie, confidently. `Latin's a 
language. There are Latin words in the Dictionary. There's bonus, a gift.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, you're just wrong there, Miss Maggie!' said Tom, secretly astonished. 
`You think you're very wise! But “bonus” means “good,” as 
it happens — bonus, bona, bonum.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, that's no reason why it shouldn't mean “gift,” ' said 
Maggie, stoutly. `It may mean several things. Almost every word does. There's 
`lawn' — it means the grass plot, as well as the stuff pocket-handkerchiefs 
are made of.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well done, little 'un,' said Mr Tulliver, laughing, while Tom felt rather 
disgusted with Maggie's knowingness, though beyond measure cheerful at the 
thought that she was going to stay with him. Her conceit would soon be 
overawed by the actual inspection of his books. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Stelling, in her pressing invitation, did not mention a longer time than 
a week for Maggie's stay, but Mr Stelling, who took her between his knees and 
asked her where she stole her dark eyes from, insisted that she must stay a 
fortnight. Maggie thought Mr Stelling was a charming man, and Mr Tulliver was 
quite proud to leave his little wench where she would have an opportunity of 
showing her cleverness to appreciating strangers. So it was agreed that she 
should not be fetched home till the end of the fortnight. 


</p>
               <p>`Now then, come with me into the study, Maggie,' said Tom, as their father 
drove away. `What do you shake and toss your head now for, you silly?' he 
continued; for though her hair was now under a new dispensation and was 
brushed smoothly behind her ears, she seemed still in imagination to be 
tossing it out of her eyes. `It makes you look as if you were crazy.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I can't help it,' said Maggie impatiently. `Don't tease me, Tom. O what 
books!' she exclaimed, as she saw the bookcases in the study. `How I should 
like to have as many books as that!' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, you couldn't read one of 'em,' said Tom, triumphantly. `They're all 
Latin.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, they aren't,' said Maggie. `I can read the back of this...  History of 
the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, what does that mean? <hi>You</hi> don't know,' said Tom, wagging his 
head. 


</p>
               <p>`But I could soon find out,' said Maggie, scornfully. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, how?' 


</p>
               <p>`I should look inside and see what it was about.' 


</p>
               <p>`You'd better not, Miss Maggie,' said Tom, seeing her hand on the volume. `Mr 
Stelling lets nobody touch his books without leave, and <hi>I</hi> shall 
catch it, if you take it out.' 


</p>
               <p>`O very well! Let me see all <hi>your</hi> books, then,' said Maggie, turning 
to throw her arms round Tom's neck, and rub his cheek with her small round 
nose. 


</p>
               <p>Tom, in the gladness of his heart at having dear old Maggie to dispute with 
and crow over again, seized her round the waist and began to jump with her 
round the large library table. Away they jumped with more and more vigour, 
till Maggie's hair flew from behind her ears and twirled about like an 
animated mop. But the revolutions round the table became more and more 
irregular in their sweep, till at last reaching Mr Stelling's reading-stand, 
they sent it thundering down with its heavy lexicons to the floor. Happily it 
was the ground-floor, and the study was a one-storied wing to the house, so 
that the downfall made no alarming resonance, though Tom stood dizzy and 
aghast for a few minutes, dreading the appearance of Mr or Mrs Stelling. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I say, Maggie,' said Tom at last, lifting up the stand, `we must keep 
quiet here, you know. If we break anything, Mrs Stelling 'll make us cry 
peccavi.' 


</p>
               <p>`What's that?' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`O it's the Latin for a good scolding,' said Tom, not without some pride in 
his knowledge. 


</p>
               <p>`Is she a cross woman?' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`I believe you!' said Tom, with an emphatic nod. 


</p>
               <p>`I think all women are crosser than men,' said Maggie. `Aunt Glegg's a great 
deal crosser than Uncle Glegg, and mother scolds me more than father does.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, <hi>you'll</hi> be a woman some day,' said Tom, `so <hi>you</hi>
needn't talk.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I shall be a <hi>clever</hi> woman,' said Maggie, with a toss. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I dare say, and a nasty conceited thing. Everybody'll hate you.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you oughtn't to hate me, Tom: it'll be very wicked of you, for I shall 
be your sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but if you're a nasty disagreeable thing, I <hi>shall</hi> hate you.' 


</p>
               <p>`O but, Tom, you won't! I shan't be disagreeable. I shall be very good to you 
— and I shall be good to everybody. You won't hate me really, will you, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`O bother! never mind! Come, it's time for me to learn my lessons. See here! 
what I've got to do,' said Tom, drawing Maggie towards him and showing her 
his theorem, while she pushed her hair behind her ears and prepared herself 
to prove her capability of helping him in Euclid. She began to read with full 
confidence in her own powers, but presently becoming quite bewildered, her 
face flushed with irritation. It was unavoidable — she must confess her 
incompetence and she was not fond of humiliation. 


</p>
               <p>`It's nonsense!' she said. `And very ugly stuff — nobody need want to make it 
out.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, there now, Miss Maggie!' said Tom, drawing the book away and wagging his 
head at her, `you see you're not so clever as you thought you were.' 


</p>
               <p>`O,' said Maggie, pouting, `I dare say I could make it out, if I'd learned 
what goes before, as you have.' 


</p>
               <p>`But that's what you just couldn't, Miss Wisdom,' said Tom. `For it's all the 
harder when you know what goes before: for then you've got to say what 
Definition 3 is and what Axiom V. is. But get along with you now: I must go 
on with this. Here's the Latin Grammar. See what you can make of that.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie found the Latin Grammar quite soothing after her mathematical 
mortification; for she delighted in new words, and quickly found that there 
was an English Key at the end, which would make her very wise about Latin at 
slight expense. She presently made up her mind to skip the rules in the 
Syntax, — the examples became so absorbing. These mysterious sentences 
snatched from an unknown context, — like strange horns of beasts leaves of 
unknown plants, brought from some far-off region, gave boundless scope to her 
imagination, and were all the more fascinating because they were in a 
peculiar tongue of their own, which she could learn to interpret. It was 
really very interesting — the Latin Grammar that Tom had said no girls could 
learn: and she was proud because she found it interesting. The most 
fragmentary examples were her favourites. <hi>Mors omnibus est communis</hi>
would have been jejune, only she liked to know the Latin; but the fortunate 
gentleman whom every one congratulated because he had a son `endowed with 
<hi>such</hi> a disposition' afforded her a great deal of pleasant 
conjecture, and she was quite lost in the `thick grove penetrable by no 
star,' when Tom called out, 


</p>
               <p>`Now, then, Magsie, give us the Grammar!' 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom, it's such a pretty book!' she said, as she jumped out of the large 
arm-chair to give it him, `it's much prettier than the Dictionary. I could 
learn Latin very soon. I don't think it's at all hard.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I know what you've been doing,' said Tom, `you've been reading the English 
at the end. And donkey can do that.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom seized the book and opened it with a determined and business-like air as 
much as to say that he had a lesson to learn which no donkeys would find 
themselves equal to. Maggie, rather piqued, turned to the bookcases to amuse 
herself with puzzling out the titles. 


</p>
               <p>Presently Tom called to her: `Here, Magsie, come and hear if I can say this. 
Stand at that end of the table, where Mr Stelling sits when he hears me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie obeyed and took the open book. 


</p>
               <p>`Where do you begin, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I begin at `<hi>Appellativa arborum</hi>,' because I say all over again 
what I've been learning this week.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom sailed along pretty well for three lines; and Maggie was beginning to 
forget her office of prompter, in speculating as to what <hi>mas</hi> could 
mean, which came twice over, when he stuck fast at <hi>Sunt etiam 
volucrum</hi>. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't tell me, Maggie; <hi>Sunt etiam volucrum...  Sunt etiam volucrum... 
ut ostrea, cetus</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, opening her mouth and shaking her head. 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>Sunt etiam volucrum</hi>,' said Tom, very slowly, as if the next words 
might be expected to come sooner, when he gave them this strong hint that 
they were waited for. 


</p>
               <p>`C, e, u,' said Maggie, getting impatient. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I know — hold your tongue,' said Tom. `<hi>Ceu passer, hirundo, 
ferarum...  ferarum</hi>... ' Tom took his pencil and made several hard dots 
with it on his book-cover...  `<hi>ferarum</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, O dear Tom,' said Maggie, `what a time you are! <hi>Ut</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>Ut, ostrea</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' said Maggie, `<hi>ut, tigris</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, now I can do,' said Tom, `it was <hi>tigris, vulpes</hi>, I'd 
forgotten: <hi>ut tigris, vulpes, et piscium</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>With some further stammering and repetition, Tom got through the next few 
lines. 


</p>
               <p>`Now then,' he said `the next is what I've just learnt for to-morrow. Give me 
hold of the book a minute.' 


</p>
               <p>After some whispered gabbling, assisted by the beating of his fist on the 
table, Tom returned the book. 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>Mascula nomina in a</hi>,' he began. 


</p>
               <p>`No, Tom,' said Maggie, `that doesn't come next. It's <hi>Nomen non creskens 
genittivo</hi>... ' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>Creskens genittivo</hi>,' exclaimed Tom, with a derisive laugh, for Tom 
had learned this omitted passage for his yesterday's lesson, and a young 
gentleman does not require an intimate or extensive acquaintance with Latin 
before he can feel the pitiable absurdity of a false quantity. `<hi>Creskens 
genittivo</hi>! What a little silly you are, Maggie!' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you needn't laugh, Tom, for you didn't remember it at all. I'm sure 
it's spelt so. How was I to know?' 


</p>
               <p>`Phee-e-e-h! I told you girls couldn't learn Latin. It's <hi>Nomen non 
crescens genitivo</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well, then,' said Maggie, pouting. `I can say that as well as you can. 
And you Don't mind your stops. For you ought to stop twice as long at a 
semicolon as you do at a comma, and you make the longest stops where there 
ought to be no stop at all.' 


</p>
               <p>`O well, don't chatter. Let me go on.' 


</p>
               <p>They were presently fetched to spend the rest of the evening in the 
drawing-room, and Maggie became so animated with Mr Stelling, who she felt 
sure, admired her cleverness, that Tom was rather amazed and alarmed at her 
audacity. But she was suddenly subdued by Mr Stelling's alluding to a little 
girl of whom he had heard that she once ran away to the gypsies. 


</p>
               <p>`What a very odd little girl that must be!' said Mrs Stelling, meaning to be 
playful, but a playfulness that turned on her supposed oddity was not at all 
to Maggie's taste. She feared Mr Stelling, after all, did not think much of 
her, and went to bed in rather low spirits. Mrs Stelling, she felt, looked at 
her as if she thought her hair was very ugly because it hung down straight 
behind. 


</p>
               <p>Nevertheless it was a very happy fortnight to Maggie — this visit to Tom. She 
was allowed to be in the study while he had his lessons, and in her various 
readings got very deep into the examples in the Latin Grammar. The astronomer 
who hated women generally caused her so much puzzling speculation that she 
one day asked Mr Stelling if all astronomers hated women, or whether it was 
only this particular astronomer. But, forestalling his answer, she said, 


</p>
               <p>`I suppose it's all astronomers: because you know, they live up in high 
towers, and if the women came there, they might talk and hinder them from 
looking at the stars.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Stelling liked her prattle immensely, and they were on the best terms. She 
told Tom she should like to go to school to Mr Stelling, as he did, and learn 
just the same things. She knew she could do Euclid, for she had looked into 
it again, and she saw what A B C meant: they were the names of the lines. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure you couldn't do it, now,' said Tom. `And I'll just ask Mr Stelling 
if you could.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't mind,' said the little conceited minx. `I'll ask him myself.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Stelling,' she said, that same evening, when they were in the 
drawing-room, `couldn't I do Euclid, and all Tom's lessons, if you were to 
teach me instead of him?' 


</p>
               <p>`No; you couldn't,' said Tom, indignantly. `Girls can't do Euclid: can they, 
sir?' 


</p>
               <p>`They can pick up a little of everything, I daresay,' said Mr Stelling. 
`They've a great deal of superficial cleverness: but they couldn't go far 
into anything. They're quick and shallow.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom, delighted with this verdict, telegraphed his triumph by wagging his head 
at Maggie behind Mr Stelling's chair. As for Maggie, she had hardly ever been 
so mortified: she had been so proud to be called `quick' all her little life, 
and now it appeared that this quickness was the brand of inferiority. It 
would have been better to be slow, like Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Ha, ha! Miss Maggie!' said Tom, when they were alone, `you see it's not such 
a fine thing to be quick. You'll never go far into anything, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>And Maggie was so oppressed by this dreadful destiny that she had no spirit 
for a retort. 


</p>
               <p>But when this small apparatus of shallow quickness was fetched away in the 
gig by Luke, and the study was once more quite lonely for Tom, he missed her 
grievously. He had really been brighter and had got through his lessons 
better since she had been there; and she had asked Mr Stelling so many 
questions about the Roman Empire, and whether there really ever was a man who 
said in Latin, `I would not buy it for a farthing or a rotten nut,' or 
whether that had only been turned into Latin — that Tom had actually come to 
a dim understanding of the fact that there had once been people upon the 
earth who were so fortunate as to know Latin without learning it through the 
medium of the Eton Grammar. This luminous idea was a great addition to his 
historical acquirements during this half year which were otherwise confined 
to an epitomised History of the Jews. 


</p>
               <p>But the dreary half year <hi>did</hi> come to an end. How glad Tom was to see 
the last yellow leaves fluttering before the cold wind! The dark afternoons 
and the first December snow seemed to him far livelier than the August 
sunshine; and that he might make himself the surer about the flight of the 
days that were carrying him homeward, — he stuck twenty-one sticks deep in a 
corner of the garden when he was three weeks from the holidays, and pulled 
one up every day with a great wrench, throwing it to a distance, with a 
vigour of will which would have carried it to limbo, if it had been in the 
nature of sticks to travel so far. 


</p>
               <p>But it was worth purchasing, even at the heavy price of the Latin Grammar — 
the happiness of seeing the bright light in the parlour at home as the gig 
passed noiselessly over the snow-covered bridge: the happiness of passing 
from the cold air to the warmth and the kisses and the smiles of that 
familiar hearth where the pattern of the rug and the grate and the fire-irons 
were `first ideas' that it was no more possible to criticise than the 
solidity and extension of matter. There is no sense of ease like the ease we 
felt in those scenes where we were born, where objects became dear to us 
before we had known the labour of choice, and where the outer world seemed 
only an extension of our own personality: we accepted and loved it as we 
accepted our own sense of existence and our own limbs. Very commonplace, even 
ugly, that furniture of our early home might look if it were put up to 
auction: an improved taste in upholstery scorns it; and is not the striving 
after something better and better in our surroundings, the grand 
characteristic that distinguishes man from the brute — or, to satisfy a 
scrupulous accuracy of definition, that distinguishes the British man from 
the foreign brute? But heaven knows where that striving might lead us, if our 
affections had not a trick of twining round those old inferior things, if the 
loves and sanctities of our life had no deep immovable roots in memory. One's 
delight in an elderberry bush overhanging the confused leafage of a hedgerow 
bank as a more gladdening sight than the finest cistus or fuchsia spreading 
itself on the softest undulating turf, is an entirely unjustifiable 
preference to a landscape-gardener, or to any of those severely regulated 
minds who are free from the weakness of any attachment that does not rest on 
a demonstrable superiority of qualities. And there is no better reason for 
preferring this elderberry bush than that it stirs an early memory — that it 
is no novelty in my life speaking to me merely through my present 
sensibilities to form and colour, but the long companion of my existence that 
wove itself into my joys when joys were vivid. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.2" type="chapter">
               <head>The Christmas Holidays</head>
               <p>FINE old Christmas with the snowy hair and ruddy face had done his duty that 
year in the noblest fashion, and had set off his rich gifts of warmth and 
colour with all the heightening contrast of frost and snow. 


</p>
               <p>Snow lay on the croft and river-bank in undulations softer than the limbs of 
infancy; it lay with the neatliest finished border on every sloping roof, 
making the dark-red gables stand out with a new depth of colour; it weighed 
heavily on the laurels and fir-trees till it fell from them with a shuddering 
sound; it clothed the rough turnip-field with whiteness and made the sheep 
look like dark blotches; the gates were all blocked up with the sloping 
drifts, and here and there a disregarded four-footed beast stood as if 
petrified `in unrecumbent sadness;' there was no gleam, no shadow, for the 
heavens too were one still pale cloud — no sound or motion in anything but 
the dark river, that flowed and moaned like an unresting sorrow. But old 
Christmas smiled as he laid this cruel-seeming spell on the out-door world, 
for he meant to light up home with new brightness, to deepen all the richness 
of indoor colour, and give a keener edge of delight to the warm fragrance of 
food: he meant to prepare a sweet imprisonment that would strengthen the 
primitive fellowship of kindred, and make the sunshine of familiar human 
faces as welcome as the hidden day-star. His kindness fell but hardly on the 
homeless — fell but hardly on the homes where the hearth was not very warm, 
and where the food had little fragrance; where the human faces had no 
sunshine in them, but rather the leaden, blank-eyed gaze of unexpectant want. 
But the fine old season meant well; and if he has not learnt the secret how 
to bless men impartially, it is because his father Time, with ever 
unrelenting purpose, still hides that secret in his own mighty, slow-beating 
heart. 


</p>
               <p>And yet this Christmas day, in spite of Tom's fresh delight in home, was not, 
he thought, somehow or other, quite so happy as it had always been before. 
The red berries were just as abundant on the holly, and he and Maggie had 
dressed all the windows and mantelpieces and picture-frames on Christmas Eve 
with as much taste as ever, wedding the thick-set scarlet clusters with 
branches of the black-berried ivy. There had been singing under the windows 
after midnight — supernatural singing, Maggie always felt, in spite of Tom's 
contemptuous insistence that the singers were old Patch, the parish clerk, 
and the rest of the church choir: she trembled with awe when their caroling 
broke in upon her dreams, and the image of men in fustian clothes was always 
thrust away by the vision of angels resting on the parted cloud. But the 
midnight chant had helped as usual to lift the morning above the level of 
common days; and then, there was the smell of hot toast and ale from the 
kitchen, at the breakfast hour; the favourite anthem, the green boughs and 
the short sermon, gave the appropriate festal character to the church-going; 
and aunt and uncle Moss, with all their seven children, were looking like so 
many reflectors of the bright parlour fire, when the church-goers came back 
stamping the snow from their feet; the plum-pudding was of the same handsome 
roundness as ever, and came in with the symbolic blue flames around it, as if 
it had been heroically snatched from the nether fires into which it had been 
thrown by dyspeptic puritans; the dessert was as splendid as ever with its 
golden oranges, brown nuts, and the crystalline light and dark of apple jelly 
and damson cheese: in all these things Christmas was as it had always been 
since Tom could remember; it was only distinguished, if by anything, by 
superior sliding and snowballs. 


</p>
               <p>Christmas was cheery; but not so Mr Tulliver. He was irate and defiant, and 
Tom, though he espoused his father's quarrels and shared his father's sense 
of injury, was not without some of the feeling that oppressed Maggie when Mr 
Tulliver got louder and more angry in narration and assertion with the 
increased leisure of dessert. The attention that Tom might have concentrated 
on his nuts and wine was distracted by a sense that there were rascally 
enemies in the world, and that the business of grown-up life could hardly be 
conducted without a good deal of quarrelling. Now Tom was not fond of 
quarrelling, unless it could soon be put an end to by a fair stand-up fight, 
with an adversary whom he had every chance of thrashing; and his father's 
irritable talk made him uncomfortable, though he never accounted to himself 
for the feeling, or conceived the notion that his father was faulty in this 
respect. 


</p>
               <p>The particular embodiment of the evil principle now exciting Mr Tulliver's 
determined resistance was Mr Pivart, who, having lands higher up the Ripple, 
was taking measures for their irrigation which either were or would be or 
were bound to be (on the principle that water was water) an infringement on 
Mr Tulliver's legitimate share of water-power. Dix, who had a mill on the 
stream, was a feeble auxiliary of Old Harry compared with Pivart: Dix had 
been brought to his senses by arbitration, and Wakem's advice had not carried 
<hi>him</hi> far: no: Dix, Mr Tulliver considered, had been as good as 
nowhere, in point of law, and in the intensity of his indignation against 
Pivart, his contempt for a baffled adversary like Dix began to wear the air 
of a friendly attachment. He had no male audience to-day except Mr Moss, who 
knew nothing, as he said, of the `natur' o'mills,' and could only assent to 
Mr Tulliver's arguments on the a <hi>priori</hi> ground of family 
relationship and monetary obligation; but Mr Tulliver did not talk with the 
futile intention of convincing his audience — he talked to relieve himself: 
while good Mr Moss made strong efforts to keep his eyes wide open, in spite 
of the sleepiness which an unusually good dinner produced in his hard-worked 
frame. Mrs Moss, more alive to the subject, and interested in everything that 
affected her brother, listened and put in a word as often as maternal 
preoccupations allowed. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Pivart's new name hereabout, brother, isn't it?' she said. `He didn't 
own the land in father's time, nor yours either, before I was married.' 


</p>
               <p>`New name? Yes — I should think it <hi>is</hi> a new name,' said Mr Tulliver, 
with angry emphasis. `Dorlcote Mill's been in our family a hundred year and 
better, and nobody ever heard of a Pivart meddling with the river, till this 
fellow came and bought Bincome's farm out of hand, before anybody else could 
so much as say “snap.” But I'll <hi>pivart</hi> him!' added Mr 
Tulliver, lifting his glass with a sense that he had defined his resolution 
in an unmistakable manner. 


</p>
               <p>`You won't be forced to go to law with him, I hope, brother?' said Mrs Moss, 
with some anxiety. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know what I shall be forced to — but I know what I shall force him 
to — with his dykes and erigations — if there's any law to be brought to bear 
o' the right side. I know well enough who's at the bottom of it: he's got 
Wakem to back him and egg him on. I know Wakem tells him the law can't touch 
him for it: but there's folks can handle the law besides Wakem. It takes a 
big raskil to beat him: but there's bigger to be found, as know more o' th' 
ins and outs o' the law, else how came Wakem to lose Brumley's suit for him?' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver was a strictly honest man, and proud of being honest, but he 
considered that in law the ends of justice could only be achieved by 
employing a stronger knave to frustrate a weaker. Law was a sort of 
cock-fight in which it was the business of injured honesty to get a game bird 
with the best pluck and the strongest spurs. 


</p>
               <p>`Gore's no fool — you needn't tell me that,' he observed presently, in a 
pugnacious tone, as if poor Gritty had been urging that lawyer's 
capabilities, `but, you see, he isn't up to the law as Wakem is. And water's 
a very particular thing — you can't pick it up with a pitchfork. That's why 
it's been nuts to Old Harry and the lawyers. It's plain enough what's the 
rights and the wrongs of water, if you look at it straight forrard; for a 
river's a river, and if you've got a mill, you must have water to turn it; 
and it's no use telling me, Pivart's erigation and nonsense won't stop my 
wheel: I know what belongs to water better than that. Talk to me o'what th' 
engineers say! I say it's common sense, as Pivart's dykes must do me an 
injury. But if that's their engineering, I'll put Tom to it by and by, and he 
shall see if he can't find a bit more sense in th' engineering business than 
what <hi>that</hi> comes to.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom, looking round with some anxiety, at this announcement of his prospects, 
unthinkingly withdrew a small rattle he was amusing Baby Moss with, whereupon 
she, being a baby that knew her own mind with remarkable clearness, 
instantaneously expressed her sentiments in a piercing yell, and was not to 
be appeased even by the restoration of the rattle, feeling apparently that 
the original wrong of having it taken from her remained in all its force. Mrs 
Moss hurried away with her into another room, and expressed to Mrs Tulliver 
who accompanied her, the conviction that the dear child had good reasons for 
crying, implying that if it was supposed to be the rattle that baby clamoured 
for — she was a misunderstood baby. The thoroughly justifiable yell being 
quieted, Mrs Moss looked at her sister-in-law and said, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sorry to see brother so put out about this water work.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's your brother's way, Mrs Moss: I'd never anything o'that sort before I 
was married,' said Mrs Tulliver, with a half-implied reproach. She always 
spoke of her husband as `your brother' to Mrs Moss, in any case when his line 
of conduct was not matter of pure admiration. Amiable Mrs Tulliver, who was 
never angry in her life, had yet her mild share of that spirit without which 
she could hardly have been at once a Dodson and a woman. Being always on the 
defensive towards her own sisters, it was natural that she should be keenly 
conscious of her superiority, even as the weakest Dodson, over a husband's 
sister who, besides being poorly off, and inclined to `hang on' her brother, 
had the good natured submissiveness of a large, easy-tempered, untidy, 
prolific woman, with affection enough in her not only for her own husband and 
abundant children, but for any number of collateral relations. 


</p>
               <p>`I hope and pray, he won't go to law,' said Mrs Moss, `for there's never any 
knowing where that'll end. And the right doesn't allays win. This Mr Pivart's 
a rich man, by what I can make out, and the rich mostly get things their own 
way.' 


</p>
               <p>`As to that,' said Mrs Tulliver, stroking her dress down, `I've seen what 
riches are in my own family; for my sisters have got husbands as can afford 
to do pretty much what they like. But I think sometimes I shall be drove off 
my head with the talk about this law and erigation; and my sisters lay all 
the fault to me, for they don't know what it is to marry a man like your 
brother — how should they? Sister Pullet has her own way from morning till 
night.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mrs Moss, `I don't think I should like my husband if he hadn't 
got any wits of his own, and I had to find head-piece for him. It's deal 
easier to do what pleases one's husband than to be puzzling what else one 
should do.' 


</p>
               <p>`If people come to talk o' doing what pleases their husbands,' said Mrs 
Tulliver, with a faint imitation of her sister Glegg, `I'm sure your brother 
might have waited a long while before he'd have found a wife that 'ud have 
let him have his say in everything as I do. It's nothing but law and 
erigation now, from when we first get up in the morning till we go to bed at 
night: and I never contradict him: I only say, “Well Mr Tulliver, do as 
you like; but whativer you do, don't go to law.”' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver, as we have seen, was not without influence over her husband. No 
woman is: she can always incline him to do either what she wishes, or the 
reverse; and on the composite impulses that were threatening to hurry Mr 
Tulliver into `law,' Mrs Tulliver's monotonous pleading had doubtless its 
share of force; it might even be comparable to that proverbial feather which 
has the credit or discredit of breaking the camel's back, though on a 
strictly impartial view the blame ought rather to lie with the previous 
weight of feathers which had already placed the back in such imminent peril 
that an otherwise innocent feather could not settle on it without mischief. 
Not that Mrs Tulliver's feeble beseeching could have had this feather's 
weight in virtue of her single personality; but whenever she departed from 
entire assent to her husband, he saw in her the representative of the Dodson 
family; and it was a guiding principle with Mr Tulliver, to let the Dodsons 
know that they were not to domineer over <hi>him</hi>, or — more specifically 
— that a male Tulliver was far more than equal to four female Dodsons, even 
though one of them was Mrs Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>But not even a direct argument from that typical Dodson female herself 
against his going to law, could have heightened his disposition towards it so 
much as the mere thought of Wakem, continually freshened by the sight of the 
too able attorney on market days. Wakem, to his certain knowledge, was 
(metaphorically speaking) at the bottom of Pivart's irrigation: Wakem had 
tried to make Dix stand out, and go to law about the dam: it was 
unquestionably Wakem who had caused Mr Tulliver to lose the suit about the 
right of road and the bridge that made a thoroughfare of his land for every 
vagabond who preferred an opportunity of damaging private property to walking 
like an honest man along the high road: all lawyers were more or less 
rascals, but Wakem's rascality was of that peculiarly aggravated kind which 
placed itself in opposition to that form of right embodied in Mr Tulliver's 
interests and opinions. And as an extra touch of bitterness, the injured 
miller had recently, in borrowing the five hundred pounds, been obliged to 
carry a little business to Wakem's office on his own account. A hook-nosed 
glib fellow! as cool as cucumber — always looking so sure of his game! And it 
was vexatious that Lawyer Gore was not more like him, but was a bald, 
round-featured man, with bland manners and fat hands: a gamecock that you 
would be rash to bet upon against Wakem. Gore was a sly fellow: his weakness 
did not lie on the side of scrupulosity: but the largest amount of winking, 
however significant, is not equivalent to seeing through a stone wall: and 
confident as Mr Tulliver was in his principle that water was water and in the 
direct inference that Pivart had not a leg to stand on in this affair of 
irrigation, he had an uncomfortable suspicion that Wakem had more law to show 
against this (rationally) irrefragable inference than Gore could show for it. 
But then, if they went to law, there was a chance for Mr Tulliver to employ 
Counsellor Wylde on his side, instead of having that admirable bully against 
him, and the prospect of seeing a witness of Wakem's made to perspire and 
become confounded, as Mr Tulliver's witness had once been, was alluring to 
the love of retributive justice. 


</p>
               <p>Much rumination had Mr Tulliver on these puzzling subjects during his rides 
on the grey horse — much turning of the head from side to side, as the scales 
dipped alternately; but the probable result was still out of sight, only to 
be reached through much hot argument and iteration in domestic and social 
life. That initial stage of the dispute which consisted in the narration of 
the case and the enforcement of Mr Tulliver's views concerning it throughout 
the entire circle of his connections would necessarily take time, and at the 
beginning of February when Tom was going to school again, there were scarcely 
any new items to be detected in his father's statement of the case against 
Pivart, or any more specific indication of the measures he was bent on taking 
against that rash contravener of the principle that water was water. 
Iteration, like friction, is likely to generate heat instead of progress, and 
Mr Tulliver's heat was certainly more and more palpable. If there had been no 
new evidence on any other point, there had been new evidence that Pivart was 
as `thick as mud' with Wakem. 


</p>
               <p>`Father,' said Tom, one evening near the end of the holidays, `uncle Glegg 
says Lawyer Wakem <hi>is</hi> going to send his son to Mr Stelling. It isn't 
true — what they said about his going to be sent to France. You won't like me 
to go to school with Wakem's son, shall you?' 


</p>
               <p>`It's no matter for that, my boy,' said Mr Tulliver. `Don't you learn 
anything bad of him, that's all. The lad's a poor deformed creatur, and takes 
after his mother in the face: I think there isn't much of his father in him. 
It's a sign Wakem thinks high o' Mr Stelling, as he sends his son to him, and 
Wakem knows meal from bran.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver in his heart was rather proud of the fact that his son was to 
have the same advantages as Wakem's: but Tom was not at all easy on the 
point: it would have been much clearer if the lawyer's son had not been 
deformed, for then Tom would have had the prospect of pitching into him with 
all that freedom which is derived from a high moral sanction. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.3" type="chapter">
               <head>The New Schoolfellow</head>
               <p>IT was a cold, wet January day on which Tom went back to school: a day quite 
in keeping with this severe phase of his destiny. If he had not carried in 
his pocket a parcel of sugar candy and a small Dutch doll for little Laura, 
there would have been no ray of expected pleasure to enliven the general 
gloom. But he liked to think how Laura would put out her lips and her tiny 
hands for the bits of sugar candy, and, to give the greater keenness to these 
pleasures of imagination, he took out the parcel, made a small hole in the 
paper and bit off a crystal or two, which had so solacing an effect under the 
confined prospect and damp odours of the gig-umbrella, that he repeated the 
process more than once on his way. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Tulliver, we're glad to see you again,' said Mr Stelling, heartily. 
`Take off your wrappings and come into the study till dinner. You'll find a 
bright fire there and a new companion.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom felt in an uncomfortable flutter as he took off his woollen comforter and 
other wrappings. He had seen Philip Wakem at St Ogg's, but had always turned 
his eyes away from him as quickly as possible. He would have disliked having 
a deformed boy for his companion even if Philip had not been the son of a bad 
man. And Tom did not see how a bad man's son could be very good. His own 
father was a good man, and he would readily have fought any one who said the 
contrary. He was in a state of mingled embarrassment and defiance as he 
followed Mr Stelling to the study. 


</p>
               <p>`Here is a new companion for you, to shake hands with, Tulliver,' said that 
gentleman on entering the study, — `Master Philip Wakem. I shall leave you to 
make acquaintance by yourselves. You already know something of each other, I 
imagine — for you are neighbours at home.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom looked confused and awkward while Philip rose and glanced at him timidly. 
Tom did not like to go up and put out his hand, and he was not prepared to 
say, `How do you do?' on so short a notice. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Stelling wisely turned away and closed the door behind him: boys' shyness 
only wears off in the absence of their elders. 


</p>
               <p>Philip was at once too proud and too timid to walk towards Tom. He thought, 
or rather felt, that Tom had an aversion to looking at him: every one, 
almost, disliked looking at him; and his deformity was more conspicuous when 
he walked. So they remained without shaking hands or even speaking, while Tom 
went to the fire and warmed himself, every now and then casting furtive 
glances at Philip, who seemed to be drawing absently first one object and 
then another on a piece of paper he had before him. He had seated himself 
again, and as he drew was thinking what he could say to Tom, and trying to 
overcome his own repugnance to making the first advances. 


</p>
               <p>Tom began to look oftener and longer at Philip's face, for he could see it 
without noticing the hump, and it was really not a disagreeable face — very 
old-looking, Tom thought: he wondered how much older Philip was than himself. 
An anatomist — even a mere physiognomist — would have seen that the deformity 
of Philip's spine was not a congenital hump, but the result of an accident in 
infancy; but you do not expect from Tom any acquaintance with such 
distinctions: to him, Philip was simply a humpback. He had a vague notion 
that the deformity of Wakem's son had some relation to the lawyer's 
rascality, of which he had so often heard his father talk with hot emphasis; 
and he felt too a half-admitted fear of him as probably a spiteful fellow, 
who, not being able to fight you, had cunning ways of doing you a mischief by 
the sly. There was a humpbacked tailor in the neighbourhood of Mr Jacobs' 
Academy, who was considered a very unamiable character, and was much hooted 
after by public-spirited boys solely on the ground of his unsatisfactory 
moral qualities; so that Tom was not without a basis of fact to go upon. 
Still, no face could be more unlike that ugly tailor's than this melancholy 
boy's face: the brown hair round it waved and curled at the ends like a 
girl's — Tom thought that truly pitiable. This Wakem was a pale, puny fellow, 
and it was quite clear he would not be able to play at anything worth 
speaking of; but he handled his pencil in an enviable manner, and was 
apparently making one thing after another without any trouble. What was he 
drawing? Tom was quite warm now, and wanted something new to be going 
forward. It was certainly more agreeable to have an ill-natured humpback as a 
companion than to stand looking out of the study window at the rain and 
kicking his foot against the washboard in solitude; something would happen 
every day — `a quarrel or something;' and Tom thought he should rather like 
to show Philip that he had better not try his spiteful tricks on 
<hi>him</hi>. He suddenly walked across the hearth, and looked over Philip's 
paper. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, that's donkey with panniers — and a spaniel, and partridges in the 
corn!' he exclaimed, his tongue being completely loosed by surprise and 
admiration. `O my buttons!I wish I could draw like that. I'm to learn drawing 
this half — I wonder if I shall learn to make dogs and donkeys!' 


</p>
               <p>`O you can do them without learning,' said Philip. `I never learned drawing.' 


</p>
               <p>`Never learned?' said Tom, in amazement. `Why when I make dogs and horses and 
those things, the heads and the legs won't come right; though I can see how 
they ought to be very well. I can make houses, and all sorts of chimneys — 
chimneys going all down the wall, and windows in the roof and all that. But I 
daresay I could do dogs and horses if I was to try more,' he added, 
reflecting that Philip might falsely suppose that he was going to `knock 
under,' if he were too frank about the imperfection of his accomplishments. 


</p>
               <p>`O yes,' said Philip, `It's very easy. You've only to look well at things, 
and draw them over and over again. What you do wrong once, you can alter the 
next time,' 


</p>
               <p>`But haven't you been taught <hi>any</hi>thing?' said Tom, beginning to have 
a puzzled suspicion that Philip's crooked back might be the source of 
remarkable faculties, `I thought you'd been to school a long while,' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Philip, smiling. `I've been taught Latin and Greek and 
mathematics...  and writing and such things.' 


</p>
               <p>`O but, I say, you don't like Latin though do you?' said Tom, lowering his 
voice confidentially. 


</p>
               <p>`Pretty well — I don't care much about it,' said Philip. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, but perhaps you haven't got into the <hi>Propiae quae maribus</hi>,' 
said Tom, nodding his head sideways, as much as to say, `that was the test: 
it was easy talking until you came to <hi>that</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip felt some bitter complacency in the promising stupidity of this 
well-made active-looking boy; but made polite by his own extreme 
sensitiveness as well as by his desire to conciliate, he checked his 
inclination to laugh, and said quietly, 


</p>
               <p>`I've done with the grammar: I don't learn that any more.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then you won't have the same lessons as I shall,' said Tom, with a sense of 
disappointment. 


</p>
               <p>`No; but I daresay I can help you. I shall be very glad to help you if I 
can.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom did not say `Thank You,' for he was quite absorbed in the thought that 
Wakem's son did not seem so spiteful a fellow as might have been expected. 


</p>
               <p>`I say,' he said presently, `do you love your father?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Philip, colouring deeply, `don't you love yours?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes...  I only wanted to know,' said Tom, rather ashamed of himself now he 
saw Philip colouring and looking uncomfortable. He found much difficulty in 
adjusting his attitude of mind towards the son of Lawyer Wakem, and it had 
occurred to him that if Philip disliked his father, that fact might go some 
way towards clearing up his perplexity. 


</p>
               <p>`Shall you learn drawing now?' he said, by way of changing the subject. 


</p>
               <p>`No', said Philip. `My father wishes me to give all my time to other things 
now.' 


</p>
               <p>`What Latin, and Euclid, and those things?' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Philip, who had left off using his pencil and was resting his 
head on one hand, while Tom was leaning forward on both elbows, and looking 
with increasing admiration at the dog and the donkey. 


</p>
               <p>`And you don't mind that?' said Tom, with strong curiosity. 


</p>
               <p>`No: I like to know what everybody else knows. I can study what I like by and 
by.' 


</p>
               <p>`I can't think why anybody should learn Latin,' said Tom. `It's no good.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's part of the education of a gentleman,' said Philip. `All gentlemen 
learn the same things.' 


</p>
               <p>`What, do you think Sir John Crake, the master of the harriers, knows Latin?' 
said Tom, who had often thought he should like to resemble Sir John Crake. 


</p>
               <p>`He learnt it when he was a boy, of course,' said Philip `But I dare say he's 
forgotten it.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, well, I can do that, then,' said Tom, not with any epigrammatic 
intention, but with serious satisfaction at the idea that as far as Latin was 
concerned, there was no hindrance to his resembling Sir John Crake. `Only 
you're obliged to remember it while you're at school, else you've got to 
learn ever so many lines of `Speaker' Mr Stelling's very particular — did you 
know? He'll have you up ten times if you say “nam” for 
“jam”...  he won't let you go a letter wrong, <hi>I</hi> can tell 
you.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I don't mind,' said Philip, unable to choke a laugh, `I can remember 
things easily. And there are some lessons I'm very fond of. I'm very fond of 
Greek history, and everything about the Greeks. I should like to have been a 
Greek and fought the Persians, and then have come home and have written 
tragedies, or else have been listened to by everybody for my wisdom, like 
Socrates, and have died a grand death.' (Philip, you perceive, was not 
without a wish to impress the well-made barbarian with a sense of his mental 
superiority.) 


</p>
               <p>`Why, were the Greeks great fighters?' said Tom, who saw a vista in this 
direction. `Is there anything like David and Goliath, and Samson, in the 
Greek history? Those are the only bits I like in the history of the Jews.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, there are very fine stories of that sort about the Greeks — about the 
heroes of early times who killed the wild beasts, as Samson did. And in the 
<hi>Odyssey</hi> — that's a beautiful Poem — there's a more wonderful giant 
than Goliath — Polypheme, who had only one eye in the middle of his forehead, 
and Ulysses, a little fellow, but very wise and cunning, got a red-hot 
pine-tree and stuck it into this one eye and made him, roar like a thousand 
bulls.' 


</p>
               <p>`O what fun!' said Tom, Jumping away from the table and stamping first with 
one leg and then the other. `I say, can you tell me all about those stories? 
Because I shan't learn Greek, you know... . Shall I?' he added, pausing in 
his stamping with a sudden alarm, lest the contrary might be possible. `Does 
every gentleman learn Greek?...  Will Mr Stelling make me begin with it, do 
you think?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I should think not — very likely not,' said Philip. `But you may read 
those stories without knowing Greek. I've got them in English.' 


</p>
               <p>`O but I don't like reading: I'd sooner have you tell them me. But only the 
fighting ones, you know. My sister Maggie is always wanting to tell me 
stories — but they're stupid things. Girls' stories always are. Can you tell 
a good many fighting stories?' 


</p>
               <p>`O Yes,' said Philip. `Lots of them, besides the Greek stories. I can tell 
you about Richard Coeur de Lion and Saladin, and about William Wallace, and 
Robert Bruce and James Douglas — I Know no end.' 


</p>
               <p>`You're older than I am aren't you?' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, how old are <hi>you</hi> I'm fifteen.' 

</p>
               <p>`I'm only going in fourteen,' said Tom. `But I thrashed all the fellows at 
Jacobs' — that's where I was before I came here. And I beat 'em all at bandy 
and climbing. And I wish Mr Stelling would let us go fishing. <hi>I</hi>
could show you how to fish. You <hi>could</hi> fish, couldn't you? It's only 
standing, and sitting still, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom, in his turn, wished to make the balance dip in his favour. This 
hunchback must not suppose that his acquaintance with fighting stories put 
him on a par with an actual fighting hero like Tom Tulliver. Philip winced 
under this allusion to his unfitness for active sports, and he answered 
almost peevishly, 


</p>
               <p>`I Can't bear fishing. I think people look like fools sitting watching a line 
hour after hour — or else throwing and throwing, and catching nothing.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, but you wouldn't say they looked like fools when they landed a big pike, 
I can tell you,' said Tom, who had never caught anything that was `big' in 
his life, but whose imagination was on the stretch with indignant zeal for 
the honour of sport. Wakem's son, it was plain, had his disagreeable points, 
and must be kept in due check. Happily for the harmony of this first 
interview, they were now called to dinner, and Philip was not allowed to 
develop farther his unsound views on the subject of fishing. But Tom said to 
himself: that was just what he should have expected from a hunchback. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.4" type="chapter">
               <head>`The Young Idea'</head>
               <p>THE alternations of feeling in that first dialogue between Tom and Philip 
Continued to mark their intercourse even after many weeks of schoolboy 
intimacy. Tom never quite lost the feeling that Philip, being the son of a 
`rascal,' was his natural enemy, never thoroughly overcame his repulsion to 
Philip's deformity: deformity: he was a boy who adhered tenaciously to 
impressions once received: as with all minds in which mere perception 
predominates over thought and emotion, the external remained to him rigidly 
what it was in the first instance. But then, it was impossible not to like 
Philip's company when he was in a good humour: he could help one so well in 
one's Latin exercises, which Tom regarded as a kind of puzzle that could only 
be found out be a lucky chance; and he could tell such wonderful fighting 
stories about Hal of the Wynd, for example, and other heroes who were 
especial favourites with Tom, because they laid about them with heavy 
strokes. He had small opinion of Saladin whose scimitar could cut a cushion 
in two in an instant: who wanted to cut cushions? That was a stupid story, 
and he didn't care to hear it again. But when Robert Bruce on the black pony 
rose in his stirrups and lifting his good battle-axe cracked at once the 
helmet and the skull of the too-hasty knight at Bannockburn, then Tom felt 
all the exaltation of sympathy and if he had had a cocoanut at hand, he would 
have cracked it at once with the poker. Philip in his happier moods, indulged 
Tom to the top of his bent, heightening the crash and bang and fury of every 
fight with all the artillery of epithets at his command. But he was not 
always in a good humour or happy mood. The slight spurt of peevish 
susceptibility which had escaped him in their first interview, was a symptom 
of a perpetually recurring mental ailment — half of it nervous irritability, 
half of it the heart-bitterness produced by the sense of his deformity. In 
these fits of susceptibility every glance seemed to him to be charged either 
with offensive pity or with ill-repressed disgust — at the very least it was 
an indifferent glance, and Philip felt indifference as a child of the south 
feels the chill air of a northern spring. Poor Tom's blundering patronage 
when they were out of doors together would sometimes make him turn upon the 
well-meaning lad quite savagely, and his eyes, usually sad and quiet, would 
flash with anything but playful lightning. No wonder Tom retained his 
suspicions of the humpback. 


</p>
               <p>But Philip's self-taught skill in drawing was another link between them: for 
Tom found, to his disgust, that his new drawing-master gave him no dogs and 
donkeys to draw, but brooks and rustic bridges and ruins all with a general 
softness of black-lead surface indicating that nature, if anything, was 
rather satiny; and as Tom's feeling for the picturesque in landscape was at 
present quite latent, it is not surprising that Mr Goodrich's productions 
seemed to him an uninteresting form of art. Mr Tulliver having a vague 
intention that Tom should be put to some business which included the drawing 
out of plans and maps, had complained to Mr Riley, when he saw him at 
Mudport, that Tom seemed to be learning nothing of that sort: whereupon that 
obliging adviser had suggested that Tom should have drawing lessons. Mr 
Tulliver must not mind paying extra for drawing: let Tom be made a good 
draughtsman, and he would be able to turn his pencil to any purpose. So it 
was ordered that Tom should have drawing lessons; and whom should Mr Stelling 
have selected as a master if not Mr Goodrich, who was considered quite at the 
head of his profession within a circuit of twelve miles round King's Lorton? 
By which means Tom learned to make an extremely fine point to his pencil and 
to represent landscape with a `broad generality' which, doubtless from a 
narrow tendency in his mind to details, he thought extremely dull. 


</p>
               <p>All this, you remember, happened in those dark ages when there were no 
Schools of Design, before schoolmasters were invariably men of scrupulous 
integrity, and before the clergy were all men of enlarged minds and varied 
culture. In those less favoured days, it is no fable that there were other 
clergymen besides Mr Stelling who had narrow intellects and large wants, and 
whose income, by a logical confusion to which Fortune, being a female as well 
as blindfold, is peculiarly liable, was proportioned not to their wants but 
to their intellect — with which income has clearly no inherent relation. The 
Problem these gentlemen had to solve was to readjust the proportion between 
their wants and their income; and since wants are not easily starved to 
death, the simpler method appeared to be — to raise their income. There was 
but one way of doing this: any of those low callings in which men are obliged 
to do good work at a low price were forbidden to clergymen: was it their 
fault if their only resource was to turn out very poor work at a high price? 
Besides, how should Mr Stelling be expected to know that education was a 
delicate and difficult business? any more than an animal endowed with a power 
of boring a hole through rock should be expected to have wide views of 
excavation. Mr Stelling's faculties had been early trained to boring in a 
strait line, and he had no faculty to spare. But among Tom's contemporaries 
whose fathers cast their sons on clerical instruction to find them ignorant 
after many days, there were many far less lucky than Tom Tulliver. Education 
was almost entirely a matter of luck — usually of ill-luck — in those distant 
days. The state of mind in which you take a billiard-cue or a dice-box in 
your hand is one of sober certainty compared with that of old-fashioned 
fathers, like Mr Tulliver, when they selected a school or a tutor for their 
sons. Excellent men, who had been forced all their lives to spell on an 
impromptu phonetic system, and having carried on a successful business in 
spite of this disadvantage, had acquired money enough to give their sons a 
better star in life than they had had themselves, must necessarily take their 
change as to the conscience and the competence of the schoolmaster whose 
circular fell in their way and appeared to promise so much more than they 
would ever have thought of asking for — including the return of linen, fork, 
and spoon. It was happy for them if some ambitious draper of their 
acquaintance had not brought up his son to the Church and if that young 
gentleman, at the age of four-and-twenty, had not closed his college 
dissipations by an imprudent marriage: otherwise, these innocent fathers 
desirous of doing the best for their offspring could only escape the draper's 
son by happening to be on the foundation of a grammar school as yet unvisited 
by commissioners where two or three boys could have all to themselves the 
advantages of a large and lofty building, together with a head-master, 
toothless, dim-eyed and deaf, whose erudite indistinctness and inattention 
were engrossed by them at the rate of three hundred pounds a head — a ripe 
scholar, doubtless, when first appointed; but all ripeness beneath the sun 
has a further stage less esteemed in the market. 


</p>
               <p>Tom Tulliver, then, compared with many other British youths of his time who 
have since had to scramble through life with some fragments of more or less 
relevant knowledge and a great deal of strictly relevant ignorance, was not 
so very unlucky. Mr Stelling was a broad-chested healthy man with the bearing 
of a gentleman, a conviction that a growing boy required a sufficiency of 
beef, and a certain hearty kindness in him that made him like to see Tom 
looking well and enjoying his dinner: — not a man of refined conscience or 
with any deep sense of the infinite issues belonging to everyday duties; not 
quite competent to his high offices; but incompetent gentlemen must live, and 
without private fortune, it is difficult to see how they could all live 
genteelly if they had nothing to do with education or government. Besides it 
was the fault of Tom's mental Constitution that his faculties could not be 
nourished on the sort of knowledge Mr Stelling had to communicate. A boy born 
with a deficient power of apprehending signs and abstractions must suffer the 
penalty of his congenital deficiency, just as if he had been born with one 
leg shorter than the other; a method of education sanctioned by the long 
practice of our venerable ancestors was not to give way before the 
exceptional dulness of a boy who was merely living at the time then present. 
And Mr Stelling was convinced that a boy so stupid at signs and abstractions 
must be stupid at everything else, even if that reverend gentleman could have 
taught him everything else. It was the practice of our venerable ancestors to 
apply that ingenious instrument the thumb-screw, and to tighten and tighten 
it in order to elicit non-existent facts: they had a fixed opinion to begin 
with, that the facts were existent, and what had they to do but to tighten 
the thumb-screw? In like manner, Mr Stelling had a fixed opinion that all 
boys with any capacity could learn what it was the only regular thing to 
teach: if they were slow, the thumb-screw must be tightened — the exercises 
must be insisted on with increased severity, and a page of Virgil be awarded 
as a penalty, to encourage and stimulate a too languid inclination to Latin 
verse. 


</p>
               <p>Nevertheless the thumb-screw was relaxed a little during this second half 
year. Philip was so advanced in his studies and so apt, that Mr Stelling 
could obtain credit by his facility which required little help, much more 
easily than by the troublesome process of overcoming Tom's dulness. Gentlemen 
with broad chests and ambitious intentions do sometimes disappoint their 
friends by failing to carry the world before them. Perhaps it is, that high 
achievements demand some other unusual qualification besides an unusual 
desire for high prizes; perhaps it is that these stalwart gentlemen are 
rather indolent, their <hi>divinae particulam aurae</hi> being obstructed 
from soaring by a too hearty appetite. Some reason or other there was why Mr 
Stelling deferred the execution of many spirited projects — why he did not 
begin the editing of his Greek play, or any other work of scholarship in his 
leisure hours, but, after turning the key of his private study with much 
resolution, sat down to one of Theodore Hook's novels. Tom was gradually 
allowed to shuffle through his lessons with less rigour, and having Philip to 
help him, he was able to make some show of having applied his mind in a 
confused and blundering way, without being cross-examined into betrayal that 
his mind had been entirely neutral in the matter. He thought school much more 
bearable under this modification of circumstances; and he went on contentedly 
enough, picking up a promiscuous education chiefly from things that were not 
intended as education at all. What was understood to be his education, was 
simply the practice of reading, writing and spelling, carried on by an 
elaborate appliance of unintelligible ideas and by much failure in the effort 
to learn by rote. 


</p>
               <p>Nevertheless, there was a visible improvement in Tom under this training; 
perhaps because he was not a boy in the abstract existing solely to 
illustrate the evils of a mistaken education, but a boy made of flesh and 
blood, with dispositions not entirely at the mercy of circumstances. 


</p>
               <p>There was a great improvement in his bearing, for example, and some credit on 
this score was due to Mr Poulter, the village schoolmaster, who, being an old 
Peninsular soldier, was employed to drill Tom — a source of high mutual 
pleasure. Mr Poulter, who was understood by the company at the Black Swan to 
have once struck terror into the hearts of the French, was no longer 
personally formidable. He had rather a shrunken appearance, and was tremulous 
in the mornings, not from age, but from the extreme perversity of the King's 
Lorton boys which nothing but gin could enable him to sustain with any 
firmness. Still, he carried himself with martial erectness, had his clothes 
scrupulously brushed, and his trousers tightly strapped, and on the Wednesday 
and Saturday afternoons when he came to Tom, he was always inspired with gin 
and old memories Which gave him an exceptionally spirited air, as of a 
superannuated charger who hears the drum. The drilling lessons were always 
protracted by episodes of warlike narrative much more interesting to Tom than 
Philip's stories out of the <hi>Iliad</hi>; for there were no cannon in the 
<hi>Iliad</hi>, and besides, Tom had felt some disgust on learning that 
Hector and Achilles might possibly never have existed. But the Duke of 
Wellington was really alive, and Bony had not been long dead — therefore Mr 
Poulter's reminiscences of the Peninsular War were removed from all suspicion 
of being mythical. Mr Poulter, it appeared, had been a conspicuous figure at 
Talavera, and had contributed not a little to the peculiar terror with which 
his regiment of infantry was regarded by the enemy. On afternoons when his 
memory was more stimulated than usual, he remembered that the Duke of 
Wellington had (in strict privacy, lest jealousies should be awakened) 
expressed his esteem for that fine fellow Poulter. The very surgeon who 
attended him in the hospital after he had received his gunshot wound had been 
profoundly impressed with the superiority of Mr Poulter's flesh: no other 
flesh would have healed in anything like the same time. On less personal 
matters connected with the important warfare in which he had been engaged Mr 
Poulter was more reticent, only taking care not to give the weight of his 
authority to any loose notions concerning military history. Any one who 
pretended to a knowledge of what occurred at the siege of Badajos was 
especially an object of silent pity to Mr Poulter: he wished that prating 
person had been run down and had the breath trampled out of him at the first 
go-off, as he himself had — he might talk about the siege of Badajos then!Tom 
did not escape irritating his drilling master occasionally, by his curiosity 
concerning other military matters than Mr Poulter's personal experience. 


</p>
               <p>`And General Wolfe, Mr Poulter? wasn't he a wonderful fighter?' said Tom, who 
held the notion that all the martial heroes commemorated on the public-house 
signs were engaged in the war with Bony. 


</p>
               <p>`Not at all!' said Mr Poulter, contemptuously. `Nothing o' the sort!... 
Heads up!' he added in a tone of stern command, which delighted Tom and made 
him feel as if he were a regiment in his own person. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no!' Mr Poulter would continue, on coming to a pause in his discipline. 
`They'd better not talk to me about General Wolfe. He did nothing but die of 
his would; that's a poor haction, I consider. Any other man 'ud have died 
o'the wounds I've had... . One of my sword-cuts 'ud ha'killed a fellow like 
General Wolfe.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Poulter,' Tom would say, at any allusion to the sword, `I wish you'd 
bring your sword and do the sword-exercise!' 


</p>
               <p>For a long while Mr Poulter only shook his head in a significant manner at 
this request, and smiled patronisingly, as Jupiter may have done when Semele 
urged her too ambitious request. But one afternoon when a sudden shower of 
heavy rain had detained Mr Poulter twenty minutes longer than usual at the 
Black Swan, the sword was brought — just for Tom to look at. 


</p>
               <p>`And this is the real sword you fought with in all the battles, Mr Poulter?' 
said Tom, handling the hilt. `Has it ever cut a Frenchman's head off?' 


</p>
               <p>`Head off? Ah! and would, if he'd had three heads.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you had a gun and bayonet besides?' said Tom. `<hi>I</hi> should like 
the gun and bayonet best, because you could shoot 'em first and spear 'em 
after. Bang! Ps-s-s-s!' Tom gave the requisite pantomime to indicate the 
double enjoyment of pulling the trigger and thrusting the spear. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, but the sword's the thing when you come to close fighting,' said Mr 
Poulter, involuntarily falling in with Tom's enthusiasm, and drawing the 
sword so suddenly that Tom leaped back with much agility. 


</p>
               <p>`O but, Mr Poulter, if you're going to do the exercise,' said Tom, a little 
conscious that he had not stood his ground as became an Englishman, `let me 
go and call Philip. He'll like to see you, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>`What! the humpbacked lad?' said Mr Poulter contemptuously. `What's the use 
of <hi>his</hi> looking on?' 


</p>
               <p>`O but he knows a great deal about fighting,' said Tom, `and how they used to 
fight with bows and arrows and battle-axes.' 


</p>
               <p>`Let him come then — I'll show him something different from his bows and 
arrows,' said Mr Poulter, coughing and drawing himself up, while he gave a 
little preliminary play to his wrist. 


</p>
               <p>Tom ran in to Philip who was enjoying his afternoon's holiday at the piano in 
the drawing-room, picking out tunes for himself and singing them. He was 
supremely happy perched like an amorphous bundle on the high stool, with his 
head thrown back, his eyes fixed on the opposite cornice, and his lips wide 
open, sending forth, with all his might, impromptu syllables to a tune of 
Arne's; which had hit his fancy. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, Philip,' said Tom, bursting in. `Don't stay roaring la la there — come 
and see old Poulter do his sword exercise in the carriage-house!' 


</p>
               <p>The jar of this interruption — the discord of Tom's tones coming across the 
notes to which Philip was vibrating in soul and body, would have been enough 
to unhinge his temper, even if there had been no question of Poulter the 
drilling-master. And Tom, in the hurry of seizing something to say to prevent 
Mr Poulter from thinking he was afraid of the sword when he sprang away from 
it, had alighted on this proposition to fetch Philip — though he knew well 
enough that Philip hated to hear him mention his drilling-lessons. Tom would 
never have done so inconsiderate a thing except under the severe stress of 
his personal pride. 


</p>
               <p>Philip shuddered visibly as he paused from his music. Then turning red, he 
said, with violent passion, 


</p>
               <p>`Get away, you lumbering idiot! Don't come bellowing at me — you're not fit 
to speak to anything but a cart horse!' 


</p>
               <p>It was not the first time Philip had been made angry by him, but Tom had 
never before been assailed with verbal missiles that he understood so well. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm fit to speak to something better than you — you poor-spirited imp!' said 
Tom, lighting up immediately at Philip's fire. `You know I won't hit you — 
because you're no better than a girl. But I'm an honest man's son, and 
<hi>your</hi> father's a rogue — everybody says so!' 


</p>
               <p>Tom flung out of the room, and slammed the door after him, made strangely 
heedless by his anger; for to slam doors within the hearing of Mrs Stelling, 
who was probably not far off, was an offence only to be wiped out by twenty 
lines of Virgil. In fact, that lady did presently descend from her room, in 
double wonder at the noise and the subsequent cessation of Philip's music. 
She found him sitting in a heap on the hassock, and crying bitterly. 


</p>
               <p>`What's the matter, Wakem? What was that noise about? Who slammed the door?' 


</p>
               <p>Philip looked up and hastily dried his eyes. `It was Tulliver who came in... 
to ask me to go out with him.' 


</p>
               <p>`And what are you in trouble about?' said Mrs Stelling. 


</p>
               <p>Philip was not her favourite of the two pupils: he was less obliging than 
Tom, who was made useful in many ways. Still his father paid more than Mr 
Tulliver did, and she meant him to feel that she behaved exceedingly well to 
him. Philip, however, met her advances towards a good understanding very much 
as a caressed mollusc meets an invitation to show himself out of his shell. 
Mrs Stelling was not a loving, tender-hearted woman: she was a woman whose 
skirt sat well, who adjusted her waist, and patted her curls with a 
preoccupied air when she inquired after your welfare. These things, 
doubtless, represent a great social power, but it is not power of love — and 
no other power could win Philip from his personal reserve. 


</p>
               <p>He said, in answer to her question, `My toothache came on and made me 
hysterical again.' 


</p>
               <p>This had been the fact once, and Philip was glad of the recollection — it was 
like an inspiration to enable him to excuse his crying. He had to accept 
eau-de-cologne, and to refuse creosote in consequence, but that was easy. 


</p>
               <p>Meanwhile Tom, who had for the first time sent a poisoned arrow into Philip's 
heart, had returned to the carriage-house, where he found Mr Poulter with a 
fixed and earnest eye, wasting the perfections of his sword exercise on 
probably observant but inappreciative rats. But Mr Poulter was a host in 
himself; that is to say, he admired himself more than a whole army of 
spectators could have admired him. He took no notice of Tom's return, being 
too entirely absorbed in the cut and thrust — the solemn one, two, three, 
four — and Tom, not without a slight feeling of alarm at Mr Poulter's fixed 
eye and hungry-looking sword which seemed impatient for something else to cut 
besides the air, admired the performance from as great a distance as 
possible. It was not until Mr Poulter paused and wiped the perspiration from 
his forehead, that Tom felt the full charm of the sword exercise, and wished 
it to be repeated. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Poulter,' said Tom, when the sword was being finally sheathed, `I wish 
you'd lend me your sword a little while to keep.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, young gentleman,' said Mr Poulter, shaking his head decidedly, `you 
might do yourself some mischief with it.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I'm sure I wouldn't — I'm sure I'd take care and not hurt myself. I 
shouldn't take it out of the sheath much, but I could ground arms with it, 
and all that.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, it won't do, I tell you, it won't do,' said Mr Poulter, preparing to 
depart. `What 'ud Mr Stelling say to me?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I say, do, Mr Poulter! I'd give you my five-shilling piece, if you'd let 
me keep the sword a week. Look here!' said Tom, reaching out the attractively 
large round of silver. The young dog calculated the effect as well as if he 
had been a philosopher. 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Poulter, with still deeper gravity, `you must keep it out of 
sight, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, I'll keep it under the bed,' said Tom, eagerly, `or else at the 
bottom of my large box.' 


</p>
               <p>`And let me see, now, whether you can draw it out of the sheath without 
hurting yourself.' 


</p>
               <p>That process having been gone through more than once, Mr Poulter felt that he 
had acted with scrupulous conscientiousness and said, `Well, now, Master 
Tulliver, if I take the crown-piece, it is to make sure as you'll do no 
mischief with the sword.' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, indeed, Mr Poulter,' said Tom delightedly handing him the crown-piece, 
and grasping the sword, which, he thought, might have been lighter with 
advantage. 


</p>
               <p>`But if Mr Stelling catches you carrying it in,' said Mr 


</p>
               <p>Poulter, pocketing the crown-piece provisionally while he raised this new 
doubt. 


</p>
               <p>`O he always keeps in his upstairs study on Saturday afternoons,' said Tom, 
who disliked anything sneaking, but was not disinclined to a little stratagem 
in a worthy cause. So he carried off the sword in triumph mixed with dread — 
dread that he might encounter Mr or Mrs Stelling — to his bedroom, where, 
after some consideration, he hid it in the closet behind some hanging 
clothes. That night he fell asleep in the thought that he would astonish 
Maggie with it when she came — tie it round his waist with his red comforter, 
and make her believe that the sword was his own and that he was going to be a 
soldier. There was nobody but Maggie who would be silly enough to believe 
him, or whom he dared allow to know that he had a sword. And Maggie was 
really coming next week, to see Tom before she went to a boarding-school with 
Lucy. 


</p>
               <p>If you think a lad of thirteen would not have been so childish, you must be 
an exceptionally wise man, who, although you are devoted to a civil calling, 
requiring you to look bland rather than formidable, yet never, since you had 
a beard, threw yourself into a martial attitude and frowned before the 
looking-glass. It is doubtful whether our soldiers would be maintained if 
there were not pacific people at home who like to fancy themselves soldiers. 
War, like other dramatic spectacles, might possibly cease for want of a 
`public.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.5" type="chapter">
               <head>Maggie's Second Visit</head>
               <p>THIS last breach between the two lads was not readily mended and for some 
time they spoke to each other no more than was necessary. Their natural 
antipathy of temperament made resentment an easy passage to hatred, and in 
Philip the transition seemed to have begun: there was no malignity in his 
disposition, but there was a susceptibility that made him peculiarly liable 
to a strong sense of repulsion. The ox — we may venture to assert it on the 
authority of a great classic — is not given to use his teeth as an instrument 
of attack; and Tom was an excellent bovine lad, who ran at questionable 
objects in a truly ingenuous bovine manner; but he had blundered on Philip's 
tenderest point, and had caused him as much acute pain as if he had studied 
the means with the nicest precision and the most envenomed spite. Tom saw no 
reason why they should not make up this quarrel as they had done many others, 
by behaving as if nothing had happened; for though he had never before said 
to Philip that his father was a rogue, this idea had so habitually made part 
of his feeling as to the relation between himself and his dubious 
schoolfellow, whom he could neither like nor dislike, that the mere utterance 
did not make such an epoch to him as it did to Philip. And he had a right to 
say so, when Philip hectored over <hi>him</hi> and called him names. But 
perceiving that his first advances towards amity were not met, he relapsed 
into his least favourable disposition towards Philip, and resolved never to 
appeal to him either about drawing or exercises again. They were only so far 
civil to each other as was necessary to prevent their state of feud from 
being observed by Mr Stelling, who would have `put down' such nonsense with 
great vigour. 


</p>
               <p>When Maggie came, however, she could not help looking with growing interest 
at the new school-fellow, although he was the son of that wicked Lawyer Wakem 
who made her father so angry. She had arrived in the middle of school- hours, 
and had sat by while Philip went through his lessons with Mr Stelling. Tom, 
some weeks ago, had sent her word that Philip knew no end of stories — not 
stupid stories like hers — and she was convinced now from her own observation 
that he must be very clever: she hoped he would think <hi>her</hi> rather 
clever too, when she came to talk to him. Maggie moreover had rather a 
tenderness for deformed things; she preferred the wry-necked lambs, because 
it seemed to her that the lambs which were quite strong and well made 
wouldn't mind so much about being petted, and she was especially fond of 
petting objects that would think it very delightful to be petted by her. She 
loved Tom very dearly, but she often wished that he <hi>cared</hi> more about 
her loving him. 


</p>
               <p>`I think Philip Wakem seems a nice boy, Tom,' she said, when they went out of 
the study together into the garden, to pass the interval before dinner. `He 
couldn't choose his father, you know; and I've read of very bad men who had 
good sons, as well as good parents who had bad children. And if Philip is 
good, I think we ought to be the more sorry for him because his father is not 
a good man. <hi>You</hi> like him, don't you?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, he's a queer fellow,' said Tom, curtly, `and he's as sulky as can be with 
me, because I told him his father was a rogue. And I'd a right to tell him 
so, for it was true — and <hi>he</hi> began it, with calling me names. But 
you can stop here by yourself a bit, Magsie, will you? I've got something I 
want to do upstairs.' 


</p>
               <p>`Can't I go too?' said Maggie, who, in this first day of meeting again, loved 
Tom's shadow. 


</p>
               <p>`No, it's something I'll tell you about by and by, not yet,' said Tom, 
skipping away. 


</p>
               <p>In the afternoon, the boys were at their books in the study, preparing the 
morrow's lessons, that they might have a holiday in the evening in honour of 
Maggie's arrival. Tom was hanging over his Latin grammar, moving his lips 
inaudibly like a strict but impatient Catholic repeating his tale of 
paternosters, and Philip, at the other end of the room, was busy with two 
volumes, with a look of contented diligence that excited Maggie's curiosity: 
he did not look at all as if he were learning a lesson. She sat on a low 
stool at nearly right angle with the two boys, watching first one and then 
the other, and Philip looking off his book once towards the fireplace, caught 
the pair of questioning dark eyes fixed upon him. He thought this sister of 
Tulliver's seemed a nice little thing, quite unlike her brother: he wished 
<hi>he</hi> had a little sister. What was it, he wondered, that made Maggie's 
dark eyes remind him of the stories about princesses being turned into 
animals?...  I think it was, that her eyes were full of unsatisfied 
intelligence and unsatisfied, beseeching affection. 

</p>
               <p>`I say, Magsie,' said Tom at last, shutting his books and putting them away 
with the energy and decision of a perfect master in the art of `leaving off,' 
`I've done my lessons now. Come upstairs with me.' 


</p>
               <p>`What is it?' said Maggie when they were outside the door, a slight suspicion 
crossing her mind as she remembered Tom's Preliminary visit upstairs. `It 
isn't trick you're going to play me, now?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, Maggie,' said Tom, in his most coaxing tone. `It's something you'll 
like <hi>ever</hi> so.' 


</p>
               <p>He put his arm round her neck, and she put hers round his waist, and twined 
together in this way, they went upstairs. 


</p>
               <p>`I say, Magsie, you must not tell anybody, you know,' said Tom, `else I shall 
get fifty lines.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is it alive?' said Maggie, whose imagination had settled for the moment on 
the idea that Tom kept a ferret clandestinely. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I shan't tell you,' said he. `Now you go into that corner and hide your 
face while I reach it out,' he added as he locked the bedroom door behind 
them. `I'll tell you when to turn round. You mustn't squeal out, you know' 


</p>
               <p>`O, but if you frighten me, I shall,' said Maggie, beginning to look rather 
serious. 


</p>
               <p>`You won't be frightened, you silly thing,' said Tom. `Go and hide your face 
and mind you don't peep.' 


</p>
               <p>`Of course I shan't peep,' said Maggie, disdainfully: and she buried her face 
in the pillow like a person of strict honour. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom looked round warily as he walked to the closet; then he stepped into 
the narrow space, and almost closed the door. Maggie kept her face buried 
without the aid of principle, for in that dream-suggestive attitude she had 
soon forgotten where she was, and her thoughts were busy with the poor 
deformed boy who was so clever, when Tom called out, `Now then, Magsie!' 


</p>
               <p>Nothing but long meditation and preconcerted arrangement of effects could 
have enabled Tom to present so striking a figure as he did to Maggie when she 
looked up. Dissatisfied with the pacific aspect of a face which had no more 
than the faintest hint of flaxen eyebrow, together with a pair of amiable 
blue-grey eyes and round pink cheeks that refused to look formidable let him 
frown as he would before the looking-glass — (Philip had once told him of a 
man who had a horseshoe frown, and Tom had tried with all his frowning might 
to make a horseshoe on his forehead) — he had had recourse to that unfailing 
source of the terrible, burnt cork, and had made himself a pair of black 
eyebrows that met in a satisfactory manner over his nose and were matched by 
a less carefully adjusted blackness about the chin. He had wound a red 
handkerchief round his cloth cap to give it the air of a turban, and his red 
comforter across his breast as a scarf — an amount of red which, with the 
tremendous frown on his brow, and the decision with which he grasped the 
sword as he held it with its point resting on the ground, would suffice to 
convey an approximate idea of his fierce and bloodthirsty disposition. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie looked bewildered for a moment, and Tom enjoyed that moment keenly; 
but in the next, she laughed, clapped her hands together and said, `O Tom, 
You've made yourself like Bluebeard at the show.' 


</p>
               <p>It was clear she had not been struck with the presence of the sword — it was 
not unsheathed. Her frivolous mind required a more direct appeal to its sense 
of the terrible, and Tom prepared for his masterstroke. Frowning with a 
double amount of intention, if not of corrugation, he (carefully) drew the 
sword from its sheath and pointed it at Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom, please don't,' exclaimed Maggie, in a tone of suppressed dread, 
shrinking away from him into the opposite corner, `I <hi>shall</hi> scream — 
I'm sure I shall! O don't! I wish I'd never come upstairs!' 


</p>
               <p>The corners of Tom's mouth showed an inclination to a smile of complacency 
that was immediately checked as inconsistent with the severity of a great 
warrior. Slowly he let down the scabbard on the floor, lest it should make 
too much noise, and then said, sternly, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm the Duke of Wellington! March!' stamping forward with the right leg a 
little bent, and the sword still pointing towards Maggie, who, trembling, and 
with tear-filled eyes, got upon the bed, as the only means of widening the 
space between them. 


</p>
               <p>Tom, happy in this spectator of his military performances, even though the 
spectator was only Maggie, proceeded with the utmost exertion of his force, 
to such an exhibition of the cut and thrust as would necessarily be expected 
of the Duke of Wellington. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, I <hi>will not</hi> bear it — I <hi>will</hi> scream,' said Maggie, at 
the first movement of the sword. `You'll hurt yourself, you'll cut your head 
off!' 


</p>
               <p>`One — two,' said Tom, resolutely, though at `two' his wrist trembled a 
little. `Three,' came more slowly, and with it the sword swung downwards, and 
Maggie gave a loud shriek. The sword had fallen, with its edge on Tom's foot, 
and in a moment after, he had fallen too. Maggie leaped from the bed, still 
shrieking, and immediately there was a rush of footsteps towards the room. Mr 
Stelling, from his upstairs study, was the first to enter. He found both the 
children on the floor. Tom had fainted and Maggie was shaking him by the 
collar of his jacket, screaming, with wild eyes. She thought he was dead, 
poor child! and yet she shook him as if that would bring him back to life. In 
another minute she was sobbing with joy because Tom had opened his eyes. She 
couldn't sorrow yet that he had hurt his foot — it seemed as if all happiness 
lay in his being alive. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.6" type="chapter">
               <head>A Love Scene</head>
               <p>POOR Tom bore his severe pain heroically, and was resolute in not `telling' 
of Mr Poulter more than was avoidable: the five-shilling piece remained a 
secret event to Maggie. But there was a terrible dread weighing on his mind — 
so terrible that he dared not even ask the question which might bring the 
fatal `yes' — he dared not ask the surgeon or Mr Stelling `Shall I be lame, 
sir?' He mastered himself so as not to cry out at the pain, but when his foot 
had been dressed, and he was left alone with Maggie seated by his bedside, 
the children sobbed together with their heads laid on the same pillow. Tom 
was thinking of himself walking about on crutches, like the wheelwright's 
son, and Maggie, who did not guess what was in his mind, sobbed for company. 
It had not occurred to the surgeon or to Mr Stelling to anticipate this dread 
in Tom's mind and to reassure him by hopeful words. But Philip watched the 
surgeon out of the house and waylaid Mr Stelling to ask the very question 
that Tom had not dared to ask for himself. 


</p>
               <p>`I beg your pardon, sir — but does Mr Askern say Tulliver will be lame?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, O no,' said Mr Stelling, `not permanently. Only for a little while.' 


</p>
               <p>`Did he tell Tulliver so, sir, do you think?' 


</p>
               <p>`No: nothing was said to him on the subject.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then may I go and tell him sir?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, to be sure: now you mention it, I daresay he may be troubling about 
that. Go to his bedroom, but be very quiet at present.' 


</p>
               <p>It had been Philip's first thought when he heard of the accident — `Will 
Tulliver be lame? It will be very hard for him if he is' — and Tom's hitherto 
unforgiven offences were washed out by that pity. Philip felt that they were 
no longer in a state of repulsion but were being drawn into a common current 
of suffering and sad privation. His imagination did not dwell on the outward 
calamity and its future effect on Tom's life, but it made vividly present to 
him the probable state of Tom's feeling: he had only lived fourteen years, 
but those years had, most of them, been steeped in the sense of a lot 
irremediably hard. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Askern says you'll soon be all right again, Tulliver, did you Know?' he 
said, rather timidly, as he stepped gently up to Tom's bed. `I've just been 
to ask Mr Stelling, and he says you'll walk as well as ever again, by and 
by.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom looked up with that momentary stopping of the breath which comes with a 
sudden joy; then he gave a long sigh, and turned his blue-grey eyes straight 
on Philip's face as he had not done for a fortnight or more. As for Maggie, 
this intimation of a possibility she had not thought of before affected her 
as a new trouble: the bare idea of Tom's being always lame overpowered the 
assurance that such a misfortune was not likely to befall him; and she clung 
to him and cried afresh. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't be a little silly, Magsie,' said Tom, tenderly, feeling very brave 
now. `I shall soon get well.' 


</p>
               <p>`Goodby, Tulliver,' said Philip, putting out his small, delicate hand, which 
Tom clasped immediately with his more substantial fingers. 


</p>
               <p>`I say,' said Tom `ask Mr Stelling to let you come and sit with me sometimes, 
till I get up again, Wakem — and tell me about Robert Bruce, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>After that, Philip spent all his time out of school-hours with Tom and 
Maggie. Tom liked to hear fighting stories as much as ever, but he insisted 
strongly on the fact that those great fighters who did so many wonderful 
things and came off unhurt, wore excellent armour from head to foot which 
made fighting easy work, he considered. He should not have hurt his foot if 
he had had an iron shoe on. He listened with great interest to a new story of 
Philip's about a man who had a very bad wound in his foot, and cried out so 
dreadfully with the pain, that his friends could bear with him no longer, but 
put him ashore on a desert island, with nothing but some wonderful poisoned 
arrows to kill animals with for food. 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't roar out a bit, you know,' Tom said, `and I daresay my foot was as 
bad as his. It's cowardly to roar.' 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie would have it that when anything hurt you very much it was quite 
permissible to cry out, and it was cruel of people not to bear it. She wanted 
to know if Philoctetes had a sister, and why <hi>she</hi> didn't go with him 
on the desert island and take care of him. 


</p>
               <p>One day, soon after Philip had told this story, he and Maggie were in the 
study alone together while Tom's foot was being dressed. Philip was at his 
books, and Maggie, after sauntering idly round the room, not caring to do 
anything in particular, because she would soon go to Tom again, went and 
leaned on the table near Philip to see what he was doing, for they were quite 
old friends now and perfectly at home with each other. 


</p>
               <p>`What are you reading about in Greek?' she said. `It's poetry — I can see 
that, because the lines are so short.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's about Philoctetes — the lame man, I was telling you of yesterday,' he 
answered, resting his head on his hand and looking at her, as if he were not 
at all sorry to be interrupted. Maggie, in her absent way, continued to lean 
forward, resting on her arms and moving her feet about, while her dark eyes 
got more and more fixed and vacant as if she had quite forgotten Philip and 
his book. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' said Philip, after a minute or two, still leaning on his elbow and 
looking at her, `if you had had a brother like me — do you think you should 
have loved him as well as Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie started a little on being roused for her reverie, and said, `What?' 
Philip repeated his question. 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, better,' she answered, immediately. `No, not better: because I don't 
think I <hi>could</hi> love you better than Tom. But I should be so sorry — 
<hi>so sorry</hi> for you.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip coloured: he had meant to imply, would she love him as well in spite 
of his deformity, and yet when she alluded to it so plainly, he winced under 
her pity. Maggie, young as she was, felt her mistake. Hitherto she had 
instinctively behaved as if she were quite unconscious of Philip's deformity: 
her own keen sensitiveness and experience under family criticism sufficed to 
teach her this, as well as if she had been directed by the most finished 
breeding. 


</p>
               <p>`But you are so very clever, Philip, and you can play and sing,' she added, 
quickly, `I wish you <hi>were</hi> my brother — I'm very fond of you, and you 
would stay at home with me when Tom went out, and you would teach me 
everything, wouldn't you? Greek and everything.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you'll go away soon, and go to school, Maggie,' said Philip, `and then 
you'll forget all about me and not care for me any more. And then I shall see 
you when you're grown up, and you'll hardly take any notice of me.' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, I shan't forget you, I'm sure,' said Maggie, shaking her head very 
seriously. `I never forget anything, and I think about everybody when I'm 
away from them. I think about poor Yap — he's got a lump in his throat, and 
Luke says he'll die. Only don't you tell Tom, because it will vex him so. You 
never saw Yap: he's a queer little dog — nobody cares about him but Tom and 
me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Do you care as much about me as you do about Yap, Maggie?' said Philip, 
smiling rather sadly. 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, I should think so,' said Maggie, laughing. 


</p>
               <p>`I'am very fond of <hi>you</hi>, Maggie; I shall never forget <hi>you</hi>,' 
said Philip, `and when I'm very unhappy, I shall always think of you, and 
wish I had a sister with dark eyes just like yours.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why do you like my eyes?' said Maggie, well pleased. She had never heard any 
one but her father speak of her eyes as if they had merit. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Philip. `They're not like any other eyes. They seem 
trying to speak — trying to speak kindly. I don't like other people to look 
at me much, but I like you to look at me, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, I think you're fonder of me than Tom is,' said Maggie, rather 
sorrowfully. Then, wondering how she could convince Philip that she could 
like him just as well, although he was crooked, she said, 


</p>
               <p>`Should you like me to kiss you, as I do Tom? I will, if you like.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, very much: nobody kisses me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie put her arm round his neck and kissed him quite earnestly. 


</p>
               <p>`There now,' she said, `I shall always remember you, and kiss you when I see 
you again, if it's ever so long. But I'll go now, because I think Mr Askern's 
done with Tom's foot.' 


</p>
               <p>When their father came the second time, Maggie said to him, `O father, Philip 
Wakem is so very good to Tom — he is such a clever boy, and I <hi>do</hi>
love him. And you love him too, Tom, don't you? <hi>Say</hi> you love him,' 
she added entreatingly. 


</p>
               <p>Tom coloured a little as he looked at his father and said, `I shan't be 
friends with him when I leave school, father; but we've made it up now, since 
my foot has been bad, and he's taught me to play at draughts, and I can beat 
him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Well,' said Mr Tulliver, `if he's good to you, try and make him amends 
and be good to <hi>him</hi>. He's a poor crooked creatur and takes after his 
dead mother. But don't you be getting too thick with him — he's got his 
father's blood in him too. Ay, ay, the grey colt may chance to kick like his 
black sire.' 


</p>
               <p>The jarring natures of the two boys effected what Mr Tulliver's admonition 
alone might have failed to effect: in spite of Philip's new kindness and 
Tom's answering regard in this time of his trouble they never became close 
friends. When Maggie was gone, and when Tom by and by began to walk about as 
usual, the friendly warmth that had been kindled by pity and gratitude died 
out by degrees, and left them in their old relation to each other. Philip was 
often peevish and contemptuous: and Tom's more specific and kindly 
impressions gradually melted into the old background of suspicion and dislike 
towards him as a queer fellow, a humpback, and the son of a rogue. If boys 
and men are to be welded together in the glow of transient feeling, they must 
be made of metal that will mix: else they inevitably fall asunder when the 
heat dies out. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c2.7" type="chapter">
               <head>The Golden Gates Are Passed</head>
               <p>SO Tom went on even to the fifth half year — till he was turned sixteen — at 
King's Lorton, while Maggie was growing, with a rapidity which her aunts 
considered highly reprehensible, at Miss Firniss's boarding school in the 
ancient town of Laceham on the Floss, with cousin Lucy for her companion. In 
her early letters to Tom she had always sent her love to Philip and asked 
many questions about him which were answered by brief sentences about Tom's 
toothache, and a turf-house which he was helping to build in the garden, with 
other items of that kind. She was pained to hear Tom say in the holidays that 
Philip was as queer as ever again, and often cross: they were no longer very 
good friends, she perceived, and when she reminded Tom that he ought always 
to love Philip for being so good to him when his foot was bad, he answered, 
`Well, it isn't my fault: <hi>I</hi> don't do anything to him.' She hardly 
ever saw Philip during the remainder of their school life: in the Midsummer 
holidays he was always away at the seaside, and at Christmas she could only 
meet him at long intervals in the streets of St Ogg's. When they did meet, 
she remembered her promise to kiss him, but, as a young lady who had been at 
a boarding-school, she knew now that such a greeting was out of the question, 
and Philip would not expect it. The promise was void like so many other 
sweet, illusory promises of our childhood: void as promises made in Eden 
before the seasons were divided, and when the starry blossoms grew side by 
side with the ripening peach — impossible to be fulfilled when the golden 
gates had been passed. 


</p>
               <p>But when their father was actually engaged in the long-threatened lawsuit, 
and Wakem, as the agent at once of Pivart and Old Harry, was acting against 
him, even Maggie felt, with some sadness, that they were not likely ever to 
have any intimacy with Philip again: the very name of Wakem made her father 
angry, and she had once heard him say that if that crookbacked son lived to 
inherit his father's ill-gotten gains, there would be a curse upon him. `Have 
as little to do with him at school as you can, my lad,' he said to Tom; and 
the command was obeyed the more easily because Mr Stelling by this time had 
two additional pupils; for though this gentleman's rise in the world was not 
of that meteor-like rapidity which the admirers of his extemporaneous 
eloquence had expected for a preacher whose voice demanded so wide a sphere, 
he had yet enough of growing prosperity to enable him to increase his 
expenditure in continued disproportion to his income. 


</p>
               <p>As for Tom's school course, it went on with mill-like monotony, his mind 
continuing to move with a slow, half-stifled pulse in a medium of 
uninteresting or unintelligible ideas. But each vacation he brought home 
larger and larger drawings with the satiny rendering of landscape and 
water-colours in vivid greens, together with manuscript books full of 
exercises and problems, in which the handwriting was all the finer because he 
gave his whole mind to it. Each vacation he brought home a new book or two, 
indicating his progress through different stages of history, Christian 
doctrine, and Latin literature; and that passage was not entirely without 
result besides the possession of the books. Tom's ear and tongue had become 
accustomed to a great many words and phrases which are understood to be signs 
of an educated condition, and though he had never really applied his mind to 
any one of his lessons, the lessons had left a deposit of vague, fragmentary 
ineffectual notions. Mr Tulliver, seeing signs of acquirement beyond the 
reach of his own criticism, thought it was probably all right with Tom's 
education: he observed, indeed, that there were no maps, and not enough 
`summing,' but he made no formal complaint to Mr Stelling. It was a puzzling 
business, this schooling; and if he took Tom away, where could he send him 
with better effect? 


</p>
               <p>By the time Tom had reached his last quarter at King's Lorton, the years had 
made striking changes in him since the day we saw him returning from Mr 
Jacobs' Academy. He was a tall youth now, carrying himself without the least 
awkwardness, and speaking without more shyness than was a becoming symptom of 
blended diffidence and pride: he wore his tailed coat and his stand-up 
collars, and watched the down on his lip with eager impatience looking every 
day at his virgin razor, with which he had provided himself in the last 
holidays. Philip had already left — at the Autumn quarter — that he might go 
to the South for the winter, for the sake of his health; and this change 
helped to give Tom the unsettled, exulting feeling that usually belongs to 
the last months before leaving school. This quarter too, there was some hope 
of his father's lawsuit being decided: <hi>that</hi> made the prospect of 
home more entirely pleasurable. For Tom, who had gathered his view of the 
case from his father's conversation, had no doubt that Pivart would be 
beaten. 


</p>
               <p>Tom had not heard anything from home for some weeks — a fact which did not 
surprise him, for his father and mother were not apt to manifest their 
affection in unnecessary letters — when to his great surprise on the morning 
of a dark cold day near the end of November, he was told, soon after entering 
the study at nine o'clock, that his sister was in the drawing-room. It was 
Mrs Stelling who had come into the study to tell him, and she left him to 
enter the drawing-room alone. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie too was tall now, with braided and coiled hair: she was almost as tall 
as Tom, though she was only thirteen; and she really looked older than he did 
at that moment. She had thrown off her bonnet, her heavy braids were pushed 
back from her forehead as if it would not bear that extra load, and her young 
face had a strangely worn look as her eyes turned anxiously towards the door. 
When Tom entered, she did not speak, but only went up to him, put her arms 
round his neck and kissed him earnestly. He was used to various moods of 
hers, and felt no alarm at the unusual seriousness of her greeting. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, how is it you're come so early this cold morning, Maggie? Did you come 
in the gig?' said Tom, as she backed towards the sofa and drew him to her 
side. 


</p>
               <p>`No, I came by the coach — I've walked from the turnpike.' 


</p>
               <p>`But how is it you're not at school? The holidays have not begun yet?' 


</p>
               <p>`Father wanted me at home,' said Maggie, with a slight trembling of the lip. 
`I came home three or four days ago.' 


</p>
               <p>`Isn't my father well?' said Tom, rather anxiously. 


</p>
               <p>`Not quite,' said Maggie. `He's very unhappy, Tom. The lawsuit is ended, and 
I came to tell you, because I thought it would be better for you to know it 
before you came home, and I didn't like only to send you a letter.' 


</p>
               <p>`My father hasn't lost?' said Tom, hastily, springing from the sofa, and 
standing before Maggie with his hands suddenly thrust in his pockets. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, dear Tom,' said Maggie, looking up at him with trembling. 


</p>
               <p>Tom was silent a minute or two, with his eyes fixed on the floor. Then he 
said— 


</p>
               <p>`My father will have to pay a good deal of money, then?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie, rather faintly. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, it can't be helped,' said Tom, bravely, not translating the loss of a 
large sum of money into any tangible results. `But my father's very much 
vexed, I dare say?' he added, looking at Maggie, and thinking that her 
agitated face was only part of her girlish way of taking things. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie, again faintly. Then, urged to fuller speech by Tom's 
freedom from apprehension, she said loudly and rapidly, as if the words 
<hi>would</hi> burst from her, `O Tom, he will lose the mill and the land, 
and everything. He will have nothing left.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom's eyes flashed out one look of surprise at her before he turned pale and 
trembled visibly. He said nothing, but sat down on the sofa again, looking 
vaguely out of the opposite window. 


</p>
               <p>Anxiety about the future had never entered Tom's mind. His father had always 
ridden a good horse, kept a good house, and had the cheerful, confident air 
of a man who has plenty of property to fall back upon. Tom had never dreamed 
that his father would `fail:' <hi>that</hi> was a form of misfortune which he 
had always heard spoken of as a deep disgrace, and disgrace was an idea that 
he could not associate with any of his relations, least of all with his 
father. A proud sense of family respectability was part of the very air Tom 
had been born and brought up in. He knew there were people in St Ogg's who 
made a show without money to support it, and he had always heard such people 
spoken of by his own friends with contempt and reprobation: he had a strong 
belief, which was a life-long habit, and required no definite evidence to 
rest on, that his father could spend a great deal of money if he chose; and 
since his education at Mr Stelling's had given him a more expensive view of 
life, he had often thought that when he got older he would make a figure in 
the world, with his horse and dogs and saddle, and other accoutrements of a 
fine young man, and show himself equal to any of his contemporaries at St 
Ogg's, who might consider themselves a grade above him in society, because 
their fathers were professional men or had large oil-mills. As to the 
prognostics and head-shaking of his aunts and uncles, they had never produced 
the least effect on him except to make him think that aunts and uncles were 
disagreeable society: he had heard them find fault in much the same way as 
along as he could remember. His father knew better than they did. 


</p>
               <p>The down had come on Tom's lip, yet his thoughts and expectations had been 
hitherto only the reproduction in changed forms of the boyish dreams in which 
he had lived three years ago. He was awakened now with a violent shock. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was frightened at Tom's pale, trembling silence. There was something 
else to tell him — something worse. She threw her arms round him at last, and 
said, with a half sob, 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom — dear, dear Tom, don't fret too much — try and bear it well.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom turned his cheek passively to meet her entreating kisses, and there 
gathered a moisture in his eyes, which he just rubbed away with his hand. The 
action seemed to rouse him, for he shook himself and said, `I shall go home 
with you Maggie? Didn't my father say I was to go?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Tom, father didn't wish it,' said Maggie, her anxiety about <hi>his</hi>
feeling helping her to master her agitation: — What <hi>would</hi> he do when 
she told him all? `But mother wants you to come — poor mother — she cries so. 
O Tom, it's very dreadful at home.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's lips grew whiter, and she began to tremble almost as Tom had done. 
The two poor things clung closer to each other — both trembling — the one at 
an unshapen fear, the other at the image of a terrible certainty. When Maggie 
spoke, it was hardly above a whisper. 


</p>
               <p>`And ...  and ...  poor father ... ' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie could not utter it. But the suspense was intolerable to Tom. A vague 
idea of going to prison as a consequence of debt, was the shape his fears had 
begun to take. 


</p>
               <p>`Where's my father?' he said, impatiently. `<hi>Tell</hi> me, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`He's at home,' said Maggie, finding it easier to reply to that question. 
`But,' she added, after a pause, `not himself... . He fell off his horse... . 
He has known nobody but me ever since... . He seems to have lost his 
senses... . O, father, father... .' 


</p>
               <p>With these last words Maggie's sobs burst forth with the more violence for 
the previous struggle against them. Tom felt that pressure of the heart which 
forbids tears: he had no distinct vision of their troubles as Maggie had, who 
had been at home: he only felt the crushing weight of what seemed unmitigated 
misfortune. He tightened his arm almost convulsively round Maggie as she 
sobbed, but his face looked rigid and tearless — his eyes blank — as if a 
black curtain of cloud had suddenly fallen on his path. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie soon checked herself abruptly: a single thought had acted on her 
like a startling sound. 


</p>
               <p>`We must set out, Tom — we must not stay — father will miss me — we must be 
at the turnpike at ten to meet the coach.' She said this with hasty decision, 
rubbing her eyes, and rising to seize her bonnet. 


</p>
               <p>Tom at once felt the same impulse, and rose too. `Wait a minute, Maggie,' he 
said. `I must speak to Mr Stelling, and then we'll go.' 


</p>
               <p>He thought he must go to the study where the pupils were, but on his way he 
met Mr Stelling, who had heard from his wife that Maggie appeared to be in 
trouble when she asked for her brother, and, now that he thought the brother 
and sister had been alone long enough, was coming to inquire and offer his 
sympathy. 


</p>
               <p>`Please, sir, I must go home,' Tom said abruptly, as he met Mr Stelling in 
the passage. `I must go back with my sister directly. My father's lost his 
law-suit — he's lost all his property — and he's very ill.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Stelling felt like a kind-hearted man: he foresaw a probable money loss 
for himself, but this had no appreciable share in his feeling while he looked 
with grave pity at the brother and sister for whom youth and sorrow had begun 
together. When he knew how Maggie had come and how eager she was to get home 
again, he hurried their departure, only whispering something to Mrs Stelling, 
who had followed him, and who immediately left the room. 


</p>
               <p>Tom and Maggie were standing on the door-step, ready to set out, when Mrs 
Stelling came with a little basket, which she hung on Maggie's arm, saying, 
`Do remember to eat something on the way, dear.' Maggie's heart went out 
towards this woman whom she had never liked, and she kissed her silently. It 
was the first sign within the poor child of that new sense which is the gift 
of sorrow — that susceptibility to the bare offices of humanity which raises 
them into a bond of loving fellowship, as to haggard men among the icebergs 
the mere presence of an ordinary comrade stirs the deep fountains of 
affection. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Stelling put his hand on Tom's shoulder and said, `God bless you, my boy: 
let me know how you get on.' Then he pressed Maggie's hand; but there were no 
audible good-bys. Tom had so often thought how joyful he should be the day he 
left school `for good!' And now his school years seemed like a holiday that 
had come to an end. 


</p>
               <p>The two slight youthful figures soon grew indistinct on the distant road — 
were soon lost behind the projecting hedgerow. 


</p>
               <p>They had gone forth together into their new life of sorrow, and they would 
never more see the sunshine undimmed by remembered cares. They had entered 
the thorny wilderness, and the golden gates of their childhood had for ever 
closed behind them. 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b3" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c3.1" type="chapter">
               <head>What Had Happened at Home</head>
               <p>WHEN Mr Tulliver first knew the fact that the lawsuit was decided against him 
and that Pivart and Wakem were triumphant, every one who happened to observe 
him at the time thought that for so confident and hot-tempered a man he bore 
the blow remarkably well. He thought so himself: he thought he was going to 
show that if Wakem or anybody else considered him crushed, they would find 
themselves mistaken. He could not refuse to see that the costs of this 
protracted suit would take more than he possessed to pay them, but he 
appeared to himself to be full of expedients by which he could ward off any 
results but such as were tolerable, and could avoid the appearance of 
breaking down in the world. All the obstinacy and defiance of his nature, 
driven out of their old channel, found a vent for themselves in the immediate 
formation of plans by which he would meet his difficulties and remain Mr 
Tulliver of Dorlcote Mill in spite of them. There was such a rush of projects 
in his brain, that it was no wonder his face was flushed when he came away 
from his talk with his attorney, Mr Gore, and mounted his horse to ride home 
from Lindum. There was Furley, who held the mortgage on the land — a 
reasonable fellow who would see his own interest, Mr Tulliver was convinced, 
and who would be glad not only to purchase the whole estate including the 
mill and homestead, but would accept Mr Tulliver as tenant, and be willing to 
advance money to be repaid with high interest out of the profits of the 
business which would be made over to him, Mr Tulliver only taking enough 
barely to maintain himself and his family. Who would neglect such a 
profitable investment? Certainly not Furley, for Mr Tulliver had determined 
that Furley should meet his plans with the utmost alacrity; and there are men 
whose brains have not yet been dangerously heated by the loss of a lawsuit 
who are apt to see in their own interest or desires a motive for other men's 
actions. There was no doubt (in the miller's mind) that Furley would do just 
what was desirable; and if he did — why, things would not be so very much 
worse. Mr Tulliver and his family must live more meagrely and humbly, but it 
would only be till the profits of the business had paid off Furley's 
advances, and that might be while Mr Tulliver had still a good many years of 
life before him. It was clear that the costs of the suit could be paid 
without his being obliged to turn out of his old place and look like a ruined 
man. It was certainly an awkward moment in his affairs. There was that 
suretyship for poor Riley, who had died suddenly last April, and left his 
friend saddled with a debt of two hundred and fifty pounds: a fact which had 
helped to make Mr Tulliver's banking book less pleasant reading than a man 
might desire towards Christmas. Well! he had never been one of those 
poor-spirited sneaks who would refuse to give a helping hand to a 
fellow-traveller in this puzzling world. The really vexatious business was 
the fact that some months ago the creditor who had lent him the five hundred 
pounds to repay Mrs Glegg, had become uneasy about his money (set on by 
Wakem, of course), and Mr Tulliver, still confident that he should gain his 
suit, and finding it eminently inconvenient to raise the said sum until that 
desirable issue had taken place, had rashly acceded to the demand that he 
should give a bill of sale on his house-hold furniture and some other effects 
as security in lieu of the bond. It was all one, he had said to himself: he 
should soon pay off the money, and there was no harm in giving that security 
any more than another. But now the consequences of this bill of sale occurred 
to him in a new light, and he remembered that the term was close at hand when 
it would be enforced unless the money were repaid. Two months ago he would 
have declared stoutly that he would never be beholding to his wife's friends; 
but now he told himself as stoutly, that it was nothing but right and natural 
that Bessy should go to the Pullets and explain the thing to them: they would 
hardly let Bessy's furniture be sold, and it might be security to Pullet, if 
he advanced the money: there would, after all, be no gift or favour in the 
matter. Mr Tulliver would never have asked for anything from so poor-spirited 
a fellow for himself, but Bessy might do so if she liked. 


</p>
               <p>It is precisely the proudest and most obstinate men who are the most liable 
to shift their position and contradict themselves in this sudden manner: 
everything is easier to them than to face the simple fact, that they have 
been thoroughly defeated and must begin life anew. And Mr Tulliver, you 
perceive, though nothing more than a superior miller and maltster, was as 
proud and obstinate as if he had been a very lofty personage, in whom such 
dispositions might be a source of that conspicuous, far-echoing tragedy which 
sweeps the stage in regal robes, and makes the dullest chronicler sublime. 
The pride and obstinacy of millers and other insignificant people, whom you 
pass unnoticingly on the road every day, have their tragedy too, but it is of 
that unwept, hidden sort, that goes on from generation to generation and 
leaves no record — such tragedy, perhaps, as lies in the conflicts of young 
souls, hungry for joy, under a lot made suddenly hard to them, under the 
dreariness of a home where the morning brings no promise with it, and where 
the unexpectant discontent of worn and disappointed parents weighs on the 
children like a damp, thick air in which all the functions of life are 
depressed; or such tragedy as lies in the slow or sudden death that follows 
on a bruised passion, though it may be a death that finds only a parish 
funeral. There are certain animals to which tenacity of position is a law of 
life — they can never flourish again after a single wrench: and there are 
certain human beings to whom predominance is a law of life and who can only 
sustain humiliation so long as they can refuse to believe in it, and, in 
their own conception, predominate still. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver was still predominating in his own imagination as he approached 
St Ogg's, through which he had to pass on his way homeward. But what was it 
that suggested to him as he saw the Laceham coach entering the town, to 
follow it to the coach office, and get the clerk there to write a letter 
requiring Maggie to come home the very next day? Mr Tulliver's own hand shook 
too much under his excitement for him to write himself, and he wanted the 
letter to be given to the coachman to deliver at Miss Firniss's school in the 
morning. There was a craving which he would not account for to himself, to 
have Maggie near him — without delay — she must come back by the coach 
to-morrow. 


</p>
               <p>To Mrs Tulliver when he got home, he would admit no difficulties, and scolded 
down her burst of grief on hearing that the lawsuit was lost, by angry 
assertions that there was nothing to grieve about. He said nothing to her 
that night about the bill of sale, and the application to Mrs Pullet, for he 
had kept her in ignorance of the nature of that transaction and had explained 
the necessity for taking an inventory of the goods as a matter connected with 
his Will. The possession of a wife conspicuously one's inferior in intellect, 
is, like other high privileges, attended with a few inconveniences, and among 
the rest with the occasional necessity for using a little deception. 


</p>
               <p>The next day Mr Tulliver was again on horseback in the afternoon, on his way 
to Mr Gore's office at St Ogg's. Gore was to have seen Furley in the morning, 
and to have sounded him in relation to Mr Tulliver's affairs. But he had not 
gone halfway when he met a clerk from Mr Gore's office, who was bringing a 
letter to Mr Tulliver. Mr Gore had been prevented by a sudden call of 
business from waiting at his office to see Mr Tulliver according to 
appointment, but would be at his office at eleven to-morrow morning, and 
meanwhile had sent some important information by letter. 


</p>
               <p>`O!' said Mr Tulliver, taking the letter, but not opening it. `Then tell Gore 
I'll see him tomorrow at eleven.' And he turned his horse. 


</p>
               <p>The clerk, struck with Mr Tulliver's glistening excited glance, looked after 
him for a few moments, and then rode away. The reading of a letter was not 
the affair of an instant to Mr Tulliver: he took in the sense of a statement 
very slowly through the medium of written or even printed characters; so he 
had put the letter in his pocket, thinking he would open it in his armchair 
at home. But by and by it occurred to him that there might be something in 
the letter Mrs Tulliver must not know about, and if so, it would be better to 
keep it out of her sight altogether. He stopped his horse, took out the 
letter and read it. It was only a short letter: the substance was, that Mr 
Gore had ascertained on secret but sure authority that Furley had been lately 
much straitened for money, and had parted with his securities, among the 
rest, the mortgage on Mr Tulliver's property, which he had transferred to — 
Wakem. 


</p>
               <p>In half an hour after this, Mr Tulliver's own waggoner found him lying by the 
roadside insensible, with an open letter neat him, and his grey horse 
snuffing uneasily about him. 


</p>
               <p>When Maggie reached home that evening in obedience to her father's call, he 
was no longer insensible. About an hour before, he had become conscious, and 
after vague, vacant looks around him, had muttered something about `a 
letter,' which he presently repeated impatiently. At the instance of Mr 
Turnbull, the medical man, Gore's letter was brought and laid on the bed, and 
the previous impatience seemed to be allayed. The stricken man lay for some 
time with his eyes fixed on the letter, as if he were trying to knit up his 
thoughts by its help. But presently a new wave of memory seemed to have come 
and swept the other away: he turned his eyes from the letter to the door and 
after looking uneasily, as if striving to see something his eyes were too dim 
for, he said, `The little wench.' 


</p>
               <p>He repeated the words impatiently from time to time, appearing entirely 
unconscious of everything except this one importunate want, and giving no 
sign of knowing his wife or any one else, and poor Mrs Tulliver, her feeble 
faculties almost paralysed by this sudden accumulation of troubles, went 
backwards and forwards to the gate to see if the Laceham coach were coming, 
though it was not yet time. 


</p>
               <p>But it came at last and set down the poor anxious girl, no longer the `little 
wench' except to her father's fond memory. 


</p>
               <p>`O mother, what is the matter?' Maggie said, with pale lips, as her mother 
came towards her crying. She didn't think her father was ill, because the 
letter had come at his dictation from the office at St Ogg's. 


</p>
               <p>But Mr Turnbull came now to meet her: a medical man is the good angel of the 
troubled house, and Maggie ran towards the kind old friend whom she 
remembered as long as she could remember anything, with a trembling, 
questioning look. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't alarm yourself too much, my dear,' he said, taking her hand. `Your 
father has had a sudden attack, and has not quite recovered his memory. But 
he has been asking for you, and it will do him good to see you. Keep as quiet 
as you can: take off your things and come upstairs with me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie obeyed, with that terrible beating of the heart which makes existence 
seem simply a painful pulsation. The very quietness with which Mr Turnbull 
spoke, had frightened her susceptible imagination. Her father's eyes were 
still turned uneasily towards the door when she entered and met the strange, 
yearning, helpless look that had been seeking her in vain. With a sudden 
flash and movement, he raised himself in the bed — she rushed towards him, 
and clasped him with agonised kisses. 


</p>
               <p>Poor child! it was very early for her to know one of those supreme moments in 
life when all we have hoped or delighted in, all we can dread or endure, 
falls away from our regard as insignificant, — is lost, like a trivial 
memory, in that simple, primitive love which knits us to the beings who have 
been nearest to us, in their times of helplessness or of anguish. 


</p>
               <p>But that flash of recognition had been too great a strain on the father's 
bruised, enfeebled powers. He sank back again in renewed insensibility and 
rigidity which lasted for many hours, and was only broken by flickering 
returns of consciousness, in which he took passively everything that was 
given to him and seemed to have a sort of infantine satisfaction in Maggie's 
near presence — such satisfaction as a baby has when it is returned to the 
nurse's lap. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver sent for her sisters, and there was much wailing and lifting up 
of hands below stairs: both uncles and aunts saw that the ruin of Bessy and 
her family was as complete as they had ever foreboded it, and there was a 
general family sense that a judgment had fallen on Mr Tulliver, which it 
would be an impiety to counteract by too much kindness. But Maggie heard 
little of this, scarcely ever leaving her father's bedside, where she sat 
opposite him with her hand on his. Mrs Tulliver wanted to have Tom fetched 
home, and seemed to be thinking more of her boy even than of her husband; but 
the aunts and uncles opposed this — Tom was better at school, since Mr 
Turnbull said there was no immediate danger, he believed. But at the end of 
the second day, when Maggie had become more accustomed to her father's fits 
of insensibility, and to the expectation that he would revive from them, the 
thought of Tom had become urgent with <hi>her</hi> too, and when her mother 
sate crying at night and saying, `My poor lad... it's nothing but right he 
should come home,' Maggie said, `Let me go for him, and tell him, mother: 
I'll go tomorrow morning if father doesn't know me and want me. It would be 
so hard for Tom to come home and not know anything about it beforehand.' 


</p>
               <p>And the next morning Maggie went, as we have seen. Sitting on the coach on 
their way home, the brother and sister talked to each other in sad, 
interrupted whispers. 


</p>
               <p>`They say Mr Wakem has got a mortgage or something on the land, Tom,' said 
Maggie. `It was the letter with that news in it that made father ill, they 
think.' 


</p>
               <p>`I believe that scoundrel's been planning all along to ruin my father,' said 
Tom, leaping from the vaguest impressions to a definite conclusion. `I'll 
make him feel for it when I'm a man. Mind you never speak to Philip again.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom!' said Maggie, in a tone of sad remonstrance; but she had no spirit to 
dispute anything then, still less to vex Tom by opposing him. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.2" type="chapter">
               <head>Mrs Tulliver's Teraphim, or Household Gods</head>
               <p>WHEN the coach set down Tom and Maggie, it was five hours since she had 
started from home, and she was thinking with some trembling that her father 
had perhaps missed her and asked for `the little wench' in vain. She thought 
of no other change that might have happened. 


</p>
               <p>She hurried along the gravel walk and entered the house before Tom, but in 
the entrance she was startled by a strong smell of tobacco. The parlour door 
was ajar — that was where the smell came from. It was very strange: could any 
visitor be smoking at a time like this? Was her mother there? If so, she must 
be told that Tom was come. Maggie, after this pause of surprise was only in 
the act of opening the door when Tom came up and they both looked in the 
parlour together. There was a coarse, dingy man, of whose face Tom had some 
vague recollection, sitting in his father's chair, smoking, with a jug and 
glass beside him. 


</p>
               <p>The truth flashed on Tom's mind in an instant. To `have the bailiff in the 
house,' and `to be sold up,' were phrases which he had been used to, even as 
a little boy: they were part of the disgrace and misery of `failing,' of 
losing all one's money and being ruined — sinking into the condition of poor 
working people. It seemed only natural this should happen since his father 
had lost all his property, and he thought of no more special cause for this 
particular form of misfortune than the loss of the lawsuit. But the immediate 
presence of this disgrace was so much keener an experience to Tom than the 
worst form of apprehension, that he felt at this moment as if his real 
trouble had only just begun: it was a touch on the irritated nerve compared 
with its spontaneous dull aching. 


</p>
               <p>`How do you do, sir?' said the man, taking the pipe out of his mouth with 
rough, embarrassed civility. The two young startled faces made him a little 
uncomfortable. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom turned away hastily without speaking: the sight was too hateful. 
Maggie had not understood the appearance of this stranger, as Tom had: she 
followed him, whispering `Who can it be, Tom? What is the matter?' Then with 
a sudden undefined dread lest this stranger might have something to do with a 
change in her father, she rushed upstairs, checking herself at the bedroom 
door to throw off her bonnet, and enter on tiptoe. All was silent there: her 
father was lying, heedless of everything around him, with his eyes closed as 
when she had left him. A servant was there, but not her mother. 


</p>
               <p>`Where's my mother?' she whispered. The servant did not know. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie hastened out, and said to Tom, `Father is lying quiet: let us go and 
look for my mother; I wonder where she is.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was not downstairs — not in any of the bedrooms. There was but 
one room below the attic which Maggie had left unsearched: it was the 
store-room where her mother kept all her linen and all the precious `best 
things' that were only unwrapped and brought out on special occasions. Tom, 
preceding Maggie as they returned along the passage, opened the door of this 
room and immediately said, `Mother!' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was seated there with all her laid-up treasures. One of the 
linen-chests was open: the silver tea-pot was unwrapped from its many folds 
of paper, and the best china was laid out on the top of the closed 
linen-chest; spoons and skewers and ladles were spread in rows on the 
shelves; and the poor woman was shaking her head and weeping with a bitter 
tension of the mouth, over the mark `Elizabeth Dodson' on the corner of some 
table cloths she held in her lap. 


</p>
               <p>She dropped them and started up as Tom spoke. 


</p>
               <p>`O my boy, my boy,' she said, clasping him round the neck. `To think as I 
should live to see this day! We're ruined... everything's going to be sold 
up... to think as your father should ha' married me to bring me to this! 
We've got nothing... we shall be beggars... we must go to the workhouse... ' 


</p>
               <p>She kissed him, then seated herself again, and took another table cloth on 
her lap, unfolding it a little way to look at the pattern, while the children 
stood by in mute wretchedness — their minds quite filled for the moment with 
the words `beggars' and `workhouse.' 


</p>
               <p>`To think o' these cloths as I spun myself,' she went on, lifting things out 
and turning them over with an excitement all the more strange and piteous 
because the stout lymphatic woman was usually so passive: — if she had been 
ruffled before, it was at the surface merely — `and Job Haxey wove 'em, and 
brought the piece home on his back, as I remember standing at the door and 
seeing him come, before I ever thought o' marrying your father! And the 
pattern as I chose myself — and bleached so beautiful — and I marked 'em so 
as nobody ever saw such marking — they must cut the cloth to get it out, for 
it's a particular stitch. And they're all to be sold — and go into strange 
people's houses, and perhaps be cut with the knives, and wore out before I'm 
dead. You'll never have one of 'em, my boy,' she said, looking up at Tom with 
her eyes full of tears, `and I meant 'em for you. I wanted you to have all o' 
this pattern. Maggie could ha' had the large check — it never shows so well 
when the dishes are on it.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was touched to the quick, but there was an angry reaction immediately. 
His face flushed as he said. 


</p>
               <p>`But will my aunts let them be sold, mother? Do they know about it? They'll 
never let your linen go, will they? Haven't you sent to them?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I sent Luke directly they'd put the bailies in, and your aunt Pullet's 
been — and O dear, O dear, she cries so, and says your father's disgraced my 
family and made it the talk o' the country: and she'll buy the spotted cloths 
for herself because she's never has so many as she wanted o'that pattern, and 
they shan't go to strangers, but she's got more checks a'ready nor she can do 
with.' (Here Mrs Tulliver began to lay back the table cloths in the chest, 
folding and stroking them automatically.) `And your uncle Glegg's been too, 
and he says things must be bought in for us to lie down on, but he must talk 
to your aunt; and they're all coming to consult... . But I know they'll none 
of 'em take my chany' she added, turning towards the cups and saucers — `for 
they all found fault with 'em when I bought 'em, 'cause o' the small gold 
sprig all over 'em, between the flowers. But there's none of 'em got better 
chany, not even your aunt Pullet herself, — and I bought it wi' my own money 
as I'd saved ever since I was turned fifteen, and the silver tea-pot, too — 
your father never paid for 'em. And to think as he should ha' married me and 
brought me to this.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver burst out crying afresh, and she sobbed with her handkerchief at 
her eyes a few moments, but then removing it, she said in a deprecating way, 
still half sobbing as if she were called upon to speak before she could 
command her voice, 


</p>
               <p>`And I <hi>did</hi> say to him times and times, `Whativer you do, don't go to 
law' — and what more could I do? I've had to sit by while my own fortin's 
been spent, and what should ha' been my children's too. You'll have niver a 
penny, my boy... but it isn't your poor mother's fault. 


</p>
               <p>She put out one arm towards Tom, looking up at him piteously with her 
helpless, childish blue eyes. The poor lad went to her and kissed her and she 
clung to him. For the first time Tom thought of his father with some 
reproach. His natural inclination to blame, — hitherto kept entirely in 
abeyance towards his father by the predisposition to think him always right, 
simply on the ground that he was Tom Tulliver's father — was turned into this 
new channel by his mother's plaints, and with his indignation against Wakem 
there began to mingle some indignation of another sort. Perhaps his father 
might have helped bringing them all down in the world, and making people talk 
of them with contempt: but no one should talk long of Tom Tulliver with 
contempt. The natural strength and firmness of his nature was beginning to 
assert itself, urged by the double stimulus of resentment against his aunts, 
and the sense that he must behave like a man and take care of his mother. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't fret, mother,' he said, tenderly. `I shall soon be able to get money: 
I'll get a situation of some sort.' 


</p>
               <p>`Bless you, my boy!' said Mrs Tulliver, a little soothed. Then, looking round 
sadly, `But I shouldn't ha' minded so much if we could ha' kept the things 
wi' my name on 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had witnessed this scene with gathering anger. The implied reproaches 
against her father — her father who was lying there in a sort of living 
death, neutralised all her pity for griefs about table cloths and china, and 
her anger on her father's account was heightened by some egoistic resentment 
at Tom's silent concurrence with her mother in shutting her out from the 
common calamity. She had become almost indifferent to her mother's habitual 
depreciation of her, but she was keenly alive to any sanction of it, however 
passive, that she might suspect in Tom. Poor Maggie was by no means made up 
of unalloyed devotedness, but put forth large claims for herself where she 
loved strongly. She burst out, at last, in an agitated, almost violent tone, 
`Mother, how can you talk so? As if you cared only for things with 
<hi>your</hi> name on, and not for what has my father's name too. And to care 
about anything but dear father himself! — when he's lying there and may never 
speak to us again. Tom, you ought to say so too — you ought not to let any 
one find fault with my father.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, almost chocked with mingled grief and anger, left the room, and took 
her old place on her father's bed. Her heart went out to him with a stronger 
movement than ever at the thought that people would blame him. Maggie hated 
blame: she had been blamed all her life, and nothing had come of it but evil 
tempers. Her father had always defended and excused her, and her loving 
remembrance of his tenderness was a force within her that would enable her to 
do or bear anything for his sake. 


</p>
               <p>Tom was a little shocked at Maggie's outburst — telling <hi>him</hi> as well 
as his mother what it was right to do! She ought to have learned better than 
have those hectoring, assuming manners by this time. But he presently went 
into his father's room and the sight there touched him in a way that effaced 
the slighter impressions of the previous hour. When Maggie saw how he was 
moved, she went to him and put her arm round his neck as he sat by the bed, 
and the two children forgot everything else in the sense that they had one 
father and one sorrow. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.3" type="chapter">
               <head>The Family Council</head>
               <p>IT was at eleven o'clock the next morning that the aunts and uncles came to 
hold their consultation. The fire was lighted in the large parlour, and poor 
Mrs Tulliver, with a confused impression that it was a great occasion, like a 
funeral, unbagged the bell-rope tassels and unpinned the curtains, adjusting 
them in proper folds — looking round and shaking her head sadly at the 
polished tops and legs of the tables, which sister Pullet herself could not 
accuse of insufficient brightness. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane was not coming — he was away on business; but Mrs Deane appeared 
punctually in that handsome new gig with the head to it and the livery 
servant driving it, which had thrown so clear a light on several traits in 
her character to some of her female friends in St Ogg's. Mr Deane had been 
advancing in the world as rapidly as Mr Tulliver had been going down in it, 
and in Mrs Deane's house, the Dodson linen and plate were beginning to hold 
quite a subordinate position as a mere supplement to the handsomer articles 
of the same kind, purchased in recent years: a change which had caused an 
occasional coolness in the sisterly intercourse between her and Mrs Glegg, 
who felt that Susan was getting `like the rest,' and there would soon be 
little of the true Dodson spirit surviving except in herself, and it might be 
hoped, in those nephews who supported the Dodson name on the family land far 
away in the Wolds. People who live at a distance are naturally less faulty 
than those immediately under our own eyes; and it seems superfluous, when we 
consider the remote geographical position of the Ethiopians and how very 
little the Greeks had to do with them, to inquire further why Homer calls 
them `blameless.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Deane was the first to arrive, and when she had taken her seat in the 
large parlour, Mrs Tulliver came down to her with her comely face a little 
distorted nearly as it would have been if she had been crying: she was not a 
woman who could shed abundant tears, except in moments when the prospect of 
losing her furniture became unusually vivid, but she felt how unfitting it 
was to be quite calm under present circumstances. 


</p>
               <p>`O sister, what a world this is!' she exclaimed as she entered. `What 
trouble, O dear!' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Deane was a thin-lipped woman who made small well-considered speeches on 
peculiar occasions, repeating them afterwards to her husband and asking him 
if she had not spoken very properly. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, sister,' she said deliberately, `this is a changing world, and we don't 
know to-day what may happen tomorrow. But it's right to be prepared for all 
things, and if trouble's sent, to remember as it isn't sent without a cause. 
I'm very sorry for you as a sister, and if the doctor orders jelly for Mr 
Tulliver, I hope you'll let me know: I'll send it willingly. For it is but 
right he should have proper attendance while he's ill.' 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you, Susan,' said Mrs Tulliver, rather faintly, withdrawing her fat 
hand from her sister's thin one. `But there's been no talk o' jelly yet.' 
Then after a moment's pause, she added, `There's a dozen o' cut jelly-glasses 
upstairs... . I shall niver put jelly into 'em no more.' 


</p>
               <p>Her voice was rather agitated as she uttered the last words, but the sound of 
wheels diverted her thoughts. Mr and Mrs Glegg were come and were almost 
immediately followed by Mr and Mrs Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Pullet entered crying, as a compendious mode, at all times, of expressing 
what were her views of life in general, and what, in brief, were the opinions 
she held concerning the particular case before her. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg had on her fuzziest front, and garments which appeared to have had 
a recent resurrection from rather a creasy form of burial: a costume selected 
with the high moral purpose of instilling perfect humility into Bessy and her 
children. 


</p>
               <p>`Mrs G., won't you come nearer the fire?' said her husband, unwilling to take 
the more comfortable seat without offering it to her. 


</p>
               <p>`You see I've seated myself here, Mr Glegg,' returned this superior woman, 
`<hi>you</hi> can roast yourself, if you like.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Glegg, seating himself good-humouredly, `and how's the poor 
man upstairs?' 


</p>
               <p>`Dr Turnbull thought him a deal better this morning,' said Mrs Tulliver; `he 
took more notice, and spoke to me — but he's never known Tom yet — looks at 
the poor lad as if he was a stranger, though he said something once about Tom 
and the pony. The doctor says his memory's gone a long way back, and he 
doesn't know Tom because he's thinking of him when he was little. Eh dear, eh 
dear!' 


</p>
               <p>`I doubt it's the water got on his brain,' said aunt Pullet, turning round 
from adjusting her cap in a melancholy way at the pier-glass. `It's much if 
he ever gets up again, and if he does he'll most like be childish, as Mr Carr 
was, poor man! They fed him with a spoon as if he'd been a babby for three 
year. He'd quite lost the use of his limbs; but then, he'd got a Bath chair, 
and somebody to draw him; and that's what you won't have, I doubt, Bessy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sister Pullet,' said Mrs Glegg, severely, `if I understand right, we've come 
together this morning, t' advise and consult about what's to be done in this 
disgrace as has fallen upon the family, and not to talk o' people as don't 
belong to us. Mr Carr was none of our blood, nor noways connected with us, as 
I've ever heared.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sister Glegg,' said Mrs Pullet in a pleading tone, drawing on her gloves 
again, and stroking the fingers in an agitated manner, `if you've got 
anything disrespectful to say o'Mr Carr, I do beg of you, as you won't say it 
to me. <hi>I</hi> know what he was,' she added, with a sigh. `His breath was 
short to that degree as you could hear him two rooms off.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sophy!' said Mrs Glegg, with indignant disgust, `you <hi>do</hi> talk o' 
people's complaints till it's quite undecent. But I say again, as I said 
before, I didn't come away from home to talk about acquaintance, whether 
they'd short breath or long. If we aren't come together for one to hear what 
the other 'ull do to save a sister and her children from the parish, 
<hi>I</hi> shall go back. <hi>One</hi> can't act without the other, I 
suppose; it isn't to be expected as <hi>I</hi> should do everything.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Jane,' said Mrs Pullet, `I don't see as you've been so very forrard at 
doing. So far as I know, this is the first time as here you've been, since 
it's been known as the bailiff's in the house, and I was here yesterday and 
looked at all Bessy's linen and things, and I told her I'd buy in the spotted 
table cloths — I couldn't speak fairer; for as for the tea-pot as she doesn't 
want to go out o' the family, it stands to sense I can't do with two silver 
tea-pots, not if it <hi>hadn't</hi> a straight spout — but the spotted damask 
I was allays fond on.' 


</p>
               <p>`I wish it could be managed so as my tea-pot and chany and the best castors 
needn't be put up for sale,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, beseechingly, `and the 
sugar tongs, the first things ever I bought.' 


</p>
               <p>`But that can't be helped, you know,' said Mr Glegg. `If one o' the family 
chooses to buy 'em in, they can, but one thing must be bid for as well as 
another.' 


</p>
               <p>`And it isn't to be looked for,' said uncle Pullet, with unwonted 
independence of idea, `as your own family should pay more for things nor 
they'll fetch. They may go for an old song by auction.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, O dear,' said Mrs Tulliver, `to think o' my chany being sold i' that 
way — and I bought it when I was married just as you did yours, Jane and 
Sophy: and I know you didn't like mine, because o' the sprig, but I was fond 
of it, and there's never been a bit broke, for I've washed it myself — and 
there's the tulips on the cups, and the roses, as anybody might go and look 
at 'em for pleasure. You wouldn't like <hi>your</hi> chany to go for an old 
song and be broke to pieces, though yours has got no colour in it, Jane — 
it's all white and fluted, and didn't cost so much as mine. And there's the 
castors — sister Deane, I can't think but you'd like to have the castors, for 
I've heard you say they're pretty.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I've no objection to buy some of the best things,' said Mrs Deane, 
rather loftily. `We can do with extra things in our house.' 


</p>
               <p>`Best things!' exclaimed Mrs Glegg, with severity which had gathered 
intensity from her long silence. `It drives me past patience to hear you all 
talking o' best things, and buying in this that and the other, such as silver 
and chany. You must bring your mind to your circumstances, Bessy, and not be 
thinking o' silver and chany, but whether you shall get so much as a flock 
bed to lie on, and a blanket to cover you, and a stool to sit on. You must 
remember, if you get 'em, it'll be because your friends have bought 'em for 
you, for you're dependent upo' <hi>them</hi> for everything: for your husband 
lies there helpless, and hasn't got a penny i' the world to call his own. And 
it's for your own good I say this, for it's right you should feel what your 
state is, and what disgrace your husband's brought on your own family, as 
you've got to look to for everything — and be humble in your mind.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg paused, for speaking with much energy for the good of others is 
naturally exhausting. Mrs Tulliver, always borne down by the family 
predominance of sister Jane, who had made her wear the yoke of a younger 
sister in very tender years, said pleadingly, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure, sister, I've never asked anybody to do anything, only buy things 
as it 'ud be a pleasure to 'em to have, so as they mightn't go and be spoiled 
i' strange houses. I never asked anybody to buy the things in for me and my 
children, though there's the linen I spun, and I thought when Tom was born — 
I thought one o' the first things when he was lying i' the cradle, as all the 
things I'd bought wi' my own money and been so careful of 'ud go to him. But 
I've said nothing as I wanted my sisters to pay their money for me; — what my 
husband has done for <hi>his</hi> sister's unknown, and we should ha' been 
better off this day if it hadn't been as he's lent money and never asked for 
it again.' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come,' said Mr Glegg, kindly, `don't let us make things too dark. 
What's done can't be undone. We shall make a shift among us to buy what's 
sufficient for you — though, as Mrs G. says, they must be useful, plain 
things. We mustn't be thinking o' what's unnecessary. A table and a chair or 
two, and kitchen things, and a good bed and suchlike. Why, I've seen the day 
when I shouldn't ha' known myself, if I'd lain on sacking i'stead o' the 
floor. We get a deal o' useless things about us, only because we've got the 
money to spend.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G., `if you'll be kind enough to let me speak, i'stead 
of taking the words out o' my mouth, I was going to say, Bessy, as it's fine 
talking for you to say as you've never asked us to buy anything for you: let 
me tell you, you <hi>ought</hi> to ha' asked us. Pray, how are you to be 
purvided for, if your own family don't help you? You must go to the parish, 
if they didn't. And you ought to know that, and keep it in mind, and ask us 
humble to do what we can for you, i'stead o' saying, and making a boast, as 
you've never asked us for anything.' 


</p>
               <p>`You talked o' the Mosses, and what Mr Tulliver's done for 'em,' said Uncle 
Pullet, who became unusually suggestive where advances of money were 
concerned. `Haven't <hi>they</hi> been anear you? They ought to do something, 
as well as other folks; and if he's lent 'em money, they ought to be made to 
pay it back.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, to be sure,' said Mrs Deane, `I've been thinking so. How is it Mr and 
Mrs Moss aren't here to meet us? It is but right they should do their share.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear!' said Mrs Tulliver, `I niver sent 'em word about Mr Tulliver, and 
they live so back'ard among the lanes at Basset, they niver hear anything 
only when Mr Moss comes to market. But I niver gave 'em a thought. I wonder 
Maggie didn't, though, for she was allays so fond of her aunt Moss.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why don't your children come in, Bessy?' said Mrs Pullet, at the mention of 
Maggie. `They should hear what their aunts and uncles have got to say: — and 
Maggie — when it's me as have paid for half her schooling, she ought to think 
more of her aunt Pullet nor of aunt Mosses. I may go off sudden when I get 
home to-day — there's no telling.' 


</p>
               <p>`If I'd had <hi>my</hi> way,' said Mrs Glegg, `the children 'ud ha'been in 
the room from the first. It's time they knew who they've to look to, and it's 
right as <hi>somebody</hi> should talk to 'em, and let 'em know their 
condition i' life, and what they're come down to, and make 'em feel as 
they've got to suffer for their father's faults.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I'll go and fetch 'em, sister,' said Mrs Tulliver, resignedly; she was 
quite crushed now, and thought of the treasures in the store-room with no 
other feeling than blank despair. 


</p>
               <p>She went upstairs to fetch Tom and Maggie, who were both in their father's 
room, and was on her way down again, when the sight of the store-room door 
suggested a new thought to her. She went towards it and left the children to 
go down by themselves. 


</p>
               <p>The aunts and uncles appeared to have been in warm discussion when the 
brother and sister entered — both with shrinking reluctance; for though Tom 
with a practical sagacity which had been roused into activity by the strong 
stimulus of the new emotions he had undergone since yesterday, had been 
turning over in his mind a plan which he meant to propose to one of his aunts 
or uncles, he felt by no means amicably towards them and dreaded meeting them 
all at once, as he would have dreaded a large dose of concentrated physic 
which was but just endurable in small draughts. As for Maggie, she was 
peculiarly depressed this morning: she had been called up, after brief rest, 
at three o'clock, and had that strange dreamy weariness which comes from 
watching in a sick-room through the chill hours of early twilight and 
breaking day — in which the outside day-light life seems to have no 
importance and to be a mere margin to the hours in the darkened chamber. 
Their entrance interrupted the conversation. The shaking of hands was a 
melancholy and silent ceremony, till uncle Pullet observed, as Tom approached 
him— 


</p>
               <p>`Well, young sir, we've been talking as we should want your pen and ink; you 
can write rarely now after all your schooling, I should think.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay,' said uncle Glegg, with admonition which he meant to be kind, `we 
must look to see the good of all this schooling, as your father's sunk so 
much money in now. 


</p>
               <p>`When land is gone and money spent Then learning is most 
excellent —' 


</p>
               <p>Now's the time, Tom, to let us see the good o' your learning. Let us see 
whether you can do better than I can, as have made my fortin without it. But 
I began wi' doing with little, you see: I could live on a basin o' porridge 
and a crust o' bread and cheese. But I doubt high living and high learning 
'ull make it harder for you, young man, nor it was for me.' 


</p>
               <p>`But he must do it,' interposed aunt Glegg, energetically, `whether it's hard 
or no. He hasn't got to consider what's hard — he must consider as he isn't 
to trusten to his friends to keep him in idleness and luxury: he's got to 
bear the fruits o' his father's misconduct, and bring his mind to fare hard 
and to work hard. And he must be humble and grateful to his aunts and uncles 
for what they're doing for his mother and father, as must be turned out into 
the streets and go to the workhouse if they didn't help 'em. And his sister, 
too,' continued Mrs Glegg, looking severely at Maggie, who had sat down on 
the sofa by her aunt Deane, drawn to her by the sense that she was Lucy's 
mother, `She must make up her mind to be humble and work; for there'll be no 
servants to wait on her any more — she must remember that. She must do the 
work o' the house, and she must respect and love her aunts, as have done so 
much for her, and saved their money to leave to their nevvies and nieces.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was still standing before the table in the centre of the group. There was 
a heightened colour in his face, and he was very far from looking humbled, 
but he was preparing to say, in a respectful tone, something he had 
previously meditated, when the door opened and his mother re-entered. 


</p>
               <p>Poor Mrs Tulliver had in her hands a small tray on which she had placed her 
silver tea-pot, a specimen tea-cup and saucer, the castors, and sugar tongs. 


</p>
               <p>`See here, sister,' she said, looking at Mrs Deane, as she set the tray on 
the table, `I thought, perhaps, if you looked at the tea-pot again — it's a 
good while since you saw it — you might like the pattern better: it makes 
beautiful tea, and there's a stand and everything: you might use it for every 
day, or else lay it by for Lucy when she goes to house-keeping. I should be 
so loth for 'em to buy it at the Golden Lion,' said the poor woman, her heart 
swelling, and the tears coming, `my tea-pot as I bought when I was married, 
and to think o' its being scratched, and set before the travellers and folks 
— and my letters on it — see here — E. D. — and everybody to see 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, dear, dear!' said aunt Pullet, shaking her head with deep sadness, `it's 
very bad — to think o' the family initials going about everywhere. It niver 
was so before: you're a very unlucky sister, Bessy! But what's the use 
o'buying the tea-pot — when there's the linen and spoons and everything to 
go, and some of 'em with your full name — and when it's got that straight 
spout too.' 


</p>
               <p>`As to disgrace o' the family,' said Mrs Glegg, `that can't be helped wi' 
buying tea-pots. The disgrace is, for one o'the family to ha' married a man 
as has brought her to beggary. The disgrace is as they're to be sold up. We 
can't hinder the country from knowing that.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had started up from the sofa at the allusion to her father, but Tom 
saw her action and flushed face in time to prevent her from speaking. `Be 
quiet, Maggie,' he said, authoritatively, pushing her aside. It was a 
remarkable manifestation of self-command and practical judgment in a lad of 
fifteen that when his aunt Glegg ceased he began to speak in a quiet and 
respectful manner, though with a good deal of trembling in his voice, for his 
mother's words had cut him to the quick. 


</p>
               <p>`Then aunt,' he said, looking straight at Mrs Glegg, `if you think it's a 
disgrace to the family that we should be sold up, wouldn't it be better to 
prevent it altogether? And if you and my aunt Pullet,' he continued, looking 
at the latter, `think of leaving any money to me and Maggie, wouldn't it be 
better to give it now, and pay the debt we're going to be sold up for, and 
save my mother from parting with her furniture?' 


</p>
               <p>There was silence for a few moments, for every one, including Maggie, was 
astonished at Tom's sudden manliness of tone. Uncle Glegg was the first to 
speak. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, young man — come now! You show some notion o'things. But there's the 
interest, you must remember — your aunts get five per cent on their money, 
and they'd lose that, if they advanced it — you haven't thought o' that.' 


</p>
               <p>`I could work and pay that every year,' said Tom, promptly. `I'd do anything 
to save my mother from parting with her things.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well done!' said uncle Glegg, admiringly. He had been drawing Tom out, 
rather than reflecting on the practicability of his proposal. But he had 
produced the unfortunate result of irritating his wife. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Mr Glegg!' said that lady, with angry sarcasm. `It's pleasant work for 
you to be giving my money away, as you've pretended to leave at my own 
disposial. And my money as was my own father's gift, and not yours, Mr Glegg, 
and I've saved it and added to it myself and had more to put out welly every 
year, and it's to go and be sunk in other folks's furniture, and encourage 
'em in luxury and extravagance as they've no means of supporting, and I'm to 
alter my will or have a codicil made, and leave two or three hundred less 
behind me when I die — me as have allays done right and been careful, and the 
eldest o' the family, and my money's to go and be squandered on them as have 
had the same chance as me, only they've been wicked and wasteful. Sister 
Pullet, <hi>you</hi> may do as you like, and you may let your husband rob you 
back again o' the money he's given you, but that isn't <hi>my</hi> sperrit.' 


</p>
               <p>`La, Jane, how fiery you are!' said Mrs Pullet. `I'm sure you'll have the 
blood in your head, and have to be cupped. I'm sorry for Bessy and her 
children — I'm sure I think of 'em o' nights dreadful, for I sleep very bad 
wi' this new medicine — but it's no use for me to think o' doing anything, if 
you won't meet me half way.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, there's this to be considered,' said Mr Glegg. `It's no use to pay off 
this debt and save the furniture, when there's all the law debts behind, as 
'ud take every shilling and more than could be made out o' land and stock, 
for I've made that out from Lawyer Gore. We'd need save our money to keep the 
poor man with, instead o' spending it on furniture as he can neither eat nor 
drink. You <hi>will</hi> be so hasty, Jane — as if I didn't know what was 
reasonable.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then... speak accordingly... Mr Glegg!' said his wife, with slow, loud 
emphasis, bending her head towards him significantly. 


</p>
               <p>Tom's countenance had fallen during this conversation, and his lip quivered; 
but he was determined not to give way. He would behave like a man. Maggie, on 
the contrary, after her momentary delight in Tom's speech, had relapsed into 
her state of trembling indignation. Her mother had been standing close by 
Tom's side and had been clinging to his arm ever since he had last spoken: 
Maggie suddenly started up and stood in front of them, her eyes flashing like 
the eyes of a young lioness. 


</p>
               <p>`Why do you come, then,' she burst out, `talking, and interfering with us and 
scolding us, if you don't mean to do anything to help my poor mother — your 
own sister — if you've no feeling for her when she's in trouble, and won't 
part with anything, though you would never miss it, to save her from pain. 
Keep away from us then, and don't come to find fault with my father — he was 
better than any of you — he was kind — he would have helped <hi>you</hi>, if 
you had been in trouble. Tom and I don't ever want to have any of your money, 
if you won't help my mother. We'd rather not have it! we'll do without you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, having hurled her defiance at aunts and uncles in this way, stood 
still, with her large dark eyes glaring at them, as if she were ready to 
await all consequences. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver was frightened: there was something portentous in this mad 
outbreak: she did not see how life could go on after it. Tom was vexed; it 
was no <hi>use</hi> to talk so. The aunts were silent with surprise for some 
moments. At length, in a case of aberration such as this, comment presented 
itself as more expedient than any answer. 


</p>
               <p>`You haven't seen the end o' your trouble wi' that child, Bessy,' said Mrs 
Pullet; `she's beyond everything for boldness and unthankfulness. It's 
dreadful. I might ha' let alone paying for her schooling, for she's worse nor 
ever.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's no more than what I've allays said,' followed Mrs Glegg. `Other folks 
may be surprised, but I'm not. I've said over and over again — years ago I've 
said — “Mark my words; that child 'ull come to no good: there isn't a 
bit of our family in her.” And as for her having so much schooling, I 
never thought well o' that. I'd my reasons when I said <hi>I</hi> wouldn't 
pay anything towards it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come,' said Mr Glegg, `let's waste no more time in talking — let's go 
to business. Tom now, get the pen and ink... ' 


</p>
               <p>While Mr Glegg was speaking, a tall dark figure was seen hurrying past the 
window. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, there's Mrs Moss,' said Mrs Tulliver. `The bad news must ha' reached 
her, then.' And she went out to open the door, Maggie eagerly following her. 


</p>
               <p>`That's fortunate,' said Mrs Glegg. `She can agree to the list o' things to 
be bought in. It's but right she should do her share when it's her own 
brother.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Moss was in too much agitation to resist Mrs Tulliver's movement as she 
drew her into the parlour, automatically, without reflecting that it was 
hardly kind to take her among so many persons in the first painful moment of 
arrival. The tall, worn, dark-haired woman was a strong contrast to the 
Dodson sisters as she entered in her shabby dress, with her shawl and bonnet 
looking as if they had been hastily huddled on, and with that entire absence 
of self-consciousness which belongs to keenly felt trouble. Maggie was 
clinging to her arm, and Mrs Moss seemed to notice no one else except Tom, 
whom she went straight up to and took by the hand. 


</p>
               <p>`O my dear children,' she burst out, `you've no call to think well o' me; I'm 
a poor aunt to you, for I'm one o' them as take all and give nothing. How's 
my poor brother?' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Turnbull thinks he'll get better,' said Maggie. `Sit down, aunt Gritty. 
Don't fret.' 


</p>
               <p>`O my sweet child, I feel torn i' two,' said Mrs Moss, allowing Maggie to 
lead her to the sofa but still not seeming to notice the presence of the 
rest. `We've three hundred pounds o' my brother's money, and now he wants it, 
and you all want it, poor things — and yet we must be sold up to pay it, and 
there's my poor children — eight of 'em, and the little un of all can't speak 
plain. And I feel as if I was a robber. But I'm sure I'd no thought as my 
brother... ' 


</p>
               <p>The poor woman was interrupted by a rising sob. 


</p>
               <p>`Three hundred pound! O dear, dear,' said Mrs Tulliver, who, when she had 
said that her husband had done unknown things for his sister, had not had any 
particular sum in her mind, and felt a wife's irritation at having been kept 
in the dark. 


</p>
               <p>`What madness, to be sure!' said Mrs Glegg. `A man with a family! He'd no 
right to lend his money i' that way: and without security, I'll be bound, if 
the truth was known.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Glegg's voice had arrested Mrs Moss's attention, and, looking up, she 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, there <hi>was</hi> security: my husband gave a note for it. We're not 
that sort o' people, neither of us, as 'ud rob my brother's children, and we 
looked to paying back the money, when the times got a bit better.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but now,' said Mr Glegg, gently, `hasn't your husband no way o' 
raising this money? Because it 'ud be a little fortin, like, for these folks, 
if we can do without Tulliver's being made a bankrupt. Your husband's got 
stock: it is but right he should raise the money, as it seems to me — not but 
what I'm sorry for you, Mrs Moss.' 


</p>
               <p>`O sir, you don't know what bad luck my husband's had with his stock — the 
farm's suffering so as never was for want o' stock, and we've sold all the 
wheat, and we're behind with our rent... not but what we'd like to do what's 
right, and I'd sit up and work half the night, if it 'ud be any good... but 
there's them poor children... four of 'em such little uns... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't cry so, aunt — don't fret,' whispered Maggie, who had kept hold of Mrs 
Moss's hand. 


</p>
               <p>`Did Mr Tulliver, let you have the money all at once?' said Mrs Tulliver, 
still lost in the conception of things which had been `going on' without her 
knowledge. 


</p>
               <p>`No, at twice,' said Mrs Moss, rubbing her eyes, and making an effort to 
restrain her tears. `The last was after my bad illness, four years ago, as 
everything went wrong, and there was a new note made then. What with illness 
and bad luck, I've been nothing but cumber all my life.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Mrs Moss,' said Mrs Glegg, with decision. `Yours is a very unlucky 
family:- the more's the pity for <hi>my</hi> sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`I set off in the cart as soon as ever I heard o' what had happened,' said 
Mrs Moss, looking at Mrs Tulliver. `I should never ha' staid away all this 
while, if you'd thought well to let me know. And it isn't as I'm thinking all 
about ourselves and nothing about my brother — only the money was so on my 
mind, I couldn't help speaking about it. And my husband and me desire to do 
the right thing, sir,' she added, looking at Mr Glegg, `and we'll make shift 
and pay the money, come what will, if that's all my brother's got to trust 
to. We've been used to trouble, and don't look for much else. It's only the 
thought o' my poor children pulls me i' two.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, there's this to be thought on, Mrs Moss,' said Mr Glegg, `and it's 
right to warn you. If Tulliver's made a bankrupt, and he's got a note-of-hand 
of your husband's for three hundred pounds, you'll be obliged to pay it: 
th'assignees 'ull come on you for it.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, O dear!' said Mrs Tulliver, thinking of the bankruptcy, and not of 
Mrs Moss's concern in it. Poor Mrs Moss herself listened in trembling 
submission, while Maggie looked with bewildered distress at Tom to see if 
<hi>he</hi> showed any signs of understanding this trouble, and caring about 
poor aunt Moss. Tom was only looking thoughtful with his eyes on the 
table-cloth. 


</p>
               <p>`And if he isn't made bankrupt,' continued Mr Glegg, `as I said before, three 
hundred pounds 'ud be a little fortin' for him, poor man. We don't know but 
what he may be partly helpless, if he ever gets up again. I'm very sorry if 
it goes hard with you, Mrs Moss — but my opinion is, looking at it one way, 
it'll be right for you to raise the money; and looking at it th' other way, 
you'll be obliged to pay it. You won't think ill o' me for speaking the 
truth.' 


</p>
               <p>`Uncle,' said Tom, looking up suddenly from his meditative view of the 
table-cloth, `I don't think it would be right for my aunt Moss to pay the 
money, if it would be against my father's will for her to pay it, would it?' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg looked surprised for a moment or two before he said, `Why, no, 
perhaps not, Tom; but then he'd ha'destroyed the note you know. We must look 
for the note. What makes you think it 'ud be against his will?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why,' said Tom, colouring, but trying to speak firmly in spite of a boyish 
tremor, `I remember quite well, before I went to school to Mr Stelling, my 
father said to me one night, when we were sitting by the fire together and no 
one else was in the room... ' 


</p>
               <p>Tom hesitated a little, and then went on, 


</p>
               <p>`He said something to me about Maggie, and then he said, `I've always been 
good to my sister, though she married against my will; and I've lent Moss 
money, but I shall never think of distressing him to pay it: I'd rather lose 
it: my children must not mind being the poorer for that.' And now my father's 
ill and not able to speak for himself, I shouldn't like anything to be done 
contrary to what he said to me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but then, my boy,' said uncle Glegg, whose good feeling led him to 
enter into Tom's wish, but who could not at once shake off his habitual 
abhorrence of such recklessness as destroying securities or alienating 
anything important enough to make an appreciable difference in a man's 
property, `we should have to make away wi' the note, you know, if we're to 
guard against what may happen, supposing your father's made bankrupt... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' interrupted his wife, severely. `Mind what you're saying. You're 
putting yourself very forrard in other folk's business. If you speak rash, 
don't say it was my fault.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's such a thing as I never heared of before,' said uncle Pullet, who had 
been making haste with his lozenge, in order to express his amazement, 
`making away with a note: I should think anybody could set the constable on 
you for it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well but,' said Mrs Tulliver, `if the note's worth all that money, why can't 
we pay it away and save my things from going away? We've no call to meddle 
with your uncle and aunt Moss, Tom, if you think your father 'ud be angry 
when he gets well.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver had not studied the question of exchange and was straining her 
mind after original ideas on the subject. 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh, pooh, pooh! you women don't understand these things,' said uncle 
Glegg. `There's no way o' making it safe for Mr and Mrs Moss, but destroying 
the note.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then I hope you'll help me to do it, uncle,' said Tom, earnestly. `If my 
father shouldn't get well, I should be very unhappy to think anything had 
been done against his will, that I could hinder. And I'm sure he meant me to 
remember what he said that evening. I ought to obey my father's wish about 
his property.' 


</p>
               <p>Even Mrs Glegg could not withhold her approval from Tom's words: she felt 
that the Dodson blood was certainly speaking in him, though if his father had 
been a Dodson, there would never have been this wicked alienation of money. 
Maggie would hardly have restrained herself from leaping on Tom's neck, if 
her aunt Moss had not prevented her by herself rising and taking Tom's hand, 
while she said, with rather a choked voice, 


</p>
               <p>`You'll never be the poorer for this, my dear boy, if there's a God above: 
and if the money's wanted for your father, Moss and me 'ull pay it, the same 
as if there was ever such security. We'll do as we'd be done by, for if my 
children have got no other luck, they've got an honest father and mother.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Mr Glegg, who had been meditating after Tom's words, `we 
shouldn't be doing any wrong by the creditors, supposing your father 
<hi>was</hi> bankrupt — I've been thinking o' that, for I've been a creditor 
myself, and seen no end o' cheating — for if he meant to give your aunt the 
money before ever he got into this sad work o' lawing, it's the same as if 
he'd made away with the note himself — for he'd made up his mind to be that 
much poorer. But there's a deal o' things to be considered, young man,' Mr 
Glegg added, looking admonishingly at Tom, `when you come to money business, 
and you may be taking one man's dinner away to make another man's breakfast. 
You don't understand that, I doubt?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I do,' said Tom, decidedly. `I know if I owe money to one man I've no 
right to give it to another. But if my father had made up his mind to give my 
aunt the money before he was in debt, he had a right to do it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well done, young man! I didn't think you'd been so sharp,' said uncle Glegg, 
with much candour. `But perhaps your father <hi>did</hi> make away with the 
note. Let us go and see if we can find it in the chest.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's in my father's room. Let us go too, aunt Gritty,' whispered Maggie. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.4" type="chapter">
               <head>A Vanishing Gleam</head>
               <p>MR TULLIVER, even between the fits of spasmodic rigidity which had recurred 
at intervals ever since he had been found fallen from his horse, was usually 
in so apathetic a condition that the exits and entrances into his room were 
not felt to be of great importance. He had lain so still, with his eyes 
closed, all this morning, that Maggie told her aunt Moss she must not expect 
her father to take any notice of them. 


</p>
               <p>They entered very quietly, and Mrs Moss took her seat near the head of the 
bed, while Maggie sat in her old place on the bed, and put her hand on her 
father's, without causing any change in his face. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg and Tom had also entered, treading softly, and were busy selecting 
the key of the old oak chest from the bunch which Tom had brought from his 
father's bureau. They succeeded in opening the chest — which stood opposite 
the foot of Mr Tulliver's bed — and propping the lid with the iron holder, 
without much noise. 


</p>
               <p>`There's a tin box,' whispered Mr Glegg, `he'd most like put a small thing 
like a note in there. Lift it out, Tom; but I'll just lift up these deeds — 
they're the deeds o' the house and mill, I suppose — and see what there is 
under 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg had lifted out the parchments and had fortunately drawn back a 
little, when the iron holder gave way, and the heavy lid fell with a loud 
bang that resounded over the house. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps there was something in that sound more than the mere fact of the 
strong vibration that produced the instantaneous effect on the frame of the 
prostrate man, and for the time completely shook off the obstruction of 
paralysis. The chest had belonged to his father and his father's father, and 
it had always been rather a solemn business to visit it. All long-known 
objects, even a mere window-fastening or a particular door latch, have sounds 
which are a sort of recognised voice to us — a voice that will thrill and 
awaken when it has been used to touch deep-lying fibres. In the same moment 
when all the eyes in the room were turned upon him, he started up and looked 
at the chest, the parchments in Mr Glegg's hand, and Tom holding the tin box, 
with a glance of perfect consciousness and recognition. 


</p>
               <p>`What are you going to do with those deeds?' he said, in his ordinary tone of 
sharp questioning whenever he was irritated. `Come here, Tom. What do you do, 
going to my chest?' 


</p>
               <p>Tom obeyed, with some trembling: it was the first time his father had 
recognised him. But instead of saying anything more to him, his father 
continued to look with a growing distinctness of suspicion at Mr Glegg and 
the deeds. 


</p>
               <p>`What's been happening then?' he said, sharply. `What are you meddling with 
my deeds for? Is Wakem laying hold of everything?... Why don't you tell me 
what you've been a-doing?' he added, impatiently, as Mr Glegg advanced to the 
foot of the bed before speaking. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no, friend Tulliver,' said Mr Glegg, in a soothing tone. `Nobody's 
getting hold of anything as yet. We only came to look and see what was in the 
chest. You've been ill, you know, and we've had to look after things a bit. 
But let's hope you'll soon be well enough to attend to everything yourself.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver looked round him meditatively — at Tom, at Mr Glegg and at 
Maggie; then suddenly appearing aware that some one was seated by his side at 
the head of the bed, he turned sharply round and saw his sister. 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, Gritty!' he said in the half-sad, affectionate tone in which he had been 
wont to speak to her, `what, you're there, are you? How could you manage to 
leave the children?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, brother!' said good Mrs Moss, too impulsive to be prudent, `I'm thankful 
I'm come now to see you yourself again — I thought you'd never know us any 
more.' 


</p>
               <p>`What, have I had a stroke?' said Mr Tulliver, anxiously, looking at Mr 
Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`A fall from your horse — shook you a bit — that's all, I think,' said Mr 
Glegg. `But you'll soon get over it, let's hope.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver fixed his eyes on the bed clothes, and remained silent for two or 
three minutes. A new shadow came over his face. He looked up at Maggie first, 
and said in a lower tone, `You got the letter, then, my wench?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, father,' she said, kissing him with a full heart. She felt as if her 
father were come back to her from the dead, and her yearning to show him how 
she had always loved him could be fulfilled. 


</p>
               <p>`Where's your mother?' he said, so preoccupied that he received the kiss as 
passively as some quiet animal might have received it. 


</p>
               <p>`She's downstairs with my aunts, father: shall I fetch her?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay: poor Bessy!' and his eyes turned towards Tom as Maggie left the 
room. 


</p>
               <p>`You'll have to take care of 'em both, if I die, you know, Tom. You'll be 
badly off, I doubt. But you must see and pay everybody. And mind — there's 
fifty pound o' Luke's as I put into the business, he gave it me a bit at a 
time and he's got nothing to show for it. You must pay him first thing.' 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Glegg involuntarily shook his head, and looked more concerned than 
ever, but Tom said firmly, 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, father. And haven't you a note from my uncle Moss for three hundred 
pounds? We came to look for that. What do you wish to be done about it, 
father?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah! I'm glad you thought o' that my lad,' said Mr Tulliver. `I allays meant 
to be easy about that money, because o' your aunt. You mustn't mind losing 
the money, if they can't pay it — and it's like enough they can't. The note's 
in that box, mind! I allays meant to be good to you, Gritty,' said Mr 
Tulliver, turning to his sister, `but, you know, you aggravated me when you 
would have Moss.' 


</p>
               <p>At this moment Maggie re-entered with her mother who came in much agitated by 
the news that her husband was quite himself again. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bessy,' he said, as she kissed him, `you must forgive me if you're 
worse off than you ever expected to be. But it's the fault o' the law — it's 
none o' mine,' he added, angrily. `It's the fault o' raskills! Tom — you mind 
this — if ever you've got the chance, you make Wakem smart. If you don't, 
you're a good-for-nothing son. You might horsewhip him — but he'd set the law 
on you — the law's made to take care o' raskills.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver was getting excited, and an alarming flush was on his face. Mr 
Glegg wanted to say something soothing, but he was prevented by Mr Tulliver's 
speaking again to his wife. `They'll make a shift to pay everything, Bessy,' 
he said, `and yet leave you your furniture; and your sisters'll do something 
for you... and Tom'll grow up... though what he's to be I don't know... I've 
done what I could... I've given him a eddication... and there's the little 
wench, she'll get married... but it's a poor tale... ' 


</p>
               <p>The sanative effect of the strong vibration was exhausted, and with the last 
words, the poor man fell again rigid and insensible. Though this was only a 
recurrence of what had happened before, it struck all present as if it had 
been death, not only from its contrast with the completeness of the revival, 
but because his words had all had reference to the possibility that his death 
was near. But with poor Tulliver, death was not to be a leap: it was to be a 
long descent under thickening shadows. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Turnbull was sent for, but when he heard what had passed, he said this 
complete restoration, though only temporary, was a hopeful sign, proving that 
there was no permanent lesion to prevent ultimate recovery. 


</p>
               <p>Among the threads of the past which the stricken man had gathered up, he had 
omitted the bill of sale: the flash of memory had only lit up prominent 
ideas, and he sank into forgetfulness again with half his humiliation 
unlearned. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom was clear upon two points — that his uncle Moss's note must be 
destroyed, and that Luke's money must be paid, if in no other way, out of his 
own and Maggie's money now in the savings' bank. There were subjects, you 
perceive, on which Tom was much quicker than on the niceties of classical 
construction, or the relations of a mathematical demonstration. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.5" type="chapter">
               <head>Tom Applies His Knife to the Oyster</head>
               <p>THE next day, at ten o'clock, Tom was on his way to St Ogg's, to see his 
uncle Deane, who was to come home last night, his aunt had said; and Tom had 
made up his mind that his uncle Deane was the right person to ask for advice 
about getting some employment. He was in a great way of business; he had not 
the narrow notions of uncle Glegg; and he had risen in the world on a scale 
of advancement which accorded with Tom's ambition. 


</p>
               <p>It was a dark, chill, misty morning, likely to end in rain — one of those 
mornings when even happy people take refuge in their hopes. And Tom was very 
unhappy: he felt the humiliation as well as the prospective hardships of his 
lot with all the keenness of a proud nature; and with all his resolute 
dutifulness towards his father there mingled an irrepressible indignation 
against him which gave misfortune the less endurable aspect of a wrong. Since 
these were the consequences of going to law, his father was really blamable 
as his aunts and uncles had always said he was; and it was a significant 
indication of Tom's character, that though he thought his aunts ought to do 
something more for his mother, he felt nothing like Maggie's violent 
resentment against them for showing no eager tenderness and generosity. There 
were no impulses in Tom that led him to expect what did not present itself to 
him as a right to be demanded. Why should people give away their money 
plentifully to those who had not taken care of their own money? Tom saw some 
justice in severity — and all the more because he had confidence in himself 
that he should never deserve that just severity. It was very hard upon him 
that he should be put at this disadvantage in life by his father's want of 
prudence, but he was not going to complain and to find fault with people 
because they did not make everything easy for him. He would ask no one to 
help him, more than to give him work and pay him for it. Poor Tom was not 
without his hopes to take refuge in under the chill damp imprisonment of the 
December fog which seemed only like a part of his home troubles. At sixteen, 
the mind that has the strongest affinity for fact cannot escape illusion and 
self-flattery and Tom, in sketching his future had no other guide in 
arranging his facts, than the suggestions of his own brave self-reliance. 
Both Mr Glegg and Mr Deane, he knew, had been very poor once: he did not want 
to save money slowly and retire on a moderate fortune like his uncle Glegg, 
but he would be like his uncle Deane — get a situation in some great house of 
business and rise fast. He had scarcely seen anything of his uncle Deane for 
the last three years — the two families had been getting wider apart, but for 
this very reason Tom was the more hopeful about applying to him. His uncle 
Glegg, he felt sure, would never encourage any spirited project, but he had a 
vague imposing idea of the resources at his uncle Deane's command. He had 
heard his father say, long ago, how Deane had made himself so valuable to 
Guest &amp; Co. that they were glad enough to offer him a share in the business: 
that was what Tom resolved <hi>he</hi> would do. It was intolerable to think 
of being poor and looked down upon all one's life. He would provide for his 
mother and sister, and make every one say that he was a man of high 
character. He leaped over the years in this way, and in the haste of strong 
purpose and strong desire, did not see how they would be made up of slow 
days, hours, and minutes. 


</p>
               <p>By the time he had crossed the stone bridge over the Floss, and was entering 
St Ogg's, he was thinking that he would buy his father's mill and land again, 
when he was rich enough, and improve the house and live there: he should 
prefer it to any smarter, newer place, and he could keep as many horses and 
dogs as he liked. 


</p>
               <p>Walking along the street with a firm, rapid step at this point in his reverie 
he was startled by some one who had crossed without his notice, and who said 
to him in a rough, familiar voice, 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Master Tom, how's your father this morning?' It was a publican of St 
Ogg's — one of his father's customers. 


</p>
               <p>Tom disliked being spoken to just then, but he said civilly, `He's still very 
ill, thank you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, it's been a sore chance for you, young man, hasn't it? — this lawsuit 
turning out against him,' said the publican, with a confused beery idea of 
being good-natured. 


</p>
               <p>Tom reddened and passed on: he would have felt it like the handling of a 
bruise even if there had been the most polite and delicate reference to his 
position. 


</p>
               <p>`That's Tulliver's son,' said the publican to a grocer standing on the 
adjacent door-step. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah!' said the grocer, `I thought I knew his features, like. He takes after 
his mother's family: she was a Dodson. He's a fine, straight youth: what's he 
been brought up to?' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh! to turn up his nose at his father's customers and be a fine gentleman — 
not much else, I think.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom, roused from his dream of the future to a thorough consciousness of the 
present, made all the greater haste to reach the warehouse offices of Guest &amp; 
Co. where he expected to find his uncle Deane. But this was Mr Deane's 
morning at the Bank, a clerk told him, with some contempt for his ignorance: 
Mr Deane was not to be found in River Street on a Thursday morning. 


</p>
               <p>At the Bank Tom was admitted into the private room where his uncle was, 
immediately after sending in his name. Mr Deane was auditing accounts, but he 
looked up as Tom entered and, putting out his hand, said, `Well, Tom — 
nothing fresh the matter at home, I hope? How's your father?' 


</p>
               <p>`Much the same, thank you, uncle,' said Tom, feeling nervous. `But I want to 
speak to you, please, when you're at liberty.' 


</p>
               <p>`Sit down, sit down,' said Mr Deane, relapsing into his accounts, in which he 
and the managing clerk remained so absorbed for the next half hour that Tom 
began to wonder whether he should have to sit in this way till the bank 
closed — there seemed so little tendency towards a conclusion in the quiet 
monotonous procedure of these sleek, prosperous men of business. Would his 
uncle give him a place in the bank? it would be very dull, prosy work, he 
thought writing there, forever, to the loud ticking of a time-piece. He 
preferred some other way of getting rich. But at last there was a change: his 
uncle took a pen and wrote something with a flourish at the end. 


</p>
               <p>`You'll just step up to Torry's now, Mr Spence, will you?' said Mr Deane, and 
the clock suddenly became less loud and deliberate in Tom's ears. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Tom,' said Mr Deane, when they were alone, turning his substantial 
person a little in his chair, and taking out his snuff-box, `what's the 
business, my boy, what's the business?' Mr Deane, who had heard from his wife 
what had passed the day before, thought Tom was come to appeal to him for 
some means of averting the sale. 


</p>
               <p>`I hope you'll excuse me for troubling you, uncle,' said Tom, colouring, but 
speaking in a tone which, though tremulous, had a certain proud independence 
in it, `but I thought you were the best person to advise me what to do.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah?' said Mr Deane, reserving his pinch of snuff, and looking at Tom with 
new attention. `Let us hear.' 


</p>
               <p>`I want to get a situation, uncle, so that I may earn some money,' said Tom, 
who never fell into circumlocution. 


</p>
               <p>`A situation?' said Mr Deane, and then took his pinch of snuff with elaborate 
justice to each nostril. Tom thought snuff-taking a most provoking habit. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, let me see, how old are you?' said Mr Deane, as he threw himself 
backward again. 


</p>
               <p>`Sixteen — I mean, I am going in seventeen,' said Tom, hoping his uncle 
noticed how much beard he had. 


</p>
               <p>`Let me see — your father had some notion of making you an engineer, I 
think?' 


</p>
               <p>`But I don't think I could get any money at that for a long while, could I?' 


</p>
               <p>`That's true: but people don't get much money at anything, my boy, when 
they're only sixteen. You've had a good deal of schooling, however: I suppose 
you're pretty well up in accounts, eh? You understand book-keeping?' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Tom, rather falteringly. `I was in fractions. But Mr Stelling says 
I write a good hand, uncle. That's my writing,' added Tom, laying on the 
table a copy of the list he had made yesterday. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah! That's good, that's good. But, you see, the best hand in the world'll 
not get you a better place than a copying clerk's, if you know nothing of 
book-keeping — nothing of accounts. And a copying clerk's a cheap article. 
But what have you been learning at school, then?' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane had not occupied himself with methods of education, and had no 
precise conception of what went forward in expensive schools. 


</p>
               <p>`We learned Latin,' said Tom, pausing a little between each item, as if he 
were turning over the books in his school-desk to assist his memory, `a good 
deal of Latin; and the last year I did Themes, one week in Latin and one in 
English; and Greek and Roman History; and Euclid; and I began Algebra, but I 
felt it off again; and we had one day every week for Arithmetic. Then I used 
to have drawing lessons; and there were several other books we either read or 
learned out of, English Poetry, and Horae Paulinae, and Blair's Rhetoric, the 
last Half.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane tapped his snuff-box again and screwed up his mouth: he felt in the 
position of many estimable persons when they had read the New Tariff and 
found how many commodities were imported of which they knew nothing: like a 
cautious man of business, he was not going to speak rashly of a raw material 
in which he had had no experience. But the presumption was, that if it had 
been good for anything, so successful a man as himself would hardly have been 
ignorant of it. About Latin he had an opinion, and thought that in case of 
another war, since people would no longer wear hair powder, it would be well 
to put a tax upon Latin as luxury much run upon by the higher classes and not 
telling at all on the ship-owing department. But, for what he knew, the Horae 
Paulinae might be something less neutral. On the whole, this list of 
acquirements gave him a sort of repulsion towards poor Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' he said, at last, in rather a cold, sardonic tone, `you've had three 
years at these things — you must be pretty strong in 'em. Hadn't you better 
take up some line where they'll come in handy?' 


</p>
               <p>Tom coloured and burst out, with new energy, 


</p>
               <p>`I'd rather not have any employment of that sort, uncle. I don't like Latin 
and those things. I don't know what I could do with them unless I went as 
usher in a school; and I don't know them well enough for that: besides, I 
would as soon carry a pair of panniers. I don't want to be that sort of 
person. I should like to enter into some business where I can get on — a 
manly business, where I should have to look after things and get credit for 
what I did. And I shall want to keep my mother and sister.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, young gentleman,' said Mr Deane, with that tendency to repress youthful 
hopes which stout and successful men of fifty find one of their easiest 
duties, `that's sooner said than done — sooner said than done.' 


</p>
               <p>`But didn't <hi>you</hi> get on in that way, uncle?' said Tom, a little 
irritated that Mr Deane did not enter more rapidly into his views. `I mean, 
didn't you rise from one place to another through your abilities and good 
conduct?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, sir,' said Mr Deane, spreading himself in his chair a little, and 
entering with great readiness into a retrospect of his own career. `But I'll 
tell you how I got on: it wasn't by getting astride a stick and thinking it 
would turn into a horse if I sat on it long enough. I kept my eyes and ears 
open, sir, and I wasn't too fond of my own back, and I made my master's 
interest my own. Why, with only looking into what went on in the mill, I 
found out how there was a waste of five hundred a year that might be 
hindered. Why, sir, I hadn't more schooling to begin with than a charity boy 
but I saw pretty soon that I couldn't get on far without mastering accounts, 
and I learned 'em between working hours, after I'd been unlading. Look 
here—' Mr Deane opened a book, and pointed to the page — `I write a good 
hand enough, and I'll match anybody at all sorts of reckoning by the head, 
and I got it all by hard work, and paid for it out of my own earnings — often 
out of my own dinner and supper. And I looked into the nature of all the 
things we had to do with in the business, and picked up knowledge as I went 
about my work, and turned it over in my head. Why, I'm no mechanic — I never 
pretended to be, but I've thought of a thing or two that the mechanics never 
thought of, and it's made a fine difference in our returns. And there isn't 
an article shipped or unshipped at our wharf but I know the quality of it. If 
I got places, sir, it was because I made myself fit for 'em. If you want to 
slip into a round hole, you must make a ball of yourself — that's where it 
is.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane tapped his box again. He had been led on by pure enthusiasm in his 
subject and had really forgotten what bearing this retrospective survey had 
on his listener. He had found occasion for saying the same thing more than 
once before, and was not distinctly aware that he had not his port wine 
before him. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, uncle,' said Tom, with a slight complaint in his tone, `that's what I 
should like to do. Can't <hi>I</hi> get on in the same way?' 


</p>
               <p>`In the same way?' said Mr Deane, eyeing Tom with quiet deliberation. `There 
go two or three questions to that, Master Tom. That depends on what sort of 
article you are to begin with, and whether you've been put into the right 
mill. But I'll tell you what it is. Your poor father went the wrong way to 
work in giving you an education. It wasn't my business, and I didn't 
interfere: but it is as I thought it would be — you've had a sort of learning 
that's all very well for a young fellow like our Mr Stephen Guest, who'll 
have nothing to do but sign cheques all his life, and may as well have Latin 
inside his head as any other sort of stuffing.' 


</p>
               <p>`But uncle,' said Tom earnestly, `I don't see why the Latin need hinder me 
from getting on in business: I shall soon forget it all — it makes no 
difference to me. I had to do my lessons at school; but I always thought 
they'd never be of any use to me afterwards — I didn't care about them.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, that's all very well,' said Mr Deane, `but it doesn't alter what I 
was going to say. Your Latin and rigmarole may soon dry off you, but you'll 
be but a bare stick, after that. Besides it's whitened your hands and taken 
the rough work out of you. And what do you know? Why, you know nothing about 
book-keeping to begin with, and not so much of reckoning as a common shopman. 
You'll have to begin at a low round of the ladder, let me tell you, if you 
mean to get on in life. It's no use forgetting the education your father's 
been paying for, if you don't give yourself a new un.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom bit his lips hard; he felt as if the tears were rising, and he would 
rather die than let them. 


</p>
               <p>`You want me to help you to a situation,' Mr Deane went on, `well, I've no 
fault to find with that: I'm willing to do something for you. But you 
youngsters nowadays think you're to begin with living well and working easy — 
you've no notion of running afoot, before you get on horseback. Now, you must 
remember what you are — you're a lad of sixteen, trained to nothing 
particular. There's heaps of your sort, like so many pebbles made to fit in 
nowhere. Well, you might be apprenticed to some business — a chemist's and 
druggists, perhaps: your Latin might come in a bit there... ' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was going to speak, but Mr Deane put up his hand and said— 


</p>
               <p>`Stop! hear what I've got to say. You don't want to be a 'prentice — I know, 
I know — you want to make more haste — and you don't want to stand behind a 
counter. But if you're a copying clerk you'll have to stand behind a desk, 
and stare at your ink and paper all day: there isn't much outlook there, and 
you won't be much wiser at the end of the year than at the beginning. The 
world isn't made of pen, ink and paper, and if you're to get on in the world, 
young man, you must know what the world's made of. Now the best chance for 
you 'ud be to have a place on a wharf or in a warehouse, where you'd learn 
the smell of things — but you wouldn't like that, I'll be bound: you'd have 
to stand cold and wet and be shouldered about by rough fellows. You're too 
fine a gentleman for that.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane paused and looked hard at Tom, who certainly felt some inward 
struggle before he could reply. 


</p>
               <p>`I would rather do what will be best for me in the end, Sir: I would put up 
with what was disagreeable.' 


</p>
               <p>`That's well, if you can carry it out. But you must remember, it isn't only 
laying hold of a rope — you must go on pulling. It's the mistake you lads 
make that have got nothing either in your brains or your pocket, to think 
you've got a better start in the world if you stick yourselves in a place 
where you can keep your coats clean and have the shopwenches take you for 
fine gentlemen. That wasn't the way <hi>I</hi> started, young man: when I was 
sixteen my jacket smelt of tar, and I wasn't afraid of handling cheeses. 
That's the reason I can wear good broadcloth now, and have my legs under the 
same table with the heads of the best firms in St Ogg's.' 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Deane tapped his box, and seemed to expand a little under his waistcoat 
and gold chain, as he squared his shoulders in the chair. 


</p>
               <p>`Is there any place at liberty that you know of now, uncle, that I should do 
for? I should like to set to work at once,' said Tom, with a slight tremor in 
his voice. 


</p>
               <p>`Stop a bit, stop a bit: we mustn't be in too great a hurry. You must bear in 
mind, if I put you in a place you're a bit young for, because you happen to 
be my nephew, I shall be responsible for you. And there's no better reason, 
you know, than your being my nephew; because it remains to be seen whether 
you're good for anything.' 


</p>
               <p>`I hope I should never do you any discredit, uncle,' said Tom, hurt, as all 
boys are at the statement of the unpleasant truth that people feel no ground 
for trusting them. `I care about my own credit too much for that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well done, Tom, well done! That's the right spirit, and I never refuse to 
help anybody, if they've a mind to do themselves justice. There's a young man 
of two-and-twenty I've got my eye on now — I shall do what I can for that 
young man — he's got some pith in him. But then you see he's made good use of 
his time — a first-rate calculator — can tell you the cubic contents of 
anything in no time, and put me up the other day to a new market for Swedish 
bark; he's uncommonly knowing in manufactures, that young fellow.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'd better set about learning book-keeping, hadn't I, uncle?' said Tom, 
anxious to prove his readiness to exert himself. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes, you can't do amiss there. But... ah, Spence, you're back again. 
Well, Tom, there's nothing more to be said just now, I think, and I must go 
to business again. Goodby. Remember me to your mother.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane put out his hand, with an air of friendly dismissal, and Tom had not 
courage to ask another question, especially in the presence of Mr Spence. So 
he went out again into the cold damp air. He had to call at his uncle Glegg's 
about the money in the Savings' Bank, and by the time he set out again, the 
mist had thickened and he could not see very far before him, but going along 
River Street again, he was startled when he was within two yards of the 
projecting side of a shop-window, by the words `Dorlcote Mill' in large 
letters on a hand-bill, placed as if on purpose to stare at him. It was the 
catalogue of the sale to take place the next week — it was a reason for 
hurrying faster out of the town. 


</p>
               <p>Poor Tom formed no visions of the distant future as he made his way homeward; 
he only felt that the present was very hard. It seemed a wrong towards him 
that his uncle Deane had no confidence in him — did not see at once that he 
should acquit himself well, which Tom himself was as certain of as of the 
daylight. Apparently he, Tom Tulliver, was likely to be held of small account 
in the world, and for the first time he felt a sinking of heart under the 
sense that he really was very ignorant and could do very little. Who was that 
enviable young man, that could tell the cubic contents of things in no time, 
and make suggestions about Swedish bark? Swedish bark! Tom had been used to 
be so entirely satisfied with himself in spite of his breaking down in a 
demonstration and construing <hi>nunc illas promite vires</hi>, as `now 
promise those men:' but now he suddenly felt at a disadvantage, because he 
knew less than some one else knew. There must be a world of things connected 
with that Swedish bark, which, if he only knew them, might have helped him to 
get on. It would have been much easier to make a figure with a spirited horse 
and a new saddle. 


</p>
               <p>Two hours ago, as Tom was walking to St Ogg's, he saw the distant future 
before him, as he might have seen a tempting stretch of smooth sandy beach 
beyond a belt of flinty shingles: he was on the grassy bank then, and thought 
the shingles might soon be passed. But now his feet were on the sharp stones: 
the belt of shingles had widened, and the stretch of sand had dwindled into 
narrowness. 


</p>
               <p>`What did my uncle Deane say, Tom?' said Maggie, putting her arm through 
Tom's as he was warming himself rather drearily by the kitchen fire. `Did he 
say he would give you a situation?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, he didn't say that. He didn't quite promise me anything: he seemed to 
think I couldn't have a very good situation. I'm too young.' 


</p>
               <p>`But didn't he speak kindly, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`Kindly? Pooh! what's the use of talking about that? I wouldn't care about 
his speaking kindly if I could get a situation. But it's such a nuisance and 
bother — I've been at school all this while learning Latin and things — not a 
bit of good to me — and now my uncle says, I must set about learning 
book-keeping and calculation and those things. He seems to make out I'm good 
for nothing.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom's mouth twitched with a bitter expression as he looked at the fire. 


</p>
               <p>`O what a pity we haven't got Dominie Sampson,' said Maggie, who couldn't 
help mingling some gaiety with their sadness. `If he had taught me 
book-keeping by double entry and after the Italian method, as he did Lucy 
Bertram, I could teach you, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>You</hi> teach! Yes, I daresay. That's always the tone you take,' said 
Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Dear Tom! I was only joking,' said Maggie, putting her cheek against his 
coat sleeve. 


</p>
               <p>`But it's always the same, Maggie,' said Tom, with the little frown he put on 
when he was about to be justifiably severe. `You're always setting yourself 
up above me and every one else. And I've wanted to tell you about it several 
times. You ought not to have spoken as you did to my uncles and aunts — you 
should leave it to me to take care of my mother and you, and not put yourself 
forward. You think you know better than any one, but you're almost always 
wrong. I can judge much better than you can.' 


</p>
               <p>Poor Tom! he had just come from being lectured and made to feel his 
inferiority: the reaction of his strong, self-asserting nature must take 
place somehow, and here was a case in which he could justly show himself 
dominant. Maggie's cheek flushed and her lip quivered with conflicting 
resentment and affection and a certain awe as well as admiration of Tom's 
firmer and more effective character. She did not answer immediately; very 
angry words rose to her lips, but they were driven back again, and she said 
at last, 


</p>
               <p>`You often think I'm conceited, Tom, when I don't mean what I say at all in 
that way. I don't mean to put myself above you — I know you behaved better 
than I did yesterday. But you are always so harsh to me, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>With the last words the resentment was rising again. 


</p>
               <p>`No, I'm not harsh,' said Tom, with severe decision. `I'm always kind to you; 
and so I shall be: I shall always take care of you. But you must mind what I 
say.' 


</p>
               <p>Their mother came in now, and Maggie rushed away, that her burst of tears, 
which she felt must come, might not happen till she was safe upstairs. They 
were very bitter tears: everybody in the world seemed so hard and unkind to 
Maggie: there was no indulgence, no fondness, such as she imagined when she 
fashioned the world afresh in her own thoughts. In books there were people 
who were always agreeable or tender, and delighted to do things that made one 
happy, and who did not show their kindness by finding fault. The world 
outside the books was not a happy one, Maggie felt: it seemed to be a world 
where people behaved the best to those they did not pretend to love and that 
did not belong to them. And if life had no love in it, what else was there 
for Maggie? Nothing but poverty and the companionship of her mother's narrow 
griefs — perhaps of her father's heart-cutting childish dependence. There is 
no hopelessness so sad as that of early youth, when the soul is made up of 
wants, and has no long memories, no superadded life in the life of others; 
though we who look on think lightly of such premature despair, as if our 
vision of the future lightened the blind sufferer's present. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie in her brown frock with her eyes reddened and her heavy hair pushed 
back, looking from the bed where her father lay, to the dull walls of this 
sad chamber which was the centre of her world, was a creature full of eager, 
passionate longings for all that was beautiful and glad: thirsty for all 
knowledge: with an ear straining after dreamy music that died away and would 
not come near to her: with a blind, unconscious yearning for something that 
would link together the wonderful impressions of this mysterious life and 
give her soul a sense of home in it. 


</p>
               <p>No wonder, when there is this contrast between the outward and the inward, 
that painful collisions come of it. A girl of no startling appearance, and 
who will never be a Sappho or a Madame Roland or anything else that the world 
takes wide note of, may still hold forces within her as the living plant-seed 
does, which will make a way for themselves, often in a shattering, violent 
manner. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.6" type="chapter">
               <head>Tending to Refute the Popular Prejudice against the Present of a Pocket-Knife</head>
               <p>IN that dark time of December the sale of the household furniture lasted 
beyond the middle of the second day. Mr Tulliver, who had begun, in his 
intervals of consciousness, to manifest an irritability which often appeared 
to have as a direct effect the recurrence of spasmodic rigidity and 
insensibility, had lain in this living death throughout the critical hours 
when the noise of the sale came nearest to his chamber. Mr Turnbull had 
decided that it would be a less risk to let him remain where he was, than to 
move him to Luke's cottage, a plan which the good Luke had proposed to Mrs 
Tulliver, thinking it would be very bad if the master were `to waken up' at 
the noise of the sale; and the wife and children had sat imprisoned in the 
silent chamber, watching the large prostrate figure on the bed, and trembling 
lest the blank face should suddenly show some response to the sounds which 
fell on their own ears with such obstinate, painful repetition. 


</p>
               <p>But it was over at last — that time of importunate certainty and 
eye-straining suspense. The sharp sound of a voice almost as metallic as the 
rap that followed it had ceased; the tramping of footsteps on the gravel had 
died out. Mrs Tulliver's blond face seemed aged ten years by the last thirty 
hours: the poor woman's mind had been busy divining when her favourite things 
were being knocked down by the terrible hammer, her heart had been fluttering 
at the thought that first one thing and then another had gone to be 
identified as hers in the hateful publicity of the Golden Lion; and all the 
while she had to sit and make no sign of this inward agitation. Such things 
bring lines in well-rounded faces, and broaden the streaks of white among the 
hairs that once looked as if they had been dipped in pure sunshine. Already 
at three o'clock, Kezia, the good-hearted, bad-tempered housemaid, who 
regarded all people that came to the sale as her personal enemies, the dirt 
on whose feet was of a peculiarly vile quality, had begun to scrub and swill 
with an energy much assisted by a continual low muttering against `folks as 
came to buy up other folks's things,' and made light of `scrazing' the tops 
of mahogany tables over which better folks than themselves had had to — 
suffer a waste of tissue through evaporation. She was not scrubbing 
indiscriminately, for there would be further dirt of the same atrocious kind 
made by people who had still to fetch away their purchases: but she was bent 
on bringing the parlour, where that `pipe-smoking pig' the bailiff had sat, 
to such an appearance of scant comfort as could be given to it by cleanliness 
and the few articles of furniture bought in for the family. Her mistress and 
the young folks should have their tea in it that night, Kezia was determined. 


</p>
               <p>It was between five and six o'clock, near the usual teatime, when she came 
up-stairs and said that Master Tom was wanted. The person who wanted him was 
in the kitchen, and in the first moments, by the imperfect fire and 
candlelight Tom had not even an indefinite sense of any acquaintance with the 
rather broad-set but active figure, perhaps two years older than himself, 
that looked at him with a pair of blue eyes set in a disc of freckles, and 
pulled some curly red locks with a strong intention of respect. A low-crowned 
oilskin-covered hat and a certain shiny deposit of dirt on the rest of the 
costume, as of tables prepared for writing upon, suggested a calling that had 
to do with boats, but this did not help Tom's memory. 


</p>
               <p>`Sarvant, Mr Tom,' said he of the red locks, with a smile which seemed to 
break through a self-imposed air of melancholy. `You don' know me again, I 
doubt,' he went on, as Tom continued to look at him inquiringly, `but I'd 
like to talk to you by yourself a bit, please.' 


</p>
               <p>`There's a fire i' the parlour, Mr Tom,' said Kezia, who objected to leaving 
the kitchen in the crises of toasting. 


</p>
               <p>`Come this way, then,' said Tom, wondering if this young fellow belonged to 
Guest &amp; Co.'s Wharf; for his imagination ran continually towards that 
particular spot, and uncle Deane might any time be sending for him to say 
that there was a situation at liberty. 


</p>
               <p>The bright fire in the parlour was the only light that showed the few chairs, 
the bureau, the carpetless floor and the one table — no, not the <hi>one</hi>
table: there was a second table in a corner, with a large Bible and a few 
other books upon it. It was this new strange bareness that Tom felt first, 
before he thought of looking again at the face which was also lit up by the 
fire, and which stole a half-shy, questioning glance at him as the entirely 
strange voice said— 


</p>
               <p>`Why! you don't remember Bob, then, as you gen the pocket knife, Mr Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>The rough-handled pocket knife was taken out in the same moment and the 
largest blade opened by way of irresistible demonstration. 


</p>
               <p>`What! Bob Jakin?' said Tom — not with any cordial delight, for he felt a 
little ashamed of that early intimacy symbolised by the pocket-knife, and was 
not at all sure that Bob's motives for recalling it were entirely admirable. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, Bob Jakin — if Jakin it must be, 'cause there's so many Bobs as you 
went arter the squerrils with, that day as I plumped right down from the 
bough, and bruised my shins a good un — but I got the squerril tight for all 
that, an' a scratter it war. An' this littlish blade's broke, you see, but I 
wouldn't hev a new un put in, 'cause they might be cheatin' me an' givin' me 
another knife istid, for there isn't such a blade i' the country — it's got 
used to my hand, like. An' there was niver nobody else gen me nothin' but 
what I got by my own sharpness, only you, Mr Tom; if it wasn't Bill Fawks as 
gen me the terrier pup istid o' drowndin' it, and' I had to jaw him a good un 
afore he'd give it me.' 


</p>
               <p>Bob spoke with a sharp and rather treble volubility, and got through his long 
speech with surprising despatch, giving the blade of his knife an 
affectionate rub on his sleeve when he had finished. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bob,' said Tom, with a slight air of patronage, the foregoing 
reminiscences having disposed him to be as friendly as was becoming, though 
there was no part of his acquaintance with Bob that he remembered better than 
the cause of their parting quarrel, `is there anything I can do for you?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, no, Mr Tom,' answered Bob, shutting up his knife with a click and 
returning it to his pocket, where he seemed to be feeling for something else. 
`I shouldn't ha' come back upon you now you're i' trouble an' folks say as 
the master, as I used to frighten the birds for, an' he flogged me a bit for 
fun when he catched me eatin' the turnip, as they say he'll niver lift up his 
yead no more — I shouldn't ha' come now to ax you to gi' me another knife 
'cause you gen me one afore. If a chap gives me one black eye, that's enough 
for me: I shan't ax him for another afore I sarve him out: an' a good turn's 
worth as much as a bad un, anyhow. I shall niver grow down'ards again, Mr 
Tom, an' you war the little chap as I liked the best when <hi>I</hi> war a 
little chap, for all you leathered me, and wouldn't look at me again. There's 
Dick Brumby, there, I could leather him as much as I'd a mind: but lors! you 
get tried o' leatherin' a chap when you can niver make him see what you want 
him to shy at. I'n seen chaps as 'ud stand starin' at a bough till their eyes 
shot out, afore they'd see as a bird's tail warn't a leaf. It's poor work 
goin' wi' such raff — but you war allays a rare un at shying, Mr Tom, an' I 
could trusten you for droppin' down wi' your stick in the nick o' time at a 
runnin'rot, or a stoat, or that, when I war a-beatin' the bushes.' 


</p>
               <p>Bob had drawn out a dirty canvas bag, and would perhaps not have paused just 
then, if Maggie had not entered the room and darted a look of surprise and 
curiosity at him, whereupon he pulled his red locks again with due respect. 
But the next moment the sense of the altered room came upon Maggie with a 
force that overpowered the thought of Bob's presence. Her eyes had 
immediately glanced from him to the place where the bookcase had hung; there 
was nothing now but the oblong unfaded space on the wall, and below it the 
small table with the Bible and the few other books. 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom,' she burst out, clasping her hands, `where are the books? I thought 
my uncle Glegg said he would buy them — didn't he? — are those all they've 
left us?' 


</p>
               <p>`I suppose so,' said Tom, with a sort of desperate indifference. `Why should 
they buy many books when they bought so little furniture?' 


</p>
               <p>`O but, Tom,' said Maggie, her eyes filling with tears, as she rushed up to 
the table to see what books had been rescued. `Our dear old Pilgrim's 
Progress that you coloured with your little paints, and that picture of 
Pilgrim with a mantle on, looking just like a turtle — O dear!' Maggie went 
on, half sobbing as she turned over the few books. `I thought we should never 
part with that while we lived — everything is going away from us — the end of 
our lives will have nothing in it like the beginning!' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie turned away from the table and threw herself into a chair with the big 
tears ready to roll down her cheeks — quite blinded to the presence of Bob, 
who was looking at her with the pursuant gaze of an intelligent dumb animal, 
with perceptions more perfect than his comprehension. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bob,' said Tom, feeling that the subject of the books was 
unseasonable, `I suppose you just came to see me because we're in trouble? 
That was very good natured of you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'll tell you how it is, Master Tom,' said Bob, beginning to untwist his 
canvas bag. `You see, I'n been with a barge this two 'ear — that's how I'n 
been gettin' my livin' — if it wasn't when I was tentin' the furnace between 
whiles at Torry's mill. But a fortni't ago I'd a rare bit o' luck — I allays 
thought I was a lucky chap, for I niver set a trap but what I catched 
so'thing — but this wasn't a trap, it was a fire i' Torry's mill, an' I 
doused it, else it 'ud ha' set th' oil alight, an' the genelman gen me ten 
suvreigns — he gen me 'em himself last week. An' he said first, I was a 
sperrited chap — but I knowed that afore — but then he outs wi' the ten 
suvreigns, an' that war summat new. Here they are — all but one!' Here Bob 
emptied the canvas bag on the table. `An' when I'd got 'em, my head was all 
of a boil like a kettle o' broth, thinkin' what sort o' life I should take to 
— for there war a many trades I'd thought on, for as for the barge I'm clean 
tired out wi't, for it pulls the days out till they're as long as pig's 
chitterlings. An' I thought first I'd ha'ferrets an' dogs an' be a rotketcher 
an' then I thought as I should like a bigger way o' life, as I didn't know so 
well; for I'n seen to the bottom o' rotketching; an' I thought an'thought 
till at last I settled I'd be a packman, for they're knowin' fellers, the 
packmen are — an' I'd carry the lightest things I could i' my pack — an' 
there'd be a use for a feller's tongue, as is no use, neither wi' rots nor 
barges. An' I should go about the country far an' wide, an' come round the 
women wi' my tongue, an' get my dinner hot at the public — lors, it 'ud be a 
lovely life!' 


</p>
               <p>Bob paused, and then said, with defiant decision, as if resolutely turning 
his back on that paradisaic picture— 


</p>
               <p>`But I don't mind about it, not a chip! An' I'n changed one o' the suvreigns 
to buy my mother a goose for dinner, an' I'n bought a blue plush wescoat an' 
a sealskin cap — for if I meant to be a packman, I'd do it respectable. But I 
don't mind about it — not a chip! My yead isn't turnup, an' I shall p'r'aps 
have a chance o' dousing another fire before long — I'm a lucky chap. So I'll 
thank you to take the nine suvreigns, Mr Tom, and set yoursen up with 'em 
somehow, if it's true as the master's broke. They mayn't go fur enough — but 
they'll help.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was touched keenly enough to forget his pride and suspicion. 


</p>
               <p>`You're a very kind fellow, Bob,' he said colouring, with that little, 
diffident tremor in his voice which gave a certain charm even to Tom's pride 
and severity, `and I sha'n't forget you again, though I didn't know you this 
evening. But I can't take the nine sovereigns: I should be taking your little 
fortune from you, and they wouldn't do me much good either.' 


</p>
               <p>`Wouldn't they, Mr Tom?' said Bob regretfully. `Now don't say so 'cause you 
think I want 'em. I aren't a poor chap: my mother gets a good penn'orth wi' 
picking feathers an' things, an' if she eats nothin' but bread an' water it 
runs to fat: an' I'm such a lucky chap — an' I doubt you aren't quite so 
lucky Mr Tom — th' old master isn't, anyhow — an'so you might take a slice o' 
my luck, an' no harm done. Lors! I found a leg o' port i' the river one day — 
it had tumbled out o' one o' them round-sterned Dutchmen, I'll be bound. 
Come, think better on it, Mr Tom, for old 'quinetance sake — else I shall 
think you bear me a grudge.' 


</p>
               <p>Bob pushed the sovereigns forward, but before Tom could speak, Maggie, 
clasping her hands and looking penitently at Bob, said, 


</p>
               <p>`O, I'm sorry, Bob — I never thought you were so good. Why, I think you're 
the kindest person in the world!' 


</p>
               <p>Bob had not been aware of the injurious opinion for which Maggie was 
performing an inward act of penitence, but he smiled with pleasure at this 
handsome eulogy, especially from a young lass who, as he informed his mother 
that evening, had `such uncommon eyes, they looked somehow as they made him 
feel nohow.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, indeed, Bob, I can't take them,' said Tom, `but don't think I feel your 
kindness less because I say no. I don't want to take anything from anybody, 
but to work my own way. And those sovereigns wouldn't help me much — they 
wouldn't really — if I were to take them. Let me shake hands with you 
instead.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom put out his pink palm, and Bob was not slow to place his hard, grimy hand 
within it. 


</p>
               <p>`Let me put the sovereigns in the bag again,' said Maggie, `and you'll come 
and see us when you've bought your pack, Bob.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's like as if I'd come out o' make-believe, o' purpose to show 'em you,' 
said Bob, with an air of discontent as Maggie gave him the bag again 
`a-taking 'em back i' this way. I <hi>am</hi> a bit of a Do, you know, but it 
isn't that sort o' Do: it's on'y when a feller's a big rogue or a big flat, I 
like to let him in a bit, that's all.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, don't you be up to any tricks Bob,' said Tom, `else you'll get 
transported some day.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no; not me Master Tom,' said Bob, with an air of cheerful confidence. 
`There's no law again' flea-bites. If I wasn't to take a fool in now and 
then, he'd niver get any wiser. But, lors! hev a suvreign to buy you and Miss 
summat, on'y for a token — just to match my pocket knife.' 


</p>
               <p>While Bob was speaking he laid down the sovereign and resolutely twisted up 
his bag again. Tom pushed back the gold, and said, `No, indeed, Bob: thank 
you heartily; but I can't take it.' And Maggie, taking it between her 
fingers, held it up to Bob, and said more persuasively, 


</p>
               <p>`Not now — but perhaps another time. If ever Tom or my father wants help that 
you can give, we'll let you know — won't we, Tom? That's what you would like 
— to have us always depend on you as a friend that we can go to — isn't it, 
Bob?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Miss, and thank you,' said Bob, reluctantly taking the money, `that's 
what I'd like — anything as you like. An'I wish you good-by, Miss, and good 
luck, Master Tom, and thank you for shaking hands wi' me, <hi>though</hi> you 
wouldn't take the money.' 


</p>
               <p>Kezia's entrance, with very black looks, to inquire if she shouldn't bring in 
tea now, or whether the toast was to get hardened to a brick, was a 
seasonable check on Bob's flux of words, and hastened his parting bow. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.7" type="chapter">
               <head>How a Hen Takes To Stratagem</head>
               <p>THE days passed, and Mr Tulliver showed, at least to the eyes of the medical 
man, stronger and stronger symptoms of a gradual return to his normal 
condition: the paralytic obstruction was, little by little, losing its 
tenacity, and the mind was rising from under it with fitful struggles, like a 
living creature making its way from under a great snowdrift that slides and 
slides again, and shuts up the newly made opening. 


</p>
               <p>Time would have seemed to creep to the watchers by the bed, if it had only 
been measured by the doubtful distant hope which kept count of the moments 
within the chamber: but it was measured for them by a fast-approaching dread 
which made the nights come too quickly. While Mr Tulliver was slowly becoming 
himself again, his lot was hastening towards its moment of most palpable 
change. The taxing-masters had done their work like any respectable gunsmith 
conscientiously preparing the musket that, duly pointed by a brave arm, will 
spoil a life or two. Allocaturs, filing of bills in Chancery, decrees of 
sale, are legal chain-shot or bomb-shells that can never hit a solitary mark 
but must fall with widespread shattering. So deeply inherent is it in this 
life of ours that men have to suffer for each other's sins, so inevitably 
diffusive is human suffering, that even justice makes its victims, and we can 
conceive no retribution that does not spread beyond its mark in pulsations of 
unmerited pain. 


</p>
               <p>By the beginning of the second week in January the bills were out advertising 
the sale, under a decree of Chancery, of Mr Tulliver's farming and other 
stock to be followed by a sale of the mill and land held in the proper 
after-dinner hour at the Golden Lion. The miller himself, unaware of the 
lapse of time, fancied himself still in that first stage of his misfortunes 
when expedients might be thought of; and often in his conscious hours talked 
in a feeble, disjointed manner, of plans he would carry out when he `got 
well.' The wife and children were not without hope of an issue that would at 
least save Mr Tulliver from leaving the old spot and seeking an entirely 
strange life. For uncle Deane had been induced to interest himself in this 
stage of the business. It would not, he acknowledged, be a bad speculation 
for Guest and Co. to buy Dorlcote Mill and carry on the business, which was a 
good one, and might be increased by the addition of steam power: in which 
case Tulliver might be retained as manager. Still Mr Deane would say nothing 
decided about the matter: the fact that Wakem held the mortgage on the land 
might put in into his head to bid for the whole estate, and further, to 
outbid the cautious firm of Guest and Co. who did not carry on business on 
sentimental grounds. Mr Deane was obliged to tell Mrs Tulliver something to 
that effect, when he rode over to the mill to inspect the books in company 
with Mrs Glegg: for she had observed that `if Guest and Co. would only think 
about it, Mr Tulliver's father and grandfather had been carrying on Dorlcote 
Mill long before the oil-mill of that firm had been so much as thought of.' 
Mr Deane, in reply, doubted whether that was precisely the relation between 
the two mills which would determine their value as investments. As for uncle 
Glegg, the thing lay quite beyond his imagination: the goodnatured man felt 
sincere pity for the Tulliver family, but his money was all locked up in 
excellent mortgages and he could run no risk: that would be unfair to his own 
relatives: but he had made up his mind that Tulliver should have some new 
flannel waistcoats which he had himself renounced in favour of a more elastic 
commodity, and that he would buy Mrs Tulliver a pound of tea now and then: it 
would be a journey which his benevolence delighted in beforehand, to carry 
the tea and see her pleasure on being assured it was the best black. 


</p>
               <p>Still, it was clear that Mr Deane was kindly disposed towards the Tullivers. 
One day he had brought Lucy, who was come home for the Christmas holidays, 
and the little blond angel-head had pressed itself against Maggie's darker 
cheek with many kisses and some tears. These fair slim daughters keep up a 
tender spot in the heart of many a respectable partner in a respectable firm, 
and perhaps Lucy's anxious pitying questions about her poor cousins helped to 
make uncle Deane more prompt in finding Tom a temporary place in the 
warehouse, and in putting him in the way of getting evening lessons in 
book-keeping and calculation. 


</p>
               <p>That might have cheered the lad and fed his hopes a little, if there had not 
come at the same time the much-dreaded blow of finding that his father must 
be a bankrupt, after all: — at least, the creditors must be asked to take 
less than their due, which to Tom's untechnical mind was the same thing as 
bankruptcy. His father must not only be said to have `lost his property,' but 
to have `failed' — the word that carried the worst obloquy to Tom's mind. For 
when the defendant's claim for costs had been satisfied, there would remain 
the friendly bill of Mr Gore, and the deficiency at the bank as well as the 
other debts, which would make the assets shrink into unequivocal 
disproportion: `not more than ten or twelve shillings in the pound,' 
predicted Mr Deane, in a decided tone, tightening his lips; and the words 
fell on Tom like a scalding liquid, leaving a continual smart. 


</p>
               <p>He was sadly in want of something to keep up his spirits a little in the 
unpleasant newness of his position — suddenly transported from the easy 
carpeted ennui of study-hours at Mr Stelling's, and the busy idleness of 
castle-building in a `last half' at school, to the companionship of sacks and 
hides, and bawling men thundering down heavy weights at his elbow. The first 
step towards getting on in the world was a chill, dusty, noisy affair, and 
implied going without one's tea in order to stay in St Ogg's and have an 
evening lesson from a one-armed elderly clerk, in a room smelling strongly of 
bad tobacco. Tom's young pink and white face had its colours very much 
deadened by the time he took off his hat at home and sat down with keen 
hunger to his supper. No wonder he was a little cross if his mother or Maggie 
spoke to him. 


</p>
               <p>But all this while, Mrs Tulliver was brooding over a scheme by which she and 
no one else, would avert the result most to be dreaded, and prevent Wakem 
from entertaining the purpose of bidding for the mill. Imagine a truly 
respectable and amiable hen, by some portentous anomaly, taking to reflection 
and inventing combinations by which she might prevail on Hodge not to wring 
her neck or send her and her chicks to market: the result could hardly be 
other than much cackling and fluttering. Mrs Tulliver, seeing that everything 
had gone wrong, had begun to think that she had been too passive in life, and 
that, if she had applied her mind to business, and taken a strong resolution 
now and then, it would have been all the better for her and her family. 
Nobody, it appeared, had thought of going to speak to Wakem on this business 
of the mill, and yet, Mrs Tulliver reflected, it would have been quite the 
shortest method of securing the right end. It would have been of no use, to 
be sure, for Mr Tulliver to go — even if he had been able and willing — for 
he had been `going to law against Wakem' and abusing him for the last ten 
years; Wakem was always likely to have a spite against him. And now that Mrs 
Tulliver had come to the conclusion that her husband was very much in the 
wrong to bring her into this trouble, she was inclined to think that his 
opinion of Wakem was wrong too. To be sure, Wakem had `put the bailies in the 
house and sold them up,' but she supposed he did that to please the man that 
lent Mr Tulliver the money, for a lawyer had more folks to please than one, 
and he wasn't likely to put Mr Tulliver who had gone to law with him above 
everybody else in the world. The attorney might be a very reasonable man — 
why not? — He had married a Miss Clint, and at the time Mrs Tulliver had 
heard of that marriage, the summer when she wore her blue satin spencer, and 
had not yet any thoughts of Mr Tulliver, she knew no harm of Wakem. And 
certainly towards herself — whom he knew to have been a Miss Dodson — it was 
out of all possibility that he could entertain anything but good will, when 
it was once brought home to his observation that she, for her part, had never 
wanted to go to law, and indeed was at present disposed to take Mr Wakem's 
view of all subjects rather than her husband's. In fact, if that attorney saw 
a respectable matron like herself disposed `to give him good words' why 
shouldn't he listen to her representations? For she would put the matter 
clearly before him which had never been done yet. And he would never go and 
bid for the mill on purpose to spite her, an innocent woman, who thought it 
likely enough that she had danced with him in their youth at Squire 
Darleigh's, for at those big dances she had often and often danced with young 
men whose names she had forgotten. 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver hid these reasonings in her own bosom; for when she had thrown 
out a hint to Mr Deane and Mr Glegg, that she wouldn't mind going to speak to 
Wakem herself, they had said, `No, no, no,' and `Pooh, pooh,' and `Let Wakem 
alone,' in the tone of men who were not likely to give a candid attention to 
a more definite exposition of her project. Still less dared she mention the 
plan to Tom and Maggie, for `the children were always so against everything 
their mother said,' and Tom, she observed, was almost as much set against 
Wakem as his father was. But this unusual concentration of thought naturally 
gave Mrs Tulliver an unusual power of device and determination, and a day or 
two before the sale to be held at the Golden Lion, when there was no longer 
any time to be lost she carried out her plan by a stratagem. There were 
pickles in question — a large stock of pickles and ketchup which Mrs Tulliver 
possessed and which Mr Hyndmarsh the grocer would certainly purchase if she 
could transact the business in a personal interview, so she would walk with 
Tom to St Ogg's that morning: and when Tom urged that she might let the 
pickles be, at present — he didn't like her to go about just yet — she 
appeared so hurt at this conduct in her son, contradicting her about pickles 
which she had made after the family receipts inherited from his own 
grandmother who had died when his mother was a little girl, that he gave way, 
and they walked together until she turned towards Danish Street, where Mr 
Hyndmarsh retailed his grocery, not far from the offices of Mr Wakem. 


</p>
               <p>That gentleman was not yet come to his office: would Mrs Tulliver sit down by 
the fire in his private room and wait for him? She had not long to wait 
before the punctual attorney entered, knitting his brow with an examining 
glance at the stout blond woman who rose, curtsying deferentially: — a 
tallish man, with an aquiline nose and abundant iron-grey hair. You have 
never seen Mr Wakem before, and are possibly wondering whether he was really 
as eminent a rascal and as crafty, bitter an enemy of honest humanity in 
general and of Mr Tulliver in particular, as he is represented to be in that 
eidolon or portrait of him which we have seen to exist in the miller's mind. 


</p>
               <p>It is clear that the irascible miller was a man to interpret any chance shot 
that grazed him as an attempt on his own life, and was liable to 
entanglements in this puzzling world which, due consideration had to his own 
infallibility, required the hypothesis of a very active diabolical agency to 
explain them. It is still possible to believe that the attorney was not more 
guilty towards him, than an ingenious machine which performs its work with 
much regularity is guilty towards the rash man who, venturing too near it, is 
caught up by some fly-wheel or other, and suddenly converted into unexpected 
sausages. 


</p>
               <p>But it is really impossible to decide this question by a glance at his 
person: the lines and lights of the human countenance are like other symbols 
— not always easy to read without a key. On an <hi>a priori</hi> view of 
Wakem's aquiline nose which offended Mr Tulliver there was not more rascality 
than in the shape of his stiff shirt collar, though this too, along with his 
nose, might have become fraught with damnatory meaning when once the 
rascality was ascertained. 


</p>
               <p>`Mrs Tulliver, I think?' said Mr Wakem. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, sir, Miss Elizabeth Dodson as was.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pray be seated. You have some business with me?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, sir, yes,' said Mrs Tulliver, beginning to feel alarmed at her own 
courage now she was really in presence of the formidable man, and reflecting 
that she had not settled with herself how she should begin. Mr Wakem felt in 
his waistcoat pockets and looked at her in silence. 


</p>
               <p>`I hope, sir,' she began at last, `I hope, sir, you're not a-thinking as 
<hi>I</hi> bear you any ill-will because o' my husband's losing his lawsuit, 
and the bailies being put in, and the linen being sold — O dear!... for I 
wasn't brought up in that way. I'm sure you remember my father, sir, for he 
was close friends with Squire Darleigh, and we allays went to the dances 
there — the Miss Dodsons — nobody could be more looked on — and justly, for 
there was four of us, and you're quite aware as Mrs Glegg and Mrs Deane are 
my sisters. And as for going to law and losing money and having sales before 
you're dead, I never saw anything o' that before I was married nor for a long 
while after. And I'm not to be answerable for my bad luck i' marrying out o' 
my own family into one where the goings-on was different. And as for being 
drawn in t' abuse you as other folks abuse you, sir, <hi>that</hi> I niver 
was, and nobody can say it of me.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver shook her head a little and looked at the hem of her pocket 
handkerchief. 


</p>
               <p>`I've no doubt of what you say, Mrs Tulliver,' said Mr Wakem, with cold 
politeness. `But you have some question to ask me?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, sir, yes. But that's what I've said to myself — I've said you'd have 
some nat'ral feeling; and as for my husband as hasn't been himself for this 
two months, I'm not a-defending him, in no way, for being so hot about th' 
erigation — not but what there's worse men, for he never wronged nobody of a 
shilling nor a penny, not willingly — and as for his fieriness and lawing, 
what could I do? And him struck as if it was with death when he got the 
letter as said you'd the hold upo' the land. But I can't believe but what 
you'll behave as a gentleman.' 


</p>
               <p>`What does all this mean, Mrs Tulliver?' said Mr Wakem, rather sharply. `What 
do you want to ask me?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, sir, if you'll be so good,' said Mrs Tulliver, starting a little, and 
speaking more hurriedly, `if you'll be so good not to buy the mill an' the 
land — the land wouldn't so much matter, only my husband 'ull be like mad at 
your having it.' 


</p>
               <p>Something like a new thought flashed across Mr Wakem's face as he said, `Who 
told you I meant to buy it?' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, sir, it's none o' my inventing and I should never ha' thought of it, 
for my husband, as ought to know about the law, he allays used to say as 
lawyers had never no call to buy anything — either lands or houses — for they 
allays got 'em into their hands other ways. An' I should think that 'ud be 
the way with you, sir and I niver said as you'd be the man to do contrairy to 
that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, well, who was it that <hi>did</hi> say so?' said Wakem, opening his 
desk, and moving things about, with the accompaniment of an almost inaudible 
whistle. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, sir, it was Mr Glegg and Mr Deane, as have all the management: and Mr 
Deane thinks as Guest and Co. 'ud buy the mill and let Mr Tulliver work it 
for 'em, if you didn't bid for it and raise the price. And it 'ud be such a 
thing for my husband to stay where he is, if he could get his living: for it 
was his father's before him, the mill was, and his grandfather built it, 
though I wasn't fond o' the noise of it, when first I was married, for there 
was no mills in our family — not the Dodsons — and if I'd known as the mills 
had so much to do with the law, it wouldn't have been me as 'ud have been the 
first Dodson to marry one; but I went into it blindfold, that I did, 
erigation and everything.' 


</p>
               <p>`What — Guest and Co. would keep the mill in their own hands, I suppose, and 
pay your husband wages?' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, sir, it's hard to think of,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, a little tear 
making its way, `as my husband should take wage. But it 'ud look more like 
what used to be, to stay at the mill, than to go anywhere else. And if you'll 
only think — if you was to bid for the mill and buy it, my husband might be 
struck worse than he was before, and niver get better again as he's getting 
now.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but if I bought the mill, and allowed your husband to act as my 
manager in the same way — how then?' said Mr Wakem. 


</p>
               <p>`O sir, I doubt he could niver he got to do it, not if the very mill stood 
still to beg and pray of him. For your name's like poison to him, it's so as 
never was, and he looks upon it as you've been the ruin of him all along, 
ever since you set the law on him about the road through the meadow — that's 
eight year ago, and he's been going on ever since — as I've allays told him 
he was wrong... ' 


</p>
               <p>`He's a pig-headed, foul-mouthed fool!' burst out Mr Wakem, forgetting 
himself. 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, sir!' said Mrs Tulliver, frightened at a result so different from 
the one she had fixed her mind on, `I wouldn't wish to contradict you, but 
it's like enough he's changed his mind with this illness — he's forgot a many 
things he used to talk about. And you wouldn't like to have a corpse on your 
mind, if he was to die; and they <hi>do</hi> say as it's allays unlucky when 
Dorlcote Mill changes hands, and the water might all run away and 
<hi>then</hi>... not as I'm wishing you any ill-luck, sir, for I forgot to 
tell you as I remember your wedding as if it was yesterday — Mrs Wakem was a 
Miss Clint, I know <hi>that</hi> — and my boy, as there isn't nicer, 
handsomer, straiter boy nowhere, went to school with your son... ' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Wakem rose, opened the door and called to one of his clerks. 


</p>
               <p>`You must excuse me for interrupting you, Mrs Tulliver, I have business that 
must be attended to; and I think there is nothing more, necessary to be 
said.' 


</p>
               <p>`But if you <hi>would</hi> bear it in mind, sir,' said Mrs Tulliver, rising, 
`and not run against me and my children — and I'm not denying Mr Tulliver's 
been in the wrong, but he's been punished enough, and there's worse men, for 
it's been giving to other folks has been his fault — he's done nobody any 
harm but himself and his family — the more's the pity — and I go and look at 
the bare shelves every day and think where all my things used to stand.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes, I'll bear it in mind,' said Mr Wakem hastily, looking towards the 
open door. 


</p>
               <p>`And if you'd please not to say as I've been to speak to you, for my son 'ud 
be very angry with me for demeaning myself, I know he would, and I've trouble 
enough without being scolded by my children.' 


</p>
               <p>Poor Mrs Tulliver's voice trembled a little, and she could make no answer to 
the attorney's `good morning,' but curtsied and walked out in silence. 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>Which</hi> day is it that Dorlcote Mill is to be sold? Where's the 
bill?' said Mr Wakem to his clerk when they were alone. 


</p>
               <p>`Next Friday is the day: Friday, at six o'clock.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh; just run to Winship's, the auctioneer — and see if he's at home. I have 
some business for him: ask him to come up.' 


</p>
               <p>Although when Mr Wakem entered his office that morning, he had had no 
intention of purchasing Dorlcote Mill, his mind was already made up: Mrs 
Tulliver had suggested to him several determining motives, and his mental 
glance was very rapid: he was one of those men who can be prompt without 
being rash, because their motives run in fixed tracks, and they have no need 
to reconcile conflicting aims. 


</p>
               <p>To suppose that Wakem had the same sort of inveterate hatred towards 
Tulliver, that Tulliver had towards him, would be like supposing that a pike 
and a roach can look at each other from a similar point of view. The roach 
necessarily abhors the mode in which the pike gets his living, and the pike 
is likely to think nothing further even of the most indignant roach than that 
he is excellent good eating: it could only be when the roach choked him that 
the pike could entertain a strong personal animosity. If Mr Tulliver had ever 
seriously injured or thwarted the attorney, Wakem would not have refused him 
the distinction of being a special object of vindictiveness. But when Mr 
Tulliver called Wakem a rascal at the market dinner-table, the attorney's 
clients were not a whit inclined to withdraw their business from him, and if 
when Wakem himself happened to be present, some jocose cattle-feeder, 
stimulated by opportunity and brandy, made a thrust at him by alluding to old 
ladies' wills, he maintained perfect <hi>sang-froid</hi>, and knew quite well 
that the majority of substantial men then present were perfectly contented 
with the fact that `Wakem was Wakem,' that is to say, a man who always knew 
the step-ping-stones that would carry him through very muddy bits of 
practice. A man who had made a large fortune, had a handsome house among the 
trees at Tofton, and decidedly the finest stock of port wine in the 
neighbourhood of St Ogg's, was likely to feel himself on a level with public 
opinion. And I am not sure that even honest Mr Tulliver himself, with his 
general view of law as a cock-pit, might not, under opposite circumstances, 
have seen a fine appropriateness in the truth that `Wakem was Wakem;' since I 
have understood from persons versed in history, that mankind is not disposed 
to look narrowly into the conduct of great victors when their victory is on 
the right side. Tulliver, then, could be no obstruction to Wakem: on the 
contrary he was a poor devil whom the lawyer had defeated several times — a 
hot-tempered fellow, who would always give you a handle against him. Wakem's 
conscience was not uneasy because he had used a few tricks against the 
miller: why should he hate that unsuccessful plaintiff — that pitiable, 
furious bull entangled in the meshes of a net? 


</p>
               <p>Still, among the various excesses to which human nature is subject, moralists 
have never numbered that of being too fond of the people who openly revile 
us. The successful Yellow candidate for the borough of Old Topping perhaps 
fells no pursuant meditative hatred toward the Blue tor who consoles his 
subscribers with vituperative rhetoric against Yellow men who sell their 
country and are the demons of private life: but he might not be sorry, if law 
and opportunity favoured, to kick that Blue editor to a deeper shade of his 
favourite colour. Prosperous men take a little vengeance now and then, as 
they take a diversion, when it comes easily in their way and is no hindrance 
to business; and such small unimpassioned revenges have an enormous effect in 
life, running through all degrees of pleasant infliction, blocking the fit 
men out of places, and blackening characters in unpremeditated talk. Still 
more, to see people who have been only insignificantly offensive to us, 
reduced in life and humiliated without any special efforts of ours is apt to 
have a soothing, flattering influence: Providence, or some other prince of 
this world, it appears, has undertaken the task of retribution for us; and 
really, by an agreeable constitution of things, our enemies, somehow, 
<hi>don't</hi> prosper. 


</p>
               <p>Wakem was not without this parenthetic vindictiveness towards the 
uncomplimentary miller, and now Mrs Tulliver had put the notion into his head 
it presented itself to him as a pleasure to do the very thing that would 
cause Mr Tulliver the most deadly mortification, and a pleasure of a complex 
kind, not made up of crude malice but mingling with it the relish of 
self-approbation. To see an enemy humiliated gives a certain contentment, but 
this is jejune compared with the highly blent satisfaction of seeing him 
humiliated by your benevolent action of concession on his behalf. That is a 
sort of revenge which falls into the scale of virtue, and Wakem was not 
without an intention of keeping that scale respectably filled. He had once 
had the pleasure of putting an old enemy of his into one of the St Ogg's 
almshouses, to the rebuilding of which he had given a large subscription; and 
here was an opportunity of providing for another by making him his own 
servant. Such things give a completeness to prosperity, and contribute 
elements of agreeable consciousness that are not dreamed of by that 
short-sighted overheated vindictiveness, which goes out of its way to wreak 
itself in direct injury. And Tulliver with his rough tongue field by a sense 
of obligation, would make a better servant than any chance fellow who was 
cap-in-hand for a situation. Tulliver was known to be a man of proud honesty, 
and Wakem was too acute not to believe in the existence of honesty. He was 
given to observing individuals, not to judging of them according to maxims, 
and no one knew better than he, that all men were not like himself. Besides 
he intended to overlook the whole business of land and mill pretty closely: 
he was fond of these practical rural matters. But there were good reasons for 
purchasing Dorlcote Mill, quite apart form any benevolent vengeance on the 
miller. It was really a capital investment; besides, Guest &amp; Co. were going 
to bid for it. Mr Guest and Mr Wakem were on friendly dining terms, and the 
attorney liked to predominate over a ship-owner and mill-owner who was a 
little too loud in the town affairs as well as in his table talk. For Wakem 
was not a mere man of business: he was considered a pleasant fellow in the 
upper circles at Ogg's, chatted amusingly over his port wine, did a little 
amateur farming, and had certainly been an excellent husband and father: at 
church, when he went there, he sat under the handsomest of mural monuments 
erected to the memory of his wife. Most men would have married again under 
his circumstances but he was said to be more tender to his deformed son than 
most men were to their best shapen offspring. Not that Mr Wakem had not other 
sons besides Philip, but towards them he held only a chiaroscuro parentage, 
and provided for them in a grade of life duly beneath his own. In this fact, 
indeed, there lay the clenching motive to the purchase of Dorlcote Mill. 
While Mrs Tulliver was talking, it had occurred to the rapid-minded lawyer, 
among all the other circumstances of the case, that this purchase would in a 
few years to come furnish a highly suitable position for a certain favourite 
lad whom he meant to bring on in the world. 


</p>
               <p>These were the mental conditions on which Mrs Tulliver had undertaken to act 
persuasively, and had failed: a fact which may receive some illustration from 
the remark of a great philosopher, that fly-fishers fail in preparing their 
bait so as to make it alluring in the right quarter for want of a due 
acquaintance with the subjectivity of fishes. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.8" type="chapter">
               <head>Daylight on the Wreck</head>
               <p>IT was a clear frosty January day on which Mr Tulliver first came downstairs: 
the bright sun on the chestnut boughs and the roofs opposite his window had 
made him impatiently declare that he would be caged up no longer; he thought 
everywhere would be more cheery under this sunshine than his bedroom; for he 
knew nothing of the bareness below, which made the flood of sunshine 
importunate, as if it had an unfeeling pleasure in showing the empty places 
and the marks where well-known objects once had been. The impression on his 
mind that it was but yesterday when he received the letter from Mr Gore was 
so continually implied in his talk, and the attempts to convey to him the 
idea that many weeks had passed and much had happened since then had been so 
soon swept away by recurrent forgetfulness, that even Mr Turnbull had begun 
to despair of preparing him to meet the facts by previous knowledge. The full 
sense of the present could only be imparted gradually by new experience — not 
by mere words which must remain weaker than the impressions left by the 
<hi>old</hi> experience. This resolution to come downstairs was heard with 
trembling by the wife and children. Mrs Tulliver said Tom must not go to St 
Ogg's at the usual hour — he must wait and see his father downstairs: and Tom 
complied, though with an intense inward shrinking from the painful scene. The 
hearts of all three had been more deeply dejected than ever during the last 
few days. For Guest and Co. had not bought the mill: both mill and land had 
been knocked down to Wakem, who had been over the premises and had laid 
before Mr Deane and Mr Glegg, in Mrs Tulliver's presence, his willingness to 
employ Mr Tulliver, in case of his recovery, as a manager of the business. 
This proposition had occasioned much family debating. Uncles and aunts were 
almost unanimously of opinion that such an offer ought not to be rejected 
when there was nothing in the way but a feeling in Mr Tulliver's mind, which, 
as neither aunts nor uncles shared it, was regarded as entirely unreasonable 
and childish — indeed as a transferring towards Wakem of that indignation and 
hatred which Mr Tulliver ought properly to have directed against himself for 
his general quarrelsomeness and his special exhibition of it in going to law. 
Here was an opportunity for Mr Tulliver to provide for his wife and daughter 
without any assistance from his wife's relations, and without that too 
evident descent into pauperism which makes it annoying to respectable people 
to meet the degraded member of the family by the wayside. Mr Tulliver, Mrs 
Glegg considered, must be made to feel, when he came to his right mind, that 
he could never humble himself enough: for <hi>that</hi> had come which she 
had always foreseen would come of his insolence in time past `to them as were 
the best friends he'd got to look to.' Mr Glegg and Mr Deane were less stern 
in their views, but they both of them thought Tulliver had done enough harm 
by his hot-tempered crotchets, and ought to put them out of the question when 
a livelihood was offered him: Wakem showed a right feeling about the matter — 
<hi>he</hi> had no grudge against Tulliver. Tom had protested against 
entertaining the proposition: he shouldn't like his father to be under Wakem; 
he thought it would look mean-spirited; but his mother's main distress was 
the utter impossibility of ever `turning Mr Tulliver round about Wakem' or 
getting him to hear reason — no, they would all have to go and live in a 
pigsty on purpose to spite Wakem who spoke so as nobody could be fairer. 
Indeed, Mrs Tulliver's mind was reduced to such confusion by living in this 
strange medium of unaccountable sorrow, against which she continually 
appealed by asking, `O dear, what <hi>have</hi> I done to deserve worse than 
other women?' that Maggie began to suspect her poor mother's wits were quite 
going. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' she said, when they were out of their father's room together, `we 
<hi>must</hi> try to make father understand a little of what has happened 
before he goes downstairs. But we must get my mother away. She will say 
something that will do harm. Ask Kezia to fetch her down, and keep her 
engaged with something in the kitchen.' 


</p>
               <p>Kezia was equal to the task. Having declared her intention of staying till 
the master could get about again, `wage or no wage,' she had found a certain 
recompense in keeping a strong hand over her mistress, scolding her for 
`moithering' herself and going about all day without changing her cap and 
looking as if she was `mushed.' Altogether this time of trouble was rather a 
Saturnalian time to Kezia; she could scold her betters with unreproved 
freedom. On this particular occasion there were drying clothes to be fetched 
in: she wished to know if one pair of hands could do everything indoors and 
out, and observed that <hi>she</hi> should have thought it would be good for 
Mrs Tulliver to put on her bonnet and get a breath of fresh air by doing that 
needful piece of work. Poor Mrs Tulliver went submissively downstairs: to be 
ordered about by a servant was the last remnant of her household dignities — 
she would soon have no servant to scold her. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver was resting in his chair a little after the fatigue of dressing, 
and Maggie and Tom were seated near him, when Luke entered to ask if he 
should help master downstairs. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay, Luke, stop a bit, sit down,' said Mr Tulliver, pointing his stick 
towards a chair, and looking at him with that pursuant gaze which 
convalescent persons often have for those who have tended them, reminding one 
of an infant gazing about after its nurse. And Luke had been a constant 
night-watcher by his master's bed. 


</p>
               <p>`How's the water now, eh, Luke?' said Mr Tulliver. `Dix hasn't been choking 
you up again, eh?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, sir, it's all right.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, I thought not: he won't be in a hurry at that again, now Riley's been to 
settle him. That was what I said to Riley yesterday... I said... ' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver leaned forward, resting his elbows on the arm-chair, and looking 
on the ground as if in search of something — striving after vanishing images 
like a man struggling against a doze. Maggie looked at Tom in mute distress — 
their father's mind was so far off the present, which would by and by thrust 
itself on his wandering consciousness!Tom was almost ready to rush away, with 
that impatience of painful emotion which makes one of the differences between 
youth and maiden, man and woman. 


</p>
               <p>`Father,' said Maggie, laying her hand on his, `Don't you remember that Mr 
Riley is dead?' 


</p>
               <p>`Dead?' said Mr Tulliver, sharply, looking in her face with a strange, 
examining glance. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, he died of apoplexy nearly a year ago; I remember hearing you say you 
had to pay money for him; and he left his daughters badly off — one of them 
is under-teacher at Miss Firniss's where I've been to school, you know... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah?' said her father, doubtfully, still looking in her face. But as soon as 
Tom began to speak he turned to look at <hi>him</hi> with the same inquiring 
glances, as if he were rather surprised at the presence of these two young 
people. Whenever his mind was wandering in the far past, he fell into this 
oblivion of their actual faces: they were not those of lad and the little 
wench who belonged to that past. 


</p>
               <p>`It's a long while since you had the dispute with Dix, father,' said Tom. `I 
remember your talking about it three years ago, before I went to school at Mr 
Stelling's. I've been at school there three years; don't you remember?' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver threw himself backward again, losing the child-like outward 
glance, under a rush of new ideas which diverted him from external 
impressions. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, ay,' he said, after a minute or two, `I've paid a deal o' money... I was 
determined my son should have a good eddication: I'd none myself, and I've 
felt the miss of it. And he'll want no other fortin: that's what I say... if 
Wakem was to get the better of me again... ' 


</p>
               <p>The thought of Wakem roused new vibrations, and after a moment's pause he 
began to look at the coat he had on, and to feel in his side-pocket. Then he 
turned to Tom, and said in his old sharp way, `Where have they put Gore's 
letter?' 


</p>
               <p>It was close at hand in a drawer, for he had often asked for it before. 


</p>
               <p>`You know what there is in the letter, father?' said Tom, as he gave it to 
him. 


</p>
               <p>`To be sure I do,' said Mr Tulliver, rather angrily, `What o' that? If Furley 
can't take to the property, somebody else can: there's plenty o' people in 
the world besides Furley. But it's hindering — my not being well — go and 
tell 'em to get the horse in the gig, Luke: I can get down to St Ogg's well 
enough — Gore's expecting me.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, dear father!' Maggie burst out, entreatingly, `it's a very long while 
since all that: you've been ill a great many weeks — more than two months — 
everything is changed.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver looked at them all three alternately with a startled gaze: the 
idea that much had happened of which he knew nothing had often transiently 
arrested him before, but it came upon him now with entire novelty. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, father,' said Tom, in answer to the gaze. `You needn't trouble your 
mind about business until you are quite well: everything is settled about 
that for the present — about the mill and the land and the debts.' 


</p>
               <p>`What's settled then?' said his father, angrily. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you take on too much about it, sir,' said Luke. `You'd ha' paid 
iverybody if you could — that's what I said to Master Tom — I said, you'd ha' 
paid iverybody, if you could.' 


</p>
               <p>Good Luke felt, after the manner of contented hard working men whose lives 
have been spent in servitude, that sense of natural fitness in rank which 
made his master's downfall a tragedy to him. He was urged, in his slow way, 
to say something that would express his share in the family sorrow, and these 
words which he had used over and over again to Tom, when he wanted to decline 
the full payment of his fifty pounds out of the children's money, were the 
most ready to his tongue. They were just the words to lay the most painful 
hold on his master's bewildered mind. 


</p>
               <p>`Paid everybody?' he said, with vehement agitation, his face flushing, and 
his eye lighting up. `Why... what... have they made me a <hi>bankrupt</hi>?' 


</p>
               <p>`O father, dear father!' said Maggie, who thought that terrible word really 
represented the fact. `Bear it well — because we love you — your children 
will always love you — Tom will pay them all — he says he will, when he's a 
man.' 


</p>
               <p>She felt her father beginning to tremble — his voice trembled too, as he 
said, after a few moments, 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, my little wench, but I shall never live twice o'er.' 


</p>
               <p>`But perhaps you will live to see my pay everybody, father,' said Tom, 
speaking with a great effort. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, my lad,' said Mr Tulliver, shaking his head slowly, `but what's broke 
can never be whole again: it 'ud be your doing, not mine.' Then, looking up 
at him, `You're only sixteen — it's an uphill fight for you — but you mustn't 
throw it at your father; the raskills have been too many for him. I've given 
you a good eddication — that'll start you.' 


</p>
               <p>Something in his throat half choked the last words — the flush which had 
alarmed his children because it had so often preceded a recurrence of 
paralysis, had subsided, and his face looked pale and tremulous. Tom said 
nothing; he was still struggling against his inclination to rush away. His 
father remained quiet a minute or two, but his mind did not seem to be 
wandering again. 


</p>
               <p>`Have they sold me up, then?' he said, more calmly, as if he were possessed 
simply by the desire to know what had happened. 


</p>
               <p>`Everything is sold, father; but we don't know all about the mill and the 
land yet,' said Tom, anxious to ward off any question leading to the fact 
that Wakem was the purchaser. 


</p>
               <p>`You must not be surprised to see the room look very bare downstairs, 
father,' said Maggie, `but there's your chair and the bureau — 
<hi>they're</hi> not gone.' 


</p>
               <p>`Let us go — help me down, Luke — I'll go and see everything,' said Mr 
Tulliver, leaning on his stick, and stretching out his other hand towards 
Luke. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, sir,' said Luke, as he gave his arm to his master, `you'll make up your 
mind to't a bit better when you've seen iverything: you'll get used to't. 
That's what my mother says, about her shortness o' breath — she says, she's 
made friends wi't now, though she fought again' it sore when it fust come 
on.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie ran on before to see that all was right in the dreary parlour where 
the fire, dulled by the frosty sunshine, seemed part of the general 
shabbiness. She turned her father's chair and pushed aside the table to make 
an easy way for him, and then stood with a beating heart to see him enter and 
look round for the first time. Tom advanced before him carrying the leg-rest, 
and stood beside Maggie on the hearth. Of those two young hearts Tom's 
suffered the most unmixed pain, for Maggie, with all her keen susceptibility, 
yet felt as if the sorrow made larger room for her love to flow in, and gave 
breathing space to her passionate nature. No true boy feels that: he would 
rather go and slay the Nemean lion, or perform any round of heroic labours, 
than endure perpetual appeals to his pity for evils over which he can make no 
conquest. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver paused just inside the door, resting on Luke, and looking round 
him at all the bare places which for him were filled with the shadows of 
departed objects, the daily companions of his life. His faculties seemed to 
be renewing their strength from getting a footing on this demonstration of 
the senses. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah!' he said, slowly, moving towards his chair, `they've sold me up... 
they've sold me up.' 


</p>
               <p>Then seating himself and laying down his stick, while Luke left the room, he 
looked round again. 


</p>
               <p>`They'n left the big Bible,' he said. `It's got everything in — when I was 
born and married — bring it me, Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>The quarto Bible was laid open before him at the fly-leaf, and while he was 
reading with slowly-travelling eyes, Mrs Tulliver entered the room, but stood 
in mute surprise to find her husband down already and with the great Bible 
before him. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' he said, looking at a spot where his finger rested, `My mother was 
Margaret Beaton — she died when she was forty-seven — hers wasn't a 
long-lived family — we're our mother's children — Gritty and me are — we 
shall go to our last bed before long.' 


</p>
               <p>He seemed to be pausing over the record of his sister's birth and marriage, 
as if it were suggesting new thoughts to him: them he suddenly looked up at 
Tom and said in a sharp tone of alarm— 


</p>
               <p>`They haven't come upo' Moss for the money as I lent him, have they?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, father,' said Tom, `the note was burnt.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver turned his eyes on the page again, and presently said, 


</p>
               <p>`Ah... Elizabeth Dodson... it's eighteen year since I married her... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Come next Lady Day,' said Mrs Tulliver, going up to his side and looking at 
the page. 


</p>
               <p>Her husband fixed his eyes earnestly on her face. 


</p>
               <p>`Poor Bessy,' he said, `you was a pretty lass than — everybody said so — and 
I used to think you kept your good looks rarely. But you're sorely aged... 
don't you bear me ill-will ... I meant to do well by you... We promised one 
another for better or for worse... ' 


</p>
               <p>`But I never thought it 'ud be so for worse as this,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, 
with the strange, scared look that had come over her of later, `and my poor 
father gave me away... and to come on so all at once... ' 


</p>
               <p>`O mother,' said Maggie, `don't talk in that way.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I know you won't let your poor mother speak... that's been the way all 
my life... your father never minded what I said... it 'ud have been o' no use 
for me to beg and pray... and it 'ud be no use now, not if I was to go down 
o' my hands and knees... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't say so, Bessy,' said Mr Tulliver, whose pride, in these first moments 
of humiliation, was in abeyance to the sense of some justice in his wife's 
reproach, `If there's anything left as I could no to make you amends, I 
wouldn't say you nay.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then we might stay here and get a living, and I might keep among my own 
sisters... and me been such a good wife to you and never crossed you from 
week's end to week's end... and they all say so... they say it 'ud be nothing 
but right... only you're so turned against Wakem.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mother,' said Tom, severely, `this is not the time to talk about that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Let her be,' said Mr Tulliver. `Say what you mean, Bessy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, now the mill and the land's all Wakem's, and he's got everything in his 
hands, what's the use o' setting your face against him? — when you says you 
may stay here, and speaks as fair as can be, and says you may manage the 
business, and have thirty shilling a week, and a horse to ride about to 
market? And where have we got to put our heads? We must go into one o' the 
cottages in the village... and me and my children brought downs to that... 
and all because you must set your mind against folks till there's no turning 
you.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver had sunk back in his chair, trembling. 


</p>
               <p>`You may do as you like wi' me, Bessy,' he said in a low voice, `I'n been the 
bringing of you to poverty... this world's too many for me... I'm nought but 
a bankrupt — it's no use standing up for anything now.' 


</p>
               <p>`Father,' said Tom, `I don't agree with my mother or my uncles, and I don't 
think you ought to submit to be under Wakem. I get a pound a week now, and 
you can find something else to do when you get well.' 


</p>
               <p>`Say no more, Tom, say no more: I've had enough for this day. Give me a kiss, 
Bessy, and let us bear one another no ill-will: we shall never be young 
again... This world's been too many for me.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c3.9" type="chapter">
               <head>An Item Added to the Family Register</head>
               <p>THAT first moment of renunciation and submission was followed by days of 
violent struggle in the miller's mind, as the gradual access of bodily 
strength brought with it increasing ability to embrace in one view all the 
conflicting conditions under which he found himself. Feeble limbs easily 
resign themselves to be tethered, and when we are subdued by sickness it 
seems possible to us to fulfil pledges which the old vigour comes back and 
breaks. There were times when poor Tulliver thought the fulfilment of his 
promise to Bessy was something quite too hard for human nature: he had 
promised her without knowing what she was going to say — she might as well 
have asked him to carry a ton weight on his back. But again, there were many 
feelings arguing on her side, besides the sense that life had been made hard 
to her by having married him. He saw a possibility, by much pinching, of 
saving money out of his salary towards paying a second dividend to his 
creditors, and it would not be easy elsewhere to get a situation such as he 
could fill. He had led an easy life, ordering much and working little, and 
had no aptitude for any new business. He must perhaps take to day-labour, and 
his wife must have help from her sisters, a prospect doubly bitter to him, 
now they had let all Bessy's precious things be sold, probably because they 
liked to set her against him, by making her feel that he had brought her to 
that pass. He listened to their admonitory talk, when they came to urge on 
him what he was bound to do for poor Bessy's sake, with averted eyes, that 
every now and then flashed on them furtively when their backs were turned. 
Nothing but the dread of needing their help could have made it an easier 
alternative to take their advice. 


</p>
               <p>But the strongest influence of all was the love of the old premises where he 
had run about when he was a boy, just as Tom had done after him. The 
Tullivers had lived on this spot for generations, and he had sat listening on 
a low stool on winter evenings while his father talked of the old 
half-timbered mill that had been there before the last great floods, which 
damaged it so that his grandfather pulled it down and built the new one. It 
was when he got able to walk about and look at all the old objects, that he 
felt the strain of this clinging affection for the old home as part of his 
life, part of himself. He couldn't bear to think of himself living on any 
other spot than this, where he knew the sound of every gate and door, and 
felt that the shape and colour of every roof and weather stain and broken 
hillock was good, because his growing senses had been fed on them. Our 
instructed vagrancy which has hardly time to linger by the hedgerows, but 
runs away early to the tropics and is at home with palms and banyans, — which 
is nourished on books of travel and stretches the theatre of its imagination 
to the Zambesi can hardly get a dim notion of what an old- fashioned man like 
Tulliver felt for this spot where all his memories centred and where life 
seemed like a familiar smooth-handled tool that the fingers clutch with 
loving ease. And just now he was living in that freshened memory of the 
far-off time which comes to us in the passive hours of recovery from 
sickness. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, Luke,' he said, one afternoon, as he stood looking over the orchard 
gate, `I remember the day they planted those apple trees. My father was a 
huge man for planting — it was like a merry-making to him to get a cart full 
o' young trees — and I used to stand i' the cold with him, and follow him 
about like a dog.' 


</p>
               <p>Then he turned round, and, leaning against the gate post, looked at the 
opposite buildings. 


</p>
               <p>`The old mill 'ud miss me, I think, Luke. There's a story as when the mill 
changes hands, the river's angry — I've heard my father say it many a time. 
There's no telling whether there mayn't be summat <hi>in</hi> the story, for 
this is a puzzling world and Old Harry's got a finger in it — it's been too 
many for me, I know.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, sir,' said Luke, with soothing sympathy, `what wi'the rust on the wheat, 
an' the firin' o' the ricks an' that, as I've seen i' my time — things often 
looks comical: there's the bacon fat wi' our last pig runs away like butter — 
it leaves nought but a scratchin'.' 


</p>
               <p>`It's just as if it was yesterday, now,' Mr Tulliver went on, `when my father 
began the malting. I remember, the day they finished the malt-house, I 
thought summat great was to come of it; for we'd a plum-pudding that day and 
a bit of a feast, and I said to my mother — she was a fine dark eyed woman, 
my mother was — the little wench 'ull be as like her as two peas.' — Here Mr 
Tulliver put his stick between his legs, and took out his snuff-box, for the 
greater enjoyment of this anecdote, which dropped from him in fragments, as 
if he every other moment lost narration in vision. `I was a little chap no 
higher much than my mother's knee — she was sore fond of us children, Gritty 
and me — and so I said to her, “Mother,” I said, “shall we 
have plum-pudding every day because o' the malthouse?” She used to tell 
me o' that till her dying day — she was but a young woman when she died, my 
mother was. But it's forty good year since they finished the malthouse, and 
it isn't many days out of 'em all as I haven't looked out into the yard 
there, the first thing in the morning — all weathers, from year's end to 
year's end. I should go off my head in a new place — I should be like as if 
I'd lost my way. It's all hard, whichever way I look at it — the harness 'ull 
gall me — but it 'ud be summat to draw along the old road, istead of a new 
un.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, sir,' said Luke, `you'd be a deal better here nor in some new place. I 
can't abide new plazen mysen: things is allays awk'ard — narrow-wheeled 
waggins, belike, and the stiles all another sort, an' oat-cake i' some 
plazen, tow'rt th' head o' the Floss, there. It's poor work, changing your 
country side.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I doubt, Luke, they'll be for getting rid o' Ben, and making you do with 
a lad — and I must help a bit wi' the mill. You'll have a worse place.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ne'er mind, sir,' said Luke, `I shan't plague mysen. I'n been wi' you twenty 
year, an' you can't get twenty year wi' whistlin' for 'em, no more nor you 
can make the trees grow: you mun wait till God A'mighty sends 'em. I can't 
abide new victual nor new fazen, <hi>I</hi> can't — you niver know but what 
they'll gripe you.' 


</p>
               <p>The walk was finished in silence after this, for Luke had disburthened 
himself of thoughts to an extent that left his conversational resources quite 
barren, and Mr Tulliver had relapsed from his recollections into a painful 
meditation on the choice of hardships before him. Maggie noticed that he was 
unusually absent that evening at tea; and afterwards he sat leaning forward 
in his chair, looking at the ground, moving his lips, and shaking his head 
from time to time. Then he looked hard at Mrs Tulliver, who was knitting 
opposite him, then at Maggie, who as she bent over her sewing was intensely 
conscious of some drama going forward in her father's mind. Suddenly he took 
up the poker and broke the large coal fiercely. 


</p>
               <p>`Dear heart, Mr Tulliver, what can you be thinking of?' said his wife, 
looking up in alarm. `It's very wasteful, breaking the coal, and we've got 
hardly any large coal left, and I don't know where the rest is to come from.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't think you're quite so well to-night, are you, father?' said Maggie; 
`you seem uneasy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, how is it Tom doesn't come?' said Mr Tulliver, impatiently. 


</p>
               <p>`Dear heart! is it time? I must go and get his supper,' said Mrs Tulliver, 
laying down her knitting, and leaving the room. 


</p>
               <p>`It's nigh upon half past eight,' said Mr Tulliver. `He'll be here soon. Go, 
go and get the big Bible, and open it at the beginning where everything's set 
down. And get the pen and ink.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie obeyed, wondering: but her father gave no further orders, and only sat 
listening for Tom's footfall on the gravel, apparently irritated by the wind, 
which had risen and was roaring so as to drown all other sounds. There was a 
strange light in his eyes that rather frightened Maggie: <hi>she</hi> began 
to wish that Tom would come, too. 


</p>
               <p>`There he is, then,' said Mr Tulliver, in an excited way, when the knock came 
at last. Maggie went to open the door, but her mother came out of the kitchen 
hurriedly, saying, `Stop a bit, Maggie, I'll open it.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Tulliver had begun to be a little frightened at her boy, but she was 
jealous of every office others did for him. 


</p>
               <p>`Your supper's ready by the kitchen fire, my boy,' she said as he took off 
his hat and coat. `You shall have it by yourself, just as you like, and I 
won't speak to you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think my father wants Tom, mother,' said Maggie, `he must come into the 
parlour first.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom entered with his usual saddened evening face, but his eyes fell 
immediately on the open Bible and the inkstand, and he glanced with a look of 
anxious surprise at his father, who was saying, 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come, you're late — I want you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is there anything the matter, father?' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`You sit down — all of you,' said Mr Tulliver, peremptorily. `And, Tom, sit 
down here, I've got something for you to write i' the Bible.' 


</p>
               <p>They all three sat down, looking at him. He began to speak, slowly, looking 
first at his wife. 


</p>
               <p>`I've made up my mind, Bessy, and I'll be as good as my word to you. There's 
the same grave made for us to lie down in, and we mustn't be bearing one 
another ill-will. I'll stop in the old place, and I'll serve under Wakem — 
and I'll serve him like an honest man — there's no Tulliver but what's 
honest, mind that, Tom' — here his voice rose: `they'll have it to throw up 
against me as I paid a dividend — but it wasn't my fault — it was because 
there's raskills in the world — They've been too many for me, and I must, 
give in. I'll put my neck in harness — for you've a right to say as I've 
brought you into trouble, Bessy — and I'll serve him as honest as if he was 
no raskill: I'm an honest man, though I shall never hold my head up no more — 
I'm a tree as is broke — a tree as is broke.' 


</p>
               <p>He paused and looked on the ground. Then suddenly raising his head, he said 
in a louder yet deeper tone, 


</p>
               <p>`But I won't forgive him! I know what they say — he never meant me any harm — 
that's the way Old Harry props up the raskills — he's been at the bottom of 
everything — but he's a fine gentleman — I know, I know. I shouldn't ha'gone 
to law, they say. But who made it so as there was no arbitratin', and no 
justice to be got? It signifies nothing to him — I know that — he's one o' 
them fine gentlemen as get money by doing business for poorer folks, and when 
he's made beggars of 'em, he'll give 'em charity. I won't forgive him! I wish 
he might be punished with shame till his own son 'ud like to forget him. I 
wish he may do summat as they'd make him work at the treadmill! But he won't 
— he's too big a raskill to let the law lay hold on him. And you mind this, 
Tom — you never forgive him, neither, if you mean to be my son. There'll may 
be come a time, when you may make him feel — it'll never come to me — I'n got 
my head under the yoke. Now write — write it i' the Bible.' 


</p>
               <p>`O father, what?' said Maggie, sinking down by his knee, pale and trembling. 
`It's wicked to curse and bear malice.' 


</p>
               <p>`It isn't wicked, I tell you,' said her father fiercely. `It's wicked as the 
raskills should prosper — it's the devil's doing. Do as I tell you, Tom. 
Write.' 


</p>
               <p>`What am I to write, Father?' said Tom, with gloomy submission. 


</p>
               <p>`Write as your father, Edward Tulliver, took service under John Wakem, the 
man as had helped to ruin him, because I'd promised my wife to make her what 
amends I could for her trouble, and because I wanted to die in th' old place, 
where I was born and my father was born. Put that i' the right words — you 
know how — and then write, as I don't forgive Wakem, for all that; and for 
all I'll serve him honest, I wish evil may befall him. Write that.' 


</p>
               <p>There was a dead silence while Tom's pen moved along the paper: Mrs Tulliver 
looked scared, and Maggie trembled like a leaf. 


</p>
               <p>`Now let me hear what you've wrote,' said Mr Tulliver. Tom read aloud, 
slowly. 


</p>
               <p>`Now write — write as you'll remember what Wakem's done to your father, and 
you'll make him and his feel it, if ever the day comes. And sign your name 
Thomas Tulliver.' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, father, dear father!' said Maggie, almost choked with fear. `You 
shouldn't make Tom write that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Be quiet, Maggie!' said Tom. `I <hi>shall</hi> write it.' 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b4" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c4.1" type="chapter">
               <head>A Variation of Protestantism Unknown to Bossuet</head>
               <p>JOURNEYING down the Rhône on a summer's day, you have perhaps felt the 
sunshine made dreary by those ruined villages which stud the banks in certain 
parts of its course, telling how the swift river once rose, like an angry, 
destroying god sweeping down the feeble generations whose breath is in their 
nostrils and making their dwellings a desolation. Strange contrast, you may 
have thought, between the effect produced on us by these dismal remnants of 
commonplace houses, which in their best days were but the sign of a sordid 
life, belonging in all its details to our own vulgar era — and the effect 
produced by those ruins on the castled Rhine which have crumbled and mellowed 
into such harmony with the green and rocky steeps, that they seem to have a 
natural fitness, like the mountain pine: nay, even in the day when they were 
built they must have had this fitness, as if they had been raised by an 
earth-born race who had inherited from their mighty parent a sublime instinct 
of form. And that was a day of romance! If those robber barons were somewhat 
grim and drunken ogres, they had a certain grandeur of the wild beast in them 
— they were forest boars with tusks tearing and rending, not the ordinary 
domestic grunter: they represented the demon forces for ever in collision 
with beauty, virtue, and the gentle uses of life: they made a fine contrast 
in the picture with the wandering minstrel, the soft-lipped princess, the 
pious recluse and the timid Israelite. That was a time of colour when the 
sunlight fell on glancing steel and floating banners: a time of adventure and 
fierce struggle — nay, of living, religious art and religious enthusiasm; for 
were not cathedrals built in those days and did not great emperors leave 
their western palaces to die before the infidel strongholds in the sacred 
east? Therefore it is that these Rhine castles thrill me with a sense of 
poetry: they belong to the grand historic life of humanity, and raise up for 
me the vision of an epoch. But these dead-tinted, hollow-eyed, angular 
skeletons of villages on the Rhône, oppress me with the feeling that 
human life — very much of it — is a narrow, ugly, grovelling existence, which 
even calamity does not elevate, but rather tends to exhibit in all its bare 
vulgarity of conception; and I have a cruel conviction that the lives these 
ruins are the traces of were part of a gross sum of obscure vitality, that 
will be swept into the same oblivion with the generations of ants and 
beavers. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps something akin to this oppressive feeling may have weighed upon you 
in watching this old-fashioned family life on the banks of the Floss, which 
even sorrow hardly suffices to lift above the level of the tragi-comic. It is 
a sordid life, you say, this of the Tullivers and Dodsons — irradiated by no 
sublime principles, no romantic visions, no active, self-renouncing faith — 
moved by none of those wild, uncontrollable passions which create the dark 
shadows of misery and crime — without that primitive rough simplicity of 
wants, that hard submissive ill-paid toil, that child-like spelling-out of 
what nature has written, which gives its poetry to peasant life. Here, one 
has conventional worldly notions and habits without instruction and without 
polish — surely the most prosaic form of human life: proud respectability in 
a gig of unfashionable build: worldliness without side-dishes. Observing 
these people narrowly, even when the iron hand of misfortune has shaken them 
from their unquestioning hold on the world, one sees little trace of 
religion, still less of a distinctively Christian creed. Their belief in the 
unseen, so far as it manifests itself at all, seems to be rather of a pagan 
kind: their moral notions, though held with strong tenacity, seem to have no 
standard beyond hereditary custom. You could not live among such people; you 
are stifled for want of an outlet towards something beautiful, great, or 
noble: you are irritated with these dull men and women, as a kind of 
population out of keeping with the earth on which they live — with this rich 
plain where the great river flows for ever onward and links the small pulse 
of the old English town with the beatings of the world's mighty heart. A 
vigorous superstition that lashes its gods or lashes its own back, seems to 
be more congruous with the mystery of the human lot, than the mental 
condition of these emmet-like Dodsons and Tullivers. 


</p>
               <p>I share with you this sense of oppressive narrowness; but it is necessary 
that we should feel it, if we care to understand how it acted on the lives of 
Tom and Maggie — how it has acted on young natures in many generations, that 
in the onward tendency of human things have risen above the mental level of 
the generation before them, to which they have been nevertheless tied by the 
strongest fibres of their hearts. The suffering, whether of martyr or victim, 
which belongs to every historical advance of mankind, is represented in this 
way in every town and by hundreds of obscure hearths: and we need not shrink 
from this comparison of small things with great; for does not science tell us 
that its highest striving is after the ascertainment of a unity which shall 
bind the smallest things with the greatest? In natural science, I have 
understood, there is nothing petty to the mind that has a large vision of 
relations, and to which every single object suggests a vast sum of 
conditions. It is surely the same with the observation of human life. 


</p>
               <p>Certainly, the religious and moral ideas of the Dodsons and Tullivers were of 
too specific a kind to be arrived at deductively, from the statement that 
they were part of the Protestant population of Great Britain. Their theory of 
life had its core of soundness, as all theories must have on which decent and 
prosperous families have been reared and have flourished; but it had the very 
slightest tincture of theology. If, in the maiden days of the Dodson sisters, 
their bibles opened more easily at some parts than others, it was because of 
dried tulip petals, which had been distributed quite impartially, without 
preference for the historical, devotional, or doctrinal. Their religion was 
of a simple, semi-pagan kind, but there was no heresy in it, if heresy 
properly means choice, for they didn't know there was any other religion, 
except that of chapel-goers, which appeared to run in families, like asthma. 
How <hi>should</hi> they know? The vicar of their pleasant rural parish was 
not a controversialist, but a good hand at whist, and one who had a joke 
always ready for a blooming female parishioner. The religion of the Dodsons 
consisted in revering whatever was customary and respectable: it was 
necessary to be baptised, else one could not be buried in the churchyard, and 
to take the sacrament before death as a security against more dimly 
understood perils; but it was of equal necessity to have the proper 
pall-bearers and well-cured hams at one's funeral, and to leave an 
unimpeachable will. A Dodson would not be taxed with the omission of anything 
that was becoming, or that belonged to that eternal fitness of things which 
was plainly indicated in the practice of the most substantial parishioners, 
and in the family traditions — such as obedience to parents, faithfulness to 
kindred, industry, rigid honesty, thrift, the thorough scouring of wooden and 
copper utensils, the hoarding of coins likely to disappear from the currency, 
the production of first-rate commodities for the market, and the general 
preference for whatever was homemade. The Dodsons were a very proud race, and 
their pride lay in the utter frustration of all desire to tax them with a 
breach of traditional duty or propriety. A wholesome pride in many respects; 
since it identified honour with perfect integrity, thoroughness of work, and 
faithfulness to admitted rules; and society owes some worthy qualities in 
many of her members to mothers of the Dodson class, who made their butter and 
their fromenty well and would have felt disgraced to make it otherwise. To be 
honest and poor was never a Dodson motto, still less, to seem rich though 
being poor; rather, the family badge was to be honest and rich, and not only 
rich, but richer than was supposed. To live respected and have the proper 
bearers at your funeral was an achievement of the ends of existence that 
would be entirely nullified if on the reading of your Will, you sank in the 
opinion of your fellow-men either by turning out to be poorer than they 
expected or by leaving your money in a capricious manner without strict 
regard to degrees of kin. The right thing must always be done towards 
kindred: the right thing was to correct them severely, if they were other 
than a credit to the family, but still not to alienate from them the smallest 
rightful share in the family shoe-buckles and other property. A conspicuous 
quality in the Dodson character was its genuineness: its vices and virtues 
alike were phrases of a proud, honest egoism which had a hearty dislike to 
whatever made against its own credit and interest, and would be frankly hard 
of speech to inconvenient `kin' but would never forsake or ignore them — 
would not let them want bread, but only require them to eat it with bitter 
herbs. 


</p>
               <p>The same sort of traditional belief ran in the Tulliver veins, but it was 
carried in richer blood, having elements of generous imprudence, warm 
affection and hot-tempered rashness. Mr Tulliver's grandfather had been heard 
to say that he was descended from one Ralph Tulliver, a wonderfully clever 
fellow who had ruined himself. — It is likely enough that the clever Ralph 
was a high liver, rode spirited horses, and was very decidedly of his own 
opinion. On the other hand, nobody had ever heard of a Dodson who had ruined 
himself: it was not the way of that family. 


</p>
               <p>If such were the views of life on which the Dodsons and Tullivers had been 
reared in the praiseworthy past of Pitt and high prices, you will infer from 
what you already know concerning the state of society in St Ogg's that there 
had been no highly modifying influence to act on them in their maturer life. 
It was still possible, even in that later time of anti-Catholic preaching, 
for people to hold many pagan ideas and believe themselves good church people 
notwithstanding: so we need hardly feel any surprise at the fact that Mr 
Tulliver, though a regular church-goer, recorded his vindictiveness on the 
fly-leaf of his Bible. It was not that any harm could be said concerning the 
vicar of that charming rural parish to which Dorlcote Mill belonged: he was a 
man of excellent family, an irreproachable bachelor, of elegant pursuits, had 
taken honours, and held a fellowship: Mr Tulliver regarded him with dutiful 
respect, as he did everything else belonging to the church-service; but he 
considered that church was one thing and common sense another, and he wanted 
nobody to tell <hi>him</hi> what common sense was. Certain seeds which are 
required to find a nidus for themselves under unfavourable circumstances have 
been supplied by nature with an apparatus of hooks, so that they will get a 
hold on very unreceptive surfaces. The spiritual seed which had been 
scattered over Mr Tulliver had apparently been destitute of any corresponding 
provision, and had slipped off to the winds again from a total absence of 
hooks. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c4.2" type="chapter">
               <head>The Torn Nest Is Pierced by the Thorns</head>
               <p>THERE is something sustaining in the very agitation that accompanies the 
first shocks of trouble, just as an acute pain is often a stimulus, and 
produces an excitement which is transient strength. It is in the slow, 
changed life that follows — in the time when sorrow has become stale and has 
no longer an emotive intensity that counteracts its pain, in the time when 
day follows day in dull unexpectant sameness and trial is a dreary routine — 
it is then that despair threatens: it is then that the peremptory hunger of 
the soul is felt, and eye and ear are strained after some unlearned secret of 
our existence which shall give to endurance the nature of satisfaction. 


</p>
               <p>This time of utmost need was come to Maggie, with her short span of thirteen 
years. To the usual precocity of the girl, she added that early experience of 
struggle, of conflict between the inward impulse and outward fact which is 
the lot of every imaginative and passionate nature; and the years since she 
hammered the nails into her wooden fetish among the worm-eaten shelves of the 
attic, had been filled with so eager a life in the triple world of reality, 
books and waking dreams, that Maggie was strangely old for her years in 
everything except in her entire want of that prudence and self-command which 
were the qualities that made Tom manly in the midst of his intellectual 
boyishness. And now her lot was beginning to have a still, sad monotony, 
which threw her more than ever on her inward self. Her father was able to 
attend to business again, his affairs were settled, and he was acting as 
Wakem's manager on the old spot. Tom went to and fro every morning and 
evening and became more and more silent in the short intervals at home: what 
was there to say? One day was like another, and Tom's interest in life, 
driven back and crushed on every other side, was concentrating itself into 
the one channel of ambitious resistance to misfortune. The peculiarities of 
his father and mother were very irksome to him now they were laid bare of all 
the softening accompaniments of an easy prosperous home, for Tom had very 
clear prosaic eyes not apt to be dimmed by mists of feeling or imagination. 
Poor Mrs Tulliver, it seemed, would never recover her old self — her placid 
household activity: how could she? The objects among which her mind had moved 
complacently were all gone: all the little hopes, and schemes, and 
speculations, all the pleasant little cares about her treasures which had 
made this world quite comprehensible to her for a quarter of a century, since 
she had made her first purchase of the sugar-tongs, had been suddenly 
snatched away from her, and she remained bewildered in this empty life. Why 
that would have happened to her which had not happened to other women, 
remained an insoluble question by which she expressed her perpetual 
ruminating comparison of the past with the present. It was piteous to see the 
comely blond stout woman getting thinner and more worn under a bodily as well 
as mental restlessness which made her often wander about the empty house 
after her work was done, until Maggie, becoming alarmed about her, would seek 
her and bring her down by telling her how it vexed Tom that she was injuring 
her health by never sitting down and resting herself. Yet amidst this 
helpless imbecility, there was a touching trait of humble self-devoting 
maternity, which made Maggie feel tenderly towards her poor mother amidst all 
the little wearing griefs caused by her mental feebleness. She would let 
Maggie do none of the work that was heaviest and most soiling to the hands, 
and was quite peevish when Maggie attempted to relieve her from her 
grate-brushing and scouring: `Let it alone, my dear, your hands 'ull get as 
hard as hard,' she would say: `it's your mother's place to do that — I can't 
do the sewing — my eyes fail me.' And she would still brush and carefully 
tend Maggie's hair, which she had become reconciled to, in spite of its 
refusal to curl, now it was so long and massy. Maggie was not her pet child — 
and, in general, would have been much better if she had been quite different; 
yet the womanly heart, so bruised in its small personal desires, found a 
future to rest on in the life of this young thing, and the mother pleased 
herself with wearing out her own hands to save the hands that had so much 
more life in them. 


</p>
               <p>But the constant presence of her mother's regretful bewilderment was less 
painful to Maggie than that of her father's sullen incommunicative 
depression. As long as the paralysis was upon him and it seemed as if he 
might always be in a childlike condition of dependence — as long as he was 
still only half-awakened to his trouble, Maggie had felt the strong tide of 
pitying love almost as an inspiration, a new power, that would make the most 
difficult life easy for his sake; but now, instead of childlike dependence 
there had come a taciturn hard concentration of purpose in strange contrast 
with his old vehement communicativeness and high spirit, and this lasted from 
day to day and from week to week, the dull eye never brightening with any 
eagerness or any joy. It is something cruelly incomprehensible to youthful 
natures — this sombre sameness in middle-aged and elderly people whose life 
has resulted in disappointment and discontent, to whose faces a smile becomes 
so strange that the sad lines all about the lips and brow seem to take no 
notice of it, and it hurries away again for want of a welcome. `Why will they 
not kindle up and be glad sometimes?' thinks young elasticity. `It would be 
so easy, if they only liked to do it.' And these leaden clouds that never 
part are apt to create impatience even in the filial affection that streams 
forth in nothing but tenderness and pity in the time of more obvious 
affliction. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver lingered nowhere away from home: he hurried away from market, he 
refused all invitations to stay and chat, as in old times, in the houses 
where he called on business. He could not be reconciled with his lot: there 
was no attitude in which his pride did not feel its bruises; and in all 
behaviour towards him, whether kind or cold, he detected an allusion to the 
change in his circumstances. Even the days on which Wakem came to ride round 
the land and inquire into the business, were not so black to him as those 
market days on which he had met several creditors who had accepted a 
composition from him. To save something towards the repayment of those 
creditors was the object towards which he was now bending all his thoughts 
and efforts; and under the influence of this all-compelling demand of his 
nature, the somewhat profuse man who hated to be stinted or to stint any one 
else in his own house, was gradually metamorphosed into the keen-eyed grudger 
of morsels. Mrs Tulliver could not economise enough to satisfy him, in their 
food and firing, and he would eat nothing himself but what was of the 
coarsest quality. Tom, though depressed and strongly repelled by his father's 
sullennness and the dreariness of home, entered thoroughly into his father's 
feelings about paying the creditors and the poor lad brought his first 
quarter's money, with a delicious sense of achievement, and gave it to his 
father to put into the tin box which held the savings. The little store of 
sovereigns in the tin box seemed to be the only sight that brought a faint 
beam of pleasure into the miller's eyes — faint and transient, for it was 
soon dispelled by the thought that the time would be long — perhaps longer 
than his life — before the narrow savings could remove the hateful incubus of 
debt. A deficit of more than five hundred pounds with the accumulating 
interest seemed a deep pit to fill with the savings from thirty shillings a 
week, even when Tom's probable savings were to be added. On this one point 
there was entire community of feeling in the four widely differing beings who 
sat round the dying fire of sticks which made a cheap warmth for them on the 
verge of bed time. Mrs Tulliver carried the proud integrity of the Dodsons in 
her blood, and had been brought up to think that to wrong people of their 
money, which was another phrase for debt, was a sort of moral pillory: it 
would have been wickedness, to her mind, to have run counter to her husband's 
desire to `do the right thing' and retrieve his name. She had a confused 
dreamy notion that if the creditors were all paid, her plate and linen ought 
to come back to her, but she had an inbred perception that while people owed 
money they were unable to pay, they couldn't rightly call anything their own. 
She murmured a little that Mr Tulliver so peremptorily refused to receive 
anything in repayment from Mr and Mrs Moss: but to all his requirements of 
household economy she was submissive to the point of denying herself the 
cheapest indulgences of mere flavour: her only rebellion was to smuggle into 
the kitchen something that would make rather a better supper than usual for 
Tom. 


</p>
               <p>These narrow notions about debt, held by the old-fashioned Tullivers, may 
perhaps excite a smile on the faces of many readers in these days of wide 
commercial views and wide philosophy, according to which everything rights 
itself without any trouble of ours — the fact that my tradesman is out of 
pocket by me is to be looked at through the serene certainty that somebody 
else's tradesman is in pocket by somebody else, and since there must be bad 
debts in the world, why, it is mere egoism not to like that we in particular 
should make them instead of our fellow-citizens. I am telling the history of 
very simple people, who had never had any illuminating doubts as to personal 
integrity and honour.  

</p>
               <p>Under all this grim melancholy and narrowing concentration of desire, Mr 
Tulliver retained the feeling towards his `little wench' which made her 
presence a need to him though it would not suffice to cheer him. She was 
still the desire of his eyes, but the sweet spring of fatherly love was now 
mingled with bitterness, like everything else. When Maggie laid down her work 
at night, it was her habit to get a low stool and sit by her father's knee, 
leaning her cheek against it. How she wished he would stroke her head, or 
give her some sign that he was soothed by the sense that he had a daughter 
who loved him! But now she got no answer to her little caresses, either from 
her father or from Tom — the two idols of her life. Tom was weary and 
abstracted in the short intervals when he was at home, and her father was 
bitterly preoccupied with the thought that the girl was growing up — was 
shooting up into a woman; and how was she to do well in life? She had a poor 
chance for marrying, down in the world as they were. And he hated the thought 
of her marrying poorly, as her aunt Gritty had done: <hi>that</hi> would be a 
thing to make him turn in his grave — the little wench so pulled down by 
children and toil as her aunt Moss was. When uncultured minds, confined to a 
narrow range of personal experience, are under the pressure of continued 
misfortune, their inward life is apt to become a perpetually repeated round 
of sad and bitter thoughts: the same words, the same scenes are revolved over 
and over again, the same mood accompanies them — the end of the year finds 
them as much what they were at the beginning as if they were machines set to 
a recurrent series of movements. 


</p>
               <p>The sameness of the days was broken by few visitors. Uncles and aunts paid 
only short visits now: of course they could not stay to meals, and the 
constraint caused by Mr Tulliver's savage silence, which seemed to add to the 
hollow resonance of the bare uncarpeted room when the aunts were talking, 
heightened the unpleasantness of these family visits on all sides, and tended 
to make them rare. As for other acquaintances — there is a chill air 
surrounding those who are down in the world and people are glad to get away 
from them, as from a cold room: human beings, mere men and women, without 
furniture, without anything to offer you, who have ceased to count as 
anybody, present an embarrassing negation of reasons for wishing to see them, 
or of subjects on which to converse with them. At that distant day, there was 
a dreary isolation in the civilised Christian society of these realms for 
families that had dropped below their original level, unless they belonged to 
a sectarian church, which gets some warmth of brotherhood by walling in the 
sacred fire. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c4.3" type="chapter">
               <head>A Voice from the Past</head>
               <p>ONE afternoon when the chestnuts were coming into flower, Maggie had brought 
her chair outside the front door and was seated there with a book on her 
knees. Her dark eyes had wandered from the book, but they did not seem to be 
enjoying the sunshine which pierced the screen of jasmine on the projecting 
porch at her right and threw leafy shadows on her pale round cheek; they 
seemed rather to be searching for something that was not disclosed by the 
sunshine. It had been a more miserable day than usual: her father, after a 
visit of Wakem's had had a paroxysm of rage, in which for some trifling fault 
he had beaten the boy who served in the mill. Once before, since his illness, 
he had had a similar paroxysm, in which he had beaten his horse, and the 
scene had left a lasting terror in Maggie's mind. The thought had risen, that 
some time or other he might beat her mother if she happened to speak in her 
feeble way at the wrong moment. The keenest of all dread with her was, lest 
her father should add to his present misfortune the wretchedness of doing 
something irretrievably disgraceful. The battered school-book of Tom's which 
she held on her knees, could give her no fortitude under the pressure of that 
dread, and again and again her eyes had filled with tears, as they wandered 
vaguely, seeing neither the chestnut trees nor the distant horizon, but only 
future scenes of home-sorrow. 


</p>
               <p>Suddenly she was roused by the sound of the opening gate and of footsteps on 
the gravel. It was not Tom who was entering, but a man in a sealskin cap and 
a blue plush waistcoat, carrying a pack on his back, and followed closely by 
a bull-terrier of brindled coat and defiant aspect. 


</p>
               <p>`O Bob, it's you!' said Maggie, starting up with a smile of pleased 
recognition, for there had been no abundance of kind acts to efface the 
recollection of Bob's generosity. `I'm so glad to see you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you, Miss,' said Bob, lifting his cap and showing a delighted face, 
but immediately relieving himself of some accompanying embarrassment by 
looking down at his dog, and saying in a tone of disgust, `Get out wi' you, 
you thunderin' sawney!' 


</p>
               <p>`My brother is not at home yet, Bob,' said Maggie, `he is always at St Ogg's 
in the daytime.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Miss,' said Bob, `I should be glad to see Mr Tom — but that isn't just 
what I'm come for — look here!' 


</p>
               <p>Bob was in the act of depositing his pack on the doorstep, and with it a row 
of small books fastened together with string. Apparently, however, they were 
not the object to which he wished to call Maggie's attention, but rather 
something which he had carried under his arm, wrapped in a red handkerchief. 


</p>
               <p>`See here!' he said again, laying the red parcel on the others and unfolding 
it, `you won't think I'm a-makin' too free, Miss, I hope, but I lighted on 
these books, and I thought they might make up to you a bit for them as you've 
lost; for I heared you speak o' picturs — an' as for picturs, <hi>look</hi>
here!' 


</p>
               <p>The opening of the red handkerchief had disclosed a superannuated `Keepsake' 
and six or seven numbers of a `Portrait Gallery,' in royal octavo; and the 
emphatic request to look referred to a portrait of George the Fourth in all 
the majesty of his depressed cranium and voluminous neckcloth. 


</p>
               <p>`There's all sorts o' genelmen here,' Bob went on, turning over the leaves 
with some excitement, `wi' all sorts o' noses — an' some bald an' some wi' 
wigs — Parlament genelmen, I reckon. An' here,' he added, opening the 
`Keepsake,' `<hi>here's</hi> ladies for you, some wi' curly hair and some 
wi'smooth, an' some a-smiling wi' their heads o' one side an'some as if they 
was goin' to cry — look here — a-sittin' on the ground out o' door dressed 
like the ladies I'n seen get out o'the carriages at the balls in th' Old Hall 
there. My eyes, I wonder what the chaps wear as go a-courtin' 'em! I sot up 
till the clock was gone twelve last night a-lookin' at 'em — I did — till 
they stared at me out o' the picturs as if they'd know when I spoke to 'em. 
But, lors! I shouldn't know what to say to 'em. They'll be more fittin' 
company for you, Miss, and the man at the book-stall, he said they banged 
ivery-things for picturs — he said they was a fust-rate article.' 


</p>
               <p>`And you've bought them for me, Bob?' said Maggie, deeply touched by this 
simple kindness. `How very, very good of you! But I'm afraid you gave a great 
deal of money for them.' 


</p>
               <p>`Not me!' said Bob. `I'd ha' gev three times the money, if they'll make up to 
you a bit for them as was sold away from you, Miss. For I'n niver forgot how 
you looked when you fretted about the books bein' gone — it's stuck by me as 
if it was a pictur hingin' before me. An' when I see'd the book open upo' the 
stall, wi' the lady lookin' out of it wi' eyes a bit life your'n when you was 
frettin' — you'll excuse my takin' the liberty, Miss — I thought I'd make 
free to buy it for you, an' then I bought the books full o' genelmen to match 
— an then' — here Bob took up the small stringed packet of books — `I thought 
you might like a bit more print as well as the picturs, an' I got these for a 
say-so — they're cram-full o' print, an' I thought they'd do no harm comin' 
along wi' these bettermost books. An' I hope you won't say me nay, an' tell 
me as you won't have 'em, like Mr Tom did wi' the suvreigns.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, indeed, Bob,' said Maggie, `I'm very thankful to you for thinking of me, 
and being so good to me and Tom. I don't think any one ever did such a kind 
thing for me before. I haven't many friends who care for me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Hev a dog, Miss — they're better friends nor any Christian,' said Bob, 
laying down his pack again, which he had taken up with the intention of 
hurrying away; for he felt considerable shyness in talking to a young lass 
like Maggie, though, as he usually said of himself, `his tongue overrun him' 
when he began to speak. `I can't give you Mumps, 'cause he'd break his heart 
to go away from me — Eh, Mumps, what do you say, you riff-raff?' — (Mumps 
declined to express himself more diffusely than by a single affirmative 
movement of his tail.) `But I'd get you a pup, Miss, an' welcome.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, thank you, Bob. We have a yard dog, and I mayn't keep a dog of my own.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, that's a pity: else there's a pup — if you didn't mind about it not 
bein' thorough bred — its mother acts in the Punch show — an uncommon 
sensable bitch — she means more sense wi' her bark nor half the chaps can put 
into their talk from breakfast to sundown. There's one chap carries pots, a 
poor low trade as any on the road — he says, “Why, Toby's nought but a 
mongrel — there's nought to look at in her.” But I says to him, 
“Why, what are you yoursen but a mongrel? There wasn't much pickin' o' 
<hi>your</hi> feyther an' mother, to look at you.” Not but what I like a 
bit o' breed myself, but I can't abide to see one cur grinnin' at another. I 
wish you good evenin', Miss,' added Bob, abruptly taking up his pack again, 
under the consciousness that his tongue was acting in an undisciplined 
manner. 


</p>
               <p>`Won't you come in the evening some time, and see my brother, Bob?' said 
Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Miss, thank you — another time. You'll give my duty to him, if you 
please. Eh, he's a fine growed chap, Mr Tom is; he took to growin' i' the 
legs, an <hi>I</hi> didn't.' 


</p>
               <p>The pack was down again, now — the hook of the stick having somehow gone 
wrong. 


</p>
               <p>`You don't call Mumps a cur, I suppose,' said Maggie, divining that any 
interest she showed in Mumps would be gratifying to his master. 


</p>
               <p>`No, Miss, a fine way off that,' said Bob, with a pitying smile, `Mumps is as 
fine a cross as you'll see anywhere along the Floss, an' I'n been up it wi' 
the barge times enoo. Why, the gentry stops to look at him, but you won't 
catch Mumps a-looking at the gentry much — he minds his own business — he 
does.' 


</p>
               <p>The expression of Mumps's face, which seemed to be tolerating the superfluous 
existence of objects in general, was strongly confirmatory of this high 
praise. 


</p>
               <p>`He looks dreadfully surly,' said Maggie. `Would he let me pat him?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, that would he, and thank you. He knows his company, Mumps does. He isn't 
a dog as 'ull be caught wi' gingerbread: he'd smell a thief a good deal 
stronger nor the gingerbread — he would. Lors, I talk to him by th' hour 
together, when I'm walking i'lone places, and if I'n done a bit o' mischief — 
I allays tell him — I'n got no secrets but what Mumps knows 'em. He knows 
about my big thumb, he does.' 


</p>
               <p>`Your big thumb — what's that Bob?' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`That's what it is, Miss,' said Bob, quickly, exhibiting a singularly broad 
specimen of that difference between the man and the monkey. 85 `It tells i' 
measuring out the flannel, you see. I carry flannel, 'cause it's light for my 
pack, an' it's dear stuff, you see, so a big thumb tells. I clap my thumb at 
the end o' the yard and cut o' the hither side of it, and the old women 
aren't up to't.' 


</p>
               <p>`But, Bob,' said Maggie, looking serious, `that's cheating: I don't like to 
hear you say that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you, Miss?' said Bob, regretfully. `Then I'm sorry I said it. But I'm 
so used to talking to Mumps, an' he doesn't mind a bit o' cheating, when it's 
them skinflint women, as haggle and haggle, an' 'ud like to get their flannel 
for nothing, an' 'ud niver ask theirselves how I got my dinner out on't. I 
niver cheat anybody as doesn't want to cheat me, Miss — lors, I'm a honest 
chap, I am, only I must hev a bit o' sport, an' now I don't go wi' the 
ferrets, I'n got no varmint to come over but them haggling women. I wish you 
good evening, Miss.' 


</p>
               <p>`Goodby, Bob. Thank you very much for bringing me the books. And come again 
to see Tom.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Miss,' said Bob, moving on a few steps; then turning half round, he 
said, `I'll leave off that trick wi' my big thumb, if you don't think well on 
me for it, Miss — but it 'ud be a pity, it would. I couldn't find another 
trick so good — an' what 'ud be the use o' havin' a big thumb? It might as 
well ha' been narrer.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, thus exalted into Bob's directing Madonna, laughed in spite of 
herself, at which her worshipper's blue eyes twinkled too, and under these 
favouring auspices he touched his cap and walked away. 


</p>
               <p>The days of chivalry are not gone, notwithstanding Burke's grand dirge over 
them: they live still in that far-off worship paid by many a youth and man to 
the woman of whom he never dreams that he shall touch so much as her little 
finger or the hem of her robe. Bob, with the pack on his back, had as 
respectful an adoration for this dark-eyed maiden as if he had been a knight 
in armour calling aloud on her name as he pricked on to the fight. 

</p>
               <p>That gleam of merriment soon died away from Maggie's face, and perhaps only 
made the returning gloom deeper by contrast. She was too dispirited even to 
like answering questions about Bob's present of books, and she carried them 
away to her bedroom, laying them down there and seating herself on her one 
stool, without caring to look at them just yet. She leaned her cheek against 
the window frame and thought that the light-hearted Bob had a lot much 
happier than hers. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's sense of loneliness and utter privation of joy had deepened with the 
brightness of advancing spring. All the favourite outdoor nooks about home, 
which seemed to have done their part with her parents in nurturing and 
cherishing her, were not mixed up with the home sadness and gathered no smile 
from the sunshine. Every affection, every delight the poor child had had was 
like an aching nerve to her. There was no music for her any more — no piano, 
no harmonised voices, no delicious stringed instruments with their passionate 
cries of imprisoned spirits sending a strange vibration through her frame. 
And of all her school life, there was nothing left her now but her little 
collection of school books, which she turned over with a sickening sense that 
she knew them all, and they were all barren of comfort. Even at school she 
had often wished for books with <hi>more</hi> in them: everything she learned 
there seemed like the ends of long threads that snapped immediately. And now 
— without the indirect charm of school emulation — Télémaque 
was mere bran: so were the hard dry questions on Christian doctrine: there 
was no flavour in them, no strength. Sometimes Maggie thought she could have 
been contented with absorbing fancies: if she could have had all Scott's 
novels and all Byron's poems! — then perhaps she might have found happiness 
enough to dull her sensibility to her actual daily life. And yet... they were 
hardly what she wanted. She could make dream-worlds of her own — but no 
dream-world would satisfy her now. She wanted some explanation of this hard, 
real life: the unhappy-looking father seated at the dull breakfast-table; the 
childish bewildered mother; the little sordid tasks that filled the hours, or 
the more oppressive emptiness of weary, joyless leisure; the need of some 
tender, demonstrative love; the cruel sense that Tom didn't mind what she 
thought or felt, and that they were no longer playfellows together; the 
privation of all pleasant things that had come to her more than to others: 
she wanted some key that would enable her to understand and, in 
understanding, endure, the heavy weight that had fallen on her young heart. 
If she had been taught `real learning and wisdom, such as great men knew,' 
she thought she should have held the secrets of life; if she had only books 
that she might learn for herself what wise men knew! Saints and martyrs had 
never interested Maggie so much as sages and poets. She knew little of saints 
and martyrs, and had gathered, as a general result of her teaching, that they 
were a temporary provision against the spread of Catholicism and had all died 
at Smithfield. 


</p>
               <p>In one of these meditations, it occurred to her that she had forgotton Tom's 
school-books, which had been sent home in his trunk. But she found the stock 
unaccountably shrunk down to the few old ones which had been well thumbed — 
the Latin Dictionary and Grammar, a Delectus, a torn Eutropius, the well-worn 
Virgil, Aldrich's Logic, and the exasperating Euclid. Still, Latin, Euclid 
and Logic would surely be a considerable step in masculine wisdom — in that 
knowledge which made men contented and even glad to live. Not that the 
yearning for effectual wisdom was quite unmixed: a certain mirage would now 
and then rise on the desert of the future, in which she seemed to see herself 
honoured for her surprising attainments. And so the poor child, with her 
soul's hunger and her illusions of self-flattery, began to nibble at this 
thick-rinded fruit of the tree of knowledge, filling her vacant hours with 
Latin, geometry, and the forms of the syllogism, and feeling a gleam of 
triumph now and then that her understanding was quite equal to these 
peculiarly masculine studies. For a week or two she went on resolutely 
enough, though with an occasional sinking of heart, as if she had set out 
toward the Promised Land alone, and found it a thirsty, trackless, uncertain 
journey. In the severity of her early resolution she would take Aldrich out 
into the fields, and then look off her book towards the sky where the lark 
was twinkling or to the reeds and bushes by the river where the water-fowl 
rustled out on her anxious, awkward flight — with a startled sense that the 
relation between Aldrich and this living world was extremely remote for her. 
The discouragement deepened as the days went on, and the eager heart gained 
faster and faster on the patient mind. Somehow, when she sat at the window 
with her book, her eyes <hi>would</hi> fix themselves blankly on the outdoor 
sunshine: then they would fill with tears, and sometimes, if her mother was 
not in the room, the studies would all end in sobbing. She rebelled against 
her lot, she fainted under its loneliness, and fits even of anger and hatred 
towards her father and mother who were so unlike what she would have them to 
be — towards Tom, who checked her and met her thought or feeling always by 
some thwarting difference — would flow out over her affections and conscience 
like a lava stream and frighten her with the sense that it was not difficult 
for her to become a demon. Then her brain would be busy with wild romances of 
a flight from home in search of something less sordid and dreary: — she would 
go to some great man — Walter Scott, perhaps, and tell him how wretched and 
how clever she was, and he would surely do something for her. But in the 
middle of her vision her father would perhaps enter the room for the evening, 
and, surprised that she sat still, without noticing him, would say 
complainingly, `Come, am I to fetch my slippers myself?' The voice pierced 
through Maggie like a sword: there was another sadness besides her own, and 
she had been thinking of turning her back on it and forsaking it. 


</p>
               <p>This afternoon, the sight of Bob's cheerful freckled face had given her 
discontent a new direction. She thought it was part of the hardship of her 
life that there was laid upon her the burthen of larger wants than others 
seemed to feel, that she had to endure this wide hopeless yearning for that 
something, whatever it was, that was greatest and best on this earth. She 
wished she could have been like Bob, with his easily satisfied ignorance, or 
like Tom, who had something to do on which he could fix his mind with a 
steady purpose and disregard everything else. Poor child! as she leaned her 
head against the window-frame with her hands clasped tighter and tighter and 
her foot beating the ground, she was as lonely in her trouble as if she had 
been the only girl in the civilised world of that day, who had come out of 
her school-life with a soul untrained for inevitable struggles — with no 
other part of her inherited share in the hard-won treasures of thought, which 
generations of painful toil have laid up for the race of men than shreds and 
patches of feeble literature and false history — with much futile information 
about Saxon and other kings of doubtful example, but unhappily quite without 
that knowledge of the irreversible laws within and without her which, 
governing the habits, becomes morality, and, developing the feelings of 
submission and dependence, becomes religion: — as lonely in her trouble as if 
every other girl besides herself had been cherished and watched over by elder 
minds, not forgetful of their own early time when need was keen and impulse 
strong. 


</p>
               <p>At last Maggie's eyes glanced down on the books that lay on the window shelf, 
and she half forsook her reverie to turn over listlessly the leaves of the 
`Portrait Gallery,' but she soon pushed this aside to examine the little row 
of books tied together with string. `Beauties of the Spectator,' `Rasselas,' 
`Economy of Human Life,' `Gregory's Letters' — she knew the sort of matter 
that was inside all these: the `Christian Year' — that seemed to be a 
hymn-book, and she laid it down again; but <hi>Thomas à Kempis</hi>? — 
the name had come across her in her reading, and she felt the satisfaction, 
which every one knows, of getting some ideas to attach to a name that strays 
solitary in the memory. She took up the little, old, clumsy book with some 
curiosity: it had the corners turned down in many places, and some hand, now 
for ever quiet, had made at certain passages strong pen and ink marks, long 
since browned by time. Maggie turned from leaf to leaf and read where the 
quiet hand pointed... `Know that the love of thyself doth hurt thee more than 
anything in the world... If thou seekest this or that, and wouldst be here or 
there, to enjoy thy own will and pleasure thou shalt never be quiet nor free 
from care: for in everything somewhat will be wanting, and in every place 
there will be some that will cross thee... Both above and below, which way 
soever thou dost turn thee, everywhere thou shalt find the Cross: and 
everywhere of necessity thou must have patience, if thou wilt have inward 
peace, and enjoy an everlasting crown... If thou desire to mount unto this 
height, thou must set out courageously, and lay the axe to the root; that 
thou mayst pluck up and destroy that hidden inordinate inclination to 
thyself, and unto all private and earthly good. On this sin, that a man 
inordinately loveth himself, almost all dependeth, whatsoever is thoroughly 
to be overcome; which evil being once overcome and subdued, there will 
presently ensue great peace and tranquillity... It is but little thou 
sufferest in comparison of them that have suffered so much, were so strongly 
tempted, so grievously afflicted, so many ways tried and exercised. Thou 
oughtest therefore to call to mind the more heavy sufferings of others, that 
thou mayst the easier bear thy little adversities. And if they seem not 
little unto thee, beware lest thy impatience be the cause thereof... Blessed 
are those ears that receive the whispers of the divine voice, and listen not 
to the whisperings of the world. Blessed are those ears which hearken not 
unto the voice which soundeth outwardly, but unto the Truth which teacheth 
inwardly... ' 


</p>
               <p>A strange thrill of awe passed through Maggie while she read, as if she had 
been wakened in the night by a strain of solemn music, telling of beings 
whose souls had been astir while hers was in stupor. She went on from one 
brown mark to another, where the quiet hand seemed to point, hardly conscious 
that she was reading — seeming rather to listen while a low voice said, 


</p>
               <p>`Why dost thou here gaze about, since this is not the place of thy rest? In 
heaven ought to be thy dwelling, and all earthly things are to be looked on 
as they forward thy journey thither. All things pass away, and thou together 
with them. Beware thou cleave not unto them, lest thou be entangled and 
perish... If a man should give all his substance, yet it is as nothing. And 
if he should do great penances, yet are they but little. And if he should 
attain to all knowledge, he is yet far off. And if he should be of great 
virtue, and very fervent devotion, yet is there much wanting; to wit, one 
thing, which is most necessary for him. What is that? That having left all, 
he leave himself, and go wholly out of himself, and retain nothing of 
self-love... I have often said unto thee, and now again I say the same: 
Forsake thyself, resign thyself, and thou shalt enjoy much inward peace... 
Then shall all vain imaginations, evil perturbations, and superfluous cares 
fly away; then shall immoderate fear leave thee and inordinate love shall 
die.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie drew a long breath and pushed her heavy hair back, as if to see a 
sudden vision more clearly. Here, then, was a secret of life that would 
enable her to renounce all other secrets — here was a sublime height to be 
reached without the help of outward things — here was insight, and strength, 
and conquest, to be won by means entirely within her own soul, where a 
supreme teacher was waiting to be heard. It flashed through her like the 
suddenly apprehended solution of a problem, that all the miseries of her 
young life had come from fixing her heart on her own pleasure, as if that 
were the central necessity of the universe; and for the first time she saw 
the possibility of shifting the position from which she looked at the 
gratification of her own desires, of taking her stand out of herself, and 
looking at her own life as an insignificant part of a divinely guided whole. 
She read on and on in the old book, devouring eagerly the dialogues with the 
invisible Teacher, the pattern of sorrow, the source of all strength; 
returning to it after she had been called away, and reading till the sun went 
down behind the willows. With all the hurry of an imagination that could 
never rest in the present, she sat in the deepening twilight forming plans of 
self-humiliation and entire devotedness, and in the ardour of first 
discovery, renunciation seemed to her the entrance into that satisfaction 
which she had so long been craving in vain. She had not perceived — how could 
she until she had lived longer? — the inmost truth of the old monk's 
outpourings, that renunciation remains sorrow, though a sorrow borne 
willingly. Maggie was still panting for happiness, and was in ecstasy because 
she had found the key to it. She knew nothing of doctrines and systems — of 
mysticism or quietism: but this voice out of the far-off middle ages, was the 
direct communication of a human soul's belief and experience, and came to 
Maggie as an unquestioned message. 


</p>
               <p>I suppose that is the reason why the small old-fashioned book, for which you 
need only pay sixpence at a book-stall, works miracles to this day, turning 
bitter waters into sweetness; while expensive sermons and treatises newly 
issued leave all things as they were before. It was written down by a hand 
that waited for the heart's prompting, it is the chronicle of a solitary, 
hidden anguish, struggle, trust and triumph — not written on velvet cushions 
to teach endurance to those who are treading with bleeding feet on the 
stones. And so it remains to all time, a lasting record of human needs and 
human consolations, the voice of a brother who, ages ago, felt and suffered 
and renounced — in the cloister, perhaps, with serge gown and tonsured head, 
with much chanting and long fasts, and with a fashion of speech different 
from ours — but under the same silent far-off heavens, and with the same 
passionate desires, the same strivings, the same failures, the same 
weariness. 


</p>
               <p>In writing the history of unfashionable families, one is apt to fall into a 
tone of emphasis which is very far from being the tone of good society, where 
principles and beliefs are not only of an extremely moderate kind, but are 
always presupposed, no subjects being eligible but such as can be touched 
with a light and graceful irony. But then, good society has its claret and 
its velvet carpets, its dinner-engagements six weeks deep, its opera and its 
faëry ballrooms; rides of its ennui on thoroughbred horses, lounges at 
the club, has to keep clear of crinoline vortices, gets is science done by 
Faraday, and its religion by the superior clergy who are to be met in the 
best houses: how should it have time or need for belief and emphasis? But 
good society, floated on gossamer wings of light irony, is of very expensive 
production; requiring nothing less than a wide and arduous national life 
condensed in unfragrant deafening factories, cramping itself in mines, 
sweating at furnaces, grinding, hammering, weaving under more or less 
oppression of carbonic acid — or else, spread over sheepwalks, and scattered 
in lonely houses and huts on the clayey or chalky cornlands, where the rainy 
days look dreary. This wide national life is based entirely on emphasis — the 
emphasis of want, which urges it into all the activities necessary for the 
maintenance of good society and light irony: it spends its heavy years often 
in a chill, uncarpeted fashion amidst family discord unsoftened by long 
corridors. Under such circumstances there are many among its myriads of souls 
who have absolutely needed an emphatic belief, life in this unpleasurable 
shape demanding some solution even to unspeculative minds; just as you 
inquire into the stuffing of your couch when anything galls you there, 
whereas eider-down and perfect French springs excite no question. Some have 
an emphatic belief in alcohol, and seek their <hi>ekstasis</hi> or outside 
standing-ground in gin, but the rest require something that good society 
calls enthusiasm, something that will present motives in an entire absence of 
high prizes, something that will give patience and feed human love when the 
limbs ache with weariness and human looks are hard upon us — something, 
clearly, that lies outside personal desires, that includes resignation for 
ourselves and active love for what is not ourselves. Now and then that sort 
of enthusiasm finds a far-echoing voice that comes from an experience 
springing out of the deepest need. And it was by being brought within the 
long lingering vibrations of such a voice that Maggie, with her girl's face 
and unnoted sorrows, found an effort and a hope that helped her through two 
years of loneliness, making out a faith for herself without the aid of 
established authorities and appointed guides — for they were not at hand, and 
her need was pressing. From what you know of her, you will not be surprised 
that she threw some exaggeraction and wilfulness, some pride and impetuosity 
even into her self-renunciation: her own life was still a drama for her, in 
which she demanded of herself that her part should be played with intensity. 
And so it came to pass that she often lost the spirit of humility by being 
excessive in the outward act; she often strove after too high a flight and 
came down with her poor little half-fledged wings dabbled in the mud. For 
example, she not only determined to work at plain sewing, that she might 
contribute something towards the fund in the tin box, but she went in the 
first instance in her zeal of self-mortification to ask for it at a 
linen-shop in St Ogg's, instead of getting it in a more quiet and indirect 
way, and could see nothing but what was entirely wrong and unkind, nay, 
persecuting, in Tom's reproof of her for this unnecessary act. `I don't like 
<hi>my</hi> sister to do such things,' said Tom, `<hi>I'll</hi> take care 
that the debts are paid, without your lowering yourself in that way.' Surely 
there was some tenderness and bravery mingled with the worldliness and 
self-assertion of that little speech, but Maggie held it as dross, 
overlooking the grains of gold, and took Tom's rebuke as one of her outward 
crosses. Tom was very hard to her, she used to think, in her long 
night-watchings — to her who had always loved him so; and then she strove to 
be contented with that hardness, and to require nothing. That is the path we 
all like when we set out on our abandonment of egoism — the path of martyrdom 
and endurance, where the palm-branches grow, rather than the steep highway of 
tolerance, just allowance, and self-blame, where there are no leafy honours 
to be gathered and worn. 


</p>
               <p>The old books, Virgil, Euclid, and Aldrich — that wrinkled fruit of the tree 
of knowledge — had been all laid by, for Maggie had turned her back on the 
vain ambition to share the thoughts of the wise. In her first ardour, she 
flung away the books with a sort of triumph that she had risen above the need 
of them, and if they had been her own she would have burned them, believing 
that she would never repent. She read so eagerly and constantly in her three 
books, the Bible, Thomas-à-Kempis, and the `Christian Year' (no longer 
rejected as a `hymn-book') that they filled her mind with a continual stream 
of rhythmic memories; and she was too ardently learning to see all nature and 
life in the light of her new faith to need any other material for her mind to 
work on, as she sat with her well-plied needle, making shirts and other 
complicated stitchings falsely called `plain' — by no means plain to Maggie, 
since wristband and sleeve and the like had a capability of being sewed-in 
wrong side outwards in moments of mental wandering. 


</p>
               <p>Hanging diligently over her sewing, Maggie was a sight any one might have 
been pleased to look at. That new inward life of hers, notwithstanding some 
volcanic upheavings of imprisoned passions, yet shone out in her face with a 
tender soft light that mingled itself as added loveliness with the gradually 
enriched colour and outline of her blossoming youth. Her mother felt the 
change in her with a sort of puzzled wonder that Maggie should be `growing up 
so good;' it was amazing that this once `contrairy' child was become so 
submissive, so backward to assert her own will. Maggie used to look up from 
her work and find her mother's eyes fixed upon her: they were watching and 
waiting for the large young glance, as if her elder frame got some needful 
warmth from it. The mother was getting fond of her tall, brown girl, the only 
bit of furniture now on which she could bestow her anxiety and pride, and 
Maggie, in spite of her own ascetic wish to have no personal adornment was 
obliged to give way to her mother about her hair and submit to have the 
abundant black locks plaited into a coronet on the summit of her head after 
the pitiable fashion of those antiquated times. 


</p>
               <p>`Let your mother have that bit o' pleasure, my dear,' said Mrs Tulliver, `I'd 
trouble enough with your hair once.' 


</p>
               <p>So Maggie, glad of anything that would soothe her mother and cheer their long 
day together, consented to the vain decoration, and showed a queenly head 
above her old frocks — steadily refusing, however, to look at herself in the 
glass. Mrs Tulliver liked to call the father's attention to Maggie's hair and 
other unexpected virtues, but he had a brusque reply to give. 


</p>
               <p>`I knew well enough what she'd be, before now — it's nothing new to me. But 
it's a pity she isn't made o' commoner stuff — she'll be thrown away, I 
doubt: there'll be nobody to marry her as is fit for her.' 


</p>
               <p>And Maggie's graces of mind and body fed his gloom. He sat patiently enough 
while she read him a chapter, or said something timidly when they were alone 
together about trouble being turned into a blessing. He took it all as part 
of his daughter's goodness, which made his misfortunes the sadder to him 
because they damaged her change in life. In a mind charged with an eager 
purpose and an unsatisfied vindictiveness, there is no room for new feelings: 
Mr Tulliver did not want spiritual consolation — he wanted to shake off the 
degradation of debt and to have his revenge. 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b5" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c5.1" type="chapter">
               <head>In the Red Deeps</head>
               <p>THE family sittingroom was long room with a window at each end — one looking 
towards the croft and along the Ripple to the banks of the Floss, the other 
into the mill-yard. Maggie was sitting with her work against the latter 
window when she saw Mr Wakem entering the yard, as usual, on his fine black 
horse; but not alone, as usual. Some one was with him — a figure in a clock, 
on a handsome pony. Maggie had hardly time to feel that it was Philip come 
back, before they were in front of the window, and he was raising his hat to 
her, while his father, catching the movement by a side glance, looked sharply 
round at them both. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie hurried away from the window and carried her work up-stairs; for Mr 
Wakem sometimes came in and inspected the books, and Maggie felt that the 
meeting with Philip would be robbed of all pleasure in the presence of the 
two fathers. Some day, perhaps, she should see him when they could just shake 
hands and she could tell him that she remembered his goodness to Tom, and the 
things he had said to her in the old days, though they could never be friends 
any more. It was not at all agitating to Maggie to see Philip again: she 
retained her childish gratitude and pity towards him and remembered his 
cleverness; and in the early weeks of her loneliness she had continually 
recalled the image of him among the people who had been kind to her in life, 
often wishing she had him for a brother and a teacher, as they had fancied it 
might have been, in their talk together. But that sort of wishing had been 
banished along with other dreams that savoured of seeking her own will; and 
she thought, besides, that Philip might be altered by his life abroad — he 
might have become worldly, and really not care about her saying anything to 
him now. And yet, his face was wonderfully little altered — it was only a 
larger, more manly copy of the pale small-featured boy's face, with the grey 
eyes and the boyish waving brown hair; there was the old deformity to awaken 
the old pity, and after all her meditations, Maggie felt that she really 
<hi>should</hi> like to say a few words to him. He might still be melancholy, 
as he always used to be, and like her to look at him kindly. She wondered if 
he remembered how he used to like her eyes. With that thought Maggie glanced 
towards the square looking-glass which was condemned to hang with its face 
towards the wall, and she half-started from her seat to reach it down; but 
she checked herself and snatched up her work, trying to repress the rising 
wishes by forcing her memory to recall snatches of hymns, until she saw 
Philip and his father returning along the road, and she could go down again. 


</p>
               <p>It was far on in June now, and Maggie was inclined to lengthen the daily walk 
which was her one indulgence; but this day and the following she was so busy 
with work which must be finished, that she never went beyond the gate, and 
satisfied her need of the open air by sitting out of doors. One of her 
frequent walks, when she was not obliged to go to St Ogg's, was to a spot 
that lay beyond what was called the `hill' — an insignificant rise of ground 
crowned by trees, lying along the side of the road which ran by the gates of 
Dorlcote Mill. Insignificant, I call it, because in height it was hardly more 
than a bank; — but there may come moments when Nature makes a mere bank a 
means towards a fateful result, and that is why I ask you to imagine this 
high bank crowned with trees, making an uneven wall for some quarter of a 
mile along the left side of Dorlcote Mill and the pleasant fields behind it 
bounded by the murmuring Ripple. Just where this line of bank sloped down 
again to the level, a by-road turned off and led to the other side of the 
rise, where it was broken into very capricious hollows and mounds by the 
working of an exhausted stone-quarry — so long exhausted that both mounds and 
hollows were now clothed with brambles and trees, and here and there by a 
stretch of grass which a few sheep kept close-nibbled. In her childish days 
Maggie held this place, called the Red Deeps, in very great awe, and needed 
all her confidence in Tom's bravery to reconcile her to an excursion thither, 
visions of robbers and fierce animals haunting every hollow. But now it had 
the charm for her which any broken ground, any mimic rock and ravine have for 
the eyes that rest habitually on the level, especially in summer, when she 
could sit on a grassy hollow under the shadow of a branching ash, stooping 
aslant from the steep above her, and listen to the hum of insects, like 
tiniest bells on the garment of Silence, or see the sunlight piercing the 
distant boughs, as if to chase and drive home the truant heavenly blue of the 
wild hyacinths. In this June time too, the dogroses were in their glory, and 
that was an additional reason why Maggie should direct her walk to the Red 
Deeps, rather than to any other spot, on the first day she was free to wander 
at her will — a pleasure she loved so well that sometimes, in her ardours of 
renunciation, she thought she ought to deny herself the frequent indulgence 
in it. 


</p>
               <p>You may see her now, as she walks down the favourite turning and enters the 
Deeps by a narrow path through a group of Scotch firs — her tall figure and 
old lavender gown visible through an hereditary black silk shawl of some 
wide-meshed net-like material; and now she is sure of being unseen, she takes 
off her bonnet and ties it over her arm. One would certainly suppose her to 
be farther on in life than her seventeenth year — perhaps because of the slow 
resigned sadness of the glance, from which all search and unrest seem to have 
departed, perhaps because her broad-chested figure has the mould of early 
womanhood. Youth and health have withstood well the involuntary and voluntary 
hardships of her lot, and the nights in which she has lain on the hard floor 
for a penance have left no obvious trace: the eyes are liquid, the brown 
cheek is firm and rounded, the full lips are red. With her dark colouring and 
jet crown surmounting her tall figure, she seems to have a sort of kinship 
with the grand Scotch firs, at which she is looking up as if she loved them 
well. Yet one has a sense of uneasiness in looking at her — a sense of 
opposing elements, of which a fierce collision is imminent: surely there is a 
hushed expression such as one often sees in older faces under borderless 
caps, out of keeping with the resistant youth, which one expects to flash out 
in a sudden, passionate glance that will dissipate all the quietude, like a 
damped fire leaping out again when all seemed safe. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie herself was not uneasy at this moment. She was calmly enjoying the 
free air, while she looked up at the old fir-trees and thought that those 
broken ends of branches were the records of past storms which had only made 
the red stems soar higher. But while her eyes were still turned upward, she 
became conscious of a moving shadow cast by the evening sun on the grassy 
path before her, and looked down with a startled gesture to see Philip Wakem, 
who first raised his hat, and then blushing deeply, came forward to her and 
put out his hand. Maggie too coloured with surprise which soon gave way to 
pleasure. She put out her hand and looked down at the lower deformed figure 
before her with frank eyes, filled for the moment with nothing but the memory 
of her child's feelings — a memory that was always strong in her. She was the 
first to speak. 

</p>
               <p>`You startled me,' she said, smiling faintly. `I never meet any one here. How 
came you to be walking here? Did you come to meet <hi>me</hi>?' 


</p>
               <p>It was impossible not to perceive that Maggie felt herself a child again. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I did,' said Philip, still embarrassed. `I wished to see you very much. 
I watched a long while yesterday on the bank near your house to see if you 
would come out; but you never came. Then I watched again today, and when I 
saw the way you took, I kept you in sight and came down the bank, behind 
there. I hope you will not be displeased with me.' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie with simple seriousness, walking on, as if she meant Philip 
to accompany her, `I'm very glad you came, for I wished very much to have an 
opportunity of speaking to you. I've never forgotten how good you were long 
ago to Tom, and me too; but I was not sure that you would remember us so 
well. Tom and I have had a great deal of trouble since then, and I think that 
makes one think more of what happened before the trouble came.' 


</p>
               <p>`I can't believe that you have thought of me so much as I have thought of 
you,' said Philip, timidly. `Do you know, when I was away, I made a picture 
of you as you looked that morning in the study when you said you would not 
forget me.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip drew a large miniature-case from his pocket, and opened it. Maggie saw 
her old self leaning on a table, with her black locks hanging down behind her 
ears, looking into space with strange, dreamy eyes. It was a water-colour 
sketch, of real merit as a portrait. 


</p>
               <p>`O dear,' said Maggie, smiling, and flushed with pleasure. `What a queer 
little girl I was. I remember myself with my hair in that way, in that pink 
frock. I really <hi>was</hi> like a gypsy. I daresay I am now,' she added, 
after a little pause: `am I like what you expected me to be?' 


</p>
               <p>The words might have been those of a coquette, but the full bright glance 
Maggie turned on Philip was not that of a coquette. She really did hope he 
liked her face as it was now, but it was simply the rising again of her 
innate delight in admiration and love. Philip met her eyes and looked at her 
in silence for a long moment, before he said, quietly, `No, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>The light died out a little from Maggie's face, and there was a slight 
trembling of the lip. Her eyelids fell lower, but she did not turn away her 
head, and Philip continued to look at her. Then he said, slowly, 


</p>
               <p>`You are very much more beautiful than I thought you would be.' 


</p>
               <p>`Am I?' said Maggie, the pleasure returning in a deeper flush. She turned her 
face away from him and took some steps looking straight before her in 
silence, as if she were adjusting her consciousness to this new idea. Girls 
are so accustomed to think of dress as the main ground of vanity, that in 
abstaining from the looking-glass, Maggie had thought more of abandoning all 
care for adornment, than of renouncing the contemplation of her face. 
Comparing herself with elegant, wealthy young ladies, it had not occurred to 
her that she could produce any effect with her person. Philip seemed to like 
the silence well. He walked by her side, watching her face, as if that sight 
left no room for any other wish. They had passed from among the fir-trees and 
had now come to a green hollow almost surrounded by an amphitheatre of the 
pale pink dogroses. But as the light about them had brightened, Maggie's face 
had lost its glow. She stood still when they were in the hollows, and looking 
at Philip again, she said in a serious, sad voice, 


</p>
               <p>`I wish we could have been friends — I mean, if it would have been good and 
right for us. But that is the trial I have to bear in everything: I may not 
keep anything I used to love when I was little. The old books went; and Tom 
is different — and my father. It is like death. I must part with everything I 
cared for when I was a child. And I must part with you: we must never take 
any notice of each other again. That was that I wanted to speak to you for. I 
wanted to let you know, that Tom and I can't do as we like about such things, 
and that if I behave as if I had forgotten all about you, it is not out of 
envy or pride — or — or any bad feeling.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie spoke with more and more sorrowful gentleness as she went on, and her 
eyes began to fill with tears. The deepening expression of pain of Philip's 
face gave him a stronger resemblance to his boyish self, and made the 
deformity appeal more strongly to her pity. 


</p>
               <p>`I know — I see all that you mean,' he said in a voice that had become 
feebler from discouragement, `I know what there is to keep us apart on both 
sides. But it is not right, Maggie — don't you be angry with me, I am so used 
to call you Maggie in my thoughts — it is not right to sacrifice everything 
to other people's unreasonable feelings. I would give up a great deal for 
<hi>my</hi> father; but I would not give up a friendship or — or an 
attachment of any sort, in obedience to any wish of his that I didn't 
recognise as right.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Maggie, musingly. `Often, when I have been angry and 
discontented, it has seemed to me that I was not bound to give up anything — 
and I have gone on thinking till it has seemed to me that I could think away 
all my duty. But no good has ever come of that — it was an evil state of 
mind. I'm quite sure that whatever I might do, I should wish in the end that 
I had gone without anything for myself, rather than have made my father's 
life harder to him.' 


</p>
               <p>`But would it make his life harder, if we were to see each other sometimes?' 
said Philip. He was going to say something else, but checked himself. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I'm sure he wouldn't like it. Don't ask me why, or anything about it,' 
said Maggie, in a distressed tone. `My father feels so strongly about some 
things. He is not at all happy.' 


</p>
               <p>`No more am I,' said Philip, impetuously, `<hi>I</hi> am not happy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why?' said Maggie, gently. `At least — I ought not to ask — but I'm very, 
very sorry.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip turned to walk on as if he had not patience to stand still any longer, 
and they went out of the hollow, winding amongst the trees and bushes in 
silence. After that last word of Philip's Maggie could not bear to insist 
immediately on their parting. 


</p>
               <p>`I've been a great deal happier,' she said, at last, timidly, `since I have 
given up thinking about what is easy and pleasant, and being discontented 
because I couldn't have my own will. Our life is determined for us — and it 
makes the mind very free when we give up wishing and only think of bearing 
what is laid upon us and doing what is given us to do.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I can't give up wishing,' said Philip, impatiently. `It seems to me we 
can never give up longing and wishing while we are thoroughly alive. There 
are certain things we feel to be beautiful and good, and we <hi>must</hi>
hunger after them. How can we ever be satisfied without them until our 
feelings are deadened? I delight in fine pictures — I long to be able to 
paint such. I strive and strive, and can't produce what I want. That is pain 
to me, and always <hi>will</hi> be pain, until my faculties lose their 
keenness, like aged eyes. Then, there are many other things I long for' — 
here Philip hesitated a little, and then said — `things that other men have, 
and that will always be denied me. My life will have nothing great or 
beautiful in it — I would rather not have lived.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Philip,' said Maggie, `I wish you didn't feel so.' But her heart began to 
beat with something of Philip's discontent. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, then,' said he, turning quickly round and fixing his grey eyes 
entreatingly on her face, `I should be contented to live, if you would let me 
see you sometimes.' Then, checked by a fear which her face suggested, he 
looked away again, and said more calmly, `I have no friend to whom I can tell 
everything — no one who cares enough about me. And if I could only see you 
now and then, and you would let me talk to you a little, and show me that you 
cared for me — and that we may always be friends in heart, and help each 
other — then I might come to be glad of life.' 


</p>
               <p>`But how can I see you, Philip?' said Maggie, falteringly. (Could she really 
do him good? It would be very hard to say `good-by' this day, and not speak 
to him again. Here was a new interest to vary the days — it was so much 
easier to renounce the interest before it came.) 


</p>
               <p>`If you would let me see you here sometimes — walk with you here — I would be 
contented if it were only once or twice in a month. <hi>That</hi> could 
injure no one's happiness, and it would sweeten my life. Besides—' Philip 
went on, with all the inventive astuteness of love at one-and-twenty, `if 
there is any enmity between those who belong to us, we ought all the more to 
try and quench it by our friendship — I mean, that by our influence on both 
sides we might bring about a healing of the wounds that have been made in the 
past, if I could know everything about them. And I don't believe there is any 
enmity in my own father's mind: I think he has proved the contrary.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie shook her head slowly, and was silent, under conflicting thoughts. It 
seemed to her inclination that to see Philip now and then and keep up the 
bond of friendship with him, was something not only innocent but good; 
perhaps she might really help him to find contentment, as she had found it. 
The voice that said this made sweet music to Maggie; but athwart it there 
came an urgent monotonous warning from another voice which she had been 
learning to obey — the warning that such interviews implied secrecy, implied 
doing something she would dread to be discovered in, something that, if 
discovered, must cause anger and pain, and that the admission of anything so 
near doubleness would act as a spiritual blight. Yet the music would swell 
out again, like chimes borne onward by a recurrent breeze, persuading her 
that the wrong lay all in the faults and weaknesses of others, and that there 
was such a thing as futile sacrifice for one, to the injury of another. It 
was very cruel for Philip that he should be shrunk from because of an 
unjustifiable vindictiveness towards his father — poor Philip, whom some 
people would shrink from only because he was deformed. The idea that he might 
become her lover, or that her meeting him could cause disapproval in that 
light, had not occurred to her, and Philip saw the absence of this idea 
clearly enough — saw it with a certain pang, although it made her consent to 
his request the less unlikely. There was bitterness to him in the perception 
that Maggie was almost as frank and unconstrained towards him as when she was 
a child. 


</p>
               <p>`I can't say either yes or no,' she said at last, turning round and walking 
towards the way she had come, `I must wait, lest I should decide wrongly. I 
must seek for guidance.' 


</p>
               <p>`May I come again, then — to-morrow — or the next day — or next week?' 


</p>
               <p>`I think I had better write,' said Maggie faltering again. `I have to go to 
St Ogg's sometimes, and I can put the letter in the post.' 


</p>
               <p>`O no,' said Philip eagerly. `That would not be so well. My father might see 
the letter — and — he has not any enmity, I believe, but he views things 
differently from me; he thinks a great deal about wealth and position. Pray 
let me come here once more. <hi>Tell</hi> me when it shall be; or, if you 
can't tell me, I will come as often as I can till I do see you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think it must be so, then,' said Maggie, `for I can't be quite certain of 
coming here any particular evening.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt a great relief in adjourning the decision. She was free now to 
enjoy the minutes of companionship — she almost thought she might linger a 
little: the next time they met, she should have to pain Philip by telling him 
her determination. 


</p>
               <p>`I can't help thinking,' she said, looking smilingly at him, after a few 
moments of silence, `how strange it is that we should have met and talked to 
each other just as if it had been only yesterday when we parted at Lorton. 
And yet we must both be very much altered in those five years — I think it is 
five years. How was it you seemed to have a sort of feeling that I was the 
same Maggie? — I was not quite so sure that you would be the same: I know you 
are so clever, and you must have seen and learnt so much to fill your mind — 
I was not quite sure you would care about me now.' 


</p>
               <p>`I have never had any doubt that you would be the same, whenever I might see 
you,' said Philip. `I mean, the same in everything that made me like you 
better than any one else. I don't want to explain that: I don't think any of 
the strongest effects our natures are susceptible of can ever be explained. 
We can neither detect the process by which they are arrived at nor the mode 
in which they act on us. The greatest of painters only once painted a 
mysteriously divine child — he couldn't have told how he did it — and we 
can't tell why we feel it to be divine. I think there are stores laid up in 
our human nature that our understanding can make no complete inventory of. 
Certain strains of music affect me so strangely — I can never hear them 
without their changing my whole attitude of mind for a time, and if the 
effect would last I might be capable of heroisms.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah! I know what you mean about music — <hi>I</hi> feel so,' said Maggie, 
clasping her hands with her old impetuosity. `At least,' she added, in a 
saddened tone, `I used to feel so when I had any music: I never have any now, 
except the organ at church.' 


</p>
               <p>`And you long for it, Maggie?' said Philip, looking at her with affectionate 
pity. `Ah, you can have very little that is beautiful in your life. Have you 
many books? You were so fond of them when you were a little girl.' 


</p>
               <p>They were come back to the hollow, round which the dogroses grew, and they 
both paused under the charm of the faëry evening light, reflected from 
the pale-pink clusters. 


</p>
               <p>`No, I have given up books,' said Maggie, quietly, `except a very, very few.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip had already taken from his pocket a small volume, and was looking at 
the back, as he said, 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, this is the second volume, I see, else you might have liked to take it 
home with you. I put it in my pocket because I am studying a scene for a 
picture.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had looked at the back too and saw the title: it revived an old 
impression with overmastering force. 


</p>
               <p>`“The Pirate,”' she said, taking the book from Philip's hands. `O, 
I began that once — I read to where Minna is walking with Cleveland — and I 
could never get to read the rest. I went on with it in my own head, and I 
made several endings; but they were all unhappy. I could never make a happy 
ending out of that beginning. Poor Minna! I wonder what is the real end. For 
a long while I couldn't get my mind away from the Shetland Isles — I used to 
feel the wind blowing on me from the rough sea.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie spoke rapidly with glistening eyes. 


</p>
               <p>`Take that volume home with you, Maggie,' said Philip, watching her with 
delight. `I don't want it now. I shall make a picture of you, instead — you 
among the Scotch firs and the slanting shadows.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had not heard a word he had said — she was absorbed in a page at which 
she had opened. But suddenly she closed the book, and gave it back to Philip 
shaking her head with a backward movement, as if to say `avaunt' to floating 
visions. 


</p>
               <p>`Do keep it, Maggie,' said Philip, entreatingly, `it will give you pleasure.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, thank you,' said Maggie, putting it aside with her hand and walking on. 
`It would make me in love with this world again, as I used to be; it would 
make me long to see and know many things — it would make me long for a full 
life.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you will not always be shut up in your present lot: why should you 
starve your mind in that way? It is narrow asceticism — I don't like to see 
you persisting in it, Maggie. Poetry and art and knowledge are sacred and 
pure.' 


</p>
               <p>`But not for me — not for me,' said Maggie, walking more hurriedly. `Because 
I should want too much. I must wait — this life will not last long.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't hurry away from me without saying “good by,” Maggie,' said 
Philip, as they reached the group of Scotch firs, and she continued still to 
walk along without speaking. `I must not go any farther, I think, must I?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, I forgot; goodby,' said Maggie, pausing and putting out her hand to 
him. The action brought her feeling back in a strong current to Philip, and 
after they had stood looking at each other in silence for a few moments, with 
their hands clasped, she said, withdrawing her hand, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm very grateful to you for thinking of me all those years. It is very 
sweet to have people love us. What a wonderful, beautiful thing it seems that 
God should have made your heart so that you could care about a queer little 
girl whom you only knew for a few weeks. I remember saying to you, that I 
thought you cared for me more than Tom did.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, Maggie,' said Philip, almost fretfully, `you would never love me so well 
as you love your brother.' 


</p>
               <p>`Perhaps not,' said Maggie, simply, `but then, you know, the first thing I 
ever remember in my life is standing with Tom by the side of the Floss while 
he held my hand — everything before that is dark to me. But I shall never 
forget you — though we must keep apart.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't say so, Maggie,' said Philip. `If I kept that little girl in my mind 
for five years, didn't I earn some part in her? She ought not to take herself 
quite away from me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Not if I were free,' said Maggie, `but I am not — I must submit.' She 
hesitated a moment and then added, `And I wanted to say to you, that you had 
better not take more notice of my brother than just bowing to him. He once 
told me not to speak to you again, and he doesn't change his mind... O dear, 
the sun is set. I am too long away. Good by.' She gave him her hand once 
more. 


</p>
               <p>`I shall come here as often as I can till I see you again, Maggie. — Have 
some feeling for <hi>me</hi>, as well as for others.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes, I have,' said Maggie, hurrying away, and quickly disappearing 
behind the last fir-tree; though Philip's gaze after her remained immovable 
for minutes, as if he saw her still. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie went home, with an inward conflict already begun; Philip went home to 
do nothing but remember and hope. You can hardly help blaming him severely. 
He was four or five years older than Maggie, and had a full consciousness of 
his feeling towards her to aid him in foreseeing the character his 
contemplated interviews with her would bear in the opinion of a third person. 
But you must not suppose that he was capable of a gross selfishness, or that 
he could have been satisfied without persuading himself that he was seeking 
to infuse some happiness into Maggie's life — seeking this even more than any 
direct ends for himself. He could give her sympathy — he could give her help. 
There was not the slightest promise of love towards him in her manner; it was 
nothing more than the sweet girlish tenderness she had shown him when she was 
twelve: perhaps, she would never love him — perhaps no woman ever 
<hi>could</hi> love him: well, then, he would endure that — he should at 
least have the happiness of seeing her — of feeling some nearness to her. And 
he clutched passionately the possibility, that she <hi>might</hi> love him: 
perhaps the feeling would grow, if she could come to associate him with that 
watchful tenderness, which her nature would be so keenly alive to. If any 
woman could love him — surely Maggie was that woman: there was such wealth of 
love in her, and there was no one to claim it all. Then — the pity of it that 
a mind like hers should be withering in its very youth, like a young forest 
tree, for want of the light and space it was formed to flourish in! Could he 
not hinder that, by persuading her out of her system of privation? He would 
be her guardian angel; he would do anything bear anything for her sake — 
except not seeing her. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.2" type="chapter">
               <head>Aunt Glegg Learns the Breadth of Bob's Thumb</head>
               <p>WHILE Maggie's life-struggles had lain almost entirely within her own soul, 
one shadowy army fighting another, and the slain shadows for ever rising 
again, Tom was engaged in a dustier, noisier warfare, grappling with more 
substantial obstacles, and gaining more definite conquests. So it has been 
since the days of Hecuba, and of Hector, Tamer of horses: inside the gates, 
the women with streaming hair and uplifted hands offering prayers, watching 
the world's combat from afar, filling their long, empty days with memories 
and fears: outside, the men in fierce struggle with things divine and human, 
quenching memory in the stronger light of purpose, losing the sense of dread 
and even of wounds in the hurrying ardour of action. 


</p>
               <p>From what you have seen of Tom, I think he is not a youth of whom you would 
prophesy failure in anything he had thoroughly wished: the wagers are likely 
to be on his side notwithstanding his small success in the classics. For Tom 
had never desired success in this field of enterprise: and for getting a fine 
flourishing growth of stupidity there is nothing like pouring out on a mind a 
good amount of subjects in which it feels no interest. But now Tom's strong 
will bound together his integrity, his pride, his family regrets and his 
personal ambition, and made them one force, concentrating his efforts and 
surmounting discouragements. His uncle Deane, who watched him closely, soon 
began to conceive hopes of him, and to be rather proud that he had brought 
into the employment of the firm a nephew who appeared to be made of such good 
commercial stuff. The real kindness of placing him in the warehouse first was 
soon evident to Tom, in the hints his uncle began to throw out that after a 
time he might perhaps be trusted to travel at certain seasons, and buy in for 
the firm various vulgar commodities with which I need not shock refined ears 
in this place; and it was doubtless with a view to this result that Mr Deane, 
when he expected to take his wine alone, would tell Tom to step in and sit 
with him an hour, and would pass that hour in much lecturing and catechising 
concerning articles of export and import, with an occasional excursus of more 
indirect utility on the relative advantages to the merchants of St Ogg's of 
having goods brought in their own and in foreign bottoms — a subject on which 
Mr Deane, as a ship-owner, naturally threw off a few sparks when he got 
warmed with talk and wine. Already, in the second year, Tom's salary was 
raised; but all except the price of his dinner and clothes went home into the 
tin box; and he shunned comradeship, lest it should lead him into expenses in 
spite of himself. Not that Tom was moulded on the spooney type of the 
Industrious Apprentice; he had a very strong appetite for pleasure — would 
have liked to be a Tamer of horses, and to make a distinguished figure in all 
neighbouring eyes, dispensing treats and benefits to others with well-judged 
liberality, and being pronounced one of the finest young fellows of those 
parts; nay, he determined to achieve these things sooner or later; but his 
practical shrewdness told him that the means to such achievements could only 
lie for him in present abstinence and self-denial: there were certain 
milestones to be passed and one of the first was the payment of his father's 
debts. Having made up his mind on that point, he strode along without 
swerving, contracting some rather saturnine sternness, as a young man is 
likely to do who has a premature call upon him for self-reliance. Tom felt 
intensely that common cause with his father which springs from family pride, 
and was bent on being irreproachable as a son; but his growing experience 
caused him to pass much silent criticism on the rashness and imprudence of 
his father's past conduct: their dispositions were not in sympathy, and Tom's 
face showed little radiance during his few home hours. Maggie had an awe of 
him, against which she struggled, as something unfair to her consciousness of 
wider thoughts and deeper motives; but it was of no use to struggle. A 
character at unity with itself — that performs what it intends, subdues every 
counteracting impulse and has no visions beyond the distinctly possible, is 
strong by its very negations. 


</p>
               <p>You may imagine that Tom's more and more obvious unlikeness to his father was 
well fitted to conciliate the maternal aunts and uncles; and Mr Deane's 
favourable reports and predictions to Mr Glegg concerning Tom's 
qualifications for business, began to be discussed amongst them with various 
acceptance. He was likely, it appeared, to do the family credit, without 
causing it any expense and trouble. Mrs Pullet has always thought it strange 
if Tom's excellent complexion, so entirely that of the Dodsons, did not argue 
a certainty that he would turn out well, his juvenile errors of running down 
the peacock and general disrespect to his aunts only indicating a tinge of 
Tulliver blood which he had doubtless outgrown. Mr Glegg, who had contracted 
a cautious liking for Tom ever since his spirited and sensible behaviour when 
the execution was in the house, was now warming into a resolution to further 
his prospects actively — some time, when an opportunity offered of doing so 
in a prudent manner, without ultimate loss; but Mrs Glegg observed that she 
was not given to speak without book, as some people were that those who said 
least were mostly likely to find their words made good, and that when the 
right moment came, it would be seen who could do something better than talk. 
Uncle Pullet, after silent meditation for a period of several lozenges, came 
distinctly to the conclusion, that when a young man was likely to do well, it 
was better not to meddle with him. 


</p>
               <p>Tom, meanwhile, had shown no disposition to rely on any one but himself, 
though, with a natural sensitiveness towards all indications of favourable 
opinion, he was glad to see his uncle Glegg look in on him sometimes in a 
friendly way during business hours, and glad to be invited to dine at his 
house, though he usually preferred declining on the ground that he was not 
sure of being punctual. But about a year ago something had occurred which 
induced Tom to test his uncle Glegg's friendly disposition. 


</p>
               <p>Bob Jakin, who rarely returned from one of his rounds without seeing Tom and 
Maggie, awaited him on the bridge as he was coming home from St Ogg's one 
evening, that they might have a little private talk, He took the liberty of 
asking if Mr Tom had ever thought of making money by trading a bit on his own 
account. Trading, how? Tom wished to know. Why, by sending out a bit of a 
cargo to foreign ports; because Bob had a particular friend who had offered 
to do a little business for him in that way, in Laceham goods, and would be 
glad to serve Mr Tom on the same footing. Tom was interested at once, and 
begged for full explanation; wondering he had not thought of this plan 
before. He was so well pleased with the prospect of a speculation that might 
change the slow process of addition into multiplication, that he at once 
determined to mention the matter to his father and get his consent to 
appropriate some of the savings in the tin box to the purchase of a small 
cargo. He would rather not have consulted his father, but he had just paid 
his last quarter's money into the tin box, and there was no other resource. 
All the savings were there: for Mr Tulliver would not consent to put the 
money out at interest lest he should lose it. Since he had speculated in the 
purchase of some corn and had lost by it, he could not be easy without 
keeping the money under his eye. 


</p>
               <p>Tom approached the subject carefully, as he was seated on the hearth with his 
father that evening, and Mr Tulliver listened, learning forward in his 
armchair and looking up in Tom's face with a sceptical glance. His first 
impulse was to give a positive refusal, but he was in some awe of Tom's 
wishes, and since he had had the sense of being an `unlucky' father, he had 
lost some of his old peremptoriness and determination to be master. He took 
the key of the bureau from his pocket, got out the key of the large chest, 
and fetched down the tin box — slowly, as if he were trying to defer the 
moment of a painful parting. Then he seated himself against the table and 
opened the box with that little padlock-key which he fingered in his 
waistcoat pocket in all vacant moments. There they were, the dingy bank notes 
and the bright sovereigns, and he counted them out on the table — only a 
hundred and sixteen pounds in two years, after all the pinching. 


</p>
               <p>`How much do you want, then?' he said, speaking as if the words burnt his 
lips. 


</p>
               <p>`Suppose I begin with the thirty six pounds, father?' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver separated this sum from the rest, and keeping his hand over it, 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`It's as much as I can save out o' my pay in a year.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, father: it is such work — saving out of the little money we get. And in 
this way we might double our savings.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, my lad,' said the father, keeping his hand on the money, `but you might 
lose it — you might lose a year o' my life — and I haven't got many.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was silent. 


</p>
               <p>`And you know I wouldn't pay a dividend with the first hundred, because I 
wanted to see it all in a lump — and when I see it, I'm sure on't. If you 
trust to luck, it's sure to be against me. It's Old Harry's got the luck in 
his hands. And if I lose one year, I shall never pick it up again — death 
'ull o'ertake me.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver's voice trembled, and Tom was silent for a few minutes before he 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`I'll give it up, father, since you object to it so strongly.' 


</p>
               <p>But, unwilling to abandon the scheme altogether, he determined to ask his 
uncle Glegg to venture twenty pounds, on condition of receiving five per cent 
of the profits. That was really a very small thing to ask. So when Bob called 
the next day at the Wharf to know the decision, Tom proposed that they should 
go together to his uncle Glegg's to open the business; for his diffident 
pride clung to him, and made him feel that Bob's tongue would relieve him 
from some embarrassment. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Glegg, at the pleasant hour of four in the afternoon of a hot August day, 
was naturally counting his wall-fruit to assure himself that the sum total 
had not varied since yesterday. To him entered Tom, in what appeared to Mr 
Glegg very questionable companionship — that of a man with a pack on his back 
— for Bob was equipped for a new journey — and of a huge brindled 
bull-terrier, who walked with a slow swaying movement from side to side, and 
glanced from under his eyelids with a surly indifference which might after 
all be a cover to the most offensive designs. Mr Glegg's spectacles, which 
had been assisting him in counting the fruit, made these suspicious details 
alarmingly evident to him. 


</p>
               <p>`Heigh! Heigh! Keep that dog back, will you,' he shouted, snatching up a 
stake and holding it before him as a shield when the visitors were within 
three yards of him. 


</p>
               <p>`Get out wi' you, Mumps,' said Bob, with a kick. `He's as quiet as a lamb, 
sir,' — an observation which Mumps corroborated by a low growl as he 
retreated behind his master's legs. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, whatever does this mean, Tom?' said Mr Glegg. `Have you brought 
information about the scoundrels as cut my trees?' If Bob came in the 
character of `information,' Mr Glegg saw reasons for tolerating some 
irregularity. 


</p>
               <p>`No, sir,' said Tom. `I came to speak to you about a little matter of 
business of my own.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay — well — but what has this dog got to do with it?' said the old 
gentleman, getting mild again. 


</p>
               <p>`It's my dog, sir,' said the ready Bob. `An' it's me as put Mr Tom up to the 
bit o' business, for Mr Tom's been a friend o' mine iver since I wor little 
chap — fust thing iver I did was frightenin' the birds for th' old master. 
An' if a bit o' luck turns up, I'm allays thinkin' if I can let Mr Tom have a 
pull at it. An' it's a downright roarin' shame, as when he's got the chance 
o' making a bit o' money wi' sending goods out — ten or twelve per zent clear 
when freight an' commission's paid — as he shouldn't lay hold o' the chance 
for want o' money. An' when there's the Laceham goods — lors, they're made o' 
purpose for folks as want to send out a little carguy — light, an' take up no 
room; you may pack twenty pound so as you can't see the passill — an' they're 
manifacturs as please fools, so I reckon they aren't like to want a market. 
An' I'd go to Laceham an' buy in the goods for Mr Tom along wi' my own; an' 
there's the shupercargo o' the bit of a vessel as is goin' to take 'em out — 
I know him partic'lar; he's a solid man, an' got a family i' the town here: — 
Salt his name is — an' a briny chap he is, too — an' if you don't believe me, 
I can take you to him.' 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Glegg stood open-mouthed with astonishment at this unembarrassed 
loquacity, with which his understanding could hardly keep pace. He looked at 
Bob first over his spectacles, then through them, then over them again; while 
Tom, doubtful of his uncle's impression, began to wish he had not brought 
this singular Aaron or mouthpiece: Bob's talk appeared less seemly now some 
one besides himself was listening to it. 


</p>
               <p>`You seem to be a knowing fellow,' said Mr Glegg, at last. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, sir, you say true,' returned Bob, nodding his head aside, `I think my 
head's all alive inside like an old cheese, for I'm so full o' plans, one 
knocks another over. If I hadn't Mumps to talk to, I should get top-heavy an' 
tumble in a fit. I suppose it's because I niver went to school much. That's 
what I jaw my old mother for — I says, “you should ha' sent me to school 
a bit more — ” I says — “an' then I could ha' read i' the books 
like fun, an' kep' my head cool an' empty.” Lors, she's fine an' 
comfor'ble now, my old mother is — she ates here baked meat an' taters as 
often as she likes. For I'm gettin' so full o' money, I must hev a wife to 
spend it for me — but it's botherin' a wife is and Mumps mightn't like her.' 


</p>
               <p>Uncle Glegg, who regarded himself as a jocose man since he had retired from 
business, who beginning to find Bob amusing, but he had still a disapproving 
observation to make, which kept his face serious. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah,' he said, `I should think you're at a loss for ways o'spending your 
money, else you wouldn't keep that big dog, to eat as much as two Christians. 
It's shameful — shameful!' But he spoke more in sorrow than in anger, and 
quickly added, 


</p>
               <p>`But, come now, let's hear more about this business, Tom. I suppose you want 
a little sum to make a venture with. But where's all your own money? — You 
don't spend it all, eh?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, sir,' said Tom, colouring. `But my father is unwilling to risk it, and I 
don't like to press him. If I could get twenty or thirty pounds to begin with 
I could pay five per cent for it, and then I could gradually make a little 
capital of my own, and do without a loan.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay... Ay,' said Mr Glegg, in an approving tone. `That's not a bad notion, 
and I won't say as I wouldn't be your man. But it'll be as well for me to see 
this Salt, as you talk on. And then... here's this friend o' yours offers to 
buy the goods for you. Perhaps you've got somebody to stand surety for you, 
if the money's put into your hands?' added the cautious old gentleman, 
looking over his spectacles at Bob. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't think that's necessary, uncle,' said Tom. `At least, I mean it would 
not be necessary for me, because I know Bob well; but perhaps it would be 
right for you to have some security.' 


</p>
               <p>`You get your per-centage out o' the purchase, I suppose?' said Mr Glegg, 
looking at Bob. 


</p>
               <p>`No, sir,' said Bob, rather indignantly, `I didn't offer to get a apple for 
Mr Tom, o' purpose to hev a bite out of it myself. When I play folks tricks 
there'll be more fun in 'em nor that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but it's nothing but right you should have a small per-centage,' said 
Mr Glegg. `I've no opinion o' transactions where folks do things for nothing. 
It allays looks bad.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, then,' said Bob, whose keenness saw at once what was implied, `I'll 
tell you what I get by't, an' it's money in my pocket in the end. I make 
myself look big, wi' makin' a bigger purchase. That's what I'm thinking on. 
Lors, I'm a 'cute chap, I am.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg, Mr Glegg,' said a severe voice from the open parlour window, `pray 
are you coming in to tea? — or are you going to stand talking with packmen 
till you get murdered in th' open daylight?' 


</p>
               <p>`Murdered?' said Mr Glegg; `what's the woman talking of? Here's your nevvy 
Tom come about a bit o' business.' 


</p>
               <p>`Murdered — yes — it isn't many 'sizes ago, since a packman murdered a young 
woman in a lone place and stole her thimble and threw here body into a 
ditch.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, nay,' said Mr Glegg, soothingly, `you're thinking o' the man wi' no 
legs, as drove a dog-cart.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, it's the same thing, Mr Glegg — only you're found o' contradicting 
what I say. And if my nevvy's come about business, it 'ud be more fitting if 
you'd bring him into the house, and let his aunt know about it, instead o' 
whispering in corners, in that plotting, underminding way.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well,' said Mr Glegg, `we'll come in now.' 


</p>
               <p>`You needn't stay here,' said the lady to Bob, in a loud voice, adapted to 
the moral not the physical distance between them. `We don't want anything. I 
don't deal wi' packmen. Mind you shut the gate after you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Stop a bit; not so fast,' said Mr Glegg: `I haven't done with this young man 
yet. Come in, Tom, come in,' he added, stepping in at the French window. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G. in a fatal tone. `If you're going to let that man and 
his dog in on my carpet before my very face, be so good as to let me know. A 
wife's got a right to ask that, I hope.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you be uneasy, mum,' said Bob, touching his cap. He saw at once that 
Mrs Glegg was a bit of game worth running down, and longed to be at the 
sport. `We'll stay out upo' the gravel here, Mumps and me will. Mumps knows 
his company — he does. I might hish at him by th' hour together before he'd 
fly at a real gentlewoman like you. It's wonderful how he knows which is the 
good-looking ladies — and's partic'lar fond of 'em when they've good shapes. 
Lors,' added Bob, laying down his pack on the gravel, `it's a thousand pities 
such a lady as you shouldn't deal with a packman, i'stead o' goin' into these 
newfangled shops where there's half a dozen fine gents wi' their chins 
propped up wi' a stiff stock, a-looking like bottles wi' ornamental stoppers, 
an' all got to get their dinner out of a bit o' calico — it stan's to reason 
you mun pay three times the price you pay a packman, as is the nat'ral way o' 
gettin' goods — an' pays no rent, an' isn't forced to throttle himself till 
the lies are squeezed out on him, whether he will or no. But lors, mum, you 
know what it is better nor I do — <hi>you</hi> can see through them shopmen, 
I'll be bound.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I reckon I can, and through the packmen too,' observed Mrs Glegg, 
intending to imply that Bob's flattery had produced no effect on 
<hi>her</hi>; while her husband standing behind her with his hands in his 
pockets and legs apart, winked and smiled with conjugal delight at the 
probability of his wife's being circumvented. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, to be sure, mum,' said Bob. `Why, you must ha' dealt wi' no end o' 
packmen when you war a young lass — before the master here had the luck to 
set eyes on you. I know where you lived, I do — seen th' house many a time — 
close upon Squire Darleigh's — a stone house wi' steps... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, that it had,' said Mrs Glegg, pouring out the tea. `You know something 
o' my family then... are you akin to that packman with a squint in his eye, 
as used to bring th' Irish linen?' 


</p>
               <p>`Look you there now!' said Bob evasively. `Didn't I know as you'd remember 
the best bargains y'ever made in your life was made wi' packmen? Why, you 
see, even a squintin' packman's better nor a shopman as can see straight. 
Lors, if I'd had the luck to call at the stone house wi' my pack as lies 
here,' — stooping and thumping the bundle emphatically with his fist — `an' 
th' handsome young lasses all stannin' out on the stone steps, it 'ud ha' 
been summat like openin' a pack — that would. It's on'y the poor houses now 
as a packman calls on, if it isn't for the sake o' the sarvant-maids. They're 
paltry times, there are. Why, mum, look at the printed cottons now, an' what 
they was when you wore 'em — why, you wouldn't put such a thing on now, I can 
see. It must be first-rate quality — the manifactur as you'd buy — summat as 
'ud wear as well as your own faitures.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, better quality nor any you're like to carry: you've got nothing 
first-rate but brazenness, I'll be bound,' said Mrs Glegg, with a triumphant 
sense of her insurmountable sagacity. `Mr Glegg, are you going ever to sit 
down to your tea? Tom, there's a cup for you.' 


</p>
               <p>`You speak true there, mum,' said Bob. `My pack isn't for ladies like you. 
The time's gone by for that. Bargains picked up dirt cheap — a bit o' damage 
here an' there, as can be cut out or else niver seen i' the wearin'; but not 
fit to offer to rich folks as can pay for the look o' things as nobody sees. 
I'm not the man as 'ud offer t' open my pack to you, mum: no, no; I'm 
imperent chap, as you say — these times makes folks imperent — but I'm not to 
put the mark o' that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what goods to you carry in your pack?' said Mrs Glegg. `Fine-coloured 
things, I suppose, shawls an' that.' 


</p>
               <p>`All sorts, mum, all sorts,' said Bob, thumping his bundle, `but let us say 
no more about that, if <hi>you</hi> please. I'm here upo' Mr Tom's business 
an' I'm not the man to take up the time wi' my own.' 


</p>
               <p>`And pray, what <hi>is</hi> this business as is to be kept from me?' said Mrs 
Glegg, who, solicited by a double curiosity, was obliged to let the one half 
wait. 


</p>
               <p>`A little plan o' nevvy Tom's here,' said good-natured Mr Glegg; `and not 
altogether a bad un, I think. A little plan for making money that's the right 
sort o' plan for young folks as have got their fortin to make, eh, Jane?' 


</p>
               <p>`But I hope it isn't a plan where he expects iverything to be done for him by 
his friends — that's what the young folks think of mostly nowadays. And pray, 
what has this pack-man got to do wi' what goes on in our family? Can't you 
speak for yourself Tom, and let your aunt know things, as a nevvy should?' 


</p>
               <p>`This is Bob Jakin, aunt,' said Tom, bridling the irritation that aunt 
Glegg's voice always produced. `I've known him ever since we were little 
boys. He's a very good fellow, and always ready to do me a kindness. And he 
has had some experience in sending goods out — a small part of a cargo as a 
private speculation; and he thinks if I could begin to do a little in the 
same way, I might make some money. A large interest is got in that way.' 


</p>
               <p>`Large int'rest?' said aunt Glegg, with eagerness, `and what do you call 
large int'rest?' 


</p>
               <p>`Ten or twelve per cent,' Bob says, `after expenses are paid.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then why wasn't I let to know o' such things before, Mr Glegg?' said Mrs 
Glegg, turning to her husband, with a deep grating tone of reproach. `Haven't 
you allays told me as there was no getting more nor five per cent.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh, pooh, nonsense, my good woman,' said Mr Glegg. `You couldn't go into 
trade, could you? You can't get more than five per cent with security.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I can turn a bit o' money for you, an' welcome, mum,' said Bob, `if 
you'd like to risk it — not as there's any risk to speak on. But if you'd a 
mind to lend a bit o' money to Mr Tom, he'd pay you six or seven per zent an' 
get a trifle for himself as well an' a good-natur'd lady like you 'ud like 
the feel o' the money better if your nevvy took part on it.' 


</p>
               <p>`What do you say, Mrs G.?' said Mr Glegg. `I've a notion, when I've made a 
bit more inquiry, as I shall perhaps start Tom here with a bit of a nest-egg 
— he'll pay me int'rest, you know — an' if you've got some little sums lyin' 
idle twisted up in a stockin' toe, or that... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg, it's beyond iverything! You'll go and give information to the 
tramps next, as they may come and rob me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well, as I was sayin', if you like to join me wi' twenty pounds, you 
can — I'll make it fifty. That'll be a pretty good nest-egg — eh, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`You're not counting on me, Mr Glegg, I hope,' said his wife. `You could do 
fine things wi' my money, I don't doubt.' `Very well,' said Mr Glegg, rather 
snappishly, `then we'll do without you. I shall go with you to see this 
Salt,' he added, turning to Bob. 


</p>
               <p>`And now, I suppose, you'll go all the other way, Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G., 
`and want to shunt me out o' my own nevvy's business. I never said I wouldn't 
put money into it — I don't say as it shall be twenty pounds, though you're 
so ready to say it for me — but he'll see some day as his aunt's in the right 
not to risk the money she's saved for him till it's proved as it won't be 
lost.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, that's a pleasant sort o' risk, that is,' said Mr Glegg, indiscreetly 
winking at Tom, who couldn't avoid smiling. But Bob stemmed the injured 
lady's outburst. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, mum,' he said, admiringly, `you know what's what, you do. An' it's 
nothing but fair. <hi>You</hi> see how the first bit of a job answers, an' 
then you'll come down handsome. Lors, it's a fine thing to hev good kin. I 
got my bit of a nest-egg as the master calls it, all by my own sharpness — 
ten suvreigns it was — wi' dousing the fire at Torry's mill, an' it's growed 
an' growed by a bit an' a bit, till I'n got a matter o' thirty pound to lay 
out, besides makin' my mother comfor'ble. I should get more, on'y I'm such a 
soft wi' the women — I can't help lettin' 'em hev such good bargains. There's 
this bundle, now' (thumping it lustily), `any other chap 'ud make a pretty 
penny out on it. But me!... lors, I shall sell 'em for pretty near what I 
paid for 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`Have you got a bit of good net, now?' said Mrs Glegg, in a patronising tone, 
moving from the tea-table, and folding her napkin. 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, mum, not what you'd think it worth your while to look at. I'd scorn to 
show it you. It 'ud be an insult to you.' 


</p>
               <p>`But let me see,' said Mrs Glegg, still patronising. `If they're damaged 
goods, they're like enough to be a bit the better quality.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, mum. I know my place,' said Bob, lifting up his pack and shouldering it. 
`I'm not going t' expose the lowness o' my trade to a lady like you. Packs is 
come down i' the world: it 'ud cut you to th' heart to see the difference. 
I'm at your service, sir, when you've a mind to go an' see Salt.' 


</p>
               <p>`All in good time,' said Mr Glegg, really unwilling to cut short the 
dialogue. `Are you wanted at the wharf, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, sir; I left Stowe in my place.' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, put down you pack, and let me see,' said Mrs Glegg, drawing a chair to 
the window, and seating herself with much dignity. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you ask it, mum,' said Bob, entreatingly. 


</p>
               <p>`Make no more words,' said Mrs Glegg, severely, `but do as I tell you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, mum, I'm loth — that I am,' said Bob, slowly depositing his pack on the 
step, and beginning to untie it with unwilling fingers. `But what you order 
shall be done' (much fumbling in pauses between the sentences). `It's not as 
you'll buy a single thing on me... I'd be sorry for you to do it... for think 
o' them poor women up i' the villages there, as niver stir a hundred yards 
from home... it 'ud be a pity for anybody to buy up their bargains. Lors, 
it's as good as a junketing to 'em when they see me wi' my pack... an' I 
shall niver pick up such bargains for 'em again. Least ways, I've no time 
now, for I'm off to Laceham. See here, now,' Bob went on, becoming rapid 
again, and holding up a scarlet woollen kerchief with an embroidered wreath 
in the corner — `Here's a thing to make a lass's mouth water, an' on'y two 
shillin' — an' why? Why, 'cause there's a bit of a moth-hole i' this plain 
end. Lors, I think the moths an' the mildew was sent by Providence o' purpose 
to cheapen the goods a bit for the good lookin' women as han't got much 
money. If it hadn't been for the moths, now, every hankicher on 'em 'ud ha' 
gone to the rich handsome ladies like you, mum, at five shillin' apiece — not 
a farthin' less — but what does the moth do? Why, it nibbles off three 
shillin' o' the price i' no time, an' then a packman like me can carry't to 
the poor lasses as live under the dark thack, to make a bit of a blaze for 
'em. Lors, it's as good as a fire, to look at such a hankicher!' 


</p>
               <p>Bob held at a distance for admiration, but Mrs Glegg said sharply, 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but nobody wants a fire this time o' year. Put these coloured things by 
— let me look at your nets, if you've got 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, mum, I told you how it 'ud be,' said Bob, flinging aside the coloured 
things with an air of desperation. `I knowed it 'ud turn again' you to look 
at such paltry articles as I carry. Here's a piece o' figured muslim now — 
what's the use o' your lookin' at it? You might as well look at poor folks's 
victual, mum — it 'ud on'y take away your appetite. There's a yard i' the 
middle on't, as the pattern's all missed — lors, why it's a muslin as the 
Princess Victoree might ha' wore — but,' added Bob, flinging it behind him on 
to the turf, as if to save Mrs Glegg's eyes, `it'll be bought up by th' 
huckster's wife at Fibb's End — that's where <hi>it</hi>'ll go — ten shillin' 
for the whole lot — ten yards, countin' the damaged 'un — five-an'-twenty 
shillin' 'ud ha' been the price — not a penny less. But I'll say no more, 
mum, it's nothing to you — a piece o' muslim like that — you can afford to 
pay three times the money for a thing as isn't half so good. It's nets 
<hi>you</hi> talked on — well, I've got a piece as 'ull serve you to make fun 
on... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Bring me that muslin,' said Mrs Glegg, `it's a buff — I'm partial to buff.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, but a <hi>damaged</hi> thing,' said Bob, in a tone of deprecating 
disgust. `You'd do nothing with it, mum — you'd give it to the cook, I know 
you would — an' it 'ud be a pity — she'd look too much like a lady in it — 
it's unbecoming for sarvants.' 


</p>
               <p>`Fetch it and let me see you measure it,' said Mrs Glegg, authoritatively. 


</p>
               <p>Bob obeyed with ostentatious reluctance. 


</p>
               <p>`See what there is over measure!' he said, holding forth the extra half yard, 
while Mrs Glegg was busy examining the damaged yard and throwing her head 
back to see how far the fault would be lost on a distant view. 


</p>
               <p>`I'll give you six shilling for it,' she said, throwing it down with the air 
of a person who mentions an ultimatum. 


</p>
               <p>`Didn't I tell you, now, mum, as it 'ud hurt your feelings to look at my 
pack? That damaged bit's turned your stomach now, I see it has,' said Bob, 
wrapping the muslim up with the utmost quickness, and apparently about to 
fasten up his pack. `You're used to seein' a different sort o' article 
carried by packmen, when you lived at the Stone House. Packs is come down i' 
the world, I told you that: <hi>my</hi> goods are for common folks. Mrs 
Pepper 'ull give me ten shillin' for that muslin, an' be sorry as I didn't 
ask her more. Such articles answer i' the wearin' — they keep their colour 
till the threads melt away i' the wash-tub, an' that won't be while 
<hi>I</hi>'m a young un.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, seven shilling,' said Mrs Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`Put it out o' your mind, mum, now do,' said Bob. `Here's a bit o' net, then, 
for you to look at before I tie my pack: just for you to see what my trade's 
come to: spotted and sprigged, you see, beautiful, but yallow—'s been lyin' 
by an' got the wrong colour. I could niver ha' bought such net, if it hadn't 
been yallow. Lors, it's took me a deal o' study to know the vally o' such 
articles: when I begun to carry a pack I was as ignirant as a pig — net or 
calico was all the same to me. I thought them things the most vally as was 
the thickest. I was took in dreadful — for I'm a strait-forrard chap — up to 
no tricks, mum. I can on'y say my nose is my own, for if I went beyond, I 
should lose myself pretty quick. An' I gev five an' eightpence for that piece 
o' net — if I was to tell y' anything else I should be tellin' you fibs: an' 
five an' eightpence I shall ask for it — not a penny more — for it's a 
woman's article, an' I like to 'commodate the women. Five an' eightpence for 
six yards — as cheap as if it was only the dirt on it was paid for.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't mind having three yards of it,' said Mrs Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, there's but six altogether,' said Bob — `no, mum, it isn't worth your 
while: you can go to the shop tomorrow an' get the same pattern ready 
whitened. It's on'y three times the money — what's that to a lady like you?' 
He gave an emphatic tie to his bundle. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, lay me out that muslin,' said Mrs Glegg. `Here's eight shilling for 
it.' 


</p>
               <p>`You <hi>will</hi> be jokin', mum,' said Bob, looking up with a laughing 
face. `I see'd you was a pleasant lady, when I fust come to the winder.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, put it me out,' said Mrs Glegg, peremptorily. 


</p>
               <p>`But if I let you have it for ten shillin', mum, you'll be so good as not 
tell nobody. I should be a laughin'-stock — the trade, 'ud hoot me, if they 
knowed it. I'm obliged to make believe as I ask more nor I do for my goods, 
else they'd find out I war a flat. I'm glad you don't insist upo' buyin' the 
net, for then I should ha' lost my two best bargains for Mrs Pepper o' Fibb's 
End — an' she's a rare customer.' 


</p>
               <p>`Let me look at the net again,' said Mrs Glegg, yearning after the cheap 
spots and sprigs now they were vanishing. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I can't deny <hi>you</hi>, mum,' said Bob, handing it out. `Eh see 
what a pattern now! Real Laceham goods. Now, this is the sort o' article I'm 
recommendin' Mr Tom to send out. Lors, it's a fine thing for anybody as has 
got a bit o' money — these Laceham goods 'ud make it breed like maggits. If I 
was a lady wi' a bit o' money! — why, I know one as put thirty pound into 
them goods — a lady wi' a cork leg, but as sharp — you wouldn't catch 
<hi>her</hi> runnin' her head into a sack: <hi>she</hi>'d see her way clear 
out o' anything afore she'd be in a hurry to start. Well, she let out thirty 
pound to a young man in the drapering line, and he laid it out i' Laceham 
goods, an' a shupercargo o' my acquinetance (not Salt) took 'em out, an' she 
got her eight per zent fust go off — an' now you can't hold her but she must 
be sendin' out carguies wi' every ship, till she's gettin' as rich as a Jew. 
Bucks her name is — she doesn't live i' this town. Now, then, mum, if you'll 
please to give me the net... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Here's fifteen shilling, then, for the two,' said Mrs Glegg. `But it's a 
shameful price.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, mum, you'll niver say that when you're upo' your knees i' church i' 
five years' time. I'm makin' you a present o' th' articles — I am, indeed. 
That eightpence shaves off my profit as clean as a razor. Now then, sir,' 
continued Bob, shouldering his pack, `if <hi>you</hi> please, I'll be glad to 
go and see about makin' Mr Tom's fortin. Eh, I wish I'd got another twenty 
pound to lay out for <hi>my</hi>sen: I shouldn't stay to say my Catechism 
afore I know'd what to do wi't.' 


</p>
               <p>`Stop a bit, Mr Glegg,' said the lady, as her husband took his hat, `you 
never <hi>will</hi> give me the chance o' speaking. You'll go away now, and 
finish everything about this business, and come back and tell me it's too 
late for me to speak. As if I wasn't my nevvy's own aunt, and th' head o' the 
family on his mother's side! and laid by guineas, all full weight for him — 
as he'll know who to respect when I'm laid in my coffin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Mrs G., say what you mean,' said Mr G. hastily. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, then, I desire as nothing may be done without my knowing. I don't say 
as I shan't venture twenty pounds, if you make out as everything's right and 
safe. And if I do, Tom,' concluded Mrs Glegg, turning impressively to her 
nephew, `I hope you'll allays bear it in mind and be grateful for such an 
aunt — I mean you to pay me interest, you know — I don't approve o' giving: 
we niver looked for that in <hi>my</hi> family.' 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you, aunt,' said Tom, rather proudly. `I prefer having the money only 
lent to me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well: that's the Dodson sperrit,' said Mrs Glegg, rising to get her 
knitting with the sense that any further remark after this would be bathos. 


</p>
               <p>Salt — that eminently `briny chap' — having been discovered in a cloud of 
tobacco smoke at the Anchor Tavern, Mr Glegg commenced inquiries which turned 
out satisfactorily enough to warrant the advance of the `nest-egg,' to which 
aunt Glegg contributed twenty pounds; and in this modest beginning you see 
the ground of a fact which might otherwise surprise you, namely, Tom's 
accumulation of a fund, unknown to his father, that promised in no very long 
time to meet the more tardy process of saving and quite cover the deficit. 
When once his attention had been turned to this source of gain, Tom 
determined to make the most of it, and lost no opportunity of obtaining 
information and extending his small enterprises. In not telling his father, 
he was influenced by that strange mixture of opposite feelings which often 
gives equal truth to those who blame an action and those who admire it: 
partly, it was that disinclination to confidence which is seen between near 
kindred — that family repulsion which spoils the most sacred relations of our 
lives; partly, it was the desire to surprise his father with a great joy. He 
did not see that it would have been better to soothe the interval with a new 
hope, and prevent the delirium of a too sudden elation. 


</p>
               <p>At the time of Maggie's first meeting with Philip, Tom had already nearly a 
hundred and fifty pounds of his own capital, and while they were walking by 
the evening light in the Red Deeps, he, by the same evening light, was riding 
into Laceham, proud of being on his first journey on behalf of Guest and Co., 
and revolving in his mind all the chances that by the end of another year he 
should have doubled his gains, lifted off the obloquy of debt from his 
father's name, and perhaps — for he should be twenty-one — have got a new 
start for himself, on a higher platform of employment. Did he not deserve it? 
He was quite sure that he did. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.3" type="chapter">
               <head>The Wavering Balance</head>
               <p>I SAID that Maggie went home that evening from the Red Deeps with a mental 
conflict already begun. You have seen clearly enough in her interview with 
Philip, what that conflict was. Here suddenly was an opening in the rocky 
wall which shut in the narrow Valley of Humiliation, where all her prospect 
was the remote unfathomed sky; and some of the memory-haunting earthly 
delights were no longer out of her reach. She might have books, converse, 
affection — she might hear tidings of the world from which her mind had not 
yet lost its sense of exile; and it would be a kindness to Philip too, who 
was pitiable — clearly not happy; and perhaps here was an opportunity 
indicated for making her mind more worthy of its highest service — perhaps 
the noblest, completest devoutness could hardly exist without some width of 
knowledge: <hi>must</hi> she always live in this resigned imprisonment? It 
was so blameless, so good a thing that there should be friendship between her 
and Philip; the motives that forbade it were so unreasonable — so 
unchristian! — But the severe monotonous warning came again and again — that 
she was losing the simplicity and clearness of her life by admitting a ground 
of concealment, and that by forsaking the simple rule of renunciation, she 
was throwing herself under the seductive guidance of illimitable wants. She 
thought she had won strength to obey the warning before she allowed herself 
the next week to turn her steps in the evening to the Red Deeps. But while 
she was resolved to say an affectionate farewell to Philip, how she looked 
forward to that evening walk in the still, fleckered shade of the hollows, 
away from all that was harsh and unlovely; to the affectionate admiring looks 
that would meet her; to the sense of comradeship that childish memories would 
give to wiser, older talk; to the certainty that Philip would care to hear 
everything she said, which no one else cared for! It was a half hour that it 
would be very hard to turn her back upon, with the sense that there would be 
no other like it. Yet she said what she meant to say: she looked firm as well 
as sad. 


</p>
               <p>`Philip, I have made up my mind — it is right that we should give each other 
up, in everything but memory. I could not see you without concealment — say, 
I know what you are going to say — it is another people's wrong feelings that 
make concealment necessary — but concealment is bad, however it may be 
caused: I feel that it would be bad for me, for us both. And then, if our 
secret were discovered, there would be nothing but misery — dreadful anger — 
and then we must part after all, and it would be harder, when we were used to 
seeing each other.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip's face had flushed and there was a momentary eagerness of expression 
as if he had been about to resist this decision with all his might. But he 
controlled himself, and said with assumed calmness, `Well, Maggie, if we must 
part, let us try and forget it for one half hour — let us talk together a 
little while — for the last time.' 


</p>
               <p>He took her hand, and Maggie felt no reason to withdraw it: his quietness 
made her all the more sure she had given him great pain, and she wanted to 
show him how unwillingly she had given it. They walked together hand in hand 
in silence. 


</p>
               <p>`Let us sit down in this hollow,' said Philip, `where we stood the last time. 
See how the dog-roses have strewed the ground, and spread their opal petals 
over it!' 


</p>
               <p>They sat down at the roots of the slanting ash. 


</p>
               <p>`I've begun my picture of you among the Scotch firs, Maggie,' said Philip, 
`so you must let me study your face a little, while you stay — since I am not 
to see it again. Please, turn your head this way.' 


</p>
               <p>This was said in an entreating voice, and it would have been very hard of 
Maggie to refuse. The full lustrous face with the bright black coronet, 
looked down like that of a divinity well pleased to be worshipped on the 
pale-hued, small-featured face that was turned up to it. 


</p>
               <p>`I shall be sitting for my second portrait, then,' she said, smiling. `Will 
it be larger that the other?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, much larger. It is an oil-painting. You will look like at tall 
Hamadryad, dark and strong and noble, just issued from one of the fir-trees, 
when the stems are casting their afternoon shadows on the grass.' 


</p>
               <p>`You seem to think more of painting that of anything now, Philip?' 


</p>
               <p>`Perhaps I do,' said Philip, rather sadly, `but I think of too many things — 
sow all sorts of seeds, and get no great harvest from any one of them. I'm 
cursed with susceptibility in every direction, and effective faculty in none. 
I care for painting and music — I care for classic literature, and mediaeval 
literature and modern literature — I flutter all ways, and fly in none.' 


</p>
               <p>`But surely that is a happiness to have so many tastes — to enjoy so many 
beautiful things — when they are within your reach,' said Maggie, musingly. 
`It always seemed to me a sort of clever stupidity only to have one sort of 
talent — almost like a carrier-pigeon.' 


</p>
               <p>`It might be a happiness to have many tastes if I were like other men,' said 
Philip, bitterly. `I might get some power and distinction by mere mediocrity, 
as they do — at least I should get those middling satisfactions which make 
men contented to do without great ones. I might think society at St Ogg's 
agreeable then. But nothing could make life worth the purchase-money of pain 
to me but some faculty that would lift me above the dead level of provincial 
existence. Yes — there is one thing: a passion answers as well as a faculty.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie did not hear the last words: she was struggling against the 
consciousness that Philip's words had set her own discontent vibrating again 
as it used to do. 


</p>
               <p>`I understand what you mean,' she said, `though I know so much less that you 
do. I used to think I could never bear life if it kept on being the same 
every day, and I must always be doing things of no consequence, and never 
know anything greater. But, dear Philip, I think we are only like children, 
that some one who is wiser is taking care of. Is it not right to resign 
ourselves entirely, whatever may be denied us? I have found great peace in 
that for the last two on three years — even joy in subduing my own will.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Maggie,' said Philip, vehemently, `and you are shutting yourself up in 
a narrow self-delusive fanaticism which is only a way of escaping pain by 
starving into dulness all the highest powers of your nature. Joy and peace 
are not resignation: resignation is the willing endurance of a pain that is 
not allayed — that you don't expect to be allayed. Stupefaction is not 
resignation: and it is stupefaction to remain in ignorance — to shut up all 
the avenues by which the life of your fellow-men might become known to you. I 
am not resigned: I am not sure that life is long enough to learn that lesson. 
<hi>You</hi> are not resigned: you are only trying to stupefy yourself.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's lips trembled; she felt there was some truth in what Philip said, 
and yet there was a deeper consciousness that for any immediate application 
it had to her conduct it was no better than falsity. Her double impression 
corresponded to the double impulse of the speaker. Philip seriously believed 
what he said, but he said it with vehemence because it made an argument 
against the resolution that opposed his wishes. But Maggie's face, made more 
child-like by the gathering tears, touched him with a tenderer, less egoistic 
feeling. He took her hand and said gently— 


</p>
               <p>`Don't let us think of such things in this short half hour, Maggie. Let us 
only care about being together... we shall be friends in spite of 
separation... we shall always think of each other. I shall be glad to live as 
long as you are alive, because I shall think there may always come a time 
when I can — when you will let me help you in some way.' 


</p>
               <p>`What a dear, good brother you would have been Philip,' said Maggie, smiling 
through the haze of tears. `I think you would have made as much fuss about 
me, and been as pleased for me to love you, as would have satisfied even me. 
You would have loved me well enough to bear with me, and forgive me 
everything. That was what I always longed that Tom should do. I was never 
satisfied with a <hi>little</hi> of anything. That is why it is better for me 
to do without earthly happiness altogether... I never felt that I had enough 
music — I wanted more instruments playing together — I wanted voices to be 
fuller and deeper. Do you ever sing now, Philip?' she added abruptly, as if 
she had forgotten what went before. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' he said, `every day, almost. But my voice is only middling — like 
everything else in me.' 


</p>
               <p>`O sing me something — just on song. I <hi>may</hi> listen to that, before I 
go — something you used to sing a Lorton on a Saturday afternoon, when we had 
the drawing-room all to ourselves, and I put my apron over my head, to 
listen.' 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>I</hi> know,' said Philip, and Maggie buried her face in her hands, 
while he sang, <hi>sotto voce</hi> `Love in her eyes sits playing,'  and then 
said, `That's it, isn't it?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, I won't stay,' said Maggie, starting up. `It will only haunt me. Let 
us walk, Philip. I must go home.' 


</p>
               <p>She moved away, so that he was obliged to rise and follow her. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' he said, in a tone of remonstrance, `Don't persist in this wilful 
senseless privation. It makes me wretched to see you benumbing and cramping 
your nature in this way. You were so full of life when you were a child — I 
thought you would be a brilliant woman — all wit and bright imagination. And 
it flashes out in your face still, until you draw that veil of dull 
quiescence over it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why do you speak so bitterly to me, Philip?' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`Because I foresee it will not end well; you can never carry on this 
self-torture.' 


</p>
               <p>`I shall have strength given me,' said Maggie, tremulously. 


</p>
               <p>`No, you will not, Maggie: no one has strength given to do what is unnatural. 
It is mere cowardice to seek safety in negations. No character becomes strong 
in that way. You will be thrown into the world some day, and then every 
rational satisfaction of your nature that you deny now, will assault you like 
a savage appetite.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie started a paused, looking at Philip with alarm in her face. 


</p>
               <p>`Philip, how dare you shake me in this way? You are a tempter.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I am not; but love gives insight, Maggie, and insight often gives 
foreboding. <hi>Listen</hi> to me — <hi>let</hi> me supply you with books. Do 
let me see you sometimes — by your brother and teacher, as you said at 
Lorton. It is less wrong that you should see me than that you should be 
committing this long suicide.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt unable to speak. She shook her head and walked on in silence till 
they came to the end of the Scotch firs, and she put out her hand in sign of 
parting. 


</p>
               <p>`Do you banish me from this place for ever, then, Maggie? Surely I may come 
and walk in it sometimes. If I meet you by chance, there is no concealment in 
that?' 


</p>
               <p>It is the moment when our resolution seems about to become irrevocable — when 
the fatal iron gates are about to close upon us — that tests our strength. 
Then, after hours of clear reasoning and firm conviction, we snatch at any 
sophistry that will nullify our long struggles and bring us the defeat that 
we love better that victory. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt her heart leap at this subterfuge of Philip's, and there passed 
over her face that almost imperceptible shock which accompanies any relief. 
He saw it, and they parted in silence. 


</p>
               <p>Philip's sense of the situation was too complete for him not to be visited 
with glancing fears lest he had been intervening too presumptuously in the 
action of Maggie's conscience — perhaps for a selfish end. But no! — he 
persuaded himself his end was not selfish. He had little hope that Maggie 
would ever return the strong feeling he had for her; and it must be better 
for Maggie's future life, when these petty family obstacles to her freedom 
had disappeared, that the present should not be entirely sacrificed, and that 
she should have some opportunity of culture, some interchange with a mind 
above the vulgar level of those she was now condemned to live with. If we 
only look far enough off for the consequences of our actions, we can always 
find some point in the combination of results by which those actions can be 
justified: by adopting the point of view of a Providence who arranges results 
or of a philosopher who traces them, we shall find it possible to obtain 
perfect complacency in choosing to do what is most agreeable to us in the 
present moment. And it was in this way that Philip justified his subtle 
efforts to overcome Maggie's true prompting against a concealment that would 
introduce doubleness into her own mind and might cause new misery to those 
who had the primary natural claim on her. But there was a surplus of passion 
in him that made him half independent of justifying motives. His longing to 
see Maggie and make an element in her life, had in it some of that savage 
impulse to snatch an offered joy which springs from a life in which the 
mental and bodily constitution have made pain predominate. He had not his 
full share in the common good of men: he could not even pass muster with the 
insignificant, but must be singled out for pity, and excepted from what was a 
matter of course with others. Even to Maggie he was an exception: it was 
clear that the thought of his being her lover had never entered her mind. 


</p>
               <p>Do not think too hardly of Philip. Ugly and deformed people have great need 
of unusual virtues, because they are likely to be extremely uncomfortable 
without them: but the theory that unusual virtues spring by a direct 
consequence out of personal disadvantages, as animals get thicker wool in 
severe climates, is perhaps a little overstrained. The temptations of beauty 
are much dwelt upon, but I fancy they only bear the same relation to those of 
ugliness, as the temptation to excess at a feast, where the delights are 
varied for eye and ear as well as palate, bears to the temptations that 
assail the desperation of hunger. Does not the Hunger Tower stand as the type 
of the utmost trial to what is human in us? 


</p>
               <p>Philip had never been soothed by that mother's love which flows out to us in 
the greater abundance because our need is greater, which clings to us the 
more tenderly because we are the less likely to be winners in the game of 
life; and the sense of his father's affection and indulgence towards him was 
marred by the keener perception of his father's faults. Kept aloof from all 
practical life as Philip had been, and by nature half feminine in 
sensitiveness, he had some of the woman's intolerant repulsion towards 
worldliness and the deliberate pursuit of sensual enjoyment, and this one 
strong natural tie in his life — his relation as a son — was like an aching 
limb to him. Perhaps there is inevitably something morbid in a human being 
who is in any way unfavourably excepted from ordinary conditions until the 
good force has had time to triumph, and it has rarely had time for that at 
two-and-twenty. That force was present in Philip in much strength, but the 
sun himself looks feeble through the morning mists. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.4" type="chapter">
               <head>Another Love Scene</head>
               <p>EARLY in the following April, nearly a year after that dubious parting you 
have just witnessed, you may, if you like, again see Maggie entering the Red 
Deeps through the group of Scotch firs. But it is early afternoon and not 
evening, and the edge of sharpness in the spring air makes her draw her large 
shawl close about her and trip along rather quickly; though she looks round, 
as usual, that she may take in the sight of her beloved trees. There is a 
more eager, inquiring look in her eyes than there was last June, and a smile 
is hovering about her lips, as if some playful speech were awaiting the right 
hearer. The hearer was not long in appearing. 


</p>
               <p>`Take back your <hi>Corinne</hi>,' said Maggie, drawing a book from under her 
shawl. `You were right in telling me she would do me no good. But you were 
wrong in thinking I should wish to be like her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Wouldn't you really like to be a tenth Muse, then, Maggie?' said Philip, 
looking up in her face as we look at a first parting in the clouds, that 
promises us a bright heaven once more. 


</p>
               <p>`Not at all,' said Maggie, laughing. `The Muses were uncomfortable goddesses, 
I think — obliged always to carry rolls and musical instruments about with 
them. If I carried a harp in this climate, you know, I must have a green 
baize cover for it — and I should be sure to leave it behind me by mistake.' 


</p>
               <p>`You agree with me in not liking Corinne, then?' 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't finish the book,' said Maggie. `As soon as I came to the 
blond-haired young lady reading in the park, I shut it up and determined to 
read no further. I foresaw that that light complexioned girl would win away 
all the love from Corinne and make her miserable. I'm determined to read no 
more books where the blond haired women carry away all the happiness. I 
should begin to have a prejudice against them — If you could give me some 
story, now, where the dark woman triumphs, it would restore the balance — I 
want to avenge Rebecca and Flora MacIvor, and Minna and all the rest of the 
dark unhappy ones. Since you are my tutor you ought to preserve my mind from 
prejudices, you are always arguing against prejudices.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, perhaps you will avenge the dark women in your own person: — carry 
away all the love from your cousin Lucy. She is sure to have some handsome 
young man of St Ogg's at her feet now — and you have only to shine upon him — 
your fair little cousin will be quite quenched in your beams.' 


</p>
               <p>`Philip, that is not pretty of you, to apply my nonsense to anything real,' 
said Maggie, looking hurt. `As if I, with my old gowns, and want of all 
accomplishments, could be a rival of dear little Lucy, who knows and does all 
sorts of charming things, and is ten times prettier than I am — even if I 
were odious and base enough to wish to be her rival. Besides, I never go to 
aunt Deane's when any one is there: it is only because dear Lucy is good and 
loves me that she comes to see me, and will have me go to see her sometimes.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' said Philip, with surprise, `it is not like you to take playfulness 
literally. You must have been in St Ogg's this morning, and brought away a 
slight infection of dulness.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Maggie, smiling, `if you meant that for a joke, it was a poor 
one; but I thought it was a very good reproof. I thought you wanted to remind 
me that I am vain, and wish every one to admire me most. But it isn't for 
that, that I'm jealous for the dark women — not because I'm dark myself. It's 
because I always care the most about the unhappy people: if the blonde girl 
was forsaken, I should like <hi>her</hi> best. I always take the side of the 
rejected lover in the stories.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then you would never have the heart to reject one yourself — should you, 
Maggie?' said Philip, flushing a little. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Maggie, hesitatingly. Then with a bright smile — `I 
think perhaps I could if he were very conceited. And yet, if he got extremely 
humiliated afterwards, I should relent.' 


</p>
               <p>`I've often wondered, Maggie,' Philip said, with some effort, `whether you 
wouldn't really be more likely to love a man that other women were not likely 
to love.' 


</p>
               <p>`That would depend on what they didn't like him for,' said Maggie, laughing. 
`He might be very disagreeable. He might look at me through an eyeglass stuck 
in his eye, making a hideous face, as young Torry does. I should think other 
women are not fond of that; but I never felt any pity for young Torry. I've 
never any pity for conceited people, because I think they carry their comfort 
about with them.' 


</p>
               <p>`But suppose, Maggie — suppose it was a man who was not conceited — who felt 
he had nothing to be conceited about — who had been marked from childhood for 
a peculiar kind of suffering — and to whom you were the day-star of his life 
— who loved you, worshipped you, so entirely that he felt it happiness enough 
for him if you would let him see you at rare moments... ' 


</p>
               <p>Philip paused with a pang of dread lest his confession should cut short this 
very happiness — a pang of the same dread that had kept his love mute through 
long months. A rush of self-consciousness told him that he was besotted to 
have said all this. Maggie's manner this morning had been as unconstrained 
and indifferent as ever. 


</p>
               <p>But she was not looking indifferent now. Struck with the unusual emotion in 
Philip's tone she had turned quickly to look at him, and as he went on 
speaking, a great change came over her face — a flush and slight spasm of the 
features such as we see in people who hear some news that will require them 
to readjust their conceptions of the past. She was quite silent, and walking 
on towards the trunk of a fallen tree, she sat down, as if she had no 
strength to spare for her muscles. She was trembling. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' said Philip, getting more and more alarmed in every fresh moment of 
silence, `I was a fool to say it — forget that I've said it. I shall be 
contented, if things can be as they were.' 


</p>
               <p>The distress with which he spoke, urged Maggie to say something. `I am so 
surprised, Philip — I had not thought of it.' And the effort to say this 
brought the tears down too. 


</p>
               <p>`Has it made you hate me, Maggie?' said Philip, impetuously. `Do you think 
I'm a presumptuous fool?' 


</p>
               <p>`O Philip!' said Maggie, `how can you think I have such feelings — as if I 
were not grateful for <hi>any</hi> love. But... but I had never thought of 
your being my lover. It seemed so far off — like a dream — only like one of 
the stories one imagines — that I should ever have a lover.' 


</p>
               <p>`They can you bear to think of me as your lover — Maggie?' said Philip, 
seating himself by her and taking her hand, in the elation of a sudden hope. 
`<hi>Do</hi> you love me?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie turned rather pale: this direct question seemed not easy to answer. 
But her eyes met Philip's, which were in this moment liquid and beautiful 
with beseeching love. She spoke with hesitation, yet with sweet, simple, 
girlish tenderness. 


</p>
               <p>`I think I could hardly love any one better: there is nothing but what I love 
you for.' She paused a little while, and then added, `But it will be better 
for us not to say any more about it — won't it, dear Philip? You know we 
couldn't even be friends, if our friendship were discovered. I have never 
felt that I was right in giving way about seeing you — though it has been so 
precious to me in some ways — and now the fear comes upon me strongly again 
that it will lead to evil.' 


</p>
               <p>`But no evil has come, Maggie — and if you had been guided by that fear 
before, you would only have lived through another dreary benumbing year, 
instead of reviving into your real self.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie shook her head. `It has been very sweet, I know — all the talking 
together, and the books, and the feeling that I had the walk to look forward 
to when I could tell you the thoughts that had come into my head while I was 
away from you. But it has made me restless — it has made me think a great 
deal about the world; and I have impatient thoughts again — I get weary of my 
home. And that cuts me to the heart afterwards that I should ever have left 
weary of my father and mother. I think what you call being benumbed was 
better — better for me — for then my selfish desires were benumbed.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip had risen again and was walking backwards and forwards impatiently. 


</p>
               <p>`No, Maggie, you have wrong ideas of self-conquest, as I've often told you. 
What you call self-conquest — blinding and deafening yourself to all but one 
train of impressions, is only the culture of monomania in a nature like 
yours.' 


</p>
               <p>He had spoken with some irritation, but now he sat down by her again and took 
her hand. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't think of the past now, Maggie: think only of our love. If you can 
really cling to me with all your heart, every obstacle will be overcome in 
time — we need only wait. I can live on hope. Look at me, Maggie — tell me 
again, it is possible for you to love me. Don't look away from me to that 
cloven tree — it is a bad omen.' 


</p>
               <p>She turned her large dark glance upon him with a sad smile. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, Maggie, say one kind word, or else you were better to me at Lorton. 
You asked me if I should like you to kiss me. Don't you remember? And you 
promised to kiss me when you met me again. You never kept the promise.' 


</p>
               <p>The recollection of that childish time came as a sweet relief to Maggie. It 
made the present moment less strange to her. She kissed him almost as simply 
and quietly as she had done when she was twelve years old. Philip's eyes 
flashed with delight, but his next words were words of discontent. 


</p>
               <p>`You don't seem happy enough, Maggie: you are forcing yourself to say you 
love me, out of pity.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Philip,' said Maggie, shaking her head, in her old childish way. `I'm 
telling you the truth. It is all new and strange to me; but I don't think I 
could love any one better than I love you. I should like always to live with 
you — to make you happy. I have always been happy when I have been with you. 
There is only one thing I will not do for your sake — I will never do 
anything to wound my father. You must never ask that from me.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Maggie: I will ask nothing — I will bear everything — I'll wait another 
year only for a kiss, if you will only give me the first place in your 
heart.' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, smiling, `I won't make you wait so long as that.' But 
then, looking serious again, she added, as she rose from her seat, 


</p>
               <p>`But what would your own father say, Philip? O, it is quite impossible we can 
ever be more than friends — brother and sister in secret — as we have been. 
Let us give up thinking of everything else.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Maggie, I can't give you up — unless you are deceiving me — unless you 
really only care for me as if I were your brother. Tell me the truth.' 


</p>
               <p>`Indeed I do, Philip. What happiness have I ever had so great as being with 
you? — since I was a little girl — the days Tom was good to me. And your mind 
is a sort of world to me — You can tell me all I want to know. I think I 
should never be tired of being with you.' 


</p>
               <p>They were walking hand in hand, looking at each other — Maggie indeed was 
hurrying along, for she felt it time to be gone. But the sense that their 
parting was near, made her more anxious lest she should have unintentionally 
left some painful impression on Philip's mind. It was one of those dangerous 
moments when speech is at once sincere and deceptive — when feeling, rising 
high above its average depth, leaves flood-marks which are never reached 
again. 


</p>
               <p>They stopped to part among the Scotch firs. 


</p>
               <p>`Then my life will be filled with hope, Maggie — and I shall be happier than 
other men, in spite of all? We <hi>do</hi> belong to each other — for always 
— whether we are apart or together?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Philip: I should like never to part: I should like to make your life 
very happy.' 


</p>
               <p>`I am waiting for something else — I wonder whether it will come.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie smiled, with glistening tears, and then stopped her tall head to kiss 
the low pale face that was full of pleading, timid love — like a woman's. 


</p>
               <p>She had a moment of real happiness than — a moment of belief that if there 
were sacrifice in this love — it was all the richer and more satisfying. 


</p>
               <p>She turned away and hurried home, feeling that in the hour since she had 
trodden this road before, a new era had begun for her. The tissue of vague 
dreams must now get narrower and narrower, and all the threads of thought and 
emotion be gradually absorbed in the woof of her actual daily life. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.5" type="chapter">
               <head>The Cloven Tree</head>
               <p>SECRETS are rarely betrayed or discovered according to any programme our fear 
has sketched out. Fear is almost always haunted by terrible dramatic scenes, 
which recur in spite of the best argued probabilities against them; and 
during a year that Maggie had had the burthen of concealment on her mind, the 
possibility of discovery had continually presented itself under the form of a 
sudden meeting with her father or Tom when she was walking with Philip in the 
Red Deeps. She was aware that this was not one of the most likely events; but 
it was the scene that most completely symbolised her inward dread. Those 
slight indirect suggestions which are dependent on apparently trivial 
coincidences and incalculable states of mind are the favourite machinery of 
Fact, but are not the stuff in which imagination is apt to work. 


</p>
               <p>Certainly one of the persons about whom Maggie's fears were farthest from 
troubling themselves was her aunt Pullet, on whom, seeing that she did not 
live in St Ogg's, and was neither sharp-eyed nor sharp-tempered, it would 
surely have been quite whimsical of them to fix rather than on aunt Glegg. 
And yet the channel of fatality — the pathway of the lightning — was no other 
than aunt Pullet. She did not live at St Ogg's, but the road from Garum Firs 
lay by the Red Deeps at the end opposite that by which Maggie entered. 


</p>
               <p>The day after Maggie's last meeting with Philip, being a Sunday on which Mr 
Pullet was bound to appear in funereal hat-band and scarf at St Ogg's church, 
Mrs Pullet made this the occasion of dining with sister Glegg, and taking tea 
with poor sister Tulliver. Sunday was the one day in the week on which Tom 
was at home in the afternoon; and today the brighter spirits he had been in 
of late had flowed over in unusually cheerful open chat with his father, and 
in the invitation, `Come, Magsie, you come too!' when he strolled out with 
his mother in the garden to see the advancing cherry blossoms. He had been 
better pleased with Maggie since she had been less odd and ascetic; he was 
even getting rather proud of her: several persons had remarked in his hearing 
that his sister was a very fine girl. Today there was a peculiar brightness 
in her face, due in reality to an under-current of excitement, which had as 
much doubt and pain as pleasure in it; but it might pass for a sign of 
happiness. 


</p>
               <p>`You look very well, my dear,' said aunt Pullet, shaking her head, sadly, as 
they sat round the tea-table. `I niver thought your girl 'ud be so 
good-looking Bessy. But you must wear pink, my dear: that blue thing as your 
aunt Glegg gave you turns you into a crow-flower. Jane never <hi>was</hi>
tasty. Why don't you wear that gown o' mine?' 


</p>
               <p>`It's so pretty and so smart, aunt. I think it's too showy for me — at least 
for my other clothes, that I must wear with it.' 


</p>
               <p>`To be sure it 'ud be unbecoming if it wasn't well-known you've got them 
belonging to you, as can afford to give you such things, when they've done 
with 'em themselves. It stands to reason I must give my own niece clothes now 
and then — such things as <hi>I</hi> buy every year, and never wear anything 
out. And as for Lucy, there's no giving to her, for she's got everything o' 
the choicest: sister Deane may well hold her head up, though she looks 
dreadful yallow, poor thing — I doubt this liver-complaint 'ull carry her 
off. That's what this new Vicar, this Dr Kenn, said in the funeral sermon 
today.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, he's a wonderful preacher, by all account — isn't he, Sophy?' said Mrs 
Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Lucy had got a collar on this blessed day,' continued Mrs Pullet, with 
her eyes fixed in a ruminating manner, `as I don't say I haven't got as good, 
but I must look out my best to match it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Miss Lucy's called the bell o' St Ogg's, they say — that's a cur'ous word,' 
observed Mr Pullet, on whom the mysteries of etymology sometimes fell with an 
oppressive weight. 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh!' said Mr Tulliver, jealous for Maggie, `She's a small thing, not much 
of a figure. But fine feathers make fine birds. I see nothing to admire so 
much in those diminitive women: they look silly by the side o' the men — out 
o'proportion. When I chose my wife, I chose her the right size — neither too 
little nor too big.' 


</p>
               <p>The poor wife, with her withered beauty, smiled complacently. 


</p>
               <p>`But the men aren't <hi>all</hi> big,' said uncle Pullet, not without some 
self-reference. `A young fellow may be good-looking and yet not be a 
six-foot, like Mr Tom here.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, it's poor talking about littleness and bigness, — anybody may think it's 
a mercy they're straight,' said aunt Pullet. `There's that mis-made son o' 
Lawyer Wakem's — I saw him at church today. Dear, dear! to think o' the 
property he's like to have. And they say he's very queer and unked — doesn't 
like much company. I shouldn't wonder if he goes out of his mind, for we 
never come along the road but he's a-scrambling out o' the trees and brambles 
at the Red Deeps.' 


</p>
               <p>This wide statement, by which Mrs Pullet represented the fact that she had 
twice seen Philip at the spot indicated, produced an effect on Maggie which 
was all the stronger because Tom sate opposite her, and she was intensely 
anxious to look indifferent. At Philip's name she had blushed, and the blush 
deepened every instant from consciousness, until the mention of the Red Deeps 
made her feel as if the whole secret were betrayed, and she dared not even 
hold her tea-spoon lest she should show how she trembled. She sat with her 
hands clasped under the table, not daring to look round. Happily, her father 
was seated on the same side with herself beyond her uncle Pullet, and could 
not see her face without stooping forward. Her mother's voice brought the 
first relief, turning the conversation — for Mrs Tulliver was always alarmed 
when the name of Wakem was mentioned in her husband's presence. Gradually 
Maggie recovered composure enough to look up: her eyes met Tom's, but he 
turned away his head immediately, and she went to bed that night wondering if 
he had gathered any suspicion from her confusion. Perhaps not — perhaps he 
would think it was only her alarm at her aunt's mention of Wakem before her 
father: that was the interpretation her mother had put on it. To her father, 
Wakem was like a disfiguring disease, of which he was obliged to endure the 
consciousness, but was exasperated to have the existence recognised by 
others; and no amount of sensitiveness in her about her father could be 
surprising, Maggie thought. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom was too keen-sighted to rest satisfied with such an interpretation: 
he had seen clearly enough that there was something distinct from anxiety 
about her father in Maggie's excessive confusion. In trying to recall all the 
details that could give shape to his suspicions, he remembered only lately 
hearing his mother scold Maggie for walking in the Red Deeps when the ground 
was wet, and bringing home shoes clogged with red soil: — still Tom, 
retaining all his old repulsion for Philip's deformity, shrank from 
attributing to his sister the probability of feeling more than a friendly 
interest in such an unfortunate exception to the common run of men. Tom's was 
a nature which had a sort of superstitious repugnance to everything 
exceptional. A love for a deformed man would be odious in any woman — in a 
sister intolerable. But if she had been carrying on any kind of intercourse 
whatever with Philip, a stop must be put to it at once; she was disobeying 
her father's strongest feelings and her brother's express commands, besides 
compromising herself by secret meetings. He left home the next morning in 
that watchful state of mind which turns the most ordinary course of things 
into pregnant coincidences. 


</p>
               <p>That afternoon, about half past three o' clock, Tom was standing on the 
wharf, talking with Bob Jakin about the probability of the good ship Adelaide 
coming in in a day or two with results highly important to both of them. 


</p>
               <p>`Eh,' said Bob, parenthetically, as he looked over the fields on the other 
side of the river, `there goes that crooked young Wakem — I know him or his 
shadder as far off as I can see 'em. I'm allays lighting on him o' that side 
the river.' 


</p>
               <p>A sudden thought seemed to have darted through Tom's mind. `I must go, Bob,' 
he said, `I've something to attend to,' hurrying off to the warehouse, where 
he left notice for some one to take his place — he was called away home on 
peremptory business. 


</p>
               <p>The swiftest pace and the shortest road took him to the gate, and he was 
pausing to pen it deliberately that he might walk into the house with an 
appearance of perfect composure, when Maggie came out at the front door in 
bonnet and shawl. His conjecture was fulfilled, and he waited for her at the 
gate. She started violently when she saw him. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, how is it you are come home? Is there anything the matter?' Maggie 
spoke in a low tremulous voice. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm come to walk with you to the Red Deeps and meet Philip Wakem,' said Tom, 
the central fold in his brow which had become habitual with him, deepening as 
he spoke. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie stood helpless — pale and cold. By some means, then, Tom knew 
everything. At last, she said, `I'm not going,' and turned round. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, you are; but I want to speak to you first. Where is my father?' 


</p>
               <p>`Out on horseback.' 


</p>
               <p>`And my mother?' 


</p>
               <p>`In the yard, I think, with the poultry.' 


</p>
               <p>`I can go in, then, without her seeing me?' 


</p>
               <p>They walked in together, and Tom entering the parlour, said to Maggie, `Come 
in here.' 


</p>
               <p>She obeyed, and he closed the door behind her. 


</p>
               <p>`Now, Maggie, tell me this instant everything that has passed between you and 
Philip Wakem.' 


</p>
               <p>`Does my father know anything?' said Maggie, still trembling. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Tom, indignantly. `But he <hi>shall</hi> know, if you attempt to 
use deceit towards me any further.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't wish to use deceit,' said Maggie, flushing into resentment at 
hearing this word applied to her conduct. 


</p>
               <p>`Tell me the whole truth then.' 


</p>
               <p>`Perhaps you know it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Never mind whether I know it or not. Tell me exactly what has happened, or 
my father shall know everything.' 


</p>
               <p>`I tell it for my father's sake, then.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, it becomes you to profess affection for your father, when you have 
despised his strongest feelings.' 


</p>
               <p>`You never do wrong, Tom,' said Maggie, tauntingly. 


</p>
               <p>`Not if I know it,' answered Tom, with proud sincerity. `But I have nothing 
to say to you, beyound this: tell me what has passed between you and Philip 
Wakem. When did you first meet him in the Red Deeps?' 


</p>
               <p>`A year ago,' said Maggie, quietly. Tom's severity gave her a certain fund of 
defiance, and kept her sense of error in abeyance. `You need ask me no more 
questions. We have been friends a year. We have met and walked together 
often. He has lent me books.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is that all?' said Tom, looking straight at her with his frown. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie paused a moment: then, determined to make an end of Tom's right to 
accuse her of deceit, she said, haughtily, 


</p>
               <p>`No, not quite all. On Saturday he told me that he loved me — I didn't think 
of it before then — I had only thought of him as an old friend.' 


</p>
               <p>`And you <hi>encouraged</hi> him?' said Tom, with an expression of disgust. 


</p>
               <p>`I told him that I loved him too.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was silent a few moments, looking on the ground and frowning, with his 
hands in his pockets. At last, he looked up, and said, coldly, 


</p>
               <p>`Now then Maggie, there are but two courses for you to take: either you vow 
solemnly to me with your hand on my father's Bible, that you will never hold 
another meeting or speak another word in private with Philip Wakem, or you 
refuse, and I tell my father everything, and this month, when by my exertions 
he might be made happy once more, you will cause him the blow of knowing that 
you are a disobedient, deceitful daughter, who throws away her own 
respectability by clandestine meetings with the son of a man that has helped 
to ruin her father. Choose!' Tom ended with cold decision, going up to the 
large Bible, drawing it forward and opening it at the fly-leaf, where the 
writing was. 


</p>
               <p>It was a crushing alternative to Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' she said, urged out of pride into pleading, `don't ask me that. I will 
promise you to give up all intercourse with Philip, if you will let me see 
him once — or even write to him and explain everything — to give it up as 
long as it would ever cause any pain to my father... I feel something for 
Philip too. <hi>He</hi> is not happy.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't wish to hear anything of your feelings; I have said exactly what I 
mean. Choose — and quickly, lest my mother should come in.' 


</p>
               <p>`If I give you my word, that will be as strong a bond to me, as if I had laid 
my hand on the Bible. I don't require that to bind me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Do what <hi>I</hi> require,' said Tom. `I can't trust you, Maggie. There is 
no consistency in you. Put your hand on this Bible, and say, “I renounce 
all private speech and intercourse with Philip Wakem from this time 
forth.” Else you will bring shame on us all, and grief on my father; and 
what is the use of my exerting myself and giving up everything else for the 
sake of paying my father's debts — if you are to bring madness and vexation 
on him just when he might be easy and hold up his head once more?' 


</p>
               <p>`O Tom — <hi>will</hi> the debts be paid soon?' said Maggie, clasping her 
hands, with a sudden flash of joy across her wretchedness. 


</p>
               <p>`If things turn out as I expect,' said Tom. `But,' he added, his voice 
trembling with indignation, `while I have been contriving and working that my 
father may have some peace of mind before he dies — working for the 
respectability of our family — you have done all you can to destroy both.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt a deep movement of compunction: for the moment, her mind ceased 
to contend against what she felt to be cruel and unreasonable, and in her 
self-blame she justified her brother. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' she said, in a low voice, `It was wrong of me — but I was so lonely — 
and I was sorry for Philip. And I think enmity and hatred are wicked.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nonsense!' said Tom. `Your duty was clear enough. Say no more — but promise, 
in the words I told you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I <hi>must</hi> speak to Philip once more.' 


</p>
               <p>`You will go with me now and speak to him.' 


</p>
               <p>`I give you my word not to meet him or write to him again without your 
knowledge. That is the only thing I will say. I will put my hand on the Bible 
if you like.' 


</p>
               <p>`Say it then.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie laid her hand on the page of manuscript and repeated the promise. Tom 
closed the book, and said, `Now, let us go.' 


</p>
               <p>Not a word was spoken as they walked along. Maggie was suffering in 
anticipation of what Philip was about to suffer, and dreading the galling 
words that would fall on him from Tom's lips; but she felt it was in vain to 
attempt anything but submission. Tom had his terrible clutch on her 
conscience and her deepest dread: she writhed under the demonstrable truth of 
the character he had given to her conduct, and yet her whole soul rebelled 
against it as unfair from its incompleteness. He, meanwhile, felt the impetus 
of his indignation diverted towards Philip. He did not know how much of an 
old boyish repulsion and of mere personal pride and animosity was concerned 
in the bitter severity of the words by which he meant to do the duty of a son 
and a brother: Tom was not given to inquire subtly into his own motives, any 
more than into other matters of an intangible kind; he was quite sure that 
his own motives as well as actions were good, else he would have had nothing 
to do with them. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's only hope was that something might for the first time have prevented 
Philip from coming. Then there would be delay — then she might get Tom's 
permission to write to him. Her heart beat with double violence when they got 
under the Scotch firs. It was the last moment of suspense, she thought, 
Philip always met her soon after she got beyond them. But they passed across 
the more open green space and entered the narrow bushy path by the mound. 
Another turning, and they came so close upon him, that both Tom and Philip 
stopped suddenly within a yard of each other. There was a moment's silence in 
which Philip darted a look of inquiry at Maggie's face. He saw an answer 
there, in the pale parted lips, and the terrified tension of the large eyes. 
Her imagination always rushing extravagantly beyond an immediate impression, 
saw her tall strong brother grasping the feeble Philip bodily, crushing him 
and trampling on him. 


</p>
               <p>`Do you call this acting the part of a man and a gentleman, sir?' Tom said in 
a voice of harsh scorn, as soon as Philip's eyes were turned on him again. 


</p>
               <p>`What do you mean?' answered Philip, haughtily. 


</p>
               <p>`Mean? Stand farther from me, lest I should lay hands on you, and I'll tell 
you what I mean. I mean — taking advantage of a young girl's foolishness and 
ignorance to get her to have secret meetings with you. I mean, daring to 
trifle with the respectability of a family that has a good and honest name to 
support.' 


</p>
               <p>`I deny that!' interrupted Philip, impetuously. `I could never trifle with 
anything that affected your sister's happiness. She is dearer to me than she 
is to you — I honour her more than you can ever honour her — I would give up 
my life to her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't talk high-flown nonsense to me, sir! Do you mean to pretend that you 
didn't know it would be injurious to her to meet you here week after week? Do 
you pretend you had any right to make professions of love to her, even if you 
had been a fit husband for, when neither her father nor your father would 
ever consent to a marriage between you? And <hi>you — you</hi> to try and 
worm yourself into the affections of a handsome girl who is not eighteen, and 
has been shut out from the world by her father's misfortunes! That's your 
crooked notion of honour, is it? I call it base treachery — I call it taking 
advantage of circumstances to win what's too good for you — what you'd never 
get by fair means.' 


</p>
               <p>`It is manly of you to talk in this way to <hi>me</hi>,' said Philip 
bitterly, his whole frame shaken by violent emotions. `Giants have an 
immemorial right to stupidity and insolent abuse. You are incapable even of 
understanding what I feel for your sister. I feel so much for her that I 
could even desire to be at friendship with <hi>you</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>`I should be very sorry to understand your feelings,' said Tom, with 
scorching contempt. `What I wish is that you should understand <hi>me</hi> — 
that I shall take care of <hi>my</hi> sister, and that if you dare to make 
the least attempt to come near her, or to write to her, or to keep the 
slightest hold on her mind, your puny, miserable body, that ought to have put 
some modesty into your mind, shall not protect you. I'll thrash you — I'll 
hold you up to public scorn. Who wouldn't laugh at the idea of <hi>your</hi>
turning lover to a fine girl?' 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, I will not bear it — I will listen no longer,' Maggie burst out in a 
convulsed voice. 


</p>
               <p>`Stay, Maggie!' said Philip, making a strong effort to speak. Then, looking 
at Tom, `You have dragged your sister here, I suppose, that she may stand by 
while you threaten and insult me. These naturally seemed to you the right 
means to influence me. But you are mistaken. Let your sister speak. If she 
says she is bound to give me up, I shall abide by her wishes to the slightest 
word.' 


</p>
               <p>`It was for my father's sake, Philip,' said Maggie, imploringly. `Tom 
threatens to tell my father — and he couldn't bear it — I have promised, I 
have vowed solemnly that we will not have any intercourse without my 
brother's knowledge.' 


</p>
               <p>`It is enough, Maggie. <hi>I</hi> shall not change; but I wish you to hold 
yourself entirely free. But trust me — remember that I can never seek for 
anything but good to what belongs to you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Tom, exasperated by this attitude of Philip's, `you can talk of 
seeking good for her and what belongs to her now: did you seek her good 
before?' 


</p>
               <p>`I did — at some risk, perhaps. But I wished her to have a friend for life — 
who would cherish her, who would do her more justice than a coarse and 
narrow-minded brother, that she has always lavished her affections on.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, my way of befriending her is different from yours — and I'll tell you 
what is my way. I'll save her from disobeying and disgracing her father — 
I'll save her from throwing herself away on you — from making herself a 
laughing-stock — from being flouted by a man like <hi>your</hi> father, 
because she's not good enough for his son. You know well enough what sort of 
justice and cherishing you were preparing for her. I'm not to be imposed upon 
by fine words — I can see what actions mean. Come away, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>He seized Maggie's right wrist as he spoke, and she put out her left hand. 
Philip clasped it an instant, with one eager look and then hurried away. 


</p>
               <p>Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for some yards. He was still holding her 
wrist tightly as if he were compelling a culprit form the scene of action. At 
last Maggie, with a violent snatch drew her hand away, and her pent-up, 
long-gathered irritation burst into utterance. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't suppose that I think you are right, Tom, or that I bow to your will. I 
despise the feelings you have shown in speaking to Philip — I detest your 
insulting unmanly allusions to his deformity. You have been reproaching other 
people all your life — you have been always sure you yourself are right: it 
is because you have not a mind large enough to see that there is anything 
better than your own conduct and your own petty aims.' 


</p>
               <p>`Certainly,' said Tom, coolly. `I don't see that your conduct is better, or 
your aims either. If your conduct, and Philip Wakem's conduct, has been 
right, why are you ashamed of its being known? Answer me that. I know what I 
have aimed at in my conduct and I've succeeded: pray, what good has your 
conduct brought to you or any one else?' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't want to defend myself—' said Maggie, still with vehemence: `I know 
I've been wrong — often, continually. But yet, sometimes when I have done 
wrong, it has been because I have feelings that you would be the better for 
if you had them. If <hi>you</hi> were in fault ever — if you had done 
anything very wrong, I should be sorry for the pain it brought you — I should 
not want punishment to be heaped on you. But you have always enjoyed 
punishing me — you have always been hard and cruel to me — even when I was a 
little girl, and always loved you better than any one else in the world, you 
would let me go crying to bed without forgiving me. You have no pity — you 
have no sense of your own imperfection and you own sins. It is a sin to be 
hard — it is not fitting for a mortal — for a Christian. You are nothing but 
a Pharisee. You thank God for nothing but your own virtues — you think they 
are great enough to win you everything else. You have not even a vision of 
feelings by the side of which your shining virtues are mere darkness!' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Tom, with cold scorn, `if your feelings are so much better than 
mine, let me see you show them in some other way than by conduct that's 
likely to disgrace us all — than by ridiculous flights first into one extreme 
and then into another. Pray, how have you shown your love that you talk of 
either to me or my father? By disobeying and deceiving us. I have a different 
way of showing my affection.' 


</p>
               <p>`Because you are a man, Tom, and have power, and can do something in the 
world.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then, if you can do nothing, submit to those that can.' 


</p>
               <p>`So I will submit to what I acknowledge and feel to be right. I will submit 
even to what is unreasonable from my father, but I will not submit to it from 
you. You boast of your virtues as if they purchased you a right to be cruel 
and unmanly as you've been today. Don't suppose I would give up Philip Wakem 
in obedience to you. The deformity you insult would make me cling to him and 
care for him the more.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well — that is your view of things,' said Tom, more coldly than ever. 
`You need say no more to show me what a wide distance there is between us. 
Let us remember that in future and be silent.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom went back to St Ogg's, to fulfil an appointment with his uncle Deane, and 
receive directions about a journey on which he was to set out the next 
morning. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie went up to her own room to pour out all that indignant remonstrance, 
against which Tom's mind was close barred, in bitter tears. Then, when the 
first burst of unsatisfied anger was gone by, came the recollection of that 
quiet time before the pleasure which had ended in today's misery had 
perturbed the clearness and simplicity of her life. She used to think in that 
time that she had made great conquests, and won a lasting stand on serene 
heights above worldly temptations and conflict. And here she was down again 
in the thick of a hot strife with her own and others' passions. Life was not 
so short, then, and perfect rest was not so near, as she had dreamed when she 
was two years younger? There was more struggle for her — perhaps more 
falling. If she had felt that she was entirely wrong and that Tom had been 
entirely right, she could sooner have recovered more inward harmony, but now 
her penitence and submission were constantly obstructed by resentment that 
would present itself to her no otherwise than as just. Her heart bled for 
Philip — she went on recalling the insults that had been flung at him with so 
vivid a conception of what he had felt under them, that it was almost like a 
sharp bodily pain to her, making her beat the floor with her foot, and 
tighten her fingers on her palm. 


</p>
               <p>And yet — how was it that she was now and then conscious of a certain dim 
background of relief in the forced separation from Philip? Surely it was only 
because the sense of a deliverance from concealment was welcome at any cost? 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.6" type="chapter">
               <head>The Hard-Won Triumph</head>
               <p>THREE weeks later, when Dorlcote Mill was at its prettiest moment in all the 
year — the great chestnuts in blossom, and the grass all deep and daisied — 
Tom Tulliver came home to it earlier than usual in the evening, and as he 
passed over the bridge, he looked with the old deep-rooted affection at the 
respectable red brick house, which always seemed cheerful and inviting 
outside, let the rooms be as bare and the hearts as sad as they might, 
inside. There is a very pleasant light in Tom's blue-grey eyes as he glances 
at the house-windows: that fold in his brow never disappears but it is not 
unbecoming — it seems to imply a strength of will that may possibly be 
without harshness, when the eyes and mouth have their gentlest expression. 
His firm step becomes quicker, and the corners of his mouth rebel against the 
compression which is meant to forbid a smile. 


</p>
               <p>The eyes in the parlour were not turned towards the bridge just then, and the 
group there was sitting in unexpectant silence: Mr Tulliver in his armchair, 
tired with a long ride, and ruminating with a worn look, fixed chiefly on 
Maggie, who was bending over her sewing while her mother was making the tea. 


</p>
               <p>They all looked up with surprise when they heard the well-known foot. 


</p>
               <p>`Why what's up now, Tom?' said his father. `You're a bit earlier than usual.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, there was nothing more for me to do, so I came away. Well, mother!' 


</p>
               <p>Tom went up to his mother and kissed her — a sign of unusual good-humour with 
him. Hardly a word or look had passed between him and Maggie in all the three 
weeks; but his usual incommunicativeness at home prevented this from being 
noticeable to their parents. 


</p>
               <p>`Father,' said Tom, when they had finished tea, `do you know exactly how much 
money there is in the tin box?' 


</p>
               <p>`Only a hundred and ninety-three pound,' said Mr Tulliver. `You've brought 
less o' late — but young fellows like to have their own way with their money. 
Though I didn't do as I liked before <hi>I</hi> was of age.' He spoke with 
rather timid discontent. 


</p>
               <p>`Are you quite sure that's the sum, father?' said Tom: `I wish you would take 
the trouble to fetch the tin box down. I think you have perhaps made a 
mistake.' 


</p>
               <p>`How should I make a mistake?' said his father, sharply. `I've counted it 
often enough. But I can fetch it — if you won't believe me.' 


</p>
               <p>It was always an incident Mr Tulliver liked, in his gloomy life, to fetch the 
tin box and count the money. 


</p>
               <p>`Don't go out of the room, mother,' said Tom, as he saw her moving, when his 
father was gone upstairs. 


</p>
               <p>`And isn't Maggie to go?' said Mrs Tulliver, `because somebody must take away 
the things.' 


</p>
               <p>`Just as she likes,' said Tom indifferently. 


</p>
               <p>That was a cutting word to Maggie. Her heart had leaped with the sudden 
conviction that Tom was going to tell their father, the debts could be paid — 
and Tom would have let her be absent when that news was told! But she carried 
away the tray, and came back immediately. The feeling of injury on her own 
behalf could not predominate at that moment. 


</p>
               <p>Tom drew to the corner of the table near his father, when the tin box was set 
down and opened, and the red evening light falling on them made conspicuous 
the worn, sour gloom of the dark-eyed father and the suppressed joy in the 
face of the fair-complexioned son. The mother and Maggie sat at the other end 
of the table; the one in blank patience, the other in palpitating 
expectation. 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver counted out the money, setting it in order on the table, and then 
said, glancing sharply at Tom, 


</p>
               <p>`There, now! you see I was right enough.' 


</p>
               <p>He paused, looking at the money with bitter despondency. 


</p>
               <p>`There's more nor three hundred wanting — it'll be a fine while before 
<hi>I</hi> can save that. Losing that forty-two pound wi' the corn was a sore 
job. This world's been too many for me. It's took four year to lay 
<hi>this</hi> by — it's much if I'm above ground for another four year... I 
must trusten to you to pay 'em,' he went on with a trembling voice, `if you 
keep i' the same mind now you're coming o' age... But you're like enough to 
bury me first.' 


</p>
               <p>He looked up in Tom's face with a querulous desire for some assurance. 


</p>
               <p>`No, father,' said Tom, speaking with energetic decision, though there was 
tremor discernible in his voice too, `You will live to see the debts all 
paid. You shall pay them with your own hand.' 


</p>
               <p>His tone implied something more than mere hopefulness or resolution. A slight 
electric shock seemed to pass through Mr Tulliver, and he kept his eyes fixed 
on Tom with a look of eager inquiry, while Maggie, unable to restrain 
herself, rushed to her father's side and knelt down by him. Tom was silent a 
little while, before he went on. 


</p>
               <p>`A good while ago, my uncle Glegg lent me a little money to trade with, and 
that has answered. I have three hundred and twenty pounds in the bank.' 


</p>
               <p>His mother's arms were round his neck as soon as the last words were uttered, 
and she said, half-crying, 


</p>
               <p>`O my boy, I knew you'd make iverything right again, when you got a man.' 


</p>
               <p>But his father was silent: the flood of emotion hemmed in all power of 
speech. Both Tom and Maggie were struck with fear lest the shock of joy might 
even be fatal. But the blessed relief of tears came. The broad chest heaved, 
the muscles of the face gave way, and the grey-haired man burst into loud 
sobs. The fit of weeping gradually subsided and he sat quiet, recovering the 
regularity of his breathing. At last he looked up at his wife and said, in a 
gentle tone, 


</p>
               <p>`Bessy, you must come and kiss me now — the lad has made y' amends. You'll 
see a bit o' comfort again belike.' 


</p>
               <p>When she had kissed him and he had held her hand a minute, his thoughts went 
back to the money. 


</p>
               <p>`I wish you'd brought me the money to look at, Tom,' he said, fingering the 
sovereigns on the table. `I should ha' felt surer.' 


</p>
               <p>`You shall see it tomorrow, father,' said Tom. `My uncle Deane has appointed 
the creditors to meet tomorrow at the Golden Lion, and he has ordered a 
dinner for them at two o'clock. My uncle Glegg and he will both be there. It 
was advertised in the <hi>Messenger</hi> on Saturday.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then Wakem knows on't!' said Mr Tulliver, his eye kindling with triumphant 
fire. `Ah!' he went on, with a long-drawn guttural enunciation, taking out 
his snuff-box, the only luxury he had left himself, and tapping it with 
something of his old air of defiance. `I'll get from under <hi>his</hi> thumb 
now — though I <hi>must</hi> leave th' old mill. I thought I could ha' held 
out to die here — but I can't... We've got a glass o' nothing in the house, 
have we, Bessy?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Mrs Tulliver drawing out her much-reduced bunch of keys, `there's 
some brandy sister Deane brought me when I was ill.' 


</p>
               <p>`Get it me, then, get it me. I feel a bit weak.' 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, my lad,' he said, in a stronger voice, when he had taken some brandy 
and water, `You shall make a speech to 'em. I'll tell 'em it's you as got the 
best part o' the money. They'll see I'm honest at last, and ha' got an honest 
son. Ah! Wakem 'ud be fine and glad to have a son like mine — a fine straight 
fellow — i'stead o' that poor crooked creatur! You'll prosper i' the world, 
my lad; you'll maybe see the day when Wakem and his son 'ull be a round or 
two below you. You'll like enough be ta'en into partnership, as your uncle 
Deane was before you — you're in the right way for't; and then there's 
nothing to hinder your getting rich... And if ever you're rich enough — mind 
this — try and get th' old mill again.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver threw himself back in his chair — his mind, which had so long 
been the home of nothing but bitter discontent and foreboding suddenly 
filled, by the magic of joy, with visions of good fortune. But some subtle 
influence prevented him from foreseeing the good fortune as happening to 
himself. 


</p>
               <p>`Shake hands wi' me, my lad,' he said, suddenly putting out his hand. `It's a 
great thing when a man can be proud as he's got a good son. I've had 
<hi>that</hi> luck.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom never lived to taste another moment so delicious as that, and Maggie 
couldn't help forgetting her own grievances. Tom <hi>was</hi> good; and in 
the sweet humility that springs in us all in moments of true admiration and 
gratitude, she felt that the faults he had to pardon in her had never been 
redeemed, as his faults were. She felt no jealousy this evening that for the 
first time, she seemed to be thrown into the background in her father's mind. 


</p>
               <p>There was much more talk before bed-time. Mr Tulliver naturally wanted to 
hear all the particulars of Tom's trading adventures, and he listened with 
growing excitement and delight. He was curious to know what had been said on 
every occasion — if possible, what had been thought; and Bob Jakin's part in 
the business threw him into peculiar outbursts of sympathy with the 
triumphant knowingness of that remarkable packman. Bob's juvenile history so 
far as it had come under Mr Tulliver's knowledge was recalled with that sense 
of astonishing promise it displayed, which is observable in all reminiscences 
of the childhood of great men. 


</p>
               <p>It was well that there was this interest of narrative to keep under the vague 
but fierce sense of triumph over Wakem which would otherwise have been the 
channel his joy would have rushed into with dangerous force. Even as it was, 
that feeling from time to time gave threats of its ultimate mastery, in 
sudden bursts of irrelevant exclamation. 


</p>
               <p>It was long before Mr Tulliver got to sleep that night, and the sleep, when 
it came, was filled with vivid dreams. At half past five o'clock in the 
morning, when Mrs Tulliver was already rising, he alarmed her by starting up 
with a sort of smothered shout, and looking round in a bewildered way at the 
walls of the bedroom. 


</p>
               <p>`What's the matter, Mr Tulliver?' said his wife. He looked at her, still with 
a puzzled expression and said at last, 


</p>
               <p>`Ah! — I was dreaming... did I make a noise?... I thought I'd got hold of 
him.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c5.7" type="chapter">
               <head>A Day of Reckoning</head>
               <p>MR TULLIVER was an essentially sober man — able to take his glass and not 
averse to it, but never exceeding the bounds of moderation. He had naturally 
an active Hotspur temperament, which did not crave liquid fire to set it 
aglow; his impetuosity was usually equal to an exciting occasion, without any 
such reinforcements, and his desire for the brandy and water implied that the 
too sudden joy had fallen with a dangerous shock on a frame depressed by four 
years of gloom and unaccustomed hard fare. But that first doubtful tottering 
moment passed, he seemed to gather strength with his gathering excitement, 
and the next day, when he was seated at table with his creditors, his eye 
kindling and his cheek flushed with the consciousness that he was about to 
make an honourable figure once more, he looked more like the proud, 
confident, warm-hearted and warm-tempered Tulliver of old times, than might 
have seemed possible to any one who had met him a week before, riding along 
as had been his wont for the last four years since the sense of failure and 
debt had been upon him — with his head hanging down, casting brief, unwilling 
looks on those who forced themselves on his notice. He made his speech, 
asserting his honest principles with his old confident eagerness, alluding to 
the rascals and the luck that had been against him, but that he had triumphed 
over to some extent by hard effort and the aid of a good son, and winding up 
with the story of how Tom had got the best part of the needful money. But the 
streak of irritation and hostile triumph seemed to melt for a little while 
into purer fatherly pride and pleasure, when, Tom's health having been 
proposed, and uncle Deane having taken occasion to say a few words of eulogy 
on his general character and conduct, Tom himself got up and made the single 
speech of his life. It could hardly have been briefer: he thanked the 
gentlemen for the honour they had done him. He was glad that he had been able 
to help his father in proving his integrity and regaining his honest name, 
and, for his own part, he hoped he should never undo that work and disgrace 
that name. But the applause that followed was so great, and Tom looked so 
gentlemanly as well as tall and straight, that Mr Tulliver remarked in an 
explanatory manner to his friends on his right and left that he had spent a 
deal of money on his son's education. 


</p>
               <p>The party broke up in very sober fashion at five o'clock. Tom remained in St 
Ogg's to attend to some business and Mr Tulliver mounted his horse to go 
home, and describe the memorable things that had been said and done, to `poor 
Bessy and the little wench.' The air of excitement that hung about him, was 
but faintly due to good cheer or any stimulus but the potent wine of 
triumphant joy. He did not choose any back street today, but rode slowly, 
with uplifted head and free glances along the principal street all the way to 
the bridge. Why did he not happen to meet Wakem? The want of that coincidence 
vexed him and set his mind at work in an irritating way. Perhaps Wakem was 
gone out of town today on purpose to avoid seeing or hearing anything of an 
honorable action, which might well cause him some unpleasant twinges. If 
Wakem were to meet him then, Mr Tulliver would look straight at him, and the 
rascal would perhaps be forsaken a little by his cool domineering impudence. 
He would know by and by that an honest man was not going to serve 
<hi>him</hi> any longer, and lend his honesty to fill a pocket already over 
full of dishonest gains. Perhaps the luck was beginning to turn: perhaps the 
devil didn't always hold the best cards in this world. 


</p>
               <p>Simmering in this way, Mr Tulliver approached the yardgates of Dorlcote Mill, 
near enough to see a well known figure coming out of them on a fine black 
horse. They met about fifty yards from the gates, between the great chestnuts 
and elms and the high bank. 


</p>
               <p>`Tulliver,' said Wakem, abruptly, in a haughtier tone than usual, `What a 
fool's trick you did — spreading those hard lumps on that Far Close. I told 
you how it would be; but you men never learn to farm with any method.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh!' said Tulliver, suddenly boiling up. `Get somebody else to farm for you, 
then, as 'll ask <hi>you</hi> to teach him.' 


</p>
               <p>`You have been drinking, I suppose,' said Wakem, really believing that this 
was the meaning of Tulliver's flushed face and sparkling eyes. 


</p>
               <p>`No, I've not been drinking,' said Tulliver, `I want no drinking to help me 
make up my mind as I'll serve no longer under a scoundrel.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well! you may leave my premises tomorrow, then: hold your insolent 
tongue and let me pass.' (Tulliver was backing his horse across the road to 
hem Wakem in.) 


</p>
               <p>`No, I <hi>shan't</hi> let you pass,' said Tulliver, getting fiercer. `I 
shall tell you what I think of you first. You're too big a raskill to get 
hanged — you're... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Let me pass, you ignorant brute, or I'll ride over you.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Tulliver, spurring his horse and raising his whip made a rush forward, and 
Wakem's horse, rearing and staggering backward, threw his rider from the 
saddle and sent him sideways on the ground. Wakem had had the presence of 
mind to loose the bridle at once, and as the horse only staggered a few paces 
and then stood still, he might have risen and remounted without more 
inconvenience than a bruise and a shake. But before he could rise, Tulliver 
was off his horse too. The sight of the long-hated predominant man down and 
in his power threw him into a frenzy of triumphant vengeance, which seemed to 
give him preternatural agility and strength. He rushed on Wakem, who was in 
the act of trying to recover his feet, grasped him by the left arm so as to 
press Wakem's whole weight on the right arm, which rested on the ground, and 
flogged him fiercely across the back with his riding-whip. Wakem shouted for 
help, but no help came, until a woman's scream was heard, and the cry of 
`Father, father!' 


</p>
               <p>Suddenly, Wakem felt, something had arrested Mr Tulliver's arm, for the 
flogging ceased, and the grasp of his own arm was relaxed. 


</p>
               <p>`Get away with you — go!' said Tulliver angrily. But it was not to Wakem that 
he spoke. Slowly the lawyer rose, and, as he turned his head, saw that 
Tulliver's arms were being held by a girl — rather by fear of hurting the 
girl that clung to him with all her young might. 


</p>
               <p>`O Luke — mother — come and help Mr Wakem!' Maggie cried, as she heard the 
longed-for footsteps. 


</p>
               <p>`Help me on to that low horse,' said Wakem to Luke, `then I shall perhaps 
manage: though — confound it — I think this arm is sprained.' 


</p>
               <p>With some difficulty, Wakem was heaved on to Tulliver's horse. Then he turned 
towards the miller and said, with white rage, `You'll suffer for this, sir. 
Your daughter is a witness that you've assaulted me.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't care,' said Mr Tulliver, in a thick, fierce voice, `Go and show your 
back, and tell 'em I thrashed you. Tell 'em I've made things a bit more even 
i' the world.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ride my horse home with me,' said Wakem to Luke. `By the Toften Ferry — not 
through the town.' `Father, come in!' said Maggie, imploringly. Then, seeing 
that Wakem had ridden off and that no further violence was possible, she 
slackened her hold and burst into hysteric sobs, while poor Mrs Tulliver 
stood by in silence, quivering with fear. But Maggie became conscious that as 
she was slackening her hold, her father was beginning to grasp her and lean 
on her. The surprise checked her sobs. 


</p>
               <p>`I feel ill — faintish,' he said. `Help me in, Bessy — I'm giddy: I've a pain 
i' the head.' 


</p>
               <p>He walked in slowly, propped by his wife and daughter, and tottered into his 
arm-chair. The almost purple flush had given way to paleness, and his hand 
was cold. 


</p>
               <p>`Hadn't we better send for the doctor?' said Mrs Tulliver. 


</p>
               <p>He seemed to be too faint and suffering to hear her, but presently, when she 
said to Maggie, `Go and see for somebody to fetch the doctor,' he looked up 
at her with full comprehension, and said, `Doctor? No — No doctor. It's my 
head — that's all. Help me to bed.' 


</p>
               <p>Sad ending to the day that had risen on them all like a beginning of better 
times! But mingled seed must bear a mingled crop. 


</p>
               <p>In half an hour after his father had lain down Tom came home. Bob Jakin was 
with him — come to congratulate `the old master,' not without some excusable 
pride that he had had his share in bringing about Mr Tom's good-luck; and Tom 
had thought his father would like nothing better as a finish to the day than 
a talk with Bob. But now Tom could only spend the evening in gloomy 
expectation of the unpleasant consequences that must follow on this mad 
outbreak of his father's long-smothered hate. After the painful news had been 
told, Tom sat in silence: he had not spirit or inclination to tell his mother 
and sister anything about the dinner — they hardly cared to ask it. 
Apparently the mingled thread in the web of their life was so curiously 
twisted together that there could be no joy without a sorrow coming close 
upon it. Tom was dejected by the thought that his exemplary effort must 
always be baffled by the wrong-doing of others: Maggie was living through, 
over and over again, the agony of the moment in which she had rushed to throw 
herself on her father's arm — with a vague, shuddering foreboding of wretched 
scenes to come. Not one of the three felt any particular alarm about Mr 
Tulliver's health: the symptoms did not recall his former dangerous attack, 
and it seemed only a necessary consequence that his violent passion and 
effort of strength after many hours of unusual excitement, should have made 
him feel ill. Rest would probably cure him. 


</p>
               <p>Tom, tired out by his active day, fell asleep soon, and slept soundly; it 
seemed to him as if he had only just come to bed, when he waked to see his 
mother standing by him in the grey light of early morning. 


</p>
               <p>`My boy, you must get up this minute: I've sent for the doctor, and your 
father wants you and Maggie to come to him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is he worse, mother?' 


</p>
               <p>`He's been very ill all night with his head, but he doesn't say it's worse — 
only said sudden, “Bessy, fetch the boy and girl. Tell 'em to make 
haste.”' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie and Tom threw on their clothes hastily in the chill grey light, and 
reached their father's room almost at the same moment. He was watching for 
them with an expression of pain on his brow, but with sharpened anxious 
consciousness in his eyes. Mrs Tulliver stood at the foot of the bed, 
frightened and trembling, looking worn and aged from disturbed rest. Maggie 
was at his bedside first, but her father's glance was towards Tom, who came 
and stood next to her. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, my lad, it's come upon me, as I shan't get up again... This world's 
been too many for me, my lad, but you've done what you could to make things a 
bit even. Shake hands wi' me again, my lad, before I go away from you.' 


</p>
               <p>The father and son clasped hands and looked at each other an instant. Then 
Tom said, trying to speak firmly, 


</p>
               <p>`Have you any wish, father — that I can fulfil, when... ' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, my lad... you'll try and get the old mill back.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, father.' 


</p>
               <p>`And there's your mother — you'll try and make her amends, all you can, for 
my bad luck... and there's the little wench... ' 


</p>
               <p>The father turned his eyes on Maggie with a still more eager look, while she, 
with a bursting heart, sank on her knees, to be closer to the dear, time-worn 
face which had been present with her through long years as the sign of her 
deepest love and hardest trial. 


</p>
               <p>`You must take care of her, Tom... don't you fret, my wench... there'll come 
somebody as'll love you and take your part... and you must be good to her, my 
lad — I was good to <hi>my</hi> sister. Kiss me, Maggie... Come, Bessy... 
You'll manage to pay for a brick grave, Tom, so as your mother and me can lie 
together.' 


</p>
               <p>He looked away from them all when he had said this, and lay silent for some 
minutes, while they stood watching him, not daring to move. The morning light 
was growing clearer for them, and they could see the heaviness gathering in 
his face, and the dullness in his eyes. But at last he looked towards Tom and 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`I had my turn — I beat him. That was nothing but fair. I never wanted 
anything but what was fair.' 


</p>
               <p>`But, father, dear father,' said Maggie, an unspeakable anxiety predominating 
over her grief, `You forgive him — you forgive every one now?' 


</p>
               <p>He did not move his eyes to look at her, but he said, 


</p>
               <p>`No, my wench. I don't forgive him... What's forgiving to do? I can't love a 
raskill... ' 


</p>
               <p>His voice had become thicker; but he wanted to say more, and moved his lips 
again and again, struggling in vain to speak. At length the words forced 
their way. 


</p>
               <p>`Does God forgive raskills?... but if He does, He won't be hard wi' me.' 


</p>
               <p>His hands moved uneasily, as if he wanted them to remove some obstruction 
that weighted upon him. Two or three times there fell from him some broken 
words— 


</p>
               <p>`This world's... too many... honest man... puzzling... ' 


</p>
               <p>Soon they merged into mere mutterings; the eyes had ceased to discern; and 
then came the final silence. 


</p>
               <p>But not of death. For an hour or more the chest heaved, the loud hard 
breathing continued, getting gradually slower, as the cold dews gathered on 
the brow. 


</p>
               <p>At last there was total stillness, and poor Tulliver's dimly-lighted soul had 
for ever ceased to be vexed with the painful riddle of this world. 


</p>
               <p>Help was come now: Luke and his wife were there, and Mr Turnbull had arrived, 
too late for everything but to say, `This is death.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom and Maggie went downstairs together into the room where their father's 
place was empty. Their eyes turned to the same spot, and Maggie spoke: 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, forgive me — let us always love each other,' and they clung and wept 
together. 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b6" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c6.1" type="chapter">
               <head>A Duet in Paradise</head>
               <p>THE well-furnished drawing-room, with the open grand piano and the pleasant 
outlook down a sloping garden to a boat-house by the side of the Floss, is Mr 
Deane's. The neat little lady in mourning, whose light brown ringlets are 
falling over the coloured embroidery with which here fingers are busy, is of 
course Lucy Deane; and the fine young man who is leaning down from his chair 
to snap the scissors in the extremely abbreviated face of the `King Charles' 
lying on the young lady's feet, is no other than Mr Stephen Guest, whose 
diamond ring, attar of roses, and air of nonchalant leisure at twelve o'clock 
in the day are the graceful and odoriferous result of the largest oil-mill 
and the most extensive wharf in St Ogg's. There is an apparent triviality in 
the action with the scissors, but your discernment perceives at once that 
there is a design in it which makes it eminently worthy of a large-headed, 
long-limbed young man; for you see that Lucy wants the scissors and is 
compelled, reluctant as she may be, to shake her ringlets back, raise her 
soft hazel eyes, smile playfully down on the face that is so very nearly on a 
level with her knee, and holding out her little shell-pink palm, to say, 


</p>
               <p>`My scissors, please, if you can renounce the great pleasure of persecuting 
my poor Minny.' 


</p>
               <p>The foolish scissors have slipped too far over the knuckles, it seems, and 
Hercules holds out his entrapped fingers hopelessly. 


</p>
               <p>`Confound the scissors! The oval lies the wrong way. Please, draw them off 
for me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Draw them off with your other hand,' says Miss Lucy, roguishly. 


</p>
               <p>`O but that's my left hand: I'm not left-handed.' Lucy laughs and the 
scissors are drawn off with gentle touches from tiny tips, which naturally 
dispose Mr Stephen for a repetition <hi>da capo</hi>. Accordingly, he watches 
for the release of the scissors that he may get them into his possession 
again. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' said Lucy, sticking them in her band, `you shall not have my 
scissors again — you have strained them already. Now don't set Minny growling 
again. Sit up and behave properly, and then I will tell you some news.' 


</p>
               <p>`What is that?' said Stephen, throwing himself back and hanging his right arm 
over the corner of his chair. He might have been sitting for his portrait, 
which would have represented a rather striking young man of five and twenty, 
with a square forehead, short dark-brown hair standing erect with a slight 
wave at the end like a thick crop of corn, and a half-ardent, half-sarcastic 
glance from under his well- marked horizontal eyebrows. `Is it very important 
news?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, very. Guess.' 


</p>
               <p>`You are going to change Minny's diet, and give him three ratafias soaked in 
a dessertspoonful of cream daily.' 


</p>
               <p>`Quite wrong.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, then, Dr Kenn has been preaching against buckram, and you ladies have 
all been sending him a round robin, saying ”This is a hard doctrine; who 
can bear it?”' 


</p>
               <p>`For shame!' said Lucy, adjusting her little mouth gravely. `It is rather 
dull of you not to guess my news, because it is about something I mentioned 
to you not very long ago.' 


</p>
               <p>`But you have mentioned many things to me not long ago. Does your feminine 
tyranny require that when you say, the thing you mean is one of several 
things, I should know it immediately by that mark?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I know you think I am silly.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think you are perfectly charming.' 


</p>
               <p>`And my silliness is part of my charm?' 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't say <hi>that</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I know you like women to be rather insipid. Philip Wakem betrayed you: 
he said so one day when you were not here.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I know Phil is fierce on that point — he makes it quite a personal matter. 
I think he must be love-sick for some unknown lady — some exalted Beatrice 
whom he met abroad.' 


</p>
               <p>`By the by!' said Lucy, pausing in her work. `It has just occurred to me that 
I have never found out whether my cousin Maggie will object to see Philip, as 
her brother does. Tom will not enter a room where Philip is if he knows it: 
perhaps Maggie may be the same and then we shan't be able to sing our glees, 
shall we?' 


</p>
               <p>`What, is your cousin coming to stay with you?' said Stephen, with a look of 
slight annoyance. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes; that was my news, which you have forgotten. She's going to leave her 
situation, where she has been nearly two years, poor thing — ever since her 
father's death, and she will stay with me a month or two — many months, I 
hope.' 


</p>
               <p>`And am I bound to be pleased at that news?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, not at all,' said Lucy, with a little air of pique. `<hi>I</hi> am 
pleased, but that, of course, is no reason why <hi>you</hi> should be 
pleased. There is no girl in the world I love so well as my cousin Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`And you will be inseparable, I suppose, when she comes. There will be no 
possibility of a <hi>tête-à-tête</hi> with you any more, 
unless you can find an admirer for her, who will pair off with her 
occasionally. What is the ground of dislike to Philip? He might have been a 
resource.' 


</p>
               <p>`It is a family quarrel with Philip's father. There were very painful 
circumstances, I believe — I never quite understood them or knew them all. My 
uncle Tulliver was unfortunate and lost all his property, and I think he 
considered Mr Wakem was somehow the cause of it. Mr Wakem bought Dorlcote 
Mill, my uncle's old place, where he always lived. You must remember my uncle 
Tulliver, don't you?' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Stephen, with rather supercilious indifference. `I've always known 
the name, and I daresay I knew the man by sight, apart from his name. I know 
half the names and faces in the neighbourhood in that detached, disjointed 
way.' 


</p>
               <p>`He was a very hot-tempered man. I remember, when I was a little girl and 
used to go to see my cousins, he often frightened me by talking as if he was 
angry. Papa told me there was a dreadful quarrel the very day before my 
uncle's death, between him and Mr Wakem, but it was hushed up. That was when 
you were in London. Papa says my uncle was quite mistaken in many ways — his 
mind had become embittered. But Tom and Maggie must naturally feel it very 
painful to be reminded of these things. They have had so much — so very much 
trouble. Maggie was at school with me six years ago, when she was fetched 
away because of her father's misfortunes, and she has hardly had any pleasure 
since, I think. She has been in a dreary situation in a school since uncle's 
death because she is determined to be independent, and not live with aunt 
Pullet; and I could hardly wish her to come to me then, because dear mamma 
was ill and everything was so sad. That is why I want her to come to me now, 
and have a long, long holiday.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very sweet and angelic of you,' said Stephen, looking at her with an 
admiring smile, `and all the more so if she has the conversational qualities 
of her mother.' 


</p>
               <p>`Poor aunty! You are cruel to ridicule her. She is very valuable to 
<hi>me</hi>, I know. She manages the house beautifully — much better than any 
stranger would. And she was a great comfort to me in mamma's illness.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but in point of companionship, one would prefer that she should be 
represented by her brandy cherries and cream cakes. I think with a shudder 
that her daughter will always be present in person, and have no agreeable 
proxies of that kind — a fat blonde girl, with round blue eyes, who will 
stare at us silently.' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes!' exclaimed Lucy, laughing wickedly and clapping her hands, `that is 
just my cousin Maggie. You must have seen her!' 


</p>
               <p>`No, indeed: I'm only guessing what Mrs Tulliver's daughter must be. And 
then, if she is to banish Philip, our only apology for a tenor, that will be 
an additional bore.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I hope that may not be. I think I will ask you to call on Philip and 
tell him Maggie is coming tomorrow. He is quite aware of Tom's feeling and 
always keeps out of his way; so he will understand if you tell him that I 
asked you to warn him not to come until I write to ask him.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think you had better write a pretty note for me to take. Phil is so 
sensitive, you know the least thing might frighten him off coming at all, and 
we had hard work to get him. I can never induce him to come to the Park: he 
doesn't like my sisters, I think. It is only your faëry touch that can 
lay his ruffled feathers.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen mastered the little hand that was straying towards the table, and 
touched it lightly with his lips. Little Lucy felt very proud and happy. She 
and Stephen were in that stage of courtship which makes the most exquisite 
moment of youth, the freshest blossom-time of passion — when each is sure of 
the other's love, but no formal declaration has been made and all is mutual 
divination, exalting the most trivial word, the lightest gesture, into 
thrills delicate and delicious as wafted jasmine scent. The explicitness of 
an engagement wears off this finest edge of susceptibility: it is jasmine 
gathered and presented in a large bouquet. 


</p>
               <p>`But it is really odd that you should have hit so exactly on Maggie's 
appearance and manners,' said the cunning Lucy, moving to reach her desk, 
`because she might have been like her brother, you know; and Tom has not 
round eyes; and he is as far as possible from staring at people.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I suppose he is like the father — he seems to be as proud as Lucifer. Not 
a brilliant companion, though, I should think.' 


</p>
               <p>`I like Tom. He gave me my Minny when I lost Lolo. And papa is very fond of 
him — he says Tom has excellent principles. It was through him that his 
father was able to pay all his debts before he died.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh, ah, I've heard about that; I heard your father and mine talking about it 
a little while ago, after dinner, in one of their interminable discussions 
about business. They think of doing something for young Tulliver — he saved 
them from a considerable loss by riding home in some marvellous way, like 
Turpin, to bring them news about the stoppage of a bank or something of that 
sort. But I was rather drowsy at the time.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen rose from his seat, and sauntered to the piano, humming in falsetto, 
`Graceful Consort,' as he turned over the volume of `The Creation,' which 
stood open on the desk. 


</p>
               <p>`Come and sing this,' he said, when he saw Lucy rising. 


</p>
               <p>`What, ”Graceful Consort”? I don't think it suits your voice.' 


</p>
               <p>`Never mind; it exactly suits my feeling, which, Philip will have it, is the 
grand element of good singing. I notice men with indifferent voices are 
usually of that opinion.' 


</p>
               <p>`Philip burst into one of his invectives against ”The Creation” the 
other day,' said Lucy, seating herself at the piano. `He says it has a sort 
of sugared complacency and flattering make-believe in it, as if it were 
written for the birthday fête of a German Grand Duke.' 


</p>
               <p>`O pooh! He is the fallen Adam with a soured temper. We are Adam and Eve 
unfallen — in paradise. Now, then — the recitative, for the sake of the 
moral. You will sing the whole duty of woman — ”And from obedience grows 
my pride and happiness.”' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, I shall not respect an Adam who drags the <hi>tempo</hi>, as you 
will,' said Lucy, beginning to play the duet. 


</p>
               <p>Surely the only courtship unshaken by doubts and fears must be that in which 
the lovers can sing together. The sense of mutual fitness that springs from 
the two deep notes fulfilling expectation just at the right moment between 
the notes of the silvery soprano, from the perfect accord of descending 
thirds and fifths, from the preconcerted loving chase of a fugue, is likely 
enough to supersede any immediate demand for less impassioned forms of 
agreement. The contralto will not care to catechise the bass; the tenor will 
foresee no embarrassing dearth of remark in evenings spent with the lovely 
soprano. In the provinces, too, where music was so scarce in that remote 
time, how could the musical people avoid falling in love with each other? 
Even political principle must have been in danger of relaxation under such 
circumstances; and a violin faithful to rotten boroughs must have been 
tempted to fraternise in a demoralising way with a reforming violoncello. In 
this case, the linnet-throated soprano, and the full-toned bass, singing, 


</p>
               <p>`With thee delight is every new, With thee is life incessant 
bliss,' 


</p>
               <p>believed what they sang all the more <hi>because</hi> they sang it. 


</p>
               <p>`Now for Raphael's great song,' said Lucy, when they had finished the duet. 
`You do the ”heavy beasts” to perfection.' 


</p>
               <p>`That sounds complimentary,' said Stephen, looking at his watch. `By Jove, 
it's nearly half-past one. Well, I can just sing this.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen delivered with admirable ease the deep notes representing the tread 
of the heavy beasts: — but when a singer has an audience of two, there is 
room for divided sentiments. Minny's mistress was charmed, but Minny, who had 
intrenched himself, trembling, in his basket as soon as the music began, 
found this thunder so little to his taste that he leaped out and scampered 
under the remotest <hi>chiffonnière</hi>, as the most eligible place 
in which a small dog could await the crack of doom. 


</p>
               <p>`Adieu, ”graceful consort,”' said Stephen, buttoning his coat 
across when he had done singing, and smiling down from his tall height, with 
the air of rather a patronising lover to the little lady on the music-stool. 
`My bliss is not incessant, for I must gallop home. I promised to be there at 
lunch.' 


</p>
               <p>`You will not be able to call on Philip, then? It is of no consequence: I 
have said everything in my note.' 


</p>
               <p>`You will be engaged with your cousin tomorrow, I suppose?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, we are going to have a little family party. My cousin Tom will dine 
with us, and poor aunty will have her two children together for the first 
time. It will be very pretty — I think a great deal about it.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I may come the next day?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes! Come and be introduced to my cousin Maggie — though you can hardly be 
said not to have seen her, — you have described her so well.' 


</p>
               <p>`Good-by, then.' And there was that slight pressure of the hands and 
momentary meeting of the eyes, which will often leave a little lady with a 
slight flush and smile on her face that do not subside immediately when the 
door is closed, and with an inclination to walk up and down the room rather 
than to seat herself quietly at her embroidery, or other rational and 
improving occupation. At least this was the effect on Lucy; and you will not, 
I hope, consider it an indication of vanity predominating over more tender 
impulses, that she just glanced in the chimney glass as her walk brought her 
near it. The desire to know that one has not looked an absolute fright during 
a few hours of conversation may be construed as lying within the bounds of a 
laudable benevolent consideration for others. And Lucy had so much of this 
benevolence in her nature that I am inclined to think her small egoisms were 
impregnated with it, just as there are people not altogether unknown to you, 
whose small benevolences have a predominant and somewhat rank odour of 
egoism. Even now, that she is walking up and down with a little triumphant 
flutter of her girlish heart at the sense that she is loved by the person of 
chief consequence in her small world, you may see in her hazel eyes an ever 
present sunny benignity in which the momentary harmless flashes of personal 
vanity are quite lost, and if she is happy in thinking of her lover it is 
because the thought of him mingles readily with all the gentle affections and 
goodnatured offices with which she fills her peaceful days. Even now, her 
mind, with that instantaneous alternation which makes two currents of feeling 
or imagination seem simultaneous, is glancing continually from Stephen to the 
preparations she has only half finished in Maggie's room. Cousin Maggie shall 
be treated as well as the grandest lady visitor — nay, better, for she shall 
have Lucy's best prints and drawings in her bedroom, and the very finest 
bouquet of spring flowers on her table. Maggie would enjoy all that — she was 
so fond of pretty things! And there was poor aunt Tulliver, that no one made 
any account of — she was to be surprised with the present of a cap of 
superlative quality, and to have her health drunk in a gratifying manner, for 
which Lucy was going to lay a plot with her father this evening. Clearly, she 
had not time to indulge in long reveries about her own happy love-affairs! 
With this thought she walked towards the door, but paused there. 


</p>
               <p>`What's the matter, then, Minny?' she said, stooping in answer to some 
whimpering of that small quadruped, and lifting his glossy head against her 
pink cheek. `Did you think I was going without you? Come, then, let us go and 
see Sindbad.' 


</p>
               <p>Sindbad was Lucy's chestnut horse, that she always fed with her own hand when 
he was turned out in the paddock. She was fond of feeding dependent 
creatures, and knew the private tastes of all the animals about the house, 
delighting in the little rippling sounds of her canaries when their beaks 
were busy with fresh seed, and in the small nibbling pleasures of certain 
animals which, lest she should appear too trivial, I will here call the more 
familiar rodents. 


</p>
               <p>Was not Stephen Guest right in his decided opinion that this slim maiden of 
eighteen was quite the sort of wife a man would not be likely to repent of 
marrying? — a woman who was loving and thoughtful for other women, not giving 
them Judas-kisses with eyes askance on their welcome defects, but with real 
care and vision for their half-hidden pains and mortifications, with long 
ruminating enjoyment of little pleasures prepared for them? Perhaps the 
emphasis of his admiration did not fall precisely on this rarest quality in 
her — perhaps he approved his own choice of her chiefly because she did not 
strike him as a remarkable rarity. A man likes his wife to be pretty: well, 
Lucy was pretty, but not to a maddening extent. A man likes his wife to be 
accomplished, gentle, affectionate and not stupid; and Lucy had all these 
qualifications. Stephen was not surprised to find himself in love with her, 
and was conscious of excellent judgment in preferring her to Miss Leyburn, 
the daughter of the county member, although Lucy was only the daughter of his 
father's subordinate partner; besides, he had had to defy and overcome a 
slight unwillingness and disappointment in his father and sisters — a 
circumstance which gives a young man an agreeable consciousness of his own 
dignity. Stephen was aware that he had sense and independence enough to 
choose the wife who was likely to make him happy, unbiassed by any indirect 
considerations. He meant to choose Lucy: she was a little darling, and 
exactly the sort of woman he had always most admired. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.2" type="chapter">
               <head>First Impressions</head>
               <p>`HE is very clever, Maggie,' said Lucy. She was kneeling on a footstool at 
Maggie's feet, after placing that dark lady in the large crimson velvet 
chair. `I feel sure you will like him. I hope you will.' 


</p>
               <p>`I shall be very difficult to please,' said Maggie, smiling, and holding up 
one of Lucy's long curls, that the sunlight might shine through it. `A 
gentleman who thinks he is good enough for Lucy, must expect to be sharply 
criticised.' 


</p>
               <p>`Indeed, he's a great deal too good for me. And sometimes, when he is away, I 
almost think it can't really be, that he loves me. But I can never doubt it 
when he is with me — though I couldn't bear any one but you to know that I 
feel in that way, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh, then, if I disapprove of him, you can give him up, since you are not 
engaged,' said Maggie with playful gravity. 


</p>
               <p>`I would rather not be engaged: — When people are engaged, they begin to 
think of being married soon,' said Lucy, too thoroughly preoccupied to notice 
Maggie's joke, `and I should like everything to go on for a long while just 
as it is. Sometimes I am quite frightened lest Stephen should say that he has 
spoken to papa, and from something that fell from papa the other day, I feel 
sure he and Mr Guest are expecting that. And Stephen's sisters are very civil 
to me now: at first, I think they didn't like his paying me attention; and 
that was natural. It <hi>does</hi> seem out of keeping that I should ever 
live in a great place like the Park House — such a little, insignificant 
thing as I am.' 


</p>
               <p>`But people are not expected to be large in proportion to the houses they 
live in, like snails,' said Maggie, laughingly. `Pray, are Mr Guest's sisters 
giantesses?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no — and not handsome — that is, not very,' said Lucy, half-penitent at 
this uncharitable remark. `But <hi>he</hi> is — at least he is generally 
considered very handsome.' 


</p>
               <p>`Though you are unable to share that opinion?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I don't know,' said Lucy, blushing pink over brow and neck. `It is a bad 
plan to raise expectation; you will perhaps be disappointed. But I have 
prepared a charming surprise for him; I shall have a glorious laugh against 
him. I shall not tell you what it is, though.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy rose from her knees and went to a little distance, holding her pretty 
head on one side, as if she had been arranging Maggie for a portrait and 
wished to judge of the general effect. 


</p>
               <p>`Stand up a moment, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`What is your pleasure now?' said Maggie, smiling languidly, as she rose from 
her chair, and looked down on her slight, aërial cousin, whose figure 
was quite subordinate to her faultless drapery of silk and crape. 


</p>
               <p>Lucy kept her contemplative attitude a moment or two in silence, and then 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`I can't think what witchery it is in you, Maggie, that makes you look best 
in shabby clothes; though you really must have a new dress now. But do you 
know, last night I was trying to fancy you in a handsome fashionable dress, 
and do what I would, that old limp merino would come back as the only right 
thing for you. I wonder if Marie Antoinette looked all the grander when her 
gown was darned at the elbows. Now, if <hi>I</hi> were to put anything shabby 
on, I should be quite unnoticeable — I should be a mere rag.' 


</p>
               <p>`O quite,' said Maggie, with mock gravity. `You would be liable to be swept 
out of the room with the cobwebs and carpet dust, and to find yourself under 
the grate, like Cinderella. Mayn't I sit down now?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, now you may,' said Lucy, laughing. Then, with an air of serious 
reflection, unfastening her large jet brooch, `But you must change brooches, 
Maggie; that little butterfly looks silly on you.' 


</p>
               <p>`But won't that mar the charming effect of my consistent shabbiness?' said 
Maggie, seating herself submissively, while Lucy knelt again and unfastened 
the contemptible butterfly. `I wish my mother were of your opinion, for she 
was fretting last night because this is my best frock. I've been saving my 
money to pay for some lessons: I shall never get a better situation without 
more accomplishments.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie gave a little sigh. 


</p>
               <p>`Now, don't put on that sad look again,' said Lucy, pinning the large brooch 
below Maggie's fine throat. `You're forgetting that you've left that dreary 
schoolroom behind you, and have no little girls' clothes to mend.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie. `It is with me as I used to think it would be with the 
poor uneasy white bear I saw at the show. I thought he must have got so 
stupid with the habit of turning backwards and forwards in that narrow space 
that he would keep doing it if they set him free. One gets a bad habit of 
being unhappy.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I shall put you under a discipline of pleasure that will make you lose 
that bad habit,' said Lucy, sticking the black butterfly absently in her own 
collar, while her eyes met Maggie's affectionately. 


</p>
               <p>`You dear tiny thing,' said Maggie, in one of her bursts of loving 
admiration, `you enjoy other people's happiness so much, I believe you would 
do without any of your own. I wish I were like you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I've never been tried in that way,' said Lucy. `I've always been so happy. I 
don't know whether I could bear much trouble — I never had any but poor 
mamma's death. You <hi>have</hi> been tried, Maggie; and I'm sure you feel 
for other people quite as much as I do.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, Lucy,' said Maggie, shaking her head slowly, `I don't enjoy their 
happiness as you do — else I should be more contented. I do feel for them 
when they are in trouble — I don't think I could ever bear to make any one 
<hi>un</hi>happy — and yet, I often hate myself, because I get angry 
sometimes at the sight of happy people. I think I get worse as I get older — 
more selfish. That seems very dreadful.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, Maggie!' said Lucy, in a tone of remonstrance, `I don't believe a word 
of that. It is all a gloomy fancy — just because you are depressed by a dull, 
wearisome life.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, perhaps it is,' said Maggie, resolutely clearing away the clouds from 
her face with a bright smile, and throwing herself backward in her chair. 
`Perhaps it comes from the school diet — watery rice-pudding spiced with 
Pinnock. Let us hope it will give way before my mother's custards and this 
charming Geoffrey Crayon.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie took up the `Sketch Book,' which lay by her on the table. 


</p>
               <p>`Do I look fit to be seen with this little brooch?' said Lucy, going to 
survey the effect in the chimney glass. 


</p>
               <p>`O no, Mr Guest will be obliged to go out of the room again if he sees you in 
it. Pray make haste and put another on.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy hurried out of the room, but Maggie did not take the opportunity of 
opening her book: she let it fall on her knees, while her eyes wandered to 
the window where she could see the sunshine falling on the rich clumps of 
spring flowers and on the long hedge of laurels — and beyond, the silvery 
breadth of the dear old Floss that at this distance seemed to be sleeping in 
a morning holiday. The sweet fresh garden scent came through the open window, 
and the birds were busy flitting and alighting, gurgling and singing. Yet 
Maggie's eyes began to fill with tears. The sight of the old scenes had made 
the rush of memories so painful that even yesterday she had only been able to 
rejoice in her mother's restored comfort and Tom's brotherly friendliness as 
we rejoice in good news of friends at a distance rather than in the presence 
of a happiness which we share. Memory and imagination urged upon her a sense 
of privation too keen to let her taste what was offered in the transient 
present: her future, she thought, was likely to be worse than her past, for 
after her years of contented renunciation, she had slipped back into desire 
and longing: she found joyless days of distasteful occupation harder and 
harder — she found the image of the intense and varied life she yearned for 
and despaired of, becoming more and more importunate. The sound of the 
opening door roused her, and hastily wiping away her tears, she began to turn 
over the leaves of her book. 


</p>
               <p>`There is one pleasure, I know, Maggie, that your deepest dismalness will 
never resist,' said Lucy, beginning to speak as soon as she entered the room. 
`That is music. And I mean you to have quite a riotous feast of it. I mean 
you to get up your playing again, which used to be so much better than mine 
when we were at Laceham.' 


</p>
               <p>`You would have laughed to see me playing the little girls' tunes over and 
over to them, when I took them to practice,' said Maggie, `just for the sake 
of fingering the dear keys again. But I don't know whether I could play 
anything more difficult now than ”Begone, dull care”!' 


</p>
               <p>`I know what a wild state of joy you used to be in when the glee-men came 
round,' said Lucy, taking up her embroidery, `and we might have all those old 
glees that you used to love so, if I were certain that you don't feel exactly 
as Tom does about some things.' 


</p>
               <p>`I should have thought there was nothing you might be more certain of,' said 
Maggie, smiling. 


</p>
               <p>`I ought rather to have said, one particular thing. Because if you feel just 
as he does about that, we shall want our third voice. St Ogg's is so 
miserably provided with musical gentlemen. There are really only Stephen and 
Philip Wakem who have any knowledge of music, so as to be able to sing a 
part.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy looked up from her work as she uttered the last sentence, and saw that 
there was a change in Maggie's face. 


</p>
               <p>`Does it hurt you to hear the name mentioned, Maggie? If it does, I will not 
speak of him again. I know Tom will not see him if he can avoid it.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't feel at all as Tom does on that subject,' said Maggie, rising and 
going to the window as if she wanted to see more of the landscape. `I've 
always liked Philip Wakem ever since I was a little girl and saw him at 
Lorton. He was so good when Tom hurt his foot.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I'm so glad!' said Lucy. `Then you won't mind his coming sometimes, and 
we can have much more music than we could without him. I'm very fond of poor 
Philip, only I wish he were not so morbid about his deformity. I suppose it 
<hi>is</hi> his deformity that makes him so sad — and sometimes bitter. It is 
certainly very piteous to see his poor little crooked body and pale face 
among great strong people.' 


</p>
               <p>`But, Lucy,' said Maggie, trying to arrest the prattling stream,... 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, there is the door-bell. That must be Stephen,' Lucy went on, not 
noticing Maggie's faint effort to speak. `One of the things I most admire in 
Stephen is, that he makes a greater friend of Philip than any one.' 


</p>
               <p>It was too late for Maggie to speak now: the drawing-room door was opening, 
and Minny was already growling in a small way, at the entrance of a tall 
gentleman, who went up to Lucy and took her hand with a half polite, half 
tender glance and tone of inquiry, which seemed to indicate that he was 
unconscious of any other presence. 


</p>
               <p>`Let me introduce you to my cousin, Miss Tulliver,' said Lucy, turning with 
wicked enjoyment towards Maggie, who now approached from the farther window. 
`This is Mr Stephen Guest.' 


</p>
               <p>For one instant Stephen could not conceal his astonishment at the sight of 
this tall dark-eyed nymph with her jet- black coronet of hair, the next, 
Maggie felt herself, for the first time in her life, receiving the tribute of 
a very deep blush and a very deep bow from a person towards whom she herself 
was conscious of timidity. This new experience was very agreeable to her — so 
agreeable that it almost effaced her previous emotion about Philip. There was 
a new brightness in her eyes, and a very becoming flush on her cheek as she 
seated herself. 


</p>
               <p>`I hope you perceive what a striking likeness you drew the day before 
yesterday,' said Lucy, with a pretty laugh of triumph. She enjoyed her 
lover's confusion — the advantage was usually on <hi>his</hi> side. 


</p>
               <p>`This designing cousin of yours quite deceived me, Miss Tulliver,' said 
Stephen, seating himself by Lucy and stooping to play with Minny — only 
looking at Maggie furtively. `She said you had light hair and blue eyes.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nay, it was you who said so,' remonstrated Lucy. `I only refrained from 
destroying your confidence in your own second sight.' 


</p>
               <p>`I wish I could always err in the same way,' said Stephen, `and find reality 
so much more beautiful than my preconceptions.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now you have proved yourself equal to the occasion,' said Maggie, `and said 
what it was incumbent on you to say under the circumstances.' 


</p>
               <p>She flashed a slightly defiant look at him: it was clear to her that he had 
been drawing a satirical portrait of her beforehand. Lucy had said he was 
inclined to be satirical, and Maggie had mentally supplied the addition — 
`and rather conceited.' 


</p>
               <p>`An alarming amount of devil there,' was Stephen's first thought. The second, 
when she had bent over her work was, `I wish she would look at me again.' The 
next was, to answer: 


</p>
               <p>`I suppose all phrases of mere compliment have their turn to be true. A man 
is occasionally grateful when he says ”thank you.” It's rather hard 
upon him that he must use the same words with which all the world declines a 
disagreeable invitation — don't you think so, Miss Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, looking at him with her direct glance; `if we use common 
words on a great occasion, they are the more striking, because they are felt 
at once to have a particular meaning, like old banners or everyday clothes 
hung up in a sacred place.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then my compliment ought to be eloquent,' said Stephen, really not quite 
knowing what he said while Maggie looked at him, `seeing that the words were 
so far beneath the occasion.' 


</p>
               <p>`No compliment can be eloquent, except as an expression of indifference,' 
said Maggie, flushing a little. 


</p>
               <p>Lucy was rather alarmed — she thought Stephen and Maggie were not going to 
like each other. She had always feared lest Maggie should appear too odd and 
clever to please that critical gentleman. `Why, dear Maggie,' she interposed, 
`you have always pretended that you are too fond of being admired, and now, I 
think, you are angry because some one ventures to admire you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Not at all,' said Maggie, `I like too well to feel that I am admired, but 
compliments never make me feel that.' 


</p>
               <p>`I will never pay you a compliment again, Miss Tulliver,' said Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>`Thank you; that will be a proof of respect.' 


</p>
               <p>Poor Maggie! She was so unused to society that she could take nothing as a 
matter of course, and had never in her life spoken from the lips merely, so 
that she must necessarily appear absurd to more experienced ladies, from the 
excessive feeling she was apt to throw into very trivial incidents. But she 
was even conscious herself of a little absurdity in this instance. It was 
true, she had a theoretic objection to compliments and had once said 
impatiently to Philip that she didn't see why women were to be told with a 
simper that they were beautiful any more than old men were to be told that 
they were venerable: still, to be so irritated by a common practice in the 
case of a stranger like Mr Stephen Guest, and to care about his having spoken 
slightingly of her before he had seen her, was certainly unreasonable, and as 
soon as she was silent she began to be ashamed of herself. It did not occur 
to her that her irritation was due to the pleasanter emotion which had 
preceded it, just as when we are satisfied with a sense of glowing warmth an 
innocent drop of cold water may fall upon us as a sudden smart. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen was too well-bred not to seem unaware that the previous conversation 
could have been felt embarrassing, and at once began to talk of impersonal 
matters, asking Lucy if she knew when the bazaar was at length to take place, 
so that there might be some hope of seeing her rain the influence of her eyes 
on objects more grateful than those worsted flowers that were growing under 
her fingers. 


</p>
               <p>`Some day next month, I believe,' said Lucy. `But your sisters are doing more 
for it than I am: they are to have the largest stall.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, yes: but they carry on their manufactures in their own sitting-room 
where I don't intrude on them. I see you are not addicted to the fashionable 
vice of fancy-work, Miss Tulliver,' said Stephen looking at Maggie's plain 
hemming. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, `I can do nothing more difficult or more elegant than 
shirt-making.' 


</p>
               <p>`And your plain sewing is so beautiful, Maggie,' said Lucy, `that I think I 
shall beg a few specimens of you to show as fancy-work. Your exquisite sewing 
is quite a mystery to me — you used to dislike that sort of work so much in 
old days.' 


</p>
               <p>`It is a mystery explained, dear,' said Maggie, looking up quietly. `Plain 
sewing was the only thing I could get money by; so I was obliged to try and 
do it well.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy, good and simple as she was, could not help blushing a little: she did 
not quite like that Stephen should know that — Maggie need not have mentioned 
it. Perhaps there was some pride in the confession: the pride of poverty that 
will not be ashamed of itself. But if Maggie had been the queen of coquettes 
she could hardly have invented a means of giving greater piquancy to her 
beauty in Stephen's eyes: I am not sure that the quiet admission of plain 
sewing and poverty would have done alone, but assisted by the beauty, they 
made Maggie more unlike other women even than she had seemed at first. 


</p>
               <p>`But I can knit, Lucy,' Maggie went on, `if that will be of any use for your 
bazaar.' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, of infinite use. I shall set you to work with scarlet wool tomorrow. 
But your sister is the most enviable person,' continued Lucy, turning to 
Stephen, `to have the talent of modelling. She is doing a wondering bust of 
Dr Kenn entirely from memory.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, if she can remember to put the eyes very near together, and the corners 
of the mouth very far apart, the likeness can hardly fail to be striking in 
St Ogg's.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, that is very wicked of you,' said Lucy, looking rather hurt. `I didn't 
think you would speak disrespectfully of Dr Kenn.' 


</p>
               <p>`I say anything disrespectful of Dr Kenn? Heaven forbid!But I am not bound to 
respect a libellous bust of him. I think Kenn one of the finest fellows in 
the world. I don't care much about the tall candle-sticks he has put on the 
communion table, and I shouldn't like to spoil my temper by getting up to 
early prayers every morning. But he's the only man I ever knew personally who 
seems to me to have anything of the real apostle in him — a man who has eight 
hundred a year and is contented with deal furniture and boiled beef because 
he gives away two thirds of his income. That was a very fine thing of him — 
taking into his house that poor lad Grattan, who shot his mother by accident. 
He sacrifices more time than a less busy man could spare, to save the poor 
fellow from getting into a morbid state of mind about it. He takes the lad 
out with him constantly, I see.' 


</p>
               <p>`That is beautiful,' said Maggie, who had let her work fall, and was 
listening with keen interest, `I never knew any one who did such things.' 


</p>
               <p>`And one admires that sort of action in Kenn all the more,' said Stephen, 
`because his manners in general are rather cold and severe. There's nothing 
sugary and maudlin about him.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I think he's a perfect character!' said Lucy, with pretty enthusiasm. 


</p>
               <p>`No, there I can't agree with you,' said Stephen shaking his head with 
sarcastic gravity. 


</p>
               <p>`Now, what fault can you point out in him?' 


</p>
               <p>`He's an Anglican.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, those are the right views, I think,' said Lucy, gravely. 


</p>
               <p>`That settles the question in the abstract,' said Stephen, `but not from a 
parliamentary point of view. He has set the dissenters and the church people 
by the ears, and a rising senator like myself, of whose services the country 
is very much in need, will find it inconvenient when he puts up for the 
honour of representing St Ogg's in parliament.' 


</p>
               <p>`Do you really think of that?' said Lucy, her eyes brightening with a proud 
pleasure that made her neglect the argumentative interests of Anglicanism. 


</p>
               <p>`Decidedly — whenever old Mr Leyburn's public spirit and gout induce him to 
give way. My father's heart is set on it; and gifts like mine, you know,' — 
here Stephen drew himself up and rubbed his large white hands over his hair 
with playful self-admiration — `gifts like mine involve great 
responsibilities. Don't you think so, Miss Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie, smiling, but not looking up; `so much fluency and self 
possession should not be wasted entirely on private occasions.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, I see how much penetration you have,' said Stephen. `You have discovered 
already that I am talkative and impudent. Now superficial people never 
discern that — owing to my manner, I suppose.' 


</p>
               <p>`She doesn't look at me when I talk of myself,' he thought while his 
listeners were laughing. `I must try other subjects.' 


</p>
               <p>Did Lucy intend to be present at the meeting of the Book Club next week? was 
the next question. Then followed the recommendation to choose Southey's Life 
of Cowper, unless she were inclined to be philosophical and startle the 
ladies of St Ogg's by voting for one of the Bridgewater Treatises. Of course 
Lucy wished to know what these alarmingly learned books were, and as it is 
always pleasant to improve the minds of ladies by talking to them at ease on 
subjects of which they know nothing, Stephen became quite brilliant in an 
account of Buckland's Treatise, which he had just been reading. He was 
rewarded by seeing Maggie let her work fall and gradually get so absorbed in 
his wonderful geological story that she sat looking at him, leaning forward 
with crossed arms and with an entire absence of self-consciousness, as if he 
had been the snuffiest of old professors and she a downy-lipped alumnus. He 
was so fascinated by this clear, large gaze that at last he forgot to look 
away from it occasionally towards Lucy: but she, sweet child, was only 
rejoicing that Stephen was proving to Maggie how clever he was, and that they 
would certainly be good friends after all. 


</p>
               <p>`I will bring you the book, shall I, Miss Tulliver?' said Stephen, when he 
found the stream of his recollections running rather shallow. `There are many 
illustrations in it that you will like to see.' 


</p>
               <p>`O thank you,' said Maggie, blushing with returning self-consciousness at 
this direct address, and taking up her work again. 


</p>
               <p>`No, no,' Lucy interposed. `I must forbid your plunging Maggie in books. I 
shall never get her away from them. And I want her to have delicious 
do-nothing days, filled with boating and chatting and riding and driving: 
that is the holiday she needs.' 


</p>
               <p>`Apropos!' said Stephen, looking at his watch, `shall we go out for a row on 
the river now? The tide will suit for us to go the Tofton way, and we can 
walk back.' 


</p>
               <p>That was a delightful proposition to Maggie, for it was years since she had 
been on the river. When she was gone to put on her bonnet, Lucy lingered to 
give an order to the servant and took the opportunity of telling Stephen that 
Maggie had no objection to seeing Philip, so that it was a pity she had sent 
that note the day before yesterday. But she would write another tomorrow and 
invite him. 


</p>
               <p>`I'll call and beat him up tomorrow,' said Stephen, `and bring him with me in 
the evening, shall I? My sisters will want to call on you, when I tell them 
your cousin is with you. I must have the field clear for them in the 
morning.' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, pray bring him,' said Lucy. `And you <hi>will</hi> like Maggie, 
shan't you?' she added, in a beseeching tone. `Isn't she a dear, 
noble-looking creature?' 


</p>
               <p>`Too tall,' said Stephen, smiling down upon her, `and a little too fiery. She 
is not my type of woman, you know.' 


</p>
               <p>Gentlemen, you are aware, are apt to impart these imprudent confidences to 
ladies concerning their unfavourable opinion of sister fair ones. That is why 
so many women have the advantage of knowing that they are secretly repulsive 
to men who have self-denyingly made ardent love to them. And hardly anything 
could be more distinctively characteristic of Lucy, than that she both 
implicitly believed what Stephen said and was determined that Maggie should 
not know it. But you, who have a higher logic than the verbal to guide you, 
have already foreseen, as the direct sequence to that unfavourable opinion of 
Stephen's, that he walked down to the boathouse calculating, by the aid of a 
vivid imagination, that Maggie must give him her hand at least twice in 
consequence of this pleasant boating plan, and that a gentleman who wishes 
ladies to look at him is advantageously situated when he is rowing them in a 
boat. What then? Had he fallen in love with this surprising daughter of Mrs 
Tulliver at first sight? Certainly not — such passions are never heard of in 
real life. Besides, he was in love already, and half engaged to the dearest 
little creature in the world, and he was not a man to make a fool of himself 
in any way. But when one is five and twenty, one has not chalk-stones at 
one's finger ends that the touch of a handsome girl should be entirely 
indifferent. It was perfectly natural and safe to admire beauty and enjoy 
looking at it — at least under such circumstances as the present. And there 
was really something very interesting about this girl, with her poverty and 
troubles: it was gratifying to see the friendship between the two cousins. 
Generally, Stephen admitted, he was not found of women who had any 
peculiarity of character — but here the peculiarity seemed really of a 
superior kind: and provided one is not obliged to marry such women — why, 
they certainly make a variety in social intercourse. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie did not fulfil Stephen's hope by looking at him during the first 
quarter of an hour: her eyes were too full of the old banks that she knew so 
well. She felt lonely, cut off from Philip — the only person who had ever 
seemed to love her devotedly, as she had always longed to be loved. But 
presently the rhythmic movement of the oars attracted her, and she thought 
she should like to learn how to row. This roused her from her reverie, and 
she asked if she might take an oar. It appeared that she required much 
teaching, and she became ambitious; the exercise brought the warm blood into 
her cheeks, and made her inclined to take her lesson merrily. 


</p>
               <p>`I shall not be satisfied until I can manage both oars, and row you and 
Lucy,' she said, looking very bright as she stepped out of the boat. Maggie, 
we know, was apt to forget the thing she was doing, and she had chosen an 
inopportune moment for her remark: her foot slipped, but happily Mr Stephen 
Guest held her hand and kept her up with a firm grasp. 


</p>
               <p>`You have not hurt yourself at all, I hope?' he said, bending to look in her 
face with anxiety. It was very charming to be taken care of in that kind 
graceful manner by some one taller and stronger than oneself. Maggie had 
never felt just in the same way before. 


</p>
               <p>When they reached home again, they found uncle and aunt Pullet seated with 
Mrs Tulliver in the drawing-room and Stephen hurried away, asking leave to 
come again in the evening. 


</p>
               <p>`And pray bring with you the volume of Purcell that you took away,' said 
Lucy. `I want Maggie to hear your best songs.' 


</p>
               <p>Aunt Pullet, under the certainty that Maggie would be invited to go out with 
Lucy, probably to Park House, was much shocked at the shabbiness of her 
clothes, which, when witnessed by the higher society of St Ogg's, would be a 
discredit to the family that demanded a strong and prompt remedy; and the 
consultation as to what would be most suitable to this end from among the 
superfluities of Mrs Pullet's wardrobe, was one that Lucy as well as Mrs 
Tulliver entered into with some zeal. Maggie must really have an evening 
dress as soon as possible, and she was about the same height as aunt Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>`But she's so much broader across the shoulders than I am — it's very 
ill-convenient,' said Mrs Pullet, `else she might wear that beautiful black 
brocade o' mine without any alteration. And her arms are beyond everything,' 
added Mrs Pullet, sorrowfully, as she lifted Maggie's large round arm. `She'd 
never get my sleeves on.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, never mind that, aunt, pray send us the dress,' said Lucy. `I don't mean 
Maggie to have long sleeves, and I have abundance of black lace for trimming. 
Her arms will look beautiful.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie's arms <hi>are</hi> a pretty shape,' said Mrs Tulliver. `They're like 
mine used to be; only mine was never brown: I wish she'd had <hi>our</hi>
family skin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nonsense, aunty!' said Lucy, patting her aunt Tulliver's shoulder, `you 
don't understand those things. A painter would think Maggie's complexion 
beautiful.' 


</p>
               <p>`May be, my dear,' said Mrs Tulliver, submissively. `You know better than I 
do. Only when I was young a brown skin wasn't thought well on among 
respectable folks.' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said uncle Pullet, who took intense interest in the ladies' 
conversation, as he sucked his lozenges. `Though there was a song about the 
”Nutbrown Maid” too — I think she was crazy like — crazy Kate — but 
I can't justly remember.' 


</p>
               <p>`O dear, dear!' said Maggie, laughing but impatient, `I think that will be 
the end of <hi>my</hi> brown skin if it is always to be talked about so 
much.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.3" type="chapter">
               <head>Confidential Moments</head>
               <p>WHEN Maggie went up to her bedroom that night it appeared that she was not 
all inclined to undress. She set down her candle on the first table that 
presented itself, and began to walk up and down her room, which was a large 
one, with a firm, regular and rather rapid step, which showed that the 
exercise was the instinctive vent of strong excitement. Her eyes and cheeks 
had an almost feverish brilliancy; her head was thrown backward and her hands 
were clasped with the palms outward and with that tension of the arms which 
is apt to accompany mental absorption. 


</p>
               <p>Had anything remarkable happened? 


</p>
               <p>Nothing that you are not likely to consider in the highest degree 
unimportant. She had been hearing some fine music sung by a fine bass voice — 
but then it was sung in a provincial amateur fashion, such as would have left 
your critical ear much to desire. And she was conscious of having been looked 
at a great deal in rather a furtive manner from beneath a pair of well-marked 
horizontal eyebrows, with a glance that seemed somehow to have caught the 
vibratory influence of the voice. Such things could have had no perceptible 
effect on a thoroughly well-educated young lady with a perfectly balanced 
mind, who had had all the advantages of fortune, training and refined 
society. But if Maggie had been that young lady, you would probably have 
known nothing about her; her life would have had so few vicissitudes that it 
could hardly have been written; for the happiest women, like the happiest 
nations, have no history. 


</p>
               <p>In poor Maggie's highly strung, hungry nature — just come away from a third 
rate schoolroom, with all its jarring sounds and petty round of tasks — these 
apparently trivial causes had the effect of rousing and exalting her 
imagination in a way that was mysterious to herself. It was not that she 
thought distinctly of Mr Stephen Guest or dwelt on the indications that he 
looked at her with admiration; it was rather that she felt the half-remote 
presence of a world of love and beauty and delight, made up of vague, mingled 
images from all the poetry and romance she had ever read, or had ever woven 
in her dreamy reveries. Her mind glanced back once or twice to the time when 
she had courted privation, when she had thought all longing, all impatience 
was subdued, but that condition seemed irrecoverably gone, and she recoiled 
from the remembrance of it. No prayer, no striving now would bring back that 
negative peace: the battle of her life, it seemed, was not to be decided in 
that short and easy way — by perfect renunciation at the very threshold of 
her youth. The music was vibrating in her still — Purcell's music with its 
wild passion and fancy — and she could not stay in the recollection of that 
bare lonely past. She was in her brighter aërial world again when a 
little tap came at the door: of course it was her cousin, who entered in 
ample white dressing-gown. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Maggie, you naughty child, haven't you begun to undress?' said Lucy, in 
astonishment. `I promised not to come and talk to you, because I thought you 
must be tired. But here you are, looking as if you were ready to dress for a 
ball. Come, come, get on your dressing-gown and unplait your hair.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, <hi>you</hi> are not very forward,' retorted Maggie, hastily reaching 
her own pink cotton gown, and looking at Lucy's light brown hair brushed back 
in curly disorder. 


</p>
               <p>`O I have not much to do. I shall sit down and talk to you, till I see you 
are really on the way to bed.' 


</p>
               <p>While Maggie stood and unplaited her long black hair over her pink drapery, 
Lucy sat down near the toilette table, watching her with affectionate eyes, 
and head a little aside, like a pretty spaniel. If it appears to you at all 
incredible that young ladies should be led on to talk confidentially in a 
situation of this kind, I will beg you to remember that human life furnishes 
many exceptional cases. 


</p>
               <p>`You really <hi>have</hi> enjoyed the music tonight, haven't you, Maggie?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes, that is what prevents me from feeling sleepy. I think I should have 
no other mortal wants, if I could always have plenty of music. It seems to 
infuse strength into my limbs and ideas into my brain. Life seems to go on 
without effort, when I am filled with music. At other times one is conscious 
of carrying a weight.' 


</p>
               <p>`And Stephen has a splendid voice, hasn't he?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, perhaps we are neither of us judges of that,' said Maggie, laughing, 
as she seated herself and tossed her long hair back. `You are not impartial, 
and <hi>I</hi> think any barrel organ splendid.' 


</p>
               <p>`But tell me what you think of him, now. Tell me exactly — good and bad too.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I think you should humiliate him a little. A lover should not be so much 
at ease and so self-confident. He ought to tremble more.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nonsense, Maggie! As if any one could tremble at me!You think he is 
conceited — I see that. But you don't dislike him, do you?' 


</p>
               <p>`Dislike him! No. Am I in the habit of seeing such charming people, that I 
should be very difficult to please? Besides how could I dislike any one that 
promised to make you happy, you dear thing!' Maggie pinched Lucy's dimpled 
chin. 


</p>
               <p>`We shall have more music tomorrow evening,' said Lucy, looking happy 
already, `for Stephen will bring Philip Wakem with him.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Lucy, I can't see him,' said Maggie, turning pale. `At least, I could not 
see him without Tom's leave.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is Tom such a tyrant as that?' said Lucy, surprised. `I'll take the 
responsibility then — tell him it was my fault.' 


</p>
               <p>`But, dear,' said Maggie, faltering, `I promised Tom very solemnly — before 
my father's death — I promised him I would not speak to Philip without his 
knowledge and consent. And I have a great dread of opening the subject with 
Tom — of getting into a quarrel with him again.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I never heard of anything so strange and unreasonable. What harm can 
poor Philip have done? May I speak to Tom about it?' 


</p>
               <p>`O no, pray don't, dear,' said Maggie. `I'll go to him myself tomorrow, and 
tell him that you wish Philip to come. I've thought before of asking him to 
absolve me from my promise, but I've not had the courage to determine on it.' 


</p>
               <p>They were both silent for some moments, and then Lucy said, 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, you have secrets from me, and I have none from you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie looked meditatively away from Lucy. Then she turned to her and said, 
`I <hi>should</hi> like to tell you about Philip. But, Lucy, you must not 
betray that you know it to any one — least of all to Philip himself, or to Mr 
Stephen Guest.' 


</p>
               <p>The narrative lasted long, for Maggie had never before known the relief of 
such an outpouring: she had never before told Lucy anything of her inmost 
life; and the sweet face bent towards her with sympathetic interest, and the 
little hand pressing hers, encouraged her to speak on. On two points only she 
was not expansive. She did not betray fully what still rankled in her mind as 
Tom's great offence — the insults he had heaped on Philip. Angry as the 
remembrance still made her, she could not bear that any one else should know 
it all — both for Tom's sake and Philip's. And she could not bear to tell 
Lucy of the last scene between her father and Wakem — though it was this 
scene which she had ever since felt to be a new barrier between herself and 
Philip. She only told Lucy that she saw now, Tom was on the whole right in 
regarding any prospect of love and marriage between her and Philip as put out 
of the question by the relation of the two families. Of course Philip's 
father would never consent. 


</p>
               <p>`There, Lucy, you have had my story,' said Maggie, smiling with the tears in 
her eyes. `You see I am like Sir Andrew Ague-cheek — <hi>I</hi> was adored 
once.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, now I see how it is you know Shakespeare and everything, and have 
learned so much since you felt school — which always seemed to me witchcraft 
before — part of your general uncanniness,' said Lucy. 


</p>
               <p>She mused a little with her eyes downward and then added, looking at Maggie, 
`It is very beautiful that you should love Philip: I never thought such a 
happiness would befall him. And in my opinion, you ought not to give him up. 
There are obstacles now, but they may be done away with in time.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie shook her head. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes,' persisted Lucy. `I can't help being hopeful about it. There is 
something romantic in it — out of the common way — just what everything that 
happens to you ought to be. And Philip will adore you like a husband in a 
fairy tale. O I shall puzzle my small brain to contrive some plot that will 
bring everybody into the right mind — so that you may marry Philip, when I 
marry — somebody else. Wouldn't that be a pretty ending to all my poor, poor 
Maggie's troubles?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie tried to smile, but shivered, as if she felt a sudden chill. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, dear, you are cold,' said Lucy. `You must go to bed; and so must I. I 
dare not think what time it is.' 


</p>
               <p>They kissed each other and Lucy went away — possessed of a confidence which 
had a strong influence over her subsequent impressions. Maggie had been 
thoroughly sincere: her nature had never found it easy to be otherwise. But 
confidences are sometimes blinding even when they are sincere. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.4" type="chapter">
               <head>Brother and Sister</head>
               <p>MAGGIE was obliged to go to Tom's lodgings in the middle of the day, when he 
would be coming in to dinner, else she would not have found him at home. He 
was not lodging with entire strangers. Our friend Bob Jakin had, with Mumps's 
tacit consent, taken not only a wife about eight months ago, but also one of 
those queer old houses pierced with surprising passages, by the water-side, 
where, as he observed, his wife and mother could keep themselves out of 
mischief by letting out two `pleasure-boats' in which he had invested some of 
his savings, and by taking a lodger for the parlour and spare bedroom. Under 
these circumstances, what could be better for the interests of all parties, 
sanitary considerations apart, than that the lodger should be Mr Tom? 


</p>
               <p>It was Bob's wife who opened the door to Maggie. She was a tiny woman, with 
the general physiognomy of a Dutch doll, looking, in comparison with Bob's 
mother who filled up the passage in the rear, very much like one of those 
human figures which the artist finds conveniently standing near a colossal 
statue to show the proportions. The tiny woman curtsied and looked up at 
Maggie with some awe as soon as she had opened the door; but the words, `Is 
my brother at home?' which Maggie uttered smilingly, made her turn round with 
sudden excitement and say, 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, mother, mother — tell Bob! — it's Miss Maggie! Come in, Miss, for 
goodness do,' she went on, opening a side door, and endeavouring to flatten 
her person against the wall to make the utmost space for the visitor. 


</p>
               <p>Sad recollections crowded on Maggie as she entered the small parlour, which 
was now all that poor Tom had to call by the name of `home' — that name which 
had once, so many years ago, meant for both of them the same sum of dear 
familiar objects. But everything was not strange to her in this new room: the 
first thing her eyes dwelt on was the large old Bible, and the sight was not 
likely to disperse the old memories. She stood without speaking. 


</p>
               <p>`If you please to take the privilege o' sitting down, Miss,' said Mrs Jakin, 
rubbing her apron over a perfectly clean chair, and then lifting up the 
corner of that garment and holding it to her face with an air of 
embarrassment, as she looked wonderingly at Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`Bob is at home, then?' said Maggie, recovering herself, and smiling at the 
bashful Dutch doll. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Miss; but I think he must be washing and dressing himself — I'll go and 
see,' said Mrs Jakin, disappearing. 


</p>
               <p>But she presently came back walking with new courage a little way behind her 
husband, who showed the brilliancy of his blue eyes and regular white teeth 
in the doorway, bowing respectfully. 


</p>
               <p>`How do you do, Bob?' said Maggie, coming forward and putting out her hand to 
him. `I always meant to pay your wife a visit, and I shall come another day 
on purpose for that, if she will let me. But I was obliged to come today, to 
speak to my brother.' 


</p>
               <p>`He'll be in before long, Miss. He's doin' finely, Mr Tom is: he'll be one o' 
the fust men hereabouts — you'll see that.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Bob, I'm sure he'll be indebted to you, whatever he becomes: he said 
so himself only the other night, when he was talking of you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, Miss, that's his way o' takin' it. But I think the more on't when he 
says a thing, because his tongue doesn't over- shoot him as mine does. Lors! 
I'm no better nor a tilted bottle I arn't — I can't stop mysen when once I 
begin. But you look rarely, Miss — it does me good to see you. What do you 
say now, Prissy?' — here Bob turned to his wife. `Isn't it all come true as I 
said? Though there isn't many sorts o'goods as I can't over-praise when I set 
my tongue to' t.' 


</p>
               <p>Mrs Bob's small nose seemed to be following the example of her eyes in 
turning up reverentially towards Maggie, but she was able now to smile and 
curtsy, and say, `I'd looked forrard like aenything to seein' you, Miss, for 
my husband's tongue's been runnin' on you like as if he was light-headed, 
iver since first he come a-courtin' on me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well,' said Bob, looking rather silly. `Go an' see after the taters, 
else Mr Tom 'ull have to wait for 'em.' 


</p>
               <p>`I hope Mumps is friendly with Mrs Jakin, Bob,' said Maggie, smiling. `I 
remember you used to say, he wouldn't like your marrying.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, Miss,' said Bob, grinning, `he made up his mind to' t when he see'd what 
a little un she was. He pretends not to see her mostly, or else to think as 
she isn't full-growed. But about Mr Tom, Miss,' said Bob, speaking lower and 
looking serious. `He's as close as a iron biler, he is; but I'm a 'cutish 
chap, an' when I've left off carrying my pack an' am at a loose end — I've 
got more brains nor I know what to do wi', an' I'm forced to busy myself wi' 
other folks's insides. An' it worrets me as Mr Tom 'ull sit by himself so 
glumpish, a-knittin' his brow an' a-lookin' at the fire of a night. He should 
be a bit livelier now — a fine young fellow like him. My wife says, when she 
goes in sometimes an' he takes no notice of her, he sits lookin' into the 
fire and frownin' as if he was watchin' folks at work in it.' 


</p>
               <p>`He thinks so much about business,' said Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>`Ay,' said Bob, speaking lower, `but do you think it's nothin' else, Miss? 
He's close, Mr Tom is, but I'm a 'cute chap, I am, an' I thought tow'rt last 
Christmas, as I'd found out a soft place in him. It was about a little black 
spaniel — a rare bit o' breed — as he made a fuss to get. But since then 
summat's come over him as he's set his teeth again' things more nor iver, for 
all he's had such good luck. An' I wanted to tell <hi>you</hi>, Miss, 'cause 
I thought you might work it out of him a bit, now you're come. He's a deal 
too lonely — an' doesn't go into company enough.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm afraid I have very little power over him, Bob,' said Maggie, a good deal 
moved by Bob's suggestion. It was a totally new idea to her mind, that Tom 
could have his love troubles. Poor fellow! — and in love with Lucy too! But 
it was perhaps a mere fancy of Bob's too officious brain. The present of the 
dog meant nothing more than cousinship and gratitude. But Bob and already 
said, `Here's Mr Tom,' and the outer door was opening. 


</p>
               <p>`There's no time to spare, Tom,' said Maggie, as soon as Bob had left the 
room. `I must tell you at once what I came about, else I shall be hindering 
you from taking your dinner.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom stood with his back against the chimney piece and Maggie was seated 
opposite the light. He noticed that she was tremulous, and he had a 
presentiment of the subject she was going to speak about. The presentiment 
made his voice colder and harder as he said, `What is it?' 


</p>
               <p>This tone roused a spirit of resistance in Maggie and she put her request in 
quite a different form from the one she had predetermined on. She rose from 
her seat and looking straight at Tom, said, 


</p>
               <p>`I want you to absolve me from my promise about Philip Wakem. Or rather, I 
promised you not to see him without telling you. I am come to tell you that I 
wish to see him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well,' said Tom, still more coldly. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie had hardly finished speaking in that chill, defiant manner, before 
she repented and felt the dread of alienation from her brother. 


</p>
               <p>`Not for myself, dear Tom. Don't be angry. I shouldn't have asked it, only 
that Philip, you know, is a friend of Lucy's, and she wishes him to come — 
has invited him to come this evening, and I told her I couldn't see him 
without telling you. I shall only see him in the presence of other people. 
There will never be anything secret between us again.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom looked away from Maggie, knitting his brow more strongly for a little 
while. Then he turned to her and said slowly and emphatically— 


</p>
               <p>`You know what is my feeling on that subject, Maggie. There is no need for my 
repeating anything I said a year ago. While my father was living, I felt 
bound to use the utmost power over you, to prevent you from disgracing him as 
well as yourself and all of us. But now I must leave you to your own choice. 
You wish to be independent — you told me so after my father's death. My 
opinion is not changed. If you think of Philip Wakem as a lover again, you 
must give up me.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't wish it, dear Tom — at least as things are — I see that it would 
lead to misery. But I shall soon go away to another situation, and I should 
like to be friends with him again while I am here. Lucy wishes it.' 


</p>
               <p>The severity of Tom's face relaxed a little. 


</p>
               <p>`I shouldn't mind your seeing him occasionally at my uncle's — I don't want 
you to make a fuss on the subject. But I have no confidence in you, Maggie. 
You would be led away to do anything.' 


</p>
               <p>That was a cruel word. Maggie's lip began to tremble. 


</p>
               <p>`Why will you say that, Tom? It is very hard of you. Have I not done and 
borne everthing as well as I could? And I have kept my word to you — when — 
when... My life has not been a happy one any more than yours.' 


</p>
               <p>She was obliged to be childish — the tears would come. When Maggie was not 
angry, she was as dependent on kind or cold words as a daisy on the sunshine 
or the cloud: the need of being loved would always subdue her as in old days 
it subdued her in the worm-eaten attic. The brother's goodness came uppermost 
at this appeal, but it could only show itself in Tom's fashion. He put his 
hand gently on her arm and said in the tone of a kind pedagogue, 


</p>
               <p>`Now listen to me, Maggie: I'll tell you what I mean. You're always in 
extremes — you have no judgment and self-command; and yet you think you know 
best, and will not submit to be guided. You know I didn't wish you to take a 
situation. My aunt Pullet was willing to give you a good home, and you might 
have lived respectably amongst your relations until I could have provided a 
home for you with my mother. And that is what I should like to do. I wished 
my sister to be a lady, and I would always have taken care of you as my 
father desired, until you were well married. But your ideas and mine never 
accord, and you will not give way. Yet you might have sense enough to see 
that a brother, who goes out into the world and mixes with men, necessarily 
knows better what is right and respectable for his sister than she can know 
herself. You think I am not kind — but my kindness can only be directed by 
what I believe to be good for you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes — I know — dear Tom,' said Maggie, still half-sobbing, but trying to 
control her tears. `I know you would do a great deal for me — I know how you 
work and don't spare yourself. I am grateful to you. But, indeed, you can't 
quite judge for me — our natures our very different. You don't know how 
differently things affect me from what they do you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I <hi>do</hi> know — I know it too well. I know how differently you 
must feel about all that affects our family and your own dignity as a young 
woman, before you could think of receiving secret addresses from Philip 
Wakem. If it was not disgusting to me in every other way, I should object to 
my sister's name being associated for a moment with that of a young man whose 
father must hate the very thought of us all, and would spurn you. With any 
one but you, I should think it quite certain that what you witnessed just 
before my father's death, would secure you from ever thinking again of Philip 
Wakem as a lover. But I don't feel certain of it with you — I never feel 
certain about anything with <hi>you</hi>. At one time you take pleasure in a 
sort of perverse self-denial, and at another, you have not resolution to 
resist a thing that you know to be wrong.' 


</p>
               <p>There was a terrible cutting truth in Tom's words — that hard rind of truth 
which is discerned by unimaginative, unsympathetic minds. Maggie always 
writhed under this judgment of Tom's: she rebelled and was humiliated in the 
same moment: it seemed as if he held a glass before her to show her her own 
folly and weakness — as if he were a prophetic voice predicting her future 
fallings — and yet, all the while, she judged him in return: she said 
inwardly, that he was narrow and unjust, that he was below feeling those 
mental needs which were often the source of the wrong-doing or absurdity that 
made her life a planless riddle to him. 


</p>
               <p>She did not answer directly — her heart was too full, and she sat down, 
leaning her arm on the table. It was no use trying to make Tom feel that she 
was near to him. He always repelled her. Her feeling under his words was 
complicated by the allusion to the last scene between her father and Wakem, 
and at length that painful, solemn memory surmounted the immediate grievance. 
No! She did not think of such things with frivolous indifference, and Tom 
must not accuse her of that. She looked up at him with a grave, earnest gaze, 
and said, 


</p>
               <p>`I can't make you think better of me, Tom, by anything I can say. But I am 
not so shut out from all your feelings as you believe me to be. I see as well 
as you do, that from our position with regard to Philip's father — not on 
other grounds — it would be unreasonable — it would be wrong for us to 
entertain the idea of marriage, and I have given up thinking of him as a 
lover... I am telling you the truth and you have no right to disbelieve me: I 
have kept my word to you, and you have never detected me in a falsehood. I 
should not only not encourage, I should carefully avoid any intercourse with 
Philip on any other footing than that of quiet friendship — of a distant 
kind. You may think that I am unable to keep my resolutions — but at least 
you ought not to treat me with that hard contempt on the ground of faults 
that I have not committed yet.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Maggie,' said Tom, softening under this appeal, `I don't want to 
overstrain matters. I think, all things considered, it will be best for you 
to see Philip Wakem, if Lucy wishes him to come to the house. I believe what 
you say — at least you believe it yourself, I know: I can only warn you. I 
wish to be as good a brother to you as you will let me.' 


</p>
               <p>There was a little tremor in Tom's voice as he uttered the last words, and 
Maggie's ready affection came back with as sudden a glow as when they were 
children and bit their cake together as a sacrament of conciliation. She rose 
and laid her hand on Tom's shoulder. 


</p>
               <p>`Dear Tom — I know you mean to be good. I know you have had a great deal to 
bear, and have done a great deal. I should like to be a comfort to you — not 
to vex you. You don't think I'm altogether naughty, now, do you?' 


</p>
               <p>Tom smiled at the eager face: his smiles were very pleasant to see when they 
did come, for the grey eyes could be tender underneath the frown. 


</p>
               <p>`No, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`I may turn out better than you expect.' 


</p>
               <p>`I hope you will.' 


</p>
               <p>`And may I come some day and make tea for you, and see this extremely small 
wife of Bob's again?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, but trot away now, for I've no more time to spare,' said Tom, looking 
at his watch. 


</p>
               <p>`Not to give me a kiss?' 


</p>
               <p>Tom bent to kiss her cheek, and then said, 


</p>
               <p>`There! Be a good girl. I've got a great deal to think of to-day. I'm going 
to have a long consultation with my uncle Deane this afternoon.' 


</p>
               <p>`You'll come to aunt Glegg's tomorrow? We're going all to dine early, that we 
may go there to tea. You <hi>must</hi> come: Lucy told me to say so.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Pooh! I've plenty else to do,' said Tom, pulling his bell violently and 
bringing down the small bell-rope. 


</p>
               <p>`I'm frightened — I shall run away,' said Maggie, making a laughing retreat; 
while Tom, with masculine philosophy, flung the bell-rope to the father end 
of the room — not very far either: a touch of human experience which I 
flatter myself will come home to the bosoms of not a few substantial or 
distinguished men who were once at an early stage of their rise in the world 
and were cherishing very large hopes in very small lodgings. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.5" type="chapter">
               <head>Showing that Tom Had Opened the Oyster</head>
               <p>`AND now we've settled this Newcastle business, Tom,' said Mr Deane, that 
same afternoon, as they were seated in the private room at the Bank together, 
`there's another matter I want to talk to you about. Since you're likely to 
have rather a smoky, unpleasant time of it in Newcastle for the next few 
weeks, you'll want a good prospect of some sort to keep up your spirits.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom waited less nervously than he had done on a former occasion in this 
apartment, while his uncle took out his snuff box and gratified each nostril 
with deliberate impartiality. 


</p>
               <p>`You see, Tom,' said Mr Deane, at last, throwing himself backward, `the world 
goes on at a smarter pace now than it did when I was a young fellow. Why, 
sir, forty years ago, when I was much such a strapping youngster as you, a 
man expected to pull between the shafts the best part of his life, before he 
got the whip in his hand. The looms went slowish, and fashions didn't alter 
quite so fast — I'd a best suit that lasted me six years. Everything was on a 
lower scale, sir — in point of expenditure, I mean. It's this steam, you see, 
that has made the difference — it drives on every wheel double pace and the 
wheel of Fortune along with 'em, as our Mr Stephen Guest said at the 
Anniversary dinner (he hits these things off wonderfully, considering he's 
seen nothing of business). I don't find fault with the change, as some people 
do. Trade, sir, opens a man's eyes; and if the population is to get thicker 
upon the ground, as it's doing, the world must use its wits at inventions of 
one sort or other. I know I've done my share as an ordinary man of business. 
Somebody has said it's a fine thing to make two ears of corn grow where only 
one grew before: — but, sir, it's a fine thing too, to further the exchange 
of commodities, and bring the grains of corn to the mouths that are hungry. 
And that's our line of business — and I consider it as honourable a position 
as a man can hold, to be connected with it.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom knew that the affair his uncle had to speak of was not urgent; Mr Deane 
was too shrewd and practical a man to allow either his reminiscences or his 
snuff to impede the progress of trade. Indeed for the last month or two there 
had been hints thrown out to Tom which enabled him to guess that he was going 
to hear some proposition for his own benefit. With the beginning of the last 
speech he had stretched out his legs, thrust his hands in his pockets and 
prepared himself for some introductory diffuseness, tending to show that Mr 
Deane had succeeded by his own merit, and that what he had to say to young 
men in general was, that if they didn't succeed too, it was because of their 
own demerit. He was rather surprised, then, when his uncle put a direct 
question to him. 


</p>
               <p>`Let me see — it's going on for seven years now since you applied to me for a 
situation — eh, Tom?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, sir; I'm three and twenty now,' said Tom. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah — it's as well not to say that, though; for you'd pass for a good deal 
older, and age tells well in business. I remember your coming very well: I 
remember I saw there was some pluck in you, and that was what made me give 
you encouragement. And I'm happy to say, I was right — I'm not often 
deceived. I was naturally a little shy at pushing my nephew, but I'm happy to 
say you've done me credit, sir — and if I'd had a son o' my own, I shouldn't 
have been sorry to see him like you.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane tapped his box and opened it again, repeating in a tone of some 
feeling — `No, I shouldn't have been sorry to see him like you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm very glad I've given you satisfaction, sir; I've done my best,' said 
Tom, in his proud, independent way. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Tom, you've given me satisfaction. I don't speak of your conduct as a 
son — though that weighs with me in my opinion of you. But what I have to do 
with, as a partner in our firm, is the qualities you've shown as a man o' 
business. Ours is a fine business — a splendid concern, sir — and there's no 
reason why it shouldn't go on growing: there's a growing capital and growing 
outlets for it, but there's another thing that's wanted for the prosperity of 
every concern, large or small, and that's men to conduct it — men of the 
right habits, none o' your flashy fellows, but such as are to be depended on. 
Now this is what Mr Guest and I see clear enough. Three years ago, we took 
Gell into the concern — we gave him a share in the oil-mill. And why? Why, 
because Gell was a fellow whose services were worth a premium. So it will 
always be, sir. So it was with me. And though Gell is pretty near ten years 
older than you, there are other points in your favour.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom was getting a little nervous as Mr Deane went on speaking: he was 
conscious of something he had in his mind to say, which might not be 
agreeable to his uncle, simply because it was a new suggestion rather than an 
acceptance of the proposition he foresaw. 


</p>
               <p>`It stands to reason,' Mr Deane went on, when he had finished his new pinch, 
`that your being my nephew weighs in your favour, but I don't deny that if 
you'd been no relation of mine at all, your conduct in that affair of 
Pelley's bank would have led Mr Guest and myself to make some acknowledgment 
of the service you've been to us — and, backed by your general conduct and 
business ability it has made us determine on giving you a share in the 
business — a share which we shall be glad to increase as the years go on. We 
think that'll be better on all grounds than raising your salary. It'll give 
you more importance, and prepare you better for taking some of the anxiety 
off my shoulders by and by. I'm equal to a good deal o' work at present, 
thank God; but I'm getting older — there's no denying that. I told Mr Guest I 
would open the subject to you, and when you come back from this northern 
business, we can go into particulars. This is a great stride for a young 
fellow of three and twenty, but I'm bound to say, you've deserved it.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm very grateful to Mr Guest and you, sir — of course I feel the most 
indebted to <hi>you</hi>, who first took me into the business, and have taken 
a good deal of pains with me since.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom spoke with a slight tremor, and paused after he had said this. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, yes,' said Mr Deane. `I don't spare pains when I see they'll be of any 
use. I gave myself some trouble with Gell — else he wouldn't have been what 
he is.' 


</p>
               <p>`But there's one thing I should like to mention to you, uncle. I've never 
spoken to you of it before. If you remember, at the time my father's property 
was sold, there was some thought of your firm buying the Mill: I know you 
thought it would be a very good investment, especially if steam were 
applied.' 


</p>
               <p>`To be sure, to be sure. But Wakem outbid us — he'd made up his mind to that. 
He's rather fond of carrying everything over other people's heads.' 


</p>
               <p>`Perhaps it's of no use my mentioning it at present,' Tom went on, `but I 
wish you to know what I have in my mind about the Mill. I've a strong feeling 
about it. It was my father's dying wish that I should try and get it back 
again whenever I could — it was in his family for five generations. I 
promised my father. And besides that, I'm attached to the place. I shall 
never like any other so well. And if it should ever suit your views to buy it 
for the firm I should have a better chance of fulfilling my father's wish. I 
shouldn't have liked to mention the thing to you, only you've been kind 
enough to say my services have been of some value. And I'd give up a much 
greater chance in life for the sake of having the Mill again — I mean, having 
it in my own hands, and gradually working off the price.' 


</p>
               <p>Mr Deane had listened attentively, and now looked thoughtful. 


</p>
               <p>`I see, I see,' he said, after a while, `the thing would be possible, if 
there were any chance of Wakem's parting with the property. But that I 
<hi>don't</hi> see. He's put that young Jet-some in the place, and he had his 
reasons when he bought it, I'll be bound.' 


</p>
               <p>`He's a loose fish — that young Jetsome,' said Tom. `He's taking to drinking, 
and they say he's letting the business go down. Luke told me about it — our 
old miller. He says, he shan't stay unless there's an alteration. I was 
thinking, if things went on in that way, Wakem might be more willing to part 
with the Mill. Luke says he's getting very sour about the way things are 
going on.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I'll turn it over, Tom. I must inquire into the matter, and go into it 
with Mr Guest. But, you see, it's rather striking out a new branch, and 
putting you to that, instead of keeping you where you are — which was what 
we'd wanted.' 


</p>
               <p>`I should be able to manage more than the mill when things were once set 
properly going, sir. I want to have plenty of work. There's nothing else I 
care about much.' 


</p>
               <p>There was something rather sad in that speech from a young man of three and 
twenty, even in uncle Deane's business-loving ears. 


</p>
               <p>`Pooh, pooh! you'll be having a wife to care about one of these days, if you 
get on at this pace in the world. But as to this Mill, we mustn't reckon our 
chickens too early. However, I promise you to bear it in mind, and when you 
come back, we'll talk of it again. I am going to dinner now. Come and have 
breakfast with us tomorrow morning and say good-by to your mother and sister 
before you start.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.6" type="chapter">
               <head>Illustrating the Laws of Attraction</head>
               <p>IT is evident to you now, that Maggie had arrived at a moment in her life 
which must be considered by all prudent persons as a great opportunity for a 
young woman. Launched into the higher society of St Ogg's, with a striking 
person which had the advantage of being quite unfamiliar to the majority of 
beholders, and with such moderate assistance of costume as you have seen 
foreshadowed in Lucy's anxious colloquy with aunt Pullet, Maggie was 
certainly at a new starting-point in life. At Lucy's first evening party, 
young Torry fatigued his facial muscles more than usual in order that `the 
dark-eyed girl there, in the corner,' might see him in all the additional 
style conferred by his eye-glass; and several young ladies went home 
intending to have short sleeves with black lace and to plait their hair in a 
broad coronet at the back of their head — `That cousin of Miss Deane's looked 
so very well.' In fact poor Maggie, with all her inward consciousness of a 
painful past and her presentiment of a troublesome future, was on the way to 
become an object of some envy — a topic of discussion in the 
newly-established billiard-room, and between fair friends who had no secrets 
from each other on the subject of trimmings. 


</p>
               <p>The Miss Guests, who associated chiefly on terms of condescension with the 
families of St Ogg's, and were the glass of fashion there, took some 
exception to Maggie's manners. She had a way of not assenting at once to the 
observations current in good society and of saying that she didn't know 
whether those observations were true or not which gave her an air of 
<hi>gaucherie</hi> and impeded the even flow of conversation; but it is a 
fact capable of an amiable interpretation that ladies are not the worse 
disposed towards a new acquaintance of their own sex because she has points 
of inferiority. And Maggie was so entirely without those pretty airs of 
coquetry which have the traditional reputation of driving gentlemen to 
despair, that she won some feminine pity for being so ineffective in spite of 
her beaty. She had not had many advantages, poor thing! and it must be 
admitted there was no pretension about her: her abruptness and unevenness of 
manner were plainly the result of her secluded and lowly circumstances. It 
was only a wonder that there was no tinge of vulgarity about her, considering 
what the rest of poor Lucy's relations were: an allusion which always made 
the Miss Guests shudder a little. It was not agreeable to think of any 
connection by marriage with such people as the Gleggs and the Pullets; but it 
was of no use to contradict Stephen, when once he had set his mind on 
anything, and certainly there was no possible objection to Lucy in herself — 
no one could help liking her. She would naturally desire that the Miss Guests 
should behave kindly to this cousin of whom she was so fond, and Stephen 
would make a great fuss if they were deficient in civility. Under these 
circumstances the invitations to Park House were not wanting, and elsewhere 
also, Miss Deane was too popular and too distinguished a member of society in 
St Ogg's for any attention towards her to be neglected. 


</p>
               <p>Thus Maggie was introduced for the first time to the young lady's life, and 
knew what it was to get up in the morning without any imperative reason for 
doing one thing more than another. This new sense of leisure and unchecked 
enjoyment amidst the soft-breathing airs and garden scents of advancing 
Spring, amidst the new abundance of music, and lingering strolls in the 
sunshine and delicious dreaminess of gliding on the river, could hardly be 
without some intoxicating effect on her after her years of privation; and 
even in the first week Maggie began to be less haunted by her sad memories 
and anticipations. Life was certainly very pleasant just now: it was becoming 
very pleasant to dress in the evening and to feel that she was one of the 
beautiful things of this spring time. And there were admiring eyes always 
awaiting her now; she was no longer an unheeded person, liable to be chid, 
from whom attention was continually claimed, and on whom no one felt bound to 
confer any. It was pleasant, too, when Stephen and Lucy were gone out riding, 
to sit down at the piano alone, and find that the old fitness between her 
fingers and the keys remained and revived, like a sympathetic kinship not to 
be worn out by separation — to get the tunes she had heard the evening before 
and repeat them again and again until she had found out a way of producing 
them so as to make them a more pregnant, passionate language to her. The mere 
concord of octaves was a delight to Maggie, and she would often take up a 
book of Studies rather than any melody, that she might taste more keenly by 
abstraction the more primitive sensation of intervals. Not that her enjoyment 
of music was of the kind that indicates a great specific talent: it was 
rather that her sensibility to the supreme excitement of music was only one 
form of that passionate sensibility which belonged to her whole nature and 
made her faults and virtues all merge in each other — made her affection 
sometimes an angry demand, but also prevented her vanity from taking the form 
of mere feminine coquetry and device, and gave it the poetry of ambition. But 
you have known Maggie a long while, and need to be told, not her 
characteristics, but her history, which is hardly to be predicted even from 
the completest knowledge of characteristics. For the tragedy of our lives is 
not created entirely from within. `Character' — says Novalis, in one of his 
questionable aphorisms — `character is destiny.' But not the whole of our 
destiny. Hamlet, Prince of Denmark, was speculative and irresolute, and we 
have a great tragedy in consequence. But if his father had lived to a good 
old age, and his uncle had died an early death, we can conceive Hamlet's 
having married Ophelia and got through life with a reputation of sanity 
notwithstanding many soliloquies, and some moody sarcasms towards the fair 
daughter of Polonius, to say nothing of the frankest incivility to his 
father-in-law. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's destiny, then, is at present hidden, and we must wait for it to 
reveal itself like the course of an unmapped river: we only know that the 
river is full and rapid, and that for all rivers there is the same final 
home. Under the charm of her new pleasures, Maggie herself was ceasing to 
think, with her eager prefiguring imagination, of her future lot, and her 
anxiety about her first interview with Philip was losing its predominance: 
perhaps, unconsciously to herself, she was not sorry that the interview had 
been deferred. 


</p>
               <p>For Philip had not come the evening he was expected, and Mr Stephen Guest 
brought word that he was gone to the coast — probably, he thought, on a 
sketching expedition; but it was not certain when he would return. It was 
just like Philip — to go off in that way without telling any one. It was not 
until the twelfth day that he returned, to find both Lucy's notes awaiting 
him: he had left before he knew of Maggie's arrival. 


</p>
               <p>Perhaps one had need to be nineteen again to be quite convinced of the 
feelings that were crowded for Maggie into those twelve days — of the length 
to which they were stretched for her by the novelty of her experience in them 
and the varying attitudes of her mind. The early days of an acquaintance 
almost always have this importance for us, and fill up a larger space in our 
memory than longer subsequent periods which have been less filled with 
discovery and new impressions. There were not many hours in those ten days in 
which Mr Stephen Guest was not seated by Lucy's side, or standing near her at 
the piano, or accompanying her on some out-door excursion: his attentions 
were clearly becoming more assiduous, and that was what every one had 
expected. Lucy was very happy — all the happier because Stephen's society 
seemed to have become much more interesting and amusing since Maggie had been 
there. Playful discussions — sometimes serious ones — where going forward, in 
which both Stephen and Maggie revealed themselves, to the admiration of the 
gentle unobtrusive Lucy; and it more than once crossed her mind what a 
charming quartet they should have through life when Maggie married Philip. Is 
it an inexplicable thing that a girl should enjoy her lover's society the 
more for the presence of a third person, and be without the slightest spasm 
of jealousy that the third person had the conversation habitually directed to 
her? Not when that girl is as tranquil-hearted as Lucy, thoroughly possessed 
with a belief that she knows the state of her companions' affections, and not 
prone to the feelings which shake such a belief in the absence of positive 
evidence against it. Besides, it was Lucy by whom Stephen sate, to whom he 
gave his arm, to whom he appealed as the person sure to agree with him; and 
every day there was the same tender politeness towards her, the same 
consciousness of her wants and care to supply them. Was there really the 
same? — it seemed to Lucy that there was more, and it was no wonder that the 
real significance of the change escaped her. It was a subtle act of 
conscience in Stephen, that even he himself was not aware of. His personal 
attentions to Maggie were comparatively slight, and there had even sprung up 
an apparent distance between them that prevented the renewal of that faint 
resemblance to gallantry into which he had fallen the first day, in the boat. 
If Stephen came in when Lucy was out of the room — if Lucy left them 
together, they never spoke to each other: Stephen, perhaps, seemed to be 
examining books or music, and Maggie bent her head assiduously over her work. 
Each was oppressively conscious of the other's presence, even to the 
finger-ends. Yet each looked and longed for the same thing to happen the next 
day. Neither of them had begun to reflect on the matter, or silently to ask, 
`To what does all this tend?' Maggie only felt that life was revealing 
something quite new to her, and she was absorbed in the direct, immediate 
experience without any energy left for taking account of it, and reasoning 
about it. Stephen wilfully abstained from self-questioning, and would not 
admit to himself that he felt an influence which was to have any determining 
effect on his conduct. And when Lucy came into the room again, they were once 
more unconstrained: Maggie could contradict Stephen and laugh at him, and he 
could recommend to her consideration the example of that most charming 
heroine, Miss Sophia Western, who had a great `respect for the understandings 
of men.' Maggie could look at Stephen — which for some reason or other, she 
always avoided when they were alone, and he could even ask her to play his 
accompaniment for him, since Lucy's fingers were so busy with that 
bazaar-work; and lecture her on hurrying the <hi>tempo</hi>, which was 
certainly Maggie's weak point. 


</p>
               <p>One day — it was the day of Philip's return — Lucy had formed a sudden 
engagement to spend the evening with Mrs Kenn, whose delicate state of 
health, threatening to become confirmed illness through an attack of 
bronchitis, obliged her to resign her functions at the coming bazaar into the 
hands of other ladies, of whom she wished Lucy to be one. The engagement had 
been formed in Stephen's presence, and he had heard Lucy promise to rise 
early and call at six o'clock for Miss Torry, who brought Mrs Kenn's request. 


</p>
               <p>`Here is another of the moral results of this idiotic bazaar,' Stephen burst 
forth, as soon as Miss Torry had left the room — `taking young ladies from 
the duties of the domestic hearth into scenes of dissipation among urn-rugs 
and embroidered reticules! I should like to know what is the proper function 
of women if it is not to make reasons for husbands to stay at home and still 
stronger reasons for bachelors to go out. If this goes on much longer the 
bounds of society will be dissolved.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, it will not go on much longer,' said Lucy, laughing, `for the bazaar 
is to take place on Monday week.' 


</p>
               <p>`Thank heaven!' said Stephen. `Kenn himself said the other day, that he 
didn't like this plan of making vanity do the work of charity; but just as 
the British public is not reasonable enough to bear direct taxation, so St 
Ogg's has not got force of motive enough to build and endow schools without 
calling in the force of folly.' 


</p>
               <p>`Did he say so?' said little Lucy, her hazel eyes opening wide with anxiety. 
`I never heard him say anything of that kind — I thought he approved of what 
we were doing.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure he appoves <hi>you</hi>,' said Stephen, smiling at her 
affectionately; `your conduct in going out to-night looks vicious, I own, but 
I know there is benevolence at the bottom of it.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, you think too well of me,' said Lucy, shaking her head, with a pretty 
blush. And there the subject ended. But it was tacitly understood that 
Stephen would not come in the evening, and on the strength of that tacit 
understanding he made his morning visit the longer, not saying good-by until 
after four. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was seated in the drawing-room alone, shortly after dinner, with Minny 
on her lap, having left her uncle to his wine and his nap, and her mother to 
the compromise between knitting and nodding which, when there was no company, 
she always carried on in the dining-room till tea-time. Maggie was stooping 
to caress the tiny silken pet, and comforting him for his mistress's absence, 
when the sound of a footstep on the gravel made her look up and she saw Mr 
Stephen Guest walking up the garden as if he had come straight from the 
river. It was very unusual to see him so soon after dinner! He often 
complained that their dinner-hour was late at Park House. Nevertheless, there 
he was, in his black dress: he had evidently been home, and must have come 
again by the river. Maggie felt her cheeks glowing and her heart beating: it 
was natural she should be so nervous, for she was not accustomed to receive 
visitors alone. He had seen her look up through the open window, and raised 
his hat as he walked towards it, to enter that way instead of by the door. He 
blushed too, and certainly looked as foolish as a young man of some wit and 
self-possession can be expected to look, as he walked in with a roll of music 
in his hand, and said with an air of hesitating improvisation, 


</p>
               <p>`You are surprised to see me again, Miss Tulliver — I ought to apologise for 
coming upon you by surprise, but I wanted to come into the town, and I got 
our man to row me, so I thought I would bring these things from the 
”Maid of Artois” for your cousin. I forgot them this morning. Will 
you give them to her?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie, who had risen confusedly with Minny in her arms, and now, 
not quite knowing what to do, sat down again. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen laid down his hat, with the music, which rolled on the floor, and sat 
down in the chair close by her. He had never done so before, and both he and 
Maggie were quite aware that it was an entirely new position. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, you pampered minion!' said Stephen, leaning to pull the long curly 
ears that drooped over Maggie's arm. It was not a suggestive remark, and as 
the speaker did not follow it up by further development, it naturally left 
the conversation at a stand-still. It seemed to Stephen like some action in a 
dream that he was obliged to do, and wonder at himself all the while — to go 
on stroking Minny's head. Yet it was very pleasant: he only wished he dared 
look at Maggie, and that she would look at him, — let him have one long look 
into those deep strange eyes of hers and then he would be satisfied and quite 
reasonable after that. He thought it was becoming a sort of monomania with 
him, to want that long look from Maggie, and he was racking his invention 
continually to find out some means by which he could have it without its 
appearing singular and entailing subsequent embarrassment. As for Maggie she 
had no distinct thought — only the sense of a presence like that of a 
closely-hovering broad-winged bird in the darkness, for she was unable to 
look up and saw nothing but Minny's back wavy coat. 


</p>
               <p>But this must end some time — perhaps it ended very soon, and only 
<hi>seemed</hi> long, as a minute's dream does. Stephen at last sat upright, 
sideways in his chair, leaning one hand and arm over the back and looking at 
Maggie. What should he say? 


</p>
               <p>`We shall have a splendid sunset, I think. Shan't you go out and see it?' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't know,' said Maggie. Then, courageously raising her eyes and looking 
out of the window, `If I'm not playing cribbage with my uncle.' 


</p>
               <p>A pause: during which Minny is stroked again, but has sufficient insight not 
to be grateful for it — to growl rather. 


</p>
               <p>`Do you like sitting alone?' 


</p>
               <p>A rather arch look came over Maggie's face, and just glancing at Stephen, she 
said, `Would it be quite civil to say ”yes”?' 


</p>
               <p>`It <hi>was</hi> rather a dangerous question for an intruder to ask,' said 
Stephen, delighted with that glance, and getting determined to stay for 
another. `But you will have more than half an hour to yourself after I am 
gone,' he added, taking out his watch. `I know Mr Deane never comes in till 
half-past seven.' 


</p>
               <p>Another pause: during which Maggie looked steadily out of the window, till by 
a great effort she moved her head to look down at Minny's back again, and 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`I wish Lucy had not been obliged to go out. We lose our music.' 


</p>
               <p>`We shall have a new voice tomorrow night,' said Stephen. `Will you tell your 
cousin that your friend Philip Wakem is come back? I saw him as I went home.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie gave a little start — it seemed hardly more than a vibration that 
passed from head to foot in an instant. But the new images summoned by 
Philip's name, dispersed half the oppressive spell she had been under. She 
rose from her chair with a sudden resolution, and laying Minny on his cushion 
went to reach Lucy's large work-basket from its corner. Stephen was vexed and 
disappointed: he thought, perhaps Maggie didn't like the name of Wakem to be 
mentioned to her in that abrupt way — for he now recalled what Lucy had told 
him of the family quarrel. It was of no use to stay any longer. Maggie was 
seating herself at the table with her work and looking chill and proud; and 
he — he looked like a simpleton for having come. A gratuitous, entirely 
superfluous visit of that sort was sure to make a man disagreeable and 
ridiculous. Of course it was palpable to Maggie's thinking that he had dined 
hastily in his own room for the sake of setting off again and finding her 
alone. 


</p>
               <p>A boyish state of mind of an accomplished young gentleman of five and twenty, 
not without legal knowledge! But a reference to history, perhaps, may make it 
not incredible. 


</p>
               <p>At this moment Maggie's ball of knitting-wool rolled along the ground and she 
started up to reach it. Stephen rose too, and, picking up the ball, met her 
with a vexed complaining look that gave his eyes quite a new expression to 
Maggie, whose own eyes met them as he presented the ball to her. 


</p>
               <p>`Good-by,' said Stephen, in a tone that had the same beseeching discontent as 
his eyes. He dared not put out his hand — he thrust both hands into his tail 
pockets as he spoke. Maggie thought she had perhaps been rude. 


</p>
               <p>`Won't you stay?' she said timidly, not looking away — for that would have 
seemed rude again. 


</p>
               <p>`No, thank you,' said Stephen, looking still into the half-unwilling, 
half-fascinated eyes, as a thirsty man looks towards the track of the distant 
brook. `The boat is waiting for me,... You'll tell your cousin.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes.' 


</p>
               <p>`That I brought the music, I mean.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes.' 


</p>
               <p>`And that Philip is come back.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes.' (Maggie did not notice Philip's name this time.) 


</p>
               <p>`Won't you come out a little way into the garden?' said Stephen, in a still 
gentler tone, but the next moment he was vexed that she did not say `No,' for 
she moved away now towards the open window, and he was obliged to take his 
hat and walk by her side. But he thought of something to make him amends. 


</p>
               <p>`Do take my arm,' he said, in a low tone, as if it were a secret. 


</p>
               <p>There is something strangely winning to most women in that offer of the firm 
arm: the help is not wanted physically at that moment, but the sense of help 
— the presence of strength that is outside them and yet theirs, meets a 
continual want of the imagination. Either on that ground or some other, 
Maggie took the arm. And they walked together round the grassplot and under 
the drooping green of the laburnums, in the same dim dreamy state as they had 
been in a quarter of an hour before; only that Stephen had had the look he 
longed for, without yet perceiving in himself the symptoms of returning 
reasonableness, and Maggie had darting thoughts across the dimness: — how 
came she to be there? — why had she come out? Not a word was spoken. If it 
had been, each would have been less intensely conscious of the other. 


</p>
               <p>`Take care of this step,' said Stephen, at last. 


</p>
               <p>`O, I will go in now,' said Maggie, feeling that the step had come like a 
rescue. `Good evening.' 


</p>
               <p>In an instant she had withdrawn her arm, and was running back to the house. 
She did not reflect that this sudden action would only add to the 
embarrassing recollections of the last half-hour — she had no thought left 
for that. She only threw herself into the low armchair, and burst into tears. 


</p>
               <p>`O Philip, Philip, I wish we were together again — so quietly — in the Red 
Deeps.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen looked after her a moment, then went on to the boat, and was soon 
landed at the Wharf. He spent the evening in the billiard-room, smoking one 
cigar after another, and losing lives at pool. But he would not leave off. He 
was determined not to think — not to admit any more distinct remembrance than 
was urged upon him by the perpetual presence of Maggie. He was looking at her 
and she was on his arm. 


</p>
               <p>But there came the necessity of walking home in the cool starlight: and with 
it the necessity of cursing his own folly, and bitterly determining that he 
would never trust himself alone with Maggie again. It was all madness: he was 
in love, thoroughly attached to Lucy, and engaged — engaged as strongly as an 
honourable man need be. He wished he had never seen this Maggie Tulliver, to 
be thrown into a fever by her in this way: she would make a sweet, strange, 
troublesome, adorable wife to some man or other — but he would never have 
chosen her himself. Did she feel as he did? He hoped she did — not. He ought 
not to have gone. He would master himself in future. He would make himself 
disagreeable to her — quarrel with her perhaps. — Quarrel with her? Was it 
possible to quarrel with a creature who had such eyes — defying and 
deprecating, contradicting and clinging, imperious and beseeching — full of 
delicious opposites. To see such a creature subdued by love for one would be 
a lot worth having — to another man. 


</p>
               <p>There was a muttered exclamation which ended this inward soliloquy, as 
Stephen threw away the end of his last cigar, and thrusting his hands into 
his pockets stalked along at a quieter pace through the shrubbery. It was not 
of a benedictory kind. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.7" type="chapter">
               <head>Philip Re-Enters</head>
               <p>THE next morning was very wet — the sort of morning on which male neighbours 
who have no imperative occupation at home are likely to pay their fair 
friends an illimitable visit. The rain, which has been endurable enough for 
the walk or ride one way, is sure to become so heavy and at the same time so 
certain to clear up by and by, that nothing but an open quarrel can 
abbreviate the visit: latent detestation will not do at all. And if people 
happen to be lovers, what can be so delightful — in England — as a rainy 
morning? English sunshine is dubious: bonnets are never quite secure; and if 
you sit down on the grass, it may lead to catarrhs. But the rain is to be 
depended on. You gallop through it in a mackintosh and presently find 
yourself in the seat you like best — a little above or a little below the one 
on which your goddess sits — (it is the same thing to the metaphysic mind, 
and that is the reason why women are at once worshipped and looked down upon) 
— with a satisfactory confidence that there will be no lady-callers. 


</p>
               <p>`Stephen will come earlier this morning, I know,' said Lucy. `He always does 
when it's rainy.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie made no answer. She was angry with Stephen; she began to think she 
should dislike him; and if it had not been for the rain, she would have gone 
to her aunt Glegg's this morning, and so have avoided him altogether. As it 
was, she must find some reason for remaining out of the room with her mother. 


</p>
               <p>But Stephen did not come earlier, and there was another visitor — a nearer 
neighbour — who preceded him. When Philip entered the room, he was going 
merely to bow to Maggie, feeling that their acquaintance was a secret which 
he was bound not to betray; but when she advanced towards him and put out her 
hand, he guessed at once that Lucy had been taken into her confidence. It was 
a moment of some agitation to both, though Philip had spent many hours in 
preparing for it; but like all persons who have passed through life with 
little expectation of sympathy, he seldom lost his self-control, and shrank 
with the most sensitive pride from any noticeable betrayal of emotion. A 
little extra paleness, a little tension of the nostril when he spoke, and the 
voice pitched in rather a higher key, that to strangers would seem expressive 
of cold indifference, were all the signs Philip usually gave of an inward 
drama that was not without its fierceness. But Maggie who had little more 
power of concealing the impressions made upon her than if she had been 
constructed of musical strings, felt her eyes getting larger with tears as 
they took each other's hands in silence. They were not painful tears: they 
had rather something of the same origin as the tears women and children shed 
when they have found some protection to cling to, and look back on the 
threatened danger. For Philip who a little while ago was associated 
continually in Maggie's mind with the sense that Tom might reproach her with 
some justice, had now, in this short space, become a sort of outward 
conscience to her, that she might fly to rescue and strength. Her tranquil, 
tender affection for Philip, with its root deep down in her childhood, and 
its memories of long quiet talk confirming by distinct successive impressions 
the first instinctive bias — the fact that in him the appeal was more 
strongly to her pity and womanly devotedness than to her vanity or other 
egoistic excitability of her nature — seemed now to make a sort of sacred 
place, a sanctuary where she could find refuge from an alluring influence 
which the best part of herself must resist, which must bring horrible tumult 
within, wretchedness without. This new sense of her relation to Philip 
multiplied the anxious scruples she would otherwise have felt lest she should 
overstep the limit of intercourse with him that Tom would sanction, and she 
put out her hand to him and felt the tears in her eyes without any 
consciousness of an inward check. The scene was just what Lucy expected, and 
her kind heart delighted in bringing Philip and Maggie together again; though 
even with all <hi>her</hi> regard for Philip, she could not resist the 
impression that her cousin Tom had some excuse for feeling shocked at the 
physical incongruity between the two — a prosaic person like cousin Tom, who 
didn't like poetry and fairy tales. But she began to speak as soon as 
possible, to set them at ease. 


</p>
               <p>`This was very good and virtuous of you,' she said, in her pretty treble, 
like the low conversational notes of little birds, `to come so soon after 
your arrival. And as it is, I think I will pardon you for running away in an 
inopportune manner, and giving your friends no notice. Come and sit down 
here,' she went on, placing the chair that would suit him best, `and you 
shall find yourself treated mercifully.' 


</p>
               <p>`You will never govern well, Miss Deane,' said Philip, as he seated himself, 
`because no one will ever believe in your severity. People will always 
encourage themselves in misdemeanours by the certainty that you will be 
indulgent.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy gave some playful contradiction, but Philip did not hear what it was, 
for he had naturally turned towards Maggie, and she was looking at him with 
that open, affectionate scrutiny which we give to a friend from whom we have 
been long separated. What a moment their parting had been!And Philip felt as 
if he were only in the morrow of it. He felt this so keenly — with such 
intense, detailed remembrance — with such passionate revival of all that had 
been said and looked in their last conversation — that with that jealousy and 
distrust which in diffident natures is almost inevitably linked with a strong 
feeling, he thought he read in Maggie's glance and manner the evidence of a 
change. The very fact that he feared and half expected it, would be sure to 
make this thought rush in, in the absence of positive proof to the contrary. 


</p>
               <p>`I am having a great holiday, am I not?' said Maggie. `Lucy is like a fairy 
godmother: she has turned me from a drudge into a princess in no time. I do 
nothing but indulge myself all day long, and she always finds out what I want 
before I know it myself.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm sure she is the happier for having you, then,' said Philip. `You must be 
better than a whole menagerie of pets to her. And you look well — you are 
benefiting by the change.' 


</p>
               <p>Artificial conversation of this sort went on a little while, till Lucy, 
determined to put an end to it, exclaimed with a good imitation of annoyance 
that she had forgotten something, and was quickly out of the room. 


</p>
               <p>In a moment Maggie and Philip leaned forward and the hands were clasped 
again, with a look of sad contentment like that of friends who meet in the 
memory of recent sorrow. 


</p>
               <p>`I told my brother I wished to see you, Philip — I asked him to release me 
from my promise, and he consented.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, in her impulsiveness, wanted Philip to know at once the position they 
must hold towards each other — but she checked herself. The things that had 
happened since he had spoken of his love for her were so painful that she 
shrank from being the first to allude to them. It seemed almost like an 
injury towards Philip even to mention her brother — her brother who had 
insulted him. But he was thinking too entirely of her to be sensitive on any 
other point at that moment. 


</p>
               <p>`Then we can at least be friends, Maggie? There is nothing to hinder that 
now?' 


</p>
               <p>`Will not your father object?' said Maggie, withdrawing her hand. 


</p>
               <p>`I should not give you up on any ground but your own wish, Maggie,' said 
Philip, colouring. `There are points on which I should always resist my 
father, as I used to tell you. <hi>That</hi> is one.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then there is nothing to hinder our being friends, Philip — seeing each 
other and talking to each other while I am here — I shall soon go away again. 
I mean to go very soon — to a new situation.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is that inevitable, Maggie?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes: I must not stay here long. It would unfit me for the life I must begin 
again at last. I can't live in dependence — I can't live with my brother — 
though he is very good to me. He would like to provide for me — but that 
would be intolerable to me.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip was silent a few moments, and then said in that high, feeble voice 
which with him indicated the resolute suppression of emotion:— 


</p>
               <p>`Is there no other alternative, Maggie? Is that life away from those who love 
you, the only one you will allow yourself to look forward to?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Philip,' she said, looking at him pleadingly, as if she entreated him 
to believe that she was compelled to this course. `At least, as things are. I 
don't know what may be in years to come. But I begin to think there can never 
come much happiness to me from loving: I have always had so much pain mingled 
with it. I wish I could make myself a world outside it, as men do.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, you are returning to your old thought in a new form, Maggie — the 
thought I used to combat,' said Philip, with a slight tinge of bitterness. 
`You want to find out a mode of renunciation that will be an escape from 
pain. I tell you again, there is no such escape possible except by perverting 
or mutilating one's nature. What would become of me, if I tried to escape 
from pain? Scorn and cynicism would be my only opium — unless I could fall 
into some kind of conceited madness, and fancy myself a favourite of Heaven, 
because I am not a favourite with men.' 


</p>
               <p>The bitterness had taken on some impetuosity as Philip went on speaking: the 
words were evidently an outlet for some immediate feeling of his own, as well 
as an answer to Maggie. There was a pain pressing on him at that moment. He 
shrank with proud delicacy from the faintest allusion to the words of love — 
of plighted love that had passed between them. It would have seemed to him 
like reminding Maggie of a promise; it would have had for him something of 
the baseness of compulsion. He could not dwell on the fact that he himself 
had not changed; for that too would have had the air of an appeal. His love 
for Maggie was stamped, even more than the rest of his experience, with the 
exaggerated sense that he was an exception — that she, that every one, saw 
him in the light of an exception. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie was conscience-stricken. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Philip,' she said with her childish contrition when he used to chide 
her, `You are right, I know. I do always think too much of my own feelings, 
and not enough of others' — not enough of yours. I had need have you always 
to find fault with me and teach me — so many things have come true that you 
used to tell me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was resting her elbow on the table, leaning her head on her hand and 
looking at Philip with half-penitent dependent affection, as she said this; 
while he was returning her gaze with an expression that, to her 
consciousness, gradually became less vague — became charged with a specific 
recollection. Had his mind flown back to something that <hi>she</hi> now 
remembered? — something about a lover of Lucy's? It was a thought that made 
her shudder: it gave new definiteness to her present position, and to the 
tendency of what had happened the evening before. She moved her arm from the 
table, urged to change her position by that positive physical oppression at 
the heart that sometimes accompanies a sudden mental pang. 


</p>
               <p>`What is the matter, Maggie? Has something happened?' Philip said, in 
inexpressible anxiety — his imagination being only too ready to weave 
everything that was fatal to them both. 


</p>
               <p>`No — nothing,' said Maggie, rousing her latent will. Philip must not have 
that odious thought in his mind: she would banish it from her own. `Nothing,' 
she repeated, `except in my own mind. You used to say I should feel the 
effect of my starved life, as you called it, and I do. I am too eager in my 
enjoyment of music and all luxuries, now they are come to me.' 


</p>
               <p>She took up her work and occupied herself resolutely, while Philip watched 
her, really in doubt whether she had anything more than this general allusion 
in her mind. It was quite in Maggie's character to be agitated by vague 
self-reproach. But soon there came a violent well-known ring at the door-bell 
resounding through the house. 


</p>
               <p>`O what a startling announcement!' said Maggie, quite mistress of herself, 
though not without some inward flutter. `I wonder where Lucy is.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy had not been deaf to the signal, and after an interval long enough for a 
few solicitous but not hurried inquiries, she herself ushered Stephen in. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, old fellow,' he said, going straight up to Philip and shaking him 
heartily by the hand, bowing to Maggie in passing, `it's glorious to have you 
back again — only I wish you'd conduct yourself a little less like a sparrow 
with a residence on the house-top and not go in and out constantly without 
letting the servants know. This is about the twentieth time I've had to 
scamper up those countless stairs to that painting room of yours, all to no 
purpose, because your people thought you were at home. Such incidents 
embitter friendship.' 


</p>
               <p>`I've so few visitors — it seems hardly worth while to leave notice of my 
exits and entrances,' said Philip, feeling rather oppressed just then by 
Stephen's bright strong presence and strong voice. 


</p>
               <p>`Are you quite well this morning, Miss Tulliver?' said Stephen, turning to 
Maggie with stiff politeness and putting out his hand with the air of 
fulfilling a social duty. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie gave the tips of her fingers, and said, `Quite well, thank you,' in a 
tone of proud indifference. Philip's eyes were watching them keenly; but Lucy 
was used to seeing variations in their manner to each other, and only thought 
with regret that there was some natural antipathy which every now and then 
surmounted their mutual good-will. `Maggie is not the sort of woman Stephen 
admires, and she is irritated by something in him which she interprets as 
conceit,' was the silent observation that accounted for everything to 
guileless Lucy. Stephen and Maggie had no sooner completed this studied 
greeting than each felt hurt by the other's coldness. And Stephen, while 
rattling on in questions to Philip about his recent sketching expedition, was 
thinking all the more about Maggie because he was not drawing her into the 
conversation, as he invariably done before. `Maggie and Philip are not 
looking happy,' thought Lucy. `Perhaps this first interview has been 
saddening to them.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think we people who have not been galloping.' she said to Stephen, `are 
all a little damped by the rain. Let us have some music. We ought to take 
advantage of having Philip and you together. Give us the duet in 
”Masaniello:” Maggie has not heard that, and I know it will suit 
her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, then,' said Stephen, going towards the piano, and giving a foretaste 
of the tune in his deep `brum-brum,' very pleasant to hear. 


</p>
               <p>`You, please, Philip — you play the accompaniment,' said Lucy, `and then I 
can go on with my work. You <hi>will</hi> like to play, shan't you?' she 
added, with a pretty inquiring look, anxious, as usual, lest she should have 
proposed what was not pleasant to another, but with yearnings towards her 
unfinished embroidery. 


</p>
               <p>Philip had brightened at the proposition, for there is no feeling, perhaps, 
except the extremes of fear and grief, that does not find relief in music — 
that does not make a man sing or play the better; and Philip had an abundance 
of pent-up feeling at this moment, as complex as any trio or quartet that was 
ever meant to express love and jealousy and resignation and fierce suspicion 
all at the same time. 


</p>
               <p>`O yes,' he said, seating himself at the piano, `it is a way of eking out 
one's imperfect life and being three people at once — to sing and make the 
piano sing, and hear them both all the while — or else to sing and paint.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, there you are an enviable fellow. I can do nothing with my hands,' said 
Stephen. `That has generally been observed in men of great administrative 
capacity, I believe. A tendency to predominance of the reflective powers in 
me! — haven't you observed that, Miss Tulliver?' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen had fallen by mistake into his habit of playful appeal to Maggie, and 
she could not repress the answering flash and epigram. 


</p>
               <p>`I <hi>have</hi> observed a tendency to predominance,' she said, smiling, and 
Philip at that moment devoutly hoped that she found the tendency 
disagreeable. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come,' said Lucy, `music, music! We will discuss each other's 
qualities another time.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie always tried in vain to go on with her work when music began. She 
tried harder than ever today, for the thought that Stephen knew how much she 
cared for his singing, was one that no longer roused a merely playful 
resistance, and she knew too that it was his habit always to stand so that he 
could look at her. But it was of no use: she soon threw her work down, and 
all her intentions were lost in the vague state of emotion produced by the 
inspiring duet — emotion that seemed to make her at once strong and weak, 
strong for all enjoyment, weak for all resistance. When the strain passed 
into the minor she half started from her seat with the sudden thrill of that 
change. Poor Maggie!She looked very beautiful when her soul was being played 
on in this way by the inexorable power of sound. You might have seen the 
slightest perceptible quivering through her whole frame, as she leaned a 
little forward, clasping her hands as if to steady herself, while her eyes 
dilated and brightened into that wide-open, childish expression of wondering 
delight which always came back in her happiest moments. Lucy, who at other 
times had always been at the piano when Maggie was looking in this way, could 
not resist the impulse to steal up to her and kiss her. Philip too caught a 
glimpse of her now and then round the open book on the desk, and felt that he 
had never before seen her under so strong an influence. 


</p>
               <p>`More, more!' said Lucy, when the duet had been encored — `Something spirited 
again: Maggie always says she likes a great rush of sound.' 


</p>
               <p>`It must be ”Let us take the road,” then,' said Stephen — `so 
suitable for a wet morning. But are you prepared to abandon the most sacred 
duties of life, then, and come and sing with us?' 


</p>
               <p>`O yes,' said Lucy, laughing. `If you will look out the ”Beggar's 
Opera” from the large canterbury. It has a dingy cover.' 


</p>
               <p>`That is a great clue, considering there are about a score covers here of 
rival dinginess,' said Stephen, drawing out the canterbury. 


</p>
               <p>`O, play something the while, Philip,' said Lucy, noticing that his fingers 
were wandering over the keys. `What is that you're falling into? — something 
delicious that I don't know.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you know that?' said Philip, bringing out the tune more definitely. 
`It's from the <hi>Sonnambula</hi> — ”Ah! perchè non posso 
odiarti.” I don't know the opera but it appears the tenor is telling the 
heroine that he shall always love her though she may forsake him. You've 
heard me sing it to the English words, ”I love thee still.”' 


</p>
               <p>It was not quite unintentionally that Philip had wandered into this song 
which might be an indirect expression to Maggie of what he could not prevail 
on himself to say to her directly. Her ears had been open to what he was 
saying, and when he began to sing, she understood the plaintive passion of 
the music. That pleading tenor had no very fine qualities as a voice, but it 
was not quite new to her: it had sung to her by snatches in a subdued way 
among the grassy walks and hollows and under the leaning ash-tree in the Red 
Deeps. There seemed to be some reproach in the words — did Philip mean that? 
She wished she had assured him more distinctly in their conversation that she 
desired not to renew the hope of love between them, <hi>only</hi> because it 
clashed with her inevitable circumstances. She was touched not thrilled by 
the song: it suggested distinct memories and thoughts, and brought quiet 
regret in the place of excitement. 


</p>
               <p>`That's the way with you tenors,' said Stephen, who was waiting with music in 
his hand while Philip finished the song. `You demoralise the fair sex by 
warbling your sentimental love and constancy under all sorts of vile 
treatment. Nothing short of having your heads served up in a dish like that 
mediaeval tenor or troubadour, would prevent you from expressing your entire 
resignation. I must administer an antidote — while Miss Deane prepares to 
tear herself away from her bobbins.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen rolled out, with saucy energy— 


</p>
               <p>`Shall I, wasting in despair, Die because a woman's 
fair?' 


</p>
               <p>and seemed to make all the air in the room alive with a new influence. Lucy, 
always proud of what Stephen did, went towards the piano with laughing, 
admiring looks at him; and Maggie, in spite of her resistance to the spirit 
of the song and to the singer, was taken hold of and shaken by the invisible 
influence — was borne along by a wave too strong for her. 


</p>
               <p>But angrily resolved not to betray herself she seized her work, and went on 
making false stitches and pricking her fingers with much perseverance, not 
looking up or taking notice of what was going forward, until all the three 
voices united in `Let us take the road.' 


</p>
               <p>I am afraid there would have been a subtle, stealing gratification in her 
mind if she had known how entirely this saucy, defiant Stephen was occupied 
with her, how he was passing rapidly from a determination to treat her with 
ostentatious indifference, to an irritating desire for some sign of 
inclination from her, some interchange of subdued work or look with her. It 
was not long before he found an opportunity, when they had passed to the 
music of `The Tempest.' Maggie, feeling the need of a footstool, was walking 
across the room to get one, when Stephen, who was not singing just then and 
was conscious of all her movements, guessed her want, and flew to anticipate 
her, lifting the footstool with an entreating look at her, which made it 
impossible not to return a glance of gratitude. And then, to have the 
footstool placed carefully by a too self-confident personage — not 
<hi>any</hi> self-confident personage, but one in particular who suddenly 
looks humble and anxious, and lingers, bending still, to ask if there is not 
some draught in that position between the window and the fireplace, and if he 
may not be allowed to move the worktable for her — these things will summon a 
little of the too ready, traitorous tenderness into a woman's eyes, compelled 
as she is in her girlish time to learn her life-lessons in very trivial 
language. And to Maggie these things had not been everyday incidents, but 
were a new element in her life, and found her keen appetite for homage quite 
fresh. That tone of gentle solicitude obliged her to look at the face that 
was bent towards her and to say, `No, thank you' — and once looking nothing 
could prevent that mutual glance from being delicious to both, as it had been 
the evening before. 


</p>
               <p>It was but an ordinary act of politeness in Stephen; it had hardly taken two 
minutes; and Lucy, who was singing, scarcely noticed it. But to Philip's 
mind, filled already with a vague anxiety that was likely to find a definite 
ground for itself in any trivial incident, this sudden eagerness in Stephen, 
and the change in Maggie's face, which was plainly reflecting a beam from 
his, seemed so strong a contrast with the previous overwrought signs of 
indifference as to be charged with painful meaning. Stephen's voice, pouring 
in again, jarred upon his nervous susceptibility as if it had been the clang 
of sheet iron, and he felt inclined to make the piano shriek in utter 
discord. He had really seen no communicable ground for suspecting any unusual 
feeling between Stephen and Maggie — his own reason told him so, and he 
wanted to go home at once that he might reflect coolly on these false images 
till he had convinced himself of their nullity. But then again, he wanted to 
stay as long as Stephen stayed — always to be present when Stephen was 
present with Maggie. It seemed to poor Philip so natural — nay, inevitable 
that any man who was near Maggie should fall in love with her! And there was 
no promise of happiness for her if she were beguiled into loving Stephen 
Guest: the thought emboldened Philip to view his own love for her in the 
light of a less unequal offering. He was beginning to play very falsely under 
this deafening inward tumult, and Lucy was looking at him in astonishment, 
when Mrs Tulliver's entrance to summon them to lunch, came as an excuse for 
abruptly breaking off the music. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, Mr Philip,' said Mr Deane, when they entered the dining-room, `I've not 
seen you for a long while. Your father's not at home, I think, is he? I went 
after him to the office, the other day, and they said he was out of town.' 


</p>
               <p>`He's been to Mudport on business for several days,' said Philip, `but he's 
come back now.' 


</p>
               <p>`As fond of his farming hobby as ever, eh?' 


</p>
               <p>`I believe so,' said Philip, rather wondering at this sudden interest in his 
father's pursuits. 


</p>
               <p>`Ah!' said Mr Deane, `he's got some land in his own hands on this side the 
river as well as the other, I think?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, he has.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah!' continued Mr Deane, as he dispensed the pigeon pie, `he must find 
farming a heavy item — an expensive hobby. I never had a hobby myself — never 
would give in to that. And the worst of all hobbies are those that people 
think they can get money at. They shoot their money down like corn out of a 
sack then.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy felt a little nervous under her father's apparently gratuitous criticism 
of Mr Wakem's expenditure. But it ceased there, and Mr Deane became unusually 
silent and meditative during his luncheon. Lucy, accustomed to watch all 
indications in her father, and having reasons, which had recently become 
strong, for an extra interest in what referred to the Wakems, felt an unusual 
curiosity to know what had prompted her father's questions. His subsequent 
silence made her suspect there had been some special reason for them in his 
mind. 


</p>
               <p>With this idea in her head, she resorted to her usual plan when she wanted to 
tell or ask her father anything particular: she found a reason for her aunt 
Tulliver to leave the dining-room after dinner, and seated herself on a small 
stool at her father's knee. Mr Deane, under those circumstances, considered 
that he tasted some of the most agreeable moments his merits had purchased 
him in life, notwithstanding that Lucy, disliking to have her hair powdered 
with snuff, usually began by mastering his snuff-box on such occasions. 


</p>
               <p>`You don't want to go to sleep yet, papa, <hi>do</hi> you?' she said, as she 
brought up her stool and opened the large fingers that clutched the 
snuff-box. 


</p>
               <p>`Not yet,' said Mr Deane, glancing at the reward of merit in the decanter. 
`But what do <hi>you</hi> want?' he added, pinching the dimpled chin fondly. 
`To coax some more sovereigns out of my pocket for your bazaar? Eh?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, I have no base motives at all today. I only want to talk, not to beg. I 
want to know what made you ask Philip Wakem about his father's farming today, 
papa? It seemed rather odd, because you never hardly say anything to him 
about his father — and why should you care about Mr Wakem's losing money by 
his hobby?' 


</p>
               <p>`Something to do with business,' said Mr Deane, waving his hands, as if to 
repel intrusion into that mystery. 


</p>
               <p>`But, papa, you always say Mr Wakem has brought Philip up like a girl — how 
came you to think you should get any business knowledge out of him? Those 
abrupt questions sounded rather oddly. Philip thought them queer.' 


</p>
               <p>`Nonsense, child!' said Mr Deane, willing to justify his social demeanour, 
with which he had taken some pains in his upward progress. `There's a report 
that Wakem's mill and farm on the other side of the river — Dorlcote Mill, 
your uncle Tulliver's, you know — isn't answering so well as it did. I wanted 
to see if your friend Philip would let anything out about his father's being 
tired of farming.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why? Would you buy the mill, papa, if he would part with it?' said Lucy, 
eagerly. `O, tell me everything — here, you shall have your snuff-box if 
you'll tell me. Because Maggie says all their hearts are set on Tom's getting 
back the mill some time. It was one of the last things her father said to Tom 
— that he must get back the Mill.' 


</p>
               <p>`Hush, you little puss,' said Mr Deane, availing himself of the restored 
snuff-box. `You must not say a word about this thing — do you hear? There's 
very little chance of their getting the mill — or of anybody's getting it out 
of Wakem's hands. And if he knew that we wanted it with a view to the 
Tullivers getting it again, he'd be the less likely to part with it. It's 
natural, after what happened. He behaved well enough to Tulliver before; but 
a horse-whipping isn't likely to be paid for with sugar-plums.' 


</p>
               <p>`Now, papa,' said Lucy, with a little air of solemnity, `will you trust me? 
You must not ask me all my reasons for what I'm going to say — but I have 
very strong reasons. And I'm very cautious — I am, indeed.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, let us hear.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, I believe, if you will let me take Philip Wakem into our confidence — 
let me tell him all about your wish to buy and what it's for — that my 
cousins wish to have it and why they wish to have it — I believe Philip would 
help to bring it about. I know he would desire to do it.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't see how that can be, child,' said Mr Deane, looking puzzled. `Why 
should <hi>he</hi> care?' — then, with a sudden penetrating looking at his 
daughter, `You don't think the poor lad's fond of you — and so you can make 
him do what you like?' (Mr Deane felt quite safe about his daughter's 
affections.) 


</p>
               <p>`No, papa; he cares very little about me — not so much as I care about him. 
But I have a reason for being quite sure of what I say. Don't you ask me. And 
if you ever guess, don't tell me. Only give me leave to do as I think fit 
about it.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy rose from her stool to seat herself on her father's knee, and kissed him 
with that last request. 


</p>
               <p>`Are you sure you won't do mischief, now?' he said, looking at her with 
delight. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, papa, quite sure. I'm very wise — I've got all your business talents. 
Didn't you admire my accompt-book, now, when I showed it you?' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, well, if this youngster will keep his counsel, there won't be much 
harm done. And to tell the truth, I think there's not much chance for us any 
other way. Now, let me go off to sleep.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.8" type="chapter">
               <head>Wakem in a New Light</head>
               <p>BEFORE three days had passed after the conversation you have just overheard 
between Lucy and her father, she had contrived to have a private interview 
with Philip during a pre-arranged absence of Maggie's at her aunt Glegg's. 
For a day and a night Philip turned over in his mind with restless agitation 
all that Lucy had told him in that interview, till he had thoroughly resolved 
on a course of action. He thought he saw before him now a possibility of 
altering his position with respect to Maggie and removing at least one 
obstacle between them. He laid his plan and calculated all his moves with the 
fervid deliberation of a chess-player in the days of his first ardour, and 
was amazed himself at his sudden genius as a tactician. His plan was as bold 
as it was thoroughly calculated. Having watched for a moment when his father 
had nothing more urgent on his hands than the newspaper, he went behind him, 
laid a hand on his shoulder, and said, 


</p>
               <p>`Father, will you come up into my sanctum, and look at my new sketches? I've 
arranged them now.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm getting terribly stiff in the joints, Phil, for climbing those stairs of 
yours,' said Wakem, looking kindly at his son as he laid down his paper. `But 
come along, then.' 


</p>
               <p>`This is a nice place for you, isn't it, Phil? — a capital light that from 
the roof, eh?' was, as usual, the first thing he said on entering the 
painting room. He liked to remind himself and his son too that his fatherly 
indulgence had provided the accommodation. He had been a good father. Emily 
would have nothing to reproach him with there, if she came back again from 
her grave. 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come,' he said, putting his double eye-glass over his nose, and 
seating himself to take a general view while he rested, `you've got a famous 
show here. Upon my word, I don't see that your things aren't as good as that 
London artist's — what's his name — that Leyburn gave so much money for.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip shook his head and smiled. He had seated himself on his 
painting-stool, and had taken a lead pencil in his hand, with which he was 
making strong marks to counteract the sense of tremulousness. He watched his 
father get up, and walk slowly round, goodnaturedly dwelling on the pictures 
much longer than his amount of genuine taste for landscape would have 
prompted, till he stopped before a stand on which two pictures were placed — 
one much larger than the other — the smaller one in a leather case. 


</p>
               <p>`Bless me! what have you here?' said Wakem, startled by a sudden transition 
from landscape to portrait. `I thought you'd left off figures. Who are 
these?' 


</p>
               <p>`They are the same person,' said Philip, with calm promptness, `at different 
ages.' 


</p>
               <p>`And what person?' said Wakem, sharply, fixing his eyes with a growing look 
of suspicion on the larger picture. 


</p>
               <p>`Miss Tulliver. The small one is something like what she was when I was at 
school with her brother at King's Lorton: the large one is not quite so good 
a likeness of what she was when I came from abroad.' 


</p>
               <p>Wakem turned round fiercely, with a flushed face, letting his eye-glass fall, 
and looking at his son with a savage expression for a moment as if he was 
ready to strike that daring feebleness from the stool. But he threw himself 
into the armchair again and thrust his hands into his trouser-pockets, still 
looking angrily at his son, however. Philip did not return the look but sat 
quietly watching the point of his pencil. 


</p>
               <p>`And do you mean to say, then, that you have had any acquaintance with her 
since you came from abroad?' said Wakem, at last, with that vain effort which 
rage always makes, to throw as much punishment as it desires to inflict into 
words and tones, since blows are forbidden. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes: I saw a great deal of her for a whole year before her father's death. 
We met often, in that thicket — the Red Deeps — near Dorlcote Mill. I love 
her dearly: I shall never love any other woman. I have thought of her ever 
since she was a little girl.' 


</p>
               <p>`Go on, sir! — And you have corresponded with her all this while?' 


</p>
               <p>`No. I never told her I loved her till just before we parted, and she 
promised her brother not to see me again or to correspond with me. I am not 
sure that she loves me, or would consent to marry me. But if she would 
consent — if she <hi>did</hi> love me well enough — I should marry her.' 


</p>
               <p>`And this is the return you make me for all the indulgences I've heaped on 
you?' said Wakem, getting white and beginning to tremble under an enraged 
sense of impotence before Philip's calm defiance and concentration of 
purpose. 


</p>
               <p>`No, father,' said Philip, looking up at him for the first time. `I don't 
regard it as a return. You have been an indulgent father to me — but I have 
always felt that it was because you had an affectionate wish to give me as 
much happiness as my unfortunate lot would admit of — not that it was a debt 
you expected me to pay by sacrificing all my chances of happiness to satisfy 
feelings of yours which I can never share.' 


</p>
               <p>`I think most sons would share their father's feelings in this case,' said 
Wakem, bitterly. `The girl's father was an ignorant mad brute, who was within 
an inch of murdering me — the whole town knows it. And the brother is just as 
insolent: only in a cooler way. He forbade her seeing you, you say: he'll 
break every bone in your body, for your greater happiness, if you don't take 
care. But you seem to have made up your mind: you have counted the 
consequences, I suppose. Of course you are independent of me: you can marry 
this girl tomorrow, if you like: you are a man of six-and-twenty — you can go 
your way, and I can go mine. We need have no more to do with each other.' 


</p>
               <p>Wakem rose and walked towards the door, but something held him back, and 
instead of leaving the room he walked up and down it. Philip was slow to 
reply, and when he spoke, his tone had a more incisive quietness and 
clearness than ever. 


</p>
               <p>`No: I can't marry Miss Tulliver, even if she would have me — if I have only 
my own resources to maintain her with. I have been brought up to no 
profession. I can't offer her poverty as well as deformity.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah, <hi>there</hi> is a reason for your clinging to me, doubtless,' said 
Wakem, still bitterly, though Philip's last words had given him a pang — they 
had stirred a feeling which had been a habit for a quarter of a century. He 
threw himself into the chair again. 


</p>
               <p>`I expected all this,' said Philip. `I know these scenes are often happening 
between father and son. If I were like other men of my age, I might answer 
your angry words by still angrier — we might part — I should marry the woman 
I love and have a chance of being as happy as the rest. But if it will be a 
satisfaction to you to annihilate the very object of everything you've done 
for me, you have an advantage over most fathers: you can completely deprive 
me of the only thing that would make my life worth having.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip paused, but his father was silent. 


</p>
               <p>`You know best what satisfaction you would secure beyond that of gratifying a 
ridiculous rancour worthy only of wandering savages.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ridiculous rancour!' Wakem burst out. `What do you mean? Damn it! is a man 
to be horse-whipped by a boor and love him for it? Besides, there's that 
cold, proud devil of a son, who said a word to me I shall not forget when we 
had the settling. He would be as pleasant a mark for a bullet as I know — if 
he were worth the expense.' 


</p>
               <p>`I don't mean your resentment towards them,' said Philip, who had his reasons 
for some sympathy with this view of Tom, `though a feeling of revenge is not 
worth much, that you should care to keep it. I mean your extending the enmity 
to a helpless girl, who was too much sense and goodness to share their narrow 
prejudices. <hi>She</hi> has never entered into the family quarrels.' 


</p>
               <p>`What does that signify? We don't ask what a woman does — we ask whom she 
belongs to. It's altogether a degrading thing to you — to think of marrying 
old Tulliver's daughter.' 


</p>
               <p>For the first time in the dialogue Philip lost some of his self control, and 
coloured with anger. 


</p>
               <p>`Miss Tulliver,' he said, with bitter incisiveness, `has the only grounds of 
rank that anything but vulgar folly can suppose to belong to the middle 
class: she is thoroughly refined, and her friends, whatever else they may be, 
are respected for irreproachable honour and integrity. All St Ogg's, I fancy, 
would pronounce her to be more than my equal.' 


</p>
               <p>Wakem darted a glance of fierce question at his son, but Philip was not 
looking at him, and with a certain penitent consciousness went on, in a few 
moments, as if in amplification of his last words: 


</p>
               <p>`Find a single person in St Ogg's who will not tell you that a beautiful 
creature like her would be throwing herself away on a pitiable object like 
me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Not she!' said Wakem, rising again, and forgetting everything else in a 
burst of resentful pride, half fatherly, half personal. `It would be a deuced 
fine match for her. It's all stuff about an accidental deformity, when a 
girl's really attached to a man.' 


</p>
               <p>`But girls are not apt to get attached under those circumstances,' said 
Philip. 


</p>
               <p>`Well, then,' said Wakem, rather brutally — trying to recover his previous 
position. `If she doesn't care for you, you might have spared yourself the 
trouble of talking to me about her — and you might have spared me the trouble 
of refusing my consent to what was never likely to happen.' 


</p>
               <p>Wakem strode to the door, and, without looking round again, banged it after 
him. 


</p>
               <p>Philip was not without confidence that his father would be ultimately wrought 
upon as he had expected by what had passed; but the scene had jarred upon his 
nerves, which were as sensitive as a woman's. He determined not to go down to 
dinner — he couldn't meet his father again that day. It was Wakem's habit, 
when he had no company at home, to go out in the evening — often as early as 
half-past seven; and as it was far on in the afternoon now, Philip locked up 
his room and went out for a long ramble, thinking he would not return until 
his father was out of the house again. He got into a boat, and went down the 
river to a favourite village, where he dined, and lingered till it was late 
enough for him to return. He had never had any sort of quarrel with his 
father before, and had a sickening fear that this contest just begun, might 
go on for weeks — and what might not happen in that time? He would not allow 
himself to define what that involuntary question meant. But if he could once 
be in the position of Maggie's accepted, acknowledged lover, there would be 
less room for vague dread. He went up to his painting room again and threw 
himself with a sense of fatigue into the armchair, looking round absently at 
the views of water and rock that were ranged around, till he fell into a doze 
in which he fancied Maggie was slipping down a glistening, green, slimy 
channel of a waterfall, and he was looking on helpless, till he was awakened 
by what seemed a sudden, awful crash. 


</p>
               <p>It was the opening of the door, and he could hardly have dozed more than a 
few moments, for there was no perceptible change in the evening light. It was 
his father who entered, with a cigar in his mouth, and when Philip moved to 
vacate the chair for him, he said, 


</p>
               <p>`Sit still. I'd rather walk about.' 


</p>
               <p>He stalked up and down the room once or twice and then standing opposite 
Philip, with one hand thrust in his side-pocket, he said, as if continuing a 
conversation that had not been broken off, 


</p>
               <p>`But this girl seems to have been fond of you, Phil, else she wouldn't have 
met you in that way.' 


</p>
               <p>Philip's heart was beating rapidly, and a transient flush passed over his 
face like a gleam. It was not quite easy to speak at once. 


</p>
               <p>`She liked me at King's Lorton, when she was a little girl, because I used to 
sit with her brother a great deal when he had hurt his foot. She had kept 
that in her memory, and thought of me as a friend of a long while ago. She 
didn't think of me as a lover when she met me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, but you made love to her at last. What did she say then?' said Wakem, 
taking to his cigar and walking about. 


</p>
               <p>`She said she <hi>did</hi> love me then.' 


</p>
               <p>`Confound it, then, what else do you want? Is she a jilt?' 


</p>
               <p>`She was very young then,' said Philip, hesitatingly. `I'm afraid she hardly 
knew what she felt. I'm afraid our long separation, and the idea that events 
must always divide us may have made a difference.' 


</p>
               <p>`But she's in the town — I've seen her at church. Haven't you spoken to her 
since you came back?' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, at Mr Deane's. But I couldn't renew my proposals to her on several 
grounds. But one obstacle would be removed if you would give your consent — 
if you would be willing to think of her as a daughter-in-law.' 


</p>
               <p>Wakem was silent a little while, pausing before Maggie's picture. 


</p>
               <p>`She's not the sort of woman your mother was, though, Phil,' he said, at 
last. `I saw her at church — she's handsomer than this — deuced fine eyes and 
fine figure, I saw; but rather dangerous and unmanageable, eh?' 


</p>
               <p>`She's very tender and affectionate — and so simple — without the airs and 
petty contrivances other women have.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah?' said Wakem. Then looking round at his son, `But your mother looked 
gentler — she had that brown wavy hair, and grey eyes, like yours. You can't 
remember her very well. It was a thousand pities I'd no likeness of her.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then, shouldn't you be glad for me to have the same sort of happiness, 
father — to sweeten my life for me? There can never be another tie so strong 
to you as that which began eight and twenty years ago when you married my 
mother and you have been tightening it ever since.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ay, Phil — you're the only fellow that knows the best of me,' said Wakem, 
throwing away the end of his cigar, and giving his hand to his son. `We must 
keep together, if we can. And now, what am I to do? You must come downstairs 
and tell me. Am I to go and call on this dark-eyed damsel?' 


</p>
               <p>The barrier once thrown down in this way, Philip could talk freely to his 
father of their entire relation with the Tullivers — of the desire to get the 
mill and land back into the family — and of its transfer to Guest &amp; Co. as an 
intermediate step. He could venture now to be persuasive and urgent, and his 
father yielded with more readiness than he had calculated on. 


</p>
               <p>`<hi>I</hi> don't care about the Mill,' he said at last with a sort of angry 
compliance. `I've had an infernal deal of bother lately about the Mill. Let 
them pay me for my improvements, that's all. But there's one thing you 
needn't ask me. I shall have no direct transactions with young Tulliver. If 
you like to swallow him for his sister's sake you may; but I've no sauce that 
will make him go down.' 


</p>
               <p>I leave you to imagine the agreeable feelings with which Philip went to Mr 
Deane the next day to say that Mr Wakem was ready to open the negotiations, 
and Lucy's pretty triumph as she appealed to her father whether she had not 
proved her great business abilities. Mr Deane was rather puzzled, and 
suspected that there had been something `going on' among the young people to 
which he wanted a clue. But to men of Mr Deane's stamp, what goes on among 
the young people is as extraneous to the real business of life as what goes 
on among the birds and butterflies — until it can be shown to have a malign 
bearing on monetary affairs. And in this case the bearing appeared to be 
entirely propitious. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.9" type="chapter">
               <head>Charity in Full Dress</head>
               <p>THE culmination of Maggie's career as an admired member of society in St 
Ogg's was certainly the day of the Bazaar, when her simple noble beauty, clad 
in a white muslin of some soft-floating kind, which I suspect must have come 
from the stores of aunt Pullet's wardrobe, appeared with marked distinction 
among the more adorned and conventional women around her. We perhaps never 
detect how much of our social demeanour is made up of artificial airs, until 
we see a person who is at once beautiful and simple: without the beauty we 
are apt to call simplicity awkwardness. The Miss Guests were much too 
well-bred to have any of the grimaces and affected tones that belong to 
pretentious vulgarity; but their stall being next to the one where Maggie 
sat, it seemed newly obvious today that Miss Guest held her chin too high, 
and that Miss Laura spoke and moved continually with a view to effect. 


</p>
               <p>All well-drest St Ogg's and its neighbourhood were there, and it would have 
been worth while to come even from a distance to see the fine old Hall, with 
its open roof and carved oaken rafters and great oaken folding-doors, and 
light shed down from a height on the many-coloured show beneath — a very 
quaint place with broad faded stripes painted on the walls and here and there 
a show of heraldic animals of a bristly, long-snouted character, the 
cherished emblems of a noble family once the seigniors of this now civic 
hall. A grand arch, cut in the upper wall at one end, surmounted an oaken 
orchestra with an open room behind it, where hothouse plants and stalls for 
refreshments were disposed — a very agreeable resort for gentlemen disposed 
to loiter and yet to exchange the occasional crush down below for a more 
commodious point of view. In fact, the perfect fitness of this ancient 
building for an admirable modern purpose that made charity truly elegant, and 
led through vanity up to the supply of a deficit, was so striking that hardly 
a person entered the room without exchanging the remark more than once. Near 
the great arch over the orchestra was the stone oriel with painted glass 
which was one of the venerable inconsistencies of the old Hall; and it was 
close by this that Lucy had her stall for the convenience of certain large 
plain articles which she had taken charge of for Mrs Kenn. Maggie had begged 
to sit at the open end of the stall to have the sale of these articles rather 
than of bead mats and other elaborate products of which she had but a dim 
understanding. But it soon appeared that the gentlemen's dressing-gowns, 
which were among her commodities, were objects of such general attention and 
inquiry and excited so troublesome a curiosity as to their lining and 
comparative merits together with a determination to test them by trying on, 
as to make her post a very conspicuous one. The ladies who had commodities of 
their own to sell, and did not want dressing-gowns, saw at once the frivolity 
and bad taste of this masculine preference for goods which any tailor could 
furnish; and it is possible that the emphatic notice of various kinds which 
was drawn towards Miss Tulliver on this public occasion threw a very strong 
and unmistakable light on her subsequent conduct in many minds then present. 
Not that anger on account of spurned beauty can dwell in the celestial 
breasts of charitable ladies, but rather, that the errors of persons who have 
once been much admired necessarily take a deeper tinge from the mere force of 
contrast, and also, that today Maggie's conspicuous position for the first 
time made evident certain characteristics which were subsequently felt to 
have an explanatory bearing. There was something rather bold in Miss 
Tulliver's direct gaze, and something undefinably coarse in the style of her 
beauty, which placed her, in the opinion of all feminine judges, far below 
her cousin Miss Deane; for the ladies of St Ogg's had now completely ceded to 
Lucy their hypothetic claims on the admiration of Mr Stephen Guest. 


</p>
               <p>As for dear little Lucy herself, her late benevolent triumph about the Mill, 
and all the affectionate projects she was cherishing for Maggie and Philip, 
helped to give her the highest spirits today, and she felt nothing but 
pleasure in the evidence of Maggie's attractiveness. It is true, she was 
looking very charming herself, and Stephen was paying her the utmost 
attention on this public occasion — jealously buying up the articles he had 
seen under her fingers in the process of making, and gaily helping her to 
cajole the male customers into the purchase of the most effeminate 
futilities. He chose to lay aside his hat and wear a scarlet Fez of her 
embroidering, but by superficial observers this was necessarily liable to be 
interpreted less as a compliment to Lucy than as a mark of coxcombry. `Guest 
is a great coxcomb,' young Torry observed, `but then he is a privileged 
person in St Ogg's — he carries all before him: if another fellow did such 
things, everybody would say he made a fool of himself.' (Young Torry had red 
hair.) 

</p>
               <p>And Stephen purchased absolutely nothing from Maggie, until Lucy said, in 
rather a vexed undertone, 


</p>
               <p>`See, now; all the things of Maggie's knitting will be gone, and you will not 
have bought one. There are those deliciously soft warm things for the wrists 
— do buy them.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh, no,' said Stephen, `they must be intended for imaginative persons who 
can chill themselves on this warm day by thinking of the frosty Caucasus. 
Stern reason is my forte, you know. You must get Philip to buy those. By the 
way, why doesn't he come?' 


</p>
               <p>`He never likes going where there are many people, though I enjoined him to 
come. He said he would buy up any of my goods that the rest of the world 
rejected. But now, do go and buy something of Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, no — see — she has got a customer: there is old Wakem himself just 
coming up.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy's eyes turned with anxious interest towards Maggie, to see how she went 
through this first interview since a sadly memorable time with a man towards 
whom she must have so strange a mixture of feelings, but she was pleased to 
notice that Wakem had tact enough to enter at once into talk about the bazaar 
wares and appear interested in purchasing, smiling now and then kindly at 
Maggie, and not calling on her to speak much, as if he observed that she was 
rather pale and tremulous. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, Wakem is making himself particularly amiable to your cousin,' said 
Stephen, in an undertone to Lucy. `Is it pure magnanimity? You talked of a 
family quarrel.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, that will soon be quite healed, I hope,' said Lucy, becoming a little 
indiscreet in her satisfaction, and speaking with an air of significance. But 
Stephen did not appear to notice this, and as some lady-purchasers came up, 
he lounged on towards Maggie's end, handling trifles and standing aloof until 
Wakem, who had taken out his purse, had finished his transactions. 


</p>
               <p>`My son came with me,' he overheard Wakem saying, `but he has vanished into 
some other part of the building, and has left all these charitable 
gallantries to me. I hope you'll reproach him for his shabby conduct.' 


</p>
               <p>She returned his smile and bow, without speaking, and he turned away, only 
then observing Stephen and nodding to him. Maggie, conscious that Stephen was 
still there, busied herself with counting money, and avoided looking up. She 
had been well pleased that he had devoted himself to Lucy today, and had not 
come near her. They had begun the morning with an indifferent salutation and 
both had rejoiced in being aloof from each other, like a patient who has 
actually done without his opium, in spite of former failures in resolution. 
And during the last few days they had even been making up their minds to 
failures, looking to the outward events that must soon come to separate them, 
as a reason for dispensing with self-conquest in detail. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen moved step by step as if he were being unwillingly dragged, until he 
had got round the open end of the stall and was half hidden by a screen of 
draperies. Maggie went on counting her money till she suddenly heard a deep 
gentle voice saying, `Aren't you very tired? Do let me bring you something — 
some fruit or jelly — mayn't I?' 


</p>
               <p>The unexpected tones shook her like a sudden accidental vibration of a harp 
close by her. 


</p>
               <p>`O no, thank you,' she said, faintly, and only half looking up for an 
instant. 


</p>
               <p>`You look so pale,' Stephen insisted, in a more entreating tone. `I'm sure 
you're exhausted. I must disobey you, and bring something.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, indeed I couldn't take it.' 


</p>
               <p>`Are you angry with me? What have I done? <hi>Do</hi> look at me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Pray, go away,' said Maggie, looking at him helplessly, her eyes glancing 
immediately form him to the opposite corner of the orchestra, which was half 
hidden by the folds of the old faded green curtain. Maggie had no sooner 
uttered this entreaty than she was wretched at the admission it implied, but 
Stephen turned away at once, and, following her upward glance, he saw Philip 
Wakem seated in the half-hidden corner, so that he could command little more 
than that angle of the hall in which Maggie sat. An entirely new thought 
occurred to Stephen, and, linking itself with what he had observed of Wakem's 
manner, and with Lucy's reply to his observation, it convinced him that there 
had been some former relation between Philip and Maggie beyond that childish 
one of which he had heard. More than one impulse made him immediately leave 
the hall, and go upstairs to the refreshment room, where, walking up to 
Philip, he sat down behind him, and put his hand on his shoulder. 


</p>
               <p>`Are you studying for a portrait, Phil,' he said, `or for a sketch of that 
oriel window? By George, it makes a capital bit from this dark corner, with 
the curtain just marking it off.' 


</p>
               <p>`I have been studying expression,' said Philip curtly. 


</p>
               <p>`What, Miss Tulliver's? It's rather of the savage-moody order today, I think 
— something of the fallen princess serving behind a counter. Her cousin sent 
me to her with a civil offer to get her some refreshment, but I have been 
snubbed, as usual. There's a natural antipathy between us, I suppose — I have 
seldom the honour to please her.' 


</p>
               <p>`What a hypocrite you are!' said Philip, flushing angrily. 


</p>
               <p>`What, because experience must have told me that I'm universally pleasing? I 
admit the law, but there's some disturbing force here.' 


</p>
               <p>`I am going,' said Philip, rising abruptly. 


</p>
               <p>`So am I — to get a breath of fresh air; this place gets oppressive. I think 
I have done suit and service long enough.' 


</p>
               <p>The two friends walked downstairs together without speaking. Philip turned 
through the outer door into the churchyard, but Stephen, saying, `O by the 
by, I must call in here,' went on along the passage to one of the rooms at 
the other end of the building, which were appropriated to the town library. 
He had the room all to himself and a man requires nothing less than this, 
when he wants to dash his cap on the table, throw himself astride a chair and 
stare at a high brick wall with a frown which would not have been beneath the 
occasion if he had been slaying the Giant Python. The conduct that issues 
from a moral conflict has often so close a resemblance to vice, that the 
distinction escapes all outward judgments, founded on a mere comparison of 
actions. It is clear to you, I hope, that Stephen was not a hypocrite — 
capable of deliberate doubleness for a selfish end; and yet his fluctuations 
between the indulgence of a feeling and the systematic concealment of it 
might have made a good case in support of Philip's accusation. 


</p>
               <p>Meanwhile, Maggie sate at her stall cold and trembling, with that painful 
sensation in the eyes which comes from resolutely repressed tears. Was her 
life to be always like this? — always bringing some new source of inward 
strife? She heard confusedly the busy indifferent voices around her and 
wished her mind could flow into that easy, babbling current. It was at this 
moment that Dr Kenn, who had quite lately come into the hall, and was now 
walking down the middle with his hands behind him, taking a general view, 
fixed his eyes on Maggie for the first time, and was struck with the 
expression of pain on her beautiful face. She was sitting quite still, for 
the stream of customers had lessened at this late hour in the afternoon: the 
gentlemen had chiefly chosen the middle of the day, and Maggie's stall was 
looking rather bare. This, with her absent, pained expression, finished the 
contrast between her and her companions, who were all bright, eager and busy. 
He was strongly arrested. Her face had naturally drawn his attention as a new 
and striking one at church, and he had been introduced to her during a short 
call on business at Mr Deane's, but he had never spoken more than three words 
to her. He walked towards her now, and Maggie, perceiving some one 
approaching, roused herself to look up and be prepared to speak. She felt a 
child-like, instinctive relief from the sense of uneasiness in this exertion, 
when she saw it was Dr Kenn's face that was looking at her: — that plain, 
middle-aged face, with a grave, penetrating kindness in it, seeming to tell 
of a human being who had reached a firm, safe strand, but was looking with 
helpful pity towards the strugglers still tossed by the waves, had an effect 
on Maggie at that moment which was afterwards remembered by her as if it had 
been a promise. The middle-aged, who have lived through their strongest 
emotions, but are yet in the time when memory is still half passionate and 
not merely contemplative, should surely be a sort of natural priesthood whom 
life has disciplined and consecrated to be the refuge and rescue of early 
stumblers and victims of self-despair: most of us at some moment in our young 
lives, would have welcomed a priest of that natural order in any sort of 
canonicals or uncanonicals, but had to scramble upwards into all the 
difficulties of nineteen entirely without such aid, as Maggie did. 


</p>
               <p>`You find your office rather a fatiguing one, I fear, Miss Tulliver?' said Dr 
Kenn. 


</p>
               <p>`It is, rather,' said Maggie, simply, not being accustomed to simper amiable 
denials of obvious facts. 


</p>
               <p>`But I can tell Mrs Kenn that you have disposed of her goods very quickly,' 
he added. `She will be very much obliged to you.' 


</p>
               <p>`O I have done nothing: the gentlemen came very fast to buy the 
dressing-gowns and embroidered waistcoats but I think any of the other ladies 
would have sold more: I didn't know what to say about them.' 


</p>
               <p>Dr Kenn smiled. `I hope I'm going to have you as a permanent parishioner now, 
Miss Tulliver — am I? You have been at a distance from us hitherto.' 


</p>
               <p>`I have been a teacher in a school, and I'm going into another situation of 
the same kind very soon.' 


</p>
               <p>`Ah? I was hoping you would remain among your friends who are all in this 
neighbourhood, I believe.' 


</p>
               <p>`O <hi>I must go</hi>,' said Maggie, earnestly, looking at Dr Kenn with an 
expression of reliance, as if she had told him her history in those three 
words. It was one of those moments of implicit revelation which will 
sometimes happen even between people who meet quite transiently — on a mile's 
journey, perhaps, or when resting by the wayside. There is always this 
possibility of a word or look from a stranger to keep alive the sense of 
human brotherhood. 


</p>
               <p>Dr Kenn's ear and eye took in all the signs that this brief confidence of 
Maggie's was charged with meaning. 


</p>
               <p>`I understand,' he said; `you feel it right to go. But that will not prevent 
our meeting again, I hope — it will not prevent my knowing you better, if I 
can be of any service to you.' 


</p>
               <p>He put out his hand and pressed hers kindly, before he turned away. 


</p>
               <p>`She has some trouble or other at heart,' he thought. `Poor child! she looks 
as if she might turn out to be one of 


</p>
               <p>`The souls by nature pitch'd too high, By suffering plung'd too 
low.' 


</p>
               <p>There's something wonderfully honest in those beautiful eyes.' 


</p>
               <p>It may be surprising that Maggie, among whose many imperfections an excessive 
delight in admiration and acknowledged supremacy were not absent now, any 
more than when she was instructing the gypsies with a view towards achieving 
a royal position among them, was not more elated on a day when she had had 
the tribute of so many looks and smiles, together with that satisfactory 
consciousness which had necessarily come from being taken before Lucy's 
cheval glass and made to look at the full length of her tall beauty, crowned 
by the night of her massy hair. Maggie had smiled at herself then, and for 
the moment had forgotten everything in the sense of her own beauty. If that 
state of mind could have lasted, her choice would have been to have Stephen 
Guest at her feet, offering her a life filled with all luxuries, with daily 
incense of adoration near and distant, with all possibilities of culture at 
her command. But there were things in her stronger than vanity — passion, and 
affection, and long deep memories of early discipline and effort, of early 
claims on her love and pity; and the stream of vanity was soon swept along 
and mingled imperceptibly with that wider current which was at its highest 
force today, under the double urgency of the events and inward impulses 
brought by the last week. 


</p>
               <p>Philip had not spoken to her himself about the removal of obstacles between 
them on his father's side — he shrank from that — but he had told everything 
to Lucy, with the hope that Maggie, being informed through her, might give 
him some encouraging sign that their being brought thus much nearer to each 
other was a happiness to her. The rush of conflicting feelings was too great 
for Maggie to say much when Lucy with a face breathing playful joy, like one 
of Correggio's cherubs, poured forth her triumphant revelation, and Lucy 
could hardly be surprised that she could do little more than cry with 
gladness at the thought of her father's wish being fulfilled and of Tom's 
getting the Mill again in reward for all his hard striving. The details of 
preparation for the bazaar had then come to usurp Lucy's attention for the 
next few days, and nothing had been said by the cousins on subjects that were 
likely to rouse deeper feelings. Philip had been to the house more than once, 
but Maggie had had no private conversation with him, and thus she had been 
left to fight her inward battle without interference. 


</p>
               <p>But when the bazaar was fairly ended, and the cousins were alone again, 
resting together at home, Lucy said, 


</p>
               <p>`You must give up going to stay with your aunt Moss the day after tomorrow, 
Maggie: write a note to her, and tell her you have put it off at my request 
and I'll send the man with it. She won't be displeased — you'll have plenty 
of time to go by and by. And I don't want you to go out of the way just now.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, indeed I must go, dear — I can't put it off. I wouldn't leave aunt 
Gritty out for the world. And I shall have very little time, for I'm going 
away to a new situation on the twenty fifth of June.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie!' said Lucy, almost white with astonishment. 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't tell you, dear,' said Maggie, making a great effort to command 
herself, `because you've been so busy. But some time ago, I wrote to our old 
governess, Miss Firniss, to ask her to let me know if she met with any 
situation that I could fill, and the other day I had a letter from her 
telling me that I could take three orphan pupils of hers to the coast during 
the holidays and then make trial of a situation with her as teacher. I wrote 
yesterday to accept the offer.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy felt so hurt that for some moments she was unable to speak. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' she said at last, `how could you be so unkind to me — not to tell 
me — to take <hi>such</hi> a step — and now!' She hesitated a little, and 
then added — `And Philip? I thought everything was going to be so happy. O 
Maggie — what is the reason? Give it up — let me write. There is nothing now 
to keep you and Philip apart.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' said Maggie, faintly. `There is Tom's feeling. He said I must give him 
up, if I married Philip. And I know he will not change — at least not for a 
long while — unless something happened to soften him.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I will talk to him — he's coming back this week. And this good news 
about the Mill will soften him. And I'll talk to him about Philip. Tom's 
always very compliant to me — I don't think he's so obstinate.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I must go,' said Maggie, in a distressed voice. `I must leave some time 
to pass. Don't press me to stay, dear Lucy.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy was silent for two or three minutes, looking away and ruminating. At 
length she knelt down by her cousin and looking up in her face with anxious 
seriousness, said— 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, is it that you don't love Philip well enough to marry him? — tell me 
— trust me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie held Lucy's hands tightly in silence a little while. Her owns hands 
were quite cold. But when she spoke, her voice was quietly clear and 
distinct. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Lucy — I would choose to marry him. I think it would be the best and 
highest lot for me — to make his life happy. He loved me first. No one else 
could be quite what he is to me. But I can't divide myself from my brother 
for life. I must go away, and wait. Pray don't speak to me again about it.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy obeyed in pain and wonder. The next word she said was, 


</p>
               <p>`Well, dear Maggie, at least you will go to the dance at Park House tomorrow, 
and have some music and brightness, before you go to pay these dull, dutiful 
visits. Ah! here come aunty and the tea.' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.10" type="chapter">
               <head>The Spell Seems Broken</head>
               <p>THE suite of rooms opening into each other at Park House looked duly 
brilliant with lights and flowers and the personal splendours of sixteen 
couples with attendant parents and guardians. The focus of brilliancy was the 
long drawing-room, where the dancing went forward, under the inspiration of 
the grand piano; the library into which it opened at one end had the more 
sober illumination of maturity, with caps and cards; and at the other end the 
pretty sitting- room with a conservatory attached, was left as an occasional 
cool retreat. Lucy, who had laid aside her black for the first time and had 
her pretty slimness set off by an abundant dress of white crape, was the 
acknowledged queen of the occasion, for this was one of the Miss Guests' 
thoroughly condescending parties, including no member of any aristocracy 
higher than that of St Ogg's, and stretching to the extreme limits of 
commercial and professional gentility. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie at first refused to dance, saying that she had forgotten all the 
figures — it was so many years since she had danced at school; and she was 
glad to have that excuse, for it is ill dancing with a heavy heart. But at 
length the music wrought in her young limbs, and the longing came; even 
though it was the horrible young Torry who walked up a second time to try and 
persuade her. She warned him that she could not dance anything but a country 
dance, but he, of course, was willing to wait for that high felicity, meaning 
only to be complimentary when he assured her at several intervals that it was 
a `great bore' that she couldn't waltz — he would have liked so much to waltz 
with her. But at last it was the turn of the good old-fashioned dance, which 
has the least of vanity and the most of merriment in it, and Maggie quite 
forgot her troublous life in a childlike enjoyment of that half-rustic 
rhythm, which seems to banish pretentious etiquette. She felt quite 
charitably towards young Torry, as his hand bore her along and held her up in 
the dance; her eyes and cheeks had that fire of young joy in them which will 
flame out if it can find the least breath to fan it; and her simple black 
dress, with its bit of black lace, seemed like the dim setting of a jewel. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen had not yet asked her to dance — had not yet paid her more than a 
passing civility. Since yesterday, that inward vision of her which 
perpetually made part of his consciousness, had been half-screened by the 
image of Philip Wakem which came across it like a blot: there was some 
attachment between her and Philip; at least there was an attachment on his 
side, which made her feel in some bondage. Here then, Stephen told himself, 
was another claim of honour which called on him to resist the attraction that 
was continually threatening to overpower him. He told himself so: and yet he 
had once or twice felt a certain savage resistance, and at another moment a 
shuddering repugnance, to this intrusion of Philip's image which almost made 
it a new incitement to rush towards Maggie and claim her for himself. 
Nevertheless he had done what he meant to do this evening: he had kept aloof 
from her: he had hardly looked at her; and he had been gaily assiduous to 
Lucy. But now his eyes were devouring Maggie: he felt inclined to kick young 
Torry out of the dance, and take his place. Then he wanted the dance to end 
that he might get rid of his partner. The possibility that he too should 
dance with Maggie, and have her hand in his so long, was beginning to possess 
him like a thirst. But even now their hands were meeting in the dance — were 
meeting still to the very end of it, though they were far off each other. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen hardly knew what happened, or in what automatic way he got through 
the duties of politeness in the interval, until he was free and saw Maggie 
seated alone again, at the farther end of the room. He made his way towards 
her round the couples that were forming for the waltz, and when Maggie became 
conscious that she was the person he sought, she felt, in spite of all the 
thoughts that had gone before, a glowing gladness at heart. Her eyes and 
cheeks were still brightened with her child-like enthusiasm in the dance; her 
whole frame was set to joy and tenderness: — even the coming pain could not 
seem bitter — she was ready to welcome it as a part of life, for life at this 
moment seemed a keen vibrating consciousness poised above the pleasure or 
pain. This one, this last night, she might expand unrestrainedly in the 
warmth of the present, without those chill eating thoughts of the past and 
the future. 


</p>
               <p>`They're going to waltz again,' said Stephen, bending to speak to her, with 
that glance and tone of subdued tenderness which young dreams create to 
themselves in the summer woods when low cooing voices fill the air. Such 
glances and tones bring the breath of poetry with them into a room that is 
half-stifling with glaring gas and hard flirtation. 


</p>
               <p>`They are going to waltz again: it is rather dizzy work to look on and the 
room is very warm. Shall we walk about a little?' 


</p>
               <p>He took her hand and placed it within his arm, and they walked on into the 
sitting-room, where the tables were strewn with engravings for the 
accommodation of visitors who did not want to look at them. But no visitors 
were here at this moment. They passed on into the conservatory. 


</p>
               <p>`How strange and unreal the trees and flowers look with the lights among 
them,' said Maggie, in a low voice. `They look as if they belonged to an 
enchanted land, and would never fade away: — I could fancy they were all made 
of jewels.' 


</p>
               <p>She was looking at the tier of geraniums as she spoke, and Stephen made no 
answer; but he was looking at her — and does not a supreme poet blend light 
and sound into one, calling darkness mute, and light eloquent? Something 
strangely powerful there was in the light of Stephen's long gaze, for it made 
Maggie's face turn towards it and look upward at it — slowly, like a flower 
at the ascending brightness. And they walked unsteadily on, without feeling 
that they were walking — without feeling anything but that long grave mutual 
gaze which has the solemnity belonging to all deep human passion. The 
hovering thought that they must and would renounce each other made this 
moment of mute confession more intense in its rapture. 


</p>
               <p>But they had reached the end of the conservatory, and were obliged to pause 
and turn. The change of movement brought a new consciousness to Maggie: she 
blushed deeply, turned away her head, and drew her arm from Stephen's, going 
up to some flowers to smell them. Stephen stood motionless and still pale. 


</p>
               <p>`O may I get this rose?' said Maggie, making a great effort to say something, 
and dissipate the burning sense of irretrievable confession. `I think I am 
quite wicked with roses — I like to gather them and smell them till they have 
no scent left.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen was mute: he was incapable of putting a sentence together, and Maggie 
bent her arm a little upward towards the large half-opened rose that had 
attracted her. Who has not felt the beauty of a woman's arm? — the 
unspeakable suggestions of tenderness that lie in the dimpled elbow and all 
the varied gently lessening curves down to the delicate wrist with its 
tiniest, almost imperceptible nicks in the firm softness. A woman's arm 
touched the soul of a great sculptor two thousand years ago, so that he 
wrought an image of it for the Parthenon which moves us still as it clasps 
lovingly the time-worn marble of a headless trunk. Maggie's was such an arm 
as that — and it had the warm tints of life. 


</p>
               <p>A mad impulse seized on Stephen; he darted towards the arm, and showered 
kisses on it, clasping the wrist. 


</p>
               <p>But the next moment Maggie snatched it from him and glared at him like a 
wounded war-goddess, quivering with rage and humiliation. 


</p>
               <p>`How dare you?' — she spoke in a deeply shaken, half-smothered voice. `What 
right have I given you to insult me?' 


</p>
               <p>She darted from him into the adjoining room and threw herself on the sofa, 
panting and trembling. 


</p>
               <p>A horrible punishment was come upon her, for the sin of allowing a moment's 
happiness that was treachery to Lucy, to Philip — to her own better soul. 
That momentary happiness had been smitten with a blight — a leprosy: Stephen 
thought more lightly of <hi>her</hi> than he did of Lucy. 


</p>
               <p>As for Stephen, he leaned back against the framework of the conservatory, 
dizzy with the conflict of passions — love, rage and confused despair: 
despair at his want of self-mastery, and despair that he had offended Maggie. 


</p>
               <p>The last feeling surmounted every other: to be by her side again and entreat 
forgiveness was the only thing that had the force of a motive for him, and 
she had not been seated more than a few minutes, when he came and stood 
humbly before her. But Maggie's bitter rage was unspent. 


</p>
               <p>`Leave me to myself, if you please,' she said, with impetuous haughtiness, 
`and for the future avoid me.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen turned away, and walked backwards and forwards at the other end of 
the room. There was the dire necessity of going back into the dancing-room 
again, and he was beginning to be conscious of that. They had been absent so 
short a time that when he went in again, the waltz was not ended. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, too, was not long before she re-entered. All the pride of her nature 
was stung into activity: the hateful weakness which had dragged her within 
reach of this wound to her self-respect, had at least wrought its own cure. 
The thoughts and temptations of the last month should all be flung away into 
an unvisited chamber of memory: there was nothing to allure her now; duty 
would be easy, and all the old calm purposes would reign peacefully once 
more. She re-entered the drawing-room still with some excited brightness in 
her face, but with a sense of proud self-command that defied anything to 
agitate her. She refused to dance again, but she talked quite readily and 
calmly with every one who addressed her. And when they got home that night, 
she kissed Lucy with a free heart, almost exulting in this scorching moment 
which had delivered her from the possibility of another word or look that 
would have the stamp of treachery towards that gentle, unsuspicious sister. 


</p>
               <p>The next morning Maggie did not set off to Basset quite so soon as she had 
expected. Her mother was to accompany her in the carriage, and household 
business could not be despatched hastily by Mrs Tulliver. So Maggie, who had 
been in a hurry to prepare herself, had to sit waiting, equipped for the 
drive, in the garden. Lucy was busy in the house wrapping up some bazaar 
presents for the younger ones at Basset, and when there was a loud ring at 
the doorbell, Maggie felt some alarm lest Lucy should bring out Stephen to 
her: it was sure to be Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>But presently the visitor came out into the garden alone, and seated himself 
by her on the garden chair. It was not Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>`We can just catch the tips of the Scotch firs, Maggie, from this seat,' said 
Philip. 


</p>
               <p>They had taken each other's hands in silence, but Maggie had looked at him 
with a more complete revival of the old childlike affectionate smile than he 
had seen before, and he felt encouraged. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes,' she said, `I often look at them, and wish I could see the low sunlight 
on the stems again. But I have never been that way but once — to the 
churchyard, with my mother.' 


</p>
               <p>`I have been there — I go there — continually,' said Philip. `I have nothing 
but the past to live upon.' 


</p>
               <p>A keen remembrance and keen pity impelled Maggie to put her hand in Philip's. 
They had so often walked hand in hand! 


</p>
               <p>`I remember all the spots — just where you told me of particular things — 
beautiful stories that I had never heard of before.' 


</p>
               <p>`You will go there again soon — won't you, Maggie?' said Philip, getting 
timid and tremulous. `The Mill will soon be your brother's home again.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes — but I shall not be there,' said Maggie. `I shall only hear of that 
happiness. I am going away again — Lucy has not told you, perhaps?' 


</p>
               <p>`Then the future will never join on to the past again, Maggie? — That book is 
quite closed?' 


</p>
               <p>The grey eyes that had so often looked up at her with entreating worship, 
looked up at her now, with a last struggling ray of hope in them, and Maggie 
met them with her large sincere gaze. 


</p>
               <p>`That book never will be closed, Philip,' she said, with grave sadness. `I 
desire no future that will break the ties of the past. But the tie to my 
brother is one of the strongest. I can do nothing willingly that will divide 
me always from him.' 


</p>
               <p>`Is that the only reason that would keep us apart for ever, Maggie?' said 
Philip, with a desperate determination to have a definite answer. 


</p>
               <p>`The only reason,' said Maggie, with calm decision. And she believed it. At 
that moment she felt as if the enchanted cup had been dashed to the ground. 
The reactionary excitement that gave her a proud self-mastery had not 
subsided, and she looked at the future with a sense of calm choice. 


</p>
               <p>They sat hand in hand without looking at each other or speaking for a few 
minutes: in Maggie's mind the first scenes of love and parting were more 
present than the actual moment, and she was looking at Philip in the Red 
Deeps. 


</p>
               <p>Philip felt that he ought to have been thoroughly happy in that answer of 
hers: she was as open and transparent as a rock-pool. Why was he not 
thoroughly happy? — Jealousy is never satisfied with anything short of an 
omniscience that would detect the subtlest fold of the heart. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.11" type="chapter">
               <head>In the Lane</head>
               <p>MAGGIE had been four days at her aunt Moss's giving the early June sunshine 
quite a new brightness in the care-dimmed eyes of that affectionate woman, 
and making an epoch for her cousins great and small, who were learning her 
words and actions by heart, as if she had been a transient avatar of perfect 
wisdom and beauty. 


</p>
               <p>She was standing on the causeway with her aunt and a group of cousins feeding 
the chickens, at that quiet moment in the life of the farmyard before the 
afternoon milking-time. The great buildings round the hollow yard were as 
dreary and tumbledown as ever, but over the old garden wall the straggling 
rose-bushes were beginning to toss their summer weight, and the grey wood and 
old bricks of the house, on its higher level, had a look of sleepy age in the 
broad after-noon sunlight, that suited the quiescent time. Maggie with her 
bonnet over her arm, was smiling down at a hatch of small fluffy chickens 
when her aunt exclaimed, 


</p>
               <p>`Goodness me! who is that gentleman coming in at the gate?' 


</p>
               <p>It was a gentleman on a tall bay horse; and the flanks and neck of the horse 
were streaked black with fast riding. Maggie felt a beating at head and heart 
— horrible as the sudden leaping to life of a savage enemy who had feigned 
death. 


</p>
               <p>`Who is it, my dear?' said Mrs Moss, seeing in Maggie's face the evidence 
that she knew. 


</p>
               <p>`It is Mr Stephen Guest,' said Maggie, rather faintly. `My cousin Lucy's — a 
gentleman who is very intimate at my cousin's.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen was already close to them, had jumped off his horse, and now raised 
his hat as he advanced. 


</p>
               <p>`Hold the horse, Willy,' said Mrs Moss to the twelve-year-old boy. 


</p>
               <p>`No, thank you,' said Stephen, pulling at the horse's impatiently tossing 
head. `I must be going again immediately. I have a message to deliver to you, 
Miss Tulliver — on private business. May I take the liberty of asking you to 
walk a few yards with me?' 


</p>
               <p>He had a half-jaded, half-irritated look, such as a man gets when he has been 
dogged by some care or annoyance that makes his bed and his dinner of little 
use to him. He spoke almost abruptly, as if his errand were too pressing for 
him to trouble himself about what would be thought by Mrs Moss of his visit 
and request. Good Mrs Moss, rather nervous in the presence of this apparently 
haughty gentleman, was inwardly wondering whether she would be doing right or 
wrong to invite him again to leave his horse and walk in, when Maggie, 
feeling all the embarrassment of the situation, and unable to say anything, 
put on her bonnet and turned to walk towards the gate. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen turned too and walked by her side, leading his horse. 


</p>
               <p>Not a word was spoken till they were out in the lane and had walked four or 
five yards, when Maggie, who had been looking straight before her all the 
while, turned again to walk back saying, with haughty resentment, 


</p>
               <p>`There is no need for me to go any farther. I don't know whether you consider 
it gentlemanly and delicate conduct to place me in a position that forced me 
to come out with you — or whether you wished to insult me still further by 
thrusting an interview upon me in this way.' 


</p>
               <p>`Of course you are angry with me for coming,' said Stephen, bitterly. `Of 
course it is of no consequence what a man has to suffer — it is only your 
woman's dignity that you care about.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie gave a slight start, such as might have come from the slightest 
possible electric shock. 


</p>
               <p>`As if it were not enough that I'm entangled in this way — that I'm mad with 
love for you — that I resist the strongest passion a man can feel, because I 
try to be true to other claims — but you must treat me as if I were a coarse 
brute who would willingly offend you. And when, if I had my own choice, I 
should ask you take my hand, and my fortune and my whole life, and do what 
you liked with them. I know I forgot myself — I took an unwarrantable liberty 
— I hate myself for having done it. But I repented immediately — I've been 
repenting ever since. You ought not to think it unpardonable — a man who 
loves with his whole soul, as I do you, is liable to be mastered by his 
feelings for a moment; but you know — you must believe — that the worst pain 
I could have is to have pained you — that I would give the world to recall 
the error.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie dared not speak — dared not turn her head. The strength that had come 
from resentment was all gone and her lips were quivering visibly. She could 
not trust herself to utter the full forgiveness that rose in answer to that 
confession. 


</p>
               <p>They were come nearly in front of the gate again, and she paused, trembling. 


</p>
               <p>`You must not say these things — I must not hear them,' she said, looking 
down in misery, as Stephen came in front of her, to prevent her from going 
farther towards the gate. `I'm very sorry for any pain you have to go 
through, but it is of no use to speak.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, it <hi>is</hi> of use,' said Stephen, impetuously. `It would be of use 
if you would treat me with some sort of pity and consideration instead of 
doing me vile injustice in your mind. I could bear everything more quietly if 
I knew you didn't hate me for an insolent coxcomb. Look at me — see what a 
hunted devil I am: I've been riding thirty miles every day to get away from 
the thought of you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie did not — dared not look. She had already seen the harassed face. But 
she said gently, `I don't think any evil of you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then, dearest, look at me,' said Stephen, in deepest, tenderest tones of 
entreaty. `Don't go away from me yet. Give me a moment's happiness — make me 
feel you've forgiven me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I do forgive you,' said Maggie, shaken by those tones, and all the more 
frightened at herself. `But pray let me go in again. Pray go away.' 


</p>
               <p>A great tear fell from under her lowered eyelids. 


</p>
               <p>`I can't go away from you — I can't leave you,' said Stephen, with still more 
passionate pleading. `I shall come back again if you send me away with this 
coldness — I can't answer for myself. But if you will go with me only a 
little way, I can live on that. You see plainly enough that your anger has 
only made me ten times more unreasonable.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie turned. But Tancred, the bay horse, began to make such spirited 
remonstrances against this frequent change of direction, that Stephen, 
catching sight of Willy Moss peeping through the gate, called out, `Here! 
just come and hold my horse for five minutes.' 


</p>
               <p>`O no,' said Maggie, hurriedly, `my aunt will think it so strange.' 


</p>
               <p>`Never mind,' Stephen answered impatiently; `they don't know the people at St 
Ogg's. Lead him up and down just here, for five minutes,' he added to Willy, 
who was now close to them; and then he turned to Maggie's side, and they 
walked on. It was clear that she <hi>must</hi> go on now. 


</p>
               <p>`Take my arm,' said Stephen, entreatingly; and she took it, feeling all the 
while as if she were sliding downwards in a nightmare. 


</p>
               <p>`There is no end to this misery,' she began, struggling to repel the 
influence by speech. `It is wicked — base — ever allowing a word or look that 
Lucy — that others might not have seen. Think of Lucy.' 


</p>
               <p>`I do think of her — bless her — If I didn't—' Stephen had laid his hand on 
Maggie's that rested on his arm, and they both felt it difficult to speak. 


</p>
               <p>`And I have other ties,' Maggie went on, at last, with a desperate effort, — 
`even if Lucy did not exist.' 


</p>
               <p>`You are engaged to Philip Wakem,' said Stephen, hastily. `Is it so?' 


</p>
               <p>`I consider myself engaged to him — I don't mean to marry any one else. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen was silent again until they had turned out of the sun into a side 
lane, all grassy and sheltered. Then he burst out impetuously, 


</p>
               <p>`It is unnatural — it is horrible. Maggie, if you loved me as I love you, we 
should throw everything else to the winds for the sake of belonging to each 
other. We should break all these mistaken ties that were made in blindness — 
and determine to marry each other.' 


</p>
               <p>`I would rather die than fall into that temptation,' said Maggie, with deep, 
slow distinctness, — all the gathered spiritual force of painful years coming 
to her aid in this extremity. She drew her arm from his as she spoke. 


</p>
               <p>`Tell me then that you don't care for me,' he said, almost violently. `Tell 
me that you love some one else better.' 


</p>
               <p>It darted through Maggie's mind that here was a mode of releasing herself 
from outward struggle — to tell Stephen that her whole heart was Philip's. 
But her lips would not utter that, and she was silent. 


</p>
               <p>`If you do love me, dearest,' said Stephen, gently, taking up her hand again 
and laying it within his arm, `it is better, it is right that we should marry 
each other. We can't help the pain it will give. It is come upon us without 
our seeking: it is natural — it has taken hold of me in spite of every effort 
I have made to resist it. God knows, I've been trying to be faithful to tacit 
engagements, and I've only made things worse — I'd better have given way at 
first.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie was silent. If it were <hi>not</hi> wrong — if she were once 
convinced of that, and need no longer beat and struggle against this current, 
soft and yet strong as the summer stream! 


</p>
               <p>`Say ”yes,” dearest,' said Stephen, leaning to look entreatingly in 
her face. `What could we care about in the whole world beside, if we belonged 
to each other?' 


</p>
               <p>Her breath was on his face — his lips were very near hers — but there was a 
great dread dwelling in his love for her. 


</p>
               <p>Her lips and eyelids quivered — she opened her eyes full on his for an 
instant, like a lovely wild animal timid and struggling under caresses, and 
then turned sharp round towards home again. 


</p>
               <p>`And after all,' he went on, in an impatient tone, trying to defeat his own 
scruples as well as hers, `I am breaking no positive engagement: — if Lucy's 
affections had been withdrawn from me and given to some one else, I should 
have felt no right to assert a claim on her. If you are not absolutely 
pledged to Philip, we are neither of us bound.' 


</p>
               <p>`You don't believe that — it is not your real feeling,' said Maggie, 
earnestly. `You feel, as I do, that the real tie lies in the feelings and 
expectations we have raised in other minds. Else all pledges might be broken, 
when there was no outward penalty. There would be no such thing as 
faithfulness.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen was silent: he could not pursue that argument; the opposite 
conviction had wrought in him too strongly through his previous time of 
struggle. But it soon presented itself in a new form. 


</p>
               <p>`The pledge <hi>can't</hi> be fulfilled,' he said, with impetuous insistance. 
`It is unnatural: we can only pretend to give ourselves to any one else. 
There is wrong in that too — there may be misery in it for <hi>them</hi> as 
well as for us. Maggie, you must see that — you do see that.' 


</p>
               <p>He was looking eagerly at her face for the least sign of compliance; his 
large, firm, gentle grasp was on her hand. She was silent for a few moments, 
with her eyes fixed on the ground; then she drew a deep breath, and said, 
looking up at him with solemn sadness, 


</p>
               <p>`O it is difficult — life is very difficult. It seems right to me sometimes 
that we should follow our strongest feeling; — but then, such feelings 
continually come across the ties that all our former life has made for us — 
the ties that have made others dependent on us — and would cut them in two. 
If life were quite easy and simple, as it might have been in paradise, and we 
could always see that one being first towards whom... I mean, if life did not 
make duties for us before love comes — love would be a sign that two people 
ought to belong to each other. But I see — I feel it is not so now: there are 
things we must renounce in life — some of us must resign love. Many things 
are difficult and dark to me — but I see one thing quite clearly — that I 
must not, cannot seek my own happiness by sacrificing others. Love is natural 
— but surely pity and faithfulness and memory are natural too. And they would 
live in me still, and punish me if I didn't obey them. I should be haunted by 
the suffering I had caused. Our 
 love would be poisoned. Don't urge me; help me — help me, <hi>because</hi> I 
love you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had become more and more earnest as she went on; her face had become 
flushed, and her eyes fuller and fuller of appealing love. Stephen had the 
fibre of nobleness in him that vibrated to her appeal; but in the same moment 
— how could it be otherwise? — that pleading beauty gained new power over 
him. 


</p>
               <p>`Dearest,' he said, in scarcely more than a whisper, while his arm stole 
round her, `I'll do, I'll bear anything you wish. But — one kiss — one — the 
last — before we part.' 


</p>
               <p>One kiss — and then a long look — until Maggie said tremulously, `Let me go — 
let us make haste back.' 


</p>
               <p>She hurried along and not another word was spoken. Stephen stood still and 
beckoned when they came within sight of Willy and the horse, and Maggie went 
on through the gate. Mrs Moss was standing alone at the door of the old 
porch: she had sent all the cousins in, with kind thoughtfulness; it might be 
a joyful thing that Maggie had a rich and handsome lover, but she would 
naturally feel embarrassed at coming in again — and it might <hi>not</hi> be 
joyful. In either case, Mrs Moss waited anxiously to receive Maggie by 
herself. The poor thing's face said plainly enough that if there was joy, it 
was of a very agitating dubious sort. 


</p>
               <p>`Sit down here a bit, my dear.' She drew Maggie into the porch, and sat down 
on the bench by her. There was no privacy in the house. 


</p>
               <p>`O aunt Gritty, I'm very wretched. I wish I could have died when I was 
fifteen. It seemed so easy to give things up then — it is so hard now.' 


</p>
               <p>The poor child threw her arms round her aunt's neck, and fell into long, deep 
sobs. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.12" type="chapter">
               <head>A Family Party</head>
               <p>MAGGIE left her good aunt Gritty at the end of the week, and went to Garum 
Firs to pay her visit to aunt Pullet according to agreement. In the mean 
time, very unexpected things had happened, and there was to be a family party 
at Garum to discuss and celebrate a change in the fortunes of the Tullivers, 
which was likely finally to carry away the shadow of their demerits like the 
last limb of an eclipse, and cause their hitherto obscured virtues to shine 
forth in full-rounded splendour. It is pleasant to know that a new ministry 
just come into office are not the only fellow-men who enjoy a period of high 
appreciation and full-blown eulogy: in many respectable families throughout 
this realm relatives becoming creditable meet with a similar cordiality of 
recognition, which in its fine freedom from the coercion of any antecedents, 
suggests the hopeful possibility that we may some day without any notice find 
ourselves in full millennium, with cockatrices who have ceased to bite and 
wolves that no longer show their teeth with any but the blandest intentions. 


</p>
               <p>Lucy came so early as to have the start even of aunt Glegg; for the longed to 
have some undisturbed talk with Maggie about the wonderful news. It seemed — 
did it not? said Lucy, with her prettiest air of wisdom — as if everything, 
even other people's misfortunes (poor creatures!) were conspiring now to make 
poor dear aunt Tulliver, and cousin Tom, and haughty Maggie too, if she were 
not obstinately bent on the contrary, as happy as they deserved to be after 
all their troubles. To think that the very day — the <hi>very day</hi> — 
after Tom had come back from Newcastle, that unfortunate young Jetsome, whom 
Mr Wakem had placed at the Mill, had been pitched off his horse in a drunken 
fit, and was lying at St Ogg's in a dangerous state, so that Wakem had 
signified his wish that the new purchasers should enter on the premises at 
once! It was very dreadful for that unhappy young man, but it did seem as if 
the misfortune had happened then, rather than at any other time, in order 
that cousin Tom might all the sooner have the fit reward of his exemplary 
conduct — papa thought so very highly of him. Aunt Tulliver must certainly go 
to the Mill now and keep house for Tom: that was rather a loss to Lucy in the 
matter of household comfort; but then, to think of poor aunty being in her 
old place again and gradually getting comforts about her there! 


</p>
               <p>On this last point Lucy had her cunning projects, and when she and Maggie had 
made their dangerous way down the bright stairs into the handsome parlour 
where the very sunbeams seemed cleaner than elsewhere, she directed her 
manoeuvres as any other great tactician would have done, against the weaker 
side of the enemy. 


</p>
               <p>`Aunt Pullet,' she said, seating herself on the sofa, and caressingly 
adjusting that lady's floating cap-string, `I want you to make up your mind 
what linen and things you will give Tom towards housekeeping; because you're 
always so generous, you give such nice things, you know; and if you set the 
example, aunt Glegg will follow.' 


</p>
               <p>`That she never can, my dear,' said Mrs Pullet, with unusual vigour, `for she 
hasn't got the linen to follow suit wi' mine, I can tell you. She'd niver the 
taste, not if she'd spend the money. Big checks and live things, like stags 
and foxes, all her table-linen is — not a spot nor a diamont among 'em. But 
it's poor work, dividing one's linen before one dies — I niver thought to ha' 
done that, Bessy,' Mrs Pullet continued, shaking her head and looking at her 
sister Tulliver, `when you and me chose the double diamont, the first flax 
iver we'd spun — and the Lord knows where yours is gone.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'd no choice, I'm sure, sister,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, accustomed to 
consider herself in the light of an accused person. `I'm sure it was no wish 
o' mine, iver, as I should lie awake o' nights thinking o' my best bleached 
linen all over the country.' 


</p>
               <p>`Take a peppermint, Mrs Tulliver,' said uncle Pullet, feeling that he was 
offering a cheap and wholesome form of comfort, which he was recommending by 
example. 


</p>
               <p>`O but, aunt Pullet,' said Lucy, `you've so much beautiful linen. And suppose 
you had had daughters! Then you must have divided it, when they were 
married.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, I don't say as I won't do it,' said Mrs Pullet, `for now Tom's so 
lucky, it's nothing but right his friends should look on him and help him. 
There's the table-cloths I bought at your sale, Bessy, it was nothing but 
good natur o' me to buy 'em, for they've been lying in the chest ever since. 
But I'm not going to give Maggie any more o' my Indy muslin and things, if 
she's to go into service again, when she might stay and keep me company, and 
do my sewing for me, if she wasn't wanted at her brother's.' 


</p>
               <p>`Going into service' was the expression by which the Dodson mind represented 
to itself the position of teacher or governess, and Maggie's return to that 
menial condition, now circumstances offered her more eligible prospects, was 
likely to be a sore point with all her relatives, besides Lucy. Maggie in her 
crude form, with her hair down her back and altogether in a state of dubious 
promise, was a most undesirable niece; but now, she was capable of being at 
once ornamental and useful. The subject was revived in aunt and uncle Glegg's 
presence, over the tea and muffins. 


</p>
               <p>`Hegh, hegh!' said Mr Glegg, good-naturedly patting Maggie on the back, 
`Nonsense, nonsense! Don't let us hear of you taking a place again, Maggie. 
Why, you must ha' picked up half-a-dozen sweethearts at the bazaar — isn't 
there one of 'em the right sort of article? Come, now?' 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' said his wife, with that shade of increased politeness in her 
severity, which she always put on with her crisper fronts. `You'll excuse me, 
but you're far too light for a man of your years. It's respect and duty to 
her aunts and the rest of her kin as are so good to her, should have kept my 
niece from fixing about going away again, without consulting us — not 
sweethearts, if I'm to use such a word, though it was never heared in 
<hi>my</hi> family.' 


</p>
               <p>`Why, what did they call us, when we went to see 'em, then, eh, neighbour 
Pullet? They thought us sweet enough then,' said Mr Glegg, winking 
pleasantly, while Mr Pullet, at the suggestion of sweetness, took a little 
more sugar. 


</p>
               <p>`Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G., `if you're going to be undelicate, let me know.' 


</p>
               <p>`La, Jane, your husband's only joking,' said Mrs Pullet, `let him joke while 
he's got health and strength. There's poor Mr Tilt got his mouth drawn all o' 
one side, and couldn't laugh if he was to try.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'll trouble you for the muffineer, then, Mr Glegg,' said Mrs G., `if I may 
be so bold to interrupt your joking. Though it's other people must see the 
joke in a niece's putting a slight on her mother's eldest sister, as is the 
head o' the family; and only coming in and out on short visits all the time 
she's been in the town, and then settling to go away without my knowledge — 
as I'd laid caps out on purpose for her to make 'em up for me, — and me as 
have divided my money so equal—' 


</p>
               <p>`Sister,' Mrs Tulliver broke in, anxiously, `I'm sure Maggie never thought o' 
going away without staying at your house as well as the others. Not as it's 
my wish she should go away at all — but quite contrairy. I'm sure I'm 
innicent. I've said over and over again, ”My dear, you've no call to go 
away.” But there's ten days or a fortnight Maggie'll have before she's 
fixed to go: she can stay at your house just as well, as I'll step in when I 
can, and so will Lucy.' 


</p>
               <p>`Bessy,' said Mrs Glegg, `if you'd exercise a little more thought, you might 
know I should hardly think it was worth while to unpin a bed, and go to all 
that trouble now, just at the end o' the time, when our house isn't above a 
quarter of an hour's walk from Mr Deane's. She can come the first thing in 
the morning and go back the last at night, and be thankful she's got a good 
aunt so close to her to come and sit with. I know <hi>I</hi> should, when I 
was her age.' 


</p>
               <p>`La, Jane,' said Mrs Pullet, `it 'ud do your beds good to have somebody to 
sleep in 'em. There's that Striped Room smells dreadful mouldy, and the glass 
mildewed like anything: I'm sure I thought I should be struck with death when 
you took me in.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, there is Tom!' exclaimed Lucy, clapping her hands. `He's come on Sindbad, 
as I told him. I was afraid he was not going to keep his promise.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie jumped up to kiss Tom as he entered, with strong feeling, at this 
first meeting since the prospect of returning to the Mill had been opened to 
him, and she kept his hand, leading him to the chair by her side. To have no 
cloud between herself and Tom was still a perpetual yearning in her, that had 
its root deeper than all change. He smiled at her very kindly this evening 
and said, `Well, Magsie, how's aunt Moss?' 


</p>
               <p>`Come, come, sir,' said Mr Glegg, putting out his hand. `Why, you're such a 
big man, you carry all before you, it seems. You're come into your luck a 
good deal earlier than us old folks did — but I wish you joy, I wish you joy. 
You'll get the Mill all for your own again, some day, I'll be bound. You 
won't stop half-way up the hill.' 


</p>
               <p>`But I hope he'll bear in mind as it's his mother's family as he owes it to,' 
said Mrs Glegg. `If he hadn't had them to take after, he'd ha' been poorly 
off. There was never any failures, nor lawing, nor wastefulness in our family 
— nor dying without wills—' 


</p>
               <p>`No, nor sudden deaths,' said aunt Pullet. `Allays the doctor called in. But 
Tom had the Dodson skin — I said that from the first. And I don't know what 
<hi>you</hi> mean to do, sister Glegg, but I mean to give him a table cloth 
of all my three biggest sizes but one, besides sheets. I don't say what more 
I shall do, but <hi>that</hi> I shall do, and if I should die to-morrow, Mr 
Pullet, you'll bear it in mind — though you'll be blundering with the keys, 
and never remember as that on the third shelf o' the left hand wardrobe, 
behind the night-caps with the broad ties — not the narrow-frilled uns — is 
the key o' the drawer in the Blue Room, where the key o' the Blue Closet is. 
You'll make a mistake and I shall niver be worthy to know it. You've a memory 
for my pills and draughts, wonderful — I'll allays say that of you — but 
you're lost among the keys.' This gloomy prospect of the confusion that would 
ensue on her decease was very affecting to Mrs Pullet. 


</p>
               <p>`You carry it too far, Sophy — that locking in and out,' said Mrs Glegg, in a 
tone of some disgust at this folly. `You go beyond your own family. There's 
nobody can say I don't lock up; but I do what's reasonable, and no more. And 
as for the linen, I shall look out what's serviceable, to make a present of 
to my nevvie: I've got cloth as has never been whittened, better worth having 
than other people's fine holland; and I hope he'll lie down in it and think 
of his aunt.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom thanked Mrs Glegg, but evaded any promise to meditate nightly on her 
virtues; and Mr Glegg effected a diversion for him by asking about Mr Deane's 
intentions concerning steam. 


</p>
               <p>Lucy had had her far-sighted views in begging Tom to come on Sindbad. It 
appeared, when it was time to go home, that the manservant was to ride the 
horse, and cousin Tom was to drive home his mother and Lucy. `You must sit by 
yourself, aunty,' said that contriving young lady, `because I must sit by 
Tom; I've a great deal to say to him.' 


</p>
               <p>In the eagerness of her affectionate anxiety for Maggie, Lucy could not 
persuade herself to defer a conversation about her with Tom, who, she 
thought, with such a cup of joy before him as this rapid fulfilment of his 
wish about the Mill, must become pliant and flexible. Her nature supplied her 
with no key to Tom's, and she was puzzled as well as pained to notice the 
unpleasant change on his countenance when she gave him the history of the way 
in which Philip had used his influence with his father. She had counted on 
this revelation as a great stroke of policy, which was to turn Tom's heart 
towards Philip at once, and besides that, prove that the elder Wakem was 
ready to receive Maggie with all the honours of a daughter-in-law. Nothing 
was wanted, then, but for dear Tom, who always had that pleasant smile when 
he looked at cousin Lucy, to turn completely round, say the opposite of what 
he had always said before, and declare that he, for his part, was delighted 
that all the old grievances should be healed and that Maggie should have 
Philip with all suitable despatch: in cousin Lucy's opinion nothing could be 
easier. 


</p>
               <p>But to minds strongly marked by the positive and negative qualities that 
create severity — strength of will, conscious rectitude of purpose, 
narrowness of imagination and intellect, great power of self-control and a 
disposition to exert control over others — prejudices come as the natural 
food of tendencies which can get no sustenance out of that complex, 
fragmentary, doubt-provoking knowledge which we call truth. Let a prejudice 
be bequeathed, carried in the air, adopted by hearsay, caught in through the 
eye — however it may come, these minds will give it a habitation: it is 
something to assert strongly and bravely, something to fill up the void of 
spontaneous ideas, something to impose on others with the authority of 
conscious right: it is at once a staff and a baton. Every prejudice that will 
answer these purposes is self-evident. Our good upright Tom Tulliver's mind 
was of this class: his inward criticism of his father's faults did not 
prevent him from adopting his father's prejudice; it was a prejudice against 
a man of lax principle and lax life, and it was a meeting-point for all the 
disappointed feelings of family and personal pride. Other feelings added 
their force to produce Tom's bitter repugnance to Philip and to Maggie's 
union with him; and notwithstanding Lucy's power over her strong-willed 
cousin, she got nothing but a cold refusal ever to sanction such a marriage: 
`but of course Maggie could do as she liked — she had declared her 
determination to be independent. For Tom's part, he held himself bound by his 
duty to his father's memory, and by every manly feeling, never to consent to 
any relation with the Wakems.' 


</p>
               <p>Thus, all that Lucy had effected by her zealous mediation was to fill Tom's 
mind with the expectation that Maggie's perverse resolve to go into a 
situation again, would presently metamorphose itself, as her resolves were 
apt to do, into something equally perverse, but entirely different — a 
marriage with Philip Wakem. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.13" type="chapter">
               <head>Borne Along by the Tide</head>
               <p>IN less than a week Maggie was at St Ogg's again, — outwardly in much the 
same position as when her visit there had just begun. It was easy for her to 
fill her mornings apart from Lucy without any obvious effort; for she had her 
promised visits to pay to her aunt Glegg, and it was natural that she should 
give her mother more than usual of her companionship in these last weeks, 
especially as there were preparations to be thought of for Tom's 
housekeeping. But Lucy would hear of no pretext for her remaining away in the 
evenings: she must always come from aunt Glegg's before dinner — `else what 
shall I have of you?' said Lucy, with a tearful pout that could not be 
resisted. And Mr Stephen Guest had unaccountably taken to dining at Mr 
Deane's as often as possible, instead of avoiding that, as he used to do. At 
first he began his mornings with a resolution that he would not dine there — 
not even go in the evening, till Maggie was away. He had even devised a plan 
of starting off on a journey in this agreeable June weather: the headaches 
which he had constantly been alleging as a ground for stupidity and silence 
were a sufficient ostensible motive. But the journey was not taken, and by 
the fourth morning no distinct resolution was formed about the evenings: they 
were only foreseen as times when Maggie would still be present for a little 
while — when one more touch, one more glance might be snatched. For, why not? 
There was nothing to conceal between them: they knew — they had confessed 
their love, and they had renounced each other — they were going to part. 
Honour and conscience were going to divide them — Maggie, with that appeal 
from her inmost soul had decided it: but surely they might cast a lingering 
look at each other across the gulf, before they turned away never to look 
again till that strange light had for ever faded out of their eyes. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, all this time, moved about with a quiescence and even torpor of 
manner, so contrasted with her usual fitful brightness and ardour, that Lucy 
would have had to seek some other cause for such a change if she had not been 
convinced that the position in which Maggie stood between Philip and her 
brother and the prospect of her self-imposed wearisome banishment were quite 
enough to account for a large amount of depression. But under this torpor 
there was a fierce battle of emotions, such as Maggie in all her life of 
struggle had never known or foreboded: it seemed to her as if all the worst 
evil in her had lain in ambush till now and had suddenly started up 
full-armed with hideous, overpowering strength. There were moments in which a 
cruel selfishness seemed to be getting possession of her: why should not Lucy 
— why should not Philip suffer? <hi>She</hi> had had to suffer through many 
years of her life, and who had renounced anything for her? And when something 
like that fulness of existence — love, wealth, ease, refinement — all that 
her nature craved was brought within her reach, why was she to forego it, 
that another might have it — another, who perhaps needed it less? But amidst 
all this new passionate tumult there were the old voices making themselves 
heard with rising power till, from time to time, the tumult seemed quelled. 
<hi>Was</hi> that existence which tempted her, the full existence she 
dreamed? Where, then, would be all the memories of early striving, all the 
deep pity for another's pain which had been nurtured in her through years of 
affection and hardship, all the divine presentiment of something higher than 
mere personal enjoyment which had made the sacredness of life? She might as 
well hope to enjoy walking by maiming her feet, as hope to enjoy an existence 
in which she set out by maiming the faith and sympathy that were the best 
organs of her soul. And then, if pain were so hard to <hi>her</hi> — what was 
it to others? — Ah, God! preserve me from inflicting — give me strength to 
bear it. — How had she sunk into this struggle with a temptation that she 
would once have thought herself as secure from, as from deliberate crime? 
When was that first hateful moment in which she had been conscious of a 
feeling that clashed with her truth, affection, and gratitude, and had not 
shaken it from her with horror, as if it had been a loathsome thing? — And 
yet, since this strange, sweet, subduing influence did not, should not 
conquer her — since it was to remain simply her own suffering... her mind was 
meeting Stephen's in that thought of his, that they might still snatch 
moments of mute confession before the parting came. For was not he suffering 
too? She saw it daily — saw it in the sickened look of fatigue with which as 
soon as he was not compelled to exert himself he relapsed into indifference 
towards everything but the possibility of watching her. Could she refuse 
sometimes to answer that beseeching look which she felt to be following her 
like a low murmur of love and pain? She refused it less and less, till at 
last the evening for them both was sometimes made of a moment's mutual gaze — 
they thought of it till it came, and when it had come, they thought of 
nothing else. One other thing Stephen seemed now and then to care for, and 
that was, to sing: it was a way of speaking to Maggie — perhaps he was not 
distinctly conscious that he was impelled to it by a secret longing, running 
counter to all his self-confessed resolves, to deepen the hold he had on her. 
Watch your own speech, and notice how it is guided by your less conscious 
purposes, and you will understand that contradiction in Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>Philip Wakem was a less frequent visitor, but he came occasionally in the 
evening, and it happened that he was there when Lucy said, as they sat out on 
the lawn, near sunset, 


</p>
               <p>`Now Maggie's tale of visits to aunt Glegg is completed, I mean that we shall 
go out boating every day until she goes: — She has not had half enough 
boating, because of these tiresome visits, and she likes it better than 
anything. Don't you, Maggie?' 


</p>
               <p>`Better than any sort of locomotion, I hope you mean,' said Philip, smiling 
at Maggie, who was lolling backward in a low garden chair, `else she will be 
selling her soul to that ghostly boatman who haunts the Floss — only for the 
sake of being drifted in a boat for ever.' 


</p>
               <p>`Should you like to be her boatman?' said Lucy. `Because, if you would, you 
can come with us and take an oar. If the Floss were but a quiet lake instead 
of a river, we should be independent of any gentleman, for Maggie can row 
splendidly. As it is, we are reduced to ask services of knights and squires, 
who do not seem to offer them with great alacrity.' 


</p>
               <p>She looked playful reproach at Stephen, who was sauntering up and down, and 
was just singing in pianissimo falsetto 


</p>
               <p>`The thirst that from the soul doth rise, Doth ask a drink 
divine.' 


</p>
               <p>He took no notice, but still kept aloof: he had done so frequently during 
Philip's recent visits. 


</p>
               <p>`You don't seem inclined for boating,' said Lucy, when he came to sit down by 
her on the bench. `Doesn't rowing suit you now?' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I hate a large party in a boat,' he said, almost irritably. `I'll come 
when you have no one else.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy coloured, fearing that Philip would be hurt: it was quite a new thing 
for Stephen to speak in that way, but he had certainly not been well of late. 
Philip coloured too, but less from a feeling of personal offence than from a 
vague suspicion that Stephen's moodiness had some relation to Maggie, who had 
started up from her chair as he spoke, and had walked towards the hedge of 
laurels to look at the descending sunlight on the river. 


</p>
               <p>`As Miss Deane didn't know she was excluding others by inviting me,' said 
Philip, `I am bound to resign.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, indeed, you shall not,' said Lucy, much vexed. `I particularly wish for 
your company tomorrow. The tide will suit at half-past ten — it will be a 
delicious time for a couple of hours to row to Luckreth and walk back, before 
the sun gets too hot. And how can you object to four people in a boat?' she 
added, looking at Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>`I don't object to the people, but the number,' said Stephen, who had 
recovered himself, and was rather ashamed of his rudeness. `If I voted for a 
fourth at all, of course it would be you, Phil. But we won't divide the 
pleasure of escorting the ladies — we'll take it alternately. I'll go the 
next day.' 


</p>
               <p>This incident had the effect of drawing Philip's attention with freshened 
solicitude towards Stephen and Maggie; but when they re-entered the house, 
music was proposed, and Mrs Tulliver and Mr Deane being occupied with 
cribbage, Maggie sat apart near the table where the books and work were 
placed — doing nothing, however, but listening abstractedly to the music. 
Stephen presently turned to a duet which he insisted that Lucy and Philip 
should sing: he had often done the same thing before, but this evening Philip 
thought he divined some double intention in every word and look of Stephen's, 
and watched him keenly — angry with himself all the while for this clinging 
suspicion. For had not Maggie virtually denied any ground for his doubts on 
her side? and she was truth itself; it was impossible not to believe her word 
and glance when they had last spoken together in the garden. Stephen might be 
strongly fascinated by her (what was more natural?), but Philip felt himself 
rather base for intruding on what must be his friend's painful secret. Still, 
he watched. Stephen, moving away from the piano, sauntered slowly towards the 
table near which Maggie sat, and turned over the newspapers, apparently in 
mere idleness. Then he seated himself with his back to the piano, dragging a 
newspaper under his elbow and thrusting his hand through his hair, as if he 
had been attracted by some bit of local news in the <hi>Laceham Courier</hi>. 
He was in reality looking at Maggie, who had not taken the slightest notice 
of his approach. She had always additional strength of resistance when Philip 
was present, just as we can restrain our speech better in a spot that we feel 
to be hallowed. But at last she heard the word `dearest', uttered in the 
softest tone of pained entreaty, like that of a patient who asks for 
something that ought to have been given without asking. She had never heard 
that word since the moments in the lane at Basset, when it had come from 
Stephen again and again, almost as involuntarily as if it had been an 
inarticulate cry. Philip could hear no word, but he had moved to the opposite 
side of the piano, and could see Maggie start and blush, raise her eyes an 
instant towards Stephen's face, but immediately look apprehensively towards 
himself. It was not evident to her that Philip had observed her, but a pang 
of shame under the sense of this concealment made her move from her chair and 
walk to her mother's side to watch the game at cribbage. 


</p>
               <p>Philip went home soon after in a state of hideous doubt mingled with wretched 
certainty. It was impossible for him now to resist the conviction that there 
was some mutual consciousness between Stephen and Maggie; and for half the 
night his irritable, susceptible nerves were pressed upon almost to frenzy by 
that one wretched fact: he could attempt no explanation that would reconcile 
it with her words and actions. When, at last, the need for belief in Maggie 
rose to its habitual predominance, he was not long in imagining the truth: — 
she was struggling, she was banishing herself — this was the clue to all he 
had seen since his return. But athwart that belief, there came other 
possibilities that would not be driven out of sight. His imagination wrought 
out the whole story: Stephen was madly in love with her; he must have told 
her so; she had rejected him, and was hurrying away. But would he give her 
up, knowing — Philip felt the fact with heart-crushing despair — that she was 
made half helpless by her feeling towards him? 


</p>
               <p>When the morning came, Philip was too ill to think of keeping his engagement 
to go in the boat. In his present agitation he could decide on nothing: he 
could only alternate between contradictory intentions. First, he thought he 
must have an interview with Maggie and entreat her to confide in him; then 
again, he distrusted his own interference. Had he not been thrusting himself 
on Maggie all along? She had uttered words long ago in her young ignorance; 
it was enough to make her hate him that these should be continually present 
with her as a bond. And had he any right to ask her for a revelation of 
feelings which she had evidently intended to withhold from him? He would not 
trust himself to see her, till he had assured himself that he could act from 
pure anxiety for her and not from egoistic irritation. He wrote a brief note 
to Stephen and sent it early by the servant, saying that he was not well 
enough to fulfil his engagement to Miss Deane. Would Stephen take his excuse, 
and fill his place? 


</p>
               <p>Lucy had arranged a charming plan, which had made her quite content with 
Stephen's refusal to go in the boat. She discovered that her father was to 
drive to Lindum this morning at ten: Lindum was the very place she wanted to 
go to, to make purchases — important purchases, which must by no means be put 
off to another opportunity; and aunt Tulliver must go too, because she was 
concerned in some of the purchases. 


</p>
               <p>`You will have your row in the boat just the same, you know,' she said to 
Maggie when they went out of the breakfast-room and upstairs together, 
`Philip will be here at half- past ten, and it is a delicious morning. Now, 
don't say a word against it, you dear dolorous thing. What is the use of my 
being a fairy godmother, if you set your face against all the wonders I work 
for you? Don't think of awful cousin Tom: you may disobey him a little.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie did not persist in objecting. She was almost glad of the plan; for 
perhaps it would bring her some strength and calmness to be alone with Philip 
again: it was like revisiting the scene of a quieter life, in which the very 
struggles were repose compared with the daily tumult of the present. She 
prepared herself for the boat, and at half-past ten sat waiting in the 
drawing-room. 


</p>
               <p>The ring at the door-bell was punctual, and she was thinking with half-sad, 
affectionate pleasure of the surprise Philip would have in finding that he 
was to be with her alone, when she distinguished a firm rapid step across the 
hall, that was certainly not Philip's: the door opened and Stephen Guest 
entered. 


</p>
               <p>In the first moment they were both too much agitated to speak; for Stephen 
had learned from the servant that the others were gone out. Maggie had 
started up and sat down again, with her heart beating violently, and Stephen, 
throwing down his cap and gloves, came and sat by her in silence. She thought 
Philip would be coming soon; and with great effort — for she trembled visibly 
— she rose to go to a distant chair. 


</p>
               <p>`He is not coming,' said Stephen, in a low tone, `<hi>I</hi> am going in the 
boat.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, we can't go,' said Maggie, sinking into her chair again. `Lucy did not 
expect — she would be hurt. Why is not Philip come?' 


</p>
               <p>`He is not well — he asked me to come instead.' 


</p>
               <p>`Lucy is gone to Lindum,' said Maggie, taking off her bonnet, with hurried, 
trembling fingers. `We must not go.' 


</p>
               <p>`Very well,' said Stephen, dreamily, looking at her, as he rested his arm on 
the back of his chair. `Then we'll stay here.' 


</p>
               <p>He was looking into her deep, deep eyes — far-off and mysterious as the 
starlit blackness, and yet very near, and timidly loving. Maggie sat 
perfectly still — perhaps for moments, perhaps for minutes — until the 
helpless trembling had ceased, and there was a warm glow on her cheek. 


</p>
               <p>`The man is waiting — he has taken the cushions,' she said. `Will you go and 
tell him?' 


</p>
               <p>`What shall I tell him?' said Stephen, almost in a whisper. He was looking at 
the lips now. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie made no answer. 


</p>
               <p>`Let us go,' Stephen murmured, entreatingly, rising, and taking her hand to 
raise her too. `We shall not be long together.' 

</p>
               <p>And they went. Maggie felt that she was being led down the garden among the 
roses, being helped with firm tender care into the boat, having the cushion 
and cloak arranged for her feet, and her parasol opened for her (which she 
had forgotten) — all by this stronger presence that seemed to bear her along 
without any act of her own will, like the added self which comes with the 
sudden exalting influence of a strong tonic — and she felt nothing else. 
Memory was excluded. 


</p>
               <p>They glided rapidly along, to Stephen's rowing, helped by the 
backward-flowing tide, past the Tofton trees and houses — on between the 
silent, sunny fields and pastures which seemed filled with a natural joy that 
had no reproach for theirs. The breath of the young, unwearied day, the 
delicious rhythmic dip of the oars, the fragmentary song of a passing bird 
heard now and then as if it were only the overflowing of brim-full gladness, 
the sweet solitude of a twofold consciousness that was mingled into one by 
that grave untiring gaze which need not be averted — what else could there be 
in their minds for the first hour? Some low, subdued, languid exclamation of 
love came from Stephen from time to time, as he went on rowing idly, half 
automatically: otherwise, they spoke no word; for what could words have been, 
but an inlet to thought? and thought did not belong to that enchanted haze in 
which they were enveloped — it belonged to the past and the future that lay 
outside the haze. Maggie was only dimly conscious of the banks, as they 
passed them, and dwelt with no recognition on the villages: she knew there 
were several to be passed before they reached Luckreth, where they always 
stopped and left the boat. At all times she was so liable to fits of absence, 
that she was likely enough to let her way-marks pass unnoticed. 


</p>
               <p>But at last Stephen, who had been rowing more and more idly, ceased to row, 
laid down the oars, folded his arms, and looked down on the water as if 
watching the pace at which the boat glided without his help. This sudden 
change roused Maggie. She looked at the far-stretching fields — at the banks 
close by — and felt that they were entirely strange to her. A terrible alarm 
took possession of her. 


</p>
               <p>`O, have we passed Luckreth — where we were to stop?' she exclaimed, looking 
back, to see if the place were out of sight. No village was to be seen. She 
turned round again, with a look of distressed questioning at Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>He went on watching the water, and said, in a strange, dreamy, absence tone, 
`Yes — a long way.' 


</p>
               <p>`O what shall I do?' cried Maggie, in an agony. `We shall not get home for 
hours — and Lucy — O God, help me!' 


</p>
               <p>She clasped her hands and broke into a sob, like a frightened child: she 
thought of nothing but of meeting Lucy, and seeing her look of pained 
surprise and doubt — perhaps of just upbraiding. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen moved and sat beside her and gently drew down the clasped hands. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' he said, in a deep tone of slow decision, `let us never go home 
again — till no one can part us — till we are married.' 


</p>
               <p>The unusual tone, the startling words, arrested Maggie's sob, and she sat 
quite still — wondering: as if Stephen might have seen some possibilities 
that would alter everything, and annual the wretched facts. 


</p>
               <p>`See, Maggie, how everything has come without our seeking — in spite of all 
our efforts. We never thought of being alone together again — it has all been 
done by others. See how the tide is carrying us out — away from all those 
unnatural bonds that we have been trying to make faster round us — and trying 
in vain. It will carry us on to Torby, and we can land there, and get some 
carriage, and hurry on to York, and then to Scotland — and never pause a 
moment till we are bound to each other so that only death can part us. It is 
the only right thing — dearest — it is the only way of escaping from this 
wretched entanglement. Everything has concurred to point it out to us. We 
have contrived nothing, we have thought of nothing ourselves.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen spoke with deep, earnest pleading. Maggie listened — passing from her 
startled wonderment to the yearning after that belief that the tide was doing 
it all — that she might glide along with the swift, silent stream and not 
struggle any more. But across that stealing influence came the terrible 
shadow of past thoughts; and the sudden horror lest now at last the moment of 
fatal intoxication was close upon her, called up a feeling of angry 
resistance towards Stephen. 


</p>
               <p>`Let me go!' she said, in an agitated tone, flashing an indignant look at 
him, and trying to get her hands free. `You have wanted to deprive me of any 
choice. You knew we were come too far — you have dared to take advantage of 
my thoughtlessness. It is unmanly to bring me into such a position.' 


</p>
               <p>Stung at this reproach, he released her hands, moved back to his former 
place, and folded his arms, in a sort of desperation at the difficulty 
Maggie's words had made present to him. If she would not consent to go on, he 
must curse himself for the embarrassment he had led her into. But the 
reproach was the unendurable thing: the one thing worse than parting with her 
was, that she should feel he had acted unworthily towards her. At last he 
said, in a tone of suppressed rage, 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't notice that we had passed Luckreth, till we had got to the next 
village — and then it came into my mind that we would go on. I can't justify 
it — I ought to have told you. It is enough to make you hate me — since you 
don't love me well enough to make everything else indifferent to you — as I 
do you. Shall I stop the boat, and try to get you out here? I'll tell Lucy 
that I was mad — and that you hate me — and you shall be clear of me for 
ever. No one can blame you, because I have behaved unpardonably to you.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was paralysed: it was easier to resist Stephen's pleading, than this 
picture he had called up of himself suffering, while she was vindicated — 
easier even to turn away from his look of tenderness than from this look of 
angry misery, that seemed to place her in selfish isolation from him. He had 
called up a state of feeling in which the reasons which had acted on her 
conscience seemed to be transmuted into mere self-regard. The indignant fire 
in her eyes was quenched — and she began to look at him with timid distress. 
She had reproached him for being hurried into irrevocable trespass — 
<hi>she</hi>, who had been so weak herself. 


</p>
               <p>`As if I shouldn't feel what happened to you — just the same' — she said, 
with reproach of another kind — the reproach of love, asking for more trust. 
This yielding to the idea of Stephen's suffering was more fatal than the 
other yielding, because it was less distinguishable from that sense of 
others' claims which was the moral basis of her resistance. 


</p>
               <p>He felt all the relenting in her look and tone, — it was heaven opening 
again. He moved to her side, and took her hand, leaning his elbow on the back 
of the boat, and said nothing. He dreaded to utter another word — he dreaded 
to make another movement, that might provoke another reproach or denial from 
her. Life hung on her consent — everything else was hopeless, confused, 
sickening misery. They glided along in this way, both resting in that silence 
as in a haven — both dreading lest their feelings should be divided again, 
till they became aware that the clouds had gathered, and that the slightest 
perceptible freshening of the breeze was growing and growing, till the whole 
character of the day was altered. 


</p>
               <p>`You will be chill, Maggie, in this thin dress. Let me raise the cloak over 
your shoulders. Get up an instant, dearest.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie obeyed: there was an unspeakable charm in being told what to do, and 
having everything decided for her. She sat down again, covered with the 
cloak, and Stephen took to his oars again, making haste; for they must try to 
get to Torby as fast as they could. Maggie was hardly conscious of having 
said or done anything decisive. All yielding is attended with a less vivid 
consciousness than resistance — it is the partial sleep of thought — it is 
the submergence of our own personality by another. Every influence tended to 
lull her into acquiescence: that dreamy gliding in the boat, which had lasted 
for four hours and had brought some weariness and exhaustion — the recoil of 
her fatigued sensations from the impracticable difficulty of getting out of 
the boat at this unknown distance from home, and walking for long miles — all 
helped to bring her into more complete subjection to that strong mysterious 
charm which made a last parting from Stephen seem the death of all joy — 
which made the thought of wounding him like the first touch of the torturing 
iron before which resolution shrank. And then, there was the present 
happiness of being with him, which was enough to absorb all her languid 
energy. 


</p>
               <p>Presently Stephen observed a vessel coming after them. Several vessels, among 
them the steamer to Mudport, had passed them with the early tide, but for the 
last hour they had seen none. He looked more and more eagerly at this vessel 
as if a new thought had come into his mind along with it and then he looked 
at Maggie, hesitatingly. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, dearest,' he said, at last, `if this vessel should be going to 
Mudport or to any convenient place on the coast northward, it would be our 
best plan to get them to take us on board. You are fatigued — and it may soon 
rain — it may be a wretched business, getting to Torby in this boat. It's 
only a trading vessel, but I dare say you can be made tolerably comfortable. 
We'll take the cushions out of the boat. It is really our best plan. They'll 
be glad enough to take us — I've got plenty of money about me — I can pay 
them well.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's heart began to beat with reawakened alarm at this new proposition; 
but she was silent — one course seemed as difficult as another. 


</p>
               <p>Stephen hailed the vessel. It was a Dutch vessel: going to Mudport, the 
English mate informed him, and if this wind held, would be there in less than 
two days. 


</p>
               <p>`We had got out too far with our boat,' said Stephen. `I was trying to make 
for Torby. But I'm afraid of the weather; and this lady — my wife — will be 
exhausted with fatigue and hunger. Take us on board, will you, and haul up 
the boat. I'll pay you well.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, now really faint and trembling with fear, was taken on board, making 
an interesting object of contemplation to admiring Dutchmen. The mate feared 
the lady would have a poor time of it on board, for they had no accommodation 
for such entirely unlooked-for passengers — no private cabin larger than an 
old-fashioned church-pew. But at least they had Dutch cleanliness, which 
makes all other inconveniences tolerable; and the boat-cushions were spread 
into a couch for Maggie on the poop with all alacrity. But to pace up and 
down the deck leaning on Stephen — being upheld by his strength — was the 
first change that she needed: — then came food and then quiet reclining on 
the cushions, with the sense that no new resolution <hi>could</hi> be taken 
that day. Everything must wait till to-morrow. Stephen sat beside her, with 
her hand in his; they could only speak to each other in low tones, only look 
at each other now and then, for it would take a long while to dull the 
curiosity of the five men on board, and reduce these handsome young strangers 
to that minor degree of interest which belongs in a sailor's regard, to all 
objects nearer than the horizon. But Stephen was triumphantly happy. Every 
other thought or care was thrown into unmarked perspective by the certainty 
that Maggie must be his. The leap had been taken now: he had been tortured by 
scruples, he had fought fiercely with overmastering inclination, he had 
hesitated; but repentance was impossible. He murmured forth in fragmentary 
sentences his happiness — his adoration — his tenderness — his belief that 
their life together must be heaven — that her presence with him would give 
rapture to every common day — that to satisfy her lightest wish was dearer to 
him than all other bliss — that everything was easy for her sake except to 
part with her: and now they never <hi>would</hi> part; he would belong to her 
for ever — and all that was his was hers — had no value for him except as it 
was hers. Such things, uttered in low broken tones by the one voice that has 
first stirred the fibre of young passion, have only a feeble effect — on 
experienced minds at a distance from them. To poor Maggie they were very 
near: they were like nectar held close to thirsty lips: there was, there 
<hi>must</hi> be, then, a life for mortals here below which was not hard and 
chill — in which affection would no longer be self-sacrifice. Stephen's 
passionate words made the vision of such a life more fully present to her 
than it had ever been before; and the vision for the time excluded all 
realities — all except the returning sun-gleams which broke out on the waters 
as the evening approached, and mingled with the visionary sun-light of 
promised happiness — all except the hand that pressed hers, and the voice 
that spoke to her, and the eyes that looked at her with grave, unspeakable 
love. 


</p>
               <p>There was to be no rain, after all; the clouds rolled off to the horizon 
again, making the great purple rampart, and long purple isles of that 
wondrous land which reveals itself to us when the sun goes down — the land 
that the evening star watches over. Maggie was to sleep all night on the poop 
— it was better than going below — and she was covered with the warmest 
wrappings the ship could furnish. It was still early, when the fatigues of 
the day brought on a drowsy longing for perfect rest, and she laid down her 
head, looking at the faint dying flush in the west where the one golden lamp 
was getting brighter and brighter. Then she looked up at Stephen, who was 
still seated by her, hanging over her as he leaned his arm against the 
vessel's side. Behind all the delicious visions of these last hours which had 
flowed over her like a soft stream and made her entirely passive, there was 
the dim consciousness that the condition was a transient one, and that the 
morrow must bring back the old life of struggle — that there were thoughts 
which would presently avenge themselves for this oblivion. But now nothing 
was distinct to her: she was being lulled to sleep with that soft stream 
still flowing over her, with those delicious visions melting and fading like 
the wondrous aërial land of the west. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c6.14" type="chapter">
               <head>Waking</head>
               <p>WHEN Maggie was gone to sleep, Stephen, weary too with his unaccustomed 
amount of rowing and with the intense inward life of the last twelve hours, 
but too restless to sleep, walked and lounged about the deck, with his cigar, 
far on into midnight, not seeing the dark water — hardly conscious there were 
stars — living only in the near and distant future. At last fatigue conquered 
restlessness, and he rolled himself up in a piece of tarpauling on the deck 
near Maggie's feet. 


</p>
               <p>She had fallen asleep before nine, and had been sleeping for six hours before 
the faintest hint of a midsummer daybreak was discernible. She awoke from 
that vivid dreaming which makes the margin of our deeper rest. She was in a 
boat on the wide water with Stephen, and in the gathering darkness something 
like a star appeared, that grew and grew till they saw it was the Virgin 
seated in St Ogg's boat, and it came nearer and nearer till they saw the 
Virgin was Lucy and the boatman was Philip — no, not Philip, but her brother, 
who rowed past without looking at her; and she rose to stretch out her arms 
and call to him, and their own boat turned over with the movement and they 
began to sink, till with one spasm of dread she seemed to awake and find she 
was a child again in the parlour at evening twilight, and Tom was not really 
angry. From the soothed sense of that false waking she passed to the real 
waking, to the plash of water against the vessel, and the sound of a footstep 
on the deck, and the awful starlit sky. There was a moment of utter 
bewilderment before her mind could get disentangled from the confused web of 
dreams; but soon the whole terrible truth urged itself upon her. Stephen was 
not by her now: she was alone with her own memory and her own dread. The 
irrevocable wrong that must blot her life had been committed — she had 
brought sorrow into the lives of others — into the lives that were knit up 
with hers by trust and love. The feeling of a few short weeks had hurried her 
into the sins her nature had most recoiled from — breach of faith and cruel 
selfishness; she had rent the ties that had given meaning to duty, and had 
made herself an outlawed soul with no guide but the wayward choice of her own 
passion. And where would that lead her? — where had it led her now? She had 
said she would rather die than fall into that temptation. She felt it now — 
now that the consequences of such a fall had come before the outward act was 
completed. There was at least this fruit from all her years of striving after 
the highest and best — that her soul, though betrayed, beguiled, ensnared, 
could never deliberately consent to a choice of the lower. And a choice of 
what? O God  — not a choice of joy — but of conscious cruelty and hardness; 
for could she ever cease to see before her Lucy and Philip with their 
murdered trust and hopes? Her life with Stephen could have no sacredness: she 
must for ever sink and wander vaguely, driven by uncertain impulse; for she 
had let go the clue of life — that clue which once in the far off years her 
young need had clutched so strongly. She had renounced all delights then, 
before she knew them, before they had come within her reach: Philip had been 
right when he told her that she knew nothing of renunciation: she had thought 
it was quiet ecstasy; she saw it face to face now — that sad patient living 
strength which holds the clue of life, and saw that the thorns were for ever 
pressing on its brow. That yesterday which could never be revoked — if she 
could exchange it now for any length of inward silent endurance she would 
have bowed beneath that cross with a sense of rest. 


</p>
               <p>Daybreak came and the reddening eastern light while her past life was 
grasping her in this way, with that tightening clutch which comes in the last 
moments of possible rescue. She could see Stephen now lying on the deck still 
fast asleep, and with the sight of him there came a wave of anguish that 
found its way in a long-suppressed sob. The worst bitterness of parting — the 
thought that urged the sharpest inward cry for help was the pain it must give 
to <hi>him</hi>. But surmounting everything was the horror at her own 
possible failure, the dread lest her conscience should be benumbed again and 
not rise to energy till it was too late. — Too late! It was too late now, not 
to have caused misery — too late for everything, perhaps, but to rush away 
from the last act of baseness — the tasting of joys that were wrung from 
crushed hearts. 


</p>
               <p>The sun was rising now, and Maggie started up with the sense that a day of 
resistance was beginning for her. Her eyelashes were still wet with tears, 
as, with her shawl over her head, she sat looking at the slowly-rounding sun. 
Something roused Stephen too, and, getting up from his hard bed, he came to 
sit beside her. The sharp instinct of anxious love saw something to give him 
alarm in the very first glance. He had a hovering dread of some resistance in 
Maggie's nature that he would be unable to overcome. He had the uneasy 
consciousness that he had robbed her of perfect freedom yesterday: there was 
too much native honour in him, for him not to feel that if her will should 
recoil, his conduct would have been odious, and she would have a right to 
reproach him. 


</p>
               <p>But Maggie did not feel that right: she was too conscious of fatal weakness 
in herself — too full of the tenderness that comes with the foreseen need for 
inflicting a wound. She let him take her hand when he came to sit down beside 
her, and smiled at him — only with rather a sad glance: she could say nothing 
to pain him till the moment of possible parting was nearer. And so they drank 
their cup of coffee together, and walked about the deck, and heard the 
captain's assurance that they should be in at Mudport by five o'clock, each 
with an inward burthen — but in him it was an undefined fear, which he 
trusted to the coming hours to dissipate — in her it was a definite resolve 
on which she was trying silently to tighten her hold. Stephen was 
continually, through the morning, expressing his anxiety at the fatigue and 
discomfort she was suffering, and alluded to landing and to the change of 
motion and repose she would have in a carriage, wanting to assure himself 
more completely by pre-supposing that everything would be as he had arranged 
it. For a long while Maggie contented herself with assuring him that she had 
had a good night's rest, and that she didn't mind about being on the vessel — 
it was not like being on the open sea — it was only a little less pleasant 
than being in a boat on the Floss. But a suppressed resolve will betray 
itself in the eyes, and Stephen became more and more uneasy as the day 
advanced, under the sense that Maggie had entirely lost her passiveness. He 
longed, but did not dare, to speak of their marriage — of where they would go 
after it, and the steps he would take to inform his father, and the rest, of 
what had happened. He longed to assure himself of a tacit assent from her. 
But each time he looked at her, he gathered a stronger dread of the new, 
quiet sadness with which she met his eyes. And they were more and more 
silent. 


</p>
               <p>`Here we are in sight of Mudport,' he said, at last. `Now, dearest,' he 
added, turning towards her with a look that was half beseeching, `the worst 
part of your fatigue is over. On the land we can command swiftness. In 
another hour and a half we shall be in a chaise together — and that will seem 
rest to you after this.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie felt it was time to speak — it would only be unkind now to assent by 
silence. She spoke in the lowest tone, as he had done, but with distinct 
decision. 


</p>
               <p>`We shall not be together — we shall have parted.' 


</p>
               <p>The blood rushed to Stephen's face. 


</p>
               <p>`We shall not,' he said. `I'll die first.' 


</p>
               <p>It was as he had dreaded — there was a struggle coming. But neither of them 
dared to say another word, till the boat was let down, and they were taken to 
the landing place. Here there was a cluster of gazers and passengers awaiting 
the departure of the steamboat to St Ogg's. Maggie had a dim sense, when she 
had landed, and Stephen was hurrying her along on his arm, that some one had 
advanced towards her from that cluster as if he were coming to speak to her. 
But she was hurried along, and was indifferent to everything but the coming 
trial. 


</p>
               <p>A porter guided them to the nearest inn and postinghouse, and Stephen gave 
the order for the chaise as they passed through the yard. Maggie took no 
notice of this, and only said, `Ask them to show us into a room where we can 
sit down.' 


</p>
               <p>When they entered, Maggie did not sit down, and Stephen, whose face had a 
desperate determination in it, was about to ring the bell, when she said, in 
a firm voice, 


</p>
               <p>`I'm not going, we must part here.' 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' he said, turning round towards her, and speaking in the tones of a 
man who feels a process of torture beginning, `Do you mean to kill me? What 
is the use of it now? The whole thing is done.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, it is not done,' said Maggie — `Too much is done — more than we can ever 
remove the trace of. But I will go no farther. Don't try to prevail with me 
again. I couldn't choose yesterday.' 


</p>
               <p>What was he to do? He dared not go near her — her anger might leap out, and 
make a new barrier. He walked backwards and forwards in maddening perplexity. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' he said, at last, pausing before her, and speaking in a tone of 
imploring wretchedness, `Have some pity — hear me — forgive me for what I did 
yesterday. — I will obey you now — I will do nothing without your full 
consent. But don't blight our lives for ever by a rash perversity that can 
answer no good purpose to any one — that can only create new evils. Sit down, 
dearest — wait — think what you are going to do. Don't treat me as if you 
couldn't trust me.' 


</p>
               <p>He had chosen the most effective appeal; but Maggie's will was fixed 
unswervingly on the coming wrench. She had made up her mind to suffer. 


</p>
               <p>`We must not wait,' she said, in a low but distinct voice. `We must part at 
once.' 


</p>
               <p>`We <hi>can't</hi> part, Maggie,' said Stephen, more impetuously. `I can't 
bear it. What is the use of inflicting that misery on me? The blow — whatever 
it may have been — has been struck now. Will it help any one else that you 
should drive me mad?' 


</p>
               <p>`I will not begin any future, even for you,' said Maggie, tremulously, `with 
a deliberate consent to what ought not to have been. What I told you at 
Basset I feel now: — I would rather have died than fall into this temptation. 
It would have been better if we had parted for ever then. But we must part 
now.' 


</p>
               <p>`We will <hi>not</hi> part,' Stephen burst out, instinctively placing his 
back against the door — forgetting everything he had said a few moments 
before. `I will not endure it. You'll make me desperate — I shan't know what 
I do.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie trembled. She felt that the parting could not be effected suddenly. 
She must rely on a slower appeal to Stephen's better self — she must be 
prepared for a harder task than that of rushing away while resolution was 
fresh. She sat down. Stephen, watching her with that look of desperation 
which had come over him like a lurid light, approached slowly from the door, 
seated himself close beside her and grasped her hand. Her heart beat like the 
heart of a frightened bird; but this direct opposition helped her — she felt 
her determination growing stronger. 


</p>
               <p>`Remember what you felt weeks ago,' she began, with beseeching earnestness — 
`remember what we both felt — that we owed ourselves to others, and must 
conquer every inclination which could make us false to that debt. We have 
failed to keep our resolutions — but the wrong remains the same.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, it does <hi>not</hi> remain the same,' said Stephen. `We have proved 
that it was impossible to keep our resolutions. We have proved that the 
feeling which draws us towards each other is too strong to be overcome. That 
natural law surmounts every other, — we can't help what it clashes with.' 


</p>
               <p>`It is not so, Stephen — I'm quite sure that is wrong. I have tried to think 
it again and again — but I see, if we judged in that way, there would be a 
warrant for all treachery and cruelty — we should justify breaking the most 
sacred ties that can ever be formed on earth. If the past is not to bind us, 
where can duty lie? We should have no law but the inclination of the moment.' 


</p>
               <p>`But there are ties that can't be kept by mere resolution,' said Stephen, 
starting up and walking about again. `What is outward faithfulness? Would 
they have thanked us for anything so hollow as constancy without love?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie did not answer immediately. She was undergoing an inward as well as an 
outward contest. At last she said, with a passionate assertion of her 
conviction as much against herself as against him, 


</p>
               <p>`That seems right — at first — but when I look further, I'm sure it is not 
right. Faithfulness and constancy mean something else besides doing what is 
easiest and pleasantest to ourselves. They mean renouncing whatever is 
opposed to the reliance others have in us — whatever would cause misery to 
those whom the course of our lives has made dependent on us. If we — if I had 
been better, nobler — those claims would have been so strongly present with 
me, I should have felt them pressing on my heart so continually, just as they 
do now in the moments when my conscience is awake — that the opposite feeling 
would never have grown in me, as it has done — it would have been quenched at 
once — I should have prayed for help so earnestly — I should have rushed 
away, as we rush from hideous danger. I feel no excuse for myself — none — I 
should never have failed towards Lucy and Philip as I have done, if I had not 
been week and selfish and hard — able to think of their pain without a pain 
to myself that would have destroyed all temptation. O, what is Lucy feeling 
now? — She believed in me — she loved me — she was so good to me — think of 
her... ' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie's voice was getting choked as she uttered these last words. 


</p>
               <p>`I <hi>can't</hi> think of her,' said Stephen, stamping as if with pain. `I 
can think of nothing but you. Maggie, you demand of a man what is impossible. 
I felt that once — but I can't go back to it now. And where is the use of 
<hi>your</hi> thinking of it, except to torture me? You can't save them from 
pain now — you can only tear yourself from me, and make my life worthless to 
me. And even if we could go back and both fulfil our engagements — if that 
were possible now — it would be hateful — horrible to think of your ever 
being Philip's wife — of your ever being the wife of a man you didn't love. 
We have both been rescued from a mistake.' 


</p>
               <p>A deep flush came over Maggie's face, and she couldn't speak. Stephen saw 
this. He sat down again, taking her hand in his and looking at her with 
passionate entreaty. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie! Dearest! If you love me, you are mine. Who can have so great a claim 
on you as I have? My life is bound up in your love. There is nothing in the 
past that can annul our right to each other — it is the first time we have 
either of us loved with our whole heart and soul.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was still silent for a little while — looking down. Stephen was in a 
flutter of new hope — he was going to triumph. But she raised her eyes and 
met his with a glance that was filled with the anguish of regret — not with 
yielding. 


</p>
               <p>`No — not with my whole heart and soul, Stephen,' she said, with timid 
resolution, `I have never consented to it with my whole mind. There are 
memories, and affections, and longing after perfect goodness, that have such 
a strong hold on me — they would never quit me for long — they would come 
back and be pain to me — repentance. I couldn't live in peace if I put the 
shadow of a wilful sin between myself and God. I have caused sorrow already — 
I know — I feel it — but I have never deliberately consented to it — I have 
never said, ”They shall suffer, that I may have joy.” It has never 
been my will to marry you — if you were to win consent from the momentary 
triumph of my feeling for you, you would not have my whole soul. If I could 
wake back again into the time before yesterday, I would choose to be true to 
my calmer affections and live without the joy of love.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen loosed her hand and, rising impatiently, walked up and down the room 
in suppressed rage. 


</p>
               <p>`Good God!' he burst out, at last, `what a miserable thing a woman's love is 
to a man's. I could commit crimes for you — and you can balance and choose in 
that way. But you <hi>don't</hi> love me — if you had a tithe of the feeling 
for me that I have for you, — it would be impossible to you to think for a 
moment of sacrificing me. But it weighs nothing with you that you are robbing 
me of <hi>my</hi> life's happiness.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie pressed her fingers together almost convulsively as she held them 
clasped on her lap. A great terror was upon her — as if she were ever and 
anon seeing where she stood by great flashes of lightning, and then again 
stretched forth her hands in the darkness. 


</p>
               <p>`No — I don't sacrifice you — I couldn't sacrifice you,' she said, as soon as 
she could speak again, `but I can't believe in a good for you, that I feel — 
that we both feel is a wrong towards others. We can't choose happiness either 
for ourselves or for another — we can't tell where that will lie. We can only 
choose whether we will indulge ourselves in the present moment or whether we 
will renounce that for the sake of obeying the divine voice within us — for 
the sake of being true to all the motives that sanctify our lives. I know 
that belief is hard — it has slipped away from me again and again; but I have 
felt that if I let it go for ever, I should have no light through the 
darkness of this life.' 


</p>
               <p>`But Maggie,' said Stephen, seating himself by her again, `Is it possible you 
don't see that what happened yesterday has altered the whole position of 
things? What infatuation is it — what obstinate prepossession that blinds you 
to that? It is too late to say what we might have done or what we ought to 
have done. Admitting the very worst view of what has been done, it is a fact 
we must act on now — our position is altered — the right course is no longer 
what it was before. We must accept our own actions and start afresh from 
them. Suppose we had been married yesterday? It is nearly the same thing. The 
effect on others would not have been different. It would only have made this 
difference to ourselves' — Stephen added bitterly, `that you might have 
acknowledged then, that your tie to me was stronger than to others.' 


</p>
               <p>Again a deep flush came over Maggie's face, and she was silent. Stephen 
thought again that he was beginning to prevail — he had never yet believed 
that he should not prevail: there are possibilities which our minds shrink 
from too completely for us to fear them. 


</p>
               <p>`Dearest,' he said, in his deepest, tenderest tone, leaning towards her and 
putting his arm round her, `you <hi>are</hi> mine now — the world believes it 
— duty must spring out of that now — in a few hours you will be legally mine. 
And those who had claims on us will submit — they will see that there was a 
force which declared against their claims. A kiss — dearest — it is so long 
since—' 

</p>
               <p>Maggie's eyes opened wide in one terrified look at the face that was close to 
hers, and she started up — pale again. 


</p>
               <p>`O I can't do it' she said, in a voice almost of agony — `Stephen — don't ask 
me — don't urge me. — I can't argue any longer — I don't know what is wise — 
but my heart will not let me do it. I see — I feel their trouble now: it is 
as if it were branded on my mind. — <hi>I</hi> have suffered and have no one 
to pity me — and now I have made others suffer. It would never leave me — it 
would embitter your love to me — I <hi>do</hi> care for Philip — in a 
different way — I remember all we said to each other — I know how he thought 
of me as the one promise of his life. He was given to me that I might make 
his lot less hard — and I have forsaken him. And Lucy — she has been deceived 
— she who trusted me more than any one. I cannot marry you — I cannot take a 
good for myself that has been wrung out of their misery. — It is not the 
force that ought to rule us — this that we feel for each other — it would 
rend me away from all that my past life has made dear and holy to me. I can't 
set out on a fresh life, and forget that — I must go back to it, and cling to 
it, — else I shall feel as if there were nothing firm beneath my feet.' 

</p>
               <p>`Good God, Maggie!' said Stephen, rising too and grasping her arm, `You rave. 
How can you go back without marrying me? You don't know what will be said, 
dearest. You see nothing as it really is.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, I do. But they will believe me — I will confess everything — Lucy will 
believe me — she will forgive you. And — and — O, <hi>some</hi> good will 
come by clinging to the right. Dear — dear Stephen — let me go! — don't drag 
me into deeper remorse. My whole soul has never consented — it does not 
consent now.' 


</p>
               <p>Stephen let go her arm, and sank back on his chair, half stunned by 
despairing rage. He was silent a few moments, not looking at her — while her 
eyes were turned towards him yearningly, in alarm at this sudden change. At 
last he said, still without looking at her, 


</p>
               <p>`Go, then — leave me — don't torture me any longer — I can't bear it.' 


</p>
               <p>Involuntarily she leaned towards him and put out her hand to touch his. But 
he shrank from it as if it had been burning iron, and said again, 


</p>
               <p>`Leave me.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was not conscious of a decision as she turned away from that gloomy 
averted face — and walked out of the room: it was like an automatic action 
that fulfils a forgotten intention. What came after? A sense of stairs 
descended as if in a dream — of flagstones — of a chaise and horses standing 
— then a street, and a turning into another street where a stage-coach was 
standing, taking in passengers — and the darting thought that that coach 
would take her away, perhaps towards home. But she could ask nothing yet: she 
only got into the coach. 


</p>
               <p>Home — where her mother and brother were — Philip — Lucy — the scene of her 
very cares and trials — was the haven towards which her mind tended — the 
sanctuary where sacred relics lay — where she would be rescued from more 
falling. The thought of Stephen was like a horrible throbbing pain which yet, 
as such pains do, seemed to urge all other thoughts into activity. But among 
her thoughts, what others would say and think of her conduct was hardly 
present. Love and deep pity and remorseful anguish left no room for that. 


</p>
               <p>The coach was taking her to York — farther away from home, but she did not 
learn that until she was set down in the old city at midnight. It was no 
matter: she could sleep there, and start home the next day. She had her purse 
in her pocket, with all her money in it — a bank-note and a sovereign: she 
had kept it in her pocket from forgetfulness, after going out to make 
purchases the day before yesterday. 


</p>
               <p>Did she lie down in the gloomy bedroom of the old inn that night with her 
will bent unwaveringly on the path of penitent sacrifice? — The great 
struggles of life are not so easy as that — the great problems of life are 
not so clear. — In the darkness of that night she saw Stephen's face turned 
towards her in passionate, reproachful misery — She lived through again all 
the tremulous delights of his presence with her that made existence an easy 
floating in a stream of joy instead of a quiet resolved endurance and effort: 
— the love she had renounced came back upon her with a cruel charm — she felt 
herself opening her arms to receive it once more and then it seemed to slip 
away and fade and vanish, leaving only the dying sound of a deep, thrilling 
voice that said, `Gone — for ever gone.' 

</p>
            </div>
         </div>
         <div xml:id="b7" type="book">
            <div xml:id="c7.1" type="chapter">
               <head>The Return to the Mill</head>
               <p>BETWEEN four and five o'clock on the afternoon of the fifth day from that on 
which Stephen and Maggie had left St Ogg's, Tom Tulliver was standing on the 
gravel walk outside the old house at Dorlcote Mill. He was master there now: 
he had half fulfilled his father's dying wish, and by years of steady 
self-government and energetic work he had brought himself near to the 
attainment of more than the old respectability which had been the proud 
inheritance of the Dodsons and Tullivers. 


</p>
               <p>But Tom's face, as he stood in the hot still sunshine of that summer 
afternoon, had no gladness, no triumph in it. His mouth wore its bitterest 
expression, his severe brow its hardest and deepest fold, as he drew down his 
hat farther over his eyes to shelter them from the sun, and thrusting his 
hands deep into his pockets, began to walk up and down the gravel. No news of 
his sister had been heard since Bob Jakin had come back in the steamer from 
Mudport and put an end to all improbable suppositions of an accident on the 
water by stating that he had seen her land from a vessel with Mr Stephen 
Guest. Would the next news be that she was married — or what? Probably that 
she was not married: Tom's mind was set to the expectation of the worst that 
could happen — not death, but disgrace. 


</p>
               <p>As he was walking with his back towards the entrance gate, and his face 
towards the rushing mill-stream, a tall dark-eyed figure, that we know well, 
approached the gate, and paused to look at him, with a fast-beating heart. 
Her brother was the human being of whom she had been most afraid, from her 
childhood upwards — afraid with that fear which springs in us when we love 
one who is inexorable, unbending, unmodifiable — with a mind that we can 
never mould ourselves upon, and yet that we cannot endure to alienate from 
us. That deep-rooted fear was shaking Maggie now: but her mind was 
unswervingly bent on returning to her brother, as the natural refuge that had 
been given her. In her deep humiliation under the retrospect of her own 
weakness — in her anguish at the injury she had inflicted — she almost 
desired to endure the severity of Tom's reproof, to submit in patient silence 
to that harsh disapproving judgment against which she had so often rebelled: 
it seemed no more than just to her now — who was weaker than she was? She 
craved that outward help to her better purpose which would come from 
complete, submissive confession — from being in the presence of those whose 
looks and words would be a reflection of her own conscience. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had been kept on her bed at York for a day with that prostrating 
headache which was likely to follow on the terrible strain of the previous 
day and night. There was an expression of physical pain still about her brow 
and eyes, and her whole appearance, with her dress so long unchanged, was 
worn and distressed. She lifted the latch of the gate and walked in — slowly. 
Tom did not hear the gate — he was just then close upon the roaring dam; but 
he presently turned, and lifting up his eyes, saw the figure whose worn look 
and loneliness seemed to him a confirmation of his worst conjectures. He 
paused — trembling and white with disgust and indignation. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie paused too — three yards before him. She felt the hatred in his face — 
felt it rushing through her fibres: but she must speak. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom—' she began, faintly, `I am come back to you — I am come back home — 
for refuge — to tell you everything — ' 


</p>
               <p>`You will find no home with me,' he answered with tremulous rage. `You have 
disgraced us all — you have disgraced my father's name. You have been a curse 
to your best friends. You have been base — deceitful — no motives are strong 
enough to restrain you. I wash my hands of you for ever. You don't belong to 
me.' 


</p>
               <p>Their mother had come to the door now. She stood paralysed by the double 
shock of seeing Maggie and hearing Tom's words. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' said Maggie, with more courage, `I am perhaps not so guilty as you 
believe me to be. I never meant to give way to my feelings. I struggled 
against them. I was carried too far in the boat to come back on Tuesday. I 
came back as soon as I could.' 


</p>
               <p>`I can't believe in you any more,' said Tom, gradually passing from the 
tremulous excitement of the first moment to cold inflexibility. `You have 
been carrying on a clandestine relation with Stephen Guest — as you did 
before with another. He went to see you at my aunt Moss's; you walked alone 
with him in the lanes: you must have behaved as no modest girl would have 
done to her cousin's lover, else that could never have happened. The people 
at Luckreth saw you pass — you passed all the other places: you knew what you 
were doing. You have been using Philip Wakem as a screen to deceive Lucy — 
the kindest friend you ever had. Go and see the return you have made her: 
she's ill — unable to speak — my mother can't go near her, lest she should 
remind her of <hi>you</hi>.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was half stunned: too heavily pressed upon by her anguish even to 
discern any difference between her actual guilt and her brother's accusations 
— still less to vindicate herself. 


</p>
               <p>`Tom,' she said, crushing her hands together under her cloak, in the effort 
to speak again — `Whatever I have done — I repent it bitterly — I want to 
make amends — I will endure anything — I want to be kept from doing wrong 
again.' 


</p>
               <p>`What <hi>will</hi> keep you?' said Tom, with cruel bitterness. `Not religion 
— not your natural feelings of gratitude and honour. And he — he would 
deserve to be shot, if it were not — But you are ten times worse than he is. 
I loathe your character and your conduct. You struggled with your feelings, 
you say. Yes! <hi>I</hi> have had feelings to struggle with — but I conquered 
them. I have had a harder life than you have had; but I have found 
<hi>my</hi> comfort in doing my duty. But <hi>I</hi> will sanction no such 
character as yours: the world shall know that <hi>I</hi> feel the difference 
between right and wrong. If you are in want, I will provide for you — let my 
mother know. But you shall not come under my roof. It is enough that I have 
to bear the thought of your disgrace — the sight of you is hateful to me.' 


</p>
               <p>Slowly Maggie was turning away, with despair in her heart. But the poor 
frightened mother's move leaped out now, stronger than all dread. 


</p>
               <p>`My child! I'll go with you. You've got a mother.' 


</p>
               <p>O the sweet rest of that embrace to the heart-stricken Maggie! More helpful 
than all wisdom is one draught of simple human pity that will not forsake us. 


</p>
               <p>Tom turned and walked into the house. 


</p>
               <p>`Come in, my child,' Mrs Tulliver whispered. `He'll let you stay and sleep in 
my bed. He won't deny that, if I ask him.' 


</p>
               <p>`No, mother,' said Maggie, in a low tone, like a moan. `I will never go in.' 


</p>
               <p>`Then wait for me outside. I'll get ready and come with you.' 


</p>
               <p>When his mother appeared with her bonnet on, Tom came out to her in the 
passage, and put money into her hands. 


</p>
               <p>`My house is yours, mother, always,' he said. `You will come and let me know 
everything you want — you will come back to me.' 


</p>
               <p>Poor Mrs Tulliver took the money, too frightened to say anything. She had 
only clear to her the mother's instinct, that she would go with her unhappy 
child. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was waiting outside the gate; she took her mother's hand, and they 
walked a little way in silence. 


</p>
               <p>`Mother,' said Maggie, at last, `we will go to Luke's cottage — Luke will 
take me in. He was very good to me when I was a little girl.' 


</p>
               <p>`He's got no room for us, my dear, now; his wife's got so many children. I 
don't know where to go, if it isn't to one o' your aunts — and I hardly 
durst,' said poor Mrs Tulliver, quite destitute of mental resources in this 
extremity. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was silent a little while, and then said, 


</p>
               <p>`Let us go to Bob Jakin's, mother: his wife will have room for us, if they 
have no other lodger.' 


</p>
               <p>So they went on their way to St Ogg's — to the old house by the river side. 


</p>
               <p>Bob himself was at home, with a heaviness at heart which resisted even the 
new joy and pride of possessing a two months' old baby — quite the liveliest 
of its age that had ever been born to prince or packman. He would perhaps not 
so thoroughly have understood all the dubiousness of Maggie's appearance with 
Mr Stephen Guest on the quay at Mudport, if he had not witnessed the effect 
it produced on Tom, when he went to report it; and since then, the 
circumstances which in any case gave a disastrous character to her elopement, 
had passed beyond the more polite circles of St Ogg's and had become matter 
of common talk, accessible to the grooms and errand boys. So that when he 
opened the door and saw Maggie standing before him in her sorrow and 
weariness, he had no questions to ask: except one, which he dared only ask 
himself — where was Mr Stephen Guest? Bob, for his part, hoped he might be in 
the warmest department of an asylum understood to exist in the other world 
for gentlemen who are likely to be in fallen circumstances there. The 
lodgings were vacant, and both Mrs Jakin the larger and Mrs Jakin the less 
were commanded to make all thing comfortable for `the old Missis and the 
young Miss' — alas! that she was still `Miss.' The ingenious Bob was sorely 
perplexed as to how this result could have come about — how Mr Stephen Guest 
could have gone away from her, or could have let her go away from him when he 
had the chance of keeping her with him. But he was silent, and would not 
allow his wife to ask him a question; would not present himself in the room, 
lest it should appear like intrusion and a wish to pry; having the same 
chivalry towards dark-eyed Maggie, as in the days when he had bought her the 
memorable present of books. 


</p>
               <p>But after a day or two Mrs Tulliver was gone to the Mill again for a few 
hours to see to Tom's household matters. Maggie had wished this: after the 
first violent outburst of feeling which came as soon as she had no longer any 
active purpose to fulfil, she was less in need of her mother's presence; she 
even desired to be alone with her grief. But she had been solitary only a 
little while in the old sitting-room that looked on the river, when there 
came a tap at the door, and turning round her sad face as she said, `Come 
in,' she saw Bob enter with the baby in his arms, and Mumps at his heels. 


</p>
               <p>`We'll go back, if it disturbs you, Miss,' said Bob. 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Maggie, in a low voice, wishing she could smile. 


</p>
               <p>Bob, closing the door behind him, came and stood before her. 


</p>
               <p>`You see, we've got a little 'un, Miss, an' I wanted you to look at it, an' 
take it in your arms, if you'd be so good. For we made free to name it after 
you, an' it 'ud be better for your takin' a bit o' notice on it.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie could not speak, but she put out her arms to receive the tiny baby, 
while Mumps snuffed at it anxiously to ascertain that this transference was 
all right. Maggie's heart had swelled at this action and speech of Bob's: she 
knew well enough that it was a way he had chosen to show his sympathy and 
respect. 


</p>
               <p>`Sit down, Bob,' she said presently, and he sat down in silence, finding his 
tongue unmanageable in quite a new fashion, refusing to say what he wanted it 
to say. 


</p>
               <p>`Bob,' she said, after a few moments, looking down at the baby, and holding 
it anxiously, as if she feared it might slip from her mind and her fingers, 
`I have a favour to ask of you.' 


</p>
               <p>`Don't you speak so, Miss,' said Bob, grasping the skin of Mumps's neck, `if 
there's anything I can do for you, I should look upon it as a day's 
earnings.' 


</p>
               <p>`I want you to go to Dr Kenn's, and ask to speak to him, and tell him that I 
am here, and should be very grateful if he would come to me while my mother 
is away. She will not come back till evening.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, Miss — I'd do it in a minute — it is but a step; but Dr Kenn's wife lies 
dead — she's to be buried tomorrow — died the day I come from Mudport. It's 
all the more pity she should ha' died just now, if you want him. I hardly 
like to go a-nigh him yet—' 


</p>
               <p>`O, no, Bob,' said Maggie, `we must let it be — till after a few days, 
perhaps — when you hear that he is going about again. But perhaps he may be 
going out of town — to a distance,' she added, with a new sense of 
despondency at this idea. 


</p>
               <p>`Not he, Miss,' said Bob. `<hi>He'll</hi> none go away. He isn't one o' them 
gentlefolks as go to cry at waterin' places when their wives die: he's got 
summat else to do. He looks fine an' sharp after the parish — he does. He 
christened the little 'un; an' he was <hi>at</hi> me to know what I did of a 
Sunday, as I didn't come to church. But I told him I was upo' the travel 
three parts o' the Sundays — An' then I'm so used to bein' on my legs, I 
can't sit so long on end — ”an' lors, sir,” says I, ”a packman 
can do wi' a small 'lowance o' church: it tastes strong,” says I; 
”there's no call to lay it on thick.” Eh, Miss, how good the little 
un is wi' you! It's like as if it knowed you: it partly does, I'll be bound — 
like the birds know the mornin'.' 


</p>
               <p>Bob's tongue was now evidently loosed from its unwonted bondage, and might 
even be in danger of doing more work than was required of it. But the 
subjects on which he longed to be informed were so steep and difficult of 
approach that his tongue was likely to run on along the level rather than to 
carry him on that unbeaten road. He felt this, and was silent again for a 
little while, ruminating much on the possible forms in which he might put a 
question. At last he said, in a more timid voice than usual, 


</p>
               <p>`Will you give me leave to ask you only one thing, Miss?' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie was rather startled, but she answered, `Yes, Bob, if it is about 
myself — not about any one else.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well, Miss, it's this: <hi>Do</hi> you owe anybody a grudge?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, not any one,' said Maggie, looking up at him inquiringly. `Why?' 


</p>
               <p>`O lors, Miss,' said Bob, pinching Mumps's neck harder than ever, `I wish you 
did — an' 'ud tell me — I'd leather him till I couldn't see — I would — an' 
the Justice might do what he liked to me arter.' 


</p>
               <p>`O Bob,' said Maggie, smiling faintly. `You're a very good friend to me. But 
I shouldn't like to punish any one, even if they'd done me wrong — I've done 
wrong myself too often.' 


</p>
               <p>This view of things was puzzling to Bob and threw more obscurity than ever 
over what could possibly have happened between Stephen and Maggie. But 
further questions would have been too intrusive, even if he could have framed 
them suitably, and he was obliged to carry baby away again to an expectant 
mother. 


</p>
               <p>`Happen you'd like Mumps for company, Miss,' he said, when he had taken the 
baby again. `He's rare company — Mumps is — he knows iverything, an' makes no 
bother about it. If I tell him, he'll lie before you an' watch you — as still 
— just as he watches my pack. You'd better let me leave him a bit — he'll get 
fond on you. Lors, it's a fine thing to hev a dumb brute fond on you; it'll 
stick to you, an' make no jaw.' 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, do leave him, please,' said Maggie. `I think I should like to have 
Mumps for a friend.' 


</p>
               <p>`Mumps, lie down there,' said Bob, pointing to a place in front of Maggie, 
`an' niver do you stir till you're spoke to.' 


</p>
               <p>Mumps lay down at once, and made no sign of restlessness, when his master 
left the room. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c7.2" type="chapter">
               <head>St Ogg's Passes Judgment</head>
               <p>IT was soon known throughout St Ogg's that Miss Tulliver was come back: she 
had not, then, eloped in order to be married to Mr Stephen Guest — at all 
events, Mr Stephen Guest had not married her — which came to the same thing, 
so far as her culpability was concerned. We judge others according to 
results; how else? — not knowing the process by which results are arrived at. 
If Miss Tulliver, after a few months of well-chosen travel, had returned as 
Mrs Stephen Guest — with a post-marital <hi>trousseau</hi> and all the 
advantages possessed even by the most unwelcome wife of an only son, public 
opinion, which at St Ogg's, as elsewhere, always knew what to think, would 
have judged in strict consistency with those results. Public opinion, in 
these cases, is always of the feminine gender — not the world, but the 
world's wife: and she would have seen, that two handsome young people — the 
gentleman of quite the first family in St Ogg's — having found themselves in 
a false position, had been led into a course, which, to say the least of it, 
was highly injudicious, and productive of sad pain and disappointment, 
especially to that sweet young thing, Miss Deane. Mr Stephen Guest had 
certainly not behaved well; but then, young men were liable to those sudden 
infatuated attachments — and bad as it might seem in Mrs Stephen Guest to 
admit the faintest advances from her cousin's lover (indeed it <hi>had</hi>
been said that she was actually engaged to young Wakem — old Wakem himself 
had mentioned it) still she was very young — `and a deformed young man, you 
know! — and young Guest so very fascinating, and, they say, he positively 
worshipped her (to be sure, that can't last!) and he ran away with her in the 
boat quite against her will — and what could she do? She couldn't come back 
then: no one would have spoken to her. And how very well that maize-coloured 
satinette becomes her complexion — it seems as if the folds in front were 
quite come in — several of her dresses are made so — they say, he thinks 
nothing too handsome to buy for her. Poor Miss Deane! She is very pitiable — 
but then, there was no positive engagement — and the air at the coast will do 
her good. After all, if young Guest felt no more for her than <hi>that</hi>, 
it was better for her not to marry him. What a wonderful marriage for a girl 
like Miss Tulliver — quite romantic! Why — young Guest will put up for the 
borough at the next election. Nothing like commerce nowadays! That young 
Wakem nearly went out of his mind — he always <hi>was</hi> rather queer; but 
he's gone abroad again to be out of the way — quite the best thing for a 
deformed young man. Miss Unit declares she will never visit Mr and Mrs 
Stephen Guest — such nonsense! pretending to be better than other people. 
Society couldn't be carried on if we inquired into private conduct in that 
way — and Christianity tells us to think no evil — and my belief is, that 
Miss Unit had no cards sent her.' 


</p>
               <p>But the results, we know, were not of a kind to warrant this extenuation of 
the past. Maggie had returned without a <hi>trousseau</hi>, without a husband 
— in that degraded and outcast condition to which error is well known to 
lead; and the world's wife, with that fine instinct which is given her for 
the preservation of society, saw at once that Miss Tulliver's conduct had 
been of the most aggravated kind. Could anything be more detestable? — A girl 
so much indebted to her friends — whose mother as well as herself had 
received so much kindness from the Deanes — to lay the design of winning a 
young man's affections away from her own cousin who had behaved like a sister 
to her? Winning his affections? That was not the phrase for such a girl as 
Miss Tulliver: it would have been more correct to say that she had been 
actuated by mere unwomanly boldness and unbridled passion. There was always 
something questionable about her. That connection with young Wakem, which, 
they said, had been carried on for years, looked very ill: disgusting, in 
fact! But with a girl of that disposition! — to the world's wife there had 
always been something in Miss Tulliver's very physique that a refined 
instinct felt to be prophetic of harm. As for poor Mr Stephen Guest, he was 
rather pitiable than otherwise: a young man of five and twenty is not to be 
too severely judged in these cases — he is really very much at the mercy of a 
designing bold girl. And it was clear that he had given way in spite of 
himself — he had shaken her off as soon as he could: indeed, their having 
parted so soon looked very black indeed — <hi>for her</hi>. To be sure he had 
written a letter, laying all the blame on himself, and telling the story in a 
romantic fashion so as to try and make her appear quite innocent: of course 
he could do that! But the refined instinct of the world's wife was not to be 
deceived: providentially! — else what would become of society? Why — her own 
brother had turned her from his door — he had seen enough, you might be sure, 
before he would do that. A truly respectable young man — Mr Tom Tulliver — 
quite likely to rise in the world! His sister's disgrace was naturally a 
heavy blow to him. It was to be hoped that she would go out of the 
neighbourhood — to America, or anywhere — so as to purify the air of St Ogg's 
from the taint of her presence — extremely dangerous to daughters there! No 
good could happen to her: — it was only to be hoped she would repent, and 
that God would have mercy on her: He had not the care of society on His hands 
as the world's wife had. 


</p>
               <p>It required nearly a fortnight for fine instinct to assure itself of these 
inspirations; indeed it was a whole week before Stephen's letter came, 
telling his father the facts and adding that: he was gone across to Holland — 
had drawn upon the agent at Mudport for money — was incapable of any 
resolution at present. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie, all this while, was too entirely filled with a more agonising 
anxiety, to spend any thought on the view that was being taken of her conduct 
by the world of St Ogg's: anxiety about Stephen — Lucy — Philip — beat on her 
poor heart in a hard, driving, ceaseless storm of mingled love, remorse, and 
pity. If she had thought of rejection and injustice at all, it would have 
seemed to her that they had done their worst — that she could hardly feel any 
stroke from them intolerable since the words she had heard from her brother's 
lips. Across all her anxiety for the loved and the injured, those words shot 
again and again, like a horrible pang that would have brought misery and 
dread even into a heaven of delights. The idea of ever recovering happiness 
never glimmered in her mind for a moment; it seemed as if every sensitive 
fibre in her were too entirely preoccupied by pain ever to vibrate again to 
another influence. Life stretched before her as one act of penitence, and all 
she craved as she dwelt on her future lot, was something to guarantee her 
from more falling: her own weakness haunted her like a vision of hideous 
possibilities that made no peace conceivable except such as lay in the sense 
of a sure refuge. 


</p>
               <p>But she was not without practical intentions: the love of independence was 
too strong an inheritance and a habit for her not to remember that she must 
get her bread and when other projects looked vague, she fell back on that of 
returning to her plain sewing, and so getting enough to pay for her lodging 
at Bob's. She meant to persuade her mother to return to the Mill by and by, 
and live with Tom again; and somehow or other she would maintain herself at 
St Ogg's. Dr Kenn would perhaps help her and advise her: she remembered his 
parting words at the bazaar, she remembered the momentary feeling of reliance 
that had sprung in her when he was talking with her, and she waited with 
yearning expectation for the opportunity of confiding everything to him. Her 
mother called every day at Mr Deane's to learn how Lucy was: the report was 
always sad — nothing had yet roused her from the feeble passivity which had 
come on with the first shock. But of Philip, Mrs Tulliver had learned 
nothing: naturally, no one whom she met would speak to her about what related 
to her daughter. But at last, she summoned courage to go and see sister 
Glegg, who of course would know everything, and had even been to see Tom at 
the Mill in Mrs Tulliver's absence, though he had said nothing of what had 
passed on the occasion. 


</p>
               <p>As soon as her mother was gone, Maggie put on her bonnet. She had resolved on 
walking to the Rectory and asking to see Dr Kenn: he was in deep grief — but 
the grief of another does not jar upon us in such circumstances. It was the 
first time she had been beyond the door since her return; nevertheless her 
mind was so bent on the purpose of her walk, that the unpleasantness of 
meeting people on the way and being stared at, did not occur to her. But she 
had no sooner passed beyond the narrower streets which she had to thread from 
Bob's dwelling, than she became aware of unusual glances cast at her; and 
this consciousness made her hurry along nervously, afraid to look to right or 
left. Presently, however, she came full on Mrs and Miss Turnbull, old 
acquaintances of her family; they both looked at her strangely and turned a 
little aside without speaking. All hard looks were pain to Maggie, but her 
self-reproach was too strong for resentment: no wonder they will not speak to 
me, she thought — they are very fond of Lucy. But now she knew that she was 
about to pass a group of gentlemen, who were standing at the door of the 
billiard-rooms, and she could not help seeing young Torry step out a little 
with his glass at his eye, and bow to her with that air of nonchalance which 
he might have bestowed on a friendly bar-maid. Maggie's pride was too intense 
for her not to feel that sting even in the midst of her sorrow; and for the 
first time the thought took strong hold of her that she would have other 
obloquy cast on her besides that which was felt to be due to her breach of 
faith towards Lucy. But she was at the Rectory now; there, perhaps, she would 
find something else than retribution. Retribution may come from any voice — 
the hardest, cruelest, most imbruted urchin at the street-corner can inflict 
it: surely help and pity are rarer things — more needful for the righteous to 
bestow. 


</p>
               <p>She was shown up at once, after being announced, into Dr Kenn's study, where 
he sat amongst piled-up books, for which he had little appetite, leaning his 
cheek against the head of his youngest child, a girl of three. The child was 
sent away with the servant and when the door was closed, Dr Kenn said, 
placing a chair for Maggie, 


</p>
               <p>`I was coming to see you, Miss Tulliver — you have anticipated me — I am glad 
you did.' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie looked at him with her childlike directness as she had done at the 
bazaar, and said, `I want to tell you everything. ' But her eyes filled fast 
with tears as she said it, and all the pent-up excitement of her humiliating 
walk would have its vent before she could say more. 


</p>
               <p>`Do tell me everything,' Dr Kenn said, with quiet kindness in his grave firm 
voice. `Think of me as one to whom a long experience has been granted, which 
may enable him to help you.' 


</p>
               <p>In rather broken sentences — with some effort, at first, but soon with the 
greater ease that came from a sense of relief in the confidence, Maggie told 
the brief story of a struggle that must be the beginning of a long sorrow. 
Only the day before, Dr Kenn had been made acquainted with the contents of 
Stephen's letter, and he had believed them at once, without the confirmation 
of Maggie's statement. That involuntary plaint of hers `<hi>O I must 
go</hi>,' had remained with him as the sign that she was undergoing some 
inward conflict. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie dwelt the longest on the feeling which had made her come back to her 
mother and brother, which made her cling to all the memories of the past. 
When she had ended, Dr Kenn was silent for some minutes: there was a 
difficulty on his mind. He rose and walked up and down the hearth with his 
hands behind him. At last, he seated himself again, and said, looking at 
Maggie, 


</p>
               <p>`Your prompting to go to your nearest friends — to remain where all the ties 
of your life have been formed — is a true prompting, to which the Church in 
its original constitution and discipline responds — opening its arms to the 
penitent — watching over its children to the last — never abandoning them 
until they are hopelessly reprobate. And the Church ought to represent the 
feeling of the community, so that every parish should be a family knit 
together by Christian brotherhood under a spiritual father. But the ideas of 
discipline and Christian fraternity are entirely relaxed — they can hardly be 
said to exist in the public mind: they hardly survive except in the partial, 
contradictory form they have taken in the narrow communities of schismatics; 
and if I were not supported by the firm faith that the Church must ultimately 
recover the full force of that constitution which is alone fitted to human 
needs, I should often lose heart at observing the want of fellowship and 
sense of mutual responsibility among my own flock. At present everything 
seems tending towards the relaxation of ties — towards the substitution of 
wayward choice for the adherence to obligation which has its roots in the 
past. Your conscience and your heart have given you true light on this point, 
Miss Tulliver; and I have said all this that you may know what my wish about 
you — what my advice to you — would be if they sprang from my own feeling and 
opinion unmodified by counteracting circumstances.' 


</p>
               <p>Dr Kenn paused a little while. There was an entire absence of effusive 
benevolence in his manner; there was something almost cold in the gravity of 
his look and voice. If Maggie had not known that his benevolence was 
persevering in proportion to its reserve, she might have been chilled and 
frightened. As it was, she listened expectantly, quite sure that there would 
be some effective help in his words. He went on. 


</p>
               <p>`Your inexperience of the world, Miss Tulliver, prevents you from 
anticipating fully, the very unjust conceptions that will probably be formed 
concerning your conduct — conceptions which will have a baneful effect even 
in spite of known evidence to disprove them.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, I do — I begin to see,' said Maggie, unable to repress this utterance of 
her recent pain. `I know I shall be insulted — I shall be thought worse than 
I am.' 


</p>
               <p>`You perhaps do not yet know,' said Dr Kenn, with a touch of more personal 
pity, `that a letter is come which ought to satisfy every one who has known 
anything of you, that you chose the steep and difficult path of a return to 
the right at the moment when that return was most of all difficult.' 


</p>
               <p>`Oh — where is he?' said poor Maggie, with a flush and tremor, that no 
presence could have hindered. 


</p>
               <p>`He is gone abroad; he has written of all that passed to his father. He has 
vindicated you to the utmost; and I hope the communication of that letter to 
your cousin will have a beneficial effect on her.' 


</p>
               <p>Dr Kenn waited for her to get calm again before he went on. 


</p>
               <p>`That letter, as I said, ought to suffice you to prevent false impressions 
concerning you. But I am bound to tell you, Miss Tulliver, that not only the 
experience of my whole life, but my observation within the last three days, 
makes me fear that there is hardly any evidence which will save you from the 
painful effect of false imputations. The persons who are the most incapable 
of a conscientious struggle such as yours, are precisely those who will be 
likely to shrink from you on the ground of an unjust judgment; because they 
will not believe in your struggle. I fear your life here will be attended not 
only with much pain, but with many obstructions. For this reason — and for 
this only — I ask you to consider whether it will not perhaps be better for 
you to take a situation at a distance, according to your former intention. I 
will exert myself at once to obtain one for you.' 


</p>
               <p>`O, if I could but stop here!' said Maggie. `I have no heart to begin a 
strange life again. I should have no stay. I should feel like a lonely 
wanderer — cut off from the past. I have written to the lady who offered me a 
situation to excuse myself. If I remained here, I could perhaps atone in some 
way to Lucy — to others — I could convince them that I'm sorry. And,' she 
added, with some of the old proud fire flashing out, `I will not go away 
because people say false things of me. They shall learn to retract them. If I 
must go away at last, because — because others wish it, I will not go now.' 


</p>
               <p>`Well,' said Dr Kenn, after some consideration, `if you determine on that, 
Miss Tulliver, you may rely on all the influence my position gives me. I am 
bound to aid and countenance you, by the very duties of my office as a parish 
priest. I will add, that personally I have a deep interest in your peace of 
mind and welfare.' 


</p>
               <p>`The only thing I want is some occupation that will enable me to get my bread 
and be independent,' said Maggie. `I shall not want much. I can go on lodging 
where I am.' 


</p>
               <p>`I must think over the subject maturely,' said Dr Kenn, `And in a few days I 
shall be better able to ascertain the general feeling. I shall come to see 
you: I shall bear you constantly in mind.' 


</p>
               <p>When Maggie had left him, Dr Kenn stood ruminating with his hands behind him, 
and his eyes fixed on the carpet, under a painful sense of doubt and 
difficulty. The tone of Stephen's letter, which he had read, and the actual 
relations of all the persons concerned, forced upon him powerfully the idea 
of an ultimate marriage between Stephen and Maggie as the least evil; and the 
impossibility of their proximity in St Ogg's on any other supposition, until 
after years of separation, threw an insurmountable prospective difficulty 
over Maggie's stay here. On the other hand, he entered with all the 
comprehension of a man who had known spiritual conflict and lived through 
years of devoted service to his fellow-men, into that state of Maggie's heart 
and conscience which made this consent to the marriage a desecration to her: 
her conscience must not be tampered with: the principle on which she had 
acted was a safer guide than any balancing of consequences. His experience 
told him that intervention was too dubious a responsibility to be lightly 
incurred: the possible issue either of an endeavour to restore the former 
relations with Lucy and Philip, or of counselling submission to this 
irruption of a new feeling was hidden in a darkness all the more impenetrable 
because each immediate step was clogged with evil. 


</p>
               <p>The great problem of the shifting relation between passion and duty is clear 
to no man who is capable of apprehending it: the question, whether the moment 
has come in which a man has fallen below the possibility of a renunciation 
that will carry any efficacy, and must accept the sway of a passion against 
which he had struggled as a trespass, is one for which we have no master key 
that will fit all cases. The casuists have become a by-word of reproach; but 
their perverted spirit of minute discrimination was the shadow of a truth to 
which eyes and hearts are too often fatally sealed: the truth, that moral 
judgments must remain false and hollow, unless they are checked and 
enlightened by a perpetual reference to the special circumstances that mark 
the individual lot. 


</p>
               <p>All people of broad, strong sense have an instinctive repugnance to the men 
of maxims; because such people early discern that the mysterious complexity 
of our life is not to be embraced by maxims, and that to lace ourselves up in 
formulas of that sort is to repress all the divine promptings and 
inspirations that spring from growing insight and sympathy. And the man of 
maxims is the popular representative of the minds that are guided in their 
moral judgment solely by general rules, thinking that these will lead them to 
justice by a ready-made patent method, without the trouble of exerting 
patience, discrimination, impartiality, without any care to assure themselves 
whether they have the insight that comes from a hardly-earned estimate of 
temptation, or from a life vivid and intense enough to have created a wide 
fellow-feeling with all that is human. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c7.3" type="chapter">
               <head>Showing that Old Acquaintances Are Capable of Surprising Us</head>
               <p>WHEN Maggie was at home again, her mother brought her news of an unexpected 
line of conduct in aunt Glegg. As long as Maggie had not been heard of, Mrs 
Glegg had half closed her shutters and drawn down her blinds: she felt 
assured that Maggie was drowned: that was far more probable than that her 
niece and legatee should have done anything to wound the family honour in the 
tenderest point. When, at last, she learned from Tom that Maggie had come 
home, and gathered from him what was her explanation of her absence, she 
burst forth in severe reproof of Tom for admitting the worst of his sister 
until he was compelled. If you were not to stand by your `kin' as long as 
there was a shred of honour attributable to them, pray what were you to stand 
by? Lightly to admit conduct in one of your own family that would force you 
to alter your will, had never been the way of the Dodsons; and though Mrs 
Glegg had always augured ill of Maggie's future at a time when other people 
were perhaps less clear-sighted, yet fair play was a jewel, and it was not 
for her own friend to help to rob the girl of her fair fame, and to cast her 
out from family shelter to the scorn of the outer world, until she had become 
unequivocally a family disgrace. The circumstances were unprecedented in Mrs 
Glegg's experience — nothing of that kind had happened among the Dodsons 
before; but it was a case in which her hereditary rectitude and personal 
strength of character found a common channel along with her fundamental ideas 
of clanship, as they did in her lifelong regard to equity in money matters. 
She quarrelled with Mr Glegg, whose kindness, flowing entirely into 
compassion for Lucy made him as hard in his judgment of Maggie as Mr Deane 
himself was, and, fuming against her sister Tulliver because she did not at 
once come to her for advice and help, shut herself up in her own room with 
Baxter's Saints' Rest from morning till night, denying herself to all 
visitors, till Mr Glegg brought from Mr Deane the news of Stephen's letter. 
Then Mrs Glegg felt that she had adequate fighting-ground — then she laid 
aside Baxter and was ready to meet all comers. While Mrs Pullet could do 
nothing but shake her head and cry, and wish that cousin Abbot had died or 
any number of funerals had happened rather than this, which had never 
happened before, so that there was no knowing how to act, and Mrs Pullet 
could never enter St Ogg's again, because `acquaintances' knew of it all, Mrs 
Glegg only hoped that Mrs Wooll or any one else would come to her with their 
false tales about her own niece, and she would know what to say to that 
ill-advised person. 


</p>
               <p>Again she had a scene of remonstrance with Tom, all the more severe, in 
proportion to the greater strength of her present position. But Tom, like 
other immovable things, seemed only the more rigidly fixed under that attempt 
to shake him. Poor Tom! he judged by what he had been able to see: and the 
judgment was painful enough to himself. He thought he had the demonstration 
of facts observed through years by his own eyes which gave no warning of 
their imperfection, that Maggie's nature was utterly untrustworthy and too 
strongly marked with evil tendencies to be safely treated with leniency: he 
would act on that demonstration at any cost — but the thought of it made his 
days bitter to him. Tom, like every one of us, was imprisoned within the 
limits of his own nature, and his education had simply glided over him, and 
left a slight deposit of polish. If you are inclined to be severe on his 
severity, remember that the responsibility of tolerance lies with those who 
have the wider vision. There had arisen in Tom a repulsion towards Maggie 
that derived its very intensity from their early childish love in the time 
when they had clasped tiny fingers together, and their later sense of 
nearness in a common duty and a common sorrow: the sight of her, as he had 
told her, was hateful to him. In this branch of the Dodson family aunt Glegg 
found a stronger nature than her own — a nature in which family feeling had 
lost the character of clanship in taking on a doubly deep dye of personal 
pride. Mrs Glegg allowed that Maggie ought to be punished — she was not a 
woman to deny that — she knew what conduct was — but punished in proportion 
to the misdeeds proved against her, not to those which were cast upon her by 
people outside her own family, who might wish to show that their own kin were 
better. 


</p>
               <p>`Your aunt Glegg scolded me so as niver was, my dear,' said poor Mrs 
Tulliver, when she came back to Maggie, `as I didn't go to her before — she 
said it wasn't for her to come to me first. But she spoke like a sister, too: 
<hi>having</hi> she allays was, and hard to please — O dear! — but she's said 
the kindest word as ever been spoke by you yet, my child. For she says, for 
all she's been so set again' having one extry in the house, and making extry 
spoons and things, and putting her about in her ways, you shall have a 
shelter in her house, if you'll go to her dutiful, and she'll uphold you 
again' folks as say harm of you when they've no call. And I told her I 
thought you couldn't bear to see nobody but me — you was so beat down with 
trouble; but she said — ”<hi>I</hi> won't throw ill words at her — 
there's them out o' th' family 'ull be ready enough to do that. But I'll give 
her good advice — an' she must be humble.” It's wonderful o' Jane — for 
I'm sure she used to throw everything I did wrong at me — if it was the 
raisin wine as turned out bad, or the pies too hot — or whativer it was.' 


</p>
               <p>`O mother,' said poor Maggie, shrinking from the thought of all the contact 
her bruised mind would have to bear. `Tell her I'm very grateful — I'll go to 
see her as soon as I can; but I can't see any one just yet, except Dr Kenn. 
I've been to him — he will advise me and help me to get some occupation. I 
can't live with any one, or be dependent on them, tell aunt Glegg; I must get 
my own bread. But did you hear nothing to Philip — Philip Wakem? Have you 
never seen any one that has mentioned him?' 


</p>
               <p>`No, my dear: but I've been to Lucy's, and I saw your uncle, and he says, 
they got her to listen to the letter, and she took notice o' Miss Guest, and 
asked questions, and the doctor thinks she's on the turn to be better. What a 
world this is — what trouble, O dear! The law was the first beginning, an' 
it's gone from bad to worse all of a sudden, just when the luck seemed on the 
turn.' This was the first lamentation that Mrs Tulliver had let slip to 
Maggie, but old habit had been revived by the interview with sister Glegg. 


</p>
               <p>`My poor, poor mother!' Maggie burst out, cut to the heart with pity and 
compunction, and throwing her arms round her mother's neck, `I was always 
naughty and troublesome to you. And now you might have been happy, if it 
hadn't been for me.' 


</p>
               <p>`Eh, my dear,' said Mrs Tulliver, leaning towards the warm young cheek, `I 
must put up wi' my children — I shall never have no more. And if they bring 
me bad luck, I must be fond on it — there's nothing else much to be fond on, 
for my furnitur' went long ago. And you'd got to be very good once — I can't 
think how it's turned out the wrong way so!' 


</p>
               <p>Still two or three more days passed, and Maggie heard nothing of Philip: 
anxiety about him was becoming her predominant trouble, and she summoned 
courage at last to inquire about him of Dr Kenn, on his next visit to her. He 
did not even know if Philip was at home: the elder Wakem was made moody by an 
accumulation of annoyance: the disappointment in this young Jetsome, to whom 
apparently he was a good deal attached, had been followed close by the 
catastrophe to his son's hopes after he had conceded his feelings to them, 
and incautiously mentioned this concession in St Ogg's; and he was almost 
fierce in his brusqueness when any one asked him a question about his son. 
But Philip could hardly have been ill or it would have been known through the 
calling-in of the medical man: it was probable that he was gone out of the 
town for a little while. Maggie sickened under this suspense, and her 
imagination began to live more and more persistently in what Philip was 
enduring. What did he believe about her? 


</p>
               <p>At last, Bob brought her a letter without a postmark — directed in a hand 
which she knew familiarly in the letters of her own name: a hand in which her 
name had been written long ago in a pocket Shakespeare which she possessed. 
Her mother was in the room, and Maggie, in violent agitation, hurried 
upstairs, that she might read the letter in solitude. She read it with a 
throbbing brow. 


</p>
               <p>MAGGIE, — I believe in you — I know you never meant to deceive me 
— I know you tried to keep faith to me, and to all. I believed this before I 
had any other evidence of it than your own nature. The night after I last 
parted from you I suffered torments. I had seen what convinced me that you 
were not free — that there was another whose presence had a power over you 
which mine never possessed; but through all the suggestions — almost 
murderous suggestions — of rage and jealousy, my mind made its way to belief 
in your truthfulness. I was sure that you meant to cleave to me, as you had 
said; that you had rejected him; that you struggled to renounce him, for 
Lucy's sake and for mine. But I could see no issue that was not fatal for 
<hi>you</hi>, and that dread shut out the very thought of resignation. I 
foresaw that he would not relinquish you, and I believed then, as I believe 
now, that the strong attraction which drew you together proceeded only from 
one side of your characters, and belonged to that partial, divided action of 
our nature which makes half the tragedy of the human lot. I have felt the 
vibration of chords in your nature that I have continually felt the want of 
in his. But perhaps I am wrong; perhaps I feel about you as the artist does 
about the scene over which his soul has brooded with love; he would tremble 
to see it confided to other hands — he would never believe that it could bear 
for another all the meaning and the beauty it bears for him. 


</p>
               <p>I dared not trust myself to see you that morning — I was filled with selfish 
passion; I was shattered by a night of conscious delirium. I told you long 
ago that I had never been resigned even to the mediocrity of my powers: how 
could I be resigned to the loss of the one thing which had ever come to me on 
earth with the promise of such deep joy as would give a new and blessed 
meaning to the foregoing pain, — the promise of another self that would lift 
my aching affection into the divine rapture of an ever-springing, 
ever-satisfied want? 


</p>
               <p>But the miseries of that night had prepared me for what came before the next. 
It was no surprise to me. I was certain that he had prevailed on you to 
sacrifice everything to him, and I waited with equal certainty to hear of 
your marriage. I measured your love and his by my own. But I was wrong, 
Maggie. There is something stronger in you than your love for him. 


</p>
               <p>I will not tell you what I went through in that interval. But even in its 
utmost agony — even in those terrible throes that love must suffer before it 
can be disembodied of selfish desire — my love for you sufficed to withhold 
me from suicide, without the aid of any other motive. In the midst of my 
egoism, I yet could not bear to come like a death-shadow across the feast of 
your joy: I could not bear to forsake the world in which you still lived and 
might need me: it was part of the faith I had vowed to you, to wait and 
endure. Maggie, that is a proof of what I write now to assure you of — that 
no anguish I have had to bear on your account has been too heavy a price to 
pay for the new life into which I have entered in loving you. I want you to 
put aside all grief because of the grief you have caused me. I was nurtured 
in the sense of privation: I never expected happiness: and in knowing you, in 
loving you, I have had, and still have, what reconciles me to life. You have 
been to my affections what light, what colour is to my eyes — what music it 
to the inward ear: you have raised a dim unrest into a vivid consciousness. 
The new life I have found in caring for your joy and sorrow more than for 
what is directly my own, has transformed the spirit of rebellious murmuring 
into that willing endurance which is the birth of strong sympathy. I think 
nothing but such complete and intense love could have initiated me into that 
enlarged life which grows and grows by appropriating the life of others; for 
before, I was always dragged back from it by ever-present painful 
self-consciousness. I even think sometimes that this gift of transferred life 
which has come to me in loving you, may be a new power to me. 


</p>
               <p>Then — dear one — in spite of all, you have been the blessing of my life. Let 
no self-reproach weigh on you because of me. It is I, who should rather 
reproach myself for having urged my feelings upon you and hurried you into 
words that you have felt as fetters. You meant to be true to those words; you 
<hi>have</hi> been true: I can measure your sacrifice by what I have known in 
only one half-hour of your presence with me when I dreamed that you might 
love me best. But, Maggie, I have no just claim on you for more than 
affectionate remembrance. 


</p>
               <p>For some time I have shrunk from writing to you, because I have shrunk even 
from the appearance of wishing to thrust myself before you, and so repeating 
my original error. But you will not misconstrue me. I know that we must keep 
apart for a long while; cruel tongues would force us apart, if nothing else 
did. But I shall not go away. The place where you are is one where my mind 
must live, wherever I might travel. And remember that I am unchangeably 
yours: yours — not with selfish wishes — but with a devotion that excludes 
such wishes. 


</p>
               <p>God comfort you, — my loving, large-souled Maggie. If every one else had 
misconceived you — remember that you have never been doubted by him whose 
heart recognised you ten years ago. 


</p>
               <p>Do not believe any one who says I am ill because I am not seen out of doors. 
I have only had nervous headaches — no worse than I have sometimes had them 
before. But the overpowering heat inclines me to be perfectly quiescent in 
the daytime. I am strong enough to obey any word which shall tell me that I 
can serve you by word or deed. 


</p>
               <p>Yours, to the last, 


</p>
               <p>PHILIP WAKEM 


</p>
               <p>As Maggie knelt by the bed sobbing with that letter pressed under her, her 
feelings again and again gathered themselves in a whispered cry — always in 
the same words: 


</p>
               <p>`O God is there any happiness in love that could make me forget 
<hi>their</hi> pain?' 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c7.4" type="chapter">
               <head>Maggie and Lucy</head>
               <p>BY the end of the week Dr Kenn had made up his mind that there was only one 
way in which he could secure Maggie a suitable living at St Ogg's. Even with 
his twenty years' experience as a parish priest, he was aghast at the 
obstinate continuance of imputations against her in the face of evidence. 
Hitherto he had been rather more adored and appealed to than was quite 
agreeable to him; but now, in attempting to open the ears of women to reason 
and their consciences to justice on behalf of Maggie Tulliver, he suddenly 
found himself as powerless as he was aware he would have been if he had 
attempted to influence the shape of bonnets. Dr Kenn could not be 
contradicted: he was listened to in silence; but when he left the room, a 
comparison of opinions among his hearers yielded much the same result as 
before. Miss Tulliver had undeniably acted in a blamable manner: even Dr Kenn 
did not deny that: how then could he think so lightly of her as to put that 
favourable interpretation on everything she had done? Even on the supposition 
that required the utmost stretch of belief — namely, that none of the things 
said about Miss Tulliver were true; still, since they <hi>had</hi> been said 
about her, they had cast an odour around her which must cause her to be 
shrunk from by every woman who had to take care of her own reputation — and 
of society. To have taken Maggie by the hand and said, `I will not believe 
unproved evil of you: my lips shall not utter it; my ears shall be closed 
against it. I, too, am an erring mortal, liable to stumble, apt to come short 
of my most earnest efforts. Your lot has been harder than mine, your 
temptation greater. Let us help each other to stand and walk without more 
falling' — to have done this would have demanded courage, deep pity, 
self-knowledge, generous trust — would have demanded a mind that tasted no 
piquancy in evil-speaking, that felt no self-exaltation in condemning, that 
cheated itself with no large words into the belief that life can have any 
moral end, any high religion, which excludes the striving after perfect 
truth, justice, and love towards the individual men and women who come across 
our own path. The ladies of St Ogg's were not beguiled by any wide 
speculative conceptions; but they had their favourite abstraction, called 
society, which served to make their consciences perfectly easy in doing what 
satisfied their own egoism — thinking and speaking the worst of Maggie 
Tulliver and turning their backs upon her. It was naturally disappointing to 
Dr Kenn, after two years of superfluous incense from his feminine 
parishioners, to find them suddenly maintaining their views in opposition to 
his; but then, they maintained them in opposition to a higher authority, 
which they had venerated longer. That authority had furnished a very explicit 
answer to persons who might inquire where their social duties began, and 
might be inclined to take wide views as to the starting-point. The answer had 
not turned on the ultimate good of society, but on `a certain man' who was 
found in trouble by the wayside. 


</p>
               <p>Not that St Ogg's was empty of women with some tenderness of heart and 
conscience: probably it had as fair a proportion of human goodness in it as 
any other small trading town of that day. But until every good man is brave, 
we must expect to find many good women timid: too timid even to believe in 
the correctness of their own best promptings, when these would place them in 
a minority. And the men at St Ogg's were not all brave, by any means: some of 
them were even fond of scandal — and to an extent that might have given their 
conversation an effeminate character, if it had not been distinguished by 
masculine jokes and by an occasional shrug of the shoulders at the mutual 
hatred of women. It was the general feeling of the masculine mind at St Ogg's 
that women were not to be interfered with in their treatment of each other. 


</p>
               <p>And so, every direction in which Dr Kenn had turned in the hope of procuring 
some kind of recognition and some employment for Maggie, proved a 
disappointment to him. Mrs James Torry could not think of taking Maggie as a 
nursery governess, even temporarily — a young woman about whom `such things 
had been said,' and about whom `gentlemen joked;' and Miss Kirke who had a 
spinal complaint and wanted a reader and companion, felt quite sure that 
Maggie's mind must be of a quality with which she, for her part, could not 
risk <hi>any</hi> contact. Why did not Miss Tulliver accept the shelter 
offered her by her aunt Glegg? — it did not become a girl like her to refuse 
it. Or else, why did she not go out of the neighbourhood, and get a situation 
where she was not known? (It was not apparently of so much importance that 
she should carry her dangerous tendencies into strange families unknown at St 
Ogg's.) She must be very bold and hardened to wish to stay in a parish where 
she was so much stared at and whispered about. 


</p>
               <p>Dr Kenn, having great natural firmness, began, in the presence of this 
opposition, as every firm man would have done, to contract a certain strength 
of determination over and above what would have been called forth by the end 
in view. He himself wanted a daily governess for his younger children; and 
though he had hesitated in the first instance to offer this position to 
Maggie, the resolution to protest with the utmost force of his personal and 
priestly character against her being crushed and driven away by slander, was 
now decisive. Maggie gratefully accepted an employment that gave her high 
duties as well as a support: her days would be filled now, and solitary 
evenings would be a welcome rest. She no longer needed the sacrifice her 
mother made in staying with her, and Mrs Tulliver was persuaded to go back to 
the Mill. 


</p>
               <p>But now it began to be discerned that Dr Kenn, exemplary as he had hitherto 
appeared, had his crotchets, — possibly his weaknesses. The masculine mind of 
St Ogg's smiled pleasantly, and did not wonder that Kenn liked to see a fine 
pair of eyes daily, or that he was inclined to take so lenient a view of the 
past: the feminine mind, regarded at that period as less powerful, took a 
more melancholy view of the case. If Dr Kenn should be beguiled into marrying 
that Miss Tulliver! It was not safe to be too confident even about the best 
of men: an apostle had fallen — and wept bitterly afterwards; and though 
Peter's denial was not a close precedent, his repentance was likely to be. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had not taken her daily walks to the Rectory for more than three 
weeks, before the dreadful possibility of her some time or other becoming the 
Rector's wife had been talked of so often in confidence that ladies were 
beginning to discuss how they should behave to her in that position. For Dr 
Kenn, it had been understood, had sat in the schoolroom half and hour one 
morning when Miss Tulliver was giving her lessons; nay, he had sat there 
every morning: he had once walked home with her — he almost always walked 
home with her — and if not, he went to see her in the evening. What an artful 
creature she was! What a mother for those children! It was enough to make 
poor Mrs Kenn turn in her grave, that they should be put under the care of 
this girl only a few weeks after her death. Would he be so lost to propriety 
as to marry her before the year was out? The masculine mind was sarcastic, 
and thought <hi>not</hi>. 


</p>
               <p>The Miss Guests saw an alleviation to the sorrow of witnessing a folly in 
their rector: at least, their brother would be safe; and their knowledge of 
Stephen's tenacity was a constant ground of alarm to them, lest he should 
come back and marry Maggie. They were not among those who disbelieved their 
brother's letter; but they had no confidence in Maggie's adherence to her 
renunciation of him; they suspected that she had shrunk rather from the 
elopement than from the marriage, and that she lingered in St Ogg's, relying 
on his return to her. They had always thought her disagreeable: they now 
thought her artful and proud; having quite as good grounds for that judgment 
as you and I probably have for many strong opinions of the same kind. 
Formerly they had not altogether delighted in the contemplated match with 
Lucy, but now their dread of a marriage between Stephen and Maggie added its 
momentum to their genuine pity and indignation on behalf of the gentle 
forsaken girl, in making them desire that he should return to her. As soon as 
Lucy was able to leave home she was to seek relief from the oppressive heat 
of this August by going to the coast with the Miss Guests; and it was in 
their plans that Stephen should be induced to join them. On the very first 
hint of gossip concerning Maggie and Dr Kenn, the report was conveyed in Miss 
Guest's letter to her brother. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had frequent tidings through her mother, or aunt Glegg, or Dr Kenn, of 
Lucy's gradual progress towards recovery, and her thoughts tended continually 
towards her uncle Deane's house: she hungered for an interview with Lucy if 
it were only for five minutes — to utter a word of penitence, to be assured 
by Lucy's own eyes and lips that she did not believe in the willing treachery 
of those whom she had loved and trusted. But she knew that, even if her 
uncle's indignation had not closed his house against her, the agitation of 
such an interview would have been forbidden to Lucy. Only to have seen her 
without speaking, would have been some relief; for Maggie was haunted by a 
face cruel in its very gentleness: a face that had been turned on hers with 
glad sweet looks of trust and love from the twilight time of memory: changed 
now to a sad and weary face by a first heart-stroke; and as the days passed 
on, that pale image became more and more distinct — the picture grew and grew 
into more speaking definiteness under the avenging hand of remorse; the soft 
hazel eyes in their look of pain, were bent for ever on Maggie and pierced 
her the more because she could see no anger in them. But Lucy was not yet 
able to go to church, or any place where Maggie could see her; and even the 
hope of that departed, when the news was told her by aunt Glegg, that Lucy 
was really going away in a few days to Scarborough with the Miss Guests, who 
had been heard to say that they expected their brother to meet them there. 


</p>
               <p>Only those who have known what hardest inward conflict is can know what 
Maggie felt as she sat in her loneliness the evening after hearing that news 
from Mrs Glegg — only those who have known what it is to dread their own 
selfish desires as the watching mother would dread the sleeping-potion that 
was to still her own pain. 


</p>
               <p>She sat without candle in the twilight with the window wide open towards the 
river; the sense of oppressive heat adding itself undistinguishably to the 
burthen of her lot. Seated on a chair against the window, with her arm on the 
window-sill, she was looking blankly at the flowing river, swift with the 
advancing tide, — struggling to see still the sweet face in its unreproaching 
sadness, that seemed now from moment to moment to sink away and be hidden 
behind a form that thrust itself between and made darkness. Hearing the door 
open, she thought Mrs Jakin was coming in with her supper, as usual; and with 
that repugnance to trivial speech which comes with languor and wretchedness, 
she shrank from turning round and saying she wanted nothing: good little Mrs 
Jakin would be sure to make some well-meant remarks. But the next moment, 
without her having discerned the sound of a footstep, she felt a light hand 
on her shoulder, and heard a voice close to her saying, `Maggie!' 


</p>
               <p>The face was there — changed, but all the sweeter: the hazel eyes were there, 
with their heart-piercing tenderness. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie!' the soft voice said. `Lucy!' answered a voice with a sharp ring of 
anguish in it. 


</p>
               <p>And Lucy threw her arms round Maggie's neck and leaned he pale cheek against 
the burning brow. 


</p>
               <p>`I stole out,' said Lucy, almost in a whisper, while she sat down close to 
Maggie and held her hand, `when papa and the rest were away. Alice is come 
with me. I asked her to help me. But I must only stay a little while, because 
it is so late.' 


</p>
               <p>I was easier to say that at first than to say anything else. They sat looking 
at each other. It seemed as if the interview must end without more speech, 
for speech was very difficult. Each felt that there would be something 
scorching in the words that would recall the irretrievable wrong. But soon, 
as Maggie looked, every distinct thought began to be overflowed by a wave of 
loving penitence and words burst forth with a sob. 


</p>
               <p>`God bless you for coming, Lucy.' 


</p>
               <p>The sobs came thick on each other after that. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie, dear, be comforted,' said Lucy now, putting her cheek against 
Maggie's again. `Don't grieve.' And she sat still, hoping to soothe Maggie 
with that gentle caress. 


</p>
               <p>`I didn't mean to deceive you, Lucy,' said Maggie, as soon as she could 
speak. `It always made me wretched that I felt what I didn't like you to 
know... It was because I thought it would all be conquered, and you might 
never see anything to wound you.' 


</p>
               <p>`I know, dear,' said Lucy. `I know you never meant to make me unhappy... It 
is a trouble that has come on us all: — you have more to bear than I have — 
and you gave him up, when — You did what it must have been very hard to do.' 


</p>
               <p>They were silent again a little while, sitting with clasped hands, and cheeks 
leaned together. 


</p>
               <p>`Lucy,' Maggie begain again, `<hi>he</hi> struggled too. He wanted to be true 
to you. He will come back to you. Forgive him — he will be happy then... ' 


</p>
               <p>These words were wrung forth from Maggie's deepest soul with an effort like 
the convulsed clutch of a drowning man. Lucy trembled and was silent. 


</p>
               <p>A gentle knock came at the door. It was Alice, the maid, who entered and 
said, 


</p>
               <p>`I daredn't stay any longer, Miss Deane. They'll find it out, and there'll be 
such anger at your coming out so late.' 


</p>
               <p>Lucy rose and said, `Very well, Alice — in a minute.' 


</p>
               <p>`I'm to go away on Friday, Maggie,' she added, when Alice had closed the door 
again. `When I come back and am strong, they will let me do as I like. I 
shall come to you when I please then.' 


</p>
               <p>`Lucy,' said Maggie, with another great effort, `I pray to God continually 
that I may never be the cause of sorrow to you any more.' 


</p>
               <p>She pressed the little hand that she held between hers and looked up into the 
face that was bent over hers. Lucy never forgot that look. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie,' she said in a low voice, that had the solemnity of confession in 
it, `you are better than I am. I can't... ' 


</p>
               <p>She broke off there, and said no more. But they clasped each other again in a 
last embrace. 

</p>
            </div>
            <div xml:id="c7.5" type="chapter">
               <head>The Last Conflict</head>
               <p>IN the second week of September, Maggie was again sitting in her lonely room, 
battling with the old shadowy enemies that were for ever slain and rising 
again. It was past midnight, and the rain was beating heavily against the 
window, driven with fitful force by the rushing, loud-moaning wind. For, the 
day after Lucy's visit there had been a sudden change in the weather: the 
heat and drought had given way to cold variable winds, and heavy falls of 
rain at intervals; and she had been forbidden to risk the contemplated 
journey until the weather should become more settled. In the counties higher 
up the Floss, the rains had been continuous, and the completion of the 
harvest had been arrested. And now, for the last two days, the rains on this 
lower course of the river had been incessant, so that the old men had shaken 
their heads and talked of sixty years ago, when the same sort of weather 
happening about the equinox, brought on the great floods, which swept the 
bridge away, and reduced the town to great misery. But the younger 
generation, who had seen several small floods, thought lightly of these 
sombre recollections and forebodings, and Bob Jakin, naturally prone to take 
a hopeful view of his own luck, laughed at his mother when she regretted 
their having taken a house by the river-side; observing that but for that 
they would have had no boats, which were the most lucky of possessions in 
case of a flood that obliged them to go to a distance for food. 


</p>
               <p>But the careless and the fearful were alike sleeping in their beds now. There 
was hope that the rain would abate, by the morrow; threatenings of a worse 
kind from sudden thaws after falls of snow, had often passed off in the 
experience of the younger ones; and at the very worst, the banks would be 
sure to break lower down the river when the tide came in with violence and so 
the waters would be carried off, without causing more than temporary 
inconvenience, and losses that would be felt only by the poorer sort, whom 
charity would relieve. 


</p>
               <p>All were in their beds now, for it was past midnight: all except some 
solitary watchers such as Maggie. She was seated in her little parlour 
towards the river with one candle, that left everything dim in the room, 
except a letter which lay before her on the table. That letter, which had 
come to her today, was one of the causes that had kept her up far on into the 
night — unconscious how the hours were going — careless of seeking rest — 
with no image of rest coming across her mind, except of that far, far off 
rest, from which there would be no more waking for her into this struggling 
earthly life. 


</p>
               <p>Two days before Maggie received that letter she had been to the Rectory for 
the last time. The heavy rain would have prevented her from going since; but 
there was another reason. Dr Kenn, at first enlightened only by a few hints 
as to the new turn which gossip and slander had taken in relation to Maggie, 
had recently been made more fully aware of it by an earnest remonstrance from 
one of his male parishioners against the indiscretion of persisting in the 
attempt to overcome the prevalent feeling in the parish by a course of 
resistance. Dr Kenn, having a conscience void of offence in the matter, was 
still inclined to persevere — was still averse to give way before a public 
sentiment that was odious and contemptible; but he was finally wrought upon 
by the consideration of the peculiar responsibility attached to his office, 
of avoiding the appearance of evil — and that `appearance' is always 
dependent on the average quality of surrounding minds. Where these minds are 
low and gross, the area of that `appearance' is proportionately widened. 
Perhaps he was in danger of acting from obstinacy; perhaps it was his duty to 
succumb: conscientious people are apt to see their duty in that which is the 
most painful course; and to recede was always painful to Dr Kenn. He made up 
his mind that he must advise Maggie to go away from St Ogg's for a time; and 
he performed that difficult task with as much delicacy as he could, only 
stating in vague terms that he found his attempt to countenance her stay was 
a source of discord between himself and his parishioners, that was likely to 
obstruct his usefulness as a clergyman. He begged her to allow him to write 
to a clerical friend of his, who might possibly take her into his own family, 
as governess; and, if not, would probably know of some other available 
position for a young woman in whose welfare Dr Kenn felt a strong interest. 


</p>
               <p>Poor Maggie listened with a trembling lip: she could say nothing but a faint 
`thank you — I shall be grateful;' and she walked back to her lodgings, 
through the driving rain, with a new sense of desolation. She must be a 
lonely wanderer; she must go out among fresh faces, that would look at her 
wonderingly, because the days did not seem joyful to her; she must begin a 
new life, in which she would have to rouse herself to receive new impressions 
— and she was so unspeakably, sickeningly weary! There was no home, no help 
for the erring — even those who pitied, were constrained to hardness. But 
ought she to complain? Ought she to shrink in this way from the long penance 
of life, which was all the possibility she had of lightening the load to some 
other sufferers, and so changing that passionate error into a new force of 
unselfish human love? All the next day she sat in her lonely room with a 
window darkened by the cloud and the driving rain, thinking of that future 
and wrestling for patience: — for what repose could poor Maggie ever win 
except by wrestling? 


</p>
               <p>And on the third day — this day of which she had just sat out the close — the 
letter had come which was lying on the table before her. 


</p>
               <p>The letter was from Stephen. He was come back from Holland: he was at Mudport 
again, unknown to any of his friends; and had written to her from that place, 
enclosing the letter to a person whom he trusted in St Ogg's. From beginning 
to end, it was a passionate cry of reproach: an appeal against her useless 
sacrifice of him — of herself: against that perverted notion of right which 
led her to crush all his hopes, for the sake of a mere idea, and not any 
substantial good — <hi>his</hi> hopes, whom she loved, and who loved her with 
that single overpowering passion, that worship, which a man never gives to a 
woman more than once in his life. 


</p>
               <p>`They have written to me that you are to marry Kenn. As if I should believe 
that! Perhaps they have told you some such fables about me. Perhaps they tell 
you I have been ”travelling.” My body has been dragged about 
somewhere; but <hi>I</hi> have never travelled from the hideous place where 
you left me — where I started up from the stupor of helpless rage to find you 
gone. 


</p>
               <p>`Maggie! whose pain can have been like mine? Whose injury is like mine? Who 
besides me has met that long look of love that has burnt itself into my soul, 
so that no other image can come there? Maggie, call me back to you! — call me 
back to life and goodness! I am banished from both now. I have no motives: I 
am indifferent to everything. Two months have only deepened the certainty 
that I can never care for life without you. Write me one word — say, 
”Come!” In two days I should be with you. Maggie — have you 
forgotten what it was to be together? — to be within reach of a look — to be 
within hearing of each other's voice?' 


</p>
               <p>When Maggie first read this letter she felt as if her real temptation had 
only just begun. At the entrance of the chill dark cavern, we turn with 
unworn courage from the warm light: but how, when we have trodden far in the 
damp darkness, and have begun to be faint and weary — how, if there is a 
sudden opening above us, and we are invited back again to the life-nourishing 
day? The leap of natural longing from under the pressure of pain is so strong 
that all less immediate motives are likely to be forgotten — till the pain 
has been escaped from. 


</p>
               <p>For hours Maggie felt as if her struggle had been in vain. For hours every 
other thought that she strove to summon was thrust aside by the image of 
Stephen waiting for the single word that would bring him to her. She did not 
<hi>read</hi> the letter: she heard him uttering it, and the voice shook her 
with its old strange power. All the day before she had been filled with the 
vision of a lonely future through which she must carry the burthen of regret, 
upheld only by clinging faith. And here — close within here reach — urging 
itself upon her even as a claim — was another future, in which hard endurance 
and effort were to be exchanged for easy delicious leaning on another's 
loving strength! And yet that promise of joy in the place of sadness did not 
make the dire force of the temptation to Maggie. It was Stephen's tone of 
misery, — it was the doubt in the justice of her own resolve, that made the 
balance tremble, and made her once start from her seat to reach the pen and 
paper, and write `Come!' 


</p>
               <p>But close upon that decisive act, her mind recoiled; and the sense of 
contradiction with her past self in her moments of strength and clearness, 
came upon her like a pang of conscious degradation. No — she must wait — she 
must pray — the light that had forsaken her would come again: she should feel 
again what she had felt, when she had fled away, under an inspiration strong 
enough to conquer agony — to conquer love: she should feel again what she had 
felt when Lucy stood by her, when Philip's letter had stirred all the fibres 
that bound her to the calmer past. 


</p>
               <p>She sat quite still, far on into the night: with no impulse to change her 
attitude, without active force enough even for the mental act of prayer: only 
waiting for the light that would surely come again. 


</p>
               <p>It came with the memories that no passion could long quench: the long past 
came back to her and with it the fountains of self-renouncing pity and 
affection, of faithfulness and resolve. The words that were marked by the 
quiet hand in the little old book that she had long ago learned by heart, 
rushed even to her lips, and found a vent for themselves in a low murmur that 
was quite lost in the loud driving of the rain against the window and the 
loud moan and roar of the wind: `I have received the Cross, I have received 
it from thy hand; I will bear it, and bear it till death, as thou hast laid 
it upon me.' 


</p>
               <p>But soon other words rose that could find no utterance but in a sob: `Forgive 
me, Stephen! It will pass away. You will come back to her.' 


</p>
               <p>She took up the letter, held it to the candle, and let it burn slowly on the 
hearth. To-morrow she would write to him the last word of parting. 


</p>
               <p>`I will bear it, and bear it till death... But how long it will be before 
death comes! I am so young, so healthy. How shall I have patience and 
strength? O God, am I to struggle and fall and repent again? — has life other 
trials as hard for me still?' With that cry of self-despair, Maggie fell on 
her knees against the table, and buried her sorrow-stricken face. Her soul 
went out to the Unseen Pity that would be with her to the end. Surely there 
was something being taught her by this experience of great need; and she must 
be learning a secret of human tenderness and long-suffering, that the less 
erring could hardly know? `O God, if my life is to be long, let me live to 
bless and comfort—' 


</p>
               <p>At that moment Maggie felt a startling sensation of sudden cold about her 
knees and feet: it was water flowing under her. She started up — the stream 
was flowing under the door that led into the passage. She was not bewildered 
for an instant — she knew it was the flood! 


</p>
               <p>The tumult of emotion she had been enduring for the last twelve hours seemed 
to have left a great calm in her: without screaming, she hurried with the 
candle upstairs to Bob Jakin's bedroom. The door was ajar — she went in and 
shook him by the shoulder. 


</p>
               <p>`Bob, the Flood is come! it is in the house! let us see if we can make the 
boats safe.' 


</p>
               <p>She lighted his candle, while the poor wife, snatching up her baby, burst 
into screams; and then she hurried down again to see if the waters were 
rising fast. There was a step down into the room at the door leading from the 
staircase: she saw that the water was already on a level with the step. While 
she was looking, something came with a tremendous crash against the window, 
and sent the leaded panes and the old wooden framework inwards in shivers, — 
the water pouring in after it. 


</p>
               <p>`It is the boat!' cried Maggie. `Bob, come down to get the boats!' 


</p>
               <p>And without a moment's shudder of fear, she plunged through the water, which 
was rising fast to her knees, and by the glimmering light of the candle she 
had left on the stairs, she mounted on to the window-sill, and crept into the 
boat, which was left with the prow lodging and protruding through the window. 
Bob was not long after her, hurrying without shoes or stockings, but with the 
lanthorn in his hand. 


</p>
               <p>`Why, they're both here — both the boats,' said Bob, as he got into the one 
where Maggie was. `It's wonderful this fastening isn't broke too, as well as 
the mooring.' 


</p>
               <p>In the excitement of getting into the other boat, unfastening it and 
mastering an oar, Bob was not struck with the danger Maggie incurred. We are 
not apt to fear for the fearless, when we are companions in their danger, and 
Bob's mind was absorbed in possible expedients for the safety of the helpless 
in-doors. The fact that Maggie had been up, had waked him, and had taken the 
lead in activity, gave Bob a vague impression of her as one who would help to 
protect, not need to be protected. She too had got possession of an oar, and 
had pushed off, so as to release the boat from the overhanging window-frame. 


</p>
               <p>`The water's rising so fast,' said Bob, `I doubt it'll be in at the chambers 
before long — th' house is so low. I've more mind to get Prissy and the child 
and the mother into the boat, if I could and trusten to the water — for th' 
old house is none so safe. And if I let go the boat — but <hi>you</hi>,' he 
exclaimed, suddenly lifting the light of his lanthorn on Maggie, as she stood 
in the rain with the oar in her hand and her black hair streaming. 


</p>
               <p>Maggie had no time to answer, for a new tidal current swept along the line of 
the houses, and drove both the boats out on to the wide water, with a force 
that carried them far past the meeting current of the river. 


</p>
               <p>In the first moments Maggie felt nothing, thought of nothing, but that she 
had suddenly passed away from that life which she had been dreading: it was 
the transition of death, without its agony — and she was alone in the 
darkness with God. 


</p>
               <p>The whole thing had been so rapid — so dreamlike — that the threads of 
ordinary association were broken: she sank down on the seat clutching the oar 
mechanically, and for a long while had no distinct conception of her 
position. The first thing that waked her to fuller consciousness, was the 
cessation of the rain, and a perception that the darkness was divided by the 
faintest light, which parted the overhanging gloom from the immeasurable 
watery level below. She was driven out upon the flood: — that awful 
visitation of God which her father used to talk of — which had made the 
nightmare of her childish dreams. And with that thought there rushed in the 
vision of the old home — and Tom — and her mother — they had all listened 
together. 


</p>
               <p>`O God, where am I? Which is the way home?' she cried out, in the dim 
loneliness. 


</p>
               <p>What was happening to them at the Mill? The flood had once nearly destroyed 
it. They might be in danger — in distress: her mother and her brother, alone 
there, beyond reach of help! Her whole soul was strained now on that thought; 
and she saw the long-loved faces looking for help into the darkness, and 
finding none. 


</p>
               <p>She was floating in smooth water now — perhaps far on the over-flooded 
fields. There was no sense of present danger to check the outgoing of her 
mind to the old home; and she strained her eyes against the curtain of gloom 
that she might seize the first sight of her whereabout — that she might catch 
some faint suggestion of the spot towards which all her anxieties tended. 


</p>
               <p>O how welcome, the widening of that dismal watery level — the gradual 
uplifting of the cloudy firmament — the slowly defining blackness of objects 
above the glassy dark! Yes — she must be out on the fields — those were the 
tops of hedgerow trees. Which way did the river lie? Looking behind her, she 
saw the lines of black trees: looking before her there were none: then, the 
river lay before her. She seized an oar and began to paddle the boat forward 
with the energy of wakening hope: the dawning seemed to advance more swiftly, 
now she was in action; and she could soon see the poor dumb beasts crowding 
piteously on a mound where they had taken refuge. Onward she paddled and 
rowed by turns in the growing twilight: her wet clothes clung round her, and 
her streaming hair was dashed about by the wind, but she was hardly conscious 
of any bodily sensations — except a sensation of strength, inspired by mighty 
emotion. Along with the sense of danger and possible rescue for those 
long-remembered beings at the old home, there was an undefined sense of 
reconcilement with her brother: what quarrel, what harshness, what unbelief 
in each other can subsist in the presence of a great calamity when all the 
artificial vesture of our life is gone, and we are all one with each other in 
primitive mortal needs? Vaguely, Maggie felt this; — in the strong resurgent 
love towards her brother that swept away all the later impressions of hard, 
cruel offence and misunderstanding, and left only the deep, underlying, 
unshakable memories of early union. 


</p>
               <p>But now there was a large dark mass in the distance, and near to her Maggie 
could discern the current of the river. The dark mass must be — yes, it was — 
St Ogg's. Ah, now she knew which way to look for the first glimpse of the 
well-known trees — the grey willows, the now yellowing chestnuts — and above 
them the old roof; but there was no colour, no shape yet: all was faint and 
dim. More and more strongly the energies seemed to come and put themselves 
forth, as if her life were a stored-up force that was being spent in this 
hour, unneeded for any future. 


</p>
               <p>She must get her boat into the current of the Floss — else she would never be 
able to pass the Ripple, and approach the house: this was the thought that 
occurred to her, as she imagined with more and more vividness the state of 
things round the old home. But then she might be carried very far down, and 
be unable to guide her boat out of the current again. For the first time 
distinct ideas of danger began to press upon her; but there was no choice of 
courses, no room for hesitation, and she floated into the current. Swiftly 
she went now, without effort; more and more clearly in the lessening distance 
and the growing light, she began to discern the objects that she knew must be 
the well-known trees and roofs: nay, she was not far off a rushing muddy 
current that must be the strangely altered Ripple. 


</p>
               <p>Great God! there were floating masses in it, that might dash against her boat 
as she passed, and cause her to perish too soon. What were those masses?— 


</p>
               <p>For the first time Maggie's heart began to beat in an agony of dread. She sat 
helpless — dimly conscious that she was being floated along — more intensely 
conscious of the anticipated clash. But the horror was transient: it passed 
away before the oncoming warehouses of St Ogg's: she had passed the mouth of 
the Ripple, then: <hi>now</hi>, she must use all her skill and power to 
manage the boat and get it if possible, out of the current. She could see now 
that the bridge was broken down: she could see the masts of a stranded vessel 
far out over the watery field. But no boats were to be seen moving on the 
river — such as had been laid hands on must be employed in the flooded 
streets. 


</p>
               <p>With new resolution, Maggie seized her oar, and stood up again to paddle: but 
the now ebbing tide added to the swiftness of the river, and she was carried 
along beyond the bridge. She could hear shouts from the windows overlooking 
the river, as if the people there were calling to her. It was not till she 
had passed on nearly to Tofton that she could get the boat clear of the 
current. Then with one yearning look towards her uncle Deane's house that lay 
farther down the river, she took to both her oars and rowed with all her 
might across the watery fields, back towards the Mill. Colour was beginning 
to awake now, and as she approached the Dorlcote fields, she could discern 
the tints of the trees — could see the old Scotch firs far to the right, and 
the home chestnuts — Oh! how deep they lay in the water: deeper than the 
trees on this side the hill. And the roof of the Mill — where was it? Those 
heavy fragments hurrying down the Ripple — what had they meant? But it was 
not the house — the house stood firm: drowned up to the first story, but 
still firm — or was it broken in at the end towards the Mill? 


</p>
               <p>With panting joy that she was there at last — joy that overcame all distress, 
Maggie neared the front of the house. At first she heard no sound: she saw no 
object moving. Her boat was on a level with the upstairs windows. She called 
out in a loud piercing voice, 


</p>
               <p>`Tom, where are you? Mother, where are you? Here is Maggie!' 


</p>
               <p>Soon, from the window of the attic in the central gable, she heard Tom's 
voice: 


</p>
               <p>`Who is it? Have you brought a boat?' 


</p>
               <p>`It is I, Tom — Maggie. Where is mother?' 


</p>
               <p>`She is not here: she went to Garum, the day before yesterday. I'll come down 
to the lower window.' 


</p>
               <p>`Alone, Maggie?' said Tom, in a voice of deep astonishment, as he opened the 
middle window on a level with the boat. 


</p>
               <p>`Yes, Tom: God has taken care of me, to bring me to you. Get in quickly. Is 
there no one else?' 


</p>
               <p>`No,' said Tom, stepping into the boat, `I fear the man is drowned — he was 
carried down the Ripple, I think, when part of the mill fell with the crash 
of trees and stones against it: I've shouted again and again, and there has 
been no answer. Give me the oars, Maggie.' 


</p>
               <p>It was not till Tom had pushed off and they were on the wide water — he face 
to face with Maggie — that the full meaning of what had happened rushed upon 
his mind. It came with so overpowering a force — such an entirely new 
revelation to his spirit, of the depths in life, that had lain beyond his 
vision which he had fancied so keen and clear, that he was unable to ask a 
question. They sat mutely gazing at each other: Maggie with eyes of intense 
life looking out from a weary, beaten face — Tom pale with a certain awe and 
humiliation. Thought was busy though the lips were silent: and though he 
could ask no question, he guessed a story of almost miraculous 
divinely-protected effort. But at last a mist gathered over the blue-grey 
eyes, and the lips found a word they could utter: the old childish — 
`Magsie!' 


</p>
               <p>Maggie could make no answer but a long deep sob of that mysterious wondrous 
happiness that is one with pain. 


</p>
               <p>As soon as she could speak, she said, `We will go to Lucy, Tom: we'll go and 
see if she is safe, and then we can help the rest.' 


</p>
               <p>Tom rowed with untired vigour, and with a different speed from poor Maggie's. 
The boat was soon in the current of the river again, and soon they would be 
at Tofton. 


</p>
               <p>`Park House stands high up out of the flood,' said Maggie, `Perhaps they have 
got Lucy there.' 


</p>
               <p>Nothing else was said; a new danger was being carried towards them by the 
river. Some wooden machinery had just given way on one of the wharves, and 
huge fragments were being floated along. The sun was rising now, and the wide 
area of watery desolation was spread out in dreadful clearness around them — 
in dreadful clearness floated onwards the hurrying, threatening masses. A 
large company in a boat that was working its way along under the Tofton 
houses, observed their danger, and shouted, `Get out of the current!' 


</p>
               <p>But that could not be done at once, and Tom, looking before him, saw Death 
rushing on them. Huge fragments, clinging together in fatal fellowship, made 
one wide mass across the stream. 


</p>
               <p>`It is coming, Maggie!' Tom said, in a deep hoarse voice, loosing the oars, 
and clasping her. 


</p>
               <p>The next instant the boat was no longer seen upon the water — and the huge 
mass was hurrying on in hideous triumph. 


</p>
               <p>But soon the keel of the boat reappeared, a black speck on the golden water. 


</p>
               <p>The boat reappeared — but brother and sister had gone down in an embrace 
never to be parted — living through again in one supreme moment, the days 
when they had clasped their little hands in love, and roamed the daisied 
fields together. 

</p>
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               <head>Conclusion</head>
               <p>NATURE repairs her ravages — repairs them with her sunshine, and with human 
labour. The desolation wrought by that flood, had left little visible trace 
on the face of the earth, five years after. The fifth autumn was rich in 
golden corn-stacks, rising in thick clusters among the distant hedgerows; the 
wharves and warehouses on the Floss were busy again, with echoes of eager 
voices, with hopeful lading and unlading. 


</p>
               <p>And every man and woman mentioned in this history was still living — except 
those whose end we know. 


</p>
               <p>Nature repairs her ravages — but not all. The uptorn trees are not rooted 
again — the parted hills are left scarred: if there is a new growth, the 
trees are not the same as the old, and the hills underneath their green 
vesture bear the marks of the past rending. To the eyes that have dwelt on 
the past, there is no thorough repair. 


</p>
               <p>Dorlcote Mill was rebuilt. And Dorlcote churchyard, — where the brick grave 
that held a father whom we know, was found with the stone laid prostrate upon 
it after the flood, — had recovered all its grassy order and decent quiet. 


</p>
               <p>Near that brick grave there was a tomb erected very soon after the flood, for 
two bodies that were found in close embrace: and it was often visited at 
different moments by two men who both felt that their keenest joy and keenest 
sorrow were for ever buried there. 


</p>
               <p>One of them visited the tomb again with a sweet face beside him — but that 
was years after. 


</p>
               <p>The other was always solitary. His great companionship was among the trees of 
the Red Deeps, where the buried joy seemed still to hover — like a revisiting 
spirit. 


</p>
               <p>The tomb bore the names of Tom and Maggie Tulliver, and below the names it 
was written— 


</p>
               <p>`In their death they were not divided.' 

</p>
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